#i've been trying to draw more stuff that's slightly more ambitious lately

[whispence]

i deeply apologise for not drawing these two yet

it's strange, considering how much i love both

[recurring-polynya]

Writing/Art Update 10.29.24

It is Tuesday and I am doing my Tuesday update, miracle of miracles!

So, on one hand, I actually did the things I said I was going to do last week! "Getting ready" took a little longer than I expected it to--I didn't finish my re-read until yesterday, but I did finish it, and I have written (drumroll): 1,300 words.

Do not mistake me: I am very excited about my 1,300 words. I finished a scene that had been sitting there, half done, for two years. I had that one and another scene that I wasn't really sure what to do with, because they were both kind of short, but I thought up a third scene I could write and group the three of them together into a chapter, and I did that. I now have 4 drafted chapters and ideas for the next two.

On the less-good hand, I wish I felt better about any of this. Unfortunately, reading the beginning of this fanfic reminded me that the early bits of it were Good, Actually, and I know in my heart that I'm not going to be on that level. ("I’m still me, just a slightly better me. I have a good job and one nice haori and bankai, but the part of me that cares about you hasn’t changed at all."<-how am I supposed to live up to that???) SIGH. Anyway, I'm in this sort of tug of war between trying to think up scenes that are better than the scenes I have in my outline, and just going for it, because sometimes you just gotta write some crap in order to get your head around whatever's going on.

My big complaint with it right now is just that it's boring at a point when I need the story to escalate. It's also turning into a parade of the Best Of Polynya's OCs, which is not a thing I want to do, but at this point, I'm pulling in the greater Kuchiki ecosystem, and it's either that or make up new OCs, which is worse. The nerd squad is back, too, and at least I am happy to spend some time with them again. All I can do is soldier on and hope that it shapes up eventually. They usually do.

I did a few more silly doodles for the Bleach Pilot comic from Celebrate Bleach week. I'm actually extremely happy with how they came out, and when I always complain that I think my art would look better if I left it in a more scribbly style rather than trying to render it, this is what I'm talking about.

Even though it is time-consuming, I'm really glad I've been interested in drawing again lately. I've been doing some stuff for my art club, too, but I do have another fanart that I'd like to do while it's seasonally appropriate.

Guess that's it for now. I have a lot going on over the next week, but I think it's not to ambitious to try to beat this week's wordcount.

[chisatowo]

I've been thinking abt oc stuff a lot lately so I decided to fuck around a bit and try to draw something slightly more ambitious.