#idc idc idc call me mad call me bitter

[clumsycapitolunicorn]

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[honeyhonest]

minors get blocked, 18+ only

told sinclair I needed to write crowley intox and by god I will write crowley intox!!!

✧˖°. a lesson in trust

warnings: gn!reader, penetrative sex mentioned, reader is (ADULT) yuu, kind of AU-ish since it takes place past book-8, nothing worse than kissing and repressed feelings, I could've made this nasty licentious porn but being in-character was too important to me. BOOOOO! not edited idc

length: guhhh

Your hand in his, your warm body slumped against the Headmage's side, he helps you into your bed.

"Ah, look at the state of you. And entirely my fault," he murmurs. "I shouldn't have taken my eyes off of you for a moment. I suppose I simply thought you would not overdo it..."

You won't let go of his hand. It's warm, even the metallic talons he wears as rings, which are smeared with your fingerprints and smell like pennies.

Crowley doesn't try to take it.

"And what will Professor Trein say? He'll have my head for this, no doubt. No matter how old you are," he says. "You could have gotten very sick, you know."

You kick off the blankets like a toddler throwing a tantrum. Your shoes go with it. When had those been undone? Crowley really can't take his eyes off of you for a second.

You have a way of surprising him.

"Hot?" he asks, prodding for, hoping for, a coherent response.

"Very,"

Good. Then you're not completely smashed. You might even be able to get out of bed come morning.

If Trein and Crewel and your young schoolfriends see you walking, even with a headache and a complaint about the sunny morning, Crowley won't be blamed for your little... indulgence.

"I'll open a window," he announces, rising from the bed with a flourish of his overcoat. His hand is cold where yours once held it.

You make some horrid moaning sound, like a cat wanting to be let inside on a hot summer day (speaking of which- Crowley makes a mental note to fetch Grim from the first-years for you) and he frowns. "Not good enough? You can't be that hot, Prefect,"

"It's not that," you pout. "Come back."

Crowley stares. He really should be going- he had promised the others that he'd return to the post-game celebration as soon as he put you to bed and made certain you were comfortable. It was so early in the evening, after all, and Night Raven College had just won its first victory against Royal Sword Academy in the interscholastic spelldrive tournament in one-hundred years. If there were any a cause for celebration, that was it. Crowley shouldn't be lingering at your bedside, he should be chatting and cheering and washing down his last century of sorry losses with whatever medicinally-bitter drink Sam had been carrying around like candy.

He hmphs at the thought. If there's anyone to blame for your bedridden state, it's Sam, not him.

"Crowley," you repeat, your voice faint and far from him as he stands at the window. "Come back."

Could he have been supervising you better than he was? Yes, of course. But you're not a sixteen-year-old boy, he would have thought you'd show some more decorum- especially around the people you so admired. Was it to spite him, then? Get him in trouble with the others? Did you take a sick satisfaction in watching him get scolded by his staff?

"Dire. Come back?"

The sound of his name on your tongue is not unwelcome, but uncomfortable. Crowley closes the window, deciding that you've both had enough cold air, and he stands over your bedside.

"That's Headmage to you," he corrects, tightly tucking you in your blanket again. It's not something he'd normally do, but, now, he needs something to keep his hands busy.

"You're mad at me?"

"I'm not," he lies. "It's improper to call me by my first name, in the company of others or not."

You look away. "You're mad at me,"

Crowley's fingers furl into a tight fist, and then release, not out of frustration but of guilt- and he can't have you seeing that on his face, no, no, then you'd know you're winning. But you could hear the clink of his talons, and you figure it out anyhow.

"Dire," you say again, your eyes meeting his (if you could even call them that), and your hand meeting the stiff fabric of his sleeve. You tug, once, twice. "Come closer, I have something to tell you."

You're either going to bite him or spit on him, he's sure of it.

Still, he does as you demand, sitting at the edge of your sickbed and listening. You sit with him, and hide your flushed face in your hands, giggling like a lovesick teenager (which is more frightening to Crowley than it is endearing).

Though he's thinking of nothing more than the party he's missing, he still glances towards the door to make certain it's closed.

"Prefect," he says. "I haven't got all night."

"It's important! I promise, I just-"

You laugh on, as if it were the funniest thought you've ever had- whatever it is. Crowley tenderly pulls your hands away from your sparkling eyes. "Silly thing. And here, you had me worried that you'd drank yourself sick. I'd have to fill out the infirmary report for you again, wouldn't I? I was dreading having to spend my entire evening at your bedside. And here you are, smiling as if I were your favorite thing,"

"Oh, but, Headmage," you say between breaths. "That's just it."

"What is? Don't tell me you're ill, after all this,"

"No. You are my favorite thing,"

Crowley's eyes dart to the window. He should have left that open, because now he can hardly breathe. He'd once heard that night air was bad for one's health, but he couldn't imagine a worse fate than suffocating in this room with your words weighing on his chest.

"...And you're drunk," he decides, more for himself than for you. "You won't remember a word of this in the morning."

"I remembered it yesterday. And the day before that. So I think I will,"

He shudders. He's still got your wrists in his hands, and when he realizes such, he lets them go.

"Then... am I to assume you're calling me your friend?" he asks.

"More than that,"

"More?"

"Aren't you?"

"Well..." Crowley coughs, straightening his tie. He'd really like to touch you, to cup your cheeks in his palms and press his mouth into the crook of your neck. He stays seated. "I am your Headmage."

"More than that,"

"Your boss,"

"More,"

"Your... best friend?"

You hum, closing your pretty eyes and thinking about that. "...Yes, I suppose that's what it is,"

"And that's all," Crowley says. It's a question he's trying to dress as a statement, but its pants are too short and its waistcoat too thin. You can see its skin, warm and salty with sweat.

Your eyelids flutter, and you give him this face, this terrible, terrible face, and he knows just what it is because he's seen it before, in the way you look at him, trouble spelt over your lips. You're reading him. You're deciding what he's thinking, you're deciding that you know him, which is a dangerous thing.

Sometimes, you're quite right. Sometimes not.

Tonight, he's an open book, and you're written over every page.

"Headmage..." you repeat, in a tone more intimate than it should be. He had asked you to call him that, and now he thinks he'd rather hear the stern way you say "Dire" to this: soft, reverent, loving.

He hates himself for it. He does. But the door is shut tight and the window is locked and the warm air in the room is making him mad, and the way your clothing is sitting on your shoulders is making him sweat, and you're looking at him as if you might be looking at someone you love, not in the way you hold Grim, or in the way you laugh with your schoolfriends, or in the way you admire Trein and Crewel, or in the way your eyes flicker with life when you talk about your home, but something different, something new, something for him, for only him. And he cradles your face in his hands and coos, "My Prefect," and presses his lips against yours, the beak of his mask brushing against your cheek.

He tilts his head just so, letting you sit comfortably beneath the touch of his lips, because he knows you've done enough for him, and perhaps it's his turn to do the work. He wants you to trust him as much as he trusts you.

One hand stays on your cheek, tenderly, his talons grazing against your neck. The other rests on your waist. Crowley couldn't help himself- he wanted to see how much more he could take of the permission you'd given. He is, of course, already hard, painfully so, though that goes without saying. His cock pushes and strains against the tautness of his pants, each shift sending an uncomfortable bolt to his core, making his stomach twist and turn with something tight. He'd become bedmates with that feeling since knowing you, quite acquainted with the miasma of unsatisfying self-sex.

He can't fuck you. Not now.

Though the thought of what you might feel like around him is enough to make him moan, pant and suppress his want for more by pressing himself deeper into your mouth, taking all that you'll give him, and giving all that you'll take.

it's been some centuries since he's engaged in such licentious an act as making out- but your tongue tastes of burning alcohol and the pleasantly hot feeling of it makes him forget about his cock, if only for a moment.

Such a messy, careless act. His spit and yours covers your chin, your hand teases at his thigh, and you're conscious enough to swirl your tongue around his, but not to suppress the hiccup that happens when he pushes too deep.

Crowley comes to his senses and breaks the kiss, leaving nothing but a thin string of saliva between your lips as proof that there ever was one. You both pant, and he knows you want more. He can see it. It tests the tightness in his stomach and in his pants, which he swiftly and effectively suppresses by fixing the blankets around you.

"Now, there. You need your rest, if you're sick tomorrow then I'll be to blame. For certain, now," he grumbles.

"Headmage," you whine. He can make out the curves of your body beneath the blanket. "Pleeease fuck me."

"No," he says, swiftly. "Not- no, you're unwell."

He stands, the taste of you still on his tongue and the effect of you still uncomfortable in his pants (he can't imagine how he's going to take care of that without going home), and he steps into the hall.

Your voice follows him, and though he can't see you, anymore, it has the very same effect that your body and breath did.

"Tomorrow, then?" you ask.

You're drunk. He's an idiot.

And yet still, if you don't hate him as much as he hates himself come morning, he might entertain the thought.

"Tomorrow, Prefect," he mutters, his own voice weak. "Sleep well, my dear."

He can hear the smile in your tone, and it does his dick no favors.

"Ah... I will. I know I can count on you,"

[scarlettluvrwp]

seeing people i don’t like meeting my favorite actress is another level of pain. i am not a hater or anything —okay maybe a little bit— but if you write love stories with inappropriate scenes —you know very well what i mean— about scarlett johansson and got or will get to see her in a near future, just know that i loathe you.

no, she is not your ‘comfort person’. no, she is not the woman who saved your life. no, you are not her fan. if you were, you wouldnt write nasty things about someone you claim to love. especially when you’re one of the first people to get mad about her sexualisation in movies.

call me bitter or a hater, idc. yes i am jealous.

[skelly-words]

Guys, I have OC content

It's actually really old (from highschool... but i live for cringe) and way different from anything else I have up, but idc. I love them and want to expand their universe too. So...

Of Bic Lighters and Bad Parenting

cw- teenagers being angsty (smoking, mentions of self-harm, inigo is rlly emo)

The three of them stand in the abandoned lot with little regard for the legality of it. An old convenience store with broken windows sits in the middle of the parking lot, pressed against the horizon. The sky is a deep shade of blue. Silence smothers them. It seems wrong to disturb the still January morning. Though calling it morning is a stretch as the clock has hardly reached tomorrow. 

Inigo, the oldest, flicks ash off the end of his cigarette and brings it to his lips. His inhale is careless, painting the inside of his lungs a lifeless shade of gray.

“Those’re bad for you,” Eden says. She’s the youngest, barely coming up to her older brother’s shoulder.

The last of the three, Agni, gives her a sharp glare.

Inigo bears a bitter smile, hissing words from between his teeth. “Like I don’t know that already. You’re stating the obvious, Eden.” He takes another drag, and a plume of malign smoke escapes with his exhale. 

Agni doesn’t say anything, but an empty bottle of lighter fluid falls from her limp fingers. It’s caught by the slick ground, a product of its own contents.

Inigo addresses her next. “Do you have a lighter on you? I left mine in the car.”

Agni lifts her shoulders with mild indifference. “I‘m not sure if I have one.”

“Yes, you do.” Notes of exasperation crawl between Inigo’s syllables.

Agni digs around in her jacket with an annoyed grumble, then produces a worn, yellow pocket lighter from the folds of fabric. She absently flicks at the flint, scattering bright sparks into the night.

The abandoned convenience store looks a bit sad and lonely under the feeble glow of the streetlights. Eden stands behind her siblings, observing how gasoline snakes away from the building in an opalescent trail. It forms a pool at the toes of Agni and Inigo’s sneakers. They’re wary of its flammable nature, not letting it touch the soles of their shoes.

“The lighter, Agni?” Though phrased as a question, Inigo demands it.

“Don’t give it to him,” Eden spits. “Don’t let him go through with this, Agni, please.” Eden looks too tired for thirteen. She drowns in the fading street lights, washed out by the dim headlights of a hand-me-down Honda Civic. 

“Inigo, this is too far,” Eden says. “This is too much, too risky. I can count a million better ways to become numb.”

“No, let’s not lie to ourselves, Eden. You don’t understand why I want to do this, you can’t, so stop wasting time by pretending you do.” Inigo stoops to level with his sister, his whisper is soft and low. “If I wanted to be numb, then I’d just die, Eden.”

She scoffs. “Don’t say that, idiot. You wouldn’t-” 

“I wouldn’t? I couldn’t,” he rescinds just as quickly as he confesses. “But that doesn’t stop me from wanting to.”

“You can’t. I need you. Agni needs you.”

“No.” Inigo shakes his head. “Agni is capable of taking care of herself.” He kicks an empty gas can, content in watching it skid across the cracked asphalt. It comes to a stop when it hits an empty bottle of turpentine. “But she can’t look after you too.”

Inigo tilts his head back. He lifts the cigarette from his lips to blow smoke at the stars. “Maybe I can’t either.” He looks more exhausted than usual. “When you knocked on the door to my room this morning, Eden, with that same, predictable look on your face. You know the one. That look you always get when mom slaps you around. I couldn’t even look at you. I was so mad. You couldn't begin to understand the extent of my anger. And it’s a bit funny now that I think about it. Well, not really, but it is. Because I wasn’t mad at mom, I was mad at you, Eden.” His voice breaks. The vicious whisper that he’d worked so hard to maintain finally fractures. A small crack that’s inconsistent with Inigo’s rambling calm. “I always think, What if Eden could keep her mouth shut?” 

“Some thoughts should be kept to yourself,” Agni snaps.

“I know, but now’s as good a time as any for full disclosure.” He pulls the smoldering cigarette from his mouth and pushes the hot end of it into his skin, eyes screwed shut until the embers go dark. It leaves a ghastly bubble of red to accompany the other indents on his arm. “Besides, it’s ultimately my fault; what kind of brother am I if I can’t keep you and Eden safe?” He flicks the leftover stub onto the floor.

Agni doesn’t speak, whether it be refusal, or purely distaste for her answer.

“Who am I if I can’t keep my little sisters safe?” Inigo asks, mumbling the words under his breath while a hand drags over his face. “Tell me.” A trail of stale cigarette smoke and vitriol is stuck to his syllables like nicotine on wallpaper.

“Don’t be so dramatic,” Agni says.

“Sorry.” A hollow apology.

“Please, can we just go home?” Eden asks, the attempt is desperate and half useless.

“Sure, Agni can take you.”

“No, I can’t,” Agni says. “How will you get home?”

“I won’t.”

“No! No that’s not-” She pulls the car keys from her hoodie pocket, and shoves them toward Inigo’s chest. He makes no effort to take them, letting the cluster of keys fall onto the blacktop. “Where will you go?”

“Dunno.” Inigo pulls another cigarette from his pocket, holding it loosely between his lips. “Not home, that’s for damn sure.” The cigarette is pocketed again, useless without the means to light it.

“No, you’re not going anywhere.” Agni takes a breath for control. “We’re gonna set this stupid store on fire, and then you’re coming home with us.”

“Fine.”

“You promise?”

“I don’t like promises,” Inigo says, a bitter statement to match the desperation in kerosene-drenched floors.

“I don’t care.”

Inigo folds. “We light this, and I’ll stay. I promise.”

“Good, because I wouldn’t have let you leave anyways.” Agni holds out her hand. A promising flash of yellow is knotted between her knuckles. “Dad already did, and if you do too, I’ll never forgive you.”

Inigo’s movements are clumsy as he takes the lighter from Agni. The unsteady nature of his hands leaves his fingers fumbling on the plastic, made slick by sweaty palms.

“Thank you.” Inigo sighs, holding the lighter in a white knuckle grip. It’s a touch of reprieve in his cold hands. He doesn’t waste his time, flicking the sparkwheel until he deems the device satisfactory. 

Inigo snaps the rubber band on his wrist twice before tugging it off completely. It’s a nasty piece of elastic, the kind that holds vegetables together at the grocery store. He secures it around the lighter, holding the red button down with a quiet hiss of escaping butane. A flick of the wheel ignites the gas, bringing a small orange flame to lap at the air. He glances at Eden, searching for acceptance, or even for something as bold as support.

“Don't,” Eden says, “for me?”

“For the love of God, Eden, shut up!” Agni’s voice is shrill, “he's done enough for you, let him have this.” She gives Inigo a final, reassuring nod. “Go on then.” The two girls take a few steps back, shrinking away from the puddle on the asphalt. “Light it up.”

Inigo’s next inhale is slow and deliberate, a last breath before the air itself is scorched beyond repair.

He drops the lighter. The plastic clatters on the blacktop, laying next to the amalgamation of accelerants; a sharp exhale when it turns to a flame.

Inigo fumbles backward to stare in awe at their creation. His lungs burn. Hot and familiar. Wisps of orange claw the building, voracious, careful, shrinking away from cool slabs of concrete to gnaw at exposed wood and soot-stained paint.

“What do I do now?” Inigo asks, choking on the heavy cloud of black smoke emanating from the flames. “I don’t know what to do.”

“We leave,” Eden says. She grabs her brother’s hand and tugs him through the smoke. 

The walk to the car is quiet, and nobody questions when Inigo crawls into the backseat. He drapes himself across the upholstery, lengthy limbs spilling onto the floor of the car. Agni starts the engine, pulling out of the lot, and onto the empty street. She glances at the burning building in her rearview mirror, then at her brother sleeping in the backseat. A sigh of relief slips from Agni’s lips, disappearing into the comforting hum of the car’s heater.

[planetbass]

funnybunny is literally the only jax ship that has any appeal to me. overall jax is seen as like an annoying twink but bc the only other male characters in the show r an older widowed man and a mentally unstable ai, neither of which jax would have any sort of chemistry with anyways, the only sustainable ships with him are with the 3 girls and zooble.

these are all my personal opinions so dont come at me with pitchforks or anything. idc if you like any of these ships for any reason, have your fun, i just like to analyze these freaks. ok disclaimer over.

TL;DR: i think funnybunny is the only jax ship that "makes the most sense" in terms of character, considering pomni is the newest member of the circus that doesn't yet have a solid established relationship with jax. i also personally just find them to be the most compelling compared to the other potential ships with jax.

ok now onto the actual ramblings.

with zooble, them and jax seem to have a bickering sibling relationship to me. zooble's the only one who really shuts jax down when he's being mean or stupid, which in turn isn't entertaining to him, so he shifts targets. i do think this also allows them to get along the best compared to jax with the other circus members, but i don't think they're like, particularly close. zooble's just the only one that meets jax at his level by retaliating or shutting him down.

with gangle... jax is just too mean to her for me to find it appealing (even in like a toxic relationship or bitter exes sorta thing). gangle is an easy target for jax because she's sensitive and doesn't fight back. the only time so far that she has was very circumstantial and while she was literally manic and in a perceived position of power over him. and even then, she's barely masking her true feelings; she's still hurt by him (and others). idk i can see how you can twist their dynamic into something more equal and interesting, but personally it doesn't do anything for me. jax picks on her just because he can and because he sucks.

ragatha is by far the most popular choice for jax shippingisms and i can see why, but again on a personal level it just isn't isn't my thing. ragatha is jax's #1 target for teasing and pranking because ragatha consistently has the biggest reactions, which in turn is most entertaining for jax. she gets scared easily, she's trusting and people-pleasing, she screams when scared, she gets mad at him, she yells at and reprimands him. this is fun for him. i think back to ep 2 when he calls her licorice hair, she clutches her hair and yells at him, upset, to which he seems proud of himself. the other characters probably would've just rolled their eyes and ignored him, but ragatha getting riled up at even just a small comment is where he gets his entertainment. his constant teasing and her falling for it/putting up with it (despite protesting) again feels very siblinglike to me, especially since jax is very raggedy andy-inspired. ep 4 even reveals to us that ragatha straight up doesn't like jax, but still wants to be liked by him. this goes back to ragatha's people pleasing nature – she wants to be liked by everyone, even if she doesn't like them, and already we know this is to her own detriment (coming off as disingenuous). this particular interaction with jax can be read in a way where she's got like, repressed feelings for him. that's fine, though definitely an interpretation made when wearing shipping goggles lol. and jax's teasing of her in particular definitely doesn't come across as a "being mean to a crush" thing on jax's end either. again, out of all the ships i can see how this one is most popular, but personally it doesn't do anything for me.

the biggest reason these ships don't do anything for me is because these dynamics are already established by the time the show starts, and i don't see them changing too significantly anytime soon. nobody likes jax, including pomni, but at least with pomni i can see that changing.

pomni is still new to the circus, still settling in and getting used to everything. by ep 4 she seems like she's almost completely adjusted. while she's been adjusting, jax has been testing his limits with the new circus member. in eps 2 and 3 in particular, jax is teasing pomni during their shared screentime, like he's seeing how she'll react and how much she'll retaliate. so far she hasn't really fought back but isn't afraid to call him an asshole in ep 2, though she's still pretty shell-shocked in that one, so it's possible now that she's more comfortable she'll be willing to challenge him more. by ep 4 it's clear that pomni doesn't like jax nor does she trust him, yet she also was part of a miraculous moment... where jax wasn't being an asshole and had his guard down. all it took was one day of working fast food to completely suck the soul out of his body. and clearly pomni is taken aback by this interaction, as the scene lingers on her for a moment after jax makes his leave.

pomni is established as someone who is upfront and honest, but also extremely empathetic and doesn't want anyone to feel like they're alone or unwanted. we even see in ep 4 that she knows how to show this in different ways – talking didn't work with gangle, because gangle closed up again before getting too vulnerable, but pomni was able to show gangle support and kindness through actions later on. in that moment with jax, i think pomni is realizing, oh yeah, this guy can be genuine, and like, has emotions. he's capable of being normal but chooses not to be, instead pushing others away. i think this little moment could be the very start of pomni eventually breaking through to jax, whenever that time comes. the others have reached a point with jax where they won't give him the time of day, or probably wouldn't take him seriously if they did. personally, i think pomni is the most capable of having a heart-to-heart (ish) moment with jax. she isn't one to sugarcoat things or dance around topics, but she's also sensitive in how she approaches these things.

jax is very troubled and impulsive (as said by gooseworx), but i get the impression he's also inherently very anxious (based on this ask response where gooseworx said jax was gifted hydroxyzine in the glitch christmas render, which is a prescription antihistamine that also treats insomnia and anxiety). he has an established personality that he wants to stick to; he is masking just as much as everyone else, if not the most out of all the characters. i can see jax as worried about acting "out of character" in front of the others – he has an established relationship and role and personality with the other circus members and breaking that mold can be very anxiety inducing. he is in the process of molding this same mask around pomni, but i think their dynamic is new enough that it can be changed. i think that jax will be more willing to open up around pomni than the other characters because she's the new one, because she doesn't know him as well as the others [think they do].

that's been my thought on their dynamic since the get-go, but especially after their moment in episode 4 i can really see pomni as being the only one who will be able to get through to jax, or the only one willing to understand him. she's also the main character let's be for real.

i also think jax just... likes pomni more than the others. this i can't really explain and is definitely my personal bias. truthfully you can't rly tell what his opinions are of the others, but it's the impression i get based on what he's said about the others and how he interacts with them.

i dont even completely see them as a romantic ship either. just like. idk. i can see them in particular getting close, platonic or romantic. jax needs someone to confide in and/or actually be able to relax around, and i can equally see pomni becoming more relaxed and silly due to his influence. she needs to grow into her jester shoes.

[saetoru]

call geto ru. he hates it <3

𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐆𝐄 | 𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐔𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐔.

tags: college au!, suggestive comments, i characterized him how i wanted to idc

notes: in that case i’ll call him that just to make him mad <3

“don’t call me that,” geto huffs quietly, rolling his eyes as you snort from your spot on his chest. the television is simply background music at this point, and you don’t think either of you has paid attention in the last fifteen minutes to the movie playing—but you think you have other things you’re rather be watching right now. like the pout that’s slowly tugging at geto’s lips.

“what’s wrong with it?” you raise a brow, eyes laced with amusement as he grunts.

“sounds stupid,” he mutters quietly.

“i think it’s cute,” you insist, “a cute little nickname for my cute little boyfriend.” you lean up to peck his jaw with a giggle, and even despite the clear unhappiness sprawled across his features, he tightens his arm around your waist.

“i am not little,” he says firmly, and he almost sounds insulted that you’d make such an untrue claim, “i think i’ve shown you that more than once.”

“okay, maybe not little,” you hum in agreement, “but you’re definitely cute.”

at first glance, geto is not cute—he’s trouble. he’s got piercings lining his ears and tattoos littering his arms, and on most days, despite your incessant protests, he’s got a cigarette between his lips. he speeds when he drives and skips class when he wants and picks fights when he shouldn't. he’s bad news if you’ve ever seen it, but all things considered, you think he’s rather beautiful.

there’s beauty in the way geto isn’t a perfect picture, in the way he isn’t painted with careful brush strokes through deliberate thought. he’s shattered glass, each piece picked up and laid out until he’s built himself to be a mosaic of colors that leave you awestruck—and, when he’s lounging in gray sweats and a faded pacman t-shirt, you think there’s an air of innocence to him that no one else but you gets to witness. and it’s adorable, and you think you should remind him—even if he’s not the biggest fan of said reminder.

“don’t call me that stupid nick—”

“but it’s so cute,” you pout, “and suguru is long. ru is nice and short.”

“it’s so fucking dumb.”

“aw, but i love you, ru,” you emphasize the last part as you giggle loudly, leaning up to plant a wet kiss on his cheek. he pauses, turns his face to glare at you harshly—though it’s never really harsh if it’s at you—and scoffs, turning his attention back to the movie.

he doesn’t even know what’s happening anymore, not when he’s missed everything in the last twenty minutes, but he pretends to be deeply transfixed as you poke his chest repeatedly.

“you have to say it back,” you protest, whining when he doesn’t spare you a glance. “ru, you have to say it back when i—”

“‘m not saying it until you call me by my real name.”

“but it’s not as cute,” you huff, furrowing your brows, “quit being so bitter. satoru lets me call him toru all the time, he never—”

“wait, you have a nickname for satoru?” he interrupts, suddenly very interested in you once more. his head whips to look at you in shock, like your words are cold water splashed on his skin—and he thinks you might as well just drown him while you’re at it. “why does satoru have a nickname before me?”

“i call you babe,” you roll your eyes, “i don’t call him babe.”

“so is that the only privilege i get?” geto raises a brow as he questions you dryly. you fight back a smile, but it tugs at the corners of your lips anyway, making him flick your forehead as he fights his own grin.

“you’ve seen me naked,” you point out, “that’s a rather generous privilege.”

the smile wins, and it tugs at his lips this time as he chuckles lowly, pulling you closer as his hand sneaks up your shirt to rub your bare back. “true,” he grins widely, “seeing you naked is quite the privilege.”

and this is the geto the world doesn't quite understand—the one they don’t have the pleasure of seeing. the one whose smile is gentle and as warm as the sun on your face and soft as the grass under your feet, whose eyes are deep enough that you could fall headfirst. except falling is not falling with geto—you don’t even make it close to the bottom when his arms tug you into his chest and his nose digs into your neck and you feel the world pressed into your palms as he surrenders himself to you.

the shards of glass he’s rearranged aren’t as jagged at the edges as they seem when you look up close, and he doesn’t slice your skin open with his touch. and when he glitters under the rays of light that peak in through the curtains every morning, when the colors seem just a tad bit more vivid today than they did yesterday, you know your geto isn’t the geto the rest of the world knows.

your geto isn’t the stone-faced man whose name is a fearful whisper—he’s the boy in your grasp that pouts at the nickname you give him, the one whose skin flushes red as blush dances across his cheeks under your fingertips.

“is that all you’re here for? just to see me without any clothes?” you scowl, flicking his forehead. his hand grabs your retreating one, tugging it to his lips as he presses a chaste kiss to your wrist.

“don’t act like you’re not here for the same,” he snorts. “but you really call him toru? does he like it when you do?” by now, his voice adopts an edge to it, and the sudden realization makes his eyes narrow, “that asshole. i’ll knock him out next time i see him.”

“well at least he’s appreciative of my nicknames, unlike some people,” you glare at him, and geto thinks this is what everyone means when they say true love is sacrifice—he sacrifices his pride and quite possibly his dignity as he sighs deeply and caves.

“okay, you can call me that,” he grumbles, cringing at the way your eyes light up and then glint with mischief. something tells him you’d have called him that either way—but this, the permission, it makes it all the more dangerous.

“i knew you loved it,” you tease, pinching his cheek with a chuckle. “you’re too easy to read.”

“i hate it,” he scrunches his face in distaste. but truth be told, there’s a small part of him that can’t deny he’s almost giddy that he’s more than just suguru in your eyes.

“you love it. now say it back.”

“i hate it,” he insists stubbornly, but there’s a smile that pulls at his lips as he pecks your forehead, “but i guess i love you, though.”

and when your fingertips reach to trace over his skin, and love pours from your touch like a dripping faucet he never wants to fix, it fills into the cracks of the shattered pieces, building him whole and new.

i’m in writers block this short ass drabble took me hours to write sobsobsob i’m struggling yall. terribly so.

[goldencherryhazz]

For Me?

A/n: I haven’t written anything in ages so this is probably going to be shit but idc! I hope you enjoy it tho :)

Warnings: mostly fluff, a pinch of angst and a smutty twist at the end!

‘Thankyou!’ Harry waved at the florist as he exits the shop juggling shopping bags and the beautiful bunch of flowers he had got for his girl, it was a Friday night and you had had a stressful week at work, from paperwork to rude clients, it had really taken a toll on you, so Harry thought that the least he could do was get you flowers and make dinner for you.

He pulls up into your driveway, excited to see you even though he had seen you last this morning, there was just something about having you in his presence that comforted him no end. Once he manages to open the front door he is greeted with the warm of your home instantly hearing him up from the bitter London air, he also registers the scent of you favourite candles lingering in around the hallway.

‘Y/n where are you darling’ he sing songs gracefully dumping the contents of his hands onto the floor, obviously being careful with the flowers.

‘In here H’ you call from the living room, and it’s like his ears are drawn to the sound of your voice as his legs instantly start moving to your destination. Upon seeing you he frowns, you nose was buried in pages and pages of paperwork and files, a laptop set up next to you and you seem to be spitting yourself between the two writing 1 second then moving to your laptop the next.

‘Hi H, you okay?’

No’ he says quite bluntly, noticing the bags that were starting to grow under you eyes from lack of sleep.

‘Why not, what happened lovie’ and he could cry at the fact that you were concerned about his well-being whilst having not payed any attention to your own.

your overworking yourself baby, don’t like seeing you all stressed because you are drowning yourself with your work

‘You look up to him ‘oh I thought something bad had actually happened to you, panicked me a bit.’

He can’t help but get angry at that, he hated that she was so blazé about her own mental health ‘baby something is wrong, and I’m not going to stand here another second and let you do any more work, your done’ he walks over closed the lid of you laptop firmly .

Bu-

‘No buts darling, you’ve done so much for your job but not anything actually for yourself, need to take a break and look after that pretty head of yours’

‘I can’t just leave it though, my boss will go mad at me and there are other colleagues that need me to do my bit before they can do thier job’

Does it sound or look like I give two shits about them, I only care about you and those emails and that paperwork is still going to be there on Monday, the world isn’t going to stop because you didn’t answer an email and if anyone has anything to say about it then they can come to me and I will make them wish they hadn’t said anything at all’, he say sternly.

You sit there and don’t even argue with him because you know that he is right and you do need to take some time for yourself ‘I’m sorry bub’ you say defeated

‘No, no apologising baby, you don’t have anything to be sorry for just hate seeing you like that, he kneels down infront of where you’re perched on the sofa reaching a hand up to stroke your cheek and you muzzle into it, a wave of comfort falling over you the after affects making you a bit less stressed than you had been for the past few days.

‘I got something for you actually baby, give me two ticks. He tottles off to the hallway before promptly returning to the living room obviously carrying something behind his back ‘close you eyes and hold your hands out darling’ he smiles at you. He places the bunch in your awaiting hands ‘you can open those pretty eyes now’

‘When you do you are greeted with a beautiful selection of jasmine, peonies and cherry blossoms’, and for some reason you start to tear up

‘Those are for me?’ You look up at him and the sight is heartbreaking to him, he wanted to make you happy not cry.

‘Yeah they’re yours baby, what’s wrong darling why are you crying.

‘No one’s bought me flowers before’ you smile through the tears and Harry swears if words could kill he would have dropped dead on the floor.

‘You’re not being serious baby, no one’s ever had the decency to buy you flowers?’ He says gobsmacked.

‘Yeah, my ex never really got me anything like this just out of the blue I was lucky to get something on my birthday.’ You pick at some of the delicate petals.

Harry can’t get his head around it the fact that his girl had never been bought flowers before, he got angry all over again, the frown on his face was highlighting the thoughts swirling in his brain. ‘People are dickheads’ he states quite matter of factly.

Sitting down next to you he places his ringed fingers over your thigh before muttered ‘c’mere baby’ he gestures for you to come closer. You put the bunch of flowers down carefully not wanting a single petal to be damaged, and then climb into his lap. He immediately pulls you in for a cuddle and you nuzzle your tear stained face into his warm neck, he starts to leave little kisses across the visible part of you face and neck to which you giggle out at, you don’t stay like this for too long because soon he hooks a finger under you chin lifting your face out of the confinements of his neck wanting a proper kiss, you melt into it instantly his hands grabbing the sides of your face.

He pulls away eventually his green orbs still staring into yours ‘I just want you to know baby that I don’t know what the fuck was going though your ex’s head but a girl like you deserves all the flowers in the world’ and you could cry at that. ‘Thankyou H, your the best, you know that right’ he smiles a big toothy grin at that.

‘You don’t need to thank me baby, gonna buy you all the flowers in the world i swear’ he connects your lips after that symbolising to you that he meant it with it his whole heart.

A kiss turned into a heated makeout session, his teeth nipping at your bottom lip before exploring your mouth with his tongue, the subtle grind of your hips against him making his cock begin to harden in the confines of his trousers. ‘Fuck baby, feels so good’ he grasps your hips pressing you down even further against his cock, the stimulation to your clit sending a euphoric rush up your spine, the moan you let out filling the entire room.

After a few more moments to Harry’s surprised you lift yourself from his lap making his hands drop harshly to the sofa, his mouth parting in shock, and the tent in his trousers entirely too prominent.

‘Where do you think your going’ he says utterly confused.

‘Gotta go and put my flowers in water, wouldn’t want them to die now would I’ you say grasping the bunch, smiling at him all too innocently like the past 5 minutes failed to exist.

‘Such a little minx, you know that’

‘Guess you’re going to have to punish me then aren’t you?’ You shout from the kitchen over the running tap.

He swear he feels his pupils dilate at that, ‘fuck your so hot, how did I get soo lucky.’ He contemplates the love he had for you, knowing that by morning would have the imprints of his initials all over your ass, truly marking you as his.

[alrightsnaps]

The Secrets of Dumbledore First Impression rant

– Jude Law and Mads Mikkelsen are the best Dumbledore and Grindelwald we could've hoped for and I'll NEVER shut up about it, I don't know who that ugly fossil in CoG was

– as far as I'm concerned the movie was back to the first installment's standards if not better (my grindeldore heart is biased sorry lmao)

– I don't know how anyone could watch Albus and Gellert in SoD and call this movie queerbaiting, not only is it repeatedly mentioned that the two of them were in love but everything about Jude and Mads' acting in their scenes shows the love and heartbreak and longing for one another

– still can't believe they killed off my girl Leta, they really picked the worst movie for her to feature in I needed her in SoD

– they'd better keep sidelining Newt in favour of Dumbledore and Grindelwald not to mention political figures like Vicência

–  I've been hyped af about Lally's character since it was announced she'd be a main character in SoD and she did NOT disappoint

– Jacob keeps being a ray of sunshine and delivering 80% of the comedy in the movie

– THE DUO OF LALLY AND JACOB

– there was some heavy exposition at the beginning of the movie but I get why it's there tbh

–  I was a bit disappointed that we didn't get to see Rio and the Brazilian Ministry of Magic (I think it was originally meant to be in this movie but I guess with the rewrites it must've been pushed back for the next one?) but my guess is that we'll be seeing more of Brazil's wizarding world very soon given Vicência's character

– I don't know if this is an unpopular opinion but I'M A SUCKER FOR THE POLITICAL BACKGROUND AND WORLDBUILDING. That's the aspect of the franchise that most appealed to me when I watched the first movie and I loved everything about the International Confederation of Wizards and the election plot

– still bitter that these movies have wizards dressed as Muggles even in the wizarding world GIVE ME THOSE ECCENTRIC WIZARD ROBES MAN

– another personal criticism is the lack of Grindeldore flashbacks! I need a flashback of Toby Regbo and Jamie Campbell Bower as Albus and Gellert being young and in love WHO DO I HAVE TO BRIBE FOR THIS TO HAPPEN

–  this is officially a Vicência Santos fan account and if they don't make her into a main character in future installments I'm suing

– my sexy evil French lady Vinda Rosier doing evil things while looking stylish af >>>>

– JACOB AT HOGWARTS OMG I NEED AN ENTIRE MOVIE OF JUST THIS

– baby slytherins being pranking little shits lmao I love them

– maybe I'm biased because of the abusive piece of shit that is Ezra Miller but I couldn't care less about his knockoff Snape character, I just hope he's dead by the next movie

– on the other hand I found the way Credence fits into Aberforth's story heartbreakingly suitable given Abe's hp arc? The way he treasured Ariana and watched her suffer because she couldn't control her magic as an Obscurus and then history repeating itself with his son....the tragedy there

– the scene where Dumbledore recounts the events that led up to Ariana's death, his guilt and heartbreak...it just made me weep

– I really liked the fighting scenes! Though I grew up with the hp books and love them I've never been a fan of the movies post Cuarón and the fight scenes have been one of their most underwhelming parts imo, so I was glad to see some improvement there

– the scene were Dumbledore and Grindelwald finally confront each other was simply EPIC and so emotionally charged, I do not have the words to explain how much I loved everything about it

– I loved that they gave Queenie her happy ending with Jacob rather than having her go full villain! I think she offered some pretty realistic representation of how people with good intentions can be manipulated by demagogues until they're too far gone. Her pain and anguish when she meets with Jacob in Bhutan convinced that there's no way back for her after what she did? I'm a Queenie apologist idc

– kinda disappointed by the way the cruciatus curse was visually portrayed??? also the way it was brushed off by jacob afterwards just felt weird

– more of tina in the next movie please!

– overall the damage control they did after the mess that was cog worked as far as I'm concerned, I was extremely disappointed when they casted d*pp as grindelwald and was pretty much done with the franchise (it took me like two years to even watch the second movie and it still kinda felt like a chore) but they've finally done him justice this time around and I'm very glad because my excitement about the movies is back in full force

[konowhore]

aoba johsai headcanons | watching a volleyball game with them

warning(s): spoilers from season 2-3, not proofreaded 

a/n: these are,,, very long HAHA and i’m so sorry that these are like,,,,,, all ending with reader and bf sleeping LMAO...

prompt: you watch a volleyball game with your boyfriend. you didn’t realize that it was a game between the two teams his team lost to.

oikawa

PLEASE HE WAS SO BITTER IN SEASON 3 IT WAS SO FUNNY????

but anyways

he had dragged you to watch the shiratorizawa v. karasuno game bc ‘you’re my gf i need emotional support<3′

you didn’t really know much about volleyball, maybe the basics like positions, but you were still excited to watch

his ass would choose the seat farthest away from the court simply bc he didn’t want to be seen and he would make the snarkiest remarks while watching about how they played and you would just be like: .. yea..... 

he’d realize that you’re a little confused abt what’s going on and then go:

“need me to explain anything princess?”

you lean into him and nod a bit, turning your head to smile up at him

his glasses reflect some light but he shifts them so he can look you in the eyes

cue you blushing bc the looks he gives you ?? <333 it makes ur heart cartwheel

anyways he rubs circles on the back of your hand with his thumb, explaining to you about the big play that just happened

you would just stare at him and take glances at the game because he was just so admirable

he knew so much, he played really well

you knew he worked so hard to try and get nationals, yet his team ended up not making it

out of the blue while you both sit and watch, you stretch up to kiss his cheek

oikawa, who usually isn’t too flustered, has pink-dusted cheeks when he looks at you

“yes princess...?”

“nothing, i just adore you.”

the growing smile on his face makes you giggle and rest your head on his shoulder

the game continues, oikawa continuing to make remarks about each team, observing the game

you get a little bored, hugging his arm and watch the ball go back and forth 

oikawa pays really close attention tho bc he offers to take you home awwwwww

“if you’re tired we can go-”

“no it’s okay!! i like hearing your commentary uwu”

stop he’s so in love with you

like he would stare at you after that and just be all <3

and so you two stay for the whole game (you fell asleep some point,,,,,, woke up once to buy water LMAO)

watching volleyball with oikawa makes you realize how much he has a passion for it and you just admire him. so. much. 

and oikawa would be so grateful that you’re so supportive and he’d tell you a thousand times after the game that he’ll do anything for you bc you tagged along and everything pls <3

matsukawa

you two hang out at your place and land upon the shiratorizawa vs karasuno game

you: aren’t those the teams you guys lost to

issei: yeah and what about it. 

he’d jokingly pout and hide his face in your neck

“you’re mean </3″ he’d whine

you laugh and run your fingers through his hair 

he grins, his hands going to rub your back as you two watch the game on the screen

you recognize some of the players from aoba johsai’s previous games, humming while watching them play

issei is only half paying attention

“well he’s cute,” you note, watching the camera pan through the karasuno members, only for it to stop on the captain

issei would roll his eyes and smack your ass a little LMAO 

“he’s short,” he’d retort, chuckling soon after when you look at him and roll your eyes back at him

“okay and”

BYE HE’D JOKINGLY GET MAD AND GO “go date your new boyfriend then<3″

it’s all fun and games between you two tho and it’s soooo cute !!

he can be a little shit but 

anyways you’re cheering for karasuno, occasionally going ‘look at their captain omg <3′ 

issei would sit up with you still straddling him and he’d just press kisses against your neck, making you giggle and try to push him away

“stopppppppp”

“not until you take your eyes off of him~”

you run your fingers through issei’s hair once more, smiling and leaning down to kiss him 

“don’t worry issei, i’m all yours”

he’d lay back again, letting you lay on top of his chest

the game keeps going, you and mattsun sitting in comfortable silence while watching

your eyes are heavy and you don’t pay any attention to it

but then you wake up hours later, still on top of your bf’s rising chest

(pls i love him god i want to hug him and cuddle with him he’s so fucking cute <3333)

hanamaki

tbh semi was one of your old friends from middle school so he asked you to come to his game,,,

your boyfriend wanted to hang out with you so you asked if he wanted to go

HONESTLY he’d be like ‘since when did you talk to people from shiratorizawa’ but he’d be fine with it

maybe he’s a little bitter but lmao

you two go to look for your friend, and when you see him, you call his name and hug him

“eita!!”

makki:  🧍

semi: hi uwu

you would introduce them to each other all smiley 

there’s tension and for what

semi: okay well i have to go warm up

you: bye eita ^^

makki:,,,

PLEASE????????

you two would sit close to the school section and holy shit is hiro glad that he didn’t wear his team jacket LMAO he would’ve gotten flamed

anyways not you cheering for eita even tho you have no idea what the fuck is going on lmao

hiro is amused and he just thinks you’re so cute tbh 

he’s staring at you watching you yell out semi’s name even tho he wasn’t in the starting lineup help.

he’s such a dumbass tho pls 

HE WOULD PURPOSELY BOO ONCE WHEN SHIRATORIZAWA SCORES THEIR FIRST POINT DAKJNDKJBJKD

not these girls staring at y’all um......

you’d scold him and he’s just :P

anyways you take a break from cheering and you sit, leaning on your boyfriend’s shoulder

“hiro are you doing okay?” you mumble, playing with his hand

“mhm, are you?”

you nod at his question and watch the game continue

“you sure you’re okay?? you seemed kinda tense, maybevenalittlejealous, when i introduced you to eita”

“i’m fine baby don’t worry”

him: me???????????? jealous>?????????????????? no.

YOU WOULD TEASE HIM SOOOO MUCH AND HE KEEPS DENYING IT EVEN THO HE VERY SECRETLY IS

after the game, you drag your boyfriend along with you to tell eita he did a good job

he’d give you a really big and long hug in which hanamaki is just standing there 

you gush about how great eita was, earning a big smile from him

when you leave the gymnasium hand in hand with hanamaki, you cling onto his arm, your smile never leaving your face

“soooo did you like the game?” you ask, looking up at your unusually quiet boyfriend

“mhm”

“did you like meeting eita uwu”

“yeah-”

“were you jealous??”

“no comment.”

cue you teasing him while his cheeks become the same color as his pink hair 

he’d just remove his arm from your grasp and then wrap it around your waist to pull you closer to him

(SORRY I GOT SO CARRIED AWAY .......)

iwaizumi

i know we all know this but iwaizumi hajime best bf idc !!!

he honestly wanted to go see the game bc he just wanted to see how the teams would play against each other

he had asked you if you wanted to tag along so you agreed

in all honestly, he didn’t think you would want to because you don’t usually seem interested in it whenever he talks about it, but in truth, you listen to every word he says abt it pls TT

he loves u so so much and u love that he’s passionate about volleyball HE JUST,, DOESNT REALIZE THAT YOU LISTEN

like he thinks it’ll bother you if he talks about it too much <//3

he’s the one who is genuinely surprised when you point out a strategy karasuno had used

“y/n i didn’t realize you liked volleyball??”

“you talk about it all the time silly”

and you give him a kiss on the nose and he just :0

“hajime cmonnnn you took me to the game you should tell me more about it uwu”

STOP. he literally,,, loves u so much

he holds your hand, his little smile never leaving his face

you lean your head on his shoulder, watching the game on the court

when the tall blond blocks ushijima’s block, you flinch a bit and stand up to look closer, seeing the tall blond yell and his teammates following suit

you cheer along with them, your boyfriend finally standing up to stand next to you

his eyes are on you only, your hair bouncing with you as you jump in excitement, your eyes shimmering with excitement

his smile just grows as you grin , turning to him in excitement

“did you see that hajime?? :D”

STOPP HES SO IN LOVE HE JUST STARES AT YOU .

and u just :D

“hajime..???”

YOU HAVE TO SNAP YOUR FINGERS IN FRONT OF HIS FACE AND HE JUST SNAPS OUT OF IT AND LOOKS AT YOU

“you’re very beautiful princess, did you know that?”

that alone makes you go pink and you playfully push him by his arm

“baby stopppp”

and you’re both just laughing and watching the game together, spending the whole day with your hands intertwined 

(he.. hajime best boy)

yahaba

you had started watching the game a bit after the first set started and your boyfriend was busy taking a shower

you knew a lot in all honesty, since shigeru happened to be on one of the powerhouse schools in terms of volleyball throughout miyagi

if he was gonna be honest he wasn’t expecting you to sit down and actually watch a game of volleyball intently

so walking into his room seeing you focusing on the karasuno v. shiratorizawa match surprised him a bit

“you watching the game?” he’d ask

“mhm!! it’s really interesting uwu”

he finds it absolutely adorable but then he tries to flirt and flex his muscles like “babe look i just got out of the shower” AND YOU JUSt,, KEEP LOOKING AT THE TV

yahaba: baby *bites lip*

you: babe get dressed and come watch with me

goodbye he just throws a shirt and some shorts on and basically jumps on top of you in which you yelp and go “shiGERU” and his mom is ON HIS ASS !!!!!!!! she literally comes in and she’s like “shigeru stop jumping onto your gf” and you rlly stick your tongue out at him

him: you’re acting like a child

you: you STARTED IT.

and you guys bicker a little and you just go “well you made me miss half the game” and HE GETS SO MAD HELPPPP

“BOOOOO”

him: clinging onto you, asking you to cuddle him

you: watching the game

eventually you give in and hug him, kissing him which makes him go quiet

“are you happy now you baby?” you ask him

“.......maybe.....”

and he just gives you a quick kiss, smiling and also giving you a slight eskimo kiss

the game becomes an afterthought as he brings up the beach volleyball game the third years organized for tomorrow all day, asking if you could help his team out 

(he insists that since you’re the ref, you should help his team consisting of kyoutani, kunimi, hanamaki, and another first and second year win bc kyoutani will just keep spiking outside the lines but you tell him it’s cheating LMAO...)

watari

(btw he’s so underrated i mean he’s not one of my faves but he deserves the world like y’all sleep on him and for what)

he’s super observant and he had been watching recorded games for a while to learn and make sure he plays his best next year pls </3 

he had invited you over to his place to hang out and you really wanted him to take a break from watching all of those recorded games

you emphasized this when you told him you would come over lmao

but alas.........

when he opened the door and you looked at the tv to see what he had put on, you saw the shiratorizawa v. karasuno game

watari: I CAN EXPLAIN.

you: .... sir.. 

PLEASE he’s taking your hand and pulling you to the couch while saying he’ll relax and just watch for fun

you sigh and follow him, letting him pull you down to sit next to him on his couch

you throw your legs over his lap, smiling while looking at him

he would give you quick, soft kisses all over your face and you both just fall into a fit of giggles

stop u literally love watching him gaze at the tv so passionately and observe how they play </3

YOU GIGGLE AT HIM AND HE’S LIKE “what are you laughing about?”

AND YOURE JUST LIKE “you’re so cute uwu”

so y’all are really just out here giggling at each other huh....... 

he??? pulls you into his lap and hugs you tightly

he’s literally so in love with you pls

so you guys just sit there and watch the game while you occasionally ask him questions

he’d be happy to tell you and he’s holding onto you the whole. entire. time.

honestly the game kinda slips away from you because you’re suddenly asleep on his chest, his arms around your waist, a hand gently rubbing your back

and he’s so grateful that he has a girlfriend who cares about him and worries about him :((

he’d turn off the game and then take a little nap with u <3 

kindaichi

tbh you spent so much time with him after the game his team lost bc he kept beating himself up for it which is >:(((((

him: i could’ve-

you: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DO NOT BRING YOURSELF DOWN COME HERE LET ME KISS YOU

as you should !!

and when he tells you he’s gonna be watching the shiratorizawa vs karasuno match after school at his place, you tell him you’re watching with him too

“i don’t want it to bore you y/n-”

“it won’t bore me yutaro dw uwu”

no bc the way you’re both in love !!!!!

you would do anything for him tbh but you genuinely thought his passion for volleyball was cute :D

he was always striving to do his best and you think he’s absolutely precious

he’d turn on the game and then immediately come over to sit with you 

you lean onto him, clinging onto his arm and smiling

“y/n are you sure you wanna watch with me??”

“mhm!!”

he gives u a very soft kiss on the head and you can’t stop smiling bc you know he gets kinda shy abt showing affection

but he feels very warm and you start feeling very sleepy 

YOU TRY YOUR BEST TO KEEP YOURSELF AWAKE

you think him making comments abt the game or what he finds interesting is really cute but youre just,, tired ya know

he notices and he’s like “you should sleep-”

“noooo yutaro i’ll watch with youuuu”

“y/n cmonn”

you pout and lean turn to lean your forehead against his arm

“i don’t wanna </3″

“it’s okayyy you can sleep if youre tired”

you look at him and he smiles, leaning forward to kiss your forehead

you can’t help but melt and you’re just,, staring at him dreamily

he’s like “..baby..?”

and you just lean forward and kiss him

“you’re the best bf ever <3″

and he chuckles and goes “and you’re the best and cutest gf ever”

he has you lay down on his bed, your hair sprawled about his pillows

he lays with you, the two of you facing the tv and your back to him

he puts an arm around you, smiling

you slowly fall asleep, smiley and snuggling back towards yutaro

he kisses your head again, telling you that he loves you and hopes you sleep well 

he’s so<333

kunimi

he acts like he doesn’t give a rat’s ass about the game but you guys are chilling at his place and you flip to the channel that has the game on 

at first he’s like “you’re interested ?? in this ????”

you: babe,, of course i am,,  my bf is a volleyball player,,,,,?

PLS? he’d be like ‘oh ok’ and rest his chin on top of your head

it’s so chill between the two of you guys he’s literally just playing with your hair, humming a bit

you ask him smth but he asks you to repeat what you asked because he spaced out 

and when you ask again he just stares at you and is like ‘yes’

YOU JUST LAUGH AT HIM AND HE THINKS YOURE SO PRETTY so he just continues to listen to you ramble abt the game

eventually, he finds himself dozing off and you take notice as his chin starts feeling heavy on your head

“baby c’mon let’s take a nap-”

and he’d shake his head and go “we can finish the game-”

but you can tell he’s tired, especially from practice earlier today

so you turn off the game and turn so that you’re straddling his lap and hugging him tight

he wraps his arms around you and hums, kissing you

you smile and lean back to look at him, his eyes droopy from exhaustion

“sleep bby”

“mm only if you do too”

“i will dw <3″

and you just cling onto him, arms around his neck

he hums,  nuzzling your neck and you giggle

eventually, you two start breathing slowly, falling asleep

(tbh you didn’t rlly even care who won you just watched the game bc it was on LMAO)

kyoutani

you guys were hanging out in your room, his head in your lap while you sat up against your pillows

you were both occupied by your phones atm

he put his phone down, looking up at you curiously

you smiled as he reached to intertwine his fingers with yours

he had been at the gym more often, playing volleyball and practicing 

especially after their loss against karasuno :( 

today was one of the days that he decided he would spend his time being with you 

he doesn’t voice it often, but he appreciates how much you support him and care for him

(you picked him up from the gym the other day with some of his favorite deep fried chicken bits with the cute chicken packaging and he didn’t know how else to show you how much he loves and appreciates you other than by cuddling with you all night pls i’m </3)

anyways he’s just staring at you, admiring you, thinking about how much he loves you while you’re watching some tiktok your friend had sent you 

you had asked if he wanted to watch the game with you on your phone but he had been occupied thinking about you 

“what’d you say-?”

“i asked if you wanted to watch the game with me..? if you don’t want to it’s fine-”

“oh sure”

and he’d adjust himself so that he’s sitting with you, shoulder-to-shoulder, leaning his head so that it lays on top of yours

you’d just be all smiley, leaning into him more while playing the live stream of the game

he seemed focused, watching the game intently

you tried to focus on the game, but the only thing you could think about was the way kyoutani was holding your hand, rubbing the top of it with his thumb

eventually, as the game continues, he huffs a little, making you look up and smile at him

“you okay? we can stop watching if you want-”

“it’s fine-”

and then he adjusts himself, scooting away from you to lay his head in your lap

he reaches for your hand and puts it on his head, looking up at you

you oblige, gently rubbing his head and smiling

his eyes are closed, a slight hum coming from him

after a while, you realize kyoutani had fallen asleep, so you turn the game on your phone off

during this, kyoutani grumbles, reaching for your hand

you can’t help but giggle a little, rubbing his head while humming a little

“get some rest baby~” you croon quietly, staring at him lovingly

he opens his eyes a little, giving you a small smile

“you too okay..?”

“mhm-!”

when he closes his eyes, you smile, mumbling a little ‘i love you’ to your boyfriend

[quetzalpapalotl]

Someone on Discord asked me why I love IDW Optimus and I thought I might as well put my answer here as well, since I don't think I've explained that properly here

Firts of all, I love Optimus in general. Optimus is great. I love him so much. I love G1 dad Optimus, TFP paragon Optimus (who is interesting and has emotions idc what anyone says), awkward nerd walking the walk CV Optimus.... I just really vibe with Optimus as a concept.

And I think Barber (and the other people who wrote him) loves Optimus too, he really does. People complain about IDW’s take on Optimus being edge for edge’s sake but I don’t think that’s right. I think Optimi are made to fit the tone of their series, especially when Barber made Optimus to be the representation of the themes in his run. And it does come from a place of love, wanting to explore all the implications that a character like Optimus entails (ok, to be fair, Barber’s execution is not always great because like I said, he tends to sacrifice character for plot, despite the fact he can actually write good characters).

Optimus, the strong and wise leader of the Autobots, he is great! He gives people hope! A figure that looks so noble and infallible makes people gather around him and keeps the morale up to not give up and stand against tyranny! But also, unchecked faith in leaders is not a good thing, no one is perfect, no one can keep up an image of perfection, and this need to protect everyone… it can easily become paternalistic, doesn’t it?

So IDW is primarily driven by a strong sense of justice. He sees wrong and he needs to do something, he needs to help. But he can be pretty naïve, or clueless about experiences he hasn’t had, being exemplified by the fact he wanted to do good by becoming A FUCKING COP OF ALL THINGS (Barber does call him out for this), he really is part of the problem. All the crime in Cybertron bitters him, but doesn’t see the bigger picture and arrests people, but when is pointed out to him that the system is corrupt, he immediately goes to scream at those at the top (after arresting more people ffs).

This is a person who very, very much wants to maintain his ideals, and when reality proves him wrong it makes him angry, but he doesn’t want to get angry, but he also doesn’t know how to properly deal with his anger, sometimes he can channel it properly, but many other times it has ugly results for everybody. Optimus desperately wants to do what’s right, but often doesn’t know what the right thing is, after renouncing the system he goes back to it because Zeta represented the peaceful change he desired and would get mad at anyone who challenged that. He very much suspected that Zeta’s reign wasn’t all that great, but he wanted to believe in it so badly, and then the Decepticons looked as corrupt by now, nothing like what he envisioned from Megatron’s writings, so what was he supposed to do, let them have their way?

Maybe he should have, the truth is we don’t know. He certainly had a hand in escalating the war, and by the time he was listening to the pleas of the oppressed it was too late, Megatron had already given himself to his own anger and violence and Optimus couldn’t trust him, he couldn’t leave other planets unprotected from him. He needs to do something. Which, yeah, easy to play the part of the hero in your high horse with the life you were given. He can be pretty quick to judge, and he struggles between wanting to believe in people and also judging them too harshly.

Optimus fucks up a lot, he makes me extremely uncomfortable.

There is also something to say, because I do hate how in media the revolutionary characters who fight the system are also like, killing babies, so the heroes get the moral high ground no matter what. But that issue is more complicated in IDW and deserves a rant of its own. It could have been done better, but I don’t hate it so much in IDW.

Optimus didn’t want to lead, in fact, he does like to follow, at least when he trusts and admires someone, but he is also stubborn, not willing to compromise his ideals, except when he inevitably has to and does whatever seems like a good idea at the moment. Truth is, he excels at war, his bravery, acrobatics, quick thinking, charm and even his ideals, does help make him seem like this larger than life heroic figure, that’s certainly how he looks when JRo writes him, even when he’s tired, so tired. Honestly, he just wants a rest. Unfortunately, by the time of phase two it seems the hero worship has gotten to his head, and there’s problems around, and some people still want him, and he needs to do something.

Optimus fucks up and he fucks up a lot and I’m not saying he never did anything wrong, but I just find his flaws so believable. I can see how thinks those were good ideas at the moment, how he really tries to do what’s best, how things backfire and he comes to regret it, but he can’t do nothing but keep going. But maybe he shouldn't

Ex-rid/OP is about how people are always in conflict, how it seems they can’t agree on anything even when supposedly everyone wants what’s best, people lie and betray each other and everyone is an asshole and there seems to be to end to the conflict, and yet, it’s not meaningless to try. Is hard and it sucks, you can’t put your hope in infallible leaders, but you also can’t give up hope altogether.

A moment that summaries OP for me is one thing Whirl says: Optimus personally recruits him to the autobots, which Whirl calls "compassion as a weapon of war" very him. It wasn't a talk about Optimus, but it does show how he goes. Optimus knows Whirl is not irremediable and wasn't completely at fault, he does extend a hand to him, but still judges him for the things he has done, at the same time he wants to Make a Point about compassion to the general public. But he also may not realize that Whirl doesn't really have any other choice because the Decepticons will fucking murder him.

[cuntess-carmilla]

I just finished the Tangled show and:

Idc what anyone says, the fact that they turned Cass into a villain IN THE WAY they turned her into a villain officially makes her a canon lesbian to me. That’s CLASSIC lesbian villain. Arrogant, conceited, heartless, bitter bitch who needs to be humbled down (aka humiliated and put back “in her place”)? Yep. It’s like someone said “FINE, you want to make her a dyke? Let’s give her typical dyke treatment then, see how you like that”.

The way they made Cass into a villain felt a little forced to me. They gave her enough motive to resent Rapunzel of course, but not enough to do what she actually does, in my opinion. That was enough for her to leave her side and not want anything to do with her, but to immediately turn EVIL? Nah. And I’m talking as someone who also writes a lesbian villain who’s absolutely despicable to lengths Cass never gets to.

You know what I’m really mad about? When the show started, Cass wasn’t mean. She was no non-sense, she wasn’t good at dealing with emotions or showing her softer side, and would taunt Eugene, but she wasn’t mean or scary at all, UNTIL more or less the episode where she pretends to be in love with a guy but turns out she was faking it. Again, like “Oh, so we’re coding her as a lesbian from now on...? OK, TIME TO BRING THE FORCED BITTER MEANNESS! CAN’T LET A DYKE BE NOT SCARY, MUCH LESS NICE". At first it was so fucking forced. She kept doing heroic things, risking herself, learning to be more open, but the narrative AND characters kept calling her “mean” or even deemed her as lacking compassion when SHE WASN’T ACTING IN A WAY THAT FITS THAT DESCRIPTION. Every time she got angry at Eugene it was deserved, but even Rapunzel herself said about it that Cass lacked compassion WHILE APOLOGIZING TO CASS, AND IT WAS TREATED LIKE HER BEING KIND TO HER? AND CASS ACCEPTED IT WITH A SMILE? God, why does everyone hate dykes so much.

When I forget about how the narrative treats Cass, I love how gay she is. She is sooooooooo gay. And has a thing for girls who’re meaner and more intimidating than she is, as well as warrior women. And she’s definitely into Rapunzel. And it’s definitely requited. I guess Rapunzel simply needs to be informed that gay love is a thing that is possible.

I think Rapunzel’s gesture for Cass at the end absolutely 100% is another parallel to how she saved Eugene’s life at the end of the original movie BUT it’s a little bigger, unless I’m remembering the movie wrong.

That said, when I forget about the age thing I think Rapunzel and Eugene are actually a pretty nice match. But so is her and Cass, and I think too that she’s genuinely in love with both simultaneously. I think Rapunzel is at her best when she has both by her side. They balance her out in different ways, and when Cass and Eugene aren’t bickering they balance each other out too. tl;dr Rapunzel is a polyam bicon and my headcanon is since she is or will be queen she can make gay and multiple marriage a thing and she’ll marry Cass later on too, once she comes back. Again, don’t care what anyone has to say about it unless it’s to agree with me.

DON’T get me started on the ending for Cass. I do NOT want to talk about it. Or about the “sisters” thing. I know Disney isn’t going to make anyone important gay, I don’t look for ~representation~ in Disney. But come on THEY SISTERZONED THEM. At least Cass rejected that notion every time, I guess.

Only way I’ll accept the ending for Cass is if there’s a spin off show with her as the protagonist and tbh she’d make a more interesting protagonist than Rapunzel.

The songs were meh. All of them. Meh, and unnecessary.

The episodes without Cass were usually boring.

I know Cass wasn’t in her best state of mind by then but she was uncharacteristically stupid whenever Zhan Tiri was manipulating her. Please, she’s repeatedly shown she’s smarter than that.

This show is racist and made Gothel look much more like an antisemitic caricature than she ever did in the movie lol.

[pocmuzings]

i’m probs reading that wrong bt yall aren’t... excused from ur own problematic behaviors just bc ur poc. aave is extremely harmful n yea maybe it’s a joke bt you’ve been using it a lot. for a while. the ethnicity thing is something yea and i wouldn’t of gone that far bt saying you’re getting policed more bc ur poc after getting called out on tht hurts a lil bit esp from u. this wasnt the place n it makes it seem like that criticism towards u is wrong. again maybe i misread bt that stings.

I DIDNT SAY I WAS BEING POLICED I LITERALLY DIDNT ??? FJKNGJNKJ I SAID I AGREE. I SAID I’D CHANGE. AND THAT IT WAS LITERALLY MY BAD. I NEVER SAID I WAS BITTER OR MAD OR ANYTHING AND IDC THAT IVE BEEN ‘CALLED OUT’. IM LITERALLY LIKE ‘OK THANK U FOR LETTING ME KNOW AND I WILL CHANGE AND NOT DO IT AGAIN’,

[cow5secondchance]

Episode 2 - Why Did People Flip - Xavier

Format: Sequester

Eliminated: Wyatt (9-3-1-1-1) || Daisy (Battle Match)

BLAKE

so! week 2 and my plan honestly is to just really still focus on my social relationships. so far, i feel very confident in my ability to connect with people on a 1 to 1 level, and at least hopefully skate through these first few weeks. consistently my problem in the game is missing out on a key group or alliance that is running more than I know. without being too chaotic and paranoid, i would really really like to try to sit here and just scope out the relationships. as for my groups! i really want to work with jennet. she's like iconic? her art is so cute and i do feel like i made a genuine connection with her early on, and i think pointing out we're some of the only award winners in the cast could bring us closer together ! plus 4th place legends... beyond jennet, i have a group with isaac and nicole, and honestly, im feeling suprisingly good about both. i think these first 6 people i mention are the ones im going to focus on most, and focus on really forming game connection wheras the rest im just socially going to really force myself into their LIVES and hope they like me! Daisy and Jarod... loves them and swifties who ive played with in the past both in a way that i feel we were unfinished. jarod got taken out in the doubles round just as we kinda connected on a game level, and then daisy and i were working together in bb netflix before it got canceled. this is really the group i want to strategize with and im really putting myself on a limb being loyal to them because i know they have options, but its a risk im willing to take because if i can be the number 1, their connections can just offer more safety and information for myself. and the final people who i kinda want to work with is captain and wiliam xavier s up there, we just havent spoken tons dont really have much of an opinion on the others? if i had to nominate right now it might be mario just because we havent spoken yet.

XAVIER

It's annoying to be nominated, especially by Jennet. Literally two minutes before we were talking and I was explaining how this round is played. And then Jennet nominates me. I feel betrayed. Getting my G4ce together (Greenhouse 4) so we can vote as a team. And well, well, well, I just found out that the Sequester 4 are also voting together. It is weird that they are all nominated during the Sequester round. They are targeting either Wyatt or Kaleigh. Knowing they are a team, I want one of them out, if I can swing it quietly.

NICOLE

HI I’m back and already went through a ton! Last round a misunderstanding / Lanie throwing me under the bus just because I said I hadn’t spoken to Nyx and Captain really set me up in a weird spot so I had to get rid of Lanie and then she said we all suck (imagine being almost 30 and telling someone who is your students age that they suck! I get it really is terrible to be blindsided but it was her fault, she played too fast! Like yell at me for not communicating properly or whatever she believed I did at that point but don’t take it out on everyone especially like the youngest player in the game!) Anyway, this round is sequester so we are all back together! I finally get to play with Daisy! I love her so much so I’m super glad we got to play, I’m very glad I get to reunite with Lindsay, I’m glad William isn’t mad at me for the whole Lanie situation and now I’m safe for the first vote! It is a very good feeling but I also feel like I should be learning from Lanie’s mistake and playing not fast so I’m trying to take a step back from talking in the house chat. I’m just so excited to see everyone but I will try to contain myself so I don’t annoy anyone. Check back in later in the round!!!

BLAKE

I forget the questions omg but I had a call with Jarod where he kinda threw out wyatts name as an option to go, and honestly I’m completely fine with that because even though they seem super sweet, I feel like I’m juggling enough balls and I don’t need to add them into my mix, whereas I feel a lot better about every other nominee other than Kaleigh, who I don’t think anybody would do this early My strategy is to just campaign for myself to stay to everybody and avoid throwing out names. I’m hoping that comes from Jarod or one of the safe people because they literally have the safety to get away with it 

XAVIER

I like video confessionals. The only alliance of 4 should be Greenhouse

CAPTAIN

hello dr.. so i'm glad i got saved by jarod :pleading_face: he rlly said i'm gonna make captain safe no matter what happens. and thats exactly what he did :100: for ppl who are vulnerable, i want autumn, jarod and xavier to be safe the most like idc i just want 3 of them to be safe. xavier might be in a bit of trouble tho since the totem pole ppl are voting together for sure hmmm so i need to try to talk to them to sway them from voting xavier. for the plans to avoid battle match? idk i just want them to feel safe around me no matter what. so that if i end up voting them, they're not gonna be bitter at me that much. and i lowkey saved myself with wyatt since wyatt said they wanted to work with me so prays.

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also, i secured an alliance with jarod, autumn and jennet. and a greenhouse alliance with mario, nyx and xavier. the latter hasn't been in the talk like with every greenhouse yet but xavier brought it up to me and i think that it should be great. so fingers crossed!

WILLIAM

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO, going into Round 2 im having a really big struggle..... im seeing  THAT I DONT DISLIKE A SINGLE PERSON ON THIS CAST, USUALLY THERE IS AT LEAST ONE BUT NOPE    Also we are moving into a Sequester sorta semi safety chain with half vulnerable and half safe cast and lucky me I think Lanie either hated me the most or the least from our Survivor team and decided to give me the Karma twist which gave me safety for the round but made me have to pick the first unsafe out of the whole cast. I think my strategy was to pick someone who didn't talk to me yet (so i had a reason) as well as someone who was sorta loved by most if not all and wasn't a target for it, because I'm thinking if I just fade into the background this round no one would have a need or want to pick me for the Battlematch, i think its safe to assume whoever goes home will pick the person who made them unsafe plus like one other person, so i just have to avoid being that other 1/13 people. As for the vote i have no clue at all, I think maybe Isaac cause i haven't said much to him at all, or maybe Jarod cause i know he is hella busy and prob wont pick me to go into battle..... just not Wyatt or Blake or Kaleigh rn.  So like yeah, just gonna pray, not talk around too too much, let people come to me so it doesnt seem like im pushing anyones name and hopefully vote someone i dont love out. yeah so much fun xoxo William F

NYX

So, this round is pretty confusing and difficult to navigate cause not only do we have to vote someone out we have to vote someone out and hope they don't drag us into the battleback. I'm very happy to be safe for the vote since at least then i'll have a chance to battleback in a comp. So, for this vote I can't vote Autumn since she gave me safety, I can't vote Jarod since he took one for the team, I can't vote Xavier cause of the gh alliance, I can't vote Blake due to our bonding on tau ceti, so my only real options for this vote are Isaac, Wyatt, and Kaleigh. If I had my way i'd just pile the votes on wyatt and get them out now but it's not that easy because i haven't talked as much and they could see that as incentive to drag me in. Of course all the people I just mentioned I don't wanna vote for I wanna save because that means they'll be willing to work with me to some capacity. To avoid the battle match is the hardest part cause people can be very impulsive with their decisions and heat of the moment always catches people off guard. My best bet is just not to make too many promises and to just tell the truth and hopefully that'll be enough to gain their respect. 

CAPTAIN

besties.. i don't know what i'm doing. its between wyatt and kaleigh methinks but wyatt keeps dropping my name everywhere and i don't really like it. idk if they get eliminated, if they would put me in the battle or not. but like if they're this messy, i'm voting them for sure. also sobs kaleigh is so cute.

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prays for me DR! sign: captain.

LINDSAY

bro no one wants to throw out a name because of the battle drag twist so it's three hours to tribal and i dont know who the fuck to vote my gut is telling me jarod but i am absolutely not letting jarod drag that shit back to me definitely not autumn i dont know like. i'm working the tightest with william, daisy and wyatt weirdly enough and none of us have heard anything so i just. ?????

MARIO

I AM SAFE!!! I AM NOT SECOND BOOT AGAIN

AUTUMN

IT WONT LET ME PUT AUDIO FILES IN!!! But when Monty puts them all together later this season I hope yall enjoy haha

XAVIER

Ok this vote is messy. It started out with Jarod and the Sequester group wanting to vote Kaleigh. They got people on board, and it looked good. Until Wyatt made that alliance chat. And of course the vote shifted to Isaac. But the Sequester group won't vote Isaac. Mario voted Autumn. Captain voted Wyatt. I am voting Kaleigh because I haven't spoken to her much. But I want the vote to go Isaac's way - it breaks up Sequester, and he won't think it was me, so safe from the battle. So it may be 5 on Kaleigh, unless the other people in that Alliance chat are not being honest as well. Ha ha. As long as it's not me, right?!

LINDSAY

wyatt made a voting block?? and didn't include me?? the person with no connection to isaac who they kept safe and would have probably voted with them???? wh ok i guess my vote is on wyatt tonight tf 

NYX

So, this round is a clusterfuck of scrambling cause no one wants to get pulled into the battleback and potentially lose there. I just don't wanna go home even earlier than last time because my game has just been so much better and to lose it this way would be fucking devastating. i just want to win so badly so im just hoping i can maneuver this right

LINDSAY

"you know that this is anonymous right" DAISY HELP NO I DIDNT FUCK OK I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING WHAT IS HAPPENING WHERE AM I

XAVIER

WHAT JUST HAPPENED. I know Captain voted for Wyatt. Maybe Captain is more influential than I thought? Why did people flip? Because of the alliance chat? It was too much? And why wasn't I included in the flip vote? Agh. Time to make my own rules here.

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I am still shookt 

DAISY

[hoedameron]

Shaun and Lea is the main couple of the show and always has been. Lea has her issues like everyone else and they’re overcoming those. But that’s not the point. The point is that if you want to be upset about your ship sinking cause of a death, that’s more than okay. Don’t go shit on other ships though. Plenty of people enjoy the Shaun Lea ship. You don’t? Fair enough, stop watching. Don’t bother us with your tantrum . The show was never about that couple anyway.

lol how did you find those posts...unless you’re a follower then hiiii. but DAMNNN can’t a bitch just express herself on her own blog without shippers ruining everything?? that’s why i am too old for “shipping” like y’all are so ready to defend your fictional relationships and for what?? what’s the purpose? it’s fake! it’s all fake!! who cares!! i don’t doubt there are a lot of shaunlea warriors, just look in the tag and on twt. you say “fair enough stop watching” yet you send this ask?? i have stopped watching, i haven’t said anything after szn 4 aired besides a few text posts but for the most part i’ve been busy enjoying other things. y’all are just mad annoying that any little rightful criticism is seen as a threat.

anyways, no?? lol the main couple had always been shaun and his love for the medical field. that takes top priority. secondary priority is the familial relationship between him and glassmen. that is his center, his tether, his whole world. in my professional opinion, the next relationship is between shaun and claire (whether romantic or platonic idc i see it as a bit romantic) because she makes him feel seen in the best way possible and he helps bring the best side of her. lea is like the fifth or the sixth like that shit don’t even matter 😭 even you said the show ain’t about that couple!! so you agree!! shippers got fandom brain rot smdh.

listen, you are talking to a former shaunlea supporter like i GET what it’s trying to do and i really did love their budding relationship when it was so fresh and new and cute. now? they completely RUINED their relationship by making lea ableist and shaun just forgiving that?? you can’t just do that. how has she overcome her ableism if she hasn’t actually been called out on her behavior? how is she growing from that if shaun just ignores it?? that moment in the third szn where she holds him as he cries? that shit got to me and i truly believed that miss. lea would’ve been like “i will step up and change after this” because she can’t be a better person for shaun if she has all those prejudices. but no, she’s still a fucked up privileged white girl who keeps shaun at her fingertips because she’s lonely lmao.

i am not bitter about this “ship” because melendez d*ed which made the melendaire “ship sink” because it wasn’t even about the ship! i was about the writers k*lling off an amazing character who held this show up for shock value. melendaire becoming “canon” for two seconds then boom he’s gone....idc if they were to become canon or not despite being a meledaire enthusiast but to k*ll melendez off is just poor writing. i am bitter about shaunlea because these two were good IN THE MOMENT. they were good for each other when they needed one another but now they aren’t fit for each other. that’s okay! it’s called growing out of a relationship and it happens. i believe when i was okay with shaunlea because they were sharing a lot of first and being vulnerable and i think they needed one another in that time. now? that relationship has worn out and there is nothing there. you have to admit that neither of them are good for each other. people can have their “issues” like dipping your french fries in your milkshake and blasting their music a little too loud but to be ableist? that is not a regular “issue”, that’s just fucked up! 

anyways, i will get off my soap box because again, i have never been a hardcore intense “shipper” (not even a “shipper” in general like i have been saying this over and over again i sound like such a broken record) and never sent people who opposed a “ship” asks to try and defend it like you realize that’s weird, right? i wrote a lot because it’s been internalized

[melxncholymermxid]

Let me explain (i had a headache last night and was pissed at everything)

First of all, if you didn't watch it, it's about the desk incident. For anyone who's new, long story short, when Courtney joined Smosh she asked if the squad could move their separate desks together. It was 50-50 with Keith and Olivia saying no and Noah saying yes. Courtney did it anyway and when Keith came in he was pissed and held onto his hurt and distrust for months.

Okay, now

The amount of people in the comments calling Keith Petty and a crybaby are so fucking high.

And the people who didn't resort to name calling were saying that they were equally in the wrong.

Any we all know why 👀

I commented this on the vid and I say it here:

If this had been Shayne and Courtney, EVERYONE would be on Shaynes side. You know why? Because so many people in this fandom have favorites. And except for one outlier, all the favorite have one thing in common 👀

I I know my opinion doesn't matter on this. I still watch Smosh but I don't really feel like a member of the Tumblr fandom anymore. (Not that I ever really was cause everyone has side blogs and when you post about your interests on your main blog it's harder to stay with one fandom) (and this post isn't about y'all, everyone I've seen on here is super respectful). And I know theirs a lot of new people to the fandom who may just see this as some bitter fan trying to pull race into everything, but come on.

This has nothing to do with Smosh themselves, they all seem like fine people. But some of the "fans" are only here for certain people. And certain ships that lots of people including myself find annoying are proof.

Let's say Keith and Courtney had the same energy/relationship as Shayne and Courtney... Would people Stan so hard and tell them to date fr? How about Shayne and Olivia? Both of these ships are just as valid as any other ship, and have their moments in videos (work-boyfriend and Disney proposal), but their not comprised of the two blonde, hot favorites of the group.

I kind of started to rant, but back to the video at hand.

Everyone said that Keith was overreacting, even people "on his side". And it just sucks because you can hear how it affected him and so many people in the comments are focusing on how his "pettiness" mad Courtney feel. And how SHE cried because of how SHE felt. I like Courtney, but she was in the wrong here, idc what anyone else says.

Idk where I was trying to go with this, but I just wanted to vent.

Y'all the comments under the new podcast highlight... Disgostang

[herelivesahobbit]

This week’s episode of Vampire Diaries was as frustrating as ever. It’s the second to last episode, and still they feel the need to do this bait and switch nonsense. Would it have killed them to include one shot of Nina as Katherine? I know she probably didn’t sign on for 2 episodes but one shot of her smirking in the shadows would have been better than Oh surprise it’s Katherine-lite Vicky! Blah. The wedding was pretty and sweet and nice enough though a little too saccharine for my taste. I liked Alaric’s voice over though - that was the really evocative and summed up the emotional journey of the characters beautifully. I thought it fit the Steroline vibe too. Totally the best part though was, surprisingly, Bonenzo. I’ve always been more of a low-key supporter of this ship, because we didn’t really get to see the beginning and development of their love story in detail. I never connected with it emotionally though I liked that Bonnie was happy. What I really love, though, is that they have consistently always shown Enzo to be the Best Boyfriend and you can see why Bonnie loves him, despite his murderous vampire side. He’s charming and all of that, but more importantly, he’s really loyal and devoted and selfless in his love. I like that it’s not some random characterization but consistent with previous seasons. And finally in this episode we got some of that epic-ness I always craved for Bonnie. The mirror scene and wedding dance and his final speech to her - it really almost made me cry. Having said all of that, I will still be mad as all hell if these writers give Bonnie anything less than a complete Happy Ending, complete with her life (HER LIFE) and MAGIC (MAGIC) and a living boyfriend (LIVING BOYFRIEND) . IDC what bitter sweet ending the other characters get. Bonnie cannot be the sacrificed and suffering once AGAIN! So yes I am expecting Enzo to return. Also pretty certain at this point that there is not going to be any surprise new couples happening. (Except Matt/Alaric? Woooo I ship it). I hope we get to see more of Katherine than Elena and less of mythology crap and more of emotional journey. Still betting on either Elena or Damon or both dying! P. S. Also essentially in the TVD / Originals episode whenever long lost relatives come a-calling, fully expect them to be murdery agenda villains for at least 7 episodes.