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OK SO LIFE UPDATE!!! So me and my mom have this tradition of getting coffee together every Saturday morning and since I just turned 15 and I’ve been asking her to teach how to drive since I was 14 she decided THAT SHES GOING TO TEACH ME HOW TO DRIVE EVERY SATURDAY TOO!!!!!AUDHEIEJENSJIWKSB- plus I really wanna get my permit so I can drive around my mom and stuff like a chauffeur AND TOO RUB IN MY OLDER SISTER AND BROTHERS FACE THAT THE YOUNGEST SIBLING GOT THEIR PERMIT when they just turned 15- and brother literally called my mom asking for help on his permit test like 2 or 3 years ago so if she doesn’t help me then that’s just favoritism and she proclaimes she doesn’t have favorites when we all know it’s ME.....jk jk (kinda) and this weekend my mom said she would take me too the bookstore since we didn’t get to go last weekend :( OH AND ON MY BIRTHDAY MY MOM, SISTER, BROTHER, MY SISTERS HUSBAND, AND HIS NEPHEW THREW ME A SURPRISE PARTY!!!! oh and even though I don’t have to tell you this I want to anyway because 1.) I’m ranting and 2.) I’m comfortable with you and I trust you!! Ok so for the couple months almost a year we’ve been living with my mom’s fiancé’s mom, his sister, and his sisters daughter (we nvr get along with each other) and everytime my mom puts in an application for an apartment or a house they never have room or something came up because of STUPID (ง'̀-'́)งCOVID but a week ago my mom put in another application which is also where her best friend who is also my god mother stays at with my god brother and sister (fun fact: my mom has been friends with my god mother since they were in middle school and now there both 43- like WOW and her kids are so nice like me and her son are 2 years apart and her daughter who I’m older than are also two years apart) so fingers crossed 🤞🏽 we get in!! Because I’m not really comfortable at where we are now because his mom is a HARDCORE CHRISTIAN and I’ve been talking to her about lgbtq+, BLM, and other things like that and everytime she says she doesn’t want me to be like the people in the lgbtq+ community because they’re gods enemy but newflash based on what she says I already am because I’m bisexual and this one time I asked her if she didn’t know me would I look like a boy or a girl and she asked me “do you wanna be a boy?” And I said no I was just asking and then she dismissed me telling me to put on some girly clothes and earring when I’m literally having issues with my gender I LITERALLY HAD A PANIC ATTACK AFTER THAT CONVERSATION WHEN I GOT BACK INTO THE ROOM I WAS STAYING IN and I can barybe in the same room with any of them without getting nervous or anxious because I’m not comfortable around them AT ALL, and this one time when I was somewhat comfortable around I told her that I had Social anxiety and depression and she told me to go READ THE BIBLE because if I do then I wouldn’t have that anymore and in my mind I was like: 👁👄👁- what? But anyways enough about that update me on your life and thingz- 🥺 anon

SCREAMS CUTIE'S LIFE UPDATE YES

coffee together every saturday help that is so cute 🥺🥺🥺🥺 anD YOU GET TO LEARN HOW TO DRIVE NOW???????? COOL?????????? and you had a surprise party 🥺🥺

i'm so glad you're comfortable with me and trust me oh my god 🥺 and IKR THOSE KINDS OF FRIENDS ARE AMAZING OMG (tmi my mom has this one friend from when they were in kindergarten and they lived just across each other so they always hung out together every weekend and they're still friends until now and they're 44 🥺🥺 they got married roughly around the same time and had kids nearly at the same time too skfjjs and we still go to visit them every weekend despite our houses being like quite far away lol)

sjdhfjd but that kind of thing? omg HARDCORE CHRISTIAN ?? pls i go to a catholic school (where i know a bunch of lgbtq+ people) and i'm pretty sure the point they're trying to teach in catholicism is to ACCEPT EVERYONE ??? and omg why's she there telling you what to wear and what to do when your own mother is literally fine with it ??????

AND YES THAT'S ANOTHER THING like my teachers once told my parents about me being so quiet and me shaking every time i'm told to present for a group and they just brushed it off, got mad at me when we got home, told me i shouldn't embarrass them like that, then they proceeded to tell me that people who have depression and anxiety are weak and they have weak faith in God so i should start reading the bible and pray instead... i s w e a r...

i'm literally part of the bible quiz group every year and istg i used to read that thing everyday, i go to a catholic school so we're always praying, but i swear when i begin shaking and stuttering like mad in front of people, nothing's helping me there. like ik it does for others, like one of our teachers who ACTUALLY TRIED HELPING ME WITH THIS SHAKING PROBLEM OF MINE, but idk it just doesn't for me and i'm sure it doesn't for others as well...

sometimes it just makes me wonder how some people think that just because this one thing this one way works for them, it'll suddenly work for every single human being on this planet omg 🤦‍♀️

cutie i love you and please don't feel forced to do anything by that godmother of yours... ik you probably aren't, but if that happens again i think you can tell your mother 🥺 like maybe tell her it's making you uncomfy so she could probably talk to her friend about it ?