#ideally my dream house would have lots of plants. but i can not keep pants alive for the life of me

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decorating pt 2; living room

[luckycloud808]

weird asks that say a lot from @julietgiulia​

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans? Coffee mugs

2. chocolate bars or lollipops? Chocolate 

3. bubblegum or cotton candy? Neither

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you? Shy, conscientious, perfectionist

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups? Glasses

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? All contributors

7. earbuds or headphones? Earbuddies :)

8. movies or tv shows? Movies

9. favourite smell in the summer? Hot soil, flowering plants, fruit and needle trees, post rain, towel after ocean swim, wind through car window driving through forest(ed highway)

10. game you were best at in p.e.? Hockey, soccer, california kickball, high jump and arm hang? 

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day? Usually oatmeal or millet with omegas, fruit and oat milk or avocado bagel with black pepper and nutritional yeast

12. name of your favourite playlist? A nice mix for ness

13. lanyard or key ring? Key ring

14. favourite non-chocolate candy? Licorice, candied fennel or anise seeds

15. favourite book you read as a school assignment? Les miserables, The thief lord, The cellist of Sarajevo - off the top

16. most comfortable position to sit in? Slumpy posture, one leg over or under the other, knee tuck or apple sauce

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes? Hiking boots or black sambas

18. ideal weather? Sunny after rain a little windy

19. sleeping position? No pillow usually on my left or on my back or front with one leg bent 

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? Notebook or notes app

21. obsession from childhood? Fairies and making homes

22. role model? Opa

23. strange habits? Not sure what qualifies as strange

24. favourite crystal? Not really into them but maybe jade or quartz 

25. first song you remember hearing? I turned out a punk or something by Joe Strummer

26. favourite activity to do in warm weather? Backpacking

27. favourite activity to do in cold weather? Cuddling, snowy adventuring, dancing

28. five songs to describe you? Hazel (bob dylan), Planted a thought (arthur russell), Junie (solange), Corridor of dreams (the cleaners from venus), Even cowgirls get the blues (emmylou harris)

29. best way to bond with you? Quality time, presence, care, spontaneity / silly curiousity

30. places that you find sacred? Oma and Opa’s yard and greenhouse, forest, Veluwe, ocean

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names? Floral dress, nice earrings with sambas and sweatshirt or hiking boots, wool socks and over shirt, with shorts and tank top

32. top five favourite vines? Fresh avocado is the only one that comes to mind

33. most used phrase in your phone? Yay sweet and or That’s funny

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head? Can’t think of any

35. average time you fall asleep? 2am

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing? Probably one of those justgirlythings ones here or Fb I have no idea

37. suitcase or duffel bag? Suitcase

38. lemonade or tea? Tea

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie? Lemon tart

40. weirdest thing to ever happen to you at your school? High school - Maybe bear spray yoe evac? authority figure telling me what I was wearing was inappropriate? psych teacher crying in class? Post sec - Tiktok famous boy makes a tiktok of me knitting in psych class? boy crushing steals my textbook just to get me to go to his car so he can return it to me? 

41. last person you texted? Daisy 🌼

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets? BOTH

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket? Hoodie

44. favourite scent for soap? Rose, patchouli, rosemary, lavendar, mint, etc.

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero? Fantasy

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in? Naked 

47. favourite type of cheese? Cashew cheese or if I could brie

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? White nectarine but there are so many to try!

49. what saying or quote do you live by? “She walked with her entire body as if to gain momentum for an event in which her entire body would participate.” - Anaïs Nin (A spy in the house of love)

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have? Probably my kid best friend

51. current stresses? Health issues, unstable income

52. favorite font? Freight rn

53. what is the current state of your hands? Coffee shakes

54. what did you learn from your first job? Hundreds of PLU’s, how to pack groceries, how messy and wasteful people are, that everyone should have to do a customer service job in their lifetime, how really great and awful people are, that I shouldn’t let other people’s stresses make me feel like I should be stressed, that quitting is good sometimes

55. favourite fairy tale? The six swans, Vasalisa the wise, Baba yaga, Bluebeard, Rumpelstiltskin, The red shoes, The velvet ribbon, Goldilocks and the three bears, and many many more

56. favourite tradition? Writing letters and cards, dressing up for halloween, celebrating birthdays

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome? Eating disorder, depression and heartbreak (although these are things I still need to keep being overcome)

58. four talents you’re proud of having? Writing, taking notes, learning about my body, feeling for what resonates

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be? Heyo, how bout that!

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? Nausicaä of the valley of the wind (hayao miyazaki)

61. favourite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.? Recently found on my Tumblr feed from a book waiting on my shelf: “I want to believe, walking those aimless nights, that I was praying. For what I’m still not sure. But I always felt it was just ahead of me. That if I walked far enough, long enough, I would find it–perhaps even hold it up, like a tongue at the end of its word.” - Ocean Vuong (On earth we’re briefly gorgeous)

62. seven characters you relate to? In no particular order, not long thought out: 1) Sabina (A spy in the house of love), 2) Elio (Call me by your name), 3) Patti (Just kids), 4) Sally (The ruby in the smoke), 5) Camille (Un amour de jeunesse), 6) Dani (Midsommar), 7) Orla (Derry Girls)

63. five songs that would play in your club? I follow rivers - the magician remix (lykke li), JA! (bizzey), Gasolina (daddy yankee), Nice for what (drake), This must be the place - naive melody (talking heads) / love my way (psychedelic furs)

64. favourite website from your childhood? Myscene, Club penguin - those free gaming websites 

65. any permanent scars? A few on my face from tables and my dog, one on my knee from flip flops on a boat launch, a few burns here and there that probably aren’t permanent

66. favourite flower(s)? Always changing, echinacea and yellow roses rn

67. good luck charms? Change on the ground, nice earrings, well worn shoes, spotting flowers or animals

68. worst flavour of any food or drink you’ve ever tried? Cream of mushroom

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned? Popped in my head, maybe not the most fun - the flower bud in the centres of apple tree fruiting spurs make the king fruit (the biggest and best apple from each spur) and if you pick the king blossom then all the surrounding blossoms will be bigger and better 

70. left or right handed? Right

71. least favourite pattern? Galaxy?

72. worst subject? Economics

73. favourite weird flavour combo? Miso and apple, blueberries and coconut curry, orange juice and beer (I don't know if its really possible to find a “weird” combo maybe it’s more like “not found in my culture”)

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen? 5 if 0 is no pain (I don't think I’ve been above 8.5)

75. when did you lose your first tooth? No idea

76. what’s your favourite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)? Gnocchi or boerenkool

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill? Flowering plants

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store? Station coffee

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo? School id

80. earth tones or jewel tones? Earth

81. fireflies or lightning bugs? I don't think I have much experience with either

82. pc or console? I cannot either way

83. writing or drawing? This is my kryptonite question

84. podcasts or talk radio? Podcasts if I had to choose

84. barbie or polly pocket? Polly pocket

85. fairy tales or mythology? Mythology (stories are linked more)

86. cookies or cupcakes? Cookies

87. your greatest fear? My health issues keep accumulating and getting worse forever

88. your greatest wish? My health issues resolve

89. who would you put before everyone else? Myself, Suzmom or Marleymoon

90. luckiest mistake? Choosing mini school, don't regret it but maybe not the best decision

91. boxes or bags? Bags

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights? Sunlight and rocksalt lamps

93. nicknames? Ness, nessie, nessa, bean, bear, benjamin, kindje, sweet pea

94. favourite season? Late spring or late summer

95. favourite app on your phone? Flo, Spotify, Google maps, notes, weather, find my

96. desktop background? Santa Catalina Island off the coast of Southern California

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized? 7+

98. favourite historical era? I love revolutions and renaissances but all of em have hard times and good times

[justanotherboyinblue]

weird asks that say a lot

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1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans? coffee mugs! it gives me a weird satisfaction

2. chocolate bars or lollipops? chocolate bars!!

3. bubblegum or cotton candy? not a big fan of either :/

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you? well i’m homeschooled so that’d be my mother the gist of it was that i don’t focus well and get distracted easily

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups? oh bottles for sure cannot tell you why but the old fashioned glass bottles of like pepsi or something? Love Those

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? grunge i love it has the ‘i don’t care’ attitude basically just oversized stuff and a whole bunch of flannels

7. earbuds or headphones? headphones obviously, i’m a gamer what did you think i was gonna say

8. movies or tv shows? i tend to like movies better, but i do love myself a good tv show i think the pinnacle of tv shows done right is person of interest five seasons, i never got bored, it didn’t drag on, and it was always a good watch with good character chemistry

9. favorite smell in the summer? hmm either chlorine or beach smell because both mean i’m in the water And Ya Boi Is A Water Bitch

10. game you were best at in p.e.? i’ve never had p.e. and i think that’s my favorite thing about homeschooling

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day? i normally don’t, because i wake up 11:30-noon because i was up at 3am and i need my eight hours of sleep

12. name of your favorite playlist? some fucken bOPS

13. lanyard or keyring? i’d think key ring

14. favorite non-chocolate candy? uhhhhh literally all my favorite sweets are chocolate fuck probably cow tails

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment? they all sucked and i rarely read any of them so

16. most comfortable position to sit in? either sitting on my ankle or having both legs hanging over the edge

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes? do flip flops count?

18. ideal weather? like, 75-80 degrees with a cool breeze or alternatively 5-10 degrees with Piles Of Snow Everywhere

19. sleeping position? usually on my left side, or my stomach

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a notebook, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? i love writing on anything i can get my hands on, most times it’s a notebook i tend to always carry pen and paper with me because i Will Not Remember Anything

21. obsession from childhood? you know how people have like, a timeline in their head of their entire life? i did this when i was this age, etc.? yeah i don’t have that my memories are in a big pile in my head and i have to use like things around me to find out a general age it’s wild so i have no idea coloring? minecraft?

22. role model? any kind person ever

23. strange habits? i only shower at night, and once i get in my room and change into my pajamas i have No intention of leaving so i just brush my teeth in the shower

24. favorite crystal? amethyst? quartz? garnet? idk onlytherealonesknow

25. first song you remember hearing? it was a song that my mother used to sing to my brother and i at night when we were in bed, did you ever talk to God i’ve never been able to find it anywhere, but i love it and it has the Best Vibes attached to it

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather? S w i m

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather? cuddle obviously

28. five songs to describe you? uhh dear younger me- mercyme (Christian) the cult of Dionysus- the Orion experience lucky stars- Lucy Spraggan escapism- steven universe? maybe? sunkissed- Khai dreams???? bro i got no idea

29. best way to bond with you? over shared experiences, or a shared love of something just best way to bond? by relating

30. places that you find sacred? not sure old buildings, sites of historical importance, places marred by tragedy

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names? oh boy here we go my tightest pants, obviously, my heels, and my slutty shirt or my comfy clothes i can kick ass in anything

32. top five favorite vines? i am the sand guardian, guardian of the sand. Posiden quivers before him! fuck off!! *BAM* this is why mom doesn’t fUCKING love you!!! please let this be a normal field trip. with Miss Frizzle?? un-fucking-likely Jeremy eat a snickers. why? you’re not you when you’re hungry. it’s gonna take more than that for my fatass meanwhile, in 1957. your honor, permission to treat the witness as hostile. permission granted. i’m gonna shoot you in the face. that’ll ruin my day

33. most used phrase in your phone? i have no phone but i do say valid a lot because All You Fuckers Are Valid

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head? michigan plumminggggg, we’ll exceed your expectaaationsssss

35. average time you fall asleep? three am

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

37. suitcase or duffel bag? backpack

38. lemonade or tea? lemonade

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie? cake

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school? idk the cat pissed on my brother’s papers once

41. last person you texted? moje rojenia

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets? Hoodie Pouch

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket? hoodie, obviously

44. favorite scent for soap? Manly Smell

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero? mmmmmm sci-fi

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in? long sleeve tee, plaid pajama pants

47. favorite type of cheese? Mozzarella

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? pineapple i’ll eat you out ;)

49. what saying or quote do you live by? if someone makes you happy make them happier

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have? my mother made the weirdest fucking sound once, and i couldn’t breathe and fell off the chair

51. current stresses? school, driver’s training, some other stuff

52. favorite font? Kristen ITC

53. what is the current state of your hands?  ????? clean?? i have a ring on my right middle finger, some scars on both hands, my nails are short

54. what did you learn from your first job?  haven’t had a job yet

55. favorite fairy tale?  any of the old Grimm’s fairy tales  they terrified me when i was young, but then i got a taste for the disturbed and gore so they became perfect for me 

56. favorite tradition?  my family doesn’t really have any traditions

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?  gaining confidence to not be a complete pushover, quitting self-harm, realizing my first relationship wasn’t my fault

58. four talents you’re proud of having? i don’t  have four talents  i can color really well? i can copy drawings if i look at them long enough

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?  Fuck

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? something along the lines of kabaneri of the iron fortress or my hero academia

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?  give me something to keep and hold onto forever. let go

62. seven characters you relate to?  uggggggggh bro my personality changes every hour i don’t know  Sam, from supernatural  uh, Klaus? from the originals  ....  yeah that’s all i got

63. five songs that would play in your club?  dangerous- left boy  adderall- Max Frost  sweet tooth- Scott Helman  binary mind- ra ra riot  while i’m alive- STRFKR

64. favorite website from your childhood?  club penguin and jumpstart

65. any permanent scars?  tons

66. favorite flower(s)?  coral dahlias and bellflowers

67. good luck charms?  nope!

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?  quinoa, mustard, and root beer

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?  without saliva your stomach would digest itself

70. left or right-handed?  right

71. least favorite pattern? whatever the fuck this one is

 72. worst subject?  math

73. favorite weird flavor combo?  ranch and any kind of roast

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?  probably like a 7

75. when did you lose your first tooth?  neither i nor my mother remember

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)? Mashed Potatoes Always

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?  strawberries!! they’re yummy and have beautiful flowers

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store? both are gross no thank you

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?  well since i don’t have my license yet, i’d have to say my license

80. earth tones or jewel tones?  earth tones

81. fireflies or lightning bugs? they’re  literally the same thing  are you asking which one i say? if so, lightning bugs

82. pc or console?  both! i prefer pc but a lot of my favorite games are on console and i don’t have a gaming computer

83. writing or drawing?  i’m better at writing, but i love both!

84. podcasts or talk radio?  not a huge fan of either

84. barbie or polly pocket?  i never had or liked either

85. fairy tales or mythology?  faerie* tales and mythology

86. cookies or cupcakes?  cookies!!!

87. your greatest fear?  being abandoned ig

88. your greatest wish?  to live an apple pie life i suppose  my partners and i living in a house we love, in a town we love, with all of our fur babies

89. who would you put before everyone else?  the young if i was in a room full of people, relatives, friends, elders, i would always save the youngest

90. luckiest mistake?  posting my diary on ao3 XD  i met my darling Leo through it

91. boxes or bags?  f....for???   bags are easier to carry, but boxes are just Nice ..... see this is why i think i’m a cat

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?  i love sunlight and fairy lights

93. nicknames?  Q  that’s that’s basically it

94. favorite season?  fall

95. favorite app on your phone?  duolingo or pixel.y 3D

96. desktop background? school computer:

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized? just my mother’s

98. favorite historical era?  anything Ancient  greek, egyptian, incan, aztec, that kinda stuff

[mentalcurls]

4. Il tuo ragazzo lo sa che ci scriviamo?

So, episode 4, our first glimpse of actual, real life, blood and bones Edoardo Incanti and the actual beginning of most of Eva’s troubles. For a hot minute I thought I wouldn’t actually have much to say about this episode, then Silvia happened and I wrote more than half a page about her. Keep reading for a discussion of catwalks, the first time Filippo Sava is mentioned ever and the results for the Bechdel test!

post sex cuddles for Eva and Gio is doing a staring contest

I like a woman who knows how to exploit a man’s weaknesses, like pulling the hair on his legs

wow, Gio’s subconscious must be a really weird place if that’s what he dreams about when it’s about Eva, her saying she wants to be a group of strangers’ slut, how edifying

“Oh, everyone calls her that [Osana bin Laden]” *grandma’s voice comes out of nowhere: “so if everyone went and jumped off a cliff would you follow them”?* *a wild Niccolò Fares dressed as Marty McFly teleports himself there from 3.5 Ammucchiate to make his “I’m disappointed by your generalizations” face at Gio*

I mean, Eva, maybe telling Gio Sana told you to break up with him won’t make him like her more, but that’s just my opinion

“Va bene, grazie, grazie mille, ciao, fantastico” Eva, that’s not how you pretend you’re not hiding something, that’s how you talk to the dentist’s secretary on the phone when you make an appointment

poor Gio, thrown out just in his underwear, no pants, no shoes, as if there wasn’t time to put them on at least when Eva could have simply gone to the bathroom and made a lot of noise to throw her mom off and let Gio leave with some dignity at least

I mean, that’s the guy who brings you crepes at 2 am Eva, you should treat him a bit better

“Oh God, Edoardo is here, don’t look” and all four of them look, like, C’MON!

I maintain that Edoardo/Giancarlo is cute, but nothing special, really, nothing worth having girls turn their heads for, especially when he snorts

that catwalk is nothing to turn your nose up at, tough

I was unsure about this for a bit because she doesn’t like that Gio doesn’t care that much about being widely accepted and considered cool at school, but Eva doesn’t care about being popular either, she simply wants positive female relationships with her peers, except that she was used to being one of the cool girls when she was friends with Laura, so some of that lingers

“Sometimes she reminds me of Cersei Lannister” only sometimes, Silvia?

Marti is wearing his blue jacket 😭

“Do you know a ‘Giulia Med’ on Instagram?” is this LudoBesse trying to plant some kind of Julian Dahl??? OMG

Eva laughs when Marti says that there’s a girl stalking him, but then she gets called a stalker herself and her face goes “Nope. Nope.”

poor Gio, he really has to fish for that invitation to dinner

I can’t imagine the anxiety very message from Canegallo gives her, because Giovanni is right there, and we know from his dismissive comment on Rocco Martucci to Silvia the previous episode (and Eva probably has known it far longer) that he doesn’t understand trying to get in with the cool clique, so he won’t get it, he’ll just assume the worst

not that Canegallo helps out with that. I get, you’re cool, you’re popular, you can have any girl you want and Eva is sending you mixed signals, so you’re pursuing her… except is all of that true? No! We already know almost nobody knew him at the Easter party cause Eva had look for him for ages, he has to have gotten that Eva didn’t go up to him because she’s into him, so the only “mixed signal” is the likes on Instagram, which is something a hundred girls have probably done before, Eva’s answers to hi DMs are vague… really, dude, don’t you see you’re projecting your own attraction onto her?

And anyways, why the fuck are you acting like such a creep? You’re “excited” she’s stalking you? Why has every girl who’s come before Eva let you get away with shit like that? Why doesn’t your girlfriend teach you any better? Oh wait, yeah, because that’s just boys being boys 🙄🙄🙄

Gio senses there’s something off… so why would you think Eva doesn’t sense something is off with you when you keep stuff from her?

Gio 😀 laughing 😀 at 😀 Eva’s 😀 new 😀 friends 😀 after 😀 pestering 😀 her 😀 to 😀 get 😀 new 😀 ones 😀 for 😀 ages 😀 I’m fine, really

those last few lines, when sex is treated as a bargaining chip and Eva’s mean for withholding it and Gio is considered whipped because he keeps things Eva has asked him not to say for himself… 🤦🏻‍♀️

Silvia’s absolute adoration for Eva for having managed in a day what she’s been trying to do for years (I’d bet at least since 2nd year, when Edoardo probably became cool) and get an in with the cool people. Poor child, how much did being your sister’s sister hurt you?

Sana’s “You all follow really predictable mating rules.” and Eleonora’s hesitation before saying “fregne” have the same energy. Yet neither of them backs off.

“Grigliamo la testa a Rodi”/”Let’s grill Rodi’s head” top notch group chat name (considering all the flak “Le matte” got from Gio earlier)

looking like “sfigate allucinanti”, the worst catastrophe that could possibly befall a group of outcast-ish girls who are widely considered losers already, seeing as one is a cheating whore, one is fat, one is hysterical, one is the new girl and then there’s Sana

“Everybody livin the vida loca in this group, huh?” Eva, you hate weed. You went on a crusade against your boyfriend because

Poor Silvia, panicking already. Sana, she doesn’t “talk a lot” she’s ANXIOUS, c’mon girl, you’re smarter than that

re: Silvia talking a lot and Silvia more in general, I couldn’t help but think of this post and the article it links to. Silvia is torn between being a cool girl, the one everyone adores, so the one who gets (in her idealized picture of it) all the respect, attention and love she craves, and being low-maintenance because she’s probably been taught that careful politeness of proper, refined girls, who don’t make scenes, always look perfect and never ask for too much (which has probably something to do with her sister Francesca as well). It doesn’t come naturally to her, so she ends up trying way too hard, sounding needy and talking too much and all the other things (mostly) Sana tells her to stop doing in the first few episodes.

And because she wants to get Edoardo, Silvia does her best to change herself into the low-maintenance girl: she’s fine with him just visualizing her texts, she’s fine with just sex with no date beforehand or anything, she’s fine with not going to his place even though it means have has lo lend her her family’s house, she’s fine with maybe coming and with maybe making Edoardo come, she’s fine with not using a condom even though she’s not on contraception. She’s low maintenance. Then he says those awful thing to her and she probably snaps, understands on some level that she’s not fine, but represses it as fuck and works to be even less maintenance, and ever more perfect: she curbs another kind of hunger, the hunger for food and starts going down the eating disorders road, until she has another breakdown. We see too little of her in S2 to gauge how she’s doing, but I hope the girls are helping her recover a bit, despite the fact that at the beginning they’re actually the ones who suggest toning herself down. ETA: this post is also kind of relevant to the work Silvia puts in to be attractive to Edoardo, in particular when it says “women are expected to aspire toward passivity while improving their bodies and minds for winning a sexual competition”.

Federica, on the other hand, is the exact opposite: she’s not afraid to take up space, physical or otherwise, she’s loud and unapologetic, she is hungry for food and for fun and for sex (see the spoon scene with Marti or the kiss to a stunned Chicco Rodi) and she’s not going to pretend she’s not to make people around her feel more comfortable; actually, she’s the one who most often makes people uncomfortable. It’s really good that Silvia has her and we never see Silvia complain about her like she does about Sana or Eva when they deviate from her ideal of who her friends should be.

So, after that rant, let’s go back to Fede leaving the girls speechless with her spiel about paying back the weed with sexual favors, which just proves the point I made above.

in the meantime, Eva lies unconvincingly to Gio, and I reiterate: Giovanni Garau con la U perché sei sardo, don’t you realize that if you can spot a lie in Eva’s words from the other side of Rome, she probably can spot your lies? So given how mad you get, how can you blame her for being angry and paranoid?

this is the catwalk episode, first the Villa guys outside school, everyone looking at them first, then just the girls squad minus Ele; now the girls, first down the deserted road (cause they’re not popular), then under Chicco Rodi’s and Canegallo’s watchful gaze

the disgusted look Eva gives Canegallo as soon as she gets in, good shit right there 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

Sana surely draws attention to herself, which is not nice except that if she wasn’t so “unusual” she wouldn’t have caught Edoardo’s eye either and the girls wouldn’t have introduced themselves to him, so really, Silvia, shut up

ELEONORA VOLUNTARILY INTRODUCED HERSELF AND SHOOK EDOARDO’S HAND baby no (I mean, he’ll forget anyways, but for that exact reason honey, don’t)

Federico Canegallo laying it on thick from the very first moment, offering the girls salsicce and thank God Eva wasn’t alone or God knows what horrible, misogynistic pun he’d have made

WHO EVEN MAKES FRUIT PUNCH IN ITALY?

creepy Canegallo make another silent appearance cheering on Sara and Laura as they play beer pong so they can get drunker and drunker

the girls cheering on Silvia like it’s the final of the 2006 Football World Cup

aaaand creepy Canegallo being a creep

idk he just strikes me as a douche and rude and lewd so I just always find him creepy

oh, Fede, I know you’re just trying to be supportive, but girl, if your friend is uncertain about going with a boy or not, you should not push her! ffs, do they know nothing about consent? (Answering my own question: no!)

FILO! My lovely Filippo is calling! And Ele is all worried, rushing off and even leaving Eva alone, when we know she’d never do that if something wasn’t pretty seriously wrong… oh, Filo, what happened to you? I hope that Jack didn’t get hurt.

“You know, I mostly go out with my boyfriend.” a nice, natural, smooth way to throw that in, Eva.

Fede has her priorities straight: she drops the boy she was hoping to get the minute her friends need her, but she still goes and gets herself a kiss

Bechdel test: the episode passes the test. There’s the conversation outside school between Silvia and Eva then all the girls minus Eleonora get there and Sana roasts Silvia’s social media habits, but the rest of that scene is dominated by Edoardo and Federico, there’s the conversation between Eva and Eleonora as soon as they get to the party about Laura and Sara. Technically some parts of the conversation at the Baretto pass the test too, but it’s like two lines at a time (about the weed, about Silvia being talking too much), but 98% of that scene is dedicated to either the Villa guys, Edoardo or Fede’s friend who sells weed, plus there’s the phone chat between Eva and Gio.

This post is part of my complete series of meta about Skam Italia season 1.   If you’d like to read more of my thoughts about the other episodes, you can find the mastepost linked in the top bar on my blog under SKAMIT: EVA. Cheers!

[sapphicsurveys]

Is popularity a social disease? It depends. With politicians and such, it can become a disease. A disease that costs us all. Would you want to be a hippie? Yes!!! I’m really open-minded and I love reggae and different colours...I’ve thought about retreating into the hippie lifestyle before, not gonna lie... In college, were you ever given exams with extremely broad and deep questions such as, 'Why?' or 'What is truth?' I’m in college right now. I had a philosophy class, but I had to withdraw from it, so...yeah... Have you knowingly destroyed an endangered plant or animal? No. Actually, I don’t know which plants are endangered, so maybe unknowingly for plants... Did your parents bronze your first pair of baby shoes? I have no clue. Do you check for a train when crossing tracks in your car even though the arms aren't down? I don’t drive. Is there gossip going around about you right now? As always, there’s a bunch of fandom tea. I don’t really pay attention to the drama of people IRL, probably because I prefer to keep my circle small anyway. How many comic strips do you read daily: None (and I CANNOT get into manga.) If you were hiding from a burglar, would you hide in the closet or under the bed? Under the bed would be more logical, but I couldn’t fit under there.  What do you most commonly use milk for: drinking or cooking? Drinking. Who should provide the condoms in a relationship: the man or the woman? The man. His dick, his issue. His responsibility if she gets pregnant, not hers. That’s how an ideal world would work. Are you ever afraid that people hate you and they're just acting like they don't? I mean, it’s true, so, LMAO. When you're crossing the street with other people, do you ever feel a need to get to the other side first? No, I take my time, because I don’t wanna get hit by a car. Should people be able to go to college without a high school diploma if they score high enough on entrance tests? No, it would fuck up your life cycle. You learn a lot about yourself through high school. High school was never about learning about subjects anyway. Would you be embarrassed if people could hear you talking to your pets? No, everyone does it. If elephants were bred to a smaller size and sold as house pets, would you want one? Sure! Do you refer to people as 'dude'? When I’m annoyed at someone and trying to make my point. Do you remember the last time you wrote a 'snail mail' letter? Does my voting application count? Do you think beards/mustaches make men look older than they actually are? Depends on the man... Are you usually the one to initiate sex with your significant other? No, I prefer masturbation to sex, TBH. When I’m dating a girl when she wants sex I usually just want to cuddle LOL. I want to fantasize about her and pleasure myself to that but not actually do it with her...??? That wouldn’t make me asexual, IDK WTF it would make me. When you're having trouble burping when you feel like you need to, does patting yourself on the chest seem to help? I don’t have trouble burping. Do you have your wallet with you right now? No, it’s in my bag by my bed. If it ever came down to a final battle between good and evil and you knew that evil was going to win, who would you fight for? Evil, because if I fought for good, it would be pointless since it lost anyway, and evil would have a grudge against me so it might send me to a prison camp or something. But if I fight on evil’s side, maybe I can be pimpin’. Do you feel guilty when you borrow money from your parents? I don’t really borrow money from them. Do you constantly have times where you have no money and then earn a lot of money and you don't know what to do with it? No. Do you always see yourself as the protagonist in the story of your life? Obviously. I’m the protagonist of MY life....of course, not the world’s though... Can you drive by a car accident without staring? I’m not the one driving ever, so I can stare without feeling guilty, I guess. Do you find it a challenge to congratulate your opponent who just beat you in a game or competition? Yes. I’m super competitive and salty. Do you think that no matter how cold or heartless someone seems there is always at least one thing in the world that they love? Yes. Sociopaths may not love people, but they sure can love things. Who is worse: Someone who doesn't repay a loan or someone that steals your CDs? I don’t know all this adulting BS. HELLPPPP. Why do you think so many homosexual men still go without condoms: because they don't know of the dangers, or because they don't care? It’s like a “fuck it” moment, probably. They’re like, “I’m horny, and at least no-one here can get pregnant, I probably won’t catch an STD, anyway.” Which is...wrong, a lot of the time, LOL. When you think about morality, do you think more in terms of good/bad people, or good/bad actions? Actions, 100%. Which of these female comedians is funnier: Ellen Degeneres or Margaret Cho? I’ve only heard of the second girl and not heard her jokes, but I don’t find Ellen really that funny. Are you scared of dying alone? I’m just scared of dying lol [2]. Are you most comfortable being treated by a doctor of the same sex as you? Of course, I don’t ever want to let a male get that intimate with me, LOL. Do you take daily walks? Yes, taking walks and listening to music is one of my favourite pastimes. Are there some slang terms you refuse to use? I don’t like a lot of the Gen Z’rs slang...I usually find myself using it anyway. Do you have a favorite pen that you use all the time? I wish I could have an aesthetic high-quality pen collection, it’s like my dream, but unfortunately I only have average ones. Have you ever changed an adult's diaper? WTF?? Do you think it's dangerous or a good thing when two very depressed people start to date each other? Dangerous. Y’all need to love yourselves before you love each other. Or else it’s just gonna be a constant flow of negativity. Do you know a game that is very stupid, yet very addicting? A lot of those dumb phone app games that make you pay for upgrades. Do you plan on having your children Christened/Baptised? I don’t want kids. Would regularly seeing videos of you interacting with people significantly improve your overall human effectiveness? That would be sooo much fun, but nothing I’d see would really surprise me. Have you ever misspelled 'misspell'? Nope. Have you ever stayed up for more than 24 hours to study for an exam? I’m not sure if I’ve ever even stayed up for that long. Have you ever been in the back of a moving truck? Nope. When you were young, did you know some pop stars were gay? Yeah. Do you have control over how much peace there is in your mind? Sometimes I can zone it out listening to ASMR videos. If you got a backstage pass at a concert, would you feel better than everyone else? Yeah, of course. Not gonna lie. Is your microwave any other color besides white? It’s black. Would you prefer a bagel or an entire breakfast in the morning? Full breakfast, baby. Breakfast is my favourite meal of the day. You can’t go wrong with it. Do you think that couples that elope have a better chance of staying together? The opposite. Do you know of a frozen dinner that tastes good? TBH, they all suck, but they’re still super convenient. I guess those Delimex Taquitos, if they count.. Will public restrooms no longer be separated by gender in the near future? Perhaps. If you do not eat red meat but eat fish are you a vegetarian? There’s a term. Pescatarian.  When you discard a piece of paper, which of the following are you more likely to do: rip it apart in pieces or crumple it? Rip it apart. Do you wear your pants and shorts above or below your waist line? Above, but I always have to pull them up because none of my clothes fucking fit me right. Have you ever wondered what it would be like to have a sex change operation? I want one. SOOOO BAD. In an ideal world I could become a man. I have huge dysphoria. But it ain’t gonna happen. Do you call margarine 'butter,' even though you know the difference? They’re very different, and that would be offensive to butter. Do you bathe less when you are depressed? I bathe more. Should the ASPCA and RSPCA ban the practice of kidney transplants in cats, since cats can't give consent for the surgery? ???? Would you ever drink from a bowl or cup made out of human bones? Yeah, why not? Does your car normally smell good? I don’t have a car. Do you think 9/11 will be the worst thing you will see in your life? Nah, crimes and attacks are happening day by day, who knows when the next huge one will be. Do you tend to do more research for school or papers at the library or on the internet? Internet. Don’t think anyone uses the library for that anymore. Do you have an outfit you wear that makes you feel like a star? No, but I have some graphic Tees that I’m pretty proud of. You are working at McDonald's frying meat. Your manager is being a jerk and you are ticked. A customer comes in and orders a 20-piece box of nuggets. Out of anger towards your manager, would you pack 20 or more, or 19 or less in that box? 20 or more. Give the people what they want. Once you've made up your mind about the kind of person someone is, can anything they say or do change it? Probably not. Is there a single person whose whole existence you might be interested in studying? Yeah, a few celebrities would pique my interest. Do you think that cuddling with a member of the opposite sex, with no intention of sexual relations, is cheating? No way. Sometimes we all need a little cuddle. Which would you be willing to give up the internet for: world peace or immortality? Neither. I wouldn’t give up the internet for anything. Are you a redneck? No, the farthest thing from it. Do you think by 2050 there will be flying cars? Yeah. Should politicians be allowed to have a private life? I mean, obviously?? Everyone deserves that. Do you avoid going over to other people's houses because it makes you feel uncomfortable or out of place? Yeah, more like I avoid hanging out with people in general, LOL. If someone you don't know too well puts you in the buddy list of his or her profile, would you be suspicious, or would it be OK that he or she did that? I’d love it. Do you have a trash can in every room of your home? Nope. Who said "I love you" first: you, or your partner? I’m single. Do you ever lay down and watch a movie, only to fall asleep in the very beginning and wake up when the movie is over? No, but this happens with YouTube videos sometimes. Do you say 'thank you' before leaving a store, even though you may not have purchased anything? Yeah. Would you approve if your significant other wanted to have a nude painting done? Sure. Art is art. If there were nine guilty people and one innocent, and they all had to be together, would you put them all in jail or set them all free? What was the crime they were guilty for? Is your pet also your best friend? The best friend I’ll ever have. She loves me absolutely unconditionally. When the toilet backs up, do you call someone to fix it or do you do it yourself? I call my dad to fix it. Have you ever recited a love poem to your significant other? I used to write poems and stories for my ex. It kinda makes me wanna vomit thinking back on it. Would you rather be 'all head and no heart' or 'all heart and no head'? Nope. Nope. This is too hard. I refuse. Are your teeth discolored? A lil’ bit. When you were a child, did you make or buy your Halloween costumes? Buy. Have you ever seen a movie and liked it but upon further viewing come to like it a lot less? Don’t think so. But this happens with a lot of songs. If your father was a minister, would you want him to preside over your wedding ceremony? No. Would you prefer to watch porn or a really good comedy? Depends on the mood I’m in. How long did your longest phone conversation ever last? Maybe 4 hours. Do you put your initials on everything you own? No, that’s lame. Do you like or dislike people based on who else likes or dislikes them? Not at all. Do you have a friend who you hang out with only when there is nothing else to do? No. Which is harder: calculus or trigonometry? Fuck, I can’t do either whatsoever. Do you often find yourself correcting your parents? All the time, correcting my mom. I’m smarter than her in a lot of ways. If you could stop aging at a certain age, do you know what that age would be? I have to experience more ages in order to decide that. Do you more often eat off of real plates or paper plates? Ideally, paper plates. I’m a huge germaphobe. When I move out I’ll only purchase paper and plastic ware. Have you ever had tape over your mouth? Yeah. If you encountered someone you totally didn't know and he or she seemed to tell you the solutions to your uniquely specific problems without having been told what they were, would you be more thankful or freaked out? I’d probably develop feelings for them on the spot. Would you rather eat a raw egg or a scoop of raw hamburger? Raw egg sounds tasty. Do shy kids tend to grow up to be freaks? No. Unless...they’re sociopaths. But maybe sociopaths aren’t freaks either, just another type of person. When you put on a shirt, do you button up or down? I can’t wear shirts with buttons, since I have such a big bust, it completely flops every time. Do you scent your letters when you write to a special someone? Yeah...it’s sexy. Is punk influenced more by music or attitude? Music. Did you ever start a thread that got at least 40 posts? Yeah. Can you recall the ending of the last story you read? No. Have you ever had your head stuck in an unusual place? I don’t recall. Do you have any weird or funny local slang? IDK, does “Boca Bitch” count? People don’t really use it that often but it’s true and it’s a well-known term. When you come online, is there always one person you look for? Yeah...well, a few people. Do lava lamps make you sick looking at them? No, they’re aesthetic af, I want one, I always have. Will Hollywood ever run out of ideas for movies? It’s not that they’ve run out of ideas, they’re just lazy and only care about making money. Does P. Diddy telling everyone that he is the new Frank Sinatra make you want to roll your eyes? He was probably kidding. Do you think the state of the global environment will be better or worse in 50 years? Worse, of course. Global warming..and oil drilling. Endangered species. Do you eat dinner in the dining room or in the living room? In my bedroom. Which Mike Judge cartoon do you prefer: Beavis and Butthead or King of the Hill? King of the Hill. Have you ever fallen off your chair in public? Yeah. When sleeping, do you face the doorway or have your back to it? I sleep on my side. Do you find poetry that expresses pain and suffering to be more intriguing than other types? I don’t find poetry intriguing at all. Do you only pretend looks don't matter because you're ugly yourself? Looks do matter, though. Do you find limericks to be funny and clever or annoying? Again, not a poem fan. Do you think you'd be capable of representing yourself in court rather than hiring an attorney to do it for you? Maybe.. When you flirt with someone, is it obvious or more subtle? Obvious and awkward. Which character do you think weighs more: Jabba the Hutt or Fat Bastard? What? Do you think couples break up mainly because of differences they can't resolve or because they have found someone new? They get tired of each other. Do you reread things that are written well? Yes. What hurts more: getting poked in the eye or biting your tongue? Getting poked in the eye. Do you prefer merry-go-rounds or ferris wheels? Ferris wheels. You get to look at all the scenery, be intimate, and hang in the air. Which do you prefer: original or flavored Tootsie Rolls? Original. Chocolate is better than fruit flavouring. If you had three children, would you rather have two boys and a girl, or two girls and a boy? I don’t want kids. Is having a threesome basically approved cheating? It’s approved polyamory. Is it a turn off to you if the woman has a deep, manly voice or if the man has a high, pre-pubescent voice? No, I love it. Have you copied (or “ripped”) your entire CD collection onto your computer? When I was younger and had an iPod Nano. Do you have buns of steel? No. Did you use floaties on your arms when you were learning to swim? Yeah, and I still have trouble swimming even now. Did your first ever snog involve French kissing? Yes. Do you know a person who is physically unattractive and yet a flirt? Yeah, me. LOL. Are there a lot of programs on your computer that you don't know how to use? Adobe Audition af. I pretty much only use it to make instrumentals and have no idea how to do anything else with it. Do you live in an uncomfortable environment, such as where you feel you cannot be yourself? No, not really. If you had discovered a body on the side of the road would you see if it was still alive? Yes, and then call 911. Does punishing everyone for the actions of the few get us closer to utopia? Of course not. Can you finish an entire 2-liter bottle of soda by yourself in a single sitting? No. Have your parents ever forbidden you to play a certain type of music in their house? No. Since you reached dating age, have you been single for more than three years? Nope, but I suspect that will happen soon. When buying shampoo or soap, do you choose one because of what they put in it, or because you like the smell? What they put in it for shampoo -- I need dandruff control due to my psoriasis. Have you ever had writer's block? All the time. *** Have you given anything up for Lent? I’m not Catholic. Who was the last person you went shopping with? Myself, if you count online shopping. Are you planning on dyeing your hair any time soon? No. Who was the last person you saw that you haven’t seen in a while? Annalisa. Do you sing in front of people or only when you’re alone? Both. What kind of car do you have? I don’t have one. When was the last time you left your cell phone somewhere? Never. I’m super conscientious of where I put it. Are your nails manicured right now? They never are. Do you prefer fake tanning or real tanning? Neither. Are you more of a summer person or a winter person? Neither, I love spring the most. Would you rather go to a rock concert or a rap concert? Rock by FAAARRR. Have you ever dated someone that was a different race than you? Yeah, my ex was black. Do your parents ever tell you weird things you did as a kid? A lot. It interests me. How old is your best friend? What constitutes a best friend? What does your favorite necklace look like? I don’t wear jewelry. Are you keeping a secret from anyone? Yeah. Is there anything with stripes on it in the room you’re in? Probably. Too lazy to check. Can you count how many vacations you’ve been on in your lifetime? No. Would you take a million dollars if it meant you had to die a month later? Of course not. Do you have cold hands or are you generally a warm person? Cold hands. People are always telling me how cold my body is. Do you keep any type of diary or journal? Used to. I can never stick to it, though. What was the last thing that made you really happy? Hmm...don’t remember. Can you remember what you dreamed about last night? I did when I woke up, not anymore. Have you ever gotten kicked out of a class for being disruptive? OMG, all the time. What was the last thing someone bought for you? Something from my mom, don’t remember what. Do you have a good friend of the opposite sex that is not a boy/girlfriend? Yeah. Would you rather read a book or watch the movie? Watch the movie. I need the sensual experience and the visuals. Are you a visual, audio, or kinesthetic learner? Auditory x10000. Cover songs or the original song? The original. Are you where you want to be in life at this point in time? I’m on the way. *** Do you put your name on your food coverings? No. What is something you have acquired with age? Maturity, self-knowledge, musical taste, culture. When it comes to clothing, are you the conservative type? Yes and no. I love businesswear, but I also love crazy T-shirts. Would you ever go out in public sporting pajamas? 100%. Would be fun. Do you enjoy eating? Yeah, a little too much. Have you ever ridden in a race car? Go-Karts at Boomers, LOL! Do you enjoy making people laugh? Yeah, I’m a pretty funny person. Do you go out of your way to impress the opposite gender? I’m gay. What is something that would make you happy right now? Sleep. I’m tired af but am determined to finish this survey. Are you a hygiene nut? No, but I am hygienic. Are you open-minded? Completely. Are you mathematically inclined? NOOO, it’s my worst subject. I’m linguistically inclined. What is something for which you have no patience? Technological issues and hypocrisy. Are you too concerned/worried with your appearance? No, I’m way too UNconcerned. Do you tend to be a jealous person? Yeah, but I’ve been getting a bit better about that...I think...OK, not really. Do you enjoy history? Nope, unless I’m learning about a place I’m traveling to and the history of the sites I visit/activities I do. Are you a pajama person or do you stay dressed all day? Pajamas, unless I’m going out and feel funky. Do you value looks or personality more? Both. Have you ever changed religions? Not really. I was raised a culturally Jewish atheist, and I’ve stayed that way. Do you have a high tolerance for people? Yeah, unless they’re hypocrites or homophobes/transphobes. Is there anyone to whom you are afraid to stand up? No. Do people interest you? Totally. *** Category One: Clothing I wear Converse. I wear plain black skate shoes. I really love dresses. I wear a lot of band t-shirts. I wear a lot of black. I like wearing skirts and dresses with Converse. People at my school often copy my style. I love jeans. I dress the way I want to, I don’t care what anyone thinks about my style. Wearing clothes I like gives me a lot more confidence. I don’t really look to anyone else for style ideas. Category Two: General Appearance Something about my appearance is very unique and distinct. I have more than one birth mark. I have very tanned skin. I tan extremely easily in the summer. I am skinny. But I have curves. I wear glasses. I have my father’s eyes. My self-esteem has been getting much better. People have told me straight up that they are jealous of my body - and it feels good to get compliments like that. I don’t spend a lot of time getting ready - I basically look the way I do when I wake up. Category Three: Annoyances I hate when people are overly cocky and arrogant. I hate when people make assumptions - they’re normally totally off. When I’m standing in line at a cash or something, I hate when people stand practically on top of me. It doesn’t make the line move any faster! I strongly dislike when I get excess lotion or water in between my fingers, and I don’t really understand why. If someone pisses me off enough, I’m not shy to tell them off. If someone is asked to stop doing something more than once, I feel it’s okay to start yelling at them. I hate hypocrites - but I can be a hypocrite myself sometimes. I hate people who act like know-it-alls. And I hate it even more when it’s a subject I know more about than them. I absolutely hate when people try to drag me into their pathetic drama. My number one pet peeve is when someone has too many pet peeves. Category Four: Surveys I find it stupid when people take the tags off surveys, but survey makers who go as far as making a “hate list” for all those who do it are just assholes themselves. I think I may have a serious addiction to surveys… Oh well! If you’re going to insult me directly more than once while taking a survey I made, then don’t even bother taking my survey. In a way I’m a hypocrite for saying that, because if there’s no tag on the survey, then I will call the survey maker an idiot and whatnot, if I seriously feel they are and if I’m in that bad of a mood. (*rolls eyes*) I’d be a millionaire if I got paid to do this! Why do survey makers insist on having a certain number of comments and subscribers before they make another survey? This is for fun, it isn’t a business, and you aren’t making money off of it, so why are you being so anal about communication with your survey-takers? I don’t see the point in lying on surveys. Why take them if you aren’t going to tell the truth? Category Five: Things I Seriously Love Coffee, and caffeine in general. The show Pawn Stars. Feeling good about myself. Encouraging other people to stay positive and be strong. Tattoos and piercings. Anthropology, sociology, and psychology. Making and taking surveys. Dreadlocks. Rain and thunderstorms. Music, of course. Random, interesting facts. Category Six: Music I can play piano. I can play bass. I can sort of play guitar. I listen to music every day. I own at least three instruments. I still buy CDs. I really want to learn to play drums. I wouldn’t mind learning to play the violin as well. Practically everyone in my family can play some sort of instrument. I used to take dance lessons. Category Seven: Photography I own a FujiFilm camera. I take walks so I can take pictures. I have a folder on my computer of pictures I’ve taken. I love taking pictures of fireworks. I also love taking pictures of nature. One of my favorite settings on my camera is macro. I have a blink detector on my camera. My camera takes amazing, bright, vivid photos. I want to make a photo album of pictures that I’ve taken. I wouldn’t mind being a photographer. I don’t know what I would do without my (phone) camera.  Category Eight: Relationships & Friendships I have serious trouble keeping lasting friendships. But I have no trouble keeping a lasting romantic relationship. Those two don’t directly relate to each other - I don’t ditch my friends for my partner, ever. I have been in a relationship for almost two and a half years. It is my first relationship. I have only ever kissed one person. My partner and I have been in a band together. In my opinion, friends are for socializing, not relying on for rough times. I love going out with friends. I have been in a band with all my best friends before. I have been verbally and psychologically abused by friends before. I have punched one of my friends in the face.

[fallinginlovewithafashionmogul]

Eren watched Levi turned his back to him again he thought his backside looked awfully lonely from where he stand. Eren pulled out some plastic and set two square on the floor, one for his backpack and another for himself , he set his bag done on one plastic, he unzip his jacket folded it and then set it on top of his bag he took one slipper off and then step on the other square and did the same thing with the other slipper. He set it on top of his jacket and let his other thigh high touch the plastic. It took a minute longer to remove his pants due to the twine and other strings and yarn to keep them up beside the belt, so once he did get them off he folded the big pants and set it on top of the slippers. Now he was standing in thigh highs and a jersey top… he was thin, awfully thin now that he was looking at himself in the mirror that was in the room. Eren  lifted his wrist to see how boney he was. It looked so fragile… like twigs. Eren expressed a bit of concern…when was the last time he weight himself? Hell when was the last time he ate his full? Eren turn to the side his precious ass he’s been so proud of wasn’t popping out and being noticeable any more...

 ‘I should seriously eat more.’

“Have you ever been measured before?

Levi asked, Eren took it upon himself to hide his gloved hands behind his back and lace his fingers together.

“Hmmm....I think two or so years ago, Armin did my measurements. I wasn’t pay attention when he did it. So, no I’m sorry.”

Levi turned around with stuff in his hands Eren knew he was staring him up and down his face didn’t betray him with anything, but the slight furrow of his eyebrow gave Eren some hint, but at the same time Eren got self conscious so he did what he usually does when he is nervous. He placed one foot in front of the other and crossed his legs. Hands were still behind his back, Eren got a little offensive.

“I eat, but sometimes I forget okay… I didn’t think I’d be this bad…”

Eren eyes were on his thigh high, Levi assured him it wasn’t that, but why was he staring at him like that for so long if it haven't been that, it's not like he gone gorgeous standing there in nothing but a shirt and thigh highs.

“Do whatever you have to do. I don’t care which order you take my measurement from so don’t mind me.”

Eren replied, he said that but he was still nervous.

Levi moved closer to him, he began to measure him from the head down, when he got to his neck he flinched. He couldn’t help himself, when Levi asked if he was okay, he nodded. Again Levi tried to get a measurement on his neck and he flinched… At least this time he did not move away, further down he went and Eren ignore the tremble he had.

“I’m fine really. You can keep going, we are halfway done right?”

Levi confirmed him that he was almost done with the measurement, but it felt like forever. Eren tried to pass the time to think about something else like the waffles it was the best place to be thinking about then someone stranger he met yesterday touching him. Even though he wore gloves and used new tape it still made him nervous. He already sign the contract he wasn’t back an out of it hee wanted the extra money.

Eren thought the downside of thinking about waffles or food for that matter is that his stomach wanted to give strange sounds, he just hope Levi didn’t hear it. He thought that after three batches of waffles and finishing off the orange juice would have been enough to fill him up. He made a mental note to eat once he get home.

Eren only tended to eat if he got super weak or if  he got a serious headache, But, most of the time he just took pills to keep him full I guess that would explain his dramatic weight loss. 

 “So Eren, tell me about yourself? What are your hobbies, your dreams and stuff like that?” 

 Eren looked up to the ceiling he was debating rather or not he should tell him and if he did tell him what would he say. Maybe Levi just wanted small talk it could pass the time faster and it could keep him occupied...

“I...went to college when I was eighteen I’ve received my master's degree a while ago. Soon I’ll be getting my Ph. D.... When I was really really young I wanted to be an idol because I use to like singing and dancing and coming up with the latest trend and so on and so forth…but, I’ve changed now so all I want my island. I don’t know what else to say....”

“What about parents? What kind of work do you do? What was your major and your current major? Hobby?”

Eren tapped his fingers in his palm....

“My parents are dead so I can’t remember them much. When I was eighteen I got me a small apartment and worked like crazy. Still do.I kinda worked everywhere...delivery, data input, computer data, construction, technician, you name it I’d probably did it all. Lately I’ve just been doing work from home so my time is flexible.” 

He replied, he even worked at all sorts of power plants and worked at farms...he did everything so when he leaves he can do everything on his own and if he ever got stuck he can rely on Armin’s manual on all the shit he has on the island.

“I don’t have a hobby, so can’t say. Oh, well wait minute I do love my flowers and plants so I guess that could be a hobby? I took a few of them out of my garden to give it to you. I love what the plants has to say and what they represent so I’ve always been fond of roses.”

He replied he decided to skip the past major and current major, just then Levi just finished measuring him near the groin areas and went further down. 

 “What do you want on your island what would it be like?” Levi asked him these were all simple question so he didn’t see anything that could be harmful to him so he decided to look toward his backpack. 

 “Well....I’ve already found my ideal island so I've got everything I’ll possibly ever need there. You should see it, It’s really beautiful. The ocean has my eyes, it has bright sandy beach, thick trees, they even got bananas dangling from them. I love bananas. The construction part is done already, for some reason Armin added more house then necessary, but I guess if my friends were to come to visit me they would have their own place to stay so it was really nice. Plus it might give me something to do, I’ve started to like cleaning and airing things out. But, the best part was I didn’t have to pay for the extra houses. I told Armin and the gang that It wouldn’t be necessary to build there houses their since we could've just see each other on skype or talk to them on the phone. But, they all insisted they want to visit and I couldn’t tell them no so I figure they would visit me once a year. I mean they do have their own houses I guess? So I don't really need to worry about them staying at my place.....I’’m really glad I get internet connection there and a phone line...Right now it’s in the testing stage since Armin wants it all over the island, but knowing me I’d try to use just half of it. But, then again I would like to explore the other half so maybe he got something going on there. It would be handy if something ever happen to me. Armin usually check my voicemails as a just in case scenario he’s pretty weird.” 

He ranted, but even so he grew a tiny tiny smile.

“My house is pretty big like a manor or a mansion, it’s bigger than my friends houses, but I should say my friends homes are pretty big in their own right like mansion or manor, except if I have to compare.....Armin thought of me pretty big because it made me think it was as big as a palace....... But, mine is pretty much glass really, but the fun thing is I can make it one sided if I wanted. I can see out, but they can’t see me in if I don’t want it. I say that’s the amazing thing about my house I’ll be living in. The windows are bullet proof and something else he said a bomb couldn’t break it so that’s a plus. That means I don’t have to worry about it breaking or shattering if something heavy hits it....like a tree or a wild animal. I even have my green house, it’s gigantic that even my plant babies can fit in there.”

Eren thought back to what the house floorplan looked like..

“It has a tunnel connecting to the main house, so if something did happen like a stranger coming there to hurt me or a wild animal has me surrounded I wouldn’t have to starve. Armin and I are the best worst case scenario so my house is design to go into combat if need be. I have my own shooting arena. I learned a lot about fighting and hunting so I’m confident I can handle it all by myself. Plus no one ever knows if something happens to the plane or they would get delayed so I took it upon myself to catch wild games and how to prepare them. In other word I won’t starve even if they don’t ever come back so that’s a plus in my book. I doubt Armin would let that happen since he promise to visit me at the end of the month for a week. I thought that was super nice of him.”

Eren listed what else he had right off the bat.

 “Oh I have my own theater room and a dancing room the theater room is bigger because I can either act and make a show or I could watch a ton of movies on the big screen. My dancing room have bars on the wall and dancing poles...so that was awesome. I even have the dance cloth mounted securely on the ceiling and there’s mirror everywhere so I can see myself work out on that... Oh and my kitchen is so big I felt really really tiny even though it’s modern it’s really really homey so that made me happy..”

 He giggled for a few second before he stopped himself it was like he had remember he didn’t laugh. 

 “I’ve got a ton of pictures. I usually carry it around with me because it cheers me up. When all the hard part is over with I could leave without a moment's notice. I’ve learned how to fly a plane and how to drive a boat, oh I own both of them by the way. The boat is on the island tied up and the plane is here. I have a dock and a plane landing it’s further away from my house, but I can drive from the airplane port to my house since my other car is there...It was pretty convenient at the time...”

 Levi looked up after a while as if he was debating what question he should ask and what not to ask. “Would you really live alone? By yourself?”

 Eren finally  looked down to him who was already staring at him really intensely...so Eren gave him a small questionable expression...

 “Well? Yeah, it would defeat the purpose if I didn't .” 

 It’s not like Eren has a lover and he never lived with someone so what was the point? He sworn off having kids he never want them to grow up being a bastard child. He took precaution for stuff like that, but then again he doesn’t have a lover and he doesn’t want one either so what was the point of freaking over about condoms and lubes. What’s good am I as a man if I can’t stand to be touch?

 Levi stood up after he was done taking his measurement, Eren was just glad the hard part was finally over.

 Levi mention for him to take a seat Eren put his slippers back on and proceeded to move to the couch. Setting his things aside on the floor with the plastic he was using he bent down putting it beside the couch. He walked back to pick up the plastic and threw it away in the trash by then Levi rip through some plastic to take out a sheet of cloth over the sofa. Eren hesitated to pull out the plastic to look at Levi. 

 “I'm okay sitting on plastic, Levi  I don’t want to dirty your sheets.” 

Levi huffed as he turned to face him fully,

 "You won't, that's why they invented the washer machine. I can't draw you with plastic underneath you." 

 Eren looked to the sofa and then back to him again he knew a losing battle when he sees one so he didn’t argue. After all he wasn’t here to give him a hard time.  

 "Okay, if you insist." Eren sat closer to the edge and further to the side where his hips touched the arm sofa. He wanted to be closer to his things so that’s where he sat. It felt weird to be sitting there in a stranger’s house in nothing, but his thigh high, boxer brief undies and a jersey shirt. He tucked the shirt underneath his ass and got on the sofa sitting. He didn't know what he wanted so he kept on sitting straight.

"You said you had pictures do you mind if I see them now?" 

 Eren blinked at him before looking at his bag.

 "I guess, sure." the brunet reached over and grabbed a little book from inside his organized backpack. He flipped through the scrapbook and finally sat it down. 

"This is the beach. It's a little far from where my house is being built. All you see is the ocean and sand, I was careful not to get any of the trees in." 

 Levi sat down next to him casually as if he didn’t have a fear of touching people....of touching him..

Levi leaned in close, close enough for Eren to breathe him into his lungs. He smelled fantastic. Eren tilt his head a little bit to keep breathing him in silently, it was a scent he doesn't recognize, that scent it was just that addicting.

Feeling like a freak he moved back and turned the page,

“These were the bananas I was talking about.”

 Eren made sure Levi didn’t see any houses or the airport, but he did show him his garden. It had fruits of all kind and vegetables, there were herbs on one side and spice in another. His medical herb and plants were further back. They all had their own section. There were waterhose in every section as well as sprinklers on the ceiling. It was made out of glass so it got sun, other plants that didn’t need that much sun were shielded and or covered.

“You know, Armin wanted to build a snow dorm for activities and what not. I might let him since there are some plants that grow under the snow. I’ve never skied before or snowboard for that matter so I might as well give it a try. I’ll need something to do besides reading and working out and maintaining the babies and doing my daily farm work.”

Eren murmur.

Levi turned to look at him,

“Could I see the houses? I didn’t see anywhere I looked.”

Eren stared at him.....He was debating if he wanted to show him...maybe if they were all ground images it should be fine...

He lifted the book and flip toward a section before placing it on his lap.

“This one is my house, and further down are the other houses, they are spread apart so I could have my own privacy because of the glasses. These are the horses. Sometime, it saves on gas. Gas is going to be hard where I am so I try to use other means as transportation. I do love to walk, but I figure riding on horse back is safer until I know what kind of animals are on the island. They are pretty fast. This one is my horse, it’s a chestnut with the blaze mark”

Levi looked like he was absorbed by the photos.

“I wish I could see it with my own eyes...”

Levi told him, Eren looked away to mutter under his breath....

“Maybe....some day you will...”

Levi turned to look at him a solemn vow was in his voice.

“Someday, I will.”

It was a promise and a vow and Eren didn’t know why he was being serious,

“It’s beautiful there, Eren. Can I see more?”

Eren showed him more, not once did Levi laugh at him he was genuine interested into getting to know him and that made him smile. He went into details about what was inside the houses and the caves with all the pretty stones. There was no way he could tell it was jewels embedded in the floors and walls, there was water down there and it had a source of light so it looked like tiny colorful stars everywhere. Hell, Eren thought it was just colorful glass and he prefer leaving it as it were, if they were loose on the ground he’d take it with him. There was some stuff taped into the scrapbook to show realism. The sand, the rocks, the pretty glass, some shells and plants. It litter the books.

Levi managed to get him to laugh by saying big ass trees and some crack underneath it. Eren gave him a marker pen to scribble his thoughts on it because it was just that funny.

“If you want, I can reprint those pictures and give them to you? If you want....Maybe it could be use as a postcard....or something?”

Truth be told, Eren wanted him to remember him when he was gone...

“So um...when we are done looking at pictures....What did you want me to do when you start drawing me?”

Eren asked when he flip the next page to show Levi where he got lost at.

[elrieltinuviel]

~All the questions!~

1. If you didn't have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time? I’d probably cook or look for recipes

2. What is your favorite piece of clothing you own / owned? I don’t have one

3. What hobby would you pick up if time & money weren't an issue? Making armor and forging swords!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. What does your perfect room look like? Its a kitchen! A very large kitchen!

5. How often do you play sports? Sadly not anymore

6. What fictional place would you like to visit? Middle Earth!

7. What job would you be terrible at? Anything construction based

8. When was the last time you climbed a tree? I haven’t climbed a tree in years :/

9. If you could turn any activity into an Olympic sport, what would you have a good chance of winning a medal for? Sleeping?

10. What is the most annoying habit that you or other people have? I currently can’t think for some reason

11. What job do you think you'd be really good at? I have no idea, honestly

12. What skill would you like to master? A great many things, like cooking and such and also metalwork!!!

13. What would be the most amazing adventure to go on? Backpacking through the appalachians I think would be wonderful

14. If you had unlimited funds to build a house to live on for the rest of your life, what would the finished house look like? Like a castle

15. What's your favorite drink? Alcoholic? Angry Orchard! But mostly the green apple one. 

16. What state or country do you never want to go back to? I haven’t been to enough places to answer this

17. What songs do you have completely memorized? Too many to answer this properly

18. What game or movie universe would you like to live in? Tolkien!

19. What do you consider to be your best find? My best find? No idea, probably a cool rock

20. Are you usually early or late? I try so hard to be early

21. What pets did you have when you were growing up? I had a dog!!! Avalanche! And then a turtle, bob

22. When people come to you for help, what do they usually need help with? All sorts of things! I try to make sure my friends know I’m here to help

23. What takes up too much of your time? Tumblr

24. What do you wish you knew more about? Everything??????????? (astrophysics)

25. What would be your first question after waking up from being frozen for 100 years? “What the fuck?”

26. What are some small things that make your day better? a lovely conversation with a good person! Also good food!

27. Who's your go-to band or artist when you don't know who or what to listen to? Whatever’s on spotify

28. What's the best way to start the day? Sleep until noon

29. What TV shows do you like? Chopped, Iron Chef, Voltron is pretty cool, CRITICAL ROLE (Not a tv show but I don’t care)

30. What TV channel doesn't exist but really should? I have no idea

31. Who has impressed you most with what they've accomplished? I’m sorry, but I don’t have the thought to answer this

32. What age do you wish you could stay at permanently? I don’t

33. What TV show or movie do you refuse to watch? 50 Shades

34. What's your ideal way to spend a weekend? Catching up on Critical Role, maybe hang out!

35. What is something that is considered a luxury, but you don't think you could live without? Internet?

36. What is your claim to fame? I don’t understand

37. What is something you enjoy doing the old-fashioned way? Nothing?

38. What's your favorite book or movie genre? Lord of the Rings!!!

39. How often do you people-watch? Never, I tend to make eye contact too often

40. What have you only recently formed an opinion about? Something political, probably

41. What's the best day of the year? A day that it’s snowing?

42. What subject interests you that not many people have heard of? ????????????

43. How do you relax after a long day of work? I sleep

44. What's the best book series or TV series you've ever read or watched? My favorite is Tolkien

45. Where is the farthest you've ever been from home? I’m 1553 miles from my home

46. What's the most heartwarming thing you've ever seen? No idea

47. What is the most annoying question people ask you? “So you’re like a plant?”

48. What could you give a 40-minute presentation on with no preparation? Tolkien universe stuff

49. If you were the dictator on a small island nation, what crazy dictator stuff would you do? I’d give free food and water and healthcare to the citizens and revive the barter system

50. What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives? Be free

51. Would you rather go hand gliding or whitewater rafting? I like whitewater rafting

52. What's your dream car? One that I own and has good gas mileage. Preferably an SUV

53. What's worth spending more on to get the best? Shoes, food, relationships

54. What is something a ton of people are obsessed with, but you just don't get? sex

55. What are you most looking forward to in the next 10 years? Loving myself

56. Where is the most interesting place you've been? Mt. Greylock

57. What's something you've been meaning to try but haven't gotten around to it? Making something but I can’t think of what specifically

58. What is the best thing that happened to you last week? I’m going to a convention in 2 weeks!

59. What piece of entertainment do you wish you could erase from your mind, only to experience it for the first time again? All of the Critical Role episodes

60. If all jobs had the same pay rate and hours, what job would you want to have? No idea

61. What amazing thing have you done that no one was around to see? I don’t know

62. How different was your life 1 year ago? I was living in Mass and was working at a shitty warehouse. Pretty different

63. What quirks do you have? idk man

64. What would you rate 10/10? A dog probably

65. What fad or trend do you think should come back? Being a good person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

66. What is the most interesting piece of art you've seen? I’m not super into art, honestly

67. What kind of art do you enjoy most? No idea

68. What do you hope never changes? Nothing

69. What city would you most like to live in? I hate cities

70. What movie title best describes your life? No idea

71. Why did you decide to do the work you are doing now? The job was literally handed to me

72. What's the best way a person can spend their time? Having a good time????

73. If you suddenly became a master at woodworking, what would you make? Bows. So many bows. And arrows

74. Where is the most relaxing place you've ever been? Mt. Greylock

75. What's the luckiest thing that has ever happened to you? I was literally handed a job by the manager of the place next to my dad’s work

76. Where would you rather be from? I kinda wanted for my parents to have me in South Africa, but Oh well lol

77. What are some things you've had to unlearn? Toxic masculinity, transphobia, homophobia, misogyny, racism. All sorts of shitty stuff

78. What do you look forward to in the next 6 months? I have no idea!

79. What website do you visit most often? ...Tumblr...

80. What one thing do you really want but can't afford? A car and a home (that’s more than 1 thing)

81. Where do you usually go when you have free time? My computer...

82. Where would you spend all your time if you could? The mountains

83. What's special about the place you grew up? snow???

84. What age do you want to live to? Until I’m dead, I don’t care what age

85. What are you most likely to become famous for? Nothing

86. What are you absolutely determined to do? Love myself

87. What is the most impressive thing you know how to do? I can...um...I can cook??????????

88. What do you wish you knew more about? All the things

89. What question would you most like to know the answer to? No idea

90. What question can you ask to find out the most about a person? Fuck I don’t know

91. When was the last time you changed your opinion or belief about something major? It’s been some time

92. What's the best compliment you've ever received? When people complement my cooking?

93. As the only human left on earth, what would you do? Die alone

94. Who inspires you to be better? Nobody, only me

95. What do you want your epitaph to be? It had better have my real name

96. What haven't you grown out of? These pants

97. In what situation or place would you feel most out of place in? Most situations

98. What's the dumbest thing you've done that actually turned out pretty well? I don’t know

99. If someone wrote a book on an event in your life, what would the book be about? Fuck if I know

100. What's something you will never do again? There are a few things

101. How do you hope you'll change as a person in the future? I hope to be a better person

102. What keeps you up at night? My dumb brain

103. What's the most surprising self-realization you've had? Well the whole not being straight of cis was surprising

104. What is the most illegal thing you've ever done? I’m not incriminating myself (I don’t remember)

105. How do you get in the way of your own success? I have depression

106. What are you afraid people see when they look at you? A gross blob. Or a shitty person

107. What is your biggest regret? I have a lot

108. What do you look down on people for? Bigotry

109. What bridges do you not regret burning? Several

110. What lie do you tell most often? I tell a lot of lies, but I’m getting better

111. What would be your spirit animal? Idk

112. What is the best & worst thing about getting older? My bones hurt

113. What are you most likely very wrong about? Lots of things

114. If you had a personal flag, what would be on it? No idea

115. What's happened that changed your view on the world? Tumblr, honestly

116. What is the biggest lesson you've learned? I’ve learned a lot of things

117. What is the most immature thing you do? No idea

118. What are you famous for among your friends & family? Being an idiot

119. If your childhood had a smell, what would it be? Void. I have no memory

120. What one responsibility do you wish you didn't have? Working and paying bills

121. What are 3 things you want to accomplish before you die? I want to transition, find love, and love myself

122. What do you want to tell your 10-year-old self? Hey kid, you’re a lady and also don’t try to force yourself into sexual situations

123. What's the best thing you got from your parents? Cooking skills

124. What's the best thing about you? I’m kinda nice I guess?

125. What blows your mind? Space

126. Have you ever saved someone's life? Nope

127. What are you really good at but embarrassed to be good at? I’m not good at much, honestly

128. What would a mirror opposite of you look like? Hot

129. What are 3 interesting facts about you? I’m not in the state of mind for this, sorry

130. Which of your scars has the best story behind it? I have one on my hip that I got from a game of manhunt. I ran into a fence and flipped over it lol. Ruined a nice shirt

131. What's the title of the current chapter in your life? Welcome to Texas, Don’t Die

132. What were some of the biggest turning points in your life? Realizing my queerness

133. What's the hardest lesson you've learned? I’d rather not think about that

134. What do people think is weird about you? A lot

135. What mistake do you keep making? Falling too fast

136. What have you created that you're most proud of? A batch of brownies

137. What do you doubt? Myself

138. What are some of your morals? Don’t be shitty??????

139. What do you want to be remembered for? Being kind

140. What do you regret not doing in your childhood years? I don’t remember them

141. What is your favorite fragrance? Trees and mountain air

142. What do you think your last words will be? Fuck

143. Who or what do you take for granted? Fuck if I know

144. Why would you be annoying as a roommate? I snore, apparently. And I shed like a motherfucker :/

145. What is something you're insecure about? My physical appearance

146. What's the best & worst piece of advice you've received? I don’t know

147. What irrational fears do you have? Heights, spiders, men????

148. What makes a good life? Happiness

149. What's the last adventure you went on? I haven’t been on an adventure in a long time

150. What is the most memorable gift you've received? My dad’s Lord of the Rings book

151. Last kiss An ex, ages ago

152. Last phone call My mom

153. Last text message This cute dork :p

154. Last song you listened to The Critical Role opening song!

155. Last time you cried A few weeks ago

HAVE YOU EVER:156. Dated someone twice Yes, once

157. Been cheated on Yes...

158. Self harmed Not traditionally? I smoked for a bit hoping fr cancer and I binge ate for a heart attack. Bad shit

159. Lost someone special Yes. My grandmother

160. Been depressed Hella

161. Been drunk and threw up Nope

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:162. had sex lol no

163. How many people have you had sex with this year? Zero

165. Made a new friend YES!! :D

167. Laughed until you cried No

168. Met someone who changed you Not this year

169. Found out who your true friends were No

170. Found out someone was talking about you No?

171. What did you do for your last Birthday Went to dinner, I think

172. What time did you wake up today Noonish?

173. Name something you CANNOT wait for Well I have a date this weekend (!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and a con the next weekend, I think?

174. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time March :/

175. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life A few things

176. What are you listening to right now Critical Role!

177. When is the last time you had sex? Never! :D

178. Who's getting on your nerves right now Nobody

179. Most visited webpage ...Tumblr...

180. Favorite colour Dark red or blue or black

181. Nicknames El

182. Relationship Status Single

183. Zodiac sign Libra

184. Male or female Female

185. Primary school South

186. Secondary School Bellingham memorial

187. High school/college Bellingham

188. Eye color Brown/hazel

189. Height 5′11″

190. Do you have a crush on someone MAYBE

191. What do you like about yourself I’m kinda nice

192. Piercings 3, nips and lip

193. Tattoos No :/

194. Righty or lefty Righty

FIRSTS:195. First piercing My lip!

196. First best friend I don’t remember!

197. First hookup I’m a virgin

198. First Bestfriend You asked this?

RIGHT NOW:199. Eating Nothing

200. Drinking Nothing

201. I'm about to Finish this damn thing

202. Listening to Critical Role

203. Waiting for The weekend!

YOUR FUTURE:204. Want kids? Nah

205. Get married? Someday

206. Career Something cool!

WHICH IS BETTER:207. Lips or eyes Eyes

208. Hugs or kisses Both!

209. Shorter or taller Neither

210. Older or Younger Neither

211. Romantic or spontaneous Both?

212. Nice stomach or nice arms I don’t particularly care

213. Sensitive or loud Neither

214. Hook-up or relationship Relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:215. Kissed a stranger No

216. Drank hard liquor Ye

217. Lost glasses/contacts I broke glasses, not lost

218. Had sex Nope

219. Broken someone's heart Yes

220. Been arrested Nope

221. Turned someone down Possibly? I don’t recall

222. Cried when someone died Yes

223. Fallen for a friend Hella lol

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:224. Yourself Ehh

225. Miracles Ehh

226. Love at first sight No

227. Heaven In a sense

228. Santa Clause No lol

229. Kiss on the first date Maybe????? Never done it, don’t have a problem with it?

230. Angels Ehh

231. How would you label yourself? A few things

232. Someone You Pray Everyday For Nope

233. Did you sing today No

234. Who From All Your Ex's have You Cared The Most About No idea

235. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? I don’t think I would

236. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For Happiness

237. Are you afraid of falling in love? No

238. Do you like the way you look? FUCK no