#i'm kinda starting to look. like a supermodel.

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

everything horrible but at least my id photo looks great

[peppermintquartz]

From the loft of the firehouse, Hen spies Tommy coming out of his car in a royal blue shirt that stretches very prettily over his shoulders and chest as well as fitted black jeans. That color has to be the influence of one Evan Buckley, and Hen appreciates it. Tommy looks very good in blue.

Chimney wanders over to her side. "Whatcha looking at - whoa, hottie alert."

"Does anyone still say that?" Hen asks, glancing at her best friend.

"Why are you ogling Tommy?" Chimney asks in return.

Hen rolls her eyes. "Lesbian, not blind. He looks good, so I will enjoy the view." Then she looks at Chimney again. "You think he's hot?"

"Married, not blind," Chimney retorts cheekily. His lips twitch as if he's holding back something he rather keep private, but knowing him, he will be sharing with Hen anyway. Instead he takes a long swig from his water bottle.

She counts the seconds in her head while Tommy makes the rounds downstairs, waving at Ravi and giving a dorky high five to Eddie, before he gets an armful of Buck who plants a big kiss on his mouth. She gets to thirty-five when Chimney sighs.

"After I saved his life," he says wistfully, "I used to have this fantasy of him being so grateful that he wanted to sleep with me."

Hen smothers a laugh. "Oh really?"

"Come on, he looked like a goddamn supermodel then. Leaner, sharper features. And those eyes? Not that I would have taken advantage and pressured him into it but I wouldn't have said no, y'know?"

Hen shrugs, grinning. "I don't. But I'm guessing, if he hadn't been closeted, he'd have gladly been a notch on your bedpost, Mr April."

She's timed the statement wrong, because Chimney was in the middle of drinking more water. He starts coughing wildly, hammering a fist on his chest. Feeling bad about her tease, Hen slaps him on the back to help.

At the sound, Tommy looks up and sees Chimney and Hen and waves to them. "Hey guys! Howie, you okay? Looking kinda red there."

"Yeah, yeah I'm good. Uh, water down the wrong pipe."

Buck grabs Tommy's hand and pulls him away, jabbering on about the new hoop they've got out back. As if Buck gives a shit about basketball. Hen would place money on the two making out against a wall or maybe Buck will sneak Tommy into a supply closet, away from the prying eyes of the rest of the station.

Chimney snorts. "They're totally making out. Buck could barely hide his bedroom eyes just now."

"Could've been you in a different universe," Hen can't help joking, laughing when he swats her with the back of his hand.

[pinesfamilyguidetotheweird]

There's something I wanted to share, something that kinda saved me from my several burnouts with Cipher's Will.

The existence of Expy characters.

Basically characters that are either loosely or (usually) deliberately based off an already existing character.

I have technically made one already for a Hazbin Hotel fic. I say technically because the character design was not mine, but was shown briefly in the pilot: a hispanic looking demoness who was present during Charlie's interview. I loved her design and decided to make a fic based around her even though she didn't really have...anything to write about. So, I based her off the La Llorona legend with a bit of Blue Diamond in terms of feeling great lament and making other sinners cry in her woe.

When I remembered this, I decided to write characters based on ones that I liked.

I figured if I did this, I'd have a bet more freedom because I felt so much pressure with the crossover characters as I wanted to add basically everything that was connected to that character and it was part of the reason I was burning out.

The beauty of expies to me is to take these characters and kinda give them a new breath of fresh air, especially since they're based off my favs.

I'm not really sure if you can call them OCs...then again, originality is kinda hard to come by.

Plus, I've been wanting something specific and those specifics fit the already existing characters, buuuut...(reasons above). Not only that, but I was gonna be upfront about it anyways, sooo...

Really though, I'd like to use these characters outside of Cipher's Will and I'm gonna do just that.

Rimona Ethon-Jess

She is a singer and supermodel and daughter of a lesbian couple. I've based her on Garnet from Steven Universe. Really, the only differences between these two is Rimona's lack of Gems on her hands, future visions (or rather she might have some level of clairvoyance, just not the level of Garnet), and a third eye (though she does wear a bindi at times for meditative purposes).

She has two adoptive kids, Twig and Molly Westwood.

Yes, those are the names Anne used for her 'Shut In' story. As for the surname, its a reference to Humphrey Westwood (who's basically a human expy of Hop-Pop...shoot, remember the Curator?). Now, whether or not these characters are related is up to you. Twig is set to be Dipper's new friend usually with his return to the Falls (whenever that happens) whereas Molly kinda does her own thing, though she does become a fan of McGucket labs.

Next up is another character based on a character in Steven Universe, Glenn Finnegan.

He's a robotics prodigy from Ireland and a four-limbed amputee. He's also a freelance hacker and a gamer and has built a little robotic companion, plus a few pet plants.

Yet another character based on a Steven Universe character, plus others, Alexei Akoyevich Agapov

A slightly effeminate Russian-Japanese retired ice skater now cafe owner. He has a bit of Pearl's personality and body type and a bit of Fai D Flourite’s personality and fences as a hobby. He lives with his long term boyfriend.

The next character is interesting: Marilyn Rosenstein.

Yes. THAT Marilyn Rosenstein mentioned in Journal 3. I started to generate an idea that Marilyn was already an existing character and just so happens to share a lot in common with Eda (hell, I think Eda is an expy of Ryoko Hakubi), even with how she looked and that's how Eda was able to blend in. Heck, Marilyn also just so happens to be a witch too (albeit of the Earth variety). She lacks a golden tooth and curse, though. Now...Did Stan meet Marilyn first or was it always Eda? You decide!

Similar to Rimona, Marilyn has also two wards, two anthropomorphic wolves named Fenny and Yue.

Fenny is the youngest of the two, being slightly younger than Gideon, and Yue is around the same age as Wendy and her friends. Fenny and Yue aren't related to each other, though Yue was found with Fenny. Fenny is physically similar to King Clawthorne and can be demanding at times and likes to go on adventures. As for Yue, they're like a mix between Loona from Helluva Boss and Amethyst, though a little more on the brooding shy side, similar to Loona.

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Annnnd, that's about it!

I do have original characters that...I'm not entirely sure if they could be expies too, lol.

Here, let me share a few.

Seiko Habutai

She is shown in the first chapter of Back in the Falls. I kinda wanted her to be almost the opposite of Wendy (more ladylike and proper, the Ojou-Sama, if you will), but that doesn't stop her from getting dirty if she has to be.

Ashe

A dark skinned elf, who is also set to be a friend of Dipper. Speaking of elves, they are different here from what is shown in media. First off, the tribe Ashe is from is kind of a hippie type of group (basically how I would imagine elves could be portrayed in Gravity Falls.) The other is actually something that isn't used often in any media, the elves (or at least Ashe's race) are hollow inside. Like, there is nothing in their bodies. No bones, no organs, no soul. Nothing. ...I'm sure that not a lot of angst will come about this for Ashe...

Professor Esther Ratselgast

She's mentioned in the second chapter of Back in the Falls. She was Ford's Quantum Physics teacher back in college. Somehow still alive despite her advanced age. She's also dressed in clothes that seem out of the Victorian era. She is currently working for a man named Adair Samler. Speaking of...

Adair Samler, the last OC I'm willing to share right now (this has gone on long enough as it is)

He appears to be a middle-aged man with silvery hair and small glasses. He's the current director of the Oregon branch of the ALMA Foundation (GF equivalent of the SCP Foundation. I will say that some of his inspiration is that of Ozpin from RWBY, by being a little bit mysterious.

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And there we have it! Similar with the Expy characters, I'm gonna use these OCs outside of Cipher's Will if they are needed in that story.

[destinyc1020]

Confessions:

"Careful Anon, you're going to have Kaia's shooters all in up my inbox after me again lol. 😂 (as if we HAVE to like this girl)"

Gurl we know its just 1-2 fans 😅 they seem passionate about her, ill giv them that. I think she prob got burnt ojt by modeling n decided to act, problem is shes just nt a good actor. I think being on AHS really humbled her cuz gurl limited hee comments after that, even when Ryan Murphy said she had the "best audition" he kinda set her up

I also find it interesting that she seems to always b interacting wit her bf/ex-bfs ex gfs lmao. On her ig story she has a pic of her hugging cazzie david, both of them r petes exes (and this was a book event hosted by her/hee team). Shes interacted with Vanessa yrs ago, Joey, was friends with Olivia Jade and recently Z. Nt sure if its just cuz hollywood is just small af or shes delibertly interacting with them fir whatever reason. I was shocked by her/Darnell following each other bt 1 thing bout Kaia is she know how to network lol never knew she wuld get that close to Z tho

Gurl we know its just 1-2 fans 😅 they seem passionate about her, ill giv them that. I think she prob got burnt ojt by modeling n decided to act, problem is shes just nt a good actor. I think being on AHS really humbled her cuz gurl limited hee comments after that, even when Ryan Murphy said she had the "best audition" he kinda set her up

Yea, I'm sure she probably got burnt out by modeling, and maybe started to not really enjoy it anymore? 🤷🏾‍♀️ That profession seems STRESSFUL, and heavily looks-based. Acting can be that way as well, but at least I don't think people freak out if you gain 1.5 lbs or something lol. Kaia also probably realized that she didn't want to always have to continue to live in her mom's shadow for the REST of her life in her career. I mean, her mom was THE "It Girl" back in the supermodeling world. Always being compared to your mom, or being called "Look-alike" daughter of Cindy Crawford has got to after a certain point get kinda annoying?? 🥴

Sometimes, you just want to make a name for yourself...and I GET that. But like you said, the problem is, she's not a good actor. Which, in itself wouldn't be so bad if she were actually WORKING on it instead of just getting roles even when doing a bad job. 🥴 Most of us "regular people" don't get promoted in our jobs when we're doing a bad job. MOST of us just get FIRED!

I also find it interesting that she seems to always b interacting wit her bf/ex-bfs ex gfs lmao. On her ig story she has a pic of her hugging cazzie david, both of them r petes exes (and this was a book event hosted by her/hee team). Shes interacted with Vanessa yrs ago, Joey, was friends with Olivia Jade and recently Z. Nt sure if its just cuz hollywood is just small af or shes delibertly interacting with them fir whatever reason. I was shocked by her/Darnell following each other bt 1 thing bout Kaia is she know how to network lol never knew she wuld get that close to Z tho

I didn't know all of the stuff about the exes tbh... But I'm not surprised if she's trying to network. I think Hollywood is just a very small place. And yea, I know she and V used to interact at events, and she even used to like pics of Vanessa and Austin together that would be posted on Vanessa's IG YEARS ago. So yea...it does seem kinda weird that now she's dating him. Almost like she's had her eye on him this entire time... 👀🥴

[berylgrace]

okay will you please share your sims screenshots of fics? <3<3

be warned, you have just opened the floodgates for me to overexplain every decision.......... under the cut for the sake of how insufferable i am

HWFG!!!!

starting off with Here I Go Again (mamma mia au for anyone unfamiliar). now i actually have a lot more than what i'm showing here but let's say they're... more prequel focused. and thus. kinda spoilery... but they may come later!!! anyway

just picture slipping through my fingers playing and you can tell exactly what's happening here <3

SAY I DOOOOO... I DO I DO I DO I DO I DOOOO

and a bonus, non-spoilery prequel type - silena, annabeth and piper out partying in the world's hottest girl summer ever

moving swiftly and embarrassingly onto my url namesake, the beloved miss beryl. i chose the best of what i have which is admittedly SO MUCH

this one is my FAVOURITE okay let me explain (though - obvious). left is 1979 (age 20) beryl: playful, flirty, youthful. retaining some of the country aesthetic from where she grew up. modelling a lot around this time, beer ads, cars, that sort of thing. anything that required a hot blonde in a bikini or white shirt. this is also the year (in my fic) that she has an agent, sends out headshots regularly and is not against using her feminine wiles to get roles. middle is 1986ish (age 27) beryl: full blown celebrity of the 1980s. glamorous, sexy, demanding. big hair, tan skin. many many magazine covers, tons of movies. she is hollywood. this is how she meets zeus, and later has thalia. right is 1993 (age 34) beryl: the year she wins her oscar, gets back with jupiter, and has jason. she's slightly thinner and paler in this one, with lighter hair, following with the vampy 90s look, swapping red lips for brown. career definitely at a high but the rest of her life beginning the downward spiral.

here's a better look (bad quality SO SORRY) at the differences in makeup, skin and eyebrows (though this was before i lightened the hair) to get a feel of the differences between 80s (left) and 90s (right) beryl.

and, for fun, two party looks.

now prepare for an entire lookbook because i have a problem!!! remember you asked for this... if only you knew. as always, left is 80s, right is 90s.

(everyday category) big shoulders, big jewellery, vs vampy, almost soft-goth.

(formal category) award show chic! a lot more ostentatious for the 80s side but fully glamorous both ways.

(athletic category) definitely took inspiration from like, 80s celebrity fitness tapes (lbr i mean cher) for the left, and then the sporty bright colours of the 90s.

(nightwear category) pretty simple, standard. a big robe for either if someone is at the door.

(party category) some of my FAVE looks. an 80s LBD with big hair, and a clueless-inspired ensemble <3 ugh i love playing dress up can you tell...

(swimwear category) no comment just me being obsessed with sims custom content.

(hot weather category) one thing about me is i am OBSESSED w the like, 80s supermodel in just a thin white tee and shorts look. it's SO good. i can't pull it off being too breasty but it's stunning so ofc that. and a sweeter, softer 90s look to follow.

(cold weather category) this 80s one is my FAVOURITE possible of them all? something about the brown colour pallette and the big loose shapes and layering is very 80s movie to me, like this is always how they look in the films and probably how she did too! the 90s is more playful and cooler tones, shifting into different trends.

that's all i have that's worthy of being seen I SAY AS IF I DIDN'T JUST WRITE AN ESSAY... um yeah i have a sims addiction and being a writer i love making my own fanart this way it's so dumb and entertaining. anyway, hope you enjoyed lol, probably more to come later.

[infinifi]

Can you elaborate more on the VS topic? I'm a little bit confused on what it is you are exactly talking about and I'm interested.

It mainly came from me being drunk and nostalgic to be honest.

But, basically, there was always a lot of controversy surrounding the show and the brand because the models were unattainable and 'too skinny', and also a 'bad influence on young girls'

So they changed it to include curvier women. Which is absolutely fine. But all I'm saying is that the reason it used to be so good was BECAUSE those women were unattainable. They were supermodels. It used to be something only a few could do. When you start including everyone of all shapes and sizes it makes it not as special. Aka - if everyone is special then that just means no one is. If everyone can be a model then no one can be.

I also disliked it when women like Bella Hadid and Kendall Jenner got involved. These women weren't scouted for their looks - they just already had money and fame. And I'm pretty sure Bella just changed her whole face to look how she does. Which again just kinda ruins how special you used to had to be to walk that kinda show.

So yeah, sorry, that was my drunken, 'old man yelling get off my property' point. It doesn't actually matter at all. Much bigger fish to fry. And all the women coming out now in all their shapes and sizes are beautiful as hell

I guess I just kinda miss what the old shows were 😂

[krystlind]

2nd to last Sunday in Austin?

"the only reason I wouldn't be coming back to Austin is because I didn't fall in love" I could be back.. i also couldn't

There are so many important elements of a city character that are important for me here, let me illustrate a few things of the past few days:

drivability and distance: I could get to church in 15 minutes driving, choose coffee shops along the way, after church me and Tamy went to juiceland, no wait TJ (by the fruits of the spirit! I'm by the wine.. of Jesus) no wait manana, then we settled on Carpenter's (because Jesus was a carpenter!). Tonight I decided to go to the Shane's swing Jazz alone, and I could drive there in 5 min, see it for a bit, drive back easily

bumping into people: Brittany at Meteor, walking around Bouldin and waving at Kiki, saw Paige sitting with Wilbur at Carpenter's, (I've also bumped into Chloe here the other day) then we walked over to Juliet's after, I had a Caesar's salad for like nothing, we caught up on her podcast, the episode, her willingness to put on an ad

oh that's another thing! every one here has something unique and peculiar going on

FRIENDLINESS and people's readiness to make friends, our waiter "are you guys supermodels?" and then switching numbers so I can be part of the jam session

the down to earth community I have here (not like Miami where everyone needs to be going out or socializing to be social) I came back to the house, they are cooking pasta, or painting a jacket, watching a movie

I have "good people" - My pool party reflected that. the people I brought, they were genuine, they stayed, they DJ'd, cleaned, her friendly and talked with everyone.

My church: Red Rocks, SDA crew, I get to lead a Bible study, I get to contribute

access to cultural events and shows, like the Greek festival (okay overall city diversity is kinda lacking but whatever), Art Shows, Film Screenings

the non-pretentiousness, but you can still find the classy successful folks, I was at Proper the other day, met Darren and (forgot his name)

it's easy to see my friends: I can call them up and we can say walk around the lake, meet at this coffee shop, do this work out (Ghazal workout then Carpenter's), after Bible study at Simona's and Nissi wanted to talk, she just drove over to Giraffe house and we sat by pool and prayed

It's a college city so it helps with the abundance of educational events, progressive thought, youthful energy

Nature with the trees, water

Funny things can happen in one day like: Jeremey Pivvins event (screening, band, stand up in Alice & Olivia, having Clem+Cassandra+Lisa all there)

People so willing to become friends, connect, follow up, actually make it happen! meeting Nida and pool party, dinner this Thursday with her & Ghazal

Everything is so extremely accessible, close together, easy for magic to happen without having to plan or force so much

the only thing that is lacking is: fashion, international/cultural scene. but you know what? whatever. I realize what is high value and importance for me is: grounded-ness, compact, intimacy, sincere/non-pretentious people, access to cultural events and opportunities. I guess intimacy and close-knit, community for real! kind of why I liked to join start ups over big companies, or SF or NYC. something about the quirkiness and the ability to have a voice. I think about UCSD being a place I could be the EVP and maybe UCLA/UC Berkeley it would've been different

I feel proud because I feel I'm able to break through to Tamy, and hopefully she can break through to me. that we can help each other build. and I'm grateful to have Sola more on the spiritual upleveling, where me and Tamy are in proximity and are more similar in that we're building companies and looking for investors, whereas Sola has more of a teaching/coaching practice

oh I forgot my title was 2nd to last Sunday in Austin

because I'm not really sure what will unfold

I quite love my life this way

[ramblingtomcat]

Recognizing myselfl

(cw: body mention, weight mention)

I am a bit faceblind. And I don't know if that's what causes this, but I sometimes struggle to look myself in the mirror and recognizing myself. It doesn't feel like "Hey, this isn't my body, what is this?" it is more a feeling of "Hey... I actually have a body, wtf?"

It could be a trans thing, but actually I'm okay with the way I look. There will always be things I feel self-concious about, but in general... I even begin to accept the fact that I'm fat.

Growing up always felt weird with having a body. There would be moments I'd look at my hands in awe, thinking "woah... I actually... exist."

I liked to look into mirrors, feeling blown away, that my face existed. I've always liked my face. It's androgynous. And being a nonbinary/genderfluid bean, I really liked that.

With the rest of my body, it was... different. My mother kept telling me that she loved my fingers. And I came to like them too. They look elegant and long. I also liked my broad shoulders that I got when I swam more often. I like that my arms look strong, although right now I'm just bit overweight.

Growing up, I was surrounded by supermodel sized girls and thin or beefy boys. There were of course also girls who weren't super thin or athletic, and yet I always felt like I was the odd one out because I had boobs.

Yeah. I'm afab. I don't have a problem with being afab or saying that I am, but I don't like the idea of people thinking of me as just being afab when I'm trans. I used to hate that I grow boobs. And also since I was never super thin, it felt like I was just fat. And others had made me feel like that too. I accepted that I was just a thick weird girl. Beause I also didn't know what nonbinary was.

Whatever. I finished high school, I went to university and I realized that I wasn't fat. That I was just "regular sized". I wasn't super sporty, but I wasn't fat.

Then I fell into a deep depression, lost some weight. People commented it positively, which disgusted me. I then gained a lot of weight after that. And people started to recognize me as fat, which felt so weird after being "regular" for a long time. Sure, I was "supermodel-fat", but I wasn't overweight.

And now I am overweight. I have a thick body, I have curves, I am short. I am more aware of people judging me for my size, although ironically, less people outright do it. In my youth people would shame me for being size xy (which was a super normal size to have at that age), while nowadays people are more like "yeah, that's a bigger person, whatever".

I should be glad that I'm not bullied for my size, and yet I feel so weird to be perceived like that. I kind of want to lose some weight, but I also don't have energy to really do something about it. I don't have a real target weight or target how-i-should-look-like.

If you don't even can visualize how you are supposed to look or... recognize how you actually look.... how are you supposed to kick off some process to change your body?

I don't know if this is really body dysmorphia, but I tag it, because it kinda feels like it's an accurate descriptor?

I don't know... this is just a ramble because yesterday and today I felt very self-concious about my face, although I normally like it.

It just feels weird to have a face. Or a body.

[itsfuckinganne]

12am

Hey, hey. I'm back to debrief just a bit.

track: Supermodel - SZA

So, October.

It's finally getting nice out! Cool 65-70 degrees in the morning and a high of 80-90. That's pretty cool for Las Vegas. This place is heatstroke central. Kinda sad that my tan is going away, though. Anyways, I'm really loving the weather and just being able to sit out in the sun without burning.

The past two weeks of October has been a little hectic for me, lol. Per usual, I'm always working, but I'm taking a semester off of school so I have a lot more free time to myself. It's crazy because I just told my best friend that I feel kinda stupid when I'm not studying because I'm so used to reading books, writing essays, and what not. Now that I have real time for myself...I'm off my usually schedule and I'm still trying to get used to it. I've occupied a lot of my time going to the gym and attempting to stay consistent. I just get so exhausted after work, but I know it'll be worth it so I just think of the end goal and OBVIOUSLY, it motivates me. I've also been spending a lot of time with Hannah and her family. I am in love with their relationship with each other; you can feel the lightheartedness and the love they have for one another. It makes me happy that I've become a part of their family and so has the extensions of me. My favorite, new part of my schedule has been spending SO much time with V. (I have been trying to describe how I feel, but no words can explain this. You can't make this shit up...Ima attempt this). The best way I can really describe it is...funny, I wrote this in a letter I gave him...but it feels like SPRING. It's a season of the weather getting warmer, people start to sit outside in restaurants, and everything feels...refreshing. Like, you just went through the pits of cold air and hoodies, but now you can dress in lighter clothing, sit under the sun and still won't sweat in a jacket, and ground yourself by spending time outside. Leaves look brighter, water tastes more crisp, and you get more sleep. My favorite season, everyone seems happier. I got so emotional today, and yesterday, about the way I feel for V. I can't pin what it is, but I believe it's just a major realization that wow...I am so happy. And guess what? This applies to every aspect of my life. I am just...so happy. So grateful I am supported and loved by people I hold in high regards. It feels like I'm growing in a healthier space because I'm able to do things on my own time. I am so proud of myself for being able to share this part of my life with someone who is so supportive and understanding. It feels so good that I can be able to go to him. I haven't really gone to him about something dire, but it makes me laugh because I don't know how I found myself here, but c'est la vie. He is so kind, to everyone, but he needs to be kinder to himself. I love growing with him because it feels so easy. We work very well together, it's kinda terrifying. Never have I felt a love this strong. I'm so happy to love, and be loved, by you. I might cry again HAHAHA. Got a little sidetracked, but, yeah. I do make time to spend time with just myself. Little things like this, when I debrief, but not really. More like a dump. Or when I gym. Can't really think of it right now. But, yeah, happy Anne.

I'm a little meh, as well, that I haven't seen or talked to my girls but I love hearing, when we catch each other, that they're doing well. Everyone's just doing their own thing, basking in their adolescence, and really...feeling their feels. Everyone has their own definition of 'doing well', but I mean this in a way where we understand that we're trying to figure out shit right now and there's nothing wrong with prioritizing things important to you. I just love that whenever we do get a chance, it feels as though nothing has changed. We're just in our twenties now, making the effort to experience life. Special message to my girlies: I love you. It's time to lock in. Headass. Not really, lol. But, I know you guys are thriving in your space..or not, can be both on some days. Nevertheless, I am so proud of where we've gotten, and where we're going, because we worked hard on this. We're still learning, but it's so nice to hear and see that you guys are keeping things in the wraps.

Wow, I hope that was a good debrief. I just listened to all of CTRL and I feel so thankful. I love this life I live.

Goodnight

[gayestgoodestgirl]

imma be honest

BG3 is amazing, and has more options for diversity than any video game rpg i've ever played, and i love it

but it really bothers me that the fem body types are [supermodel] and [supermodel but tall and with some muscle definition] and the masc ones are just [dehydrated gym rat] and [dehydrated gym rat but bigger] and the nonhuman races have even fewer options!

ik it's prob not the dev's faults but you'd think for a game that leans so hard into character customization, attention to detail, and diversity, they'd put in idk, some body shape sliders? a *couple* extra options, at least?

it's not a bad thing to make your characters conventionally attractive ofc but i wanna make a character who looks like a warrior, not 10% body fat barbie with perfect DD's

btw i'm not trying to boycott Larian or start discourse or anything, bg3 is definitely a step in the right direction and i think its level of diversity is pretty decent otherwise, and it'll hopefully pave the way for games to get even more diverse in the future

i'm just kinda sad bc the "big butch muscle mommy barbarian" everyone's going nuts for isn't quite what i was hoping lmao

[superhenryjones]

Overheating Dream Journal #1

I'm starting a journal for my weird dreams I have during the Summer for the sake of having them written down somewhere. Enjoy if you'd like.

This one was probably subconsciously inspired by watching the 2010 A-Team in the background as the YouTube free movie of the night. It's bizarre as a pretty accurate retelling of the A-Team without irony or reflection post-9/11, so it plays like Team America: World Police not getting the joke with massive amounts of collateral damage and a half-dozen inter strongly incidents over counterfeit money printing plates (So... the last ten minutes of Team America where the point is, "There are WAY worse people out there who want to blow you up, so let US blow you up!").

Anyway, my dream is a parody of a technicolor 1960's film called "DISARM, KILMER!" shot in modern days. It's about a cigar-chomping general who leads a team of off-the-books army operatives in World War II. Their mission to start the movie is getting two Japanese scientists who are going to defect who are clearly white guys in bad makeup out of a Japanese facility that is clearly the Pacific Front and not some rocks in Southern California (And defection clearly works on the Pacific theater like it does in Europe).

They have to destroy a tank that is extremely blue, obviously a model, and looks like a super weapon from a Godzilla movie rather than something from World War II. After blowing it up, they are surrounded by Japanese troops who hear the noise, surrounding them. The leader shouts in an American voice, "DISARM, KILMER!" and the title slaps on syllable by syllable in deep red with a curvy font trying to be manly and the frame freezes. Then a choir of men usually reserved for Westerns starts singing the theme song. "DIS-ARM, KIIIIIILMER! You're a menace tp your fellow army man!"

Following every comedic beat, there is a freeze frame with credits and another bar of the theme song. The first beat is the Japanese soldiers throwing off full-body disguises, revealing American troops. The next is Kilmer's international crack team of various races ripping off their full-body disguises to reveal all handsome white guys except for the tomboy sniper, who is actually a 60's version of a supermodel. The next beat is the black football player making the jump to acting (Think Jim Brown in Dirty Dozen) looking around at all his teammates and saying, "What the hell, man?!" I don't think the dream had a specific player, but my mind filled in Patrick Mahomes with full 2020's mohawk. Yeah, that totally works.

The final comedic beat is this dialogue:

Kilmer: You had this base locked up before we got here?

Kilmer's guy 1: That kinda' defeats the point of us being here.

Kilmer's guy 2: Yeah. And who the hell did we kill?

*Pause for the director credit and thr choir going, "DISARM, KILMER, THE WESTERN DIED AND NOW THIS IS OUR ONLY JOOOOOOOB!"*

Everybody just laughs, and it fades to a private booth at a football game in America. Keep in mind football was shut down because, you know, WORLD WAR II, and the technicolor footage in the rear projector is clearly a 1960's game that occasionally has the broadcast team show up in the footage.

There's a Colonel explaining their hardest and most secrry mission yet and complimenting them as the best of the best.

Kilmer: Why did you pay to fly us all back to this public football game for something this secret?

Colonel: Because this is the most American place in the world. No spies will be here.

Stadium beer wrench popping in and asking in a thick German accent: Do you need any more drinks, Herr Kilmer?

Kilmer: No thanks, we're good.

That's about when I wake up. There's one more detail where one the guys is telling the football player what's happening in the game, and Mahomes' responds with growingly irritated, "I KNOW" until he explodes and says, "I did an on-field tribute for that guy when he died. I KNOW." And that's it.

Everyone I talk to about this wants to see this become a thing. Well, that's highly unlikely since I hate most 1960's war movies, and you have to have a certain love for what your parodying, otherwise it's mean-spirited or shooting fish in a barrel. Being "too good" for the material shows whether you want it to or not.

[freakattack]

Hi i am insane and was also coincidentally thinking about ashley's parent situation just last night so i hope you dont mind if i word vom on your post

So this scenario makes me crazy because that's pretty much exactly mona's situation too. Her mom is a supermodel that travels all the time and her dad is an artist that means well but doesnt really talk to her beyond his work. mona, despite all her friendliness and extroversion, has a really lonely home life

(sauce)

Why i mention this though is because she actually brings this up later on ashley's smooth moves blog, trying to connect with her via their shared experiences:

(sauce)

Of course ashley rejects everyone's attempts to make her feel better but like, it's the thoguht that counts

ALSO....i wish i knew more about Red's situation because his situation is kinda sad too. We dont know how old he is in Demon Years but he looks and acts like a child, and he almost plays a little-brother role for ashley but at the same time takes on the role of her caretaker and confidant. He does her laundry

which is really sad cause he acts like he's like, five. But they're both kind of in the position of fending for themselves and each otehr and it's SAD!! it's SAD!!

And that seems to be a recurring theme with the kiddos in warioware. mona's parents are distant, ashley's parent's are absent, 18-volt's mom is always away, and who even knows what's going on with kat and ana, they live in a ninja village but their immediate family is never around and i'm not gonna start unpacking what their deal is just now. Besides 5-volt and doctor crygor (and 9-volt's dad, who we never see in person but are assured that he has an active role in 9-volt's life), most of the kids don't really have any immediate older family members in their lives. Which is why i love the idea of wario picking up on ashley's (and eveyrone else's) loneliness because yeah he's a jerk using free child labor, but he also cares about the kids a lot - he plays games with them, he acts as a role model for them (for better or for worse - mona and 9-volt could choose better heroes to worship), and he's basically like a home away from home. it is wildly concerning that most of these kids see Wario more than their own parents but the fact that he somehow became like a mama duck for a gaggle of lonesome children is really sweet.

So I know the reason Ashley's parents have never been seen or even remotely implied to exist beyond "well she had to come from somewhere" is just because they don't really need to exist for the kind of games the WarioWare series are, but damnit I feel like making it That Deep.

Given she lives in a mansion obviously her family's pretty rich, probably old money tied to some kind of family business considering the place is old enough to be haunted. And, well, they're the Archetypical Busy Rich Parent types who are out of town a lot and will at least make sure the kid's physical and educational needs are met but are so wrapped up in their own shit that the kid's otherwise fending for themself. Which I feel would uh...explain A Lot about Ashley's personality honestly.

Technically they know about her interest in the occult, but think it's some kind of little hobby rather than a passion she's based her entire life around, and they know about Red but consider him some sort of Weird Pet because they don't really understand or care to learn how the whole Familiar thing works (that's the one thing she'll actually get defensive about with them, because even though she doesn't always treat him the best she at least sees him as a person). They definitely don't know about her working at WarioWare Inc. and hanging out with her co-workers, and she'd prefer to keep it that way.

Meanwhile the WarioWare crew don't know the full extent of what's going on with Ashley's family situation, but 5-Volt and Wario in particular are uh...Concerned, to say the least, about a number of things they have noticed, particularly Ashley and Red's behavior in certain situations and the fact that they've never heard anything from or about any sort of parents or guardians.

[kirua9]

Rank the diaboys?

Hey hii

I really didn't want you anon to wait for eternity, but sorry, I wanna express my stupid thoughts fully...

So here we go.

Worst to best diaboys imo, but I actually don't know which parameters of ranking to use here... anyways this is too subjective no matter how hard I'd try.

13. Mr. Kino 0 prince, 0 sense.

Honestly, I have no clue why rejet even thought about adding a new character, when they have rather new characters in the lore — the Tsukinamis. So at this point his existing is questionable for me, really... + I'm not really acknowledged of this character, I can't write dissertations about him, so he is more like "Kino... Who?..".

12. Shu aka Shoe aka perverted narcoleptic aka the main gay idk.

I think I've scramed in every corner how I hate... no, loathe him. Weak and boring. I'm not gonna lie, the type of a horny lazy guy who looks like a supermodel and has a depression sounds seductive, but... not when this fictional guy is Shu :/ .... But who knows, maybe thats because we really have OTHER OPTIONS to compare him with))) I mean, the very beginning of HDB route was kinda promising (idk for what), the scene when he lies down on the floor and sees Yui's underwear is such an iconic episode of some dark ecchi fiction, tho... that's all I really liked about him, and only because I love stupid ecchi harems.

11. Shin, aka :" what is wrong with amount of accessories on you ". Werewolfs werewolfs skies will brighten

Khm. I have nothing much to say about him. Applause. Well, actually, I only like his archetype of a character, I mean, he seems to be cocky, violent and the guts of the duet (with Carla), like he really could be a cool minor antagonist who carries more like a comedy rile in the show... Anyways, I just have high expectations for him.

10. Carla aka emo Karlheinz. Obviously he's going to be near his bro. He's a little but higher because of the Endezeit (srry if I wrote incorrectly) and the tragic fate he has as a result... That's always sad how such a mighty and (seemingly 👀) an immortal creature becomes that fragile (((((((. Tho I dislike his voice

Also I have high expectations...

9. Subaru aka Subaru (car)

I don't like him. Just from the first his appearance, why does he have to be a Sakura Haruno mode all the time punching something?... Jokes aside, for me he's a very annoying and not cute representation of a tsundere... I remember he really could run away because started blushing like... wtf🥰?. But I guess thus unstability is from his mother.... Guys making jokes of him being an "edgy emo", oml I don't know... he is a sakura haruno imo.

8. Azusa aka...he really doing drugs

Well... he is not a cinnamonroll sorry guys, no, not today... he's fate isn't dramatic but really sad, idk he makes me feel depressed, like, the guy realized he's living for pain:((( Also kinda manipulating, sometimes gives Yui the same comments as the other guys could , like "secretly you like being beaten etc, deep inside you desire this"... But he is...somehow represent himself as a victim too? That's why he's interesting for me. He said something like "I and Eve are the same" and my brain really interprets those word like being the weaker, knowing your place, feeling pain. Sick and sad.

7. Yuma aka the ordinary one. This is a good representation of a tsundere 🤡. Well, okay he's not a pure that type, but his temper annoys me LESS (like a lot) then Subaru's uncontrollable seizures of anger. Idk, Yuma is just fine. Yes, sometimes is rude, calls Yui the sow, but lol, he's the most adequate among Mukamis at least, thats the reason to feel honor....

(LOL Kaji from Evangelion and Yuma from DL would be good friends, cause "idk much about this life, Id rather water the plants )

6. Ayato the mascot. Okay, the most adequate among the Sakamakis, I guess. As the side character annoyed me asf, really, and sometimes was nasty in his own roote, but honestly, I have nothing against him. Sorry to everyone, Ayayui the best ship

He really has the balance of an ordinary teenager creature and the freaking vampire, I also like the comedy-side of this character, he is cute from time to time. Deserves to be a mascot, because obviously red hair means the main and has the suitable personality.

5. Kou. MEOW MEOW HELLO KITTY....

Honestly, when I've read his MB route for the first time I wanted someone to squeeze my eyes and then throw away. God. What the fck did a read.... But actually the character itself is written hella good. I love how hypocritical he is, the contrast between him having the immortality and the special eye but will eat from the floor as the dog because there were awful times in his life when he didn't have other choice but to eat anything and anyhow... thay is genuinely sad and he's the asshole, but I love trash and those kinda characters.

4. Kanato aka Lenore the cute little dead girl

There's something wrong with me, because shota's aren't my type (at all), BUT if there's a pshyco... hmm... eatable.

I mean Kanato is extremely annoying because he is always yelling, but he's not boring at all. Every chapter from his routes are like visiting the circus without clowns. But seriously, his character is more than just schizophrenic infantile tantrums, I believe he actually could be a more mature version of himself. Also wtf he's sometimes looks like a child and sometimes so damn seductive, dealing with him is playing with fire honestly...

3. Reiji, looks like a butler more than the butler.

Jokes about mama reiji will be taken offensive, tho they're a little bit true.

Hohoho. Sexy. Reiji gives black butler vibes tho I didn't watch the anime or read the manga, don't hate me because of that. Idk this is the character I really sympathize since HDB guess because he (one way or another) took the "responsibility" of the household, jeez he's unpaid manager... someone appreciate reiji pls. Idc when people say he's only "book-smart", idk he shows himself as the honorable man. Little crazy, but so fcking intelligent, so his behavior looks like a work of acting art. He's the perfect guy here. Also his routs are quite romantic, yet bizarre sometimes, because reiji is a sophisticated bitch...

2. Ruki aka the intj mode.

Honestly at first I thought he's the worst what could happen to me, but I didn't kill myself when I was reading his MB... That was 10000 times better than Kou's... (and I expected they'd be similar idk why).

So another "book-smart" tho as in the example above I don't really care, because my favorite part of Ruki is his own understanding that he is circled in the cycle of sins... He struggles a lot, because he wants a second chance (living as the immortal),but there's always been a question:" Does he deserve it?" Does a boy, who had better pay for his sins with his life, deserve this exact life with an urge to revenge the world?.. But he really understands that he's already sublimed by the depth of vice and has no other choice than just do something, now that's he is led by other man's will, the circle closes. And Ruki is so damn miserable guy, tho he doesn't show this much, but he's seen shit. Ofc he's an asshole, but the atrocity he went through is worse. That's why the bad endings are so heartbreaking, when he turns mad, kills everyone, because it seems like he flew up once and fell immediately... 💀

1. Laito aka mind-body-problem.

Laito is a treasure: has a fucked up backstory, miserable, im silent about his fcking thoughts about his life in LE💀, has a facade, sometimes annoying asf, but he's a vulnerable soul, it's so painful to realize how sweet he actually would be, if there weren't some of consequences....

He suffers a lot, I mean, yeah, every diaboy suffers in "their own unique way" but idk in Laito's case his pain is the most heartbreaking. The conflict of a person with the fate/world is fascinating, but the inner conflict is just mind blowing. And I'm... I'm a suckered for such things. Welcome to the club of eating glass guys, I've always been there, yeah, I like to cry with a good reason, especially if it's about fictional characters 😀.

Really Laito's whole image (with all the facades and the true feelings) is an icon. Literally perfect for me, so damn interesting character...

[nothing-but-dreamy]

BLACK TIE

A/N: Thanks again for this idea @mindlessstories

I hope you have fun with it

Pairing: LEON KENNEDY x READER

Words: 1.736

Warnings: fluff, cursing, Leon in a suit

Synopsis: Yn and Leon are on a mission with fancy clothes. But somehow the mission is not the most interesting thing...

"W-What the bloody... What are you wearing?", Yn asked as she checked the appearance of the man in front of her. The guy was neatly dressed in a white suit shirt, black suit pants and a black jacket. Even a black tie was bound around the man’s neck. Quickly, Yn checked the number of the hotel room once again in fear she had mistaken it and might stand in front of some stranger. No, it was the right room and actually, it was also the right guy. It was just … even if it was part of the mission, Leon S. Kennedy had swapped his typical, casual leather jacket with a tuxedo. It was a sight for sore eyes. Unusually and at the same time, perfectly fitting as if Leon would be some kind of secret undercover supermodel instead of an agent.

Leon, amused about Yn’s big eyes and astonished expression, chuckled and stepped aside, letting his partner in who was still watching him as if he would be an alien. A handsome one but still. Leon closed the door, "It's a tuxedo. That's what you wear on a bow and tie event.", he explained and watched how Yn rolled with her eyes.

“I know what it is but to see you in it… and by the way! Black Tie, Kennedy! It’s called Black Tie! And not ‘bow and tie’.”, Yn explained for maybe the hundredth time since they both got assigned to this secret mission. In fact, the job was easy. A rich weapons dealer had started to ‘extend’ his sortiment with some BOWs. His business was flourishing. But instead of just catching him, Yn and Leon had decided it would be better to bug the dealer to get information about his clients as well. Therefore, they were able to dig out the whole nest.

“I don’t care what these events are called. They’re all the same. It’s just to show off how rich and important everyone is.”, Leon said and leant with crossed arms against the doorframe.

“I know how much you hate these things.”, Yn said, grabbed her bag and aimed for the bathroom to change her outfit as well, “But I have to admit, you look good in this tuxedo. It suits you.”, she said through the half closed door.

Leon smirked, “Oh, really? You know, maybe you could show me how much you like my outfit?”, he asked flirtatiously.

Yn opened the door again and stepped out, “Focus on the mission, Kennedy.”

Leon was hearing her words but his mind went kinda blank as he saw her robed in a floor-length, backless, black dress. The silky-soft fabric hugged all her curves perfectly and gave much input for many, many x-rated fantasies. Slowly, Leon’s eyes wandered upwards until he met her challenging glance. Slowly, he stepped forward with a smirk, “I might hate these events but I could get used to seeing you working in such a stunning outfit.”, Leon said low.

Yn saw dirty thoughts glittering behind his steel-blue eyes and smirked, “Take a picture, it might last longer. Come, we have to go.”, she said, passed Leon and knew that he was staring at her back all the way.

**

Thirty minutes later, Yn and Leon were entering a huge, pompous decorated ballroom. Chandeliers bathed the room in dim, atmospheric light. Soft jazz music played in the background. And obviously a whole diamond mine had exploded because it was sparkling and twinkling in each corner. The room was filled with high-society and in the middle of it two special agents who tried to fit into this kind of world.

“Shall we split up?”, Leon asked low.

Still with a wealthy smile on her lips, Yn shook her head, “Let us take a round together and then, if necessary, we split up.”, she said and linked her arm with Leon’s.

The idea had been good but quickly, they had to admit that the room was too stuffed with people. And because they searched for a guy, and everyone looked kinda the same in their black suits, they had difficulties finding their subject.

Evading into a quiet corner, Yn looked up at Leon, “That’s not working. There are too many people here. Alright, we split up. I walk around a bit. You could monitor the guys who are without women like the group over there at the bar.”, she said and nodded unobtrusively into the said direction while putting a small intercom into her ear to activate it and gave Leon the other earpiece who mirrored her move. With a serious expression, her eyes met Leon’s, “If one of us finds him, the other one comes to the position.”, she said and was about to leave.

Leon held her back, “Be careful, okay?”, he said and looked her caringly but serious in the eyes.

She smirked, “Of course. I’m not the one with the reckless moves like fighting against infected dogs on a motorbike.”, and with that, she stepped back to vanish in the crowd.

Leon chuckled about her boldness and shook his head before he followed her idea to aim for the bar. He ordered a drink and while waiting for it, Leon looked left and right to check out the people around him if their target would be with them. Leon was just about to check an older man with salt-and-pepper hair as fragments of a conversation waved over to him, catching his attention.

“These women are all the same. Rich, wealthy and absolutely boring.”, one tall man said before taking a sip of his Whiskey.

“Yeah, or ugly. I mean, how many surgeries are really necessary? I get the impression that all these women here are just made out of plastic and silicone.”, another man said. He was a bit smaller than the first one.

Leon was just about to leave as the third guy said something that caught his attention to the point that he fully turned over to them, “You might be right except with this pretty thing over there. What? None of you haven’t seen her yet? Okay, then, she’s mine.”, the guy said and let it sound as if the woman was just a piece of meat and he was the lion to hunt it down.

Leon knew he had to focus on the mission and he really was about to leave the group of idiots behind but then, he noticed the way how the guy looked at the unaware victim. It was a lust filled glance that even Leon felt disgusted by the sight. The guy was pretty sure about himself that he would be successful to win the woman over this evening. The guy, tall, dark haired and looking like a lot of money, licked over his lips while his eyes showed that he looked at a point that was lower than the woman’s waist. Now more interested in who the innocent lamb might be, Leon followed the guy’s glance and felt how his blood ran hot and cold at the same time.

Yn stood there, talking with an older lady and facing the group of guys with her back. The dress gave a beautiful sight of her flawless skin. While she talked, her body moved beautifully and she even swayed a bit to the soft tune of the music so that her hair fell over her bare back, dancing a little through the air.

“You can’t have her! I saw her first. I just couldn’t say anything because I became speechless by her eyes.”, the first, tall guy said.

“By her eyes? Forget them! Look at her god damn ass. So round and juicy.”, the guy said and his eyes became filled with raw, sexual hunger.

That was enough for Leon to forget the mission for a moment as he walked over to the group, “I couldn’t miss hearing how you were talking about this young lady.” Leon said low, getting the attention of all three men at the same time, “Stay away from her. All of you. Or otherwise, things will turn ugly.”, he said with a kind of threat lingering in his voice.

One of the men stepped closer to Leon, slightly towering over the agent and looking down, “Who do you think you are, huh? Nothing we do is your concern.”

Not impressed at all, Leon stepped forward, holding the man’s glance, “She’s mine, get it? Therefore, yes, it concerns me how you are talking about her. So, do yourself a favor and stay away from her or I will become your worst nightmare. And trust me, I know what I’m talking about.”, Leon said threateningly, leaving no room for any further arguments.

The guy stared at Leon for several more moments and considered his best next step but in the end, the guy saw something in Leon’s eyes that told him to better back off. And after another few seconds, the guy stepped back, nodded to his friends and disappeared somewhere else.

Leon went back to his drink and emptied it in one big sip. As he placed the glass back on the counter, Yn stood already next to him, leaning against the bar with a smirk on her lips, "So, I'm yours, huh?", she asked low.

With a shock filled glance, he stared at her and swallowed thickly, "Oh, uhm... Well... I- I didn't like the way he looked at you.", he stammered with an apologetic glance.

Yn nodded, "Yes, I heard that.”, she said, tapping at her ear with her index finger to remind him of the intercom. As Yn saw his awkward smile, she stepped forward, “You know, to see you jealous and protective was kinda cute. But it was unnecessary, don't you think? I'm not your girlfriend."

Leon also stepped forward, a smirk was playing on his lips while he snaked his arm around her waist to bring her even closer, "Actually, we're just one date away that I can call you mine."

"Oh, really? Then, I would say we count this evening as a date, what do you think?", Yn suggested whispering against his lips which were just inches away.

"Deal.", Leon breathed before he kissed her. It was a deep kiss. Filled with hunger to show off to whom Yn belonged to. Yn tugged on his suit jacket to bring him even closer, knowing exactly where these clothes would land later this evening…

[localwebslingers]

At the assurance, Peter nodded once and blew out a tired breath of his own, “...thanks, that means a lot.” even if he wouldn’t go near the Stacy’s again, because he’d caused more than enough damage just from them trying to help him. Trying to hide him, keep him safe, give him a home. It didn’t mean he wasn’t hoping to know that things were better now, that Gwen was at least stable at the hospital still or better yet had actually woken up. It would be one thing to hopefully ease the nightmares.

While Peter did know that the threats were clear of the manor, not sure he would have been able to convince himself to come in otherwise, the assurance was nice to have. A little more relieving. He offered a small smile, “That means a lot, too. I gotta admit, I didn’t think you were going to start talking about me now, Har.” he had told Harry what felt like an age ago about what he could do. About his parents making him promise to keep it a secret, then his aunt and uncle too. In all that time, Harry could have told anyone about it, could have told Norman about it. But he didn’t, and Peter didn’t think he’d be able to express how grateful he was for that, “Thank you.”

Eight years and he still felt like Harry had his back, and that was probably the biggest relief he’d ever get.

He tilted his head and frowned slightly, “...there was a woman who left earlier with them, looked around our age, she didn’t get the same reaction they did. I don’t really know what that means in a corporate or business sense but she wasn’t going to mean any harm if she saw me. Not that I’m planning on testing that, but hopefully at least one person you have to work with isn’t too bad then.” even with the short amount of time he’d been back, Peter figured that Harry would be a better judge of that than he was. Oscorp was a place he’d kept loose tabs on, mostly to know where to avoid and make sure they didn’t have anything on him yet, but he definitely didn’t know anything like board members.

Or whoever else there was coming to talk with Harry about the various arrangements to make in the wake of Norman passing. 

It was quiet a moment before Peter leaned over to bump against Harry again, still lightly but the first one seemed to go over well, and the smile he gave was a little more playful. He was getting comfortable, “You wanna change subject? Because I'm kinda wondering about Europe. And before you ask, you made it onto a magazine cover with who I was told is a French supermodel, who I definitely had never heard of before, and apparently that’s a very big deal to gossip magazines.” he was definitely joking. Not about having seen the cover but wanting to ask Harry about it. More than anything he was trying to lighten the mood, “Seriously, what did you get up to while you were away?”

\\ @inhcursed \\

He had a lot to deal with, and far more than he'd been prepared to handle. Ideally his father would have brought him back earlier, taught him how to deal with Oscorp, or let someone else teach him. Instead he'd dragged him back to deal with a company he didn't know, with a board that didn't want him, and in a time limit he didn't know either, to boot. He was way over his head.

He would drown before he admitted it.

"I'll look into it." He promised, because this was a favor he could grant, and wasn't that the way of the world? A give and take, and if Peter had taken the risk to be here...

Still he sounded like the boy he knew once, especially when he mentioned seeing people in harm and wanting to do something. It was reckless, and it was foolish, especially while on the run, and yet... Harry had understood that instinct a little, when he'd been a child. He'd hated bullies.

It was nevertheless a relief that Peter thought he was safe. Especially because Harry was more than willing to run interference if needed, depending on how the conversation went. Especially as he posed his last, maybe most important question, and he saw the hurt in Peter's eyes, because he'd expected some brand of anger, some offense, maybe a shrug, a 'maybe'. Not hurt and soft words and a shoulder bumping against his.

"They're all gone now," he said in the end, because it was easier than dealing with the mix of gratitude and sorrow in his chest, "but I guess you knew that already. They're the people I work with now." He added, mostly an admission, a sigh. "And I agree they're bad news, but they're what I have to work with. Not that they'll learn of you from me."

Yet another promise, a wasted opportunity to bargain. A way to thank him as he best knew how.

@localwebslingers

[hwrryscherry]

The one where Harry & Model Y/N do a interview together.

NOT MY GIF

blurb: Harry and Model Y/N do their first ever interview together on the Late Late Show with James Corden and they play "Spill Your Guts or Fill Your Guts".

word count: 2.12K

I loved this concept SO much!!! And I really hope you guys like it too. Thank you anon for requesting this😍😍😍

The Late Late Show with James Corden producers called you and Harry trying to book you both to be on the show and to an interview together. You have to admit it that you got nervous; of course you had been through tons of interviews before but to do a double interview with Harry is a whole new level. You both are really private about your relationship and it's kinda rare to actually see one of you talking details of it, and it also had something to do about the larries fans. You were really concerned about them, you never want to disrespect them or even upset them in some way, even though some of them made fun of your relationship, they're still Harry's fans and you respect all of his fans without exception. But anyway, after a lot of talking between your management and between both of you too, you agreed to go and also felt a lot more comfortable because it was going to be with James, that was already friends of you guys.

It was set up that you both will be playing a game in the show called ''Spill your guts or fill your guts'', which actually worried you a little because of the hard questions but besides that, you were really calm, Harry made you calm. He was so great at calming you, I think it's the fact that those past 2 years you both had been through ups and downs and you got quite great at calming each other. And by the way, your man looked SO nice! You were kinda matching actually, as you both were wearing grey. You were in a grey suit and Harry had a grey sweater on looking stunning.

James called both of you on stage and you entered smiling and waving to the crowd as yoi walked towards James's direction. Harry gave him a big hug and you followed by hugging James as well. You both sat in the couch besides James's desk as the crowd got more silenced.

— It's so great to have you here! — James said to you both as he sat down on his chair — Honestly, I really thought you wouldn't accept!

— Oh, Y/N didn't want to! — Harry said quickly making you give him a slightly slap on his arm — Sorry, we had to discuss it! — Harry corrected himself making the crowd and James laugh.

— I never said I didn't want to! I said WE HAD to discuss it! — You corrected him making an emphasis on the ''we had''.

— Alright that's acceptable! Anyway — James looked at the papers on his hand and then back at you — How are you guys doing? I feel like I haven't seen you both in months because you always disappear!

— We've been good! — Harry said while playing with his rings in his hand. You crossed your legs as James stared at you. You couldn't help but start laughing a little because he was fixedly looking at you at that made you a little nervous!

— Yeah, we're pretty good! It's been a nice year! — You answered honestly — And we don't disappear! We just... I mean, I feel like there are times when we actually kinda get away from the world a bit. I truly don't know why. We just focus on spending some quality time together as a couple because we both work so much and we spend a lot of time traveling so it's something really important to keep the relationship stable. And we do it specially in the begging of the year, because that's when we celebrate our anniversary, so I guess it's just a habit that we have to disconnect and enjoy our time together so we can just focus on us and what we expect from the relationship on the following year. And it's the best time to do it because the holidays just happened and he have a little no work time to really be just us.

— Oh right! And how long have you been together by the way? — James asked, he actually knew the answer of that because you're all pretty great friends and you and Harry actually hangs out a lot with James and his wife.

— It's been two years now! — You answered.

— Yeah, it's been a bit now! — Harry completed.

— Oh so, you both weren't dating on the VS Show 2017? Because there were a lot of rumors by the end of the show! — James asked.

— We were not! We actually met at the VS, we took a long time to actually start dating, we started dating in early january 2018, I guess — Harry answered as he slided his hand on his perfectly styled hair.

— Oh, I see... And do you guys plan the future? — James asked making you and Harry exchange looks while smiling at each other — Oh, I like that look... Marriage? Kids? We ALL want to know!

— I mean... yeah! It's almost impossible to be this long in a relationship and not plan it! — Harry said — And I feel like we enjoy a lot of the time we spent together, it's been quite a journey and it's nice to have someone that you really care about and you want to have a future with by your side at some of the most important moments of your life, but I think we both agree that we still have a lot of things to experience before taking this step, you know, the marriage step. But yeah, I can't wait for a time when this is going to be a thing for us! I'd marry her in a heart beat and she knows it! — Harry said. He looked focused while talking but as soon as he felt your gaze towards him, he blushed and started smiling like a little boy who just got his favorite candy.

— So, you won't pop the question anytime soon? — James asked teasing Harry about his reaction over your gaze. As James were close friends with you guys, he knew how much you loved each other and actually everyone could see how Harry kisses the floor you walk by. He is head over heels for you and he melted anytime your hand touched him and anytime you smiled or even looked at him. Everyone who was close to you guys would know that you're the one for him and he's the one for him.

— I mean... — Harry had a cheeky smile on his lips — Who knows.. The year is just starting, 2020 it's a new year!

— And what's your thoughts on that, Y/N? — James asked looking at your blushed and smiley face.

— I agree with whatever he said! I was actually too distracted admiring his beauty to hear what he said. — You joked making Harry blush even more. You were head over heels about his man and this man only, totally in love with him.

— Alright so, on the next block we'll "Spill your guts or fill your guts'' where you'll see Harry Styles and Y/N Y/L/N answering the most crazy questions! We'll be right back! — James said to the camera that stopped filming immediately. You both stand up and walked with James to the other spot in the stage where the game was set up. It was a big rounded table with some of the most disgusting things you've ever saw and smelled. Apparently James wasn't going to play with both of you, but you could also see there was bull penis, cod sperm, chocolate cockroaches, hot sauce, 1.000 year old eggnod and banana smoothie in the table. But anyway, you just chatted with Harry and James until it was time to start shooting again.

— So, we're back, and we're about to start playing ''Spill your guts or fill your guts''. — Harry said as the camera started filming again — And apparently, I'm going to host this part, unless you want to? — Harry asked looking at you across the table.

— No, you can do it! — You answered as you sat straight in the chair looking at the things in the table — I'm nervous I've never done this before.

— Oh yeah, you've never done it! Well that's exciting! — Harry said before letting a small evil laugh leave his lips making you laugh as well and roll your eyes — Ladies first! — Harry said and you took a deep breath before taking a paper card in your hands. — So what am I eating? — Harry said as you both looked to the table.

— I guess...hum.. you can stay with the hot sauce! — You said cheeky smiling at him spinning the table to put the hot sauce in front of him.

— You know how much I hate hot sauce! — Harry said frustated while looking at the sauce.

— I know! — You said right before you whispered a low ''oh god'' before reading the paper — I love this! — You said laughing a little — Alright, Harry explain to the world the meaning of ''Watermelon Sugar'' — You said laughing as you watched Harry's face goes red when he listens to what you asked.

— Well... — He took a deep breath before laughing a little. He's face went completly red as he thought of explaining it — I guess it's about, hum.. Giving pleasure...to your significant other...hm.. by eating a watermelon! — He said pausing a little containing his laugh. Of course everyone knew the real meaning of Watermelon Sugar but neither of you had ever actually defined it with the exact words about the meaning.

— Alright! That was good!...Very convincing! — You looked at him with a slightly mocking expression as you saw Harry trying to decide on what he's gonna make you try.

— Let's go with the banana smoothie! — Harry said with a huge malicious smile on his lips.

— No fucking way! — You said immediately. Harry knew how much you hated banana, actually you'd rather die than eating a banana, so he just laughs — Harry...

— It's a game! You gave me the hot sauce, I'll give you the banana smoothie! — He said and you tried your best to do your pity face, even with the doggy eyes basically begging for him to chose everything else except the banana smoothie. — Alright, alright — Harry sighed making you smile as he now changed the banana smoothie to the bull penis. It was bad, but way better than banana. Harry got a paper card and laughed a little when he read what was written — You're one of the most notable supermodels on your generation and also are friends with some of the greatest models from your time. Rate Kendall, Gigi and Bella to best to the worst catwalks.

— Oh god! — You covered your face with your hands making Harry laughs out loud. You looked at the bull penis quietly and then at Harry again — I feel like I could answer, right?

— I feel like I could answer! — Harry completed putting an emphasis on the ''I could'' making you laugh and then slide your right hand through your hair.

— We've talked about this before, I know, but it was a healthy gossip between a couple... — You said staring at Harry's face thinking — I'd say... — You started but then stopped as the crowd cheered a bit.

— Just eat the penis! — Harry says quickly after letting out a long breath and making you laugh a little by the controversing of the words of your easily jealous boyfriend.

— If I might say, I'm very surprised you're asking me to eat another penis! — You answered quickly seeing Harry's eyes widen at you as he had a big smile on his face.

— I mean, it's just bull penis! — He said and you just agreed looking at the penis again — I mean, I could help you answer this.. Blink twice if the worst one is...

— I'M EATING THE PENIS! — You shouted getting one of them in your hand and just throwing it in your mouth chewing it slowing with a very ugly face because you knew Harry would actually say it, he can be the next gossip girl. — This is disgusting! This is probably the worst thing I've ever putted on my mouth.

— That's funny I thought you liked a penis in your mouth! — Harry said lowly making you literally choke and spit the bull penis in the small bucket you had in your hand and then drinking water as you tried to contain your laugh — But I mean, how much horrible things have you ever put on your mouth, right?

— That's not the point! Focus on the game! — You said as you looked through the rest of the things in the table — As I ate the penis, I'll give you the cod sperm so we can match later. — You said positioning the cod sperm in front of him — Actually, how did they got the sperm out of the cod? — You asked and Harry laugh looking at it as he said he had no idea. You picked another paper card and let out a loud laugh — I LOVE this game! Between Niall, Louis, Liam and Zayn, rank their solo careers to best to... — You laugh at the exact moment Harry covered his forehead with his head. He got the napkin beside him and wrapped it around his neck, then he got the fork with the cod sperm and stared at it quietly.

— Just put it in your mouth and swallow. Don't look at it! — You said innocently making the crowd laugh and Harry to look at you with a mocking expression while trying to contain his smile.

— Right, because ''don't look at it, just swallow'' fixes everything. What are you gonna tell me now? Should I spit or should I swallow? — Harry joked making you laugh realizing what you actually said.

— I mean, I'd swallow it! — You said joking back while holding back your laugh. Even though you were actually shy, you and Harry were used to always making sexual jokes so it was normal to you, and very funny too as you'd do it all the time. But Harry did as you said and threw it in his mouth, but he spit on the bucket beside him. It was your time again and he chose the chocolate Cockroaches and read the last question.

— Who is the most surprising celeb to ever slide into your DMs? — Harry asked making you smile thinking if you should tell it or not even though you knew exactly who it was and so did Harry. You'd always tell each other when someone flirted with you because this helped a lot to deal with all the being extremaly jealous story — WHO IS HE? — Harry joked making you let out a laugh.

— I mean.. I'd say you, for sure! I was really surprised! — You said making him smile because even though he knew you were very excited when he answered your DM, he was definetly not the most surprising celeb to slide into your DMS but he accepted the answer either way.

— Alright, this was fun! — Harry said finishing the game and then the camera came back to James and the new guest of the show.

You and Harry left the studio of The Late Late Show in NYC and grabbed dinner at a french restaurant in the city exactly like you both said you'd do in the end of the night. In the restaurant, you basically talked about the game and how fun it was to do this together and how much you loved going through new experiences together and how much you wanted to see what the future will bring to both of you, because even though the future was uncertain, you both had 100% of certain you wanted to spend it together.