#i've been trying to put less tags on my posts bc i saw a post saying excessive tags are annoying

[heartmaxxing]

i don't think i'm a critical hater but i also do not think i am a critical lover. I don't know.

[wilder-fangirl]

Looking for advice but - TW EATING DISORDER STUFF?

I saw someone who tagged a post as pr0 4n4 and so I looked at the tag just out of curiosity and then I saw this 'diet plan' thing that was 12 or so days and had a decreasing number of calories per day - I can't find the exact post but it was something like these

And I know it's unhealthy but I've been wanting to eat less bc I get a lot of pressure from my family to eat a lot more than I should

Like I already have a small appetite plus I don't do any physical activity so I really only require a little bit of food

But of course my dad is Man Who Loves Food™ and makes dinner every night and wants us all to have dinner as a family and is always talking about food to me in other parts of the day

So a lot of times I end up eating a full fucking dinner even when I'm not hungry and just ate 3 ish hours ago because I usually eat at work

So yeah I'm considering going on one of these diets so I can lose the extra weight I've put on over the last year/two years and until I can regulate my food intake bc I got so used to eating when I'm not hungry I would eat when I'm bored and stuff and I would just over eat

I'm basically just trying to get to the point where I ONLY eat when I'm hungry or if I'm not hungry all day I make sure I eat one small meal

So like yesterday I had one piece of home made relatively-healthy pizza which had both veggies and meat and a organic granola bar thing in the morning and then after that I just chewed a shit ton of gum all day

I never got hungry at least that I can remember so I just didn't eat anything else

So now my idea for today is that I'm gonna eat less than I had yesterday or nothing at all

I drink about a gallon of water a day and I try to take vitamins (c and d) every day but yesterday I forgot

If anyone is reading this do you think this is a bad idea like a slippery slope into actually developing an eating disorder/anorexia? My goal is really just to only eat as much as my body actually demands and going back down to what my weight was a few years ago (I was the same height then so I don't think it'll be overcompensating) but do you think there's a risk of it devolving into something else that's worse?

Also in the past I have low key had a binge eating thing so maybe I already have an eating disorder I really have no idea