#i'm so fcking tired but also not somehow??

[sophielovesbooks]

Lately my insomnia has been so bad it makes me wonder if invisible people are lacing my food with amphetamines

[ying-doodles]

// webtoon spoilers (ep 156)

... also surprise, it's the return of ending spoiler 4? o-O

huh. so they are bringing back lupellan (well, at least his skull) back after all? if that's the case, I don't really get the point of worthroad being the one to summon helkaros if he was gonna use lupellan as the vessel anyways... like was it really necessary to connect the guy setting off the heart of winter to helkaros coming to invade the frontera estate??

this guy going off about how lloyd is just lucky to have gotten where he has and that he's incompetent makes me so mad.. like you have any idea what he's been through, you glorified raisin-

and there it is, they're gonna make alicia go insane again somehow, which just makes the whole cursed hand thing seem so redundant when it was the whole reason why the fourth ending spoiler happened in the novel... :/

I'm so sick and tired of lhm casually fcking up the plotline, making connections where there are none, and straight up adding new shxt just to make the story more dramatic,, like the novel was so good on its own, he did not need to do any of that...

[stormoflina]

And hahah, no, I actually remember the Cavani ass touching incident. I didn’t see the whole match but rather the videos and meme after that haha, crazy stuff. Which countries are the favoured ones in your opinion? I'm nosey and live for the drama 😭

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im sorry for answering sooo late hahaha, im spending less and less time on tumblr and i didn't even notice until recently omg

anyway, every country has gotten favoured once or a few times far in between, but the constant ones have been the two most successful: Argentina and Brazil (that 2014 wc was ughhh to see at times and fcking Neymar istg, grow up!). Recently, Argentina more than anyone else due to the obvious (being the current world champions) and, while I'm excited cause footbaaalll, im honestly tired already from what we will eventually see in the Copa América 😭. Like, it's sooo obvious who's gonna win and who's gonna be favoured.

no hate to Argentina or their fans btw HSHAHSAHA i do like to talk shit, but i don't really hate cause who has time for that and i can for sure appreciate some good football.

anyway, let's hope something different happens (as long as Chile doesn't win 😁🙏🏼).

what about Europe? which countries are the favoured ones? from a foreigner's perspective and the little ive seen i think England is the most favoured lololol

oh, and who are the favourites to win the Euros? im curious

we are still a few months away from international tournaments, but they're the only thing i can think of rn cause im excited jeje.

- long ass rant anon 🇨🇴❤️

Hi love!! 🫶🏼

Oo, somehow I thought so that it was going to be either Argentina or Brazil, haha. Makes sense, even if I'm sure it can get annoying if you are not from either of those countries. But like they have a ridiculous squad, so do they even need the help? 🤔

Europe, hmmm, good question. I honestly don't have very strong feelings towards this. Obviously everyone feels that their country is the one getting shifted haha, I confess that I'm not exactly a stranger to that either, lol. But if I really have to name one I, too, would say England. However it does depend more on the referee, some are just clueless. As much as it pains me to admit, I think there's a significant chance that this year it really is 'coming home' (gosh, i hate this phrase so much lol), but I can also see France or Portugal (if Ronaldo doesn't throw his hissy fits) having a good run. When the inevitable happens and Hungary is out, I will definitely be rooting for Germany. I like Croatia too!

[radiorenjun]

Okay so imma rant about my whole day today related to genshin cosplayers so GET READY TO BE ENVIOUS OF MY Y/N MOMENTS @lebrookestore @gu-nil since yall were lowkey curious about the thing in my previous post here's context LMAOAOAOA

So like I went to this anime event called Animetokku in this mall near my house right AND THERE WERE LIKE SO MANY AMBER, YOI, HUTAO (ESP HUTAO), KUJOU SARA, XIAO AND BAAL COSPLAYERS BUT BRO SOMEONE COSPLAYED MS HINA?? I swear I saw someone shirtless to commit to their xosplay and I saw like a dinosaur cosplay, a heizou cosplay, TRANSFORMER COSPLAYS and a sht ton of demon slayer cosplays.

So like i was a kobeni cosplayer right? Handing out paper cranes to my friends and for the sake of privacy I'll be changing everyone's names so like I met up with my ex senior Cici who was cosplaying as hutao right and were both BIG NICCHO SIMPS (nicchocholas is this Xiao Cosplayer in indo u can look him up on insta he's super duper hot and he's great at cooking genshin foods on his tiktok) and then like I was their photographer whenever we come across each other so I took photos of them being kabedoned by a female gojo cosplayer (God I wished I was cici in that moment the gojo cosplayer was so fcking pretty bye)

And then afterwards we like lost each other in the mall right and me and my friends( blue, Oyster and cake) were getting tired because we were walking for like hours and hours taking pics and shit and we decided to go to Starbucks and otw we found a scaramouche cosplayer and they were posing w strangers yk w awkward distances in between them yk AND ME BEING SOMEONE WHO LITERALLY PLAYEF GENSHIN FOR SCARA I HAD TO ASK FOR A PIC RIGHT SO I CAME UP AND ASK FOR A PIC AND THEY??

OMG THEY STEPPED CLOSER TOWARDS ME? WRAPPED THEIR ARM AROJND MY SHOULDER AND PULLED ME TO THEIR SIDE?? BRO MY HEART WAS BEATING SO FAST I COULDNT EVEN TAKE THE PIC PROPERLY I WAS SCREAMING I WAS CRYING I WAS DYING IT FELT LIKE FLYING HUT MAYBE I WAS DYING WHO KNOWS AND I LITERALLY FELT MY HEART DO THE DOKI DOKIS AND LIKE? OH MY GOD IM STILL ALL GIDDY THINKING ABOUT IT HELP

And then we walked towards Starbucks right to take a rest and then lookie we met up w Cici and their sister (I'm good friends w their sister too since we were classmates) and then like they were like "OMG ANGIE HAVE U SEEN NICCHO YET" I WAS LIKE "OML NO HAVE U" AND SHES LIKE "NOT YET BUT MY FRIEND ALR TOOK A FRIEND WAIT" AND THEN LIKE THEY OPENED DISCORD TO SHOW ME THEIR FRIEND AND U KNOW WHAT??

BRO CICIS FRIEND WAS THE SCARAMOUCHE COSPLAYER OH MY GOD ??

and so we set on a mission to go find the scaramouche cosplayer so we can get more info on niccho ans CICI (SHES A HUTAO COSPLAYER, MIND YOU) TOOK MY WRIST AND STARTED RUNNING ACROSS THE MALL, PULLING ME WITH HER. I ALMODT TRIPPED ON MY OWN FEET AND WHEN MY HAND SLIPPED OUT THEY GRABBED IT SO I DONT GET LOST AND SOMEHOW WE WERE RUNNING ACROSS THE MALL HAND IN HAND TOGETHER?? HELLO??

I FELT LIKE A SHOUJO PROTAGONIST HELLO IS YHIS WHAT IT FEELS LUKE TO BE A MAIN CHARACTER? TO BE Y/N??

DUDE I ALMOST SLIPPED AND WE WERE SQUEEZING IN BETWEEM THE CROWD HAND IN HAND WHILE ALSO DITCHING BLUE OYSTER AND CAKE

and then we found the scaramouche cosplayer and cici was like "angie is a huge simp for u now" AND I DEADASS HID BEHIND BLUE OUT OF PURE EMBARRASSMENT BYE AND THEN WE TOOK PICS AND THEN PART WAYS RIGHT AND NOT LONG AFTER ME AND OYSTER FOUND THIS ZHONGLI COSPLAYER HE WAS SUPER HOT BUT HES LIKE A COLLEGE STUDENT I THINK AND OH MY GOD

I WAS ABOUT TO TAKE A PIC WITH HIM RIGHT BUT BEFORE I XOULD ASK HES LIKE "CAN I TAKE A PICTURE QUICKLY?" TO ME AND MY FRIEND CAMILA AND BRO??? BRO??? I DIDNT GET TO TAKE A PIC Q HIM ON MY PHONE BUT HE HAS A PIC OF ME AND HIM ON HIS PHONE QHICH HES GONNA POST ON INSTA IM SCREAMING???

AND THEN THE ZHONGLI COSPLAYER WAS LIKE "hey Oyster can u hold my phone for a bit" and I turned to Oyster "Oyster u know this dude?" AND Oyster was like "o yeah he's my sisters friend" AND I DEADASS

MY JAW

DROPPED.

SCREAMINF CRYING PUNCHING THE AIR RN?

anyways I will sleep peacefully tonight thank you

[madamneddemoiselle]

Day 3 of Quarantine/Isolation

1st fcking entry for 2022

Hi. So I wake up today with a very sore body, it felt like thousands of needles were on me. High fever, sore throat causing my voice to be hoarse and a cough. Not to mention the chills. Damn.

This day dragged on with the thought, I feel tired and I wanna vanish. Well, last night's thoughts are like that. But yep, I woke with the same thoughts. Am I relapsing?

Oh hell YES! What's the trigger?

Come, the fucking trigger was when he got mad at me for teasing him because of his all boys group chat. It was really a joke. I was kind of happy that he somehow found like the boys he can hang out with. But yep, he got mad saying we're sick and all that shit. Fuck I'm sick and my brain still can process.

The moment he got mad, I was silent. Really silent, my mind went blank and all I can say "I wanna die". Like die. We were hugging as we're apologizing, but damn I really wanna die. I can't think of anything, I just wanna die.

I slept, I woke up because of sweat and the first thing I wanna do is to take a bath and so I did.

Afternoon came and I'm beginning to think that I shouldn't burden people. But I already asked for a favor. Abi.

I kept on thinking how I can repay those "utang na loob", I don't wanna be indebted, not now that I wanna leave the group. I just wanna die in peace, okay?

I feel bad for asking favors but I don't know where to go or who to ask. We have no money left and there's a lot of days till payday.

I wanna die in peace. I don't want to leave any favors behind, like me asking for favors.

I should do something about it. That duo would be the hardest one to talk to about me leaving them.

Oh, I also wanna leave Sugarbaby by NAM. Sorry if I started it and I can't finish it. Maybe my husband would like to be the M. It's okay, we're "one"

I plan to go out everyday after this quarantine. I don't want to associate myself with my husband for now, I'll just give in. Maybe I have to strengthen my walls so I won't ask every night if I get the love I deserve cause I think he stopped trying after our wedding? I don't know cause I did not, I recently discovered that he's different when it's monday and that's okay. How about him? Is he ever trying? Does he even really know me?

Yup, you'll hear more cause I'm back again with these thoughts. Why? Cause I feel like people take me for granted and they can easily snap because of me.

[technicolor-waltz]

heyy love,

hope you are having a better day today:)

why did you feel disheartened? hope you could catch some sleep and relax a bit and already feeling better. can i somehow help to boost your mood?🥺

just got home from the training camp. i feel both emotionally and physically exhausted. just happy to have the free time to relax a bit. gotta go to work tomorrow tho. BUT super dupper great news: i'm going to the pride parade this weekend to the capital, i'm soo fcking exciteeed! how was your day so far?:) any update about your music-making project?

she is always making fun of me for being drunk/hangover hahaha telling the extended family members stories about me after these parties...

haha, no special story. i've read a fun fact about them, how they grab each other so they don't drift apart from each other when they sleep. it melted my cold heart for a sec so they became my fav. here is a fun fact about them which also make them my favourite: they mate for life:) what is your favourite animal?

this math pick up line made my day hahah. if we are already talking about math, are you √2? cause i feel irrational around you!:p

it’s getting so hard not to write directly to you! you are soo kind and nice to me already. you've got such a pretty soul:)

sending you two big hugs!

- tso.

Hey hun! Today was actually better so thank you! :)

I was feeling down because I was thinking about “modern love” I guess. I started to observe the people around me and it makes me sad that it’s all games and drama when it comes to having a relationship, like they’re all playing with each other’s feelings, never minding if they hurt people.

I honestly feel so tired of it; and I this is probably gonna sound super cheesy and silly but I feel like I might be more old-fashioned when it comes to having a relationship. And I don’t really know if there’s other people who are looking for the same things I am, because so far it doesn’t seem like it. I feel like people just give up so easily on others sometimes, and everything seems to be fleeting, which make me sad. I wanna be all in for someone who’s all in for me, and I want it to be genuine. I want it to last. I wanna be there for my partner and I wanna be loyal and respectful; just no more games. So it made me sad that the people around me don’t seem to look for something truly healthy and mature.

But anyways, sorry for the Ted Talk hahaha, just wanna say your messages brighten up my days, they being me joy. Thank you so much for them.

It’s soooo wonderful that you’re going to pride! I hope you have the best time ever! Take lots of pics and have fuuun!

Haha, it’s so cool that your mom’s like that! She sounds like a great human being.

Awwwwww, that’s the cutest thing I’ve heard today! Otters have my heart 🥺

I honestly can’t choose just one animal! But I can say Beluga whales are one of my favourites; also Coyotes, big horn sheep, elephants... hahaha it’s a loooong list

Loving all the clever pick up lines you’ve been sending, they’re the very best!

I’m totally looking forward to the day we dm each other! I’m ready when you are ;)

Also YOU are the one with a pretty soul, you’re super smart and tender, definitely a great combo!

Sending back hugs and all my love!

This is super looong, sorry 🥺