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im a teenager with seasonal depression and a shitty fatigue causing disability and adhd currently still in highschool and: the way you talk abt minors right to autonomy, and How School Sucks, and everything related to that is. The Most Soothing Shit i hear all day. like. reading some of your posts abt how Good graduating early and being a Problem Child was for you was So Damn Calming.
most ppl immediately go to sooth me with the "but you Are smart, and you just need to try harder!! your life isnt entirely ruined today :) just go to school tomorrow and be Good and Learn and you'll be fineee. you aren't one of the bad ones, Dont Worry :))" and that makes me. invent new types of panic attacks and neuroses on the spot.
but having an Actual Adult whos like "no. school can infact be the fucking Torture pit for some people and it is So Utterly Fucked Up how Anyone can make you do Anything, actually. you arent a bad or damaged person this is Normal and your value isnt dependant on Schooliness. do whatever makes you least likely to kill yourself. you dont owe them shit, especially not being Good. be a problem, take up space."
is. genuinely the nicest thing Ever. to me. like. Makes me Kinda Want To Cry nicest thing ever. anyway yea. thanks for that.
ahh, this is lovely to hear. but i'm so sorry you're going through this.
i remember being in high school in 2011 when the gay teen suicides were national headlines, and everyone had Opinions on it, and the "it gets better" trend was everywhere, and -- while those videos did do a lot of good!! -- they just kind of made me more furious?? because i was so mad at all these adults basically saying, "yeah, high school is an institutional pit of death and horror, but eventually you'll be 18!!" i was like hey. Help Us Now.
it was actually the song "make it stop" by rise against that gave me any peace or sense of belonging, because. here was a band i loved full of straight dudes (as far as i know, anyway) who were just fucking MAD. they were righteously angry!! they gave a fuck what was happening!! and lyrics like "the gatherings hold candles but not their tongues" rang SO true to me, as someone who was dealing with endless "oh, so sad he died, but there was something wrong with his brain" discourse.
the memory of that has made it REALLY easy to hold onto my anger in adulthood. because sometimes kids don't need "it'll be fine, just hang on :)" they need "you're gonna be okay, but FUCK ALL THIS."
it's truly fucking Unconscionable to do what we do even to neurotypical, able-bodied teens with good home lives. i want to say i can't imagine being a teen with chronic fatigue and ADHD going to classes eight hours a day.... but i can!! i did that!! and almost died!!
i honestly think the lack of autonomy in the US school system is traumatic For Everybody. different levels of trauma, for sure! but i think that's part of why adults seem so disconnected from our teen years and can't remember the realities of being an adolescent. we overwrite the horrors.
the good news is: it Does get better after school. astonishingly so.
in the meantime: you don't owe anyone Anything. literally your only job right now is to survive. do whatever you need to do to not kill yourself or end up in jail. don't worry about anything else. i promise it Does Not Matter As Much As People Say It Does.
#replies#the jail caveat because some school districts (particularly Black ones) have a pipeline system for truancy#and i do think staying out of juvie needs to be as important a priority as staying alive. for your health#but beyond avoiding jail: fuck 'em. obviously do what you can but if you can't then you can't.#you know your limits better than the adults around you. it's okay to say actually. no. i'm not gonna be a good student anymore.#suicide#trauma#c ptsd tag#tangentially
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so, nerdy loser college boy choso *sighs* *opens legs*
a/n: just so you know, this man is gonna make you do all the hard work for a piece of that loser boy dick đźâđš so... um so at some point around 2000 words in i realised this is way more than a hc post :3 eat it up if you will!
nerdy!choso who borderline has no friends except his gaming buddies who doesnt meet irl like ever. he doesnt like going to classes, especially this one. he doesnt need it but it's a requirement for all first years. and boy is glad it is when he sees you come in.
nerdy!choso who only listens to discussions when you're talking. suddenly he needs to put down his headphones and nod at every word you're saying. his eyes follow every gesture of your hand, every sway of your ass, every single time you fix your hair.
nerdy!choso who is starting to get a bit enamored with you, your style, your way of speaking. he loses track of time gawking at you in class from the last benches as you prettily do all the work in the class. he hates how beautifully your hair falls on your face, how nicely your clothes fit you despite being pretty modest for college. he hates how he can see the silhouette of your tits when you turn to the side. but he's too much of a gentleman to keep looking.
nerdy!choso who ends a game early when he remembers you, lying and saying that he had promised someone to meet them somewhere. the place is his bathroom and the person was you. god, you really shouldn't wear those tight jeans to class y'know? how will he continue to be a gentleman if you do?
nerdy!choso who despises groupwork but prays to dear god this class has some reason to pair you two together. he's getting so desperate to talk to you knowing damn well he too pussy to do it on his own. and the lord answers his prayers, the teacher assigns groups of three for a presentation. it's you, him and some slacking trust fund baby.
nerdy!choso who is about to combust and have a full blown panic attack when he sees you approach him after class with that smile on your face that would make the angels swoon. you're going on about distributing the work equally and what not while he is trying his fucking hardest to not accidently make eye contact with you and piss his pants : (
nerdy!choso who now has your name, your number and your email and he feels like the happiest man on earth. his hands are literally shaking as he responds to your request to call. he's overthinking every word he types.
choso: yeah i can do wednesday. choso: i'll be okay with whatever day you want.
nerdy!choso who hops on video call and short circuits with a view of you in an oversized band tee and a brief view of your room. why did you have to be this pretty? why did you have to video call him when you couldve done the work on text? why did you have to put your hair up like that? why oh why did you have you say "choso? hey, you there?" so seductively to bring him back to the present?
nerdy!choso who gets like no work done in a 30 minute call which felt like three hours. he knew he would hardly be paying attention so decided to record the call with your consent, saying he'd need the notes you were typing out on screen only to play it back and stroke his dick to you for what might've have been the twentieth time this week. his strokes only getting faster as you say his name in that voice he imagines sounds way better moaning and screaming it instead.
nerdy!choso who, after the presentation, is on greeting terms with you when he sees you studying in the library. he sits as far away from you as he can while still being able to see you. occupying the coziest corner of the library to stare at you study right when you come up to him.
"can i join you, choso? i'm all alone and your space seems comfy" you say with a smile, "of course, i dont mean to disturb you, is saw you were on your own too, so..."
uh oh, uh oh, uh oh. god no. please no. please dont say yes. please dont be staring at her like some dumb idiot (too late) please.
"uh... yeah sure why not?" he awkwardly says as he makes room for you to keep your things. he was such an idiot for thinking he could say no to your pretty face in the first place.
nerdy!choso who is absolutely drunk on your scent. it feels way better than any alcohol he's ever had. he feels like an animal in heat when he smells your sugary perfume mixed with the styrofoam-y air conditioned smell of the library. you're gonna kill him, yknow? how is he supposed to respond to this? what is one to do when their stupid college crush sits next to them? he gives you a half smile before furiously typing away on reddit, the only place with answers for losers like him.
nerdy!choso whose hands. oh his hands. (can be i a big whore for a second?) his long hands that feel like they're the size of your face. his kempt, beautiful and trimmed nails. his lengthy fingers that seem to yearn for something more to foddle with than just the keyboard or controller. he typed as such an insane pace it made your pussy ache. he was going so fast, jesus. those hands were meant to do more than just ask "how to talk to girls" on reddit.
nerdy!choso who (on the advice of reddit) asks if you would want him to order something for you. you tell you had a frappuccino not too long ago and that it was quite sweet and filling. and he hates himself for thinking that he could give you something much sweeter and filling than that like a horny fourteen year old.
nerdy!choso who is now determined to not come off as a creep so he does his work with the focus of four adderalls. he is typing as fast as his heartbeat, not realising he got two classes worth of work done in just an hour. he looks over at you, blissfully unaware of the absolute war in his mind.
nerdy!choso who feels as though if he doesn't muster up the courage to ask you out right then and there, he'll probably be the biggest loser on the planet. (as if he wasn't already)
nerdy! pathetic! choso who stutters a million times and barely gets the job done then too. his eyes are scanning your entire being (trying his best to not gawk at your tits) for any sign of discomfort.
"so- uhh so ummm... wo-would you, like, uh... like to do this again? sometime?... i got a.. a lot of work done today, so.."
oh heavens, the sheer nervousness in his tone makes you want to pull his pants down and show him how to really get work done.
you agree with a smile, even suggesting a better, more ambient (more romantic) cafe to study in. choso's heart is about to burst and flood the fucking library with his blood the way it is beating at an alarming rate.
"umm yeah uh 5 sounds... awesome... i hope it isn't a-a bother to you?" "no way, choso. i loved today," you offer him a smile as you gather your things, "i really like your hair, by the way" "i like your hair too, y-y-you smell very nice", he gulps.
fuck. why did he say that? what? you smell nice? who says that? is he like ten? you can't help but giggle at the sheer embarassment on his face.
he feels as though he's gonna melt into a puddle and turn to stone and throw up all at the same time.
nerdy!choso who is the most stupidly hot guy you've ever met, you think as you go giggling back to your dorm. mental note: pick a skimpy outfit for 5pm ;)
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He Doesn't Realize How Much he Needs You Until You're Gone Part One- Dabi
A/n: 100th writing I've posted :3
I hope you like it haha.
General info:
Genre: pure angst \\ wc: 2,425 \\ female reader \\ posted: 06/06/24
Warnings!: arguing, neglect, pure angst, crying, yelling, screaming, hurt, feeling betrayed, injuries (reader gets burned- not by Dabi), pushing your partner away (both parties), feeling worthless, feelings being discarded, mention of therapy, thoughts of leaving, thoughts of death, fear of a loved one dying, numbing your emotions, Dabi raging (burning things), leaving, partner being very tsundere, mention of blood (Dabi's tears), regret, guilt, becoming a husk, I think that's all haha. Pls lmk if I miss anything! <33
I will post two endings, one with angst and one with fluff. Lmk if you want to be tagged!
Tears roll down your cheeks as you spam Dabi with texts. You had just gotten into an argument with your beloved when he stormed out, cursing you out.
"Please." You quietly plead, your voice broken with sobs. "Don't leave me."
All of your texts remain unread. All your calls declined. You were having a panic attack by now, yet nothing seemed to get the villain's attention.
Just as you're about to completely lose it, you hear footsteps. Your freeze, listening with an indescribable intensity. The window opens. Your eyes dart to the activity.
Familiar black combat boots peek through the gap, falling to the floor. Your eyes travel up the familiar torn jeans, the worn out t-shirt, the burned neck, the crooked frown, and finally to the comforting turquoise eyes.
You let out a sob of relief as you see your Dabi standing in front of you. He looks down at you, grimacing.
"What happened to you?" He scoffed.
"I-I was worried." Your voice was hoarse and broken from your sobs.
"Worried?" He grunts. "You're more idiotic than I thought." He groans, grabbing the sandwich you made before the argument.
"I-I thought you were leaving me."
"I'm not gonna leave ya. No matter how annoying you are." He scoffs.
Annoying....
Your mind repeats the word several times, your face stiffening as you numb your emotions.
"Sorry..." you mumble.
"Don't start that pouty crap." He scoffs, shooting you a glare. "I'm tired of you being such a bother. I have so much to deal with. Your pathetic emotions isn't on my list."
You quietly fold your arms, moving to the couch. You watch Dabi silently, taking deep breaths to contain your emotions.
"I'm leaving for a mission tonight. I'll be back before next week."
His voice was less harsh, but nowhere near as warm as usual.
"O-okay.." you mumble, fidgeting with your sleeves. He rolls his eyes with a scoff, stomping into your shared bedroom.
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"I'm leaving now, brat."
You scramble to your feet, swiftly moving to his side. You lean up, hoping for a kiss as you ever so slightly pucker your lips.
You know your husband. He will notice... won't he?
His cold eyes move down to your lips. He grunts, turning around and leaving. "See ya later, brat. Don't be pouting when I get home, you hear?" He mutters, hauling himself through the window.
He always came in and out through the back window... it would be bad if your neighbors caught a highly wanted villain in your apartment.. hence the sneaking.
You've lived together for over a year now, you've moved four times now.
"Wait-" you call out, reaching out to your husband. His cold gaze burns into you.
"Um- a-aren't you going to... going to.."
"Spit it out, woman."
"Aren't you going to.. kiss me?" You blush. Dabi scoffs.
"Don't expect needles privileges after your attitude yesterday."
"Attitude?! Do you mean our argument?" You protest.
"Here it goes again." He groans. "You're always complaining and refusing to take accountability."
"Thats nonsense." You clench your fists, trying to suppress your emotions. Tears burned your eyes, but you refused to let them shed.
"What's nonsense is your attitude. You can't even keep me around now can ya? Your attitude always drives me off! I wonder why I ever married you in the first place. You give me attitude and then act like I'm the victim. Pathetic."
Tears well in your eyes. You bite your lip. "I won't ask for anymore from you." You whisper.
"Good. Keep it that way." He lands outside, shrugging his shoulder before walking off with an nonchalant attitude.
You close the window, leaning against the wall as you try to slow down your breathing. Tears fall down your cheeks as you curl in a ball, feeling hurt, angry, betrayed, and worthless.
The days pass by as you wait for Dabi to return. You didn't hear from him, and he was gone far longer than he said he would be. Every text was left unread, every call ignored, every voice-mail left un-listened to.
Eventually, you stopped trying. You got a therapist, and ended up deciding on what was best for you. When he comes home, if he doesn't treat you better, if he doesn't even listen or try to change, its better for you to leave. Even if it was just for a little bit.
Days turn into weeks, and weeks blur into months. Many nights you lay awake, doubting yourself. Doubting your worth.
It killed you inside. Your self esteem plummeted. You stopped going to therapy. All you wanted was your husband. Your husband's love, his validation, his touch, his mere presence.
Curled in a ball, you stared at the wall with a blank expression. Horrid scenarios went through your head as you imagine your poor husband alone, injured, and dying.
Tears blur your vision as you imagine him already dead, his loving soul leaving this world without even telling you goodbye. You hadn't even gotten a kiss. Or an I love you.
The tears don't stop. And they didn't as the hours slowly pass by. You felt like ripping your hair out, screaming, hitting, throwing things- anything to get your mind off of your husband's doomed death.
The window opens. Your eyes dart towards the unlocked glass pane. Combat boots pokes through. You gasp in relief.
A worn, exhausted, injured, and in pain figure follows the boots. Revealing your beloved, Dabi. You let out a small sob, launching yourself at him.
You close your eyes in relief as you feel his warm chest, the familiar staples bringing you comfort. As you move to open your eyes you feel a hand to your shoulder, your backside hitting the floor.
You look up in shock, Dabi looking down at you in disgust.
"I thought you said you wouldn't ask anymore from me." He scoffed. You grab your arm, holding it to your chest.
"I-" you start.
"I really don't want to hear it. Just let me rest." He groans. You slowly lift yourself off of the floor, silently moving into your shared bedroom.
You curl in a ball, hiding under the sheets. You hear him walking around outside of the room, silently listening. Tears blur your vision once more. You cover your mouth, tightly closing your eyes.
You shake with sobs, doing your very best to stay quiet. You can't help but feel worthless. Tears stream down your cheeks as you listen to your husband's familiar footsteps, glad he's safe at the minimum...
Hours pass by as you cry yourself to sleep, your stray tears staining your cheeks.
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Dabi's POV
Dabi strolls into your shared bedroom. "Oi, make me a sandwich will ya?" He grunts. Yiu don't move, irritating him.
He moves to your side, snatching the blanket. "I said-" he stops as he sees you asleep, tears stained on your cheeks. A strange pain dtabs at his chest. Shaking it off, he drops the blanket.
Staring at you, he gently cups your cheek, pressing his lips to yours in a gentle kiss. He pulls away, caressing your cheek. "I've missed you. Even though you're a pain." He whispers before pulling away.
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Your POV
The next morning
You blink open your eyes, rubbing at the lingering sleepiness. Yawning, your eyes lazily run over the room. The curtains were hiding the small bedroom from sunlight, the entire room encompassed in darkness.
Sitting up, you rub your puffy eyes once more. Dabi was no where near sight. Sighing, you absent-mindedly trace the bruise on your arm where you fell.
Your heart aches as you remember your therapist's words. This isn't healthy. It needs to stop...
The door opens, revealing Dabi. "Finally awake, sleepy head?" His voice wasn't the cold growl like last night, but it was no where near gentle.
You nod, timidly. Afraid of upsetting him once more.
"I'm starving. Want to make breakfas..?" This was his way of asking you to. If you agreed, there would be no thank you, for you "wanted" to.
If you said no, he would be irritated for a while. He won't cook, no matter how many times you beg him to while you're away, so he will oftenly go without eating if you're unavailable or refuse to cook.
Biting your lip, you nod. He gives you a short grimace, something similar to a small smile before walking out. Standing up, you yawn, stretching your arms. Your eyes ache from all the crying, but you push that to the back of your mind.
You walk out to the kitchen, beginning to cook. You feel Dabi's eyes on you, but you don't pay much attention. You were guarded, unsure why he's acting so differently this morning. Cautious of unleashing the monster once more.
"Dabi?" You murmur. He grunts in response.
"I talked to a therapist when you were on your mission..."
"A therapist? What for? Did you leak my identity?!" He snaps.
"No, I didn't. I was really struggling for a while and needed someone to help me."
"So you relied on a stranger?!"
"You wouldn't answer. I called, texted, I left voice-mails."
"Oh so you think that your crappy attempt to get my attention justifies getting help from a stranger!? Was he a guy?! Were you sleeping with him?!"
"What?! No! I would never!"
"Then what were you doing with them?!"
"I was getting help for my mental state, Dabi!"
"Oh poor baby, you think being lonely justifies that?!"
"You're being unreasonable. Dabi she told me it was best for me to leave you if you keep treating me like this. I'm telling you this so you can wake up and change. This isn't okay." You snap, taking a deep breath to calm yourself.
"Leave me?!" He laughs. "You wouldn't. You can't live without me."
"You've been making me live without you for months, Dabi. You don't tell me you love me, you don't show me affection, I'm lucky just to have you not yell at me!"
"You're being dramatic." He spits. "You're a spoiled brat. I've been working my arse off for you and you're this ungrateful."
"You've been working for revenge! It's not for me, it never was! I have my own job that pays for all or our bills Dabi!"
"You're listening to a stranger's advice and plan on leaving me?!"
"Only if you don't change Dabi!"
"You knew what you were getting into when you married me, y/n. Stop playing the victim."
"You didn't treat me like this when we first married."
"Keep telling yourself that." He spits, putting his jacket on.
"Where are you going?!" You cry, the food far from recovery, you hazardously shove the pan into the sink, burning your hand. You cry out in pain.
"Y/n!" Dabi yells, hurrying your side. He aggressively graps your hand, making you cry out once more. "Idiot! Why did you hurt yourself like that?!"
"Just leave me alone!" You try to yank your hand away but Dabi yanks it back.
"Stay still!"
"Let me go Dabi!"
"Y/n just sit still!!"
You push him back, protectively pressing your injured hand to your chest. "I said to let me go!"
Dabi's face scrunches up as he looks down at you. After a few silent moments he turns away. "I'm over you and your dramatic act." He mumbled.
Walking to the door, he pulls his combat boots on. "Don't leave!" You cry, coddling your burning hand.
He ignores you, moving to the window. "Dabi! If you leave without us finishing this I'm leaving."
"Go for it. I don't need you. I never did." He sneered.
Your heart throbbed as your beloved husband jumped through the open window, not looking back. Falling to your knees you break into sobs.
You cry over the absence of your beloved, you cry over the pain, and you cry over the dreaded feeling of being completely alone.
You don't stop for hours. It goes on and on until your completely out of tears, numb to the feeling of utter loss. Your hand aches. Your eyes aches. Your heart aches.
It all just- hurts.
You slowly drift to sleep, the cold kitchen floor being the only thing that grounds you from the pain of betrayal.
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Dabi's POV
Three days later.
Dropping from the window Dabi nonchalantly glances around the room. It seemed unusually cold an empty. Paying it no mind, Dabi hazardly tossed his jacket and boots towards the front door.
"Y/n, I'm home." He calls, running his hands through his greasy hair, his roots were growing out. Rolling his eyes, he opens the fridge. It was... empty.
"Y/n!" He calls once more, huffing in annoyance. "I get home and can't even eat?!"
No response. "For Pete's sake you petty brat! Get out here!"
Silence.
Anger fills his being before he remembers your words before he left. A strange pain shoots through him, his eyes widen as he runs into your shared bedroom. Everything of yours was... gone.
His heart quickens as he searches the entire house for you. Nothing. Not even a trace. His breathing quickens as he pulls at his hair. Taking a shuddering breathe, he shakes his head.
"You'll regret this y/n... you'll be back and I'll laugh in your face!" He chuckles, losing a bit of his sanity. "I DON'T NEED YOU! YOU'LL SEE!" He screams, activating his quirk as he knocks over a chair. He let's out a scream, lighting anything and everything in sight on fire.
Months pass by. Dabi has turned into a shell, simply surviving. Work, sleep, work, sleep, work... a "good" day is when he remembers to eat or drink. A shower or change of clothes is out of mind.
Walking through the streets, he walks inside the charred apartment. Stepping inside, he closes the door. He doesn't care about his identity anymore, or anything really.
His turquoise eyes scan the apartment, his eyes landing on a photo of you and him. His heart strangely aches once more. "Y/n..." he murmured, his fists clenching.
Falling to his knees, he lets out a broken sob. His eyes burn, tears would be running if they could. Blood drips from his charred tear ducts. He falls to the floor face first, nothing but his beloved wife on his mind.
How could he be so stupid?! How could he be so utterly retarted?! He lost the one thing in this world that actually loved him. Grasping his phone, he dials your number.
Please. Please pick up... please... I need you...
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ââ EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE.
SIMON "GHOST" RILEY X FEM!READER
summary the aftermath of the mission that almost causes the loss of your life.
cw description of a panic attack (reader has one), canon codmw2 violence & mentions of it, feeeeeeelingssssss, hurt/comfort, atp mutual pining & idiots in love. NON-DESCRIPTIVE READER. TELL ME IF I MISSED ANYTHING!!!!
note some people asked for part two, sooooo!!! i delivered :)
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When you opened your eyes, it was because of the horrid images that haunted your eyelids. You woke with a gasp and a ripple of pain spreading through your whole body. The room was dark and cold, but you felt the soft mattress underneath you begging to swallow your exhausted body.Â
It all came to you slowly. The mission, the men trying to escape with your team's hidden car, you leaving your post and sneaking behind them, fighting them, and managing to get stabbed two times. The pain in your side was becoming more and more apparent now.
A flash of Ghost holding you in his arms makes you tense. He'd come to your rescue. Called you darling. Held you in his arms and reassured you that you'd be okay. You're fine. Nothing that can't be fixed. I can fix it.
Your heart fluttered, and your gaze blurred with tears. It wasn't right to have a crush on your superior, but you couldn't help yourself. Everything about Simon Riley fascinated youâfrom his continuous silences and intense glares to his very attractive build. You didn't need to see his face to know he was drop-dead gorgeous. The mask was one of the things that made Ghost even hotter.Â
But it was wrong. Ghost's your lieutenant, your superior, and there was no way he'd ever feel the same way about you anyway. You doubt he could feel love sometimes. He cared for his team, that's for sure, but this line of work didn't allow deep and romantic sentiments.Â
The jiggle of the door handle snapped you out of your thoughts. You jumped, causing your wounds to throb. A poorly contained whimper escaped your lips. Your heart sped up in fear, and your left hand tried to look for the knife strapped to your left thigh.
Fuck, it's not there.Â
The silhouette slips in, and you swear your heart feels about to leap from your throat. A tear slides down your cheek as the man approaches your side. Shit, he's here to kill you. Finish you for what you did to his companions.
In your panicked haze and blurred gaze, you don't hear Simon calling your name. You see him set down a tray next to your head, and fuckâhe's going to torture you first? Where the fuck is Ghost? Soap? Gaz?Â
"K-Kyle?" You try, but your voice is hoarse and not as loud as intended.
Your gaze falls to the door, and you call Johnny's name. Then Simon's. You plead, but it's still not loud enough. More tears slide down your face, your ears ring, and your body shakes under the blanket.
"âocus! Focus on me, Owl! You're safe here!" The man calls your name. "I'm not gonna hurt ya, darlin'."
Darlin'.
Darlin'. Darlin'!
Ghost.
And suddenly, the ringing in your ears subsides, and panic isn't bubbling hot in your blood. You feel his hands now, touching your bare shouldersâcold fingers touching scorching skinâshaking you to pull you out of your living nightmare.
"It's okay, lovie. S'alright. You're alright." He shushes you, sitting next to your feet.
"Help me up," you whisper.
Ghost reluctantly helps you sit up, gently touching your wrists. He towers over you to adjust the thin pillows on your back. Your gaze never leaves him. He's rid himself of the tactical vest, only wearing his tight-as-shit shirt, pants, and of course, his balaclava. Thank fuck, it's not the skull one. You melt at how he cares for you, despite you having fucked up the whole operation.
He grabs a bottle of water from the tray, and you have to remind yourself that it doesn't carry torture devices. The man in front of you is Lieutenant Simon "Ghost" Riley, not the enemy. You gulp the water greedily like you've been walking in the desert under the scorching heat for hours.
"Want another one?" He asks. You shake your head.
There's a pause. The silence isn't tense but not comfortable. The nagging guiltâfrom both of youâholds you back from being truly open with each other.Â
You should've never left your post. The team would've been able to escape without the car anyway. Your thoughts are never-ending.
Simon wants to punch himself. He shouldn't have had to carry you to the car. The guilt of letting you get hurt punctured a hole in his chest.Â
A sniff brought him back. "I'm sorry."
He looks at you. Stares at you with those emotionless eyes, and you hate it. You hate that you can't guess what he's thinking. You'd fucked up that much is true.
"Fuckâ" You hiccup and look away from him. "I didn't mean to. I panicked. I thoughtâI don't know what I thought. I'm sorry, Ghost, trulyâ"
"What're you sorry for?" His hard tone startles you.
You look at him, confused more than ever. "I fucked up the mission. Got hurt in the process too. We would've been in base by now had it not been for my fuck-up."
"You protected the team."
"No, I put my team and this mission in jeopardy."
"You took care of a threat, Sargeant." His tone was final. "You did your job. Greatly."
You inhale deeply, your eyes meeting Simon's. His gaze is like stone, but you can see the glint of pride he has for you.
"I was so scared." Fuck you for tearing up again. You felt weak.
You look down at your hands. The light slipping through the open door allows you to see the dark colour they have. Your bloodâGod, you hope it's yoursâstains your palms and reaches up to your wrists.
"I told you I'd fix it," Simon says, and you melt at his words. "Fixed you up pretty good, all things considered."Â
It makes you laugh. The timing isn't great, but the chuckle escapes before you can stop it.
"Thank you, Ghost. I owe you big time."
He shakes his head. "Don't mention it. I'm your Lt. I'm supposed to keep you safe and alive."
Lt.Â
I'm your Lt.
It stings. You want him to call you darling and lovie again. You purse your lips and nod your head, feeling awkward thinking such thoughts with him present.
"Thank you." You pause, looking for something to ask Ghostâso he doesn't leave. You can't be alone right now. "Where are we?"
"Deep in the woods. They can't find us here."
Pursing your lips, you nod, feeling relieved. The silence returns, and Ghost exhales. "That's soup and meds for the pain. Not much, though. I don't want you passing out."
He stands to leave, and you jump, completely forgetting about the stitched wounds. "Where are you going?" Simon stills at the fear in your voice.
"Leaving?"
It comes out as a questionânot what he'd intended. He was fighting the urge to show you how scared he'd beenâand still isâafter almost having you dead in his arms. The sentimental feelings toward you are growing stronger every second he spends with you, and it's dangerous. He has to stop permitting himself to feel. To hope that one day you'll feel the same for him. God, he feels like a teenager just thinking these thoughts.
But how can he not hope? When you look at him with wide, terrified eyes, swimming in unshed tears. When you're gripping the bowl of soup, he made carefully just for you, silently pleading with him to sit a tad bit longer.
He can see your lips tremble, but you hide it well by pursing them. The words are on your tongue, but you can't bring yourself to ask him to stay because fuck. How much more can you ask from this man? He saved you, patched you up, made you food, and now you wanted him to stay, purely out of fear. It's embarrassing to request this, especially in your line of work.
So, Simon decides to do it for you. "Unless you want me to stay?"
Your expression is shocked, but you eagerly nod before he can change his mind. You scooch to make room for his big frame on the small bed, and he actually manages to lay next to you, a hand draped on the bedframe to pull you closer.
You feel safe. Simon tends to make people feel this way. It's not only his large frame but how he carries himself and shows affection to the people he cares about. It doesn't matter if you talk or stay silentâhe prefers silenceâGhost's presence is relaxing enough for you to eat your soup and drink your meds.
And when you finish, he grabs the bowl and places it next to him. When you start to drift off and snuggle closer to steal his warmth, he forces his tense shoulders to loosen and pulls you closer. He kisses the top of your head, and your hair tickles his cold nose even through his balaclava.
He knows his back will ache from the uncomfortable position he's sitting in, but he doesn't care because you're alive. Alive and safe. In his arms. And it's all that matters right now.
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safety first | boone x fem!reader
Pairing: Boone x Fem!Reader Summary: After a close call during a chase, you have a panic attack and Boone helps you through it and keeps you company afterwards. Warnings: Reader has a panic attack, slight PTSD/trauma references Word Count: 1.6k A/N: I've been wanting to write for Boone forever and finally I am here posting something for him. I love his character so much and this was fun to write. I'm definitely gonna be writing more for him in the future so please send in any requests for him (as well as other Twisters characters, of course)! I should be asleep right now cause I have work early in the morning but here I am, yet again being head over heels for the Twisters characters... anyway, enjoy! đ
Six months ago, you had walked up to Boone and Tyler, standing around the truck waiting to head out on a chase, and told them that you were riding with them today.
Unsurprisingly, that hadnât gone very well.
Ever since youâd joined the Wranglers, your job had been simple â stay with Dexter and Dani at a safe distance away from the tornadoes and edit the videos for YouTube. But you always felt like something was missing. That you couldnât properly edit the videos to capture the true chaos of storm chasing if you werenât experiencing it too.
Boone and Tyler had been incredibly against the idea, trying to convince you to stay with Dexter and Dani or even just ride with Lily if you wanted more of a thrill, but you hadnât budged and eventually, theyâd come around.Â
They had only one condition: whenever you rode with them, there would be absolutely no driving into tornadoes. Theyâd get closer than Dexter and Dani, but not close enough that you could be seriously injured if something went wrong.
Technically it had been a condition of Booneâs but Tyler had agreed with it and you had too, realising that accepting it was your only chance at getting closer to the storms.
Today, however, things had gotten a little too close for comfort. Everything had been going to plan at first. The storm was a good one and when the tornado touched down, you were close enough to get a great view of it without being in the path.Â
But then the conditions changed and with them, the direction of the tornado changed as well.Â
You tried your best not to think about it as you washed your hair in the motel, enjoying the feeling of the hot water on your aching body. It had shaken you up enough when it had happened, you didnât need to dwell on it any longer.
Just as you turn the taps off you hear a knock on the bathroom door.Â
âNo rush, but you nearly done in there?âÂ
Booneâs voice. The two of you were sharing a room at the motel. Everyone had paired off when youâd arrived and since youâd been the last one to grab your stuff, you also got the last room, which ended up being with Boone.
Not that you minded. Boone was a good roommate.
âJust about!â You call back, hurrying to dry off and get dressed so you can get out of the bathroom and let Boone have it.Â
When you come out of the bathroom, towel drying your hair, Boone is sat on one of the two beds, feet kicked up comfortably. Your laptop is on his lap and by the sounds coming from it, heâs going over footage.
âYou stealinâ my job, Boone?âÂ
He flashes you a grin. âOh, Iâd never. Gotta keep my girl around.âÂ
You ignore the butterflies that erupt in your stomach and cross the room towards him, perching on the bed beside him and taking a glance at the screen. He hands you the laptop as he pushes himself up and off the bed.Â
âThought we could go over it together since weâre roomies for tonight,â Boone suggests. âIâll shower and then we can try and get a start on the edit if ya donât fall asleep on me first.â
You nod, happy about the idea of having someone else there to go over the footage with because of the stress of the day, and try your best to get comfy on the bed while he heads into the bathroom.
It doesnât take long for curiosity to get the better of you, though, and you tap the space bar, making the video continue playing where Boone had stopped it.Â
Itâs honestly a little strange, watching the footage from a different angle of what youâd experienced from the back seat. Itâs easy to admit that the chase today was the first time you were actually, genuinely afraid while chasing.
You watch the way the windscreen wipers catch on the windscreen, the debris and branches hitting it as Tyler tries to get you out of the path as quickly as possible. You can hear the sound of the wind rushing against the truck in the video, the rain pelting against the side of it and the feeling of the truck moving with the wind while Tyler desperately tries to keep control of it.Â
Itâs not until your breathe catches in your throat that you realise your heart is beating way too fast and your breaths are coming too quickly, too heavily. All of a sudden it feels like you canât breathe anymore. Like thereâs no more air to breathe at all.
You have no idea how long youâre sitting there, struggling to breathe, until you feel the bed dipping underneath you with the weight of someone sitting on it â Boone.
âHey, baby you gotta breathe, câmon,â Boone gently rests a hand on one of your knees in an attempt to help ground you again, thumb stroking it softly. âCan you look at me, baby?â
It takes all your strength to move your eyes from the now paused video on the laptop screen and up to Booneâs eyes. You have no memory of pausing it and realise that it mustâve been Boone who did it for you.Â
Boone looks relieved when you meet his eyes.
âThatâs it,â he nods. âCan you breathe with me? In and out, slowly. Iâll count with you, okay? One, two, threeâŠâ He breathes with you, taking long, deep breaths until you start to follow him.
You finally start to feel your heat beat start to steady and your breathing slowing down. But with it, you feel a little light-headed thanks to the hyperventilation.Â
Boone continues counting with you until your breathing is back to normal. You squeeze your eyes shut and take another long, deep breath. âIâm sorry. I donât know what happened.â Your voice sounds weak, even to your own ears, so you canât imagine how it sounds to him â or how your lie sounds. You know exactly what happened and you know Boone does too.
He shakes his head. âDonât apologise, âkay? Youâre all right, youâre safe. Nothinâs gonna happen to you, I promise.â
Youâre a little afraid to open your eyes again, not wanting to see the image still paused on the screen of the laptop, worried that it might bring back the panic youâd just fought so hard to get rid of, but itâs almost like Boone can read your mind.
âI closed the laptop, baby. You can open your eyes.â
Carefully, you blink them open and see the closed laptop sitting on the bed beside you. âThank you,â you mutter. âBut⊠wait, no, Boone, I need to start editing.â
Boone strokes a thumb over your knee. âDex and Dani can do it. Youâre not doinâ this one, âkay?â He pauses. âYou wanna talk about it?â
You look at him for a moment before shaking your head. If you even try to talk about it, youâre not sure that youâll be able to keep calm and the last thing you want is to have another panic attack in front of Boone, even though you know he wouldnât judge you for it.
âItâs all right,â he assures you. âHonestly, kinda scared the shit outta me today too but probably for a different reason than yours.â He laughs a little, more at himself than at anything else.
âYou donât get scared by tornadoes,â you say.
Boone flashes you a smile. âNo, but I do get worried about you, baby.âÂ
Your eyebrows knit together and youâre just about to ask Boone to elaborate on why he gets so worried about you when he cuts you off, once again almost like heâs reading your mind.Â
âNot today,â he says. âSome other time when youâre not shakinâ like a leaf.â Boone shuffles to sit up beside you, wrapping an arm around your shoulder and tugging you into his side. He kicks the laptop out of the way towards the end of the bed. âCâmon, try and get some rest.â
âIâm not going to sleep on you,â you shake your head. âThis bed is tiny.â
âDonât care,â Boone says, resting his head against the back of the headboard. âIâm not movinâ till youâre fast asleep and gettinâ some well needed rest.â
You stare up at him. âBoone, youâve had a big day, too.â
âBaby,â Boone looks down at you, his eyes serious. âWill you stop arguing with me and just try and get some sleep? Today was just a normal Tuesday for me, but it wasnât for you.â
You sigh and rest your head on his shoulder, letting silence fall over you for a few moments. âI actually canât sleep while my hair is still wet or Iâll feel gross in the morning.â Your words are quick, not wanting to irritate Boone any more.
Boone, however, hears every single one of them. He lets out an annoyed huff â even though heâs not annoyed at you in the slightest â and moves to slide off of the bed.
âWhere are you going?â You sit up, slightly alarmed and already missing the warmth of his body beside yours.
âDonât think Iâm lettinâ you ride in the truck with us next time, baby,â he starts, changing the topic as he walks into the bathroom. âI know you wanna be up in the action more often to help with the videos, but you being safe is more important than getting views on Youtube.âÂ
âBooneââ
He emerges from the bathroom holding the motel hairdryer. âIs there a plug beside the bed?â He asks, wandering back over to you. âIâm gonna dry your hair for you. No arguing.â
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One where Jude and his girlfriend/wife go for a swim and sheâs scared? Thanks!
TLDR: Wife!reader x JudeBellingham on holidays, but he doesn't know about your fears.
Word count + info: 2.3k! Blurb! Tiny bit of Spanish incorporated, some dialogue too : )
Warnings + Content Ahead: SFW! Mention of Thalassophobia + a panic attack, if that is a trigger, proceed w caution!! Otherwise, nothing more : ).
Azzie Notes â: HI!! First ever Jude ask here! I'm sorry it took me a while to get around to this req, anon! I hope I did it justice for you, I was struggling with writer's block for this prompt for some time, thinking how to flesh it out.
Also, I made a twitter ( @azziegivesafike !!) Feel free to follow and msg me about non requests there, I'll be posting life updates, story + req updates and spoilers/teasers alongside other things, so it'd be nice to have a community over there!
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Waves - J.B.
The sun hung high and lazily over the quiet Mediterranean countryside, casting long shadows on the rolling hills of olive trees and wildflowers. You and Jude had stolen away from the world, far from the roars and pressures, to a little coastal town where time felt like it had slowed down and life felt more gentle. Judeâs off-season was sacred, a time for just the two of you, to reconnect without the distractions of football, press, and the ever-present hum of expectations. No obligations. No noise. Just love.
It wasnât out of character for Jude to plan some sort of surprise during your time together. Sometimes it was a romantic dinner; other times, it was a helicopter ride over a city. But this time, he had gone a step further, maybe even a step in the wrong direction.
You walked hand in hand down to the dock, the scent of saltwater thick in the air. Jude was rambling on, his voice bright with excitement. He had planned a surprise: a yacht, just for you two, to spend the day on the open sea. His voice lilted with that familiar Birmingham cadence, thick and warm like the breeze that carried your laughter.
âIâm tellinâ ya,â he said, his eyes glimmering as he spoke. âPre-season training campâs gonna be intense, but Iâm already buzzinâ for it. New lads seem sound, and weâve got a proper chance at the title this year.â His hand squeezed yours as you neared the marina, the glint of the water stretching endlessly ahead. âBut none of that matters now. Today, itâs just you and me.â
You smiled at him weakly, though your heart had already started its familiar, uneasy thud in your chest. The yacht, sleek and pristine, bobbed gently on the water. All you could see was the endless expanse of ocean beyond, that shimmering surface stretching far beyond the horizon.
You had been trying to get better, to be better, to manage your fear. But this was a step far out of your comfort zone. You're not really sure what or when your fear of water had really sunk into you but all you could remember was that prickly, hot, sickly feeling when you stood near a deep pool or saw videos of massive waves engulfing everything around it. The anxiety is all too familiar, the numbness in your body taking over each time.
With Jude, youâd started dipping your feet into pools, sometimes even wading up to your hips, standing at the shallow end of Judeâs villa pool in Spain. But that had taken everything, deep breaths, quiet pep talks, and the promise that you were safe. It made you feel awful seeing Jude splash around, wide-smiled and unafraid, while you sat by, fearing you might accidentally fall into the pool if you dangled too far in. You felt as though you might even hold him back in that sense. You had convinced yourself that in this bubble with Jude and his quiet and still pool, you were secure and okay.
But here, staring at the open sea, none of that safety was present. Still, Judeâs excitement was infectious, his beaming smile too bright to dim with your fears, his big brown eyes shining. You bit your lip, your fingers twitching in his as your pulse began to race.
Jude caught up in his excitement had barely noticed. He was a great husband, always attentive but his excitement overcame was overcoming all his senses and thoughts.
âJust wait âtil weâre out there,â he said as you boarded the yacht, the sun catching the sea in dazzling shards of light. âYouâll love it. The waterâs clear, you can see the coral and fish. Itâs so perfect. No one or nothing around, just us.â
You stepped aboard, the fabric of your sundress flowing in the salty breeze, trying to focus on his voice, his plans for the afternoon, his talk of peace and quiet. But as the boat moved further from the dock, the tether to the land slipped further from view, replaced by the endless, glassy water that stretched on all sides. The small town grew minuscule in the distance as if it was swallowed entirely by the rippling waves.
The boat stopped near a small private swimming spot, the crystal-clear water below revealing hints of vibrant coral and fish darting below the surface. You could see Judeâs eyes light up as he gazed down at the water, his joy palpable. He blabbered on about all sorts of fish he could see, how quick they were, how clear the water was; all of it wasted on your deaf ears as you tried to slow your breathing for the umpteenth time. You could barely nod along, but your heart now thundered in your chest, trying desperately to ground yourself in the conversation.
âUh-huh, and whatâs the coral like? Pretty?â you forced out, voice thin and tight.
Jude grinned, already pulling off his shirt, his skin gleaming in the sunlight. âYeah, proper beautiful down there. Youâve gotta come in with me, babe. Youâll love it.â He gestured to the water as he stood on the edge of the boat, his excitement undiminished. âLook how clear it is!â
You gently rose and glanced down at the water, the clarity revealing the depths below, a whole world of coral, fish, and sand. Your breath caught.
How far down does it go? Whatâs lurking beyond what you can see?
The distance between you and the ocean floor felt infinite as you stood a few steps from the edge, a chasm of the unknown. You tried to distract yourself, to hold onto the sound of Judeâs voice.
âI think Iâll stay here,â you called back, your voice small, like it might shatter if you pushed too hard. âIâm good on the boat.â
But Jude had already dived in, his sleek form cutting through the water, disappearing for a moment before resurfacing with a joyful whoop. He tread water effortlessly, his laughter echoing across the calm sea. âBabe, youâve gotta feel this, itâs like bathwater! Perfect day for a swim!â
Your stomach churned as you watched him, so comfortable in a place that made you feel so small. The water cradled him, bright and blue and endless, while you stood on the deck, now tiptoeing towards the edge, gripping the railing like it was your last anchor to safety. Your knuckles were white and your hands clammy as you peered down. The gentle sway of the boat beneath your feet seemed to pull you toward the water, a slow, inevitable tug that made your head spin. It was almost as though it was mocking you, the waves teasing you, the fish swimming in hypnotic patterns to try to pull you to them, the gentle waves hitting the boat as a threat; it was far too much stimulation.
Your thoughts became your enemies. That clear water, once serene, now felt like a mouth, gaping wide, ready to swallow you whole.
Itâs so deep. The groundâs gone. Youâre so far from land.
You tried to push the thoughts away, focusing on the warmth of the sun, the distant cry of a seagull. But the waves inside your head began to build, crashing over your mind in relentless surges.
Your pulse skyrocketed, your heart pounding like a drum inside your chest, each beat louder, more frantic. Your breath quickened, short, gasping. The air around you thinned, each inhale shallower than the last. You felt that bundle of knots twisting painfully, feeling sickly and disgusting inside, the feeling of sweat prickling against your skin, tears burning your eyes. The sounds around you went mute as your ears rung loud; you knew full well what was coming.
The boat, once a place of peace, now felt like it was moving beneath you, rocking harder, tipping you toward the water. Your grip on the railing tightened, your knuckles bone white, but the world blurred as though the sun itself had turned against you. It was too bright. The horizon was too far. Everything spun as if the boat was dissolving into the sea.
âJude...â The word barely left your throat, choking on the tightness that had coiled around your chest. When you moved, your legs gave way, useless, wobbling like they no longer belonged to you.
Youâre going to fall if you stay standing here. Youâre going to drown.
Panic seized you.
It crashed into you like a tidal wave, slamming you against the rail, knocking the breath from your lungs. You staggered, your knees giving out, collapsing onto the deck, falling onto the small step rather than off the boat. Your chest heaved as you gasped for air that wouldnât come, the world shrinking to nothing but the wild, frantic roar inside your own head. The sensation was like drowning, without ever touching the water. You crawled and wobbled to the sunbed, digging your nails as you landed your hands on it. Your limbs were heavy and useless like they were trapped under an invisible current, the weight of it pulling you under.
Your cries felt muffled, swallowed by the sea of your mind. The world spun violently. Your vision blurred, darkening at the edges as your throat burned, air refusing to fill your lungs. The boat swayed, or maybe it was just you, thrown again and again against an invisible tide, your body curling in on itself. Your hair stuck to your face, tangled, distorting your vision as if the water had already risen up to surround you. You could feel it, cold, wet, suffocating, pressing in from all sides. Your limbs felt like dead weight, too heavy to move, too weak to fight.
You were drowning. Drowning on dry land.
The harder you fought to breathe, the more your chest constricted, the pressure unbearable, your vision narrowing to nothing but the dark tunnel in front of you. You couldnât see. Couldnât focus. Couldnât breathe. The sound of your own gasps filled your ears, and the world dissolved into nothing but the relentless, terrifying roar of the panic gripping you.
Judeâs laughter stopped, his voice barely piercing through.
âBabe?â
His voice felt so distant, a muffled echo in the chaos of your mind. You barely registered the splash of water as he pulled himself back onto the boat, the pounding of his footsteps as he rushed toward you.
âHey, hey, love, Iâm here. Iâm right here.â
His hands found your face, cupping your cheeks with the warmth you desperately needed. His voice, once carefree, was now a steady anchor in the storm thrashing through you. He wiped away the tears you hadnât even realised were falling, his thumb brushing your skin with gentle strokes.
âShh, itâs okay, cariño. Youâre okay. Breathe with me, yeah? Just breathe.â His forehead pressed gently against yours, grounding you, bringing you back to something real.
Your lungs ached, your chest still tight, but you fought to follow his words.
Breathe. Just breathe.
You struggled to match the slow, steady rhythm of his breath. His chest rose and fell against yours, a steady, calming presence. Slowly, painfully, your breath began to slow, the sobs leaving your mouth, the grip around your lungs loosening little by little.
âEso es, my love,â he murmured, his lips brushing soft kisses across your forehead, through your hair. âYouâre alright. Iâve got you.â His hands stayed steady on your face, never leaving, his voice a constant, unwavering presence, pulling you back from the edge. He swept your hair back, away from your face, rubbing circles on your back.
âI-I didnât know that you were scared of- well I-,â he whispered, the guilt heavy in his voice. âI wish I had known. I shouldâve known. God, I would never put you through something like this,â His voice cracked, and he hugged her tightly, pulling her against him, his arms wrapping around her like a shield. âI didnât see it. I really didn't know. Iâm so sorry, cariño. I shouldâve seen it.â
She let out a shaky breath, her body still trembling, but the worst of the panic had ebbed, her head resting against his shoulder, safe in the circle of his arms. She could feel the regret and sadness in every breath he took, his chest rising and falling with the weight of it.
âIâm sorry I didnât tell you, I never knew how...â she whispered, her voice hoarse. âI didnât want to ruin it for you, you were so excited, Jude.â
âYou could never ruin anything for me,â he said softly, his lips brushing her temple. âNever. If Iâd known, I wouldâve never brought you out here, love. Iâm such an idiot.â He kissed the top of her head, squeezing her tighter. âI shouldâve realised. I was too caught up in everythingâŠâ
For a long moment, they stayed like that, her breathing finally steady, the calm returning as she clung to him, his solid, comforting presence pulling her back to herself. He kept whispering soft reassurances, holding her close until the panic had all but faded, replaced with the warmth of his embrace.
After a while, Jude pressed a gentle kiss to her forehead and spoke softly. âIâm taking us back to land. Somewhere small, quiet, just us. Somewhere with your feet on solid ground, yeah?â
She nodded, breaking a small smile while tears still clung to her lashes, but she felt safe. âSomewhere dry would be nice.â
He smiled, kissing her one last time before getting up. âNo more surprises, I promise. There's a little village close by, waiting for just the two of us.â
As the yacht turned back toward land, the pier coming into view in the distance, she knew that with Jude by her side, she could face anything.
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I KNOW heâs gonna find a way to worm his way out of it like the Worlds Biggest Bitch Baby that he is but⊠the thought of watching our future president absolutely eviscerate that orange sack of pond scum in a debate on national television make me feel indescribable joy. The mere thought of it makes me feel A L I V E.
I hope that if he refuses to debate her, she still stands up there by herself, looks directly into the camera and lists all the ways heâs a Scaredy Little Punk Ass Bitch.
Listen, Democrats might still have some understandable nerves (though listen to me, LISTEN TO ME: this is NOT THE TIME FOR MORE PANIC, THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO TALK ABOUT HOW SCARY THIS IS, WE KNOW! WE KNOW! THIS IS THE TIME TO GET TF IN FORMATION AND DO YOUR GODDAMN JOB!) but let me say this, the Republicans are LOSING it. They put ALL their chips on facing Sleepy Old Joe who don't talk so good anymore, and suddenly they have a 59-year-old lawyer and prosecutor who literally spent her whole elected career going after sex pests, frauds, and felons. (We remember how she made Brett Kavanaugh fucking cry at his confirmation hearing, right?) And suddenly, they have to bring it against Kamala. GODSPEED, DIPSHITS.
So yes, Trump is already whining SO hard about all the money they "wasted" going after Biden, laying the groundwork to escape getting his ass handed to him at the next debate, got stuck with a terriblawful VP pick (even Fucking FOX NEWS cut away from Vance's rally the other day because it was so boring) and suddenly realizing that he spent so much effort to make this election about age and mental competency when... now it's him. WHAT NOW, FUCKFACES. WHAT. NOW.
I'd also like to point out that abortion rights are going to be a HUGE issue, they have won everywhere they have been on the ballot (including in very red states) post-Dobbs, they will be on the ballot in several more important states (including Fucking Florida, not that I actually think we'll win there), and Kamala has a great record as a defender of reproductive freedom. Biden did his best, bless him, but sometimes the Old Catholic Man still leaped out. So the absolute fucking schadenfreude of having a black female president BEAT TRUMP IN A POST-DOBBS ELECTION??? MAGNIFICENT.
(As @silverbirching says: we wonder how many minutes it will take SCOTUS to row back the "president god-king" ruling if Kamala wins. We're guessing 15. That is, if Joe does not finally just embrace the fact that presidents are immune AND he is leaving office, and send Alito, Thomas, and Kav on a "special indefinite vacation" as an inauguration present.)
I am not overconfident. I know this is unprecedented. I know we don't have much time, and how hard this will be. This is not 2016 or 2020, and we all have to do the work and not let up. But if the Handmaid's Tale party is literally now trying to make "Kamala doesn't have children because she's an Evul Feminist" into their main line of attack, all I say is, Please proceed, chucklefucks. I'm sure that will go great.
#jcams88#ask#politics for ts#kamala harris 2024#what is this feeling?#is it...hope?#excitement?#i don't understand#this seems wrong
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One messed up bat pt.1
Dc masterlist all other parts found here
Batfam x femreader Jason x reader eventually
Warnings: angst, self harm, self hate, depression,
Summary:Y/n gets caught self harming by Damian, and Tim calls in some backup
A/N: I do not own dc booohooo ooc Tim, I don't spend much time watching/reading his robin sorry **^ so I can't remember if it's canon or from a fic but at this point who cares the storyline is all fucked so in this story I'm saying that Jason tried to call dick for help with his mom but dick was asleep/didn't pick up so Jay went alone and died, now Dick CAN NOT miss a phone call it sends him into a panic attack, thank you for coming to my trauma talk
ok so we all know the timeline is shit so this is the ages for this story only found it on a reddit post, fight me at dawn if you don't like it
Bruce Wayne (Batman) at 45
Barbara Gordon (Oracle) at 27
Dick Grayson (Nightwing) at 25
Jason Todd (Red Hood) at 22
Tim Drake (Red Robin) at 18
Damian Wayne (Robin) at 11
Y/n 21
not my gif^
(2 weeks ago)
"Y/n, you can't keep acting like a child you're twenty-one," Dick whisper shouted in the corner of the batcave.
"Dick, I'm not going to apologize for helping people-"
"You disobeyed a direct order. You could have been hurt, you can't be that kind of influence to Tim and Damian."
"You don't even live here, Dick, you can't just-"
"You're benched until further notice."
"You can't-"
"Benched," Bruce confirmed stepping over to them.
(1 week ago)
"Hey, Dick, do you have a sec," she asked into the phone then immediately bit firmly into her hand to hold back a sob.
"You're still benched," he said without remorse.
"That's not-you know what never mind." She hung up on him and threw the phone onto her bed heading to her en-suite bathroom to release the itch.
(present)
"Beloved! Beloved, look I-," Damian shouted with glee but cut himself off with a scream when he opened her unlocked bathroom door. He thought she was doing her face masks not...in the bathtub with blood dripping from her arms into pink bubble filled water.
"Damian wait," she called after his retreating form. Shit, shit. She hurried to drain the water and throw on her over sized t-shirt just managing to pull some boxers on when Damian burst back in with Tim, practically dragging him into the space.
"Damian what's the problem-"
"Fix her," he shouted with haste and was about to shove Tim into the room when he noticed y/n standing there looking fine.
"Damian, I'm ok, I promise," she tried to convince him softly. He looked from her to the tub, not even a drop of evidence in sight.
"No, you-I saw the blood. Tim she cut herself I saw it," he told the older boy trying to lunge for her arm but she side stepped him.
"Damian, give us a minute," Tim tried to gently shoo him away. Damian shook his head aggressively and latched himself onto her side, clinging to her like a koala. She combed her fingers through his hair and gently detangled him.
"Dami, Tim and I just need to have a quick chat, he's gonna fix me right up, aren't you, Tim," she asked, sending him a look that clearly gave direction.
"Yeah, kid, I'll take care of her, she'll be right as rain."
"You won't hurt yourself again?" He was giving her puppy eyes, looking his own age for once and it pulled on her heart strings.
"I won't," she agreed patting him on the head and crossing her fingers behind her back with the other hand. Damian gave her one last hug then hurried out of the room. There was an awkward silence as Tim stood blocking the doorway, his jaw ticking and toe nearly tapping.
"You know I have to tell."
"Please don't." She shook her head then grabbed the first aid kit beneath the sink.
"Let me," he said softly, taking it from her and getting out the supplies. When she set her arm on the counter for him to work he sucked in a breath. "Those are deep," he accused.
"I wasn't trying anything. I'm not stupid, just a heavy bleeder." She rolled her eyes where he couldn't see and hissed when he dumped alcohol on her arm.
"They almost need stitches."
"Butterfly stickers are fine," she said digging them out of the kit one handed.
"I at least have to tell Dick-"
"NO," she said so firm he actually stepped back to look at her.
"I have to tell someone, I can't watch you 24/7."
"I don't need babysat," she seethed.
"I can tell Bruce or I can tell Dick first. Either way you aren't doing this alone."
"I cant stop you?"
"Not a chance."
"Dick told me I needed to be a better influence for you. Sorry for fucking that up, but to be fair there's worse things about me. I tried to call him a week ago, I was feeling the um...the 'itch' so to speak but as soon as he picked up he told me I was still benched. I was so pissed that he immediately thought that's what I called for I told him never mind and hung up. You can't tell him that, after Jason you know he-"
"Hates missing phone calls," Tim finished for her. **^
Tim had every intention of telling him, he knew it would hurt but come on, she tried to get help. Of course she didn't ask anyone in the house, but he wasn't about to be offended she didn't ask the child or his newly adult self for help, and he sure as hell got the not wanting to tell Bruce.
"Why not Alfred?"
"Hmm?"
"Why didn't you go to Alfred for help."
"He deals with enough shit from the rest of you, coming in half dead each night."
"That doesn't mean you come second, and sure as hell not last, we love you."
"Yeah, well it doesn't feel like it most of the time." He was finished with her arm and she resisted the urge to yank it away from him. One of Jason's flannel was on a towel hook on the wall and she quickly put it on to hide the bandages.
"I'm gonna go make sure Dami's ok," she said gently moving him out of the way. The second she was gone he hurried back to his room for his phone, that he'd left on the charger and yanked the cord out. He hit speed dial 3, Dick's cell, and held the phone to his ear while he headed out on his balcony to totally not scale down the wall instead of taking the stairs. Dick picked up on the 4th ring with a tired sigh and a 'this better be good' Tim told him to wait a sec while he got way out of hearing range.
"Did Y/n call you last week?"
"Uh, yeah, why?"
"Did you jump her case and not give her a second to speak?"
"You sound a bit pissed timbers, cut to it and tell me what I did. I haven't slept in 37 and a half hours."
"And you call me an idiot," he snorted.
"Tick tock bro," Dick mumbled head already sinking into his pillow.
"She'd been cutting herself and she called you to ask for help, well, she didn't say that word, but she was calling to tell you what she'd been doing to herself," Tim stated with little to no remorse for the heart attack he'd just given his brother.
"She what," Dick shouted throwing off the blankets and grabbing his go bag.
"I assume you'll catch the next train?" The sound of Dick falling and cursing while he hopped into pants could be heard and Tim nodded and hung up. Thankfully because the author said so Dick had switched from his police job to a remote roll in Wayne industries he just stayed in Bludhaven to have his independence and not deal with Bruce more than he had to. Alfred insisted he come for monthly dinners and he did.
Tim went back inside to hunt for Y/n and Damian and found them having mugs of hot chocolate together on the kitchen counter.
"So, you're ok," Damian asked in a small voice using a stir stick to hold his marshmallows under the liquid.
"I told you, Tim fixed me, and he probably ran off to call Dick so he could come make double sure I'm ok. You don't need to worry, I promise I'll always be here to have hot cocoa with," she replied, crossing her heart and holding out her pinkie to him. He hooks his with hers and to her surprise continued to hold on, not moving to actually hold her hand but simply letting their hands rest on the counter pinkies linked. Not wanting to interrupt Tim quietly made his way back out, he still had some calls to make.
Jason picked didn't pick up on the first call, or the second but finally on the third he answered out of breath and with gunshots loud in the foreground.
"The hell dya' want," he all but shouted into the line dodging hits and getting in several of his own.
"Sorry, I'll call back later-"
"No, talk now, I got it under *way too loud thud* control."
"Just uh, get here as quick as you can, nobodies dying so-"
"Make it quick but don't freak, got it." And he hung up. Next was Bruce who surprise surprise didn't answer a call or text, so Tim left a message.
"Get off Selena and come help your kid," he said with more aggression than snark. (this doesn't feel at all like something Tim would say but i'm not familiar enough with his character to fix it)
This time when he went to the kitchen it was just Y/n on the counter Damian had gone who knows where.
"So who all did you tell?"
"Just Dick so far, he's on his way. Jason was in the middle of a fight so he's coming later but I didn't tell him and Bruce didn't pick up-"
"Shocker, dude nabs all these kids then can't be bothered to spend time with them outside of a Halloween costume," she scoffed rolling her eyes.
"You're not wrong but-"
"Oh, don't start Stan." She waved him off hopping down to wash the mugs not willing to leave them for Alfred.
9-20-24
#batfam#batman#dc comics#dick grayson#jason todd#bruce wayne#dc universe#dcu#angst#jason todd x reader#jason todd x you#jason todd x y/n#anxitey#tw selfhate#mdni blog#18+ mdni#mdni#batfam x batsis#batsis!reader#batfamily
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Hi!! First off, I love your work. You are amazing. Okay so my request is basically I have two, both being Percy Jackson x reader comfort fics. Feel free to do one or both of neither!
1) Percy Jackson x reader where the reader has a lot of mental health struggles and is feeling very anxious and overwhelmed and overworked and dissociates a lot more than normal, but is bottling it all up from everyone and trying so hard to be okay and fine, even to her boyfriend Percy who can definitely tell something is off but doesn't want to push it. Maybe show some times he tries to get her to open up but she brushes him off. Then, she just breaks and has a panic attack and complete breakdown, and she ends up dropping something glass and cutting herself on it, and Percy finds her in the middle of it and helps her and comforts her and then they talk about it after.
2) This one is Percy Jackson x reader who gets seriously injured on the Argo II and tries to act like it's not that bad but then Percy (her boyfriend) forces her to let him look at it and it is really bad and he takes care of her and comforts her (kinda like the Leo fic where he cleans the wound on her back because I love that one so much), and then helps her fall asleep after.
Again feel free to do neither or both or just one, thank you so much I love your work!!
I've Got You - Percy Jackson x Fem!Reader
author's note: thank you for the requests! i will answer them in two seperate posts, this one is the first one you asked for!
author's note 2: i'm so glad you enjoy my work like you have no idea how much it means to me
warnings: cursing, self-doubt, reader is struggling mentally, mentions of blood
genre: fluff
word count: 1.2k
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"are you okay?" a voice called out, replaying itself in the background.
y/n felt someone shake her and she snapped out of her daze.
"y/n." percy said, looking into her eyes. "are you okay? what's going on? you've been staring at the wall for the past ten minutes."
"nothing." she responded, unconvincingly.
percy gave her that look. like the one a mother gives her child when she catches them with their hand down the cookie jar.
"nothing!" she smiled, cheering up. "i'm fine, just a little tired."
"do you want to sleep in my cabin? maybe visit the hypnos cabin?" he proposed.
he was so sweet.
"no, no. i'm fine, just worn out." she lied. "i'm gonna take a nap."
"okay." he said, his voice doubtful.
he kissed the top of her head before leaving her cabin. as soon as she was alone, y/n's head dropped into her hands as she clutched her hair.
what is wrong with me her mind screamed.
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"are you sure you don't want to go to sleep?" percy asked, sitting on y/n's floor.
"for the hundreth time, yes percy, i'm fine." she said, starting to get annoyed.
she knows, he just cares about her, but she just couldn't right now.
"you don't have to do all of this in one day." he reminded. "all of this is due in a week."
a week isn't enough time her mind yelled.
"percy." she said, looking him in the eye. "i'm fine. i swear."
then she shot her that stupid look again.
"i'm fine!" she defended.
"okay, okay." he said. "i'm going to go to bed. stop by my cabin if you need anything."
now she felt bad. he was just looking out for her.
"i'm sorry." she smiled. "and i will. but trust me, i'm fine."
he gave her a smile back. but, it wasn't a good-luck or i-love-you smile. it was a you're-a-fucking-liar-and-i'll-leave-you-alone-but-i-don't-believe-you. percy left and y/n rested her head on her bunk as she looked up at the wood. tears fell from the corners of her eyes.
how was she going to do it? she felt like the world was on her back even more than usual.
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y/n stood in percy's cabin after he insisted that she spend the night with him. she picked up a picture frame that was on his nightstand. it was cute, it was a picture of him and y/n laying down in the new york snow.
she smiled, but a feeling of dread crept up on her as she clutched the glass.
you've got so much to do. you have such little time. i mean, you're a weak excuse of a demi-god. i mean, c'mon, who gets this stressed out? who zones out this much? percy doesn't deserve this. he deserves better. he needs better. he needs someone who isn't a borderline psycho. he's a hero. what are you? a wannabe. a parasite. he's going to leave you sooner or later. it's just a matter of time. oh are you going to cry now? you're such a fucking crybaby.
she dropped the glass. shards hit the floor as tears fell from her eyes. she held her knees to her chest and put her head in her bloody hand as she wept.
"y/n?" percy asked, shutting the door behind him.
"oh-oh my god, percy, i'm so so so sorry." she said, cleaning up the glass that had just shattered everywhere. "i'm sorry, i'm so so sorry."
"hey, it's okay." he smiled, dropping down next to her. "it's just a picture, i have it on my computer."
"no, no, i'm such an idiot. i'm so sorry." she said, hiding her teary eyes from him. "i can't do anything right."
"what? that's not true, don't say that."
"but it is true." she whispered, tears falling from her eyes.
"hey hey hey." he said, turning her face so she was forced to look at his sea green eyes. "i've got you."
she couldn't keep it in anymore. wells of tears fell from her eyes as she violently trembled. percy pulled her into him, placing her head on his chest. she wept into him as the familiar smell of salt-water flooded her nose.
"i've got you, it's alright." he said.
his voice was so soft and calming.
"i'm so so sorry." she breathed out. "i've been so mean to you and i, i broke your picture frame and now i'm bleeding all over you floor, and you probably hate me."
he backed up for a minute and looked down at her hands. they were covered in blood.
"it's okay, it's okay, don't worry about it." he said, kissing her forehead. "i've got you. c'mon, let's wrap this up."
he stood up, and basically picked her up so she would stand too.
"i don't want to go to the infirmary-"
"we don't have to." he assured. "let's wash the blood off, and i have gauze in here."
she felt like a baby as percy rinsed her hands off and wrapped the hurt one in gauze. she sat on his bunk as he carefully cleaned up the glass on the floor. after a few minutes, he sat down next to her. she just couldn't help it, tears started falling from her eyes.
he let her cry into him. he just ran his fingers through her hair and kissed the top of her head every now and then. he kept telling her that it was "alright" and that she was "okay" and that "he's got her." there was something about percy that made her feel so safe around him. maybe it was his soothing voice, or the way he smelled, or maybe it was his touch. whatever it was, it made hiding things from him draining. after half-an-hour, y/n's tears ran dry. she pulled back from percy's chest and looked up at him with red eyes.
"hey, i'm here, you're okay." he reassured, wiping her tears with his thumbs. "what's going on?"
he grabbed a water bottle and gave it to her. even he knew she was dehydrated after crying.
"i-i don't know." she sputtered. "i don't know. i've been in my own head. and i just keep feeling like i'm nothing but a screw up and a mess, and i'm so nervous for the next big quest. i-i can't. i feel like i'm just gonna lose you and i don't have enough time to figure it out. i just feel useless, like a failure whose just going to seal everyone's terrible fate."
"y/n." he paused. "you are the most capable, amazing, intelligent, kind, funny, beautiful, person i've ever met. you are more than enough. and you have time and if you can't get to things, so what? it's okay. and when the next big things happens, it happens."
she felt his firm hands around her arms, holding her tightly.
"and i'm not going anywhere." he reassured.
hearing him clear up all of the awful things her mind has been cramming into her head was cathartic.
"i'm sorry." she said, looking up at him. "i've been such a bitch to you when you were just trying to help-"
"don't worry about it. i knew you weren't doing well." he smiled. "it's alright now."
he bent down and kissed her. his arms wrapped around her upper-half as her arms wrapped around his neck. the kiss was slow and gentle. when they finally pulled away, y/n rested her head underneath his chin.
"i love you." she whispered.
"i love you more." he whispered back, kissing the top of her head.
#heroes of olympus#percy jackson#heroes of olympus x reader#hoo x reader#pjo#pjo x reader#percy jackson x reader#percy jackson and the olympians#percy jackson x y/n#percy jackson x reader fluff#percy jackson fluff#heroes of olympus x y/n#fluff
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i've been getting pretty fed up about this so i'm just gonna say it:
mental healthcare isn't a privilege or a luxury. it's actually *required* and it's often not pleasant. all the people saying "there's atrocities happening right now, you are unbelievably selfish for trying to stay afloat mentally" might as well be saying "you are unbelievably selfish for sleeping and eating right now." depriving yourself won't help anyone, it'll just mean there's more people paralyzed with fear and less people that can actually like. do anything. like protest or organize relief funds. things that actually, you know, *help* instead of performative bullshit.
if you need to go play a video game or refuse to post on social media, that's FINE. having a panic attack or worse instead does not help anyone. get yourself together, stay alive, and THEN figure out how you can help.
#sorry not sorry#ive actually had to unfollow some folks over this#i will not be arguing this talk shit get blocked#suffering is not inherently noble#it does not fucking help#appreciate what you have. many do not. but don't APOLOGIZE get ANGRY that they don't have the same.
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I get disability memes on my Pinterest feed but after getting one for ER Drs/nurses that I found concerning, I kept seeing more and more like it and I went down a rabbit hole. I know it's one of the most stressful jobs someone can have and I really appreciate the medical staff that have been kind to me. These things are definitely made by the types of people who haven't been.
I think it's important because memes are kind of a way to let off steam but they mean what they're saying. They're not just jokes but they're framed in a way that they can say it more comfortably. Sometimes they're just straight up admitting to crimes and malpractice. It's like when someone says something that crosses a line in a joking tone so that if you feel attacked they insist it's just a joke and you're taking it too seriously. But my life is constantly in the hands of these people and I've been mistreated time and time again by medical personnel
I'm gonna go through them because honestly I hate them and there are a lot of repeating themes
These are extremely common. The focus of the meme being that a whiny patient is asking for pain medication that they clearly don't need. Something commonly mentioned in these is disbelief that the patient has an allergy because it's common for someone trying to get drugs to claim they have an allergy.
Also the Confucius one is both ableist and racist so double whammy I guess!
I've dealt with people I know are silently assuming this of me. I'm allergic to NSAIDs- deathly allergic and at risk for asphyxiation or anaphylactic shock. Medical staff sometimes have this attitude of "we know when you're faking your pain" (no really I had one say this shit on my post about this) and that has traumatized me immeasurably because they'd rather me wait for 4+ hours in some of the worst pain of my life than risk the possibility of me being an awful scheming mustache twirling addict.
This category is just as common. "I don't like you so I'm going to drug you". That's more fucked up than they seem to think it is.
Then there's the category of "you're a whiny little bitch and I don't believe a word out of your mouth". Which contributes heavily to medical malpractice and abuse
Again these are doctors and nurses making these, people responsible for treating patients with care and dignity and respect. Especially if they want any in return
Aaaaand this one is just a crime. One that's happened to me actually- reporting examinations that never happened to get rid of me because I was such a nuisance (crying, hardly coherent, drenched in sweat, 9/10 pain on arrival)
And then there are the ones like "don't mess with me because i handle your treatment/meds đ". Things like "the way you treat me is the deciding factor for how fast I'm going to get your painkillers đ". Which to me is just... evil?
I've never in my life mistreated medical staff but people in a lot of pain get mean sometimes. It's a survival instinct actually- for aggression to accompany pain or panic. Not that it's ever okay but it isn't personal
These are just a few examples really, there are so fucking many of these with this awful, cruel, cynical tone. There are some funny ones that aren't mean or degrading towards patients but so many of them are and in nearly every one I see a mean spirited healthcare worker that I've encountered at some point who damaged me in ways I will never psychologically recover from
#chronic illness#chronic pain#disability#actually disabled#cfs#chronic fĐ°tiguĐ” ŃŃndrĐŸmĐ”#spoonie#fibromyalgia#me/cfs#cfs/me#cripplepunk#cpunk#long covid#medical ableism#ableism
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he's gone
Simon Ghost Riley x reader
synopsis: reader finds out that Simon passed when Price, Johnny, and Gaz show up at her house.
warnings: angst, death, PTSD, panic attack, crying, I'm so sorry
Link to master list:
https://www.tumblr.com/ponyosmom35/733401347573088256/simon-ghost-riley?source=share
She holds her hose tightly in her hand as she sprays her blooming flowers with water. The sun was beginning to set and she felt at peace. Allowing her mind to wash away the stress of the day. The sunlight hits her face and she sighs, imaging that somewhere in the world, Simon was looking at the same beautiful sky. She recalled their conversation earlier that day, a small smile coming to her lips as she remembered his voice.Â
She stood in the kitchen, intensely focused on her measuring cup as she attempted to fill it with the correct amount of water. She turns off the water after allowing it to reach â
and carefully moves over to her mixing bowl. She dumps the water in and moves the mixer down, flipping the switch and watching as her kitchen aid whips the cake mix together. The loud noise drowns out the sound of her phone ringing and she carries on. A few minutes later she finishes putting the batter into a pan and throws it into the oven, hoping that a lemon cake would distract her from how much she missed Simon. She looks down at her small ragdoll kitten who plays with her feet and laughs, she picks him up and kisses his little face gently. Still deciding how she was gonna come clean about adopting a pet without permission.Â
It had been two weeks since heâd gone. So far sheâd been doing better than she expected, managing to keep herself quite busy all day. It was the nights that were the hardest. She struggled to sleep without him. She tried to pretend like her body pillow was the same, but nothing could beat the feeling of his arms wrapped around her. When she came across a post about the little guy needing a home, she volunteered without a second thought.Â
He was quite good about calling, he would try to call every other day when in between missions. But as they got new intel he wouldnât be able to reach out for several days at a time. This week she had not heard from him once. She knew he was going on their first mission. She worried about him, she knew that he could handle himself, better than anyone in the world.Â
She picks up her phone to set a timer when she realizes sheâd missed his call. Her heart drops and she calls him back instantly.Â
âSi?â she asks anxiouslyÂ
âHi my loveâÂ
âOh thank god, I thought something may have happened. Iâm so sorry I didnât hear my phone I was baking and it was on silentâÂ
âDonât worry about it, I donât expect you to pick up every time I callâ
âOf course I willâ she saysÂ
âHow are you doing darling?â
âIâm doing good, I decided to bake a cake for whatever reasonâ she says staring at the mess of flower and egg shells on the counter.
Simon chuckles and leans back in his chair as he imagines her in the kitchen trying to bake. Tears fill his eyes and he attempts to keep his voice steady.
âIs my kitchen still standing?â he asks
âThe kitchen smells wonderful thank you very muchâ she respondsÂ
âWhat have you been up to this week? Catch me upâÂ
âI wanna talk about you, where have you been the past week? Are you any closer to coming home? How are you doing? How are the boys?â she says rapid firing her questionsÂ
âWeâre all good. But I donât wanna talk about work, tell me about you distract meâÂ
She nods to herself, understanding that he didnât want to talk about it, meaning that their mission didnât go as planned. âWhat do you want me to talk about?â
âjust talk to me baby, anythingâÂ
âWell itâs been pretty gloomy today so I started reading a new book, itâs about grief. Iâve only read a few chapters but so far itâs been very reassuring and comforting to know that grief isnât linear, you go through ups and downs just like anything elseâ
âThat sounds wonderful loveâÂ
âYeah, so Iâm gonna try and read for a few minutes everyday. Kylie and I have started a jazzercise class, you should see how awful I am. I canât look at myself in the mirror because in my mind Iâm absolutely killing it, but then I look at the mirror and it looks like iâm half deadâ she laughsÂ
âIâd pay anything to see itâÂ
âDonât worry, when you come home youâre gonna get a full performanceâ she promises, causing him to laugh. The lump in his throat is tightening as the tears fall down his cheeks. He runs his hands through his hair and covers the speaker as he sniffles.Â
âIâm counting down the minutesâÂ
âMe tooâ she muses âso I think we should get a catâÂ
âWhat?â he asks
âLet me rephrase that, I brought home a kitten last weekâ
âDid you now?â he chucklesÂ
âBefore you freak out, heâs so cute and cuddly, he was abandoned and my friend found him but she couldn't take care of him, I just had to bring him home!â she defends herselfÂ
âIâm not mad love, Iâm glad youâve got someone to keep you company. What's his name?â
âJunieâ
âWhy Junie?âÂ
âBecause june is the month we metâ she admitsÂ
Simon puts the phone down and covers his face. His heart was crushing at her words. He receives a knock on the door, he wipes his eyes and picks the phone back up. âI love itâ
âWeâre about an hour out from departure, so Iâm gonna have to let you goâ he says slipping his mask over his face.
âOkay, please be safeâ
âI love you more than anything in this world, take care of yourself okay?âÂ
âOf course Si, I love you too, call me as soon as you canâ
âgoodbye loveâ he says before hanging up the phone.Â
She noticed his odd behavior that morning, but decided to let it go to prevent any unnecessary anxiety. She finishes watering the plants and turns off the hose. She walks to the steps and heads inside. She shuts the door, making sure to lock the door as well as placing the wood down to prevent it from being opened easily. She slips off her shoes and smiles at the sight of Junie sitting on the counter. She picks him up and holds him close. The sound of a knock at the door catches her attention. She wasnât aware of any company. She walks over to the door and opens it to see John, Kyle, and Johnny. Her eyes travel to the British flag held in Johnâs hands and her smile falls. Â
âJohn?â she asks as her brain struggles to process the situation.Â
ây/n-â
âDonât you dareâ she warns holding her hand up to stop him âdonâtâÂ
âHeâs gone lassâ Johnny says, his teary eyes meeting her own. She shakes her head and glares at him.Â
âI just talked to him this morningâ she refusesÂ
âMission was local, went south and we barely got out. We came here as soon as we couldâÂ
âWhat happened to him?â she asks, crossing her arms, clearly still in shock from the news.
âCan we come in?â John asks, she nods and leads them into the living room where they sit and she remains standing.Â
âTell me johnâÂ
âWhy donât you sit downâ he respondsÂ
âI want to know what happened!â she demandsÂ
âHe was hitâ Kyle saysÂ
âWhere?â she asks, Price shakes his head and stands up, moving over to her and placing the flag in her hands. She notices the tags placed neatly in the center of it and she reads his printed name. She looks up at him as tears fill her eyes.Â
âHeâs not gone, I just talked to him today! He was telling me not to burn the kitchen down -â she cuts herself off with a sob, and holds her hand to her mouth. âWeâre getting married in four monthsâ
âIâm so sorry for your loss, I-I wish I couldâve saved himâ Price says gently
âPlease donât say thatâ she begs
âIs there anyone we can call for you?â he asks gentlyÂ
âStop this john I canât - I canâtâ she says setting his things down on the table as she looks out of the window. Tears stream down her face as she attempts to control her breathing.Â
âThese are for youâ Johnny says, handing her a bundle of letters, each of them addressed to her. There is a small box on the top of the pile.Â
Her vision blurs at the sight of his handwriting. Her body becomes weak as two words loop in her mind. Her body falls to the floor as the voices of the three men fade away. Heâs gone. Heâs gone. Heâs gone. Heâs gone. Heâs gone. Heâs gone. Heâs gone. The man she loved with every fiber of her being. Her Simon. Simon who nearly killed the person who disrespected her. Simon who held her when her sister died. Simon who saved her life. Simon, who built her a bookshelf, redid her entire deck and porch. Never again would he give her one of his bear hugs. She wouldnât hear his beautiful laugh, or watch the way he separated his food to keep it from touching. No more early morning cuddles, kisses, silly arguments. How would she live without him? What she wouldnât have given to hear his deep voice in that moment, telling her that it was going to be okay. He couldn't. He was gone.Â
She was inconsolable, her heart wrenching sobs echoed through the house. Bringing tears to the eyes of the soldiers surrounding her. Johnny was at her side, holding her shaking body, trying his best to bring her even the smallest bit of comfort. He felt sick to his stomach watching her writhe in pain.Â
John had called her parents and the trio waitied with her until they arrived. As soon as John opened the door, they recognized him from the day he brought the news about Emma. Her mother gasps and hurries into the house, seeing her daughter crumpled on the ground, agonizing sobs erupting from her lungs. She drops beside her and rubs her back. Her father shakes Johns hand and walks the soldiers to the door. John pulls him outside and informs him the the truth.Â
âSir, we need you to understand that the work we do is classified, in the eyes of the Government we do not exist unless weâre needed. With a job like this, comes sacrifices we have to make to protect the people we loveâ
âIâm not following? What sacrifices?â her father says, crossing his armsÂ
âIf one of the people weâre investigating finds any bit of information about out lives or our loved ones then theyâd be in dangerâ
âAre you telling me that my family isnât safe?âÂ
âOfficially I canât tell you anything, but you need to know that weâre taking care of the situation, youâre family will be under 24/7 surveillance. You wonât even know theyâre aroundâÂ
âIs it true then? Is Simon really gone? Man to man, is he gone?â her father asks, staring at Price.Â
âFor nowâ he responds âitâs imperative that y/n believes thisâ
âYouâre asking me to lie to my daughter? Do you hear her in there? How can I-â
âSacrifices, we all have to make them in order to keep our family safe. Thatâs all weâre doing hereâ Price shakes his hand and walks down the steps âtake care of her, weâll be checking inâ
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After hours of tossing and turning, crying until her lungs and throat burned she finally decides to get out of the warmth of her bed. A place she used to feel the most comfortable, now was empty. She rubs her hands over her face as her headache grows more intense, the lack of sleep already affecting her. Having woken up multiple times from nightmares, she willed herself to stay awake, to protect her fragile heart from the horror of her dreams. Everyday for the past week sheâd been reminding herself that dreams are simply just a reflection of the mind, a way for her worries and fears to be shown. It wasnât real. He wasnât gone. This couldnât be true. Simon wouldn't leave her.Â
She moves into the bathroom and stares at herself in the mirror, she looks exhausted. The weight of Simonâs absence is evident on her face. Her face was puffy and her hair was tangled. A mixture of tears, saliva, and mucus coated her face. She wipes it off and sighs. Her lips trembling once more as her eyes fill with tears. She grips onto her hair as she tries to breath through her fourth panic attack in 24 hours. Memories of his hands running through her hair flash through her mind. A wave of nausea runs through her and she stares at it in disgust. He always loved her hair, heâd play with it absentmindedly. She was angry. How as she supposed to live with the hair he would kiss every morning, the hair he gripped when he kissed her passionately. She notices the scissors on the counter and grabs them, without hesitation she begins to cut strips of her hair off. She watches as her gorgeous strands fall, some in the sink, others landing on the ground. She sobs as she ruins her hair, unable to stop herself. After several minutes, she drops the scissors and stares at herself, the jagged strands unbalanced. She rushes to the toilet in a split second and empties her stomach violently.Â
The sound causes her mother to rush into her room, she bursts through the door and spots her daughter laying against the toilet surrounded by her precious locks. âOh honeyâ
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please forgive me for this! omg I made myself cry. below is the link to when they reunite, I posted this a few months ago. If you wanna read that now, you are more than welcome I'll link it below, however there will be a few filler chapters in-between that I'll be posting!!!
Youâre alive? (middle of MW3)
https://www.tumblr.com/ponyosmom35/724654294153003008/youre-alive?source=share
love you all <3
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AU where Sayu is there when Light tests the Death Note. She comes into his room and asks what heâs doing and he shows her the notebook like âcheck out this hilarious prank I foundâ and they start laughing about it like âomg are you gonna write someoneâs name in itâ and then of course Light does write a name down and the person dies. And he and Sayu both saw it happen live on TV
oh god. i really like this actually. i feel like light would try to hide it at first because he's embarrassed he even brought it home in the first place but sayu would snatch it away from him and go "lmao i didn't know you were into this kind of thing onii-chan" and light would relax and think why was i so stressed in the first place? it's just sayu. and then they test it, sayu egging light on, and otoharada kuro dies.
i feel like sayu would immediately panic. soichiro says in the hospital that he thinks sayu is the kind of person who would try kira's weapon on someone in school as a joke and have a breakdown upon them actually dying, and while soichiro is literally never home sayu does canonically blame herself for the death note being lost to mello (sayu you were literally kidnapped it's not your fault), so i'm inclined to take him as accurate here (plus he says nothing about what he thinks light would do with kira's weapon⊠so). light would probably act as the voice of reason just to reassure his sister (and himself) that they haven't just committed a murder. obviously it was a coincidence, sayu! don't be ridiculous, that's impossible, etc. etc. since light is #1 expert at believing his own lies this means he does actually relax a bit more than in canon.
now. do they test the book again? sayu would immediately want to destroy it i feel like. (morally questionable sayu interpretations are my beloved forever but in canon she's just a really sweet if mischievous kid who has a guilt complex the size of the sun, i'm going to go with firmly anti-magic killing weapon sayu for now.) light obviously wants to test it again, and has superficially convinced himself it was probably a coincidence haha sayu's so silly, so he might even go for a riskier target. maybe he tries writing down the next criminal who comes on the news and sayu has to yank the pencil away from him. at this point light realizes sayu is really really upset and apologizes and stows the notebook away, forcing himself not to think about any longer. sayu leaves the room.
this lasts for like maybe 30 minutes before light is like âŠâŠâŠâŠokay but what if it did workâ
he tries a car accident this time, again with someone on the news. (heart attacks are ruled out because sayu would know.) aaaand yep it does work! congrats light you're a murderer now!
at this point i think the most likely course of action is the one outlined in this post by corviiids (very similar AU: sayu gets the death note first) where light still becomes kira, the yagami siblings both see ryuk, sayu realizes light is a serial killer and has a meltdown, light makes sayu give up her memories (promising falsely that he'll also do it right after) and then keeps the death note for himself, and canon proceeds as usual.
âŠwhat if sayu didn't give up her memories though. what if she screamed for her mother instead.
#THIS IS GETTING TOO COMPLICATED SO I'M PUBLISHING IT NOW SORRY#for what its worth. i think sachiko would be fine with light being kira.#asks#jedi-valjean#jedi valjean#light yagami#sayu yagami#wow god this is making me realize how many parentheses i use
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breathe, you're okay - mason mount
summary: when the mounting pressure of a Women's UCL run is falling on Y/N's shoulders, she isn't handling it by herself as well as she would like everyone to believe she is
pairing: Mason Mount x footballer!reader
word count: 2.9k
warnings/tags: hurt/comfort, no established relationship, !!descriptions of a panic attack!!, discussions about mental heath, supportive Mase
requested: no
notes: surprise!! I'm sorry I haven't posted in months-- my life kind of went up in flames over the summer and I haven't had the time to write that I was hoping to. I have a few WIPs in my drafts, and I am still working on all of your requests! Please let me know what you think of this!
The hot afternoon sun beat down on you, and you felt the drops of sweat sliding down the side of your head and tickling the hairs on the back of your neck. Your heartbeat pounded in your ears as you ran up and down the field, weaving between cones, carrying the ball at your feet, running through a series of consecutive drills that were designed to refine your skills and test your endurance.
You did your best to recall the instructions that your coach had carefully laid out before the team began the drill, but with the heat and the fatigue that was seeping all the way into your bones, it seemed impossible to remember. You wound up relying on the teammate in front of you to recall what you needed to do next.
You let out a heavy sigh of relief when you heard the sound of the whistleâtwo short chirps, signaling for you to halt your movements. You draped your arms over your head, drawing in deep, heaving breaths as you attempted to get your heart rate under control.
You joined the rest of your teammates as they gathered around the coach, preparing for his parting words before everyone was dismissed.
âGood session today, ladies,â he clapped his hands in front of him, looking around the circle. âIâm seeing a lot of good things. A lot of improvement in our touches and finishing. You all are looking really good.â
A couple of the girls clapped at his words, the rest too exhausted to do anything but listen.
âWe have the day off tomorrow, so use it well. Rest, recover, and come back Monday ready to go. Weâve got some heavy prep next week before the second leg on Friday,â he continued, and a couple others whooped, getting excited for the upcoming big game.
âTheyâre gonna be a really tough opponent, Iâll be honest. We know that their back line is really strong, tough to break through.â Your coachâs eyes fell on you, and you knew what was coming next before he even began to speak, your stomach sinking slightly. âBut thatâs what we have Miss Y/N, for, right?â
Several of the girls cheered for you. The girls near you slapped you on the back, trying to get you hyped up. And the weight that had settled in the pit of your stomach grew heavier.
The Manchester United women were on an impressive UEFA Womenâs Champions League run, overcoming seemingly insurmountable odds to make it to the semifinal. And according to the media (and now your own teammates and coaches), it was all thanks to you.
In the group stage, a decisive game in which your team had gone down 2-0 in the first half had seemed hopeless until you had scored two goals in the second, assisting on the third to put your team through to the knockout games. Another three goal contributions in the quarter-final matches had put you in the spotlight of all of the teamâs media coverage, thrusting a wave of attention upon you that you had never asked for.
You had gone down 1-0 in the first leg of the semi-final, and now you were playing from behind. And it seemed that everyone expected you to be the one to pull them out of it.
So now, you were left feeling the pressure as the second leg was fast approaching.
âAlright, ladies. Have a good rest of the day and a great day off tomorrow.â He clapped his hands, dismissing you all. The circle of girls dispersed, chatting among themselves.
âAm I still leaving the cones out for you?â the coach raising his eyebrows at you. You only nodded in return. âOkay, donât work yourself to death.â
You laughed humorlessly as you fiddled with the ball at your feet, not meeting his eyes.
âHey,â he said, resting a hand on your shoulder to try to draw your attention to him. âGet some rest tomorrow, okay? We all see how hard youâre working. Give yourself a break.â
Another nod is all that you can muster, and you donât miss the short sigh that he lets out as he drops his hand from your shoulder and walks to join the rest of the group moving indoors.
You repositioned a few of the cones to set up your own drill and got right into it.
Across the field, on another training pitch near yours, Mason watched as you carried the ball with you up and down the field, weaving between cones, practicing a few skills that he had seen you implement in games, and taking a shot on the goal at each pass.
He was supposed to be doing a bit of extra work with a few of the boys. The menâs team had finished their training session about an hour before, but a few of them still felt like they wanted to get a bit more done before calling it a day. So here they were, running a few small three-a-side games to utilize the last of their energy that day.
But he couldnât help but notice how you never stopped.
During the team training, you were always one of the hardest-working ones out there. When he had returned to the pitch from lunch, you were taking shots on the goal with the rest of your team nowhere in sight. He wasnât even sure he had seen you eating lunch inside when he thought about it.
And now here you were, sprinting across the length of the field, over and over, after the rest of your team had hit the showers.
He felt a twinge of worry for you but brushed it off as one of his teammates called his name to pull his attention back to the game they were playing.
Your head was spinning as you pushed yourself to keep moving. Your entire body was drenched in sweat. Every muscle ached from overexertion as you gritted your teeth, forcing them to keep moving. The sun was dizzyingly bright as the evening set in. You could feel the heat practically radiating off of your skin. Your lungs were burning with your heaving breaths and your mouth quickly grew dry.
âThatâs what we have Miss Y/N for, right?â Your coachâs words echoed through your head as you carried the ball down the field.
âY/L/N carries the Man U Women through to the semifinal!â You recalled the title of the article as you weaved between the cones.
âI really believe Y/N Y/L/N could be the one to lead Manchester United to their first Womenâs Championâs League trophy!â You heard the words of the pundit clear as day as you planted your foot, striking the ball cleanly. It soared through the air, curving toward the goal, and struck the crossbar. The ball flew away from the goal, bouncing pathetically on the ground in the penalty area.
You took a pause, the words and expectations crashing around your mind leaving an unsettling feeling in your chest. As you stood there, you couldnât seem to get your panting breaths to grow steadier.
Your shirt suddenly felt too tight on your neck. You grasped the fabric, pulling it away from your body in an attempt to allow yourself to breathe easier, but nothing seemed to be helping.
Your head was spinning. You felt your stomach sink, a feeling like when you plummeted down the tall hill of a rollercoaster, a sick feeling settling in your abdomen. Your skin began to crawl, and you just couldnât stop hyperventilating.
You began to panic. Eyes searching frantically for relief. You werenât sure what you were looking forâsomething, anything.
You suddenly felt like you were too out in the open, needing to seclude yourself away from the sight of prying eyes. You set into a sprint, off of the field and around the corner of the nearest part of the building to you, trying to find some shade from the hot sun and hide yourself from anyone who might see your pathetic state.
But it was too late. Mason had seen the whole thing.
They had just paused their game for a short water break. He had seen you take the shot, instead hitting the crossbar. It only took him a few seconds once you paused to realize that something wasnât right.
He watched the way your chest rose and fell rapidly in quick, short breaths. When you began attempting to pull your shirt away from your body, he instantly knew what was taking place. Heâd recognize that feeling anywhere.
You were having a panic attack, whether you realized it or not.
As soon as he saw you take off for the side of the building, he was running after you without so much as a word of explanation to his teammates.
Once in the shade of the wall you hid behind, you began pacing, unable to keep still. Every inch of your body felt jittery, and you felt unsteady on your legs. You couldnât manage more than rapid, shallow breaths. Your throat felt tight, your breaths sounding more like wheezes, and it was starting to make your head spin. Your hands flew to your head, scratching at your scalp in an attempt to somehow rid yourself of the feeling.
You were startled by Mason swiftly rounding the corner, concern written all over his face as he stopped in front of you.
âHey, hey, hey, youâre okay,â he spoke calmly and evenly. He quickly reached up, taking your wrists in his hands so he could gently but firmly pull your hands out of your hair to keep you from hurting yourself.
âI canât, Mason. I canât,â you panted, shaking your head ânoâ frantically and still trying to weakly pull your hand from his grip.
âYouâre okay, Y/N. Try to slow down your breathing,â Masonâs calm voice directly contrasted your frantic behavior, speaking in short sentences so as to not overwhelm you more. âYouâre safe. Iâve got you.â
A short sob fell from your lips, and you felt the tears spilling over and down your cheeks.
âWeâre gonna lose,â you sobbed, and his eyebrows furrowed slightly in confusion. âThe semifinal, weâre gonna lose it, and itâs gonna be all my fault.â
In that moment, everything clicked into place for Mason-- the UWCL run, your success in the games leading up to the semi-final leg, the pressure from the fans and the team, the countless extra hours you had been putting in.
A loud noise in the distance, coming from the direction of the parking lot, startled you, snatching your attention and you whipped your head to the side, eyes searching frantically for the source. He released your wrists from his hand, testing the waters as he turned your head back to look at him with a hand on your cheek.
He cradled your face with a hand on either side, keeping your focus on him. His thumbs wiped the tears away that had slipped down your cheeks.
âHey, look at me. Youâre gonna be okay. Iâve got you,â he repeated the affirmations he had already been telling you.
As he stroked his thumbs softly over the skin of your cheek, he felt that your breathing was already growing a bit slower. You had reached up, holding onto his wrists with both of your hands to steady yourself, feeling too unsteady on your feet. His hands were gentle and soft on your skin.
Mason watched your expression, taking long deep breaths for you to emulate. Your eyes were still wide, darting frantically around his face, but you were trying your best to follow his breathing. He continued whispering short reassurances.
âYouâre safe.â
âItâs gonna be okay.â
âIâve got you.â
You were beginning to calm down, but your eyes darted to something behind Mason, pulled away from the calm atmosphere he had tried to create for you.
âHey, hey, stay with me,â he spoke gently, pressing his forehead to yours so you would only focus on him. You were shocked at how little the intrusion on your personal space bothered you. In fact, to your surprise, the closeness seemed to settle you a little more.
You continued focusing on your breathing, gripping tightly to his wrists as if you thought heâd disappear if you let go. Your eyes were clamped closed, listening to Masonâs soft and slow breathing. You felt your pounding heart being to slow its pace.
The panic you had been feeling subsided, leaving behind a wave of extreme fatigue. You felt completely and utterly drained.
Mason must have noticed the way that your body slumped over, and he guided you to sit down on the grass, leaning back against the brick wall of the building. He sat down next to you, leaving space so he didnât make you more nervous. But in the haze you felt in your mind, you felt a need to still be close to him, leaning over so you could place your head on his shoulder. A short pang of guilt washed over you as you noticed the crescent-shaped indents you had left on his wrists, your nails digging into the skin as you had held onto him.
The two of you sat in silence for a few minutes, your eyes slipping closed as you continued focusing on breathing slowly. A gentle breeze blew through, cooling your clammy skin and brushing through the blades of grass.
âI used to get them sometimes, too, you know?â Mason broke the silence, speaking softly.
You responded with a quiet, âhmm?â unsure of what he meant.
âPanic attacks,â he explained. âAt the end of last season, before I left Chelsea. There was a lot of pressure. Any time I played, everyone had something to say about it. Even when I didnât play, some would find a reason to be upset. It all just got to be too much.â
A deep sadness filled you while you listened to his words. âHow did you get through it?â
âBen found me having one in my car after training one day.â He was quiet for a moment. âI tried to power through itâlike you. Skipping lunch and staying late to train a bit extra on the field or put in an extra session in the gym. But once Ben realized what was going on, he made sure that I was taking care of myself properly and wasnât dealing with it on my own anymore.â
You sat up so you could look at Masonâs face, and you saw a hint of sadness there. âSo Iâll tell you what he told me. There are 10 other people with you on that field at all times. If you fall down, there are 10 pairs of hands ready to help you back to your feet. If you succeed, there are 10 others to celebrate with you. But itâs not all on you.â
Your eyes were misty, welling up with tears at his words. He slipped his arm around your shoulders, pulling you into a secure hug as the tears began to stream down your cheeks.
âNo matter the outcome of the game next week, youâre an incredible player, Y/N.â He placed a soft kiss to the top of your head. âYouâve already done so much so early in your career. The media and the fans will say what they wantâdonât let them get to you. And your coaches may get carried away with their expectations for you, but itâs just because theyâre so excited to see you succeed. Just be the player you know how to be, and your achievements will speak for themselves.â
âThank you, Mason,â you whispered after pondering his words for a moment. No words could express the gratitude you felt for the relief he had brought you just by letting you know that he was there and he understood. But as he squeezed your shoulders lightly in response, you hoped he knew just how thankful you were.
Eventually, Mason helped you to your feet, guiding you back toward the fields. You were still feeling a bit weak and unsteady, so he made sure you remained upright with a gentle hold on your arm as you walked. Deciding it was time for you to call it a day, he insisted on collecting the cones that you had been training with, not allowing you to help him by picking up even one of them.
It took some convincing but you told him you would be fine to drive yourself homeâhis only condition was that you texted to let him know you made it there safely.
âAlright, then. Rest on your day off tomorrow. Give yourself a break, okay?â he spoke as he put the last of the cones away. âIâll check in with you on Monday, if thatâs okay.â He didnât want to overstep any boundaries. The two of you had been friendly before today, but you wouldnât have considered yourselves close friends. He just wanted to be sure that you knew you had people in your corner.
âYeah, Iâd like that a lot,â you nodded, smiling at him. With a final hug, he sent you on your way as he turned to rejoin his (undoubtedly confused) teammates where he had left them.
âRemember: rest!â he shouted back at you as you parted ways, and you couldnât stop the blushing smile that worked its way onto your face.
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Heyo, I have a bit of a prompt for ya. So Iâve seen the âDemon that wants to abduct and forcibly marry Reader,â post(s) and raise a âThe local regent/king finds Reader attractive (in a way that he views her almost like a novelty than as a whole person) and offers her a position as a concubine/ âpalace lady.ââ This is a different kind of scenario because straight up murdering the king of the area is not exactly the option thatâd let the journey continue smoothly and refusal could also be construed as an offense to the king, but Reader does not want to and needs to continue with them on the journey. All of the other disciples know this, and maybe can tell sheâs uncomfortable (even if itâs before Wukong has really fallen for Reader, she is still someone he would consider to be his friend at the very least). How are they going to get out of this one? (Slightly inspired by the time Tripitaka was propositioned in the Kingdom of Women by the Empress.)
Ps: sorry if this is dumb, regardless, I hope you have a good day - đș anon
King: So what do you say, girl? Will you become my concubine? I see no possible reason for you to say no! I can give you all you could ever ask for in exchange for serving my every whim! That seems like a wonderful deal for a woman like you that clearly comes from nothing.
Reader:
Wukong:
Sandy:
Pigsy:
Ao Lie:
Reader: Wha-What?
Tripitaka: N-Now wait just a minute, your Majesty. You c-can't simply expect her to drop everything and stay here-
King: Well of course I can! I am the king of these lands! In fact! I insist upon it! Woman, you shall stay here and serve your new king immediately as soon as you are cleaned.
Reader: *feeling a panic attack approaching as the room starts to spin*
Wukong: *holding back the urge to commit violent murder*
Sandy: *rethinking this whole "pacifism" thing*
Pigsy: *looking disgusted at the king*
Ao Lie: *wondering if anyone would notice if he turned back into a dragon and ate the king*
Tripitaka: *trying so hard to think of a peaceful solution while also trying not to cry over how much the king is objectifying Reader* Y-You can't just h-have her! She's a necessary part of our pilgrimage!
King: By the Heavens! She's just one woman how valuable could she be!? After all, she is just your maidservant is she not!?
Tripitaka: *remembering that is the disguise they came up with for her* Yes, b-but! Why must you have her, great King!?
King: Because I have never seen a woman like her before! She is a beautiful foreign flower that I simply must have for myself! Here! I shall be merciful and send you off with another servant!
King: *gestures to his guards to find a servant*
Wukong: *reaches toward his ear for his staff*
Sandy: *reaches for his spade*
Pigsy: *reaches for his rake*
Ao Lie: *gets ready to turn into a dragon*
Tripitaka: *frozen in shock*
Reader: *sees the carnage about to begin*
Reader: I HAVE A DISEASE!
Everyone: *stops and turns to face her* HUH?!
Reader: I... have a disease.
King: *narrows eyes in suspension* And what is the name of this disease?
Reader: *sweats nervously as all knowledge of every disease she knows of decides to take a vacation from her brain at the one moment she needs it most*
Reader: In... junct... co... itis.... Injunctcoitis.
Everyone:
King: I have never heard of this Injunctcoitis. *turns to the court physician*
Court physician: Neither have I, your Majesty.
Reader: It's a northern disease! From the north! Where I'm from!
King: *looks at court physician*
Court physician: It is possible, your Majesty. *approaches Reader starts inspecting her* And what are the symptoms?
Reader: Oh, w-women don't have any symptoms. *takes a deep breath and composes herself* But for men it makes their dick fall off.
Everyone: IT WHAT!?!?!?!
Reader: Yep! After two months, yo dick just gonna... fall off. And it's a sexually transmitted disease.
King: I can't take any risk of that being true! Get them out of here before this disease spreads to the kingdom!
The Pilgrim Gang: *gets escorted out of the kingdom*
Everyone:
Reader: *sniffles*
The boys: *hugs Reader*
P.S. this so wasn't dumb I had fun writing this đ€
#đș anon#skittle answers#isekai'd to the west#isekai'd to the west skit#journey to the west x reader#jttw x reader#sun wukong#journey to the west#jttw#monkey king#wukong#the pilgrim gang#tripitaka#sandy#pigsy#ao lie#tang sanzang#sha wujing#zhu bajie#bai longma
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When Someone Flirts with You | Haikyuu [Karasuno]
Ok, so I debated on this for a while because this has already ben posted. However, its on a blog I don't/can't go on anymore. Since this is my writing (idea and all), I'm gonna repost it here. I did debate on reblogging the fic here, but it's my works and I want them with me, on this blog. Basically, if you've seen this exact fic posted two years ago, it was me. That blog has my name and everything if you need proof. I just don't want to draw attention to it. I did reuse tags lol cuz I don't know them too well yet
Characters: Shoyo Hinata, Tobio Kageyama, Kei Tsukishima, Tadashi Yamaguchi, Ryunosuke Tanaka, Yu Nishinoya, Asahi Azumane, Koshi Sugawara, Daichi Sawamura
Extra: they're all aged up btw
COME ONE! COME ALL! See what happens when someone flirts with you in front of your mans!
âș Shoyo Hinata
Heâs kinda scared of PDA? Not scared, but he gets embarrassed easily. So thereâs not much touching in public, aside from hand holding. This leads people to not know youâre taken and so youâre fair game.
This boy is NOT scary. Heâs quite the opposite unless he has his MOMENT which is rare and fizzles out really fast. At first, heâll let you handle the situation and ONLY jump in when heâs positive you require help. Heâs not a helicopter boyfriend, youâre an adult. You can handle yourself. So, heâll usually come up and tell the person that youâre uncomfortable and that they should go away.
Thatâs never worked before. Ever. Not one time. Hinata just looks CUTE and heâs not the tallest. Even as an adult, heâs still about 172cm (5â7). So thereâs a chance the person is taller than him and if they are, they wonât take him seriously. The whole âunder 6ft is not a manâ bs. Theyâll just shove him aside to get to you.
He hates that. Thereâs one thing to tease him and bully him but YOU? Oh thatâs a whole nother ball game. Hinata doesnât like seeing you upset/uncomfortable. He does everything in his power to keep you smiling so when he sees someone directly causing you discomfort⊠God help them.
The next method would depend on the situation. If he has a ball with him, he will throw it (this happened once at practice when you came to watch and someone wouldnât leave you alone). But he can also jump to their height and punch/slap them. Hinata has gotten much stronger since his high school days. He will defend you at all costs.
His little jump attack? 10/10 it works EVERY SINGLE TIME and theyâre GONE. Or you know⊠unconscious. Usually the area would go dead silent and all you can hear is Hinata huff. Heâll take your hand as gently as he can and lead you out of the establishment. Once you have fresh air, heâll gently take your shoulders and ask if youâre ok. Reassurance is especially important here.
âTheyâll never bother you again, (n/n). Are you ok?â
âș Tobio Kageyama
Tobio isnât one to flaunt your relationship because heâs a pretty private person. So not EVERYONE knows youâre together. Which is completely fine and acceptable, itâs just how he is. The thing is, this leads to situations where people think youâre single. If he walks away or youâre alone, people will take their chance.
 You get hit on when youâre alone, usually. So, youâll always try to find Tobio when youâre in that situation. Heâll spot you in seconds. Heâs always got an eye on you (cuz youâre hot and he canât help it).  Youâll get the person to see Tobio and heâll just GLARE. Usually, about 9 times outta 10, his death glare makes everyone go away. Itâs pretty scary, especially if heâs like two feet away from them.
But thereâs always one person it doesnât work on. The one who decides to push it and try to physically touch you. This has only happened once, but the person rolled their eyes, pushed Tobio away, and pushed you against the wall.
Oh boy. Tobio doesnât care if people bother HIM but someone who makes you uncomfortable tries to touch you? Their funeral. Especially this dirtbag. Your eyes widened in pure fear and panic when your back roughly hit the wall. The personâs face was inches away from your own and you couldnât see Tobio anymore. Youâd frozen up completely.
It only lasted a second before the person was on the floor. Youâd barely had time to blink before Tobio DRAGGED them and roughly threw them to the side. The person glared and sat up, ready to curse him out when Tobio kicked him in the chest. This is usually how it would go. He takes them by surprise and throws them to the ground, all while barely breaking a sweat.
10/10 theyâre probably unconscious or too terrified to move. Heâll just glare at them before slowly walking over to you. Tobio will give you a minute and will often try to hide you from the crowd that is undoubtedly staring at you. If your other friends are there, they'll hide you from view until youâre calm enough to where Tobio can take you away.
âAre you ok? Itâs ok, take a deep breath. No one will ever do that to you again⊠I swear.â
âș Kei Tsukishima
If youâre dating Tsukishima, youâve gotta be tough on SOME LEVEL. Thereâs no way you canât handle him but got close enough to start dating him. Then again⊠he doesnât mind a cute, soft, shy partner. That just means heâll need to be your shield more often than not. And letâs be honest, he likes protecting you. Tsukiâs not big on PDA. Like Kageyama, the entire world doesnât need to know your business. So people can think youâre single. And you, lil pretty thang, you attract people.
You try to stick next to your boyfriend when youâre out in a public place or somewhere with lots of people. But if he does leave for a minute or you do, people will swoop in. Tsuki knows IMMEDIATELY. He just does, heâs psychic like that. Heâll see if you need help and if you do, heâll come stand by. Tsukiâs height alone is enough to deter people, but of course, heâs pretty lanky (like⊠whereâs the muscle?). So, most people wouldnât be too deterred. 5/10.
See, Tsuki gets it, youâre hot. Of course people wanna flirt with you but they should learn to take a hint. Especially when you tell them youâre not interested. They usually kinda just ignore him or push him out of the way or even try to take you away. Like hell Tsukiâs gonna let that happen. Bitch please. Anyone who underestimates Tsuki is in for a treat. He can and will destroy someoneâs self esteem through words. Who needs to fight? Not him. He will roast tf outta some until theyâre no longer confident in themselves.
Thatâs the good thing about Tsuki, he doesnât need muscle to chase people off. Heâs not that weak either though, so worse comes to worse, he can defend you. But worry not, thereâs no need for violence with that mouth of his. There is ONE more thing Tsuki will do that will ALWAYS get rid of people. He does this rarely because it scares you a little, but it's effective.
Tsuki will come up to you and then⊠heâll punch the wall above your head and glared down at the person. No one stays after that! So 10/10! Would recommend. After that, Tsuki sighs and lets his hand fall on your head, breaking you out of your trance.
âYour face looks weird. Come on, itâs fine now. Letâs go somewhere else though.â
âș Tadashi Yamaguchi
Oh boyâŠÂ
He HATES confrontation, but for you, heâll step right in. Usually, Tadashi likes to get in between you and the offender. Heâll try to tell them to stop bothering you. He really crosses his fingers and hopes itâll work.
2/10, sadly, heâs just too cute to be scary. So, usually, people just brush past him or even shove him away. This kinda does put a damper on his mood. He wishes every single time he was as scary as Tsukishima (who wouldnât want to be?) so he could scare people off. When you see that though⊠ooh.
This usually causes you to get VERY upset! You donât like it when people treat Tadashi like crap so you become quite aggressive. That works BUT sometimes youâll get those creeps that like âfeistyâ people. So theyâll often just pin you to a wall. This usually sparks something in Tadashi. He just⊠loses it. Sorry, Tsukishima who?
Since their backs are turned to him, heâll just come up behind them, grab their hair and pull so hard they fall to the ground. If theyâre bald then heâll do the same but with their shirt. Youâll take your chance to hide behind Tadashi, whoâs just death glaring at the person on the floor.
69/10! Works EVERY SINGLE TIME! Tadashi doesnât understand it, where the hell did that come from?! But itâs very effective because the person is always gone. He just hopes no one stands up to fight him because heâll 100% lose. Heâll realize that he mightâve been really scary and slowly turns around to face you.
âA-are you ok? I-Iâm sorry if I scared you.â
âș Ryunosuke Tanaka
Everyone and their grandmothers have to know you two are together! Heâs usually all over you but you donât hate it. Itâs nice when youâre in a place with creeps around. But sometimes one of the creeps doesnât see him or does see him but doesnât care. Theyâll saunter over to you and just shamelessly start flirting.
Heâll join them! Literally. Heâll swing his arm around the person and just lean in and start complimenting you. âYouâre right, theyâre hot! Hey baby! You here by yourself?â Itâs odd, but you always feel better when heâs nearby in situations like this.
Usually, the person gets weirded out. They donât know Tanaka (unless they saw him) and so theyâll either claim youâre theirs or just ask Tanaka what heâs doing. Usually, it works. If they recognize him, theyâll just quickly leave but sometimes they donât. Theyâll shove him off and try to regain your attention.
Tanaka takes it as a compliment. Heâs not one to just start getting aggressively possessive. No. Youâre HOT. DROP DEAD GORGEOUS! He takes it as a compliment when people flirt with you BUT to an extent. If they make you uncomfortable he goes nuts. Yeah, youâre ridiculously attractive but that doesnât mean you donât have feelings.
His next method is usually shoving them back. Heâll make it clear that youâre his partner and youâre not comfortable. Sometimes this makes people go away but thereâs always one. For that, Tanaka just punches them. It only takes one. Theyâre either knocked out or just too scared to stay.
10/10. Unconscious or gone. Heâll smirk proudly, then hug you immediately. If youâre super scared or just really anxious, heâll take a second before touching you. He prefers to reassure first before getting too into your space.
âItâs ok, theyâre gone. Come on, letâs go somewhere else.â
âș Yu Nishinoya
Heâs kind of like Tanaka. He loves to show off his gorgeous partner. Everyone has to know cuz he brags about you ALL THE TIME. Kiyoko who?
Like I said, heâs like Tanaka. Heâll join whoeverâs flirting with you. âHey sexy! Wanna get outta here?â This prompts the person to ask who tf he is. âHuh? Oh! Iâm just flirting with my partner. Theyâre hot, right? I know.âÂ
3/10. That, unsurprisingly, fails. Why wouldnât it? Unlike Tanaka⊠Nishinoyaâs just kinda⊠cute. Heâs not very intimidating. People just shove him away and turn their attention back to you.
Nishinoyaâs really in tune with your emotions. Like⊠itâs kinda weird how well he knows you. He can just feel the second you panic. That really pisses him off. He even scares you sometimes.
Heâll usually grab the personâs arm and tug them back, silently with just fury in his eyes. âDonât. Touch. Them.â This bumps the effectiveness to 8/10. People get scared and leave but thereâs always one. Noyaâs already in aggressive mode, so itâs not too difficult to handle this person. Heâll kick their knee. Hard. If it breaks, oh well. 10/10. Theyâre gone. Either taken away by friends or something, but they wonât ever bother you again. At this point, Noya takes your hand and leads you away.
âSorry if I scared you, but we should leave. Iâm sorry you had to go through that. Some people are just disgusting.â
âș Asahi Azumane
He doesn't show you off like Tanaka or Noya, but he usually has his arm around you. This proves to everyone you're his, right? Well some people just donât care.Â
If he sees you getting uncomfy, he'll be by your side in a second!! He usually starts off by putting distance between you and the offender. 5/10; Asahiâs pretty intimidating looking, so 50% of the time, people get scared off. But there are some who donâtâŠ
Heâs not a fighter. He wonât just resort to kicking ass, so heâll try to explain that youâre uncomfy. That kinda shows people heâs intimidating on the outside but soft on the inside, so they push him out of the way. Thatâs when youâll scream for Asahi to help.
Itâs on purpose, actually. Because it kinda sparks something in him. He just⊠changes. He doesnât like it when youâre uncomfortable and he hates it when youâre scared. So, heâll grab the personâs shoulder with a death grip. With one rough shove backwards and away from you usually does the trick. If it doesnât⊠weâll heâs pretty strong and heâs a big guy.
then people realize⊠yeah no, heâs just as scary on the inside. 10/10 theyâre GONE.
âHey are you ok? Iâm so sorry you had to deal with that. Do you wanna go home? We can just watch movies and cuddle.â
âș Koshi Sugawara
Koshi is attached to you at the hip. Heâs always with you and your friends know youâre dating. But heâs not really one for super, crazy PDA. I mean, he doesnât have an issue with it, he often just finds himself standing next to you. Not touching you. This kinda leads most people to think youâre just friends.
Koshi kinda lets you handle it, but if youâre starting to get really uncomfortable, just look at him. Heâll stand beside you and just ask whatâs going on. To which most people tell him to âget lostâ. Heâll just smile and explain that youâre not very comfortable and they should leave you alone.Â
0/10. Itâs never worked and it never will. They usually sigh, roll their eyes, grab your hand and try to tug you away from Koshi.
Usually, thatâs what sends Koshi into like⊠defensive, scary Koshi. Flirting is one thing, being pushy is one thing, but forcefully taking you awayâŠ
The second someone pulls you away, heâll grab their wrist with such a strong grip, it causes bruising. That causes the person to let go and you immediately run and hide behind Koshi.
69/10! The air around Koshi is just suffocating, heâs horrifically intimidating, and with just one look people go rigid. No one bothers him or you if you're still at the establishment. Chances are youâll leave though.
âSorry if I scared you, darling. Are you ok? Come on, letâs get you home.â
âș Daichi Sawamura
Daichiâs kinda like Suga. Heâs usually seen with his arm around your shoulders or you attached to his arm. Again, heâs not against PDA- heâll kiss you in public, no problem- but does he need to? If not, thereâs no reason. So again, people have a hard time telling youâre together.
Because of that, he doesnât become aggressive when someone flirts with you. Maybe they didnât know and they DID build up the courage to talk to you. So, heâll just stand beside you and kindly explain youâre taken and you donât appreciate the flirting.
Itâs rare that this works out. Some people will genuinely apologize and leave, which is great. But the chances of that are like 2%. 98% of people scoff and just brush him off, turning back to you and explaining theyâd be a better option.
Oh boy. Daichi does NOT appreciate that. Heâs caring and sweet and often doesnât seem like a scary guy BUT HE CAN BE. This lil âscary Daichiâ thing depends on you. If youâre ok, just talk to the person, but if theyâre really giving you anxiety just ask him for help. Thereâs just a way his name comes out of your mouth when youâre scared that irks him. He hates it when youâre so scared and vulnerable. So, scary Daichi is the result!
So, the next step is Daichi grabbing the person by the collar and glaring at them. âMaybe Iâll need to beat the respect into you which I really donât mind doing.â Daichi is NOT bluffing. Anyone who dares challenge him WILL get their ass beat. He doesnât negotiate when it comes to your safety/comfort.
10/10 NO ONE WANTS AN ANGRY DAICHI! 100% of people who go up against an angry Daichi run off with their tail between their legs. Heâs just so goddamn scary. But he understands he can scare you too, so heâll immediately get that under control. Heâll slowly approach you and try to touch you. Once you hug him, heâll know everythingâs ok.
âLetâs leave. Iâll buy you some ice cream on the way home, that sound good?â
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