#i'm kinda low key sorta into both of those

[earlofbats]

Okay so because this post about Harry being a bottom I'm going to give a genuine dissertation on the thematic relevance of sub Harry and maybe a little bit about dom Kim.

First I wanna establish the "Harry is definitely a subby little bottom boy" and is also definitely Bi and probably has some sorta fucking complex about it.

Evidence A. Contact Mike, Guillaume Le Million, Measurehead (when fascist).

Harry tends to idolize and gravitate towards extremely masculine figures.

This is probably due to a reflexive need to feel masculine and have masculine role models in the face of elements of identity that are seen as unmasculine by society and have become exacerbated by the breakup which had to be pretty emasculating for Harry.

Also :

Imma start a Harry's Kink counter here +1 light bondage.

+1 auto-erotic asphyxiation.

Uhm +1 uhh,Spanking? Additional +1 for being what I think is most possibly the horniest thought you have in the game also:

+1 Kim is a Dom.

I think Harry has kept his attraction to men or his desires about men fairly low key for his entire life. The way he conceptualizes Homosexuality in general as an "underground" society filled with whispering rooms and forbidden secrets is likely more of a reflection of how Harry views his own sexuality than how Queer culture is manifest in Revachol. (In reference to the way both Kim and The Smoker kinda laugh Harry about it)

The organizational element of the idea being likely reflective of the way internalization is akin to paranoia.

Harry is also extremely intimacy starved and I think part of that is due to an unmet need for affection and the desire to be taken care of. That masculinity and status as both a survivor and an oppressor was sorta thrust onto Harry, he was born the last year of the war on a hospital floor, given a name associated with war time and survival, grew up probably in a little street urchin gang, got into *Disco* (man I'm sure Harry brushed elbows with the underground then.) Was a gym teacher a good balance between masculinity and caretaker and guardian something that harry clearly excels at and enjoys. Then Dora encouraged him to be a cop for unknown reasons perhaps prestige, money, because Harry has a bleeding heart.

Engage Heterosexual Cop hell for 12 years then an additional 6 single Cop hell years.

And now you're like :

Another element is Harry's tendency to worship and diefy his partners which like man that's gotta be the subbiest fucking thing you can do. I honestly can't articulate all of the reasons why that's just extreme bottom behavior.

Harry is an empathic jelly creature who is forced to handle a job with dead people in it all day and has created this reflexive hyper masculine obsession to compensate for his perceived inadequacy in not living up to the patriarchal capitalist ideal of what's supposed to be his birthright as a well off, able bodied, 'straight', occidental, man.

Except the actual issue is that Harry is mostly perceived or perceiving himself as that, when in reality he's in clear conflict with his actual identity as a Poor, mentally Ill, bisexual, occidental, man.

And it's those last two that end up kind of making this smoke screen to Harrys deficiency in privilege. He can mask or hide behind being an Occidental Man.

Can buddy buddy with patriarchy and take up the idea of a Big Strong Manly Cop.

Something that Kim also seems to be doing by seeking out positions of authority he can compensate for the disrespect he gets as a Poor, blind, gay, seolite, man.

Last of which probably won't get him far because of how "juvenile" his body type is.

Kim can't really coast on patriarchy much the way Harry can. He has to work twice as hard cuz there's not a lot he can hide behind.

Pursuit for control in the face of denial

Vs

Shielding ones self behind control as a means of denial.

Dom/Sub dichotomy.

[somedaytakethetime]

Hi! 💙 Guess what I watched earlier. 😫Funnily enough I dont think its my fault this time, Leicester just doesnt score goals! Its a bit like Milan but much worse! But I do think its my fault that Söyüncu doesnt get to play anymore I shouldnt of said hes pretty because apparently that gets you benched! 😡 I hope your allright tho and I hope my weird locker room dream provided for some inspiration for some nice dreams for you too. 😁 I love to analyze my dreams and also have a few books on this topic but this one was just puzzling. So I'm just assuming that the stupid cops probably represented the italian referee organization that really doesnt want Milan to win the league and the dream means that I'm worried that Milan will be cheated out of the title by unfair referee decisions and thats definitly true, and Sandro in the sexy girls underwear that I never got to fully see is a symbol for the league trophy that will go to Inter last minute. 😭😭

Ohgod this is actually depressing I probably shouldnt over analyze stuff and maybe I really just think Olivier and especially Sandro would look very beautiful in black an red lace undies. 🥰 Guys in makeup are really hot so why not guys in girls lingerie! 💕

Goodnight, have a good day! 🙂

~S.A.

I'm not fine. At all. BUT we move on from that, ya know? 😅 the levels of bitterness I can exude are unmatched on this earth no one can hold a grudge longer than I can....

I love that you analyse your dream *in-depth*. Usually I try to analyse mine more in the sense of "oh this is probably because I talked of such and such and then my brain added stress from something and I got this weird I'm back in school and failing all my classes again dream" xD I actually really like reading dream interpretations, I just get fascinated by all sorts of information. Your worries are fully justified because bad refs and fixed matches happen in every league, it's actually ridiculous how often this happens and literally nothing is done about it...

I have a weird kink... so I definitely agree with that statement 👀

[dameronology]

steve harrington + "you don't love me anymore?"

request: ok so obviously the scene with steve & nancy breaking up in the bathroom is fucking heartbreaking BUT if he had a similar convo with his s.o later on when he's a little older (maybe s3-4, young adult sorta age) and he's a bit more mature now?? would he put up a fight, would he let them go?? i'm so desperate to hear what u think

a/n: that scene killed me!! i'm glad it made way for nancy + jonathan but my god it's painful to watch😭😭

warnings: angst, no spoilers for s4

part two

i say this with all the love in the world: steve is low-key a dumbass and it would take him a while to pick up on something being wrong. probably bc he's so happy and content in your little routine - with him working at the mall, babysitting spending time with the hawkins kids, coming home to you - that he never stops to think about the fact you might not be

because of all the things that happened in the lead up to you guys being in a relationship - barb's disappearance, nancy suddenly breaking up with him, dealing with all the shit from the upside down all whilst dealing with the fact his parents are disappointed in him - your relationship is like...everything to him. so when he does realise that you're slipping away, it hits him like a fucking train

it's one night when you're about to drift off to bed; you've had a long day at college and he's telling you about him & robin goofing off at work all day. steve rolls over to sleep and says i love you

it's when you shove his arms off of you and don't say those three words back that he feels his heart break in two

even more so than yours, because this isn't easy for you either. steve is funny and sweet and the biggest idiot you've ever met and you have literally every reason to love him and not a single one to push him away

but sometimes, things just happen. you can't help how you feel. there's no reason for it. it just kinda feels like your life is moving forward and steve is in the past, no matter how hard you try to pull him with you

he approaches you the next morning in the kitchen. there's no greeting, no good morning kiss or hug like always. he just finds you in the corner making coffee and he says it simply and plainly.

"you don't love me anymore, do you?"

when he said to those words to nancy two or three years before, it was different. she was his first love, but they were high school students. they had their whole lives ahead of them to get over each other but he was really convinced that this, that you and him, were it.

so he's not gonna let you go without a fight lol. even when you burst into tears and promise that you love him, you're just not in love with him, he takes you in his arms and sways you kinda side to side to comfort you

because even though he's hurting too he knows this is just as hard for you. he knows you and he knows that you would never do a single thing to hurt him intentionally. it's sucky for both of you.

he makes a promise to you then & there that you can work it out. steve has never been one to beg but he almost does in that moment.

he hears you out. he listens to you talk about how you were just teenagers when you got together, and now you've both grown up and you're just not the same person you used to be. sometimes people grow together and sometimes they don't.

steve doesn't understand it, because he loves you more now than he was ever capable of as a dumb ass 17 year old but what can he do?? he can't make you stay with him

so he accepts it, however hard it is, because he just wants you to be happy, even if that means not being with you

but some part of him still holds out hope that you might come back one day

[arbitrarycategories]

Well now I need a crush to lovers to friends fic of Bakugo and Kirishima realizing they are just deeply platonically connected and maybe also Bakugo realizing he is asexual in the process

(for those that don't know: this ask is referencing this post I made)

oh my god that sounds amazing???? I LOVE fics which explore what kind of dating drama these Literal High School Kids can go through, and this sounds like it would fit right in!

I would need this from Kirishima's point of view, actually. Bakugou is Strong and Super Manly and he seems very Sure Of Himself, even when Eijirou knows that Bakugou has insecurities, and these are all things that Eijirou really admires and wants to emulate! Bakugou is just so cool. Who WOULDN'T have a bit of a crush on him?

So one night, yeah, in summer break of their second year, Kaminari throws a party at his house. It's pretty low-key, just the squad, but Kaminari's dad is out of town for a work thing, and his mom is like, really chill, especially with sex stuff (nobody needed to know that story!), and especially with the whole underage drinking thing. Eijirou actually had his first shot at Kaminari's house, poured by Kaminari's mom!

So there's a party, and they all take shots, and play video games, and then stop playing video games when they're all a few shots in and too drunk to actually, yknow, win the next level, so...

They decide, hey, we all trust each other! We're all drunk, and it's late, and Kaminari's mom is asleep---so what if the only one of us who has had sex (Sero) teaches us how to give a hickey?

So, yknow, THAT happens. And eventually 3am rolls around and they all go to sleep.

Cue the next morning. The group splits up. Mina has plans with some old friends, Sero has a date with Todoroki, Kaminari has a hangover and wants them all out of his house, the basics. Eijirou doesn't have plans, though, and neither does Bakugou, and they're both sorta hanging onto the mood of the night before...

So they decide to go back to Bakugou's house and hang.

Bakugou's parents aren't home. Eijirou, still stuck in the night before, when they were all practicing hickeys on each other, is thinking of how much he enjoyed Bakugou's lips on his skin, and confesses his crush. More than that: asks if Bakugou wants to go a little further.

Bakugou looks at him kinda sideways for a second, and decides, sure, why not? So they go to his room and fuck.

And when they're done, Eijirou feels really satisfied, but he doesn't feel lovestruck the way he expected to be. He looks at Bakugou and realizes, hey, he trusts this dude with his life, but like? He's not sure he actually is in love with him.

They're actually just... really good, trusting friends, but Eijirou has spent too much time hanging out with Mina and Kaminari, who both have romance on the brain, and had assumed at some point that those emotions (trust, thinking someone is hot) mean he must like-like Bakugou. But here, having just fucked him? Nah. He's never felt more secure in their friendship, actually.

He tells Bakugou, and Bakugou makes a kinda relieved expression. That was how he felt, too, apparently. Bakugou is also figuring out this positive emotions thing, and additionally he was testing something: if he trusted Eijirou enough to fuck him, would he enjoy the act of fucking?

The answer? It was cool, but like... ice cream is cool. Enjoyable, but not the AWESOME kinda feeling other people make it sound like.

Bakugou tells Eijirou that he's pretty sure he's ace, actually.

Eijirou hugs him, and they go out for pizza. They don't mention it again, which is fine. And that's how they each had their first time.

<3<3<3

If anyone wants to expand this story, feel free! I'm not super attached to it, but I couldn't stop the brainworms asdfghjhk

[jlf23tumble]

Hiya! Could you bless us with a rec of some just straight up weirdo fics pls? Smutty or not, open to various pairings. Mostly thinking they'd be light-hearted rather than angsty but I trust your fic reccing prowess so if you have a bundle of angst you think otherwise fits this vibe, I'm up for it. Just generally looking for some oddball entertainment funsies. Thank you!

Weird rec anon here! I do mostly read the d (lulz) but I absolutely would fuck with a Jake from State Farm fic! So yeah probably mostly 1d but if you have some favs from outside that fandom you want to share, I'd definitely be up for it! Thank you!

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I sat on this for a LONG-ASS time because I just don't find a lot of fic weird weird--in fact, sometimes the "weirder" it is, the more wonderful I find it, plus I don't tend to read truly disturbing fic, so a lot of this probably falls into crack fic? And even then, I might actually love the pairing, so I wouldn't call it a crack fic or a weird fic regardless of the setting, etc. (looking at you, Ted Lasso/Trent Crimm, I know you're out there!). Anyway, all this equivocating aside, fuck it, we'll do it live, here's a mixed bag for you from my bookmarks, and they probably don't even scratch the surface, sob. I could probably ponder this ask FOR DAYS, but I might as well, eh? Putting it under the cut!

Gah, this is so hard because "weird" sounds low-key judgey, but OKAY, let's start with the D, then some other pairings (as above the cut, I'm not gonna mention the pairings I LOVE, even though they're "unusual," I'm just talking pairings you wouldn't think about...you'll see!)

EVERYTHING SINGLE FIC IN THIS COLLECTION, I can't stop thinking about the lactation athlete feeding program, the dragon fucking, OR the sorority/fraternity fuck contest, but wow, some gems that this fandom of puritans has forced to be anonymous, read those tags, bb.

Rachel, Nevada, vondrostes, 3.8k, harry/jeff/alien roleplay prostitute. The thing is, it's SORTA plausible, in a bizarro Eyes Wide Shut gossip site blind item kinda way? A lot to unpack, hilarious and great.

My husband (29/M) died and has been possessed...,, adoreloux, 4.3k, harry/louis. This is definitely borderland for me because it's KIND OF normal ghost/supernatural stuff, but the title! The premise! Bah, I'll include it because I like the writing in it, too!

Man Seeking Wolf, rosemarieanthympe, 5.3k, derek hale/harry styles. Every fest I run, I never lose, and this fic for momrryfest CAME THROUGH, it's so brilliant, from the want ad to the characterization and all the easter egg layers in between, genius!

The Sweetest Thing series, homosociallyyours, 9k, harry/louis. A journey of a series (and I think Megan has MULTIPLE works that veer in and over this line, ditto jaerie).

Harry Styles Cooks..., sunsetmog, 61k, harry/louis. Look, this one's probably never gonna update, but it doesn't need to, it is the CRACKIEST of crack, hilarious and sweet all at once.

And now for other pairings I wouldn't necessarily look for, but wow, these fics are so good! I just know there are more in a similar vein, there have to be!! I need to take a day off and find them!

Jake from State Farm....is in TWO fics I love, and no doubt others, too, note to self, search that tag, lol. Anyway, check out Into Every Generation.... and The State of It All, both of them make me want to read insurance character fic, and I'm sure there are some beauts!

The way I would read at least twelve more stories about Jon and Liz from the Garfield universe where Liz is a vampire, I'm so glad there's at least found.

Full shout out to Phoenix for long ago rec'ing me A Cornstock Fiddle, which is all about the song "The Devil Went Down to Georgia" (related: why aren't there MORE fics based on iconic songs like this).

[yandere-wishes]

Based on her personality I'm curious would Ophelia but heads with Leona?🤔 How would she act around Vil and considering she friends with Jack how would she act around Epel, would Lilia be annoyed around her? Sorry for all the questions I'm just really curious

Oh no, it’s fine I love answering questions and I’ve been dying to talk about Ophelia since I made her!

She and Leona are complicated, mainly because they both hold some form of respect for each other and actually understand why the other does some of the things they do. For example, Ophelia can understand why Leona wants to cut class and practice just to sleep around. Likewise, Leona understands why the magicless girl gets irritated so easily. 

They do but heads from time to time, but it's mainly because Ophelia started yelling for some reason and Leona got annoyed and told her to shut up because she was being too noisy and disturbing. 

Ophelia: AZUL GOT MY COFFEE WRONG!! WHO THE HELL DOES THAT DAMNED OCTOPUS THINK HE IS!!

Leona: Oi, shut up herbivore, you're giving me a headache! 

Ophelia: Oh I'm so sorry you oversize kitten. Maybe if I cut your ears off you wouldn't be able to hear my voice

Leona: *Glares and bares teeth* I dare you!

Vil just straight up hates her from the moment he laid eyes on her. Ophelia's style (or lack thereof) disgusts Vil to the deepest parts of his soul. He also low key believes that Ophelia always wears black because she is planning to murder someone and doesn't want to waste time picking out a funeral fit. These two also throw verbal arguments at each other 24/7. This is their relations ship in a nutshell. 

Ophelia walks in wearing black ripped jeans and a shirt that has a way to many holes

Vil: So are you going to someone's funeral or did you just get resurrected from the grave.

Ophelia: Oh no this is just what I'm wearing to your funeral, cause you ain't worth my time to find something nice to put on. 

I feel like Eple would be rather confused by her. She's a brute that isn't afraid to speak her mind. Which is sorta the kind of guy Epel wishes he was. But on the other hand, she really is very mean and has called Epel so many insulting nicknames before. It's sorta like he looks up to who she is but hates and is intimidated by her personality. 

I feel like deep down Lilia is kinda both proud but also pitying the girl. You see Ophelia isn't a happy well-meaning character, her life wasn't a tragedy more so that she made it a bad life for herself and those around her. I feel like (if some theories are true) Lilia she's a lot of Maleficent in her. So no matter how crude Ophelia acts, Lilia just sorta rationalizes her actions by linking them to what he believes Maleficent would have done in her place. The ancient being is also content that Ophelia can somehow get through to Malleus and keep him company for some time.

[johobi]

Can i get a character ship please? I'm just short of 5' 6", have pale skin, chin length brown hair and hazel eyes. In my first year of college but, don't really know what i want to do yet. Used to be in taekwondo and ballet. I have a super strong sweet tooth, and an almost as strong love for cats and dogs. Uuuhhmmm, i am definitely an introverted extrovert. I guess that's all Ms.Jo .

I have another lonely college-goer that lacks focus. Maybe you can help one another? I ship you with…

Gone Wild - Hoseok

Profile: lazy, brilliant, one of those students that doesn’t have to work hard because he’s basically a prodigy, boasts about it, infuriating, but also sorta sexy??, kinda crusty, mild porn addiction, the internet is his sustenance, surprisingly tee-total, courted by many a high-profile tech firm, no idea what he wants to do with his life tho, high-key kinky af, not shy, neither is he pushy, lethargic, will probably make extreme bank out of college, milk before cereal, burns random shit in the sink at 3am and sets the fire alarm off, impulsive when he’s not being lazy, takes nothing seriously, besides you of course, basically worships the ground you walk on, hard to have an earnest conversation with, but will make an effort if you’re serious, wants fun all the time, flees from his issues, but he doesn’t have many, so that’s cool.

Star sign: Sagittarius

Hobbies: redditing, coding, gaming, running DnD campaigns, fapping.

Ideal vacation: Akihabara, Tokyo.

Why you’re a match: You’d probably be minding your own business one day in the university cafeteria and Hoseok would overhear you mentioning to someone that you once did taekwondo and/or ballet. And then he’d think ‘Holy crap, that’s hot, I wonder how well she could kick my ass. I wonder if she could choke me out. I wonder how flexible she is. I wonder how…’, and forget that he’s gawping at you whilst stewing on this. Not the most romantic first encounter, sure, but some of history’s greatest love stories started out very strangely. 

You might be tempted to send an eyeroll his way and carry on with your life, but resist it. Instead, stare back a little longer and he will saunter over, cool as a cucumber, and ask to exchange numbers. That kind of confidence is attractive. With Hoseok, you need never worry about jealousy or toxicity born from low self-esteem. He’ll let you live your own life, free of mistrust, because he has confidence in himself and confidence in your attraction to him. 

Your affair certainly won’t start out as anything storybook, because Hoseok is accustomed to more FWB-style arrangements. But it will become clear, with time, that he is capable of something much deeper. Your warmth and kindness nurtures it in him until he is utterly besotted. Your mind and body both become like a drug to him and he becomes better for having met/flirted with/talked all night with/laughed with/made tacos with/laid with you. More driven, less aimless, less lethargic. Even his porn consumption lessens because he finds the experimental, fulfilling partner he’s always desired in you. 

Your sweet tooth will certainly come in handy when he begins involving whipped cream and chocolate fondue. 😏

I’m no longer accepting submissions for the shipping game - I’m posting matches for those that submitted before the deadline. Thank you for your understanding!

[loverboy-cb]

OKAY I have thought a bit about this. I still am not 100% in my choices but this is what I'm going with;

Hwanwoong - Gives me Tamaki vibes.

Taeyang - Kyoya, but I'm iffy about it.

Jinhwan - I could see some Mori in him.

Dongheon - Honey low key 👀.

Sunwoo - Kinda gives me vibes of the twins??

Sangyeon - THAT LEAVES HIM WITH HARUHI BUT I DON'T AGREE.

AIGHT LETS BREAK IT DOWN

Fair warning this is really long and I'm just straight rambling

Right off the bat definitely Dongheon/Honey. He’s a bright person, a super duper chipper when he’s not working or being serious. That “hidden side” for him is literally so accurate!! Have you SEEN his RTK practice overseeing?? But then watched him goof off on weekly idol?? Please, he’s so cute but so scary sometimes. Plus Dongheon gets bullied a lot for his aegyo because he’s the eldest in VV but actually he’s very cute and deserves to be allowed to be cute!! N he likes cute things and sweets, his nicknames are literally Heoni and Honey so like. Case closed.

The rest of them definitely get a little muddled after that, since no one else is really quite like the ouran hosts.

I do think Jinhwan does sort of seem Mori like when he’s first talking to someone. He’s quiet because he’s shy. But actually that’s as far as it goes? He doesn’t really embody the cool strong vibes that Mori has on impact. I actually think that Taeyangie is more like Mori than Jinhwan. Taeyang talks a little more definitely but he gives off those cool vibes, intense on impact (watching him perform for the first time is !!!!) and also Tall hahaha.

I’ve been watching a lot of the iKON TV series again and I’d put Jinhwan at the twins? Jinhwan is really mischievous within iKON (though that’s also an overarching iKON personality trait too heh) but also if you watch the 120 sec interaction from Kingdom Legendary War, he’s definitely teasing New at least a little. Jinhwan’s probably the least like an Ouran host because he’s hella fucking awkward and shy around people he doesn’t know (again the evidence is in 120 sec). But it’s a bit like how Kaoru is always portrayed as shy and delicate while Hikaru is the one who’s teasing and bold. It’s like Jinhwanie at first is like Kaoru and then as you get to know him he becomes more like a Hikaru. In truth the twins clearly have their “together” characteristics and both are trouble makers but they also have their individual traits!! V good character building.

I feel like Sangyeon is more of a Tamaki? Tamaki is kind of airheaded and stupid sometimes and I genuinely do not put that past Sangyeon (fake maknae right there). But Tamaki has proven himself to be really dedicated and loyal and as the founder of the club, pulling all the other members together, takes responsibility for them too. Definitely charismatic leader quality. Obviously Sangyeon isn’t the same brand of extra as Tamaki is but they have the same core characteristics. They’re just trying to look out for the well being of their dongsaengs/kouhais. Sangyeon also fits a princely character very well~~~

I actually think I’d put Sunwoo down for Haruhi! Hear me out. Haruhi: confident, the “natural” (aces stuff all the time), bullied constantly. Confidence literally oozes out of Sunwoo whatever he does. He’s an ace in kpop obviously but also very entertaining in any variety show style things! He’s expressive and endearing and you just want to love him immediately. Bullied constantly bc he’s silly n constantly doing things differently from the other members in tbz. Sunwoo is also a hard worker and passionate, something we don’t always see from Haruhi outright but listen, Haruhi entered a prestigious school with just their smarts, and is there on scholarship. Not to mention Ouran is actually a business school!! Don’t forget, everyone is there to make connections and eventually overtake their parent’s companies.

That leaves Hwanwoong with Kyoya which is probably the other shaky one I’m not sure about. Do I think he’s particularly cunning? No. WAIT ACTUALLY the person I think is most cunning on this bot is probablyyyy Jinhwan? Again iKON TV and those pranks have got me eyeing the man suspiciously.

More reasoning behind Jinhwan being Kyoya: If we take what is said above and twist it slightly, we’d have seemingly well behaved, sensitive soul Jinhwan on the surface and then mischievous plotting Jinhwan underneath. Jinhwan is also one of the eldest here so he often takes responsibility for watching over the youngin’s, but unlike Sangyeon who’d scold them before doing something stupid, Jinhwan would be like hell yeah let’s try it and then kind of ride out the consequences while also making sure everyone stayed mostly safe.

OKAY circle back, that makes Hwanwoong the twins but hmmm. It sorta makes sense??Hwanwoong being 2nd youngest both here and in ONEUS is funny bc that would put both Sunwoo/Haruhi and Hwanwoong/the twins in the “same” year which is true to Ouran lol. Hwanwoong is also very capable of seducing your man, I promise you. Also Hwanwoong has always wanted a brother and being in ONEUS has been really impactful for him because now he has five brothers and loves them so much ;-; Mmm, like the twins he’s really confident in what he’s good at (like dance). As far as this bot goes it makes a bit more sense when you consider that I’ve made Hwanwoong to be flirty and confident on the surface but really honest underneath, like the twins who lie and pretend they’re always fine on the surface but clearly have some issues underneath (re: their entire episode where they’re like “we were fine together alone but then Tamaki-senpai reached out and now we’re here). Yeah this one makes a little less sense but I still kinda vibe with it.

FINAL VERDICT:

Sangyeon as Tamaki

Jinhwan as Kyoya

Dongheon as Honey

Taeyang as Mori

Hwanwoong as the twins (Hikaru/Kaoru)

Sunwoo as Haruhi

[tarotnoob]

helllloooooo!! how are ya? may I request for a reading on career please? well, I'm still a student, unemployed but am working on something creative because well... i enjoy it despite it not being my major LOL. so I'm kinda low-key curious too if my creative endeavor will in turn be a career for me🥺👉🏻👈🏻 thank you so much for your time and energy!🥰 e.g.🦁♌

Hey! ... What you said really sounds so similar to what I said someone’s soulmate would be like from a post I did a day ago and I think that person was a Leo, but anywho... ........... take only what resonates, please. What I say is only what I see and maybe it’s actually x and I read it wrong, but it seems usually when that happens people are able to tell, so - 

This is the original pull of cards and then the clarifying cards. They sorta came out in no particular order, so I focused on the major arcana, which were hermit and emperor reversed... I also realized that the six of swords next to 10 of wands reversed seemed a similar message to those, until I clarified them.

Six of swords in my new deck is more like being stuck (which is six of swords reversed energy), but it’s sort of like... treading water, not good, not bad.

Which made me think that the 8 of pentacles that clarified it is about what you’re studying in college rather than your hobby and that queen of swords may clarify that field, queen of swords is lawyer, doctor, serious science stuff, but it can also be anything to do with writing or communication. I got the sense that maybe your major is kind of boring or you’ve lost interest in it or never had much interest in it but it would’ve been a job where you could make money and be sure of it. 10 of wands reversed is... kind of like you can let go of a weight or avoid it entirely. That’s why I thought six of swords and 10 of wand together were running away from responsibility, which is also kind of similar to the hermit next to emperor reversed. And almost every time I tried to pull again to get an answer - both decks said similar things, so just in case, I might be here to relay the message that you shouldn’t run away from your responsibilities. I don’t know how that applies or perhaps it could also be something significant happened in your life and you had to kind of retreat from the world to deal with it. Hermit clarified as Hermit.... lol. And Emperor reversed as 3 of swords (heartbreak/disappointment/grief).  Also I noticed a theme of... the emperor and four of wands reappearing. Normally four of wands is about love/joy but the clarifying cards seemed to indicate it’s about foundation, emperor is also about foundation and in regard to that, something is lacking and unbalanced, which also makes me feel this message of shirking responsibilities applies somewhere, not putting the work or effort in, not being responsible about something... I don’t know how much you’ve looked into or been serious about this creative hobby and what it takes to make a (lucrative) career, but if you aren’t serious about it, perhaps the cards are reflecting that...anyway 10 of wands reversed clarified by high priestess, which can be a secret/duality/intuition - together those cards could read as a secret burden or it’s a secret that you shirked on something or you’re hiding this decision that you don’t want to pursue your major (from your parents/family/friends). 3 of cups popped up and was clarified by 5 of wands, which can be about self preservation, it can be about conflict... I don’t know if you’re afraid of what family or friends will say regarding a switch in majors or focusing on the creative hobby as a job. 10 of pentacles is about material wealth, usually it indicates family, too. In my new deck the image is more of a nontraditional type of family so it’s still there... clarified by the star (wish/desire) and the lovers (gemini/communication/choice). In this context... I feel like it’s simply repeating your question, can i make my (dream) job happen? I mean, this is the only area where I see positive anything because 10 of p is financial success and we do have the wish card... I’m trying to get where Lovers comes in other than a choice, choosing this path and it being successful.

Any path can BE successful, that’s probably why it’s not giving a yes/no.

Any path can be successful IF you’re willing to put the work in and the cards might be showing that maybe you aren’t (yet). Because MAYBE you haven’t thought out a real plan, maybe you haven’t talked it over with the people currently supporting you (family) or people who could support you.

Three of cups and three of pentacles came up a lot so I’m curious about the actual creative hobby b/c so far only queen of swords showed up here and that feels more like your major. But it made me wonder - even with so much hermit going on your own energy if this is something that requires working as a team anyway or with friends, rather than start a business on  your own, you would start it with the help of friends, but that’s also where your conflict lay - anywho.

Four of wands clarified by Emperor again. Lots of fours, not sure if your life path is 4, you like the number or were born on the 4th or it repeats for you, but overall four is about balance, organization, taking responsibility. The Emperor is a leader who has their shite together, y’know. 

So, overall there seemed to be this message of... balance/struction/responsibility and... going away from that. If you don’t resonate with being slightly... irresponsible or not terribly organized, maybe it’s just repeating the worry of - yeah if I do this can I live off of what I make? Emperor can also be a father figure, so maybe in particular you feel you’d be disappointing a father figure.

Top photo were the back of deck cards... we have ace of pentacles, which is stuff like a new job, a new relationship, a new something that’s tangible, but behind it is the moon which is sadness, illusion, intuition... subconscious... this could be feeling stuck in the major or it could be that considering this lack of... organization that, right now, the idea of entertaining something new is a bit... of an illusion/delusional or YOU feel that pursuing this career might be a bit of an illusion. The other deck is page of wands and queen of pentacles... you’d think that the page of wands is creative and optimistic and willing to take risks and behind it queen of pentacles, which is someone who can manifest all the material needs they... need/want, so this might also be saying there’s success in making your own way with a creative venture or is it that the page of wands is running away from responsibility... in theory the cards often offer two ways of looking at stuff for a reason, like it can go this way or that way IF you do X. And, they could be doing this IF thing b/c of what keeps popping up here and that’s making sure you have a plan for how to make it work and that you’re serious.

I did another ask and got Hanged man, ace of pentacles again, lovers again, strength (Leo card), 9 of swords, four of wands again.

Hanged man seems to be you haha. Maybe, we have the fool and page of cups. fool is like beginning energy and page of cups is a lot about creativity and that creative whatever being more in the beginner phase... hanged man is about letting go and leaving it up to the universe or seeing things from a new perspective. ace of p is two of pentacles reversed so ... something is not balancing right with this new (thing), which reads a lot like the back of deck energy from the previous pull... the ace of p plus the moon...  and it also reminds me of the six of swords clarified by the queen of s and 8 of p... and that’s the only indication I have it might be still referring to your current studies, that it just... isn’t interesting anymore...  but then again since the fool is there before ace of p maybe it is this “new” idea of turning the hobby into a career and you haven’t made the preparations for that or you aren’t able to juggle the situation... lovers again is associated with a string of cards that are like “lack of planning”, “lack of willpower to manifest,” lack of mental clarity... >.> Strength card clarified by the hermit (again) and 9 of swords, which is anxiety...  so again there’s some issues about mental strength/clarity... you probably have thought a lot about and been anxious about the future and if you’ll be successful...  the 9 of swords also came out in the main deck, clarified by 3 of wands which is again telling me anxiety about the future... at the end is four of wands, which clarified by... six of swords reversed (stuck)... and I was like murrr give me more, and it gave me ace of p (again), 5 of pentacles, 3 of pentacles, world... and when you look at the images it’s like you are walking away from the ace of p instead of taking what’s being offered, 5 of p can be poverty or not asking for help, but then 3 of p is about collaboration/teamwork... and then the World. And this is all under the four of wands... but I know four of wands is talking about balance/structure/foundation, especially on top of all earth cards. I could read this as walking away from assured financial security toward a job that (may pay less) and requires/allows you to work on a team or travel (world card), World card is also an end, usually about success. So maybe all these ace of p’s, despite aces usually meaning NEW is the major/current study... and if you’re okay with making less... than the world would indicate you’d be successful - I won’t say it guarantees more money tho... very curious why 3 o p and 3 o c seem to stand in for each other in this... but whatevs. It didn’t answer our q, really unless world means success if you walk away from the “sure thing.”

I did one last one and was like BUT THE CREATIVE JOB WILL IT MAKE A GOOD CAREER.

and i was like yay we have an ace of wands which is about creativity and passion at least... 10 of pentacles can be career/money but then the chariot is reversed so this is lack of drive/lack of control, so again it’s like - do you really, are you really putting in the work it’ll take to make the creative job... work?

Next to chariot is 7 of swords - lie/secret/sneaky business, maybe even taking on too much (like 10 of wands but it hurts you a lot), next to that is five of swords, these are to of my least fav cards cuz they’re icky... I honestly read this as ok creative job will it be a career but you aren’t putting in the energy or effort or have the drive and are looking for a shortcut to make it work by (maybe) relying on others for help or to get the situation to work out...  or you can read it as rather than asking for advice you’re trying to handle it all on your own... but really no i mean having high priestess next to two of cups ... next to those swords... it’s like...   doesn’t feel positive, haha...  considering all the issues with structure and foundation... I’m trying to read the chariot reversed through five of swords as being why the foundation is wonkadoo...  or are the seven of swords and five of swords what make the chariot go reversed... b/c none of the elements are in conflict, it’s fire earth water air air water water... but reversed chariot is a conflict and five and seven of swords usually have negative meanings about conflict and sneakiness, shortcuts, greed...  yeah I do think the swords messages are what’s reversing the chariot... if chariot was upright it’d be like you’re taking control of the situation, your destiny (you had magician reversed earlier, and issues under the strength card (also mental willpower)... so there’s a repeated theme of a lack of willpower and mental clarity.... which is why I keep going back to... you’re just... the work isn’t being done.

Kind of reminds me of me. I wanted to get an English degree b/c I wanted to be a writer but my dad was like “You won’t make money” and I didn’t get into the school I wanted anyway, where I’d applied to the English program (I’m not sure why tho as my grades were good and so was my act but whatevs), so I went to a Journalism school, and I graduated and applied to be a reporter at a paper but all they had was a job for a copy editor, and I went through a few different jobs, after that I fell into marketing and that was a job I never wanted to do but I needed $$ but I always always wanted to be a published author and I wrote as a hobby online for years and years and had a following, but I put so much into that, I never really pursued my dream job b/c I always worried about money and felt pressure from family until [insert life story here], stuff happened and I moved to LA to try and write movies, but I needed $$$ for rent so I got stuck in the marketing cycle again and was miserable, so I came back home-home, and while I was home had an interview with a college in LA to do ANOTHER marketing job but I’d started doing cards and I was like no, I’m going to follow my dream and do a job I WANT TO DO, but then covid happened and I got stuck at home and haven’t written since March >.>

And I started this blog... and focused on tarot.

What’s my point? I could have put MORE effort into my dream but I put that effort into a lot of useless shit or I gave my energy to others who didn’t deserve it, I didn’t believe in myself, I wasn’t ambitious, I never had the DRIVE to pursue it tho I wanted it so badly. My poiiiiiint is that... to follow a creative job, to give up a practical job... it requires a lot of work to make it be successful. I understand the dilemma of practical job vs. dream job. I could write a book about it - 

If I had the drive to...

So maybe I’m here to impart that - if you put in the work, if you take responsibility, if you build up the foundation for success and not just wing it, you will be successful doing your hobby as a career.

But if you’re like me and you fart around for a decade - you’re gonna end up like me. 

And if you choose to stay in the boring major that will lead to a boring but $$$ salary, well... you’ll be able to pay your bills but you may wonder what if.

But you also want to think about... what’s the responsible decision here... don’t be impulsive... don’t deal with it on your own, don’t be sneaky about switching around your majors.

It’s your life, you should do what you want to do. Btw, I did draw oracles, it was like survival and escape lol, so again that... running away to survive... escape has hermit energy and survival is kinda similar too... a bit about using the resources around you... whatever. And I think the other oracles were soul journey and compassion, so maybe those two will resonate with you. Also the numbers here are 1 and 8, 1 being self and 8 is... about.. executive skills, lol, ability to create material wealth but it says 8′s tend to struggle more than other (life path) numbers... I mean you know already if you have those skills or not, if you aren’t someone who’s very reliable/responsible - I think you’ll have to work on that before you’ll be successful with a new career path... But nothing says that it won’t be successful... and a couple of combinations indicated it could be successful IF xyz... and if you ARE responsible, then maybe there was another message in here you can figure out just by reading the meanings or images... hermit came out a lot, emperor, four of wands... three of cups... there are tons of pentacles all around... but yeah there’s this sense of something lacking - drive, commitment, structure, balance, organization...Or maybe you don’t want to continue studying your major b/c it’s too hard and the hobby is a bit easier and more fun and the cards are showing you as running away from ... that and trying to take the “easy” way out... I think they just want you to do everything for the right/responsible reason, but we all are in charge of our own destiny, maybe some stuff in our chart makes things more difficult than for other folks, but... if you want it and you think you can get it, if it makes you happy - go for it and when all those things line up, it is successful. It’s about... the drive. And the will.

Which seem to be... iffy here. Hope that helps. And if you’re very anxious and really struggling right now with anything or especially this decision, maybe the answer is to reach out to friends or whomever or maybe you’re so worried about what others might think of the switch ur kinda freaking - but... it’s your life, so if you need to have that conversation w/ someone, do so.

as a bit of hope besides that 10 of p clarified by lovers and the star, ace of p plus moon could be the current study making u sadballz, but the page of wands on top of queen of p is really that you can make success out of the creative career b/c the queen of p is self-supportive and, as a person, would be someone who could start their own business or work for themselves and do very well financially, but usually she earns as much as she puts in - 

So, again, there are positive cards in here and cards that show your current major is making you unhappy or makes you feel bored or stuck - 

But just that message of... yeah. What I said up there. Good luck! And also speaking of double messages, the four of wands is about joy and happiness, it’s one of the most positive cards so whatever is lacking in organizational “executive” skills, once resolved probably means that not only can you make the hobby a career but you’ll also be really happy.

[chuck-e-cheese-anime-faces]

I heard a week or two ago from another student at my college that universities require marine biology majors (probly minors as well) to do like, some chemistry? Probly at least one course??????? IDK but the point is at first I was a lil upset by this but then I realized this week that that's actually a really good thing because my general ed is gonna require at least one physical science course and I can take them to fill that requirement while at the same time filling requirements to study marine biology at a university 2 birds one stone kinda deal so very good for me imo I like that a lot I'm gonna have 2 speak with a guidance counselor to get more in depth about it but I think that's very good news. Also as I've said before, this semester is my LAST (unless universities require more english/writing/composition/whatever courses for marine biology which I highly doubt tbh) semester of all time doing an English course, my least favorite subject, but I'm doin pretty damn good in this class and i find it more enjoyable then most of my past English classes in high school and before. I think I also got a couple more semesters of like behavioral studies/humanities n appreciation of arts or whatnot to complete my general ed, which, is kinda sorta my second least favorite, it really depends because the subjects within those are so damn varied, last semester I took an online music history course called "Bach to Rock" that was really easy and fun, this semester I doin a micro-econ course that isn't really hard but kinda boring and tedious. I just don't wanna spend too much time writing essays in whichever other courses I need to complete general ed. I think I'mma go gender studies for at least one of the remaining courses though, I've heard it's kinda easy and may be light on essays but I could be completely wrong about that( again, something I'll cover w my guidance counsellor(s), gonna likely speak to more than one since I'm interested in both marine biology and computer science) and at least I kinda find gender studies interesting (probly not enough to major in it tho tbh) aaaaaaaaaand, that's pretty much all there is to say about my college plans for now. I know I'm killin it and doin my best, and I will continue to do so, and as I move forward and get to focus more on cool shit, school will get better, life will get better, I'll graduate, get a full-paying job, live at those damn nice nostalgic apartments I've been low-key scopin, and I'll be livin very nice and comfy, with tons of money to give, and a lil to give me a fancy meal and maybe a cool trip now n then. I believe it for me, and for anyone reading this, I know you will do awesome and be awesome, keep on keepin on, I know u can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!