#i'm ranting

[sadeggsforbreakfast]

there is something so nostalgic and bittersweet about revachol when you're an eastern european.

the fishing village looks like any half-abandoned village near the water. whirling is any semi-decent hostel. yeah, the architecture is run down in smaller towns. there are preserved world war II damages that serve as memorials of all the people who lost their lives fighting or just trying to survive.

you find yourself exploring martinaise and suddenly you're like "oh, renne and gaston remind me of these two old men i knew when i was a child. they were friends and they hated each other. they would always wave at me when i rode my bike past them and said hello."

or, you see cuno and cunoesse and they remind you of these kids you were mildly scared of when you were little because they seemed so tough, when actually they had no support from adults in their lives and were just trying to seem tough to navigate life as best as they could.

or, you meed lilienne and she reminds you of your mum's friend whose children you used to play with. her late husband was an alcoholic and she had to be tough for the kids. she was really nice to you.

you're a cop in a corrupt system, but you're also a man you could meet in real life. maybe you have a man like that in your family. maybe you recognise a bit of yourself in him.

i think it's a part of the beauty of disco elysium. revachol is a fictional city, but all these little things about martinaise make it seem so familiar, a world that you remember from your childhood all those years back, before they build glass skyscrapers and renovated the old houses, and these nice family from city centres started moving to the suburbs.

[bilolli]

I finally finished and edited it! This time there shouldn’t be problems with sizes and messed up colors.

Anyway, this scene lives rent free in my head and I HAD to draw it.

Solar Lunacy belongs to the talented @bamsara​ , (seriously, it’s a wonderfull fanfic, read it.)

Process GIF and variants under the cut!

On PC this one looks better, but on my phone it’s wayyyy to saturated and dark. Ujsdbidfshf I hate screens differences.

[patovpran]

Can't wait for Colin to be his true self in pt 2 so people can finally understand him as a character

[pineapplehazard]

Too occupied ranting about 911 I forgot to do my duolingo😔😔😔

[dazzle02]

Buck and Maddie's relationship is one of the most interesting on the show to me personally.

She was nine, she lost her brother and gained a new one and suddenly she's not just an older sister, she's a parent too. She's nine years old and someone's Mother. While not being allowed to properly grieve the brother she just lost. Not even allowed to acknowledge his existence.

And of course she did the best she could, but she was a child raising another child. No parent has all the answers, but especially not a CHILD who never asked to have this put on them. So she of course got things wrong. One that really sticks out is her explanation about their parents worry when Evan falls off his bike. She kinda put the idea in his head that getting hurt is what will get him that love he craves from their parents. And that was NOT her fault. She was 12. And also living in this abusive household. But she was the one that gave him the idea to continue hurting himself to get attention. And there are likely other things that he learned from her that weren't actually healthy, due to her being a child trying to learn about the world herself.

And when she left for Boston, that would definitely feel like a parental abandonment for Evan due to her being the only parental figure he ever really had. But it WASN'T. It was a 19 year old moving out and going to School, which is what a lot of people that age tend to do. But to Evan, it would feel like the only parent he's ever known leaving him. And logically he'd know that's not the case. She's NOT his mother, she's his sister and she's supposed to live her life and she never asked to raise a child at such a young age. He was NOT her responsibility. But emotionally? That's the start of his abandonment issues.

And it's why Maddie can be kinda overbearing with him at times too. (Especially after the lightning strike...) It was ingrained in her from the age of nine that he's her kid and she has to take care of him. So as soon as she sees him suffering in any way, those instincts come back full force. She's gotta take care of him, make sure he's not going to die while she's not looking. AND make it clear she's not leaving him again.

They've had to figure out how to go from the relationship they had as kids where she was more a parent than a sister, to a new one now that they're adults where they're siblings.

And that's gotta be tough. And I would love more of a focus on that really. Just them still kinda adjusting to having to have this new dynamic. Because logically they both are aware that Maddie having to raise Buck was messed up and unfair for them both. But it's also just what's normal to them.

And any time someone comes for Maddie about not being a good sister it makes my blood boil. SHE DOES HER BEST! She was a child raising a child, and she's now an adult who went through abuse for pretty much her entire life! First the neglect from her parents (plus the parentification) and then her marriage to Doug for like 15 years! Of course she's not perfect. And as much as they both love each other, they ARE BOTH part of each others traumas. For Maddie a big trauma for her was having to raise him, and for Buck a big trauma for him was her leaving. And they've managed to work through that for the most part. It's always going to be there, they're both very defining for each of them. For Maddie having to become a parent at such a young age made her feel as though she couldn't be a very good one due to not being a perfect parent AS A CHILD. And for Buck, Maddie leaving was definitely the start of his abandonment issues. And neither of them are at fault for that, but they both have these issues that are directly tied to each other. It all comes back to their parents though. If they'd just done their jobs as parents, things would be so different.

Some of this may not make much sense as it is very hot here right now and I am not thinking right. But you get what I mean, hopefully. 🤣

I would also like to add to Supernatural fans, you can not claim Dean Winchester is just the best brother in the world for raising Sam and then turn around and claim Maddie is a terrible sister. Especially as Dean could be very abusive at times...

[garrandia]

should start drawing ppl like this

Maybe I'll become famous on twt 😲🤔

[thepurplewombat]

I was in a bookshop today, and they had a whole display (like, not even a shelf, but a whole set of shelves) for Colleen Hoover, and one (1) Anne Rice novel.

And it's not even just about the Anne Rice, even though Anne Rice is a great example because her books are currently being made into a TV show that is doing numbers. It's about six different versions of Dune and virtually no recent SF at all. It's about four (I counted) different editions of LOTR, an entire shelf of Pratchett, a whole shelf display of Sanderson, and virtually no other fantasy. And I love Pratchett, everyone loves Pratchett, I have a full set of Discworld novels with the original covers and like, a third of a set of the pretty new hardcovers, but I don't think you need to have the entire Discworld out in two different editions when your fantasy section has less shelf space than my office, you know? They had two Naomi Novik books. Not even two books from her most recent series, just two of her books. Sarah J Maas is great and all, but I don't think she needs an entire section to herself.

I don't even know where I'm going with this, I'm just...its frustrating, because you can clearly see that a lot of the shelves were stocked by people who had absolutely no idea what they were packing.

If there was a series, it's out of order. They had two of MXTX's novels, and for some reason Scum Villain and MDZS were on entirely different shelves. Erha was once again shelved in the (tiny! It's so tiny, it's three shelves!) YA section (but like, the cool YA section, where the boys' books are next to PJ, not the girly YA ghetto across the street from the romance novels) which, why?? Did anyone look at the back of the book, or did they see an Asian art style and go 'well its Asian but not Manga, guess it's for kids'?

I want to buy a bookshop and make them do it right 😡

[berokind]

“你们的师座狂热又迷人。整个顾问团都说，他是年轻的凯撒。可我老麦说，他太爱战争了，生命对他只是战争的燃料，他该去看医生。”——亚瑟·麦克卢汉

"Your division commander is full of passion and charm. The whole advisory group is saying, that he is just like an young Caesar. But I, McLuhan, think, that he loves war too much. And lives, to him, are nothing but fodder for war. He should go and see a doctor." - Arthur McLuhan

“我的师座不是战争狂，他只是焦虑太过了，焦虑太过了，但总好过那些没心没肺的醉生梦死吧。一尘不染的事情是没有的，我们每天都在吸进灰尘，但不妨碍我们做的好一些啊，没有人经得起别人的挑剔。我们只想要一个答案，但答案不该是死啊。”——龙文章

"My division commander isn't war crazy, he's only got too much to worry about, to be anxious about, but surely, he is better than those befuddled nitwits, who are living in a daze. Indeed, nothing in life is perfect: every day, we are trudging through its ups and downs, eating dirt, biting dust. But that doesn't hinder us from doing a bit better—no one's able to endure being picked on by another. We only want an answer, but that answer shouldn't be 'death'." - Long Wenzhang

It isn't often, that I come across a character, whom I find compelling, captivating, fascinating. A character, with whom I feel a certain connection with, having me laughing with them, having me crying with them. And division commander Yu, Yu Xiaoqing, would be such a character.

He is a military man, through and through; some may even call him a perfect soldier.

A soldier, who never sits, when he can stand. “国难当头，岂能坐视。” "With our country facing imminent danger, how could one sit down and watch."

A commander, who is able to let go of personal feelings and ties, executing his own brother, who failed in his duty as a commanding officer. “前主力团团长，我胞弟慎卿，把江防管得外紧内松，自己又临阵失惊，我刚去弹压，把他砍了。” "The former head of the main regiment, my younger brother Shenqing, was superficial in his management of the river defense, over and above that, he lost his nerve in battle. I just went to suppress the situation, and I cut him down."

But at the best of times, he is only a child. A child, that dreams big. A child, that wants to do good. A child, shackled by its naivety.

His innocence shines through in his directness, his stubbornness, his every single action—and my heart aches for him.

He is a character, complex in his simplicity and simple in his complexity.

[empyrean11]

Other than Yimi (beautiful man, I do love him), the off season has just been a series of gut punches.

There are no exciting free agents left. (Teo my love how could you)

And while I am sure Gimenez will be a fantastic 2B, he solves precisely zero of the problems with the team.

So many excellent infielders. WTF are they gonna do. Just a constant rotation of guys around Bo and Vlad? Nobody has a proper everyday job??

And neither of them with a contract.

[myemuisemo]

The Joann closure list is baffling

The 500-store closure list is out, and it's bizarre. They're closing the nice, newish, well-maintained store in Turlock and keeping open the tatty little understaffed store in Modesto, the one where they turned the heat off in January. (Yes, it's California; but it's like being in a refrigerator -- the poor employees!)

I feel like I should have checked to see if they already closed Modesto when I wasn't looking. Turlock is a slightly smaller store, but it's also paying almost 20% less rent per square foot (someone did a spreadsheet from the bankruptcy filing!) and sited in a shopping center with appealing anchor stores. The Modesto store crouches miserably in a back corner of the Target parking lot, behind the drive-through Starbucks and the former site of the used-book store, with no signage visible from a major street.

You can't tell me Modesto was making massive sales numbers when the shelves were always empty.

Sacramento news station KCRA confirms that Modesto and Roseville are the only stores in their broadcast area slated to stay open.

People from Stockton are not going to drive to Modesto for fabric and yarn. No Stocktonite ever has said "let's go to Modesto to shop." It is not a thought that can be thunk by a resident of Stockton. I feel like Joann's corporate decision-makers are creating a situation where most sewists and crafters forget their store exists, because it's not worth the drive to browse in person nor to get in-store pickup for online purchases. This is not Los Angeles, where people drive 40 minutes for whatever. This is a long haul through the near-perpetual traffic jam at the CA-99 interchange with the Manteca Bypass, followed by the horrors of the Briggsmore Overpass, which is so baffling that the Modesto Bee used to have a humor columnist who regularly pilloried it. I can negotiate the Briggsmore Overpass with ease because I was born to this life, but outsiders freak out.

My mood is worsened by having compromised my ethics because I only needed a $2 pack of thin elastic, and Hobby Lobby was the one craft store directly on the way home from today's meetings. They are proof that hell has a really good real estate team.

Honestly, the only thing Joann corporate could have done to make me happy is to be entirely other, better people for the past 30 years. Don't devour local fabric stores, don't over-expand and over-leverage, don't cut staff below sustainable levels, and don't conspire with a major liquidator to fail at recovery from the first bankruptcy. Give me a time machine.

[oceanwithinsblog]

binge-watched episodes 10 to 12 yesterday night and i am still astonished at how THREE EPISODES were so much more fun and enjoyable than the whole first half of the season ☠️

[acrazybayernfan]

I just want to say my love and appreciation for goalkeepers again ❤️❤️❤️.

Like I think it's really the hardest position on a football pitch. It requires so many qualities.

Such as, of course, incredible reflexes, but also a very good perception of the ball and of the game, a great understanding of trajectories, knowledge in defense coaching, extraordinary courage (because standing there when a ball comes at you at full speed, or going out while a player his running towards you, also at full speed, and he could easily hurt you, that's brave) and also to be good enough with your feet to dictate the game and be able to resist against pressing.

But really the most important qualities of goalkeepers are their mental qualities. Like imagine you have to wait for minutes and minutes, while all the others are enjoying themselves, and yet stay ready and super focus because at anytime your team may need you. Imagine the pressure you must feel as a goalkeeper during a penalty shootout, like you're the last hope of your team. And people are so ungrateful to you. A goalkeeper could have a great game, could do many important saves, could be crucial in the development of the game, but if there is just one mistake, everyone is going to remember this mistake and will say that the goalie was the cause of the defeat.

Goalkeepers are truly amazing and we should have a lot more respect for them ( "coughing" ballon d'or jury do you hear me?!)

[bilolli]

I wanna talk about my o.cs, I wanna talk about my o.cs, I wanna talk about my o.cs, I wanna talk abou-

[beevean]

Really hoping that it really does storm from next week so that I can go outside and breathe

Felt temperature 42°C, fucking help me I need to get out but I'll die

[twicethetrouble]

I literally have one more scene left to write in "Proud Family Traditions" but i got sick and instead of getting fixated on writing during my imprompu time off work, i got fixated on stupid fish tank games.

[rogue205]

Bit of a 9-1-1 rant/unpopular opinion

As always, people who lash out will have their comment deleted and themselves blocked. People who respond in a civilized adult manner will have a response given in an equally civilized adult manner.

So here it is....

Am I the only one who feels that now the show has officially created this “dad & son” thing strictly between Bobby and Buck, that it actually lessens the whole “Fire Dad” thing Bobby had going for his whole damn team? It’s essentially made even worse by the fact that Buck is the fandom woobie so that is all everyone is focusing on. I find it annoying especially given that Buck is not the only character with sh*t parents as well.  Speaking of, anyone else think those two are up to something? They didn’t change that much overnight.

Just my opinion.