#i'm so sorry to all my followers that don't watch djats

[charlesleclerrc]

something else that really bothered me is that camila basically took care of all the band members, was karengraham #1 enthusiastic and yet when they sensed something was happening between daisybilly, once again, no one told her. karen even had the courage to ask her how things were with billy, but still not a word of warning. all of this while camila stays at home taking care of julia. she really doesn't have anyone she can count on.

[cwritesforfun]

Karen Sirko x Fem!Reader: I Love You, I'm Sorry

Inspiration is from the name of the song, I Love You I'm Sorry by Gracie Abrams lol

Y/N = Your Name * I do not own any of the DJATS characters or plot *

Flashback in Italics

Masterlist

Your POV

You were the sound technician that traveled with the band, Daisy Jones and the Six for years. You went on two tours with them and both were cut too short. It was sad, sure. But those two opportunities helped you in the music industry and you made so many friends. One was Karen Sirko.

Enter Karen Sirko. She was the keyboard player for the band and your eyes were drawn to her as she played every time. Unfortunately for your job, you had to pay attention to the rest of them too.

You still remember the first time you two kissed. It was at a party.

The party was a Halloween party and you had dressed up as a zombie with your friends who were crew members for Daisy Jones and the Six. You hug Camila as you enter the party and grab drinks with friends. One of your friends leans over and says, "I think Karen keeps looking over at you." You reply, "Maybe she just likes my costume?" Your friend answers, "Uh I would say that, but she watched you at rehearsal all week for the upcoming tour. And oh she's walking over." You reply, "You and gossip, geez." You hear, "What gossip?" You see Karen standing there and you answer, "Uh just two crew members hooking up." Karen replies, "Really? Huh? Good for them I guess. Can I show you something, Y/N?" You answer, "Sure thing." You follow Karen and you realize that you're walking to her room. OH... show me what now!?!? Karen lets you in her room and then shuts it behind you two. Karen then says, "I think we should kiss. It makes sense. We practically eye fu** each other every day anyway." You reply, "Sure." She then pushes you against the wall and kisses you.

You sigh. You would've done anything for Karen at the start of your secret relationship. You were both so happy. You would often sneak into random closets or random rooms to make out. There was one close call and then Karen started pretending to date Graham in front of her band, so no one would get suspicious. Graham thought it was all real. You think Karen started believing she loved Graham at one point too.

You're grabbing food from the table for the crew and you start eating as you walk. Karen appears next to you, smiling widely. She holds out her hand and says, "Follow me." You reply, "Hi, uh I was going to eat. We could eat together instead." She pulls your hand and says, "You know I can't do that. Come on." She pulls you into a random room and you set your food down. Karen pulls you closer and starts kissing you. You lightly push her off and say, "I don't think I can do this anymore." She pulls away and gasps, "What?" You answer, "I love you, I'm sorry... I know we were keeping it casual, but I love you. I don't like being your little secret, I want to show you off as my girlfriend." She sighs and says, "Babe, come on. You know this band is only a small stepping stone for me. And, this relationship is something I want to keep casual. I just don't want to tell anyone." You say, "Ok that's fine then. But, do you love Graham?" She replies, "No, but it's very easy with him. It's nice." You pick up your food and say, "I wish you all the best in your future with Graham and with your music goals." She half-smiles and you leave the room. You see Graham in the hallway and say, "Your girlfriend is in that room on the left by the way." He smiles and thanks you.

You ended up being transferred off the Daisy Jones & the Six tour to another band's tour because you were the youngest and newest. That was their reasoning and honestly, you were not mad. You wanted space from Karen.

You later found out that the Daisy Jones and the Six tour ended abruptly not to your surprise.

You moved on with a new girl and you were having fun living the life you wanted. It was all good.

You saw the Daisy Jones and the Six documentary in theatres. It was engaging and beautifully done. You noticed yourself in the background a few times. The ending when the band was reflecting on things, well it shook you and messed your life up.

Karen was interviewed and the narrator asked if she loved Graham, which she admitted she did. She said she lied to him because she wasn't ready to settle down and she knew he deserved someone who wanted that now. The narrator asks Karen if she's been in love since and she admits that she never knew she loved Graham if not for you. Yeah, she said your name and admitted she loved you too.

Your brain was spiraling and you were freaking out after learning that.

You end up breaking up with your girlfriend because you realize you still love Karen.

You're sitting at a bar drinking when you hear your name next to you. You turn and there is Karen. She's smiling softly and she takes the seat next to you. She exclaims, "Hi Y/N." You reply, "Hi Karen... I saw the documentary." She takes a deep breath and asks, "And what did you think about it?" You answer, "I thought it was honest and real and beautiful." She asks, "Did you stay until the end? What did you think about that?" You answer, "Uh I thought you were brave to admit that to the world." She asks, "I love you Y/N, I'm sorry I lied all those years ago... if you're okay with it, I would love to take you on a date." You agree and you leave the bar then go on your first date.

You're happy that Karen loves you and you love her.

@leonchef ~ enjoy

[mrsnancywheeler]

I just wanna say... ur content makes my brain go 'bzzt!!!' in a good way; I've never watched djats, but lordy your billy dunne blurbs have a chokehold on me ✊️😔 an incurable plague on my house... u and ur anons' brains are just so !!!! MWAH!!! chef's kiss!!!

I mainly followed for Finnick content and stayed when I saw u were a swiftie & some of your stuff was based on some of her songs^^... if I may throw my hat into the Billy Dunne & his muse ring :))

I'm surprised no one has brought up The Last Time yet, especially the bridge!

'This is the last time you tell me I've got it wrong'/'This is the last time I say it's been you all along'/'This is the last time I let you in my door'/'This is the last time, I won't hurt you anymore'

And the whole nature of the song being that 'ik we need to quit while we're ahead, but you're all i know' and how it's progressed to where we see in the song... if that ain't Muse coming to her senses and Billy having The Realization that he's been a massive dick...

like, the vision is in my head & I hope it came across clearly enough lmao & makes sense considering the very limited knowledge I have on this topic

I'm literally so glad, I long to infect everyone with billy dunne brain rot. i love my anon's sm too, their brains are next level fr. I'm so glad you're here, hun, I love taylor sm and yessss tell me all your thoughts 💋

yesss you are so so right like the whole ultimatum especially like, I'm not coming back if you don't change, we do this over and over and over again and I can't do it any longer, yet I'm still gonna stay with yiu throughout the whole tour snf and come whenever you call.

so many lyrics are just so relevant

"find myself at your door, just like all those times before. I'm not sure how I got there, all roads they lead me here"

"this is the last time I'm asking you this, put my name at the top of your list. this is the last time I'm asking you why you break my heart in the blink of an eye, eye, eye"

"you find yourself at my door, just like all those times before. you wear your best apology"

the vision is clear and so, so correct. like the realization that no matter how much willing she has, no matter how many times they do this, there's only so much more she can take before it just breaks.

sorry this took me so long to get too, I'm traveling 😭❤️