#i've literally been messing myself up like that as a teenager andjust never stopped

[sl33py-g4m3r]

sleep is dumb... maybe i was on the computer a bit too long before bed, maybe it was watching tv that did it.... or looking at my watch idk

i was laying in bed trying to get to sleep from like 23:00 to 01:00, getting up to watch late night local programs cause hopefully it would make me tired.

try to sleep again from 01:00... check watch later, and it says 04:17... get up at 11:00

what is a consistent sleeping schedule?? I wanna be normal and not screw myself up again...... I wanna stay consistent w long term sleeping schedules and not screw myself up month to month.....

I know it's a normal routine of me at that point that started when i was a teenager; and I haven't broke out of it.

but holy crap is it so much easier to do things when your visually impaired ass can get a ride and go to the store, appointments, etc... that's easier in the daytime~~

I mean i like the night cause that's the peaceful time where there are no people but it makes it really hard to do things... brain come on.....

*oh you were on the computer for a minute before trying to sleep? no sleep for you*

*oh you were on your phone/ipad a bit before bed? no sleep for you*

*oh you got used to having the lights off and now they're on again and blindingly bright now? It woke you up more... no sleep for you*

I'd assume this is what's happening last night......

I'm sorry for constantly feeling like I'm ranting btw.... It surely can't be fun to any of my followers so I deeply apologize... I'm just so annoyed.