#i'm gonna touch the buttttttt

[serafimo]

@theriddletrades' master.

[kneelingshadowsalome]

Salome....the poly AU.........I literally have worms in the brain I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT ITTTT!! When you first posted about it I was like hmmm idk if this is really my cup of tea? I can't imagine Konig being able to share Engel with anyone else.

But then I read it and I??? I short-circuited and died and went to heaven. I'm telling you - literal WORMS in the brain.

I didn't even know this was something I was into till NOW. The idea of two cute girls being equally as obsessed with each other as they are with Konig??? And them all living together as one big happy (and slightly insane) family?? 😭😭😭 And DON'T even get me started on that ask you recently answered about him wanting to knock them both up at the same time 😭😭 my heart (and 🐱) can't handle it.

But listen, I really like the idea of bestie being the love interest from the shy!feral!AU. The idea of Konig (heavy on Konig) and Engel slowly pspspspsing her into a relationship with them is such delicious thought. I'm a SUCKER for slow burns, and Konig having to work EXTRA hard and be EXTRA patient to get her to accept him?? Dudeee. I'm imagining feral!Bestie would already be pretty comfortable with Engel (considering they're both women, are already friends, have similar interests, etc..) but Konig?? Nuh-uh, not yet. I imagine that she's relatively wary about men in general, but Konig's cockiness, energy, and dominating personality makes her even MORE skittish around him. Eventually she'll come around, with Engel's cooing and coaxing + Konig's awkward, yet endearing, courting gestures (plus she wants to see what he's packing in those pants but hey that's not important).

Eventually when she DOES enter a relationship with them, and subsequently, jump into bed with them, I think it's gonna have to happen with baby steps. By baby-steps (maybe not that babyish of a step hehe) I mean it'll probably be her and Engel on the bed, naked, doing all sorts of fun things like touching, kissing, grinding etc BUTTTTTTT the deal is that Konig has to sit in the corner and watch. Like sorry bud, Engels gotta make sure Bestie is acclimated and comfortable first before you can jump in!! You're gonna have to sit this out (for now) >:3 sorryyyyyy!

Granted, I'm not sure how he'd react to such a proposition, considering he's only allowed to be a spectator, but I think the sight of Engel and feral!Bestie kissing/touching/feeling each other up while making eye contact and moaning about how good the other one feels???? Yeah, no, he's gonna pass out and die. How did he simultaneously get both so cursed and so lucky? Of course they're partially doing all this just to tease him, but imagine them upping the stakes and telling him that if he so much as tries to touch/relieve himself they'll stop altogether??

Sorry I know I've already gone on a rant and should wrap it up soon but the thought of Bestie being seated in Engel's lap, legs wide open on display for Konig, being fingered and kissed by Engel? AND THEM BOTH MAKING EYE CONTACT WITH KONIG WHILE DOING IT????? AND HE'S NOT ALLOWED TO TOUCH HIMSELF????

Nope, he's a goner. He's dead. His dick is gonna explode. Hell, I'M dead too.

Sorry for the rant but this AU has seriously bewitched me - mind, body, and soul!!

I have nothing to add, really, just wanted to set this thing free because it's so beautiful and pure 😭😭😭🩷

[koqabear]

i finished it a while ago and was excited about talking abt it with u but my wifi went out all of a sudden LMAO buttttttt anyways, it came back like super late and now im writing this at like midnight. i have so much to say but so little at the same time bcs im literally just shocked. like pure shock. that was SUCH a rollercoaster??? and since you're tagging these asks as spoilers,, im gonna say it. i did NOT expect oc to kill yeonjun. like it was in the back of my head like "maybe..." bcs it kept on being mentioned about how the jacket was heavy but i dismissed it UGH i should've seen that coming.

and beomgyu literally abt to kill oc, with no sign of hesitation (chills)? APPLAUSE. i've read so many yandere fics and so much romanticize that sickness .. then characterize it as dark romance. ofcourse i get that has its own fans but i do appreciate ones that are more on the realistic side with these psychos (ik this more of a psychological thriller too so ig it was a given for that to be the direction, but still THANK YOU). like hes insane enough and therefore hes capable of killing oc bcs he doesnt see her as a human being at all. so again, I really appreciate that aspect </3

then yeonjun. yeonjun and his fake moral compass. he was trying so hard to hold onto that humanity that he thought he had, and he kept on believing he was superior to others (especially beomgyu in the fic) and it was just...conveyed so well? that final breakthrough at the end when oc tells him hes no better than gyu, and he just...breaks? like he's telling himself hes not, while also trying to kill oc...just like gyu. The ascends to madness was so properly conveyed in that last scene, even though its been implied throughout the whole story that he basically has some sort of inner conflict and lost his moral compass wayyyy earlier. the last part really hit it in the nail, which is just so right for an ending scene.

the last part i want to touch on was the way you utilized oc's pov in the stalker part of the story. its the way i knew beomgyu and yeonjun were the ones literally hiding cameras in her room and have sick fantasies of wanting to own her, yet even with that background knowledge i still suspected soobin. and i still trusted beomjun. MAYBE IT WAS JUST ME??? but idk bro, i was so mad at myself when i pieced everything together the same time oc did. i seriously need to watch out, being gullible will be the death of me T-T but even me being super gullible aside, i think your writing is what really made me doubt soobin the way oc did.. i for sure thought we had another yandere on the loose LMAO.

okay now last last part I PROMISSEEE. i just really like the way you wrote how yeonjun/beomgyu broke her down then used her vulnerability to their advantage. its so sick but its such an easy trap to fall into. like obviously this is fiction and therefore it might be more on the extreme side but the tactics they used are just found literally in everyday abusive relationships and i especially liked how you touched upon the fact that extreme dependency can truly be the downfall of someone. and vulnerability, vulnerability was such a big part of the story!!

so, just last comment towards you. i know you worked hard on it and i wrote this entire essay basically to just emphasize that it paid off. i'm 100% sure you're proud of the work and i truly want you to be PROUDER. this was really, really, really good. i sat down, and read through the entire thing without feeling bored, always on the edge of my seat, enjoying your professional but almost casual way of using words (its literally genius the way you write), and truly this was such a perfect halloween post. thank you for writing, seriously. i honestly wish youd get a few bucks out of this (and im more than willing to give a couple IM BEING FRL) </3

one question since this is basically not an actual ask and me just ranting about how much i love your work: do you think you'll pursue writing professionally? have you thought about it? have you taken classes ? i wanna knowwwww

I’ll address a lot of specific points below, thank you so much! <3

(killing off Yeonjun) -It’s sick, but killing yj off was my favorite part! I knew immediately that this story would be dark, and what better way to end off such an intense scene than giving yj what he deserves? I really hope I was able to catch you guys off guard with that, but I made sure to subtly lead up to it with the jacket thing!!  (Beomgyu + thoughts on the term “yandere”)

-THANK YOU! Lemme just say, thriller holds such a special place in my heart, and making Beomgyu a fucked up character just allowed me to sneak in that action packed scene at the end haha

I was afraid of writing this story initially— the term “yandere” has taken on many different connotations and meanings, some more romanticized than others. My intent was never to paint such a relationship in a happy or cute light— even if they did have their little honeymoon stage where all was “right”, it’s still a toxic and horrible relationship; it’s always bound to fall apart in the end. Plus, Beomgyu and Yeonjun just became so insatiable that simply having her there was never enough— they needed to control her too. 

(Yeonjun + what if mc didn’t put on bg’s jacket?)

-Yeonjun was able to get away with being the better of the two throughout the whole story— so to hear that he wasn’t above everyone else like he so desperately believed, and from the mc no less— it felt like all his efforts were tumbling down, that no matter how hard he tried, it would never be good enough— which was a struggle he had to deal with all his life— it just completely broke the last bit of rationality that he had within him. 

Had the mc not put on bg’s jacket, Yeonjun would’ve killed her, then killed himself shortly after—they would only be discovered weeks later after their families reported them missing, a gruesome scene that would’ve destroyed all their relatives; Soobin’s body would’ve been found soon after, judging by the fact that the evidence is still in the cabin and intact. 

(Soobin the decoy lmao)

-God I feel so proud that I was able to fool some people at least! Soobin’s persisting affection was a key to making it all convincing— those passing comments, all the coddling and endless attempts to woo her, beomjun saw that and used it to their benefit. 

(Use of vulnerability)

-From the start, the mc was already a pretty vulnerable character; she was already away from home with no one else but Yeonjun— which only made her lean into him more and trust him. And because Beomgyu was quick to pick up on that, he knew that the only way to get her more dependent on them was to make her more vulnerable, with her last resort being them; of course, it’s a very drastic depiction, but thank you for noticing <333

(Plans for the future!)

-Thank you so so much :(((( this really means a lot to me, you have no idea. 

I have indeed decided to pursue writing professionally! It’s kind of scary to say, (write) but I hope to be able to succeed and publish books one day <3 it’s ambitious, but you never know!

Thank you sooo so much for this review, thank you for taking your time to write this, you have no idea how much this means to me— seriously, I couldn’t stop rereading all of the reviews i received <3

[bnhaficsforthesoul]

Thanks for tagging me!

I'm tagging @in-ones-existence, @monoma-is-kazoo-kid, and anyone who wants to do it!

you know I'm shipping myself with my boy Shinsou... I went on way too long lmao but it was fun 😊

okay it would take tHE LONGEST TIME for us to end up together, probably even to become friends

since you know hes all 'I'm not here to make friends 😡😡' and I'm v v shy and dont like meeting new people in person

buttttttt then we probably end up as partners in a class, and if I'm forced to be around someone as long as they're not mean then I'll come out of my shell

even so I'm still pretty quiet, and hes quiet, so were just vibing working on our work - but then at some point he says something that let's me start a conversation and he responds

and now were talking!! yay!!

we start talking more and more about video games and music since we have similar tastes when it comes to those

fast forward a few months, we consider ourselves friends

boy you know I'm whipped the day I get him to laugh, I've ascended

I'm too scared to ask him out tho, I'd rather die than end up being rejected - but then by some stroke of luck he asks me out

this is probably during the second or third year honestly, he spent a while not knowing if he wanted to bother asking me out worrying if hed get rejected

as if I'd ever reject this beautiful amazing man

anyways... relationship things now!

neither of us have healthy sleeping schedules. were always gonna be trying to make the other sleep, except I probably sleep more than he does, just during the day cause ya girl naps any chance she gets

both of us being hella clingy cause were both touch starved - so were always cuddling and touching somehow

but even so were both very bad at initiating skinship cause I'm like 'what if he doesnt actually want me touching him' and hes kinda shy about it, but we get used to it after a while

I'd play with his hair a l l t h e t i m e !!! it's so pretty and fluffy I just gotta - also i wanna die my hair purple so catch us with matching hair lmao

we play video games all the time together, anything that looks fun really

we'd probably argue semi often, but it's always very calm arguing cause were both sensitive - I'll cry if he yells, and hell want to cry if I do, so we both know to stay calm before it gets out of hand

hed be super protective of me, hed even make phone calls for me 🥺

wed make fun of each other lovingly all the time, the only person I'd let make fun of me lol

us going out at 3 am for no reason, or maybe to grab food, but were both awake and love the night- so we'd just go on adventures and have fun

also, cats of course. I adore cats, he adores cats, were becoming pet parents no matter what

I have a lot of random moments of 'no one touch me no one look at me no one breath in my direction or else I will freak out' and hed respect that so easily! these times are mainly one of the only times I legit get angry so thank god shinsous calm and quiet enough to just be like 'okay kitten, when you want me close again just let me know'

and bro... every time he calls me kitten I'd DIE on the spot

also... back to the make fun of thing... I'm very easily flustered. like it takes so little to get me blushing and hiding my face behind my hands, and hes mean and would definitely take advantage of that (and then I would challenge him to hand to hand combat even tho I'd definitely lose... hed probably tickle me instead I'm so fucking ticklish sigh)

I have little siblings, 3 biological and 1... honorary? idk what to term it, but hed definitely end up helping me babysit the 3 all the time, and my brothers are super clingy to me only when other people are around, so hed have to deal with them trying to drag me away from him

neither of us really like phone calls, and even if we face time there would probably only be random moments of us showing our faces (I'm big insecure and dont like cameras and hes just lazy), so we prefer to text all the time and only face time if were not able to go see each other

will I go on rants about fictional characters or random things I care about out of nowhere? yes. and hell let me. even if he has no idea what I'm talking about, hes probably just happy to hear me talk passionately about something (I've been told I can be kinda unenthusiastic about things, so hed probably appreciate the enthusiasm)

I will literally cry if hes sad, when he gets upset over people talking shit about him or anything else, I'd be like "imma go beat them up" when in reality I will very much not, but I'll cry and comfort him instead

sir... hand over the hoodies... I'm taking all of them

hes so good with languages and I am begging for him to teach me anything he knows i wanna learn more languages so bad

I'd draw him all the time, hed hate it only cause he doesnt get why I'd want to draw him, but I'd insist it's because hes gorgeous and I love him aha

hed be surprised by how chaotic I actually am since I seem much more laid back, hed have to stop me from doing dumb shit all the time lmao

my best friend will literally call him just to 'warn' him about my craziness - and that he needs to keep me away from demons... and tea

I'll leave it at that lol

Tag Game

RULES: ship yourself with another character and create headcanons for how your relationship would be

Thanks @wesparklebitch for tagging me! This was so much fun 🥰

I tag @antigenius @tamasoft and @hanniejji​ have fun ya’ll 😜

Okay if I met Baku in real life this relationship would be a whole ass MESS

We’d probs skirt around our feelings big time. I’d be way too shy at first and bakugou is… bakugou lol so we’d start off as friends and once i’ve had enough of this back and forth (bc looking back i always end up making the first move even tho i’m super shy??) i’ll just be like “fuck this” and grab that boy by the collar and kiss the fuck outta him

It’ll be soooooooo freaking exhausting the first time we have an intimate talk about our relationship. I’m not the type to lead these discussions especially if it’s a new relationship and like hell bakugou would bring it up first so i’d be emotionally drained by the end, feeling like i have to drag it outta him. But i care enough and i’d do anything for sparky boom boi 😭

Our first date would be something chill like a walk in the park or night out on the beach bc I’m a sucker for the beach at night and bakugou would be a total softy even if he doesn’t show it

listen ya’ll if i had a man who can cook i’d never let him go, i’d def appreciate a nice meal at the end of the day and i’d return the favor with some dessert 😉

But i’m vegetarian so i’d be educating baku, teaching him my fave recipes, and watching documentaries. And in return he’d teach me about fitness, like that boy is RIPPED, don’t tell me he doesn’t hit the gym everyday. 

But I’d probs cry if he ever tried to train me, i’m a big baby and can’t take ppl screaming in my face 😭

But oof the FIGHTS okay most of these would stem from lack of communication. Baku saying something straightforward like it’s a fact, and me being the sensitive soul I am and taking it to heart. 

I’d bottle it up until bakugou’s had enough of my beating around the bush and he’s just like “spit it out already. don’t have all fuckin’ day” and BOOM fight breaks out. 

The only way the fight would get resolved is if we both take time to ourselves to cool down and come back with clear heads

… the sex would be amazing tho