#i've made the most edits of them (btw there's maybe 4 edits in existence that Actually include lisa and i made 70% of them)

[jeanralphiosbf]

an upside to becoming insane abt a side character is that i can claim myself as their #1 fan and absolutely no one can fight me on it

[my-artblog-is-ssjumi]

I posted 1.145 times in 2021

45 posts created (4%)

1100 posts reblogged (96%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 24.4 posts.

I added 455 tags in 2021

#art - 104 posts

#cat - 101 posts

#fanart - 56 posts

#photography - 38 posts

#yugioh - 35 posts

#esc - 29 posts

#ask game - 28 posts

#reference - 28 posts

#long post - 19 posts

#:') - 17 posts

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

got tagged by @19elaine wifey to do this aesthetic cocktail picrew ~

tagging everyone looking at this post >:3

(it’s called Moonlight Densetsu 🌙🐰🎀 lol)

19 notes • Posted 2021-02-28 05:46:30 GMT

#4

This one goes out to the Americans who think there is no difference between

thanks for coming to yet another one of my TED talks

25 notes • Posted 2021-07-01 08:20:13 GMT

#3

done with @birdlizard‘s picrew HERE

(+ a little Photoshop for the true lockdown haircolor experience)

*casually tagging @19elaine wifey as per usual*

40 notes • Posted 2021-01-04 12:00:54 GMT

#2

YO who wants to see some Yugioh amvs I made in like, 2004 in Windows Movie Maker

if you're on your phone rn: good for you!

if you're on desktop: do not make these full screen, it will only hurt you bc some of them are in like, 320x240 :,)

anyway! here we go!

the first amv i remember making was this Bakura one, pretty shortly after the episode most of the material in it is from first aired in Japan (i was watching along through unsubbed torrents with episode summaries on some fanpage helping me understand what was happening XD):

(the song's from the .hack// soundtrack btw)

the second amv i made was about my other favorite character of the time, Seto, and inspired by a fandom friend mailing me a burned CD-R with some Noa Arc episodes on it bc that's how you got your hands on this stuff back in the day:

(according to youtube it can't be watched in Syria, Iran, Cuba and North Korea bc of a copyright claim attached to it lol)

and here's my 3rd and last amv that starts off with the worst quality bc Movie Maker was dying on me so i had to export and import and export again and import again stuff to keep it running. it's Puzzleshipping which was something i was into back then.

(it's starts SUPER slow and you might as well just skip to 0:30)

i sometimes think about maybe trying my hand on amvs again now that i have Premiere and am better at editing but like. i just can't be bothered to do the whole footage collection thing. back then i barely had any so it was easy. now i have the whole show on a harddrive and like.... nah. thx. i'm fine :D'

...

... anyway, does anyone else remember that Breaking The Habit YGO amv about Battle City/Battle Ship Ryou that existed at some point on the internet, some time before the original musicvideo to the song came out in 2004? Because i SWEAR that was a thing but i've been unable to find it again, mostly because trying to look for one particular amv to fucking Linkin Park is like. trying to find the literal needle in the hay stack when you're not even sure how much of the hay has been removed and how often the floor has gotten swept in the last 15+ years :,D

55 notes • Posted 2021-07-30 14:20:37 GMT

#1

[...] anyway, thanks for coming to my TED talk!

147 notes • Posted 2021-04-21 18:15:56 GMT

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[pocket-void]

Hi Mock!

I wish you a good morning! (It's currently 8:30 am here and I hope you are asleep wherever you are because healthy sleep schedules and all that!) 🌻

I just found out that you write, too, and I've read "A cup of coffee" and honestly, is there something you can't do? Because that was really great! I enjoyed reading it so much!! And I love your Logan in it!

And can I ask: where so you get the motivation to do all this great stuff? Drawing, writing, school? Like, I have like 5 different writing projects screaming at me because I don't work on them and yesterday I outlined yet another fic that I'll probably never write because I just don't have the motivation and - how do you do it? Because I want to write. It's the best thing in the world to me. But I just can't get myself to do it, and when I do, everything I make feels kinda... not good. Ugly, if you will.

So I guess I just want to know what I can do to get myself away from that? Because I really need to write, I'll go insane otherwise O_o

Anyway, have a wonderful day and eat a cookie!! 🌼

Y’all who can format stuff in asks will never cease to bamboozle me. O///o

But hello!! I believe it’s the afternoon where you are now! ^\\\^ (Not to worry, if there’s one thing I try to get enough of it’s sleep!)

Heidhwkfns Yes I write too but it’s incredibly on and off since I’m not as confident with it and it takes much longer than art! >\\\< I 100% want to write more often tho, but my need to accomplish stuff just finds art less time consuming. I’m really glad you like “A Cup of Coffee” because I’m quite happy with how that one turned out! ^\\\^ (And also just genuinely surprised at how many people enjoyed it) So thank you!! ;///;✨💖

So, here’s the thing. I’m just a normal person, just like anybody else! There are days where I have 0 motivation to do anything, and days where I’m way too motivated but still do absolutely nothing anyways lmao- I can’t say that my experience will work for everybody of course, but I can try to explain how I feel or how I work things out when I don’t feel like doing things. u///u

The first step is to forgive myself, because it’s going to be ok. There’s nothing wrong with having an off day, and nothing wrong with not accomplishing anything for now. There should be no guilt involved in not touching something for ages, god knows I’ve got so much in the “maybe later” idea box that I will never get to. But that’s ok! My creations will never blame me for not working on them, so in turn I promised to never blame myself for it either. And if I ever go back to complete one of them, great! But if not, that still doesn’t mean that it was a waste. Everything you make has value, finished or not.

The second is to remember that I love them. I love them a lot. I love creating, I love art, I love writing, and I love the process behind them! What you write and create will never complain if they are “not the best” or “ugly”. Their value comes from how you feel about them. Nobody else’s imput matters. So what if it’s not great? So what if it’s a mess? My terrible crayon drawing from when I was 4? Love it. Still has my whole heart. They’re on my bedroom wall to this day! (Neatly framed and hung, courtesy of my dad) I ask myself why I sat down to do something in the first place, and the answer is always going to be because I love doing it! Everything I make means something to me, no matter how bad or how small. Because at the end of the day, I made something. And it’s all the reason I need to love it.

It doesn’t matter if this doodle looks bad or this draft makes literally no sense because even if it’s not good, I did it. Even if I feel like I’m going nowhere, I know that each creation is a small step in my long long journey of improvement. It might not seem like that sometimes, like everything we do doesn’t really seem like it’s getting better any time soon, but we can never tell unless we keep doing it right? Instead of being upset that I’m not very good now, I decided to try and look forward to how good I eventually will be. I find that prospect exciting! We never know how much we grow until we get there, it’s like a happy surprise! ^\\\^✨And in the meantime, I am allowed to be perfectly happy with what I already can do. How far I’ve already come. Even if other people tell me otherwise, even if it’s true that it’s not very great, who’s to say that I will always be? Not me, that’s for sure.

I am willing to be patient for the sake of what I do, because I am willing to do it for an eternity.

There is no race in doing what I love, because I am the only one on this path. I can see other people on their own paths too! And sometimes they’re faster and have way better stamina than me, but their final destination is ultimately going to be much much different than mine, even if we’re going in a similar direction. So there is no point in trying to match them; I decide to walk at my own pace. It’s much easier for me this way. Take breaks! Drink some water. We’ve all got our places to go. ^\\\^

Third thing about getting things done is, well, getting it done! Do you know how I wrote “A Cup of Coffee”? I pain stakingly stared at it all day with frequent breaks in between, read it a ridiculous amount of times until it didn’t sound like english, and had text to speech read it back to me a couple more times just so I could make sure, because I really really really wanted to finish it. And it probably was kind of messy, hahaha. >\\\<

I’m not suggesting you do what I did btw, because it’s not even how I always write things! My other story “Table for Two” was written under a much different context. For that one, I wrote parts of it on different days. I took walks thinking about how I’d word things, how I’d imagine the scene going, and how I should pace sentences. I actually deleted the entire first paragraph and started over a few times because it didn’t sound right. Then one afternoon I decided that I wanted this story done. So I sat down and did what I could, edited a few things afterwards, and tentatively showed it to a friend. I didn’t edit it much after that, but it was done!

If I learned anything from highschool, it’s that doing something imperfectly is better than not doing it at all. I’m still a pretty picky perfectionist and a terrible procrastinator, and it’s not easy! But I would much prefer something I make to be “messy but complete”, rather than “pretty good so far but not finished”. Personally for me, getting started is the hardest part of doing anything. I have yet to find an easier way to do it, but I know that sometimes I just need to sit down and do what I can to start writing. If a sentence sounds weird, I keep going, because I can come back to it later! But if a sentence doesn’t exist, I can’t fix that without, well, writing it. o///o So I consider that a start!

I definitely understand you when you say that you can’t get yourself to write because I currently kind of can’t either. >\\\< I have outlines that I won’t ever write, I have ideas that I’m not gonna get to, and I’ve got fics that I worry won’t be as good when I write them. But maybe today I’ll sit myself down and just write one sentence. Give it a title, make a document, and stare for a lil bit. Give it a beginning. Because for me, sometimes drawing the starting line somewhere helps. Maybe it can show me what direction I need to go in just a little bit clearer. u///u

At the end of the day, the thing I say all the time is enjoy what you do. It’s just genuinely the most important part of doing anything to me. Yes it can be hard and sometimes we worry about how it’s gonna be, but we still do it don’t we? We come back and try again because we love it. Because we really can’t live without it. So what’s wrong with just...doing it?

That’s how it is to be a creator for me, I suppose. And from one to another, I genuinely wish you the best of luck on your journey!!

After all, there will be no other quite like it. u///u💖✨