#i've been drinking so I've got Destiel on the brain

[martitheevans]

Wdym we never got to see Dean sleeping in the Impala or something and Cas noticing he's cold and putting his coat over him WHAT DO YOU MEAN-!

[needletailz]

tumblr memes & trends 2022

sooooo i've been writing this down all year :p the dates just represent the day i noticed the meme & wrote it down, not when the meme was created

jan 1 - new years posts years out of date (happens every year)

jan 1 - horse plinko

jan 2 - oh mien got dis cave is full of bluntsmoken

jan 4 - urfavisunfuckable mod drama

jan 6 - blorbo from my show

jan 12 - eeby deeby trending w/ blorbo from my show & glup shitto

feb 7 - tbh creature w/ big eyes (aka autism creature)

feb 8 - amongi & amongus babies

feb 19 - quirked up white boy busting it down sexual style

feb 25 - im the ps5 speaking inside your brain

mar 4 - live slug reaction

mar 20 - new tumblr users

apr 1 - april fools this year was crabs :) they were cherished 🦀

apr 1 - get drinked

apr 21 - tumblr blaze

apr 25 - misha collins comes out as straight

may 3 - dracula daily

may 18 - not too fond of gay people dog

may 29 - morb

may 31 - swedes won't give you food (this is a twitter meme but it's funny)

june 2 - mousegirl bartender

june 4 - manscapped :'((

june 15 - that fucking pikachu man ad

june 21 - increased recognition of were-ralph (from the werewolf boyfriend pulling out post) by name

july 8 - shinzo abe is assassinated & boris johnson announces resignation & everyone rejoices

july 15 - crabs 2: the sequel 🦀 now bestowed upon others for a price

july 31 - something something taylor swift private jet idk

sep 6 - gougar

sep 6 - tumblr logo has eyes??

sep 8 - reigensweep looses to an unexpected SANS UNDERTALE & then THE QUEEN OF ENGLAND DIES 🦀 🦀 trisha paytas goes into labor

sep 26 - female presenting nipples & other scandalous appendages are unbanned (edit: they were not. everyone is disappointed)

sep 27 - ned from try guys cheated on his wife >:/

oct 20 - liz truss defeated by lettuce

oct 22 - posts that look like this:

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oct 22 - this should be a _k post

nov 4 - ryan reynolds joins tumblr on destiel eve

nov 6 - so many 2014 style tumblr posts in hopes of scaring away twitter refugees (everyone say thank you evilmario666)

nov 20 - GONCHAROV (1973)

dec 17 - the pornbots return

dec 29 - greta thunberg roasts andrew tate, he reveals his location in his response & is arrested by Romanian authorities for human trafficking. what a lovely way to end the year :)

[uni-seahorse-572]

sophiana week day 3: au

notes: coffee shop au! Fair warning, this is 1.8K and I wrote it all today, it's late, and I dove too far into Sophie's pov. Speaking of which, this is the wildest I've gone with Sophie's characterization yet, but I think they deserve it. Basically this feels like crack and if I was sane I wouldn't be posting it this late and this unedited. Mild cursing (like. one word literally), graphic depictions of caffeine, and references that give me genuine pain.

@sophianaweek2022

Later on, there was much Sophie would have liked to say about the moment they met their girlfriend. Like that they bantered wittily over the counter as Sophie blushed and then scrawled their number on the mystery woman’s coffee cup, like in one of their favorite fanfics. Or even just that the moment Biana had walked in, Sophie had thought, oh shit, she’s the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen—and they would have, too, had they been in any normal state of mind. They would’ve settled for a typical transaction, the hint of a spark, and nothing more.

In reality it was the week before finals, and Sophie had pulled an all-nighter half on accident. In reality, they had drank several cups of coffee already without managing to gain any semblance of consciousness, and their coworker only reluctantly trusted them with the checkout counter in their current state because the coffee shop was severely understaffed and he needed to take his dog to the vet before she had another unfortunate accident.

The line was long. Well, of course it was, it was eight in the morning (a truly horrific hour, if you asked Sophie) but they were doing their best to make sense of the universe in manageable pieces. They’d flubbed two orders in the last ten minutes but had only been berated by a customer once this shift so far. That was a win, right?

There weren’t many spare moments, but Sophie made use of all the ones they got. They weren’t being paid enough to not study for finals on their phone, which rested carefully so it seemed like they were looking at the register screen instead of slacking off. Or they had been studying. Once the words had begun to swim in their brain, they’d switched to devouring Destiel oneshots on AO3.

Which, when put together, amounted to the fact that when Biana Vacker stepped up to the counter, radiant despite the early hour—hair pulled into an elegant twist, eyeliner sharp and lacy white crop top hugging her glowing sepia brown skin—Sophie blinked at her blearily and said, “How can I help you today?”.

(which—if they were in a certain kind of soulmates au—would have been exceptionally cruel of them, yet as it was, that was a shockingly coherent sentence given their sleep-deprived brain)

Biana ordered. Jasmine tea, no sugar, a hint of milk.

It took Sophie an exceptionally long moment to remember how to make tea. And what tea was. But once they did, it was a simple order, only complicated by the press of aggravated customers’ eyes on their back. They popped the lid on and handed it out.

Which, by all rights, should have been simple. Easy. By all rights, it should have been a forgettable transaction and nearly was.

But Sophie hadn’t put the lid on right. In their esteemed opinion, that was an easy mistake to make. The lids never wanted to fit. This one certainly didn’t.

Sophie’s hand slipped. The tea went all over Biana’s front, rich brown against that lacy, white top.

As it turned out, spilling a drink on a customer was an even better adrenaline rush than, well, actual coffee. Right when Sophie really, really doesn’t want to feel awake for this.

Several curses swelled beneath their tongue. A few even escaped. “I’m so sorry,” Sophie started, words fast becoming a ramble, “um, I can help you clean it off? If you want? And… oh, f—fudge, long line, I don’t think I can leave right now?”

“Don’t worry, I’ve got it,” Biana said. Her voice was tight, but plenty of customers would have bitten Sophie’s head off by now, so they were counting that as a win.

There had never been a simultaneously worse and better moment for their coworker Keefe to walk in. He took one look around the coffee shop and stifled a laugh rather poorly. “You go. I’ll handle this,” he says, chuckling. “I can’t take you anywhere, can I, Soph?”

Sophie grumbled something out about how they worked here before Keefe and turns back to Biana. “I’ll take you to the back,” they said. “Unless… please tell me that didn’t burn you? Wait, no, it was hot, you need a hospital—”

“It didn’t,” Biana said, voice warming slowly, taking on a bit of a chuckle. “I watched you make my drink. You, uh, stuck the teabag in without ever heating up the water.”

“I did what.” Sophie took out their key and opened the back room’s door, ushering Biana into the small space. They sighed, shoving their hair behind their ears, and handed Biana a towel. It was getting long again, nearly reaching their chin. They’d have to cut it soon. “I’m not gonna lie, I don’t know whether your shirt is salvageable. Nothing ever washes out of white.”

Biana pursed her lips together. “I have to get to class in, like, twenty minutes. I don’t think I can run home.”

Sophie pressed the heels of their hands against their eyes. “Again, I am so very sorry. I never should’ve come into work today. Uh, do you mind if I make myself a quick coffee? I’m not thinking straight.”

“Now that you’ve spilled cold tea down my front, we’re practically bosom buddies,” Biana said drily. “Go ahead. This is already unprofessional enough as it is.”

“You’re not wrong, but hey.” Sophie fumbled for the coffee grounds and throws several scoops of them into the machine, then turns it on. They set an excessively large cup beneath the dispenser, wait for it to fill roughly halfway, and then top it off with four shots of espresso and a Red Bull.

With sheer horror in her eyes, Biana stared at them. “I feel like I’m legally obligated to stop you from drinking that.”

“It’s okay.” Sophie waved their hand in the air, taking their first long drink. “Not so bad. Not my worst. It’s the only thing that keeps me moving anymore.”

“How are you even alive?” As Sophie’s world slowly crystallized, the haze of sleep lifting and instead leaving an uncontrollable jitter in its place, they really took in Biana for the first time. That was probably a mistake. She was beautiful in a way not many people were, reminding them of one of their favorite passages from The Secret Histories, all sharp edges and hard lines. She was terrible as she was lovely, yet right now softness lay in the set of her features. “Do you have anything I could maybe wear? Just for now?”

Sophie glanced at the lost and found, yet just as quickly ruled that out. There was never anything decent in there if there was much at all. There were extra uniform shirts, but they’d rather not aggravate their boss yet more (Lady Galvin legitimately had it out for them), so… that left their spare sweatshirt in their bag. Which was, thankfully, clean.

They yanked it out. “Does this work?”

As far as their sweatshirts went, it was one of their better ones. Not that old, not stained. The only downside was that it was a My Chemical Romance **sweatshirt, which revealed a whole lot more about them than they’d prefer to.

Biana took it, the black fabric bunching together in her hand. “Yeah, that’ll work, I think. You like My Chemical Romance?”

“Um, yeah,” Sophie said. “That would be why I have the sweatshirt.”

“Right.” Biana blushed, though it was more like only the very tips of her ears turning a very bright red. “Um. I’m probably just gonna change real quick, so could you turn around?”

“Yep. Definitely.” Sophie turned around, trying not to listen to the rustle of fabric behind them, trying to block out the sound of their inner lesbian shrieking and screaming. They chugged their coffee concoction. It was far too early for this.

Finally, Biana said, “Alright, all finished.”

Sophie turned back around, mustering something near a smile. They were far too gay for this. Also too tired.

While the sweatshirt was big enough to swallow them, it fit Biana perfectly, snug around her arms and the curve of her stomach. On her, it seemed incongruous, until she pulled out her hairtie and let her curls tumble down to brush around her shoulders.

“You—you look great.” Sophie let out a quiet, awkward laugh, and opened the door. “Again, I just want to apologize for, you know, spilling tea all over you. You’ve been way more understanding than you had to be.”

“Nah.” Biana shrugged, stepping back out into the shop. “I was kinda harsh at first. And everyone has bad days, I’m not about to make yours worse. It’s what anyone would do.”

“Last shift,” Sophie said, “I had a customer try and get me fired because I tried to tell her that if she wanted a vegan drink she should get a milk other than cow’s milk. She kept insisting cow’s milk was in fact vegan.”

“What most people would do,” Biana amended with a laugh. “Please tell me she got what she deserved.”

“If only. But sadly, my boss hates me, so she gave the customer a coupon and quite possibly an award certificate.” Sophie chuckled at their own joke, feeling oddly self-conscious. Well, maybe not oddly.

Biana’s smile spread slow and slight across her face, softening the lines of her cheekbones and the angles of her brows, before she glanced down at her watch and that happiness fell a shade. “Oh, shoot. I gotta run.” She paused. “Do you have your phone on you?”

“Here.” Sophie handed her their cell, pressing their thumb against the home button to unlock it. “Please don’t install malware or anything. My cousin just finished scrubbing it clean of the last virus. Wait, no, I’d actually rather you do that than look at my search history. So definitely don’t do either.”

“You’re a very suspicious person, Sophie Foster,” Biana said. She passed back their phone, now with a new contact labeled tea attack victim. “There. That way you can reach me, and, um, I can return your sweatshirt sometime…?” She said it like a question, and maybe it was, with all the layers of meaning it held.

“Yeah, no, that sounds good. Great.” Sophie bounced on their toes, their whole body rocking with the motion. They resisted the urge to go for their eyelashes. “I mean, I’d love that.”

“Then it’s a date.” Biana turned to go with a little wave and a wink, a giddy bounce in her step that hadn’t been there before. The door shut behind her with its usual cheery chime.

Sophie stared at the door blankly. Their brain felt like it had just been put through a meat grinder. “What,” they said slowly, “just happened.”

Running on no sleep and stress, as it turned out, occasionally worked in their favor.

[littlewetbeast]

you know... sometimes i think i've got jackles figured out, i think i've nailed down why he's so inconsistent about destiel, why he acts so weird about it sometimes and other times not. then some information is flung at me and it's back to square one. why is that man so insane. he just genuinely confuses me.

aw man. this shit is like catnip to my overactive, over-analytical brain.

okay. listen. i’m not gonna lie: the more i try to understand the goings-on behind spn with any degree of nuance, the more my head threatens to melt. HOWEVER. while i joke about jensen ackles being an enigma, i don’t... actually think he is.

[disclaimer: the following points include speculation. i don’t know these people and will never claim to. this is just my take on it. never bring this up to the actors in question.]

the quick and dirty: i believe jensen is likely queer himself. i believe that he strongly identifies with dean, that he feeds off of the environment around him, and that how he feels he can act around destiel and dean’s sexuality depends on 1) his support network, 2) the immediate social environment, and 3) his work environment, all of which have evolved throughout the years BUT can also vary day to day. increased confidence and securer social environment has helped him decrease the need to perform and lessens the likelihood of acting out from insecurity, but doesn’t completely eliminate it. point is: the environment matters. the more insecure you are, the more it will affect your behaviour.

that’s it. not trying to excuse any shitty behaviour, just saying that’s what it is. 

the NOT so quick and dirty: so - my point is, as a queer guy in this industry, he has obviously learned to put up a front to protect himself. (even misha does this to some extent!) it’s douchey, and it’s stupid, but i understand it. think of the drastic difference of how he behaves around misha vs j*red, or even in a large group setting. i’m not saying he’s not friends with j*red, but i DO immediately see the difference of ‘front switched on’ and ‘front switched off’.

firstly - just because jensen has matured a lot over the past 15 years and is far more relaxed about himself today than he was back then, doesn’t mean he can’t still have moments of uncertainty that can occasionally push him back to his old, bad habits. basically, for someone who has grown up in a toxic heteronormative environment (being taught by his dad that drinking through straws was gay) - and in an industry that is very unfriendly to queerness and queer narratives until VERY recently (and even now is still pretty toxic) - utilizing his stupid douchey dudebro front during moments of anxiety has probably been his go-to coping method for the majority of his life. 

secondly - we all know he’s insanely close to dean as a character. dean is a part of him. he slips in and out of character effortlessly. he cares about dean and dean’s happiness. but dean was never intended to be a queer character. jensen has played queer characters before, but that’s the difference - he is ‘playing’ a queer character. he wasn’t supposed to be ‘playing’ dean as a queer character. readings of dean as queer makes, well. readings of him as queer. that’s it. for someone who puts up such a front, i can imagine he’d be shitting himself at people picking this up from him when he’s NOT in a supportive environment for it. (yes the ‘jackles acting choices’ are a Thing, but they most likely happened within more supportive environments and during times of confidence - and, let’s face it, i think sometimes jacting choices just naturally bleed in because he’s a good actor who makes good intuitive acting choices. that was likely the primary reason for it, especially early on.) 

basically - queer readings of dean are taken as queer readings of him. therefore, his reaction to destiel has also varied depending on the environment and his work circumstances. think of there being like... a constantly shifting scale of how supportive his social environment and work environment are of queer readings of the character he plays. the further back we go, the less supportive all of these factors are; the closer to the present, the more supportive these factors are.

“but rosa! why hasn’t he just shrugged and said it’s up to audience interpretation what dean’s sexuality is, like he has recently?”

because of *points to all of the above*.

let’s illustrate what i mean. 

exhibit A) it’s fairly early days of “destiel”, maybe season 6 or so. an audience member brings up dean’s reaction to dr sexy and asks why he can react like this yet destiel is not possible. jensen says dismissively because “destiel doesn’t exist” and that dean is simply a fan of the show, to an audience that cheers.

(work environment (spn): not supportive. immediate environment (audience): not supportive. social environment (j*red): less supportive*.) *I am not claiming j*red is homophobic; however, jensen HAS felt the need to perform around him aside from the last 1-2 years.

exhibit B) it’s 2019. jensen gets straddled by misha on stage and gets a [redacted] which j*red notices and covertly jokes about in front of a large audience. he visibly becomes upset and is in a vulnerable state. misha points out a ‘destiel is real’ t-shirt (the very fact that misha did this suggests he’s far more used to a jensen who is relaxed and supportive). jensen gets defensive and asks ‘where is destiel real?’

(work environment (spn): uncertain. immediate environment (audience): uncertain. social environment (j*red and misha): mixed*.) *do i think jensen would have reacted 10x better if j*red had not been there? yes. yes, i do. do i think he would he have reacted better if he hadn’t had a [redacted] that j*red made fun of? yes. yes, i do.

exhibit C) it’s 2019. jensen and j*red are in front of an audience which, given today’s times, are likely more used to queer narratives. it’s highly possible the queer storyline for cas has been confirmed at this point. jensen is calm and in control, and is not feeling the need to act up his front. someone brings up ‘samstiel’ and j*red gags. jensen, unprompted, shows support for destiel.

(work environment (spn): given the timing, likely supportive. immediate environment (audience): likely supportive. social environment: (at home) supportive, j*red: supportive or mixed.)

we know that he has progressively felt less of a need to use his ‘front’ and has become more relaxed over the years, which i believe is likely hugely due to the positive influences of danneel and misha (and maybe others). i don’t think that has been the case for ONLY the last two years. i think jensen during exhibit B was miles away from jensen in exhibit A. jensen is not miles away between exhibit B and exhibit C. those two are differences of environments where he feels confident, in control, and is supported by the narrative he’s meant to play (C), vs an environment he felt less supported and less in control of (B).  i won’t get into it in depth here, but it’s worth noting that the past ten years have also seen huge changes in fandom culture, how actors and fandom interact, and how the film industry and corporations at large handle queer narrative and fans. that certainly affects this dynamic.

and that’s it, really. jensen is a sensitive person who feeds heavily off the people and environments he’s in. he’s matured a lot over the years and i truly don’t think it’s a stretch to say that, in environments that would have supported it, he likely has been very positive about queer narratives in spn. source: his stark difference around misha, his willingness to flirt and joke about dean and cas with him, his occasional calmer and balanced reactions to destiel in more private settings.

aaand that’s how i see it, really. even if you don’t subscribe to truthing - or even jensen being queer - all of these things apply just as strongly to men who feel the need to perform. what can i say, toxic masculinity and homophobia sucks a lot and i’m glad society is shifting slowly in the right direction, and that jensen feels safer and more secure than he once did. shame the cw is unwilling to get with the times. EDIT: for some additional, vital context, i refer you to these two additional posts, which cover his upbringing, how speculations about his sexuality has hounded him his whole career, and his first intro to shipping on supernatural being j2/wincest, which included some real ugly shit.

[izupie]

It's so funny cause when I reblogged that ask game I thought I was gonna get like, drinks too much tea, what's with all the cat ears?, p sure a bag of ferrets has been mentioned in place of a brain a few times?, only just started shipping destiel in the year of 2022 yikes

And instead I unexpectedly got all of your lovely messages and sucker punched in the feels

No but seriously, I haven't stopped smiling at my phone all evening - what kind, sweet people I've met on here that take time out of their day just to say something nice ! 💕

Thank you all!!!!

[verobatto]

Destiel Chronicles

(Vol. XXVII)

It was a love story from the very beginning.

Missing You

(7x09/7x12/7x14/7x15)

Hello my friends! I bring to you another volume from this series of metas.

Today is Edlund time!!! So we'll have a lot of Destiel here and Dean missing Cas badly, and being miserable for him too. Thank you Edlund.

I want to say thank you to my friend @agusvedder , she made the gifs for this meta and discussed with me the episodes.

Let's start this...

Edlund put order and re-direct the storyline

When episode 7x09 How to Win Friends and Influence Monsters started, I saw order and direction for the first time in many episodes. Edlund wrote a STOP sign on the road, and writes things as it should be.

1) He takes the Hallucifer storyline again.

2) He explains DEAN IS IN BAD SHAPE AND IS SUICIDAL BECAUSE HE MISS CASTIEL.

These two VITAL points, will be imprescindible for the second half of the season, and I guess the decision of getting back Misha Collins had been taken already, and they had to change things because COMING BACK TO WHAT THE SHOW WAS JUST THE TWO BROTHERS and playing A LOT with Wincest was lowering the rating.

Dean misses Cas

In this episode, we had people eating food with that substance Leviathans had put on corn syrup, and everyone was like intoxicated with it, acting like zombies. Dean was in the first stage, so he began to act weird.

Sam and Bobby noticed this, they pointed this to him, and Dean talks in self defense, but is very, very interesting the thing he mentioned first of all... Remember they were with their defense mechanism lowered, so his brain acted like a drink or a child, without strains, so... Look what Dean said...

"The best I felt in months..."

Okay, let's stop here... Dean is stoned so his words are the very truth coming out from his most repressed feelings... He had been depressed and suicidal the last months... He was feeling really bad, sad, hopeless... Why??? Because he killed Sammy's friend? That Kitsune woman?? No. Beacuse of Castiel! (Thanks Edlund)

Cas? Black goo? I don't even care anymore. 

Right there! 👆 He mentioned Cas, Black Goo, the way Cas died, Castiel is in his mind the whole time. Is Cas the reason why he's in bad shape. He misses Cas. Badly.

Then, after this, Bobby attacks again, because he's seeing in Dean this suicidal behavior that worries him a lot. Knowing loosing Cas was the thing that marked Dean deeply Bobby tries to talk with him again...

BOBBY: I want to talk about your new party line.

DEAN: Party? What are you talking about? I don't even vote.

BOBBY: "The world's a suicide case. We save it, it just steals more pills"?

DEAN: Bobby, I'm here, okay? I'm on the case. What's the problem?

And as always... Dean is avoiding the topic again...

I'm on the case, I'm concentrated on this, don't put my head in thinking about that again.

BOBBY: I've seen a lot of hunters live and die. You're starting to talk like one of the dead ones, Dean.

DEAN: No, I'm talking the way a person talks when they've had it, when they can't figure out why they used to think all this mattered.

BOBBY: Oh, you poor, sorry... You're not a person.

Okay, here... Dean talks in third person, but what he says is legit, it comes from the bottom of his heart. But Bobby wants more from him. And because he is honest, Bobby is afraid Dean is trying to kill himself by doing the kamikaze thing. So he needs Dean to confront his lost and work on it.

BOBBY: Come on, now. You tried to hang it up and be a person with Lisa and Ben. And now here you are with a mean old coot and a van full of guns. That ain't person behavior, son. You're a hunter, meaning you're whatever the job you're doing today. Now, you get a case of the Anne Sextons, something's gonna come up behind you and rip your fool head off.

What Bobby is trying to say here is YOU WERE A PERSON ONCE, NOW YOU'RE A CRAZY SUICIDAL GUY. He mentions Lisa and Ben because that's the idea of a normal life a person that came out from the hunter life wants. And that's what Sam, Bobby even Cas thought Dean wanted for himself.

This is heartbreaking, Bobby is desperate, because Dean doesn't take his words seriously. He even use words wrong by the end of the speech. But Dean gets the message.

Dean was a person once. He had faith, he had his best friend, he had a thing not so Platonic growing in his heart for him, he trusted him, he was his savior. But he betrayed him, and when they were about to solve things, Cas was gone.

Of course he's depressed and suicidal... Because he not just lost Cas, but everything he represented in Dean's heart and soul.

During the episode, we discover the monster committed suicide... As a parallel with as in the river.

In episode 7x13 The Slice Girls, Sam talks about Dean's behavior too...

SAM: You know what? Bobby was right. Your head's not in it, man. When Cas died, you were wobbly, but now...

DEAN: Now what? Oh, what, you're dealing with it so perfect? Yeah, news flash, pal – you're just as screwed up as I am! You're just... bigger.

(...)

SAM: Look... Dean, the thing is, tonight... It almost got you killed. Now, I don't care how you deal. I really, really don't. But just don't – don't get killed.

Okay, they're having finally the conversation, because now Bobby is dead, and everything is out of control. But is interesting the word Sam choose to describe Dean's shape after Castiel's death... "Wobbly" like loosing stability. He had just lost his strengths, Cas, and that's sad but beautiful at the same time.

And I can't forget episode 7x14 Plucky Pennywhistle Magic Maneuverism where Dean wanted so so badly his rainbow toy... Exquisite.

Two Destiel dark mirrors

Then we have two blatant Destiel's mirror in episode 7x12 and 7x15.

Let's began with 7x12 Time after Time, after time.

In this one, Dean traveled accidentally back in time with Elliot Ness who's a hunter too, to kill Chronos.

And we had at the beginning of the episode a very bi-Dean scene very well known by the fandom, remember Dean checking out a soldier in uniform in the street? Yeah.

But we'll, back to Chronos, when they were about to hunt him, he said a very interesting thing...

CHRONOS: Lila, I'm sorry, but, you just – everything I said to you is true –

DEAN: Oh, he might have left out a few details. He tell you he's a monster who jumps through time?

CHRONOS: [shouting at DEAN] I'm a God! [speaking to LILA] Look, I'm not a monster. Listen. I'm the opposite.

Chronos is trying to convince Lila, his lover, about his true identity, but pay attention to his words... Is a recall to what Dean and Cas had to live when CAS was on the dark side. Even the word God is a reminder of Godstiel.

Let's continue...

ELIOT NESS: Well, don't forget to tell her about all the people you murdered along the way, boy scout.

LILA: What?

CHRONOS: It's not like that. I do it for you, Lila.

LILA: I don't understand.

Okay are we again on that cabin with CAS trapped in the fire?

The word boy scout it talks about a good, kind and nice person that make things to help others. So we could call that Cas too, because he thought he was doing what he was doing for the greatest cause.

Now... Chronos says those words to Lila "I do it for you." And that's to put a finger on our wounds, people... Yes the same phrase Cas repeated to Dean.

Let's leave Chronos right here, and continue with episode 7x15 Repo Man (Edlund's).

I want to point here, this one was a blatant mirror, written so exquisitely by Edlund, and choosing each word, to make us see how Dean was feeling about loosing Cas... Pay attention...

JEFFREY: Did you ever think that maybe I loved being possessed? Did you? 

Now, the word connection here, as a mirror of the profound bond between Dean and Cas. Dean loved it.

Castiel saved Dean from Hell, we can say he liberated Dean from perdition. Then, he gave him faith, a purpose in his life. A new and true mission.

Again... Cas was his faith, his strengths. He changed Dean's life for ever.

Okay, isn't this a description of what Dean is feeling now? Jeffrey is describing Dean's behavior and cause of his depression by describing his own experience with the demon. And is beautiful, because this is previous to Castiel's return in episode 17. Like a premonition, a preparation.

Yes, my friends, Edlund is emphasizing DEAN IS IN BAD SHAPE, SAD, DEPRESSED, SUICIDAL, FOR CASTIEL.

After this, Jeffrey can summon the demon, but he possesed another body, and not him. And he gets jealous, well, this is kind of hilarious because when Dean found Emmanuel, he was married with his female version, but, it felt kind of a cheating, isn't? Okay, we could say... This is a foreshadow to that. 🤣

To Conclude:

These episodes written by Edlund showed us Dean was in bad shape because of Cas. Drawing a couple of Strong's points like Dean being stoned and talking without strains about his feelings and Cas and Bobby talking with him because he sensed his suicidal behavior.

There was two dark Destiel mirrors, but the one that was a blatant and heartbreaking was Jeffrey and his demon. We could say each word Jeffrey said, it was Dean talking about his lost connection with Castiel.

These episode were a preparation to Misha's return in episode 17.

I hope you enjoy this Chronicles! See you in the next one!

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Buenos Aires September 4th 2019 8:24 PM

[awed-frog]

Hello! I've been meaning to ask several things for quite some time, and seeing your introduction reminded me of it: 1 - you once talked about a Greek computer, is it the thing that could calculate the position of the stars? Also if I'm not mistaken you mentioned cinema, what did you mean by that? I'm so curious but I haven't found any info... Sorry if I misunderstood something

2 - ever since I read your Destiel Antiquity AU I’ve been craving it in fanfics but it’s so rare I almost want to write it myself. Do you have any advice on how to “romanise” or… “greekify” (?) characters that are from a totally different part of the globe in canon? Thank you so much for always taking the time to answer! ♥

Hi! I don’t actually remember talking about a Greek computer because I’m old and forgetful, but I’m sure I must have meant the Antikythera mechanism, which is defined as an analogue computer and yes, it was used to calculate the position of the stars. We found it pretty much by chance (on a ship entombed 45m below sea surface), it took us almost a century to figure out what it was, and even then, some people insisted it was too advanced for the times, and there must have been some kind of mistake (there wasn’t).

What I do remember mentioning are Greek robots, which were machines powered with steam and rare enough to draw crowds of tourists to the places displaying them. I think Pausanias talked about some temple which had a mechanical man, whose function seems to have been similar robots I saw in Hindu temples - by moving when coins are tossed at them, they encourage people to donate. Oh, and we also know about at least one vending machine which dispensed clean water in exchange for money.

(Meanwhile, China was apparently making mechanical dildos - #priorities?)

As for cinema, I think what I meant was cameras - the Greeks, like other ancient civilizations, experimented with camera obscura, and we know painters sometimes used them to make quick sketches as a preparation for a more elaborate painting. I’m not a science person so I don’t know exactly why this happens, but the mechanism is pretty simple: if you admit light through a very small hole into a dark space, whatever’s outside that hole will appear on the wall in reverse.

Here is an example of a modern artist, Abelardo Morell, creating breath-taking images with the help of a camera obscura:

[More photos of his work here.]

The obvious advantage of working with this instrument is that you don’t need to stay outside for hours to get your landscape right - and if you’re painting a portrait, your subject doesn’t have to keep coming back for weeks for you to get an accurate liking. Apparently, Alexander was a fan of this method, and painters with pinhole boxes were part of the vast caravan he dragged all the way to India.

Now - the pinhole box is also the beginning of photography. In a pinhole box, the image is simply displayed on the wood, and unless you trace it by hand, it will be gone as soon as the darkness is snuffed out. The big break was finding a way to make the image ‘trace itself’, thus making it permanent without the need of a human hand. And, again, I don’t understand exactly how this works, but apparently what started to do the trick were silver surfaces treated with chemicals (a technique invented by Louis Daguerre, a Frenchman, in 1833).

Personally, one thing I find fascinating about all this stuff is that, on the whole, the materials that were available to inventors in the 19th century weren’t that different from those already known in Greece. Inventing steam trains and photography in the ancient world wasn’t a scientific impossibility; it’s got more to do with the history and geography of the place, and how its people thought. I mean, we were already carrying out successful brain surgery in 5000 BC - if we could just stop fighting each other for one second and focus on scientific progress instead of amusing the rich (I just found out some priceless and rare metal was crushed into glitter to make some guy’s dining room floor sparkle, not that I’m bitter about that) or branding any new technology as sinful (*side-eyeing the entire Catholich church*), we’d probably be living in glass cities on Mars by now. Or something.

As for historical AUs - I’m not sure I have any good advice, because it’s something I struggle with myself. Two important points I have little idea of & probably not enough skill to implement IRL: 

get to know the relevant parts of the culture and history you’re choosing as background (I find children’s books are often more useful than more serious stuff, because they tend to go into detail about that stuff you actually need, like how people dressed and whether glasses, board games and toilet paper were a thing or not) and

remember to adapt your characters to their new identities by shifting their likes, dislikes and inner conflicts to something that’s era-consistent.

I find both things extremely difficult to do, but if you’re interested in history and historical novels, I think fanfiction is a good place to start experimenting with that - your readers are going to be more forgiving, and the world needs to see more people in togas (speaking of, where is my Marvel AU with lowly legionnaire Stephanus drinking a magic potion and turning into Centurion Roma? Come on, guys. Chop chop.).

[elizabethrobertajones]

Hey so, you've probably been asked this before and if so you can just completely ignore this. But. I know there's been plenty of talk about the differences of Dean and Sam's personalities and families in It's a Terrible Life, but I've yet to seen anyone (as far as I remember anyway) talk about theories of why Sam's fiancé is Madison, and not Jess? Or Sarah? Far as I've come on that theory is, maybe because of the Werewolf thing? And how it relates to Sam's own "demons"? Thoughts?

I like your optimism that I have already been asked all of *the* most obscure questions :D Hehe

The fact Sera wrote both episodes is my first port of call, and Madison would be her own character so faster to mind. I think Heart is also one of her pet favourite episodes although do not ask me how I know that because It’s almost certainly something I read 7 years ago :P 

I would also have to assume on a boring technical level that they were trying to come up with uncanny valley lives, and Dean’s fake life already collected up Bobby and Ellen and Jo, while Sam’s life was deliberately meant to be the less well-developed one because Zach had just thrown together enough to stop him realising the game was up *immediately*, while not bothering to make a complete enough backstory that Sam wouldn’t help motivate Dean because without the much bigger cracks through which their old life came, Sam wouldn’t be able to motivate him in the same way. I don’t think he made many mistakes in the set up except mildly underestimating Dean (while still getting exactly what he wanted out of him by the end of the episode - in the short term, in the long term that’s when Dean gives him the “stab you in the face” warning :P), since he would have been constantly watching them, like an ant farm, and could have fixed Sam if he WASN’T meant to poke at his own backstory. Sam was never really their focus since Ruby had him under lock down doing her side of things and the angels by that point were all aboard on starting the apocalypse.

So I think the last most obvious reason it’s Madison is because Sam was just being mocked as a disposable character, and it really comes across that way when you know the whole story and who set it up:

SAMYeah, ‘cause I only moved here 'cause I just broke up with my fiancée, Madison. But I called her number and I got a damn animal hospital.

And in that sense, Madison is really tragic for us to know was a really awful thing that happened to Sam romantically since Jess, but also has this set up to be mocked and a too-easy joke for Zach. I think if it had been Jess there would have been the danger of him remembering too much, in character, and out of character if the writing process was casting around for a love interest to have a “hilarious” joke from Zach about them, Sam’s girl of the week options are limited and Sarah and Lori from hookman in the first season were both fairly sweet and survived the episode without much interpersonal drama for Sam, while Madison was also very tragic so mocking her and what Sam went through with her, is a very blatant example from the first couple of seasons of Sam being put through the wringer - I think he cried more in that episode than he’s done for the rest of the show since :P There’s much more obvious material to make a joke from than most of his other romantic connections and the only one who he actually cared about (since season 3 had him mostly just being set up for Ruby, while lusting after Bela a little… and honestly at this point trying to think who else Sam has been linked to, the Bad Writer Voice in my brain that comes up with all the junk pile snark suggested that old woman from 3x06 who pawed all over Sam - “But I called her number and I got a damn retirement home.” … So let’s be glad it was Madison :P)

Anyways, if there’s a wider meta purpose you probably got it… Madison is one of the monsters that Sam’s been connected to romantically, and actually Dean seems to think Sam’s got together with a lot more monsters than he actually has because in 4x14 he has some line about what is it with Sam and monster chicks or something, thinking he’s sleeping with the siren (whoops) and he’s reacting to Sam saying he and Ruby are together. Madison is really the only other major example, although Dean also thought Sam had a thing for Ava who he might not have qualified as a monster at the time, but *would* have classified as like finding like if he thought Sam had a crush, since they both had psychic powers and by season 4 that’s all the backstory to Sam’s struggle with humanity. (I mean honestly, Madison seemed to traumatise them both for different reasons so I could get if she stuck out in Dean’s memory even if he seems to tease Sam for it, it would be making light of it as a coping mechanism to the awful stuff they’ve done on the job.)

I’d also get if the show wanted us to think Sam had a bigger history with this than he does - hence the line in 4x14 AND this reminder about Madison - because they like making generalisations of their history to tell the story, focusing on one or two incidents and making it sound like a life-long pattern (despite Jess being Sam’s defining romance and characterised by the normality and that he lied to her about monsters to protect a bubble of normality). We won’t find out about Amy Pond until season 7 aka they don’t write it until then, so it’s retroactively adding to the pattern that was barely a pattern in season 4, but if they want to build up the image of Sam being attracted to monsters as part of the question about his own nature, trying to remind us that Ruby isn’t his first is a good way to go about that. 

Then they end the season with Dean or false representations of him repeatedly telling Sam that he’s a monster or he isn’t human any more and Sam picks Ruby over Dean, and throws his own humanity away blah blah blah we all know the story :P (I say, blah-ing away one of the best season finales on the show.)

… TBH the show trying to set up this narrative that you are what you sleep with just reminds me that in the version of the Winchester Gospels where Sam doesn’t drink demon blood, this is all excellent supporting narrative/examples to build up the ridiculous counterpoint Destiel subtext going on on the other side :P Which is kind of a joke I make but season 4 is told a LOT through their sexual preferences and encounters. If I was going to write a serious academic paper about the show where you don’t need to make the same disclaimers about intent and interpretation as you do on Tumblr it would be excellent to examine season 4′s main arc and plot points as told through the representations of their sexuality, because the Sam/Ruby, and Dean/Cas/Anna major narrative parallel of you are what you sleep with is barely scratching the surface… It’s a huge thing. The siren episode doesn’t just *happen* to be in this season and it’s not a random isolated incident, it’s one of the many ways this undercurrent of the season shows up. And that puts the Sam and monsters subtext directly next to Dean and dudes, which lines up perfectly with playing Sam/Ruby off Dean/Cas for the length of the season. Hey and lo and behold in 4x17 Sam has a history with Madison, and Dean has a hot co-worker he hangs out with, and a deep insecurity about the idea of Sam hitting on him in the elevator (… at work), and some queercoded behaviours, and a complete lack of love life mentioned in the main text, including shoving Jo hard into the sister box in the same exchange we find out about Sam and Madison…