#i'm going to be okay they dont beat me anymore and im not actively suicidal anymore so something will work out eventually!!!

[huraiyra]

Wait your parents call you their dog? What the hell?! Are you ok?

NO IM OKAY sorry, they don't literally call me a dog I just feel like one bc I don't have autonomy. they bring me everywhere to show off how obedient I am or whatever their deal is, and they control my hair my clothes my friends my job my living situation my hobbies and my actions to some extent. like it's for the greater good and I have leniency I'm not quite a prisoner I'm just like Rapunzel :) I can paint :) and leave whenever I want I just... I just feel like and feel like I'm treated as a chihuahua in a handbag (treated really well but ultimately not really like a human and more of an accessory) (I heavily use metaphors to describe my life) and I am not at all equipped for living bc personally I don't feel human but maybe thats just my autism's fault bc I'm sure a little abuse and control doesn't make others feel this way. I wanna move out but what is my mom gonna do without me but if I stay I am subjected to psychological torture but if I leave I get no love and care and comfort and also the housing market is so bad where tf do I live haha. anyway c'est la vie!