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[awinchestershell]

don’t look at me

[starrysilverweed]

Not to be totally insane but Rogue grabbing 15’s hand and telling him to run and 15 complaining that he’s usually the one who says that is such a brutal parallel to Clara grabbing 11 and dragging him away and him saying “That’s always me!” and we all know what that relationship turned into. And River used to grab him and run too.

Apparently the Doctor is just attracted to people who steal his job

[awinchestershell]

Ayyy thx for the tag! Funnily enough we should also be asleep but I wanted to watch Captain America.

Last song: 100 Bad Days by AJR. I was shuffling all their stuff in the shower earlier, they’re my favorite band. They helped me out with a rough spot in high school.

Last Show: I think the new episode of Riverdale? I purely watch it for completion it’s purposes at this point. I gotta see how they end this dumpster fire.

Currently watching: I’ve been binging the transformers movies yesterday and today for the first time but at this exact second I’m rewatching the first Captain America movie for nostalgic purposes. I’m a sucker for a good Chris Evans being sad kinda movie.

Currently reading: I don’t know that I could tell you the last time I opened a book but no matter how long ago it was I’d bet real money it was one of the twilight books. I’m not gonna apologize for loving those sparkly boys.

Current obsession: It was Apex Legends until yesterday and now it’s the transformers. Which is blowing my mind because I’m not usually a car kinda person. I usually find them lame as heck. But the auto bots are cool as shit.

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Last song: Into Fire - Reliqa. My partner showed me this band and their songs are so good! At the moment listening to this song on repeat for DnD OC reasons haha

Last show: Ahhh like one I finished? I think it was Trigun (1998) which I really really liked! I enjoy older animation styles and I just really loved the atmosphere of it.

Currently watching: Critical Role Campaign 3. Trying to catch up on episodes 'cause I've been hyperfixating on drawing and writing DnD stuff haha

Currently reading: Well… I'm in the middle of two books ^^; Harrow the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir (I really like the series! I've just got DnD brain so I can't do anything not DnD related). And the Book of Human Emotions by Tiffany Watt Smith. It's homework from my psychologist 'cause I wanted more words to express my emotions and so I can recognise them a bit more easily. It's really interesting so far! It's fairly intersectional and describes emotions that are named in other cultures.

Current obsession: DnD!! One of my partners is running a campaign that I just can't stop thinking about haha I've been keeping excessively detailed notes about all the events and my friends are working on an animatic too! So every time I feel like the interest is starting to slow down they show me something they've worked on and I'm straight back into Intense Interest mode haha

Tagging (only if you feel like it! No pressure, just thought it was fun :D ): @somegaymernerd , @8-evil-annoying-catboys , @Idealism-sits-in-prison , @mafiabee , @mycosylivingroom , @raindroplette , @nocherryblood , @cimaldo , @theciphersystem

[awinchestershell]

i love that dan compares them to two turtles staring into the sunset and says phil is such a natural part of his life that he feels like a piece of furniture in his house but when WE make a cute little post about them being the eclipse and the solar flare he gives us crap about it

like babe the call is coming from inside the house

[starrysilverweed]

I always come back to Doctor Who when something horrible has happened in my life and I’m starting to lose my faith in humanity and goodness and all that.

I think it’s because this show was the first time I remember genuinely seeing how gorgeous the universe is.

The way the doctor sees such unspeakable darkness and horrible suffering and they still believe undyingly in the goodness and the light of the universe and its creatures.

Every little thing is worth awing at, even a snowman or a potted plant. Every “monster” is truly beautiful and worthy of attention and understanding. Every individual life is important and beautiful.

I try so hard to see our universe the way the doctor sees theirs. And when that’s hard to do I just find myself back in this show, back listening to the doctor rant about the forever growing and changing universe around them. And it works every time.

[awinchestershell]

Oh

some of you may've heard about that fancy "bionic reading" typefont thats supposed to be easier for neurodivergent people to read (if you're unfamiliar, it bolds the first few letters of each word to make it easier to follow)

well guess what, its locked behind a $500 a month API to write in because fuck you!

introducing, Not Bionic Reading! it is literally just the bionic reading typefont but for free. god bless neocities

anyone who can, pls reblog!

[awinchestershell]

a second homoerotic foot photo has hit the phentagon

[starrysilverweed]

“Ready for you.” Is still one of the craziest, most out of pocket lines in the entire whoniverse. Like they spent that whole episode building up the Pandorica prisoner as a goblin, ‘the most feared being in all the cosmos’, some irrational monster that would ‘drop out of the sky and tear town your world’, a ‘nameless, terrible thing, soaked in the blood of a billion galaxies.’

They emphasized over and over the fear that went into the box, that even the Doctor and River were concerned about what might get out of there.

And then then we’re talking about him the entire time. He spent the entire episode calling himself a terrifying goblin soaked in blood and horror, and he didn’t even realize it.

And with Rory a mindless plastic drone, Amy surely killed by the Nestene Romans, and River dead any second in the exploding TARDIS, (at least as far as he knew) he had no reason to believe he would ever get out of the Pandorica.

Which would’ve been fucking horrifying. Because not only was it an eternal prison, but as he says later when they’re saving Amy, you can’t even escape it by dying.

It’s still so off putting to look at the Doctor in general, but especially early seasons Eleven with his boyish hair and sweet smile and never ending energy, and remember that he’s still the oncoming storm. That people throughout the universe, more than one even, will turn tail and run at even the mention of his name.

[awinchestershell]

I nearly choked on spit cuz of u

a dead scene kid is trying to contact me through captcha

[completely-noone]

Does anyone else just… not know who their child self is? My from before the age of 16 is an entirely separate entity from me. I don’t even remember her. She lived a life that never happened. We are two completely different human beings and sometimes I question if she ever even existed. It’s like I was born as a 16 year old.

When I talk about my childhood, the few stories I do remember, I find myself accidentally saying “so she picked up the kitten” but I’m talking about me. But she’s so separate from me that I can’t say I when I talk about her. She’s not me. I’m not her. She no longer exists. She lived a life I never lived, and I’m living a life she will never live.

[awinchestershell]

what the fuck ubisoft

[starrysilverweed]

In hindsight it makes so much sense for eleven and 12 to be so attached to their versions of themselves and be so fucking exhausted because all of first doctor to eleven being “born” is about 900 years. 11 lives in 900 years, all pretty short in their version of things. Then eleven is 1200 or so by the time he dies, so just his cycle alone is one third of his entire life in one life. Then twelve is over two thousand years old at the start of Bill’s season, god knows how old at the end, not to mention the extra four and a half billion years that didn’t age him but he seems to remember at little a bit. He spent 50% of his life being the twelfth doctor and that cycle was brutal to say the least. It’s not hard to understand why eleven and twelve feel so much older and wearier than ten and previous. Because they’re not just older, in comparison, they’re practically ancient.

[awinchestershell]

ARE YOU KIDDING ME

The real writer experience is standing in the shower and coming up with the most authentic dialogue with perfect phrasing and raw emotion in your head, then stepping out and drying your hair, putting on some clean pajamas and opening a word document to write down all your perfect ideas only to realize everything has evaporated. 

[completely-noone]

Diary entry written during a psychosis episode

03/02/22 CHROMA

Sometimes I see things in the dots. Things that help me understand. Sometimes they’re not real, sometimes they’re half real, and sometimes they’re real. They make me feel things. Things I have to feel to get it back. Tonight I saw a girl, tied in various ways. Always the same young girl. The dots help me see when I’m whole, but I never when what to trust. Do the dots lie? And I can only visit the inner world so often because the feelings and thing s I see there can sometimes be too much. [REDACTED] would never understand. Mustn’t tell her. No one understands the dots. Chroma is the secret key to finding my life. Maybe once I’ve moved froward with [REDACTED] the dots will show me more. I want to see it all.

[awinchestershell]

they went and got chicken and fries after their own wedding im gonna slam my tongue in a car door

[starrysilverweed]

I’m so curious about the missing time with 11 between the Daleks puppet woman shooting him and him meeting up with Amy and Rory in the cell in the Parliament. Why was he being held away from them? What was he doing until Rory woke up? He wasn’t just chillin out making friendly conversation about the state of the latest local galactic political controversy with the guards.