#i'm feeling sentimental tonight idk

[diary-of-a-scarlet-ibis]

I'm still struggling with my own brain when it comes to writing, even 5 months after I got covid. At this point I have to assume it's permeant (as frustrating as that might be)

It feels like I've been transported back at least 7 years in my skill, like all the work I put in over the years was erased overnight (well I was sick for about 4 days so maybe not quite overnight).

Writing stories has always come so easily to me that having to work at it makes me feel like I'll never regain the skill. That isn't true though, I've been working at it and I can already see some improvement

I have my good days and my bad days but it's getting better. I don't feel as lost for words when I speak anymore and sometimes I even find them flowing in the way they used to

Tonight is definitely one of the better days. I'm going to try and focus on appreciating that

Eventually I'll get it back. Even be able to write something I want to show people again. Write fic again (something I always found more challenging than original works, but also more rewarding)

For now I'm taking it slow. I'm writing for myself and sticking to things I find easier, and of course trying to forgive myself for not being at the level I once was

[ash5monster01]

Could you pretty please do Marty Mcfly x reader? One where they're friends and they're hanging out in the Doc's garage and marty is showing her everything and idk where to go from there.

I'm so glad you write for him. I feel like he gets no attention!

Thank you!

All of You

Pairing: Marty McFly x FemReader

Warnings: fluff, unreciprocated feelings, self doubt, cheesy lovesick teenagers, soft intimacy. 

Summary: When your lifelong friend and short time crush invites you to spend an evening in Doc’s garage, you don’t expect the outcome it actually brings. 

word count: 1.5k

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When you had agreed to join Marty during practice tonight, that is what you had expected him to do. Especially since he was dead set on landing the school dance gig. Yet the second you walk through the doors of Doc's garage that entire plan is thrown to the wind. Marty takes one look at your curious eyes and next you know he's showing you everything the large garage witheld. Every trinket, experiment, odd and end. It started with the clocks, him explaining Doc’s incessant need to collect so many. Then it spiraled from there, a prideful look on his face as he explained all the mystical things the garage held. 

“You know, I’d think you’d be more into science then you actually are based on how much you know about this stuff” you tell him while he’s showing you a particularly weird trinket, not even beginning to understand what it does or at least what Doc says it does. 

“I don’t know, I find it interesting, but science has never really come to me. Not like it does for Doc” Marty shrugs, hands reaching to set down one of Doc’s inventions. You knew he really cared for his relationship with the older man, most likely because he wasn’t all that close with his father. 

“I don’t think you’re giving yourself the benefit of the doubt. You’re smart Marty, I’ve known that my whole life” you tell him, hand reaching to squeeze his shoulder and you miss the way he tenses at your touch. The longing in his eyes as he lets the compliment settle into his bloodstream. 

“Don’t you hear Mr. Strickland? You’re a slacker Marty” the boy mocks the teachers voice, flopping onto the couch and closing his eyes. You sigh and move closer to him, taking a seat in the spot beside him before setting a comforting hand on his thigh. 

“You’re not a slacker Marty, in fact you’re one of the most dedicated guys I know. You need to stop being so hard on yourself” you say a touch annoyed. It was exhausting how often you had to remind the boy how amazing he was. His attitude was a direct response from years of watching his Dad think he wasn’t good enough. To you he was one of the most caring and genuine people you knew. 

“I know, but why should I if you’ve got all the confidence I need” he says, a teasing tone and smirk on his face. You roll your eyes and give him a slight shove, trying not to smile when he laughs loudly at the action. 

“It’s exhausting carrying around mine and you’re own confidence. Besides, you need yours to land this band gig. Which brings me to my next point which is you haven’t even attempted to practice yet” you tell him, a pointed but unserious look on your face. If you were being honest he didn’t really need the practice. He was already amazing at what he did. Sometimes he got carried away but that was rock n’ roll, it’s how to was supposed to be. 

“I don’t want to practice. I just want to sit here with you” and he instantly blushes at how whiny and needy he sounds, especially towards his own best friend. You don’t even notice though, trying to mask your own heart stuttering in your chest at the sentiment. 

“If that’s all you want, who am I to complain” you say before readjusting and leaning into him. You try not to focus on how warm he is or the way your palms begin to sweat from nervousness. This was Marty after all, you’re eldest friend and the one person in the world you should be the most comfortable with. Yet the thing about crushes is you couldn’t control the things they will do to you. No matter who it’s on. 

Marty doesn’t expect the closeness but allows it anyway, lifting his arm so you can tuck up underneath his side, lowering it around you the second you’re comfortable. He prays you can’t feel his heart racing in his chest, the way you settle against him so naturally, it made him wish you were his. The one person in this world to love and to keep. Not be held back from kissing you or telling you how he feels every time he fears he will lose you as a friend. 

“You ever wonder what it would be like to be more than friends?” You blurt out, a mix of confidence and desperation causing you to ask the blunt question. Maybe it was easier because he couldn’t see your face. Or maybe it was the annoyance over how you could be so close to him like this and not gain anything from it. You were tired of tip toeing around the fact that he was the one person in this world you truly loved and couldn’t do a damn thing about it. 

“What?” Marty asks, a bit shocked and thrown off guard and you can’t help the way you stiffen beside him. 

“It’s just, we spend so much time together and I’ve never been uncomfortable. It just seems weird that two people who know each other so intimately haven’t been, well, intimate” you blush a deep red, even the tips of your ears fading into a soft pink, thankful he still couldn’t see your face head on. Yet you thought to soon because Martys hand is grasping your chin, turning to look him in the eye where you can see his own face is a soft shade of pink as well. 

“I’m not really sure what to say” and suddenly you’re embarrassed, that confidence long gone as you begin to shake your head, and fight of the burning feeling at the back of your eyes. 

“I’m sorry, I’m being stupid, I shouldn’t of said anything” you start to move away from him, feeling like an idiot and ashamed you would even bring it up. Yet his hand on your arm stops you, your eyes glancing at his grip and then up to meet his own, a desperation and something else entirely bubbling underneath the surface. 

“It’s not stupid, in fact I think about it all the time myself if I’m being honest” he admits sheepishly, eye glancing anywhere but your own and you swear your heart freezes in your chest. Trying to understand what this could really truly mean and if it would mean what you hope it does. 

“Really? And it doesn’t weird you out?” You ask and the boy snorts, trying not to laugh too loudly because you had amused him with such a silly question. 

“Why would it weird me out? Just because I’m your friend doesn’t mean I don’t notice how gorgeous you are. In fact it’s kinda hard not to notice especially since your my favorite person in this world” he says like it’s the most obvious thing and now you’re sure your entire body is fire truck red because the boy you loved just called you gorgeous. 

“Yeah well if you weren’t so damn cute all the time neither of us would be in this predicament” you agree and finally Marty smiles because he knows you. He knows this is your way of joking about your feelings to soften the blow if it doesn’t go your way. That if right now he said he didn’t want you it could be a cushion to protect you from the punch. 

“Hey, I like you more than friends. I never had to wonder because it’s how I always look at you” and you gulp nervously, not expecting the forthcoming honesty, considering this whole conversation had been you both tip toeing around each other. 

“Really?” You ask, voice slightly shaky and mostly hopeful and Marty smiles, pulling you close. When he doesn’t provide an answer you feel the panic begin to swell but then suddenly his nose is nudging against your own, hot breath fanning across you lips, and just like that you’re puddy in the boys hands. His answer comes when his lips press softly against your own, not to desperate but just enough to get the point ocross. It takes a moment to even process what was happening, how you were locking lips with your best friend, but when reality sets in you can’t help how desperately you kiss him back. Needing to feel closer to him in this moment than you ever have. After was feels like hours he finally pulls away, pecking one soft kiss into your lips before his eyes focus into your own.

“Believe me now?” He says, oozing the confidence you had tried to pull out of him when you had first gotten here and you can’t help the way you giggle as you hug him close.

“Yeah, I believe you” 

[a-world-with0ut-dr34ms]

Would you write a smut fic with ghost x dom reader x soap??(reader can be fem or gn and make both boys submissive maybe a moment where they fuck each other and the reader watches them and controls them).IDK WRITE IT HOWEVER YOU IMAGINE IT. I just dont have the skill to write so i am requesting it here.I hope its not weird.

I got you (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

Ghost x Dom!Reader x Soap

Ghost and Soap find themselves crushing on the same woman on their team, a friendly bout between two comrades to see who you'll choose, only your answer's not one they'd expected to hear.

NSFW 18+, Shameless Smut, Porn With Plot, very little plot, MMF, P in V sex, Tons of Teasing, Steamy Makeouts, Groping, Grinding, Double-Penetration, Anal, Ceampie, Explicit Description, Graphic Language, Dom!Reader, Sub!Soap, Sub!Ghost, Sexual Tension, Some Ghostsoap moments as well, Playful Banter, Bickering, Flirting, Build-Up, Jealousy, Soap and Ghost are fighting over the same girl, but it's friendly competition, ends in a three way too so, will do more proofreading I promise!

WC: 7k ~

Author's Note: This took me way longer to type than it probably should have. I hope it makes for a good read. It's total nonsense, and probably not very realistic (though I do try). It's not exactly like the anon, I'm sorry! But hopefully, it's still good. Please, please, please enjoy, and thank you so much for reading my things!

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The front door shut close, leaving the living room just a bit more silent now that its previous company had just departed. You look back towards your remaining two house guests, the smile already unable to stop from forming on your face. You'd been hoping for some alone time with both Ghost and Soap, and it seems fate would smile on you tonight, for now, you had both of them here.

You invited the whole team back over to your place for the weekend, after having just come back from an op with both Price and Gaz, which lasted damn near over a month. The whole thing had been rather uneventful, to say the least; some reconnaissance and leads which went mostly nowhere (well, nowhere for your team; Laswell definitely had a heyday from the sound of things).

With how mind-numbingly dull the whole assignment turned out to be, everyone couldn't be happier to finally sit back and relax with some drinks and good company once back home. All night you spent recapping the events of the mission, including all the monotony which had conspired.

At one point, the most entertainment you could find out there had been both you and Gaz slowly "misplacing" Price's things -- unimportant items that wouldn't do any harm if left unnoticed. You had bets on how long it'd take for him to notice things slowly going missing everyday.

Surprisingly, you nearly got away with it for a whole week, until one morning when he finally questioned the funny look you two had on your faces when he'd been scratching his head, completely perplexed by the absence of his things. Price was in a better mood retelling the story than he had been in the moment.

Eventually, everyone started to disperse as the night went on -- Price got tired and left first, maybe an hour after that Gaz called it a night as well. Once they'd left, you found yourself in your living room with the only two mates you'd been thinking about all day, Ghost and Soap.

Only unbeknownst to both you and each other, both men had deliberately been trying to stick around, having shared the sentiment in wanting some long-awaited alone time with you... except the night keeps getting later, and they both keep giving each other increasingly odd looks, impatiently waiting for the other to leave so they could finally make a move on you.

Both Ghost and Soap have wanted you for a long time now, longer than either men cared to admit. Funnily enough, it was Ghost who'd caught feelings first.

It came to him as randomly as a Tuesday morning. You were just doing what you normally do. However, it had been your mundane actions that somehow drew him in initially. How you go about life with a smile and good attitude, the way you look at him when you found something funny, and the slight lilt to your voice when you talk and get excited. He would feel a lucky man indeed to be yours.

However, Soap had been the one to be more upfront about his interest in you, after developing feelings of his own. The Sergeant's likings to you came suddenly and without warning, but once they'd developed, it couldn't be more obvious that he was down BAD.

More often than not was he finding little excuses to touch you, whether it be a passing hand on the small of your back when squeezing by, or a congratulatory hug after a successful mission. Soap's suave charisma made it easy to do. And with the touching, it was always followed by some sly little line that would have you blushing and pulling at the fabric of your sleeve all shy-like.

He's slowly ramped the flirting up the more time passes, and Ghost knows if he doesn't at least say something now, then it won't be long before Soap takes the chance himself. Tonight had felt a perfect enough opportunity to finally make some waves, though, Soap was fast proving to be a formidable opponent.

"Jeez!" You stretch your hands over your head and yawn dramatically, both men's eyes luring a bit longer than they should have on you as you did so. "I didn't realize how late it was getting."

"Aye, same," Soap lets out a little yawn as well, making himself more comfy on your couch. "You don't mind though, no?"

"Not at all," you say. If only they knew how many nights you've spent letting one of the two men be your idle bedtime fancies into slumber. Wondering what it was they could be doing at that moment in time, and if they'd been thinking of you too. "I missed you guys."

"Aw, we missed you too, lass," Soap smiles at you, before his gaze drops over to Ghost's, who'd begun to glare.

He often forgoes the mask in more domestic environments like this with the team, the others having already seen him before. Though it didn't stop the man from forgetting not to wear his emotions on his face like he still had one on. You thought his eyes were expressive, but little had you all known it was only the tip of the iceberg.

Keeping calm and remaining stoic in combat is one thing, however, anger and disapproval came easy to him, in which case he rivaled for having the worst poker face you'd ever seen.

The Sergeant had taken this fouled expression for disagreement in his statement, even as the look had been for an entirely different reason altogether. Soap merely goes on, "Or, I missed you at least. Ghost might feel differently."

Bastard. Putting him on the spot like this; Ghost almost chuckles, the cheeky fuck. He knew what Soap was trying to do: subtly make himself look better in your eyes so that you choose him over the other.

Had he known better, Ghost would think Soap might actually be aware of the lieutenant's crush on you, by the way he smirked in his direction after saying it. He admits he hadn't expected Soap to partake in such petty games either; then again, this was a first, the two of them liking the same woman like this.

If this is how he plays, then Ghost thought only one thing -- Game on.

"Oh I'm sure you missed me too," you stand up from the couch now, twirling over to face him. "Right, Si'?"

"And then some, love," Ghost says.

Your smile brightens, and the man is ashamed to say that it gives him the warm fuzzies in these late hours. The way the living room lighting curved over your neck had also been a sight worth eliciting something deep within him.

Ghost takes a quick glance over at Soap, catching his less-than-excited reaction to the lieutenant's successful line. He has to remember not to grow too expressive at that moment. Not with you here at least.

You excuse yourself to the restroom shortly after, having paid no mind to the growing tension between your comrades. You'd all but taken the soothing atmosphere with you, leaving instead an awkward aura Ghost and Soap willfully drowned themselves in.

It's Ghost who speaks first, his dark eyes having watched your backside make its way down the hall and round the corner. The more drink he had in him, the less subtle his staring grew. Soap has noticed as much tonight especially.

"It's gettin' rather late." Ghost straightens up in his seat before finishing off his Bourbon and placing it back down on the coffee table. "Damn near one in the a.m. Yet you look proper cozy, mate."

"Aye, I am," Soap says rather proudly, further making his point by getting comfortable on the couch and taking another swig of his tequila. "Been too long since I been 'ere. Was startin' to miss layin' on the ol' thing," he rubs the cushion as though he were petting an old dog.

Ghost leans back in his seat now. "You stay over this late often, then?"

Soap pauses, having to double take that question, until his blue eyes fell on Ghost's brown ones, and he saw clearly what he was asking him.

He asks the man right back, "Do you, mate?"

A cocky little grin forms on the Scotsman's face. Had Ghost not been so wrapped up in you, it might have brought him to a pause there. Soap always did have a nice smile.

Soap didn't have to be a genius to know Ghost liked you though; he goes all but slack-jaw anytime you walk by him. Not to mention it wasn't a common thing for Ghost to be the one sticking around late during a get-together. He's normally the first to call it a night, in fact.

Only tonight, that hadn't been the case for him at all. No, Ghost was as planted in his chair as Soap was; they both might as well have sprouted roots. And they both had enough drink to muster up the right amount of bravado needed to keep this sudden, little interrogation going.

"I asked you first, Johnny," Ghost says, his deep voice laced with something more playfully cunning.

"And I answered you," Soap teases back.

"With a question."

"It's still an answer, no?"

Now Soap was just being deliberately obtuse. Ever since he knew he could do it, Soap's enjoyed pushing the lieutenant's buttons and getting a rile out of him. It's only increased tenfold over the last year, not that Ghost has tried to stop him.

Ghost leans forward now, resting his arms on his knees and furrowing his brow. "A'right, out with it, then," he says. "What's your game 'ere?"

Soap's brow furrows rather facetiously. '"I'm sorry, sir?"

"Don’t play dumb Johnny." The playful tone Ghost once used before has now since cooled, growing darker. "You know wha' I'm askin'."

Soap merely smirks, resting his arm back against the couch. "The same game you're playing, yeah?"

"And what game is that, Johnny?"

Soap can't help but laugh now, growing more and more cocky with each loaded exchange. On a normal day, Ghost might manage to intimidate the Sergeant every so often with his sheer presence, let alone his words. However, when it comes to women, Soap couldn't feel more in his element, especially up against his superior.

"One I'll beat you in."

Now it's Ghost's turn to have a laugh. A subtle thing, trapped beneath the burliness of his chest, though its deep rumble is audible enough, having warmed the Scotsman's cheeks at the sound.

"I doubt that," Ghost says.

"You underestimate my charm L.T."

Soap puckers his lips and kisses the air between the two men mockingly. As much as Ghost tried to hide it, the sight had made the air catch in his throat for a second. It's that usual, competitive nature about the Sergeant that really gets Ghost's blood pumping during these mutual bouts of bickering.

"My last statement still stands," Ghost chuckles. "So what? You thought I'd leave and you two would just go at it then?"

"I wouldn't say it like that," Soap says. "...But I was hoping to have some alone time with her, yes."

"And you figured on waitin' for the rest of us to vacate before making a move..." Ghost shrugs with affirmation. "...Clever man."

"Yeah, well, what about you?" Soap asks. "Clearly we're both still here for the same reason. What's your "game", L.T.?"

"It's not your concern."

Soap groans, sinking back in his seat, though he hadn't been surprised by his response. "Suppose it isn't, then," he says. "It's hers."

"That's right," Ghost agrees. "We can't both have her."

"Can't we?"

Ghost brings his eyes forward to Soap's, having thought his comment been a mere joke. However, once their gazes matched, Ghost could see that his Sergeant was dead serious.

Personally, Soap's never been opposed to the idea of a threesome. He'd even be lying if he said he hadn't fantasized about it from time to time, as boyish as it sounds. Adding Ghost into that equation hadn't tripped him up much in the slightest either; Lord knows the lieutenant would be next on Soap's list if you weren't at the top of it already.

Still, Ghost had a hard time even picturing a scenario where something like that could happen, let alone with all three of you. No doubt the man had been interested in you, and for a while, he'd even felt something for Soap as well, feelings that haven't necessarily gone away.

Something with all three of you would no doubt be perfect, however, it just seemed...

"Let's be real here, Johnny." Ghost leaves it at that.

"Suit yourself," Soap merely shrugs, before a light bulb moment suddenly lets off in his eyes. "How about we bring this to the source then? Hey Y/N!"

"Soap-"

"Oi, calm down, mate," he smiles at him. "No point in beatin' 'round the bush, aye?"

You reemerge from around the corner, having heard their voices vaguely through your door this entire time, but not being able to put full words together. Not without having your ear pressed to the wall. From the "uh-oh" look you had on your face, though, something told the two men you were already preparing for them to say something crazy.

"What's up?"

Soap gives Ghost a final look, waiting to see if the man will protest. However, when he sees that he doesn't speak, Soap grins, turning back to you.

"If you had to pick between Ghost and I, who're you choosin'?"

"Pick for what?" you ask, certainly needing clarification. "For battle?"

Soap bursts out laughing, just now feeling how awkward it was going to be explaining this to you. "No," he says. "Like if you had to pick one of us to... I don't know, go out on a date with, who would you pick?"

You keep smiling at Soap like he's joking, waiting to hear him laugh, but once you see he hasn't budged, you feel your heart begin to race.

Your eyes grow wide, now suddenly embarrassed to have the spotlight on you. "You're seriously asking?"

Soap nods. "I am."

You look over at Ghost now. Surely this was just another one of Soap's antics. "You too?"

Ghost shrugs. "I'd be lying if I said I wasn't curious."

You were hoping he wouldn't say that. But, if they were asking, then may God be your witness as you answer them.

Placing a hand to your chin, you pout to yourself and look back and forth between your teammates, sizing both men up for every physical feature they had to offer.

Your mind immediately goes to the gutter, not being able to help it. You've found them both distractingly good-looking ever since you joined the team, and you've more than thought about this before. Just never in comparison. Or out loud.

Soap looks like he'd be fun to play with -- he's eager, energetic, and even better, open-minded. Not to mention he was cocky too; you always liked a man who could talk his shit and back it up. With those big arms of his, he could just box you in against the bed and pin you down good and firm, as he drills into you, cooing that sweet little accent of his in your ear like he would. It made your body tingle just thinking about it.

And then there was Ghost; if there was any voice you wouldn't mind having growled in your ear while being fucked senseless, it was his. Unlike Soap, you just knew you wouldn't get it rough like you would from Ghost. You've lost count of how many times you've caught yourself gawking at him during sparring sessions or while out in the field, watching that bulking mass of muscle of his he called a body, manhandle any and everything in his way. Having him do the same to you in a more intimate sense never failed to make the lower parts of yourself start to throb at the thought.

After giving both men a good, long look, you sigh, letting your arms fall back to your sides.

"I can't choose."

"Ah, don't be shy now, lass," Soap says. "If you're worried about hurtin' our feelings-"

"No it's not that," you cut in. "It's just not an easy choice, you know?"

Ghost raises an eyebrow now. "Oh?"

"Oh, don't act all surprised, Simon."

"You like us both then?" Soap asks cautiously.

"I'd say so." You begin to smirk. "Why? What's going on here?"

The two give each other a look, before Ghost goes to explain things to you.

"We're just trying to figure out which one of us has a shot."

"Figures you should be the deciding vote, seeing as you're the subject of interest, lass."

You imagine you look pretty stupid standing at the center of your living room all wide-eyed like you do, but frankly, this just feels too good to be true. It hadn't been one of them that was supposedly into you, but both of them. If you could do a backflip, you'd do twelve right now, no questions asked.

But before you get head over heels about this, "So you're saying you both want me then?"

"In more ways than one, darlin'," Soap teases.

You glance over at Ghost this time, having taken note of his sudden silence. "You too, Simon?"

He hadn't necessarily been prepared to confess his feelings to you, not like this, and much less in front of an opposing audience. Still, Ghost wouldn't have his own Sergeant show him up so easily. Plus, the way your eyes lured at him this whole time had a chill running down his spine, making it hard to concentrate. So he nods, "That's right."

A devilish smile slowly creeps over your lips.

"Well, can't I just have you both?"

"Aye, that's what I'm sayin'!"

"Problem solved then, right?" You laugh.

"If only," Soap says. "Ghost didn't seem up for it when I brought it up earlier-"

"You puttin' words in my mouth now, Johnny." Ghost cuts in.

"Oh, don't switch up now L.T.-"

"Boys," you cut in before they've started going back in forth again, a playful smile still painting your lips. You were eating this up, if you were being honest. "Relax," you say. "We can... get to the bottom of this, yeah?"

Both your eyes shift over to Ghost, who now sits awkwardly to himself on the couch, hands resting motionless on his large lap.

"Well Simon?" You ask him. "Are you down?"

"I'm not one for sharing, love," Ghost coos at you.

You slowly make your way over to the lieutenant, your eyes looming over him like a panther that's just found its next meal. Ghost feels himself hold his breath, watching as you've paused just in front of him, your back now facing Soap, though you can feel his eyes on your backside, taking in the nice view of you, and feeling himself grow harder in his pants.

This close, having smelt your scent on the way over, and felt the remnants of your breath in the air between you two, Ghost could feel his mind beginning to slip out from itself, heading into dangerous territories.

He could see in your eyes you knew exactly what you were doing too. Exactly what you wanted to do. The ball was in your park, and that made you in charge from this point on. The only thing they needed to do now was listen. And Ghost was sitting at the edge of his seat, waiting to hear you.

"Come on, Si'," you say so playfully. "Don't be greedy."

Ghost merely scoffs, an awkward smile forming. "How can I not?"

As though to then challenge the man, you step even closer, placing yourself right at the brink between his legs, having now rested your dainty hands over his muscular thighs like a ledge to lean on. The man can't even stop himself from letting his hands rest on your hips, your body naturally shifting just a little closer as he's done it. Every little thing you did had him ready to tear you out of your clothes and devour you whole.

No, the man knows he's too greedy for his own good. If he had even the smallest taste of you, he wouldn't want your attention on no one other than him. Howbeit, looking back over towards the Sergeant only made him want to throw that caution out the window.

Soap doesn't see the man staring daggers into him at first; his blue eyes have been glued to your ass since you turned your back to him. For the short second he does glance up at the lieutenant, he grins daringly. Taunting him to go home and tuck tail so he could have you all to himself instead. Make this easier for him tonight.

That's just what Soap wants, Ghost thought. Here the opportunity was now to have you, and he's fumbling it away all because he feels he can't share with Soap. Saying it again in his head like that gets him thinking though. If that's the only hurdle between him and you fucking, then it seemed easy enough to step over.

He won't back down that easily, even if he has to "share" you. If you want him like he wants you, then you'll have him, however way you like, just as he'll have you.

Ghost brings his hands down and lets his fingers graze your ass just enough for the Sergeant to see since he couldn't keep his eyes off you. Sickly enough, he hopes the sight is driving the Scot mad. God knows Ghost feels mad enough himself.

The minute you've felt his touch on you, you hum pleasantly, stepping even closer, so that he could take better hold of your bottom and have your small body caged between his large arms and legs like walls, his face only inches or so from yours.

Ghost could feel himself getting more comfortable with the idea of sharing. At least when he had you to himself like this. Especially with how your hands have begun to leisurely rest over his shoulders now, keeping the man just as close.

"I knew you'd come around," you praise, your words now having the man feeling giddy, ready to take them to further levels.

"Just takes the right convincing," he hums.

"I'm feelin' awfully lonely back 'ere," Soap chimes in, doing the best he could not to sink so low as to start touching himself before being given the OK by you first, wanting to hear the words leave your pretty, little mouth. Even as his cock was already throbbing in his pants for some relief.

You merely chuckle, cocking your head back to look at the Sergeant. "I haven't forgotten about you, don't worry," you coo. "You just be a good little lad and wait a moment, yeah?"

Though he wanted to protest, step over, and take you all for himself, Soap did as you told him to and stayed put, continuing to let his eyes have their way with the parts of your body he's all but only been able to steal quick glances at before. He could only hope his patience would be rewarded; and so long as you keep talking to him like you are now, he'll wait until the sun rises if he has to.

You turn your attention back to Ghost, not having forgotten about his hands which oh so nonchalantly groped the cheeks of your ass, kneading and massaging his fingers into the backs of your thighs. He wanted nothing more than to keep letting his hands roam until they've found the center of you, his mind already playing the short gasps and moans you'd make with his fingers knuckle deep in you.

He knew you'd only make him regret it if he so much as did anything without your say-so first.

You reveled at seeing both men so eager and receptive to listen, given how fast this all went down. Frankly, it's got your head spinning so fast that you feel like you've just been drugged. However, rather than let that adrenaline crumble you down, you instead use it as chaotic fuel to your lustful actions.

You climb onto Ghost's lap like a backward chair, straddling him down with your thighs and rocking yourself against him. As he's felt you grind generously so, a tattered breath escapes his lips. Broken and faint. His expression does all it can do to remain as still as possible, only to fail, as his gaze lowers, bouncing between your eyes and lips.

Having his hands grow a mind of their own, Ghost lets them slide to your back, encouraging you to keep moving against him, which you do gladly, the lust bubbling down your lower half like a chemical reaction.

"Fuck, love," Ghost huffs out. "You're really takin' me for a ride right now, aren't you?"

"Hope you're buckled in," you tease, following it with another smooth sway of your hips, giving the man a deep grind hard enough to leave him breathing heavy.

Just when he's about ready to kiss you, you look back over at Soap, smiling. Your index finger lifts innocently, beckoning the man. "Come along now, big boy," you say.

You don't have to tell him twice.

In a matter of seconds, the man is behind you, towering over you and keeping you now sandwiched between both him and Ghost.

When you see they're both waiting on your next word, you chuckle to yourself, the power now starting to go to your head. To think, you had two of the deadliest men on your team damn near drooling, ready to fuck you. How could you not let it get to your head?

"Well," you give both men a final lurid, look, and say, "I'm waiting."

Soap and Ghost exchange wary looks, suddenly unsure of what to do with themselves now that they had you like this. Evidently, despite you already sitting on the lieutenant's lap, it's Soap who swoops in for the kiss first.

You feel his large hand push past your hair and curve around your jaw, his fingers grazing your neck before he's cocked your head back to give you a proper eye-fucking, before he's leaned down and smacked his mouth against yours, Ghost be damned.

You wiggle on Ghost's lap, your legs tightening over his thighs in an attempt to keep balance as the Sergeant all but swallowed you whole, his hands cupping around your face, keeping you from escaping.

Using the Sergeant as further support, you stretch your arms over your head and let them rest against Soap's shoulders like a warm wall, your hands cupping his face and keeping him just as pulled in, your tongues trading the taste of each other and your body unconsciously rocking over Ghost's crotch, feeling two sets of arousal brim in you from top to bottom.

Having you bouncing over his cock like this was driving Ghost feral, getting off on just the sight of you. Of course, watching you make precise work with Soap's mouth soon had the lieutenant wanting more, growing impatient waiting for the Sergeant to let up.

Ghost instead lets his hands cup over your breast, groping and massaging them generously through your shirt. His mouth finds your neck bare for his teeth, sinking them in lightly each time before he's left a heated kiss in its place, letting his lips travel down your neck until he's felt his tongue graze your collarbone, complimenting the kissing Soap gave you above.

Your mouth may be occupied by the Sergeant's, but your body belonged to the lieutenant, so long as you continued to bounce on top of him like you were.

He lets one hand leave your breast, sliding his fingers and letting them dig against your clothed skin, until it's ducked between your legs, beginning to fumble with the buttons of your pants.

It's here you've parted your mouth from Soap's, the man looking down at your doe-eyed expression, hungering for more. You see the tinge of excitement that lights up in the sky-blue of his eyes as he watches your hands make their way toward his belt, swiftly undoing it and pulling it from his waist. If Ghost would have his way with you, then you would have yours with Soap.

Ghost has slipped his hand into your pants just as you've sprung Soap's cock free of its trouser, his large member sitting in your palm like a heavy, third limb. Soap can barely enjoy the sight of you holding him so close before you've let your tongue tease over the head of him, sucking lightly at the tip and tasting the remnants of his precum on your tongue.

Soap lets his head cock back pleasurably, groaning out to himself with a smile. "Ah," he groans, "You're too good to me, Bonnie."

Soap lets his hands rest at the side of your head rather brutishly, lightly nudging your mouth further down onto his cock, his abs tensing as he listened to the light gags you let out. Despite his persistence, you kept control of yourself, making sure that your movements had the man locked into your touch. It hadn't helped that your mind was caught in two places right now.

Ghost let his two fingers massage against your clit as though he were tasked with his life to see the job done properly. The tips of his fingers dip between your folds and tease your hole, before letting your slick lubricate him, soon to return rubbing against your bud in ways that made the entire lower half of your body feel sore with lust.

And it hadn't been enough to have his hand down your pants making a ruined mess of you. Ghost's other hand very much continued to pluck and roll at your nipple, having slipped beneath your shirt at some point during the interaction, holding against you as you rocked yourself against his hand, your moans humming over the Sergeant's cock and sending a wave of euphoria down him as well.

With one hand still free, you decide it's time that Ghost enjoys himself as well. He watches your single hand with hungry eyes, slightly shaken and erratic from both his fingering and Soap's cock a mere inch away from hitting the back of your throat, the man's groans of approval like music to your ears. Your hand travels down to his belt and undoes it with ease before you've slipped him free of his jeans as well, your fingers taking in the very shape of him.

Your thumb grazes his dripping tip, letting it slick down his shaft before you've begun to pump at him, feeling the man's body tense at your touch. It makes his fingers against your clit lose their rhythm, but only momentarily.

"Fuckin' hell," he breathes out. "Just like tha', love."

The Sergeant glances down at the lieutenant, catching his dazed eyes locked on your bobbing mouth, taking in a full review of your work on the Sergeant's cock.

He could see it in the man's eyes, he was jealous, envious that he had your mouth all to himself while he had to settle for your hand. Granted your fingers danced about his shaft like an angel in her craft, though even he couldn't resist the allure that was watching your saliva dribble down his subordinate's cock, imagining the warmth of your throat struggling to take his entire length. You've felt his cock throb in your hands just at the thought, his hips faintly chasing your purposefully coy grip on him.

Soap chuckles, not being used to seeing his superior so awestruck and drunk with lust, hearing all sorts of noises and groans from the man he could never have imagined.

"Enjoyin' the show there, L.T.?" Soap teases, quickly following it by readjusting his hand on the side of your face, taking light hold of you to help further steady your already perfect rhythm.

In response, Ghost slips a third finger in you, listening to the carnal noises your cunt made at each thrust of his fingers, watching your mouth twitch over the Sergeant, momentarily struggling to suck him off through the moans that clawed out of you. That gets you to put more attention back on Ghost, your hand taking better hold of his cock and dancing over the large girth of him, keeping a steady motion until you've seen the wave-like rising and falling of his chest.

Through his light panting, Ghost taunts, "Got the best seat in the house, Johnny."

"Oh, is tha' righ', mate?" Soap licks his lips, and lets his eyes drop noticeably down to the lieutenant's cock, watching your single hand continue to pump at him, barely able to hold it all in one hand. It makes the Sergeant let out a teasing groan. "Shall we put it to the test then, L.T.?"

Ghost stares at the Sergeant, hungry for the man just as much as he starved for you.

"Be my guest, Johnny."

Hearing the two go back and forth had you giddy to see what both men had in store for each other. However, it had you just as eager to join in on the fray yourself.

After what felt like an eternity of having your drool dribble itself over the Sergeant's cock, you let your lips part from him, and with your other hand, remove yourself from Ghost as well, giggling at their kicked-puppy-dog expressions.

"I have a better idea," you say. You reach for the bottom of your shirt before pulling it over your head and discarding it at the edge of the couch. Once removed, both men fell on the same page rather quickly.

Soap's hands hastily fumbled at the clasp of your bra, before the fabric has fallen loose and your chest now lay bare for Ghost's full perusal. He hardly any time to truly enjoy it before you've momentarily climbed from him to rid yourself of the rest of your clothing, now standing a dripping, naked beauty of a woman.

Both men could do nothing more but stare, hands subconsciously stroking oneselves at the sight of you.

"Now," you say. "I can't have you both feeling so left out while the other fucks me."

"It would be cruel," Ghost quips gruffly, his eyes having been glued to your chest since he's seen your breast bounce so freely before him.

You step back over to Ghost, retaking your place over his lap and letting his cock rest thick beneath you, your sopping folds hugging warmly over him, sending a shiver down his entire body. You grind slowly, letting your fluids paint him, and wetting yourself good for what you were dying to have.

Ghost leans in, letting his hand rest on the small of your back and his lips caress the shell of your ear. "This is much crueler," he whispers. His hands immediately cupped over your breast again, recapturing the feeling of you and letting his hips lightly rock, chasing every part of you he could.

You lean forward until you've felt his nose brush the tip of yours and his breath tickle your lips.

"Don't get pouty now, Si'," you coo.

"Aye," Soap chimes in. "You're the one goin' first."

You look over at Soap playfully, leaning forward to pull him back in close by the hem of his shirt.

"I already told you two not to be greedy," you let your hand retake hold of him, your fingers curving over his girthy length gently. It shuts him up quickly, coming back in so closely to you both. "You two can share."

"What's your plan then, love?" Ghost asks, already having let his hand dive back down between your legs, gripping over his cock so the tip of his head could tease at your hole, wetness and slick coating you both.

You take your hand and you rub it against yourself, making sure every bit of your parts below had been lubed. You bring that same, dripping hand back up to Soap, before dressing his cock with your warm fluids, massaging the man, and feeling the grooves of his veins against your fingers throb.

"Now be a good little spotter and watch my back," you say playfully, before letting your eyes dip back down to Ghost. "I think the lieutenant's got the front covered."

Soap chuckles to himself, before you've felt his large hands rest gently against your bare shoulders, his callous fingers running down slowly to take a hefty handful of your ass, gripping the cheek tightly. He spreads you roughly, his eyes growing large at the sight of you, already knowing his cock would be more than a tight fit for you and devilishly longing for it.

As you've felt Soap rub his cock between your ass, letting your cheeks hug him, his hand digging possessively into your skin, you feel Ghost's hand lock over your neck, holding you there gently in front of him. That way your eyes could stay on him as his cock continued to gently nudge at your hole, only a single thrust away from finally entering you.

"You sure you can take us both?" Ghost asks.

"Wouldn't want to hurt you, lass," Soap adds in.

You position yourself better over Ghost, ready to retake your seat.

"I can handle myself, boys," you say. "Now, show me who wants it more."

You lower yourself on Ghost's cocks, feeling your folds begin to stretch and the grooves of your walls run by every vein and shape of him. It's too much at first, and he can see it in your wincing face, however, you keep lowering yourself, powering through that initial pain and instead letting that pressure boil in you like nothing you've ever felt before. It was overwhelming, and it had your lips quivering with silent moans already.

Just as you've felt your pussy start to take the full length of him, you've felt Soap tease at your second hole, his cock rubbing playfully at you, the tip dipping in ever so slightly, giving you a completely new feeling altogether. His cock stretches you just as much as Ghost's, both men easing your body to the shape of them all at once, and both waves of pleasure complimenting each other in ways that had your body shaking over them, unable to string words together.

"Fuckin' Christ, you're tight, Bonnie," Soap groans.

"Don't... stop...," you say desperately, wanting to squash any reluctance they may feel. The pleasure your body ached for was just now beginning to reach its peak. "...I can take it."

Once your body adjusted, it hadn't grown long before this slow easing had turned into an organized attack, both men pounding savagely into you.

You sat, nearly sandwiched between two men, your chest pressed against Ghost's as he hugged you to him, his cock bullying into you powerfully, the base of himself smacking against your pussy at each thrust.

In rhythm, Soap rests his chest against your back, planting kisses at your spine each time he's let himself thrust just a bit deeper inside your ass. Your hole gripped his cock so tightly it nearly pulled at him each time he came out, only to crash another orgasm-inducing thrust into you, both him and Ghost going back in forth like well-trained machines.

"That's right lovey, there you go," Ghost praises you, his breath fanning your ear. "You're takin' us so well."

In the midst of both men's vicious pounding, it felt as though every bit of you all had been entangled in some way. Hands clumsily felt, hugged, and tugged at one another, chests heaving and moans forming an opera within your living room.

When your tongue wasn't dipping itself into Ghost's mouth, then you're head was cocked back, having a few more kisses be stolen from you by Soap. At some points even, when you're face was buried in Ghost's chest attempting to muffle your moans, you've felt both men lean in to keep each other company in the meantime, rough lips pressed harshly to one another in a passionate kiss you only wished to mirror once they've parted.

Mouths part just enough to concentrate on breathing, each gasp of air being halted by yet another thrust from both ends of you.

Both men have felt an animal-like fury come out of them at each orgasm they've pulled, feeling your body tighten over their cocks and your limbs shake with pleasure, drool, and tears leaking from you, your mind completely scrambled after eleven straight minutes of this.

It isn't until Ghost has opened his eyes again, finding your face twisted with pleasure, and seeing the Sergeant's love-drunk expression -- eyes half-lidded with lust, biting his lip -- that Ghost feels himself finally at his end.

His fingers claw harshly into your skin, his pace growing punishable. Seeing the lieutenant move so carnally clicked in the sergeant's mind quickly what that had meant, already being at the brink of a climax himself.

You hug yourself over Ghost's shoulders, your body so exhausted you could pass out right now before they've even finished. Even so, you couldn't get enough of this sensation; this could go on for another hour if they wanted it to.

"...I'm ready for it," you moan. "Give it to me..."

Both men's cocks pulsate in you, your holes being filled to the brim with their cum, as it drips from you sloppily once they've pulled themselves out.

With heavy huffs, everyone in the room falls back onto the couch, taking a moment to themselves to regain their air. You still couldn't believe that just happened... that any of this had happened.

"So," Soap pants out, about ready to crash on your couch again. "Which one of us did'ye think wanted you more?"

You give Soap a sly look, baffled he would even ask you that right now. "I don't know."

Author's Note: The behemoth has been slain! I'm NEVER typing a request that is longer than 3k words ever again (this took me almost a month and a half to type due to my schedule). However, I am open to any requests for prompts with the CoD boys, though preferably none that are straight smut (I'm kind of burnt out on it atm :/).

I do hope you enjoyed this, however, and please feel free to leave a comment or any feedback! Thank you again!

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ACOSM | The Night of her 18th Birthday

azriel x rhysand's sister (oc)

warnings: fluff, some angst, some crumbs of Az trying to hide his feelings/attraction

summary: It is Valeria's birthday and while she is happy to celebrate with her loved ones, she can't help but notice her father's absence.

A/N: this is an imagine among my collection of imagines that follow Rhysand's sister, Valeria. while I'm still working on them, you can find the masterlist for it here. I can't wait to for the next imagines because things are about to get more angsty (;

also, idk what the legal age of drinking is in prythian so let's just pretend it's 18 lol

**

Underneath the expansive, airy arches of the House of Wind, laughter and celebration sounded from within. Valeria's birthday was a special occasion, and her loved ones had gathered to make it unforgettable. Rhysand, her devoted brother, had gone all out to arrange a wonderful celebration.

The long table was adorned with colorful streamers, balloons, and a delicious spread of food and desserts. Valeria sat at the head, a radiant smile gracing her face as she looked at the group of people who meant the world to her—her mother, brother, Azriel, Cassian, Tanwyn, Mor, and Mallory.

Perched atop her shoulder was Noctis, her dear bird, nestled comfortably underneath the warmth of Valeria’s wing. 

Valeria donned a stunning dress, a thoughtful gift from her mother. The garment exuded elegance and enchantment, a hallmark of her mother’s designs. Its fabric flowed gracefully, draping over her figure in a flattering manner. The dress was a deep black color with sheer long sleeves, giving off a sense of both modesty and sophistication. But in contrast to the sleeves, the dress also featured a daring deep V-cut at its center, teasingly revealing a glimpse of her chest.

Valeria paired the dress with a fine silver necklace that followed the dress’s cut. It accentuated the bold design, the amethyst jewel resting between her breasts. A delicate silver crown, resembling the phases of the moon, acted as a headband, pulling back her long dark hair, parts of which were delicately braided.

Valeria was undeniably a mesmerizing vision, a goddess of night blessed by the moon herself. A goddess that Azriel would happily kneel down before and worship. The very sight of her left him breathless, her beauty captivating him from the moment he laid eyes on her. Even his shadows seemed to gasp in awe, whispering in his ear chants of a simple word. A word that they seemed to use exclusively just for Valeria.

Beautiful.

Azriel summoned all of his willpower to divert his gaze from Valeria, anxious that anyone–especially Rhysand–might catch on to his longing stare. He shifted his gaze to the glass held in his hands instead.

But he was not discreet enough.

His actions caught the keen eyes of Lady Yvaine, who recognized the intensity in his eyes…a look reminiscent of how the High Lord of the Night Court, her mate, gazed at her.

Cassian, the embodiment of charm and playfulness, grinned at Valeria, pulling Lady Yvaine’s eyes from the Shadowsinger. "Happy Birthday, Valeria! May your day be as radiant as the stars."

Mor chimed in, lifting her glass in a toast, "To Valeria, who has officially reached the age to go out and drink—legally, of course." Her grin widened, undeterred by Lady Yvaine's disapproving head shake. "The next time we're all in Velaris, we're going to Rita's. I’ve been aching to go, but it's only fun with the right company."

Valeria nodded at Mor's suggestion. She was eager to join her cousin in her nightly endeavors, already promising Mallory that she would help her sneak out for the occasion as she had done so tonight. Rhysand, ever the protective brother, rolled his eyes, well aware that he'd need to keep a watchful eye on both his mischievous cousin and sister. He didn't miss the look his mother sent him, sharing the same sentiment.

"Alright," Lady Yvaine declared, placing the cake she had spent all morning baking and decorating onto the dinner table. It was a beautiful cake, decorated with white frosting and hints of lavender.

"It's time for cake!"

Valeria smiled as they all began to sing to her. Yet, when Azriel's gaze fell upon her, he sensed that something was off. Her smile didn't quite reach her eyes—the usual spark and stars that danced within them seemed dimmed. 

**

Amidst the celebration, Valeria found herself seeking a moment of respite on the balcony, the cool night air a welcome contrast to the bustling activity indoors. Noctis had left her, choosing to rest on top of Cassian’s head despite his initial protests. Leaning against the railing, she let out a sigh, trying to escape the shadows of sadness that lingered in her heart. 

She felt the presence of another join her at her side.

“What troubles you, my little star?”

"He’s ashamed of me, isn't he?" Valeria's voice trembled with sadness as she finally voiced her fears, referring to her absent father. It had been gnawing at her since the night she dropped her mother off in Velaris with Rhysand, which was a couple of nights ago. “Or maybe he hates me?”

Her mother put a gentle hand on Valeria's shoulder. She longed to provide reassurance to Valeria, but unfortunately, her father held a deep-seated resentment towards her since the night of her birth. The High Lord did not regard that night as the birth of his daughter, but rather as the night he almost lost his mate. It pained Lady Yvaine deeply to witness the division within her own family, torn between her love for Valeria and her mate.

Tears welled up in Valeria's eyes as she wrestled with her emotions. "I just wish he could see who I'm becoming and be proud of me."

A tender smile touched her mother's lips as she wiped a tear from Valeria's cheek. "As long as I'm alive, you'll always have someone who is proud of you."

Valeria found comfort in her mother's words and embraced her, grateful for the unconditional love and support. They stood there for a moment, wrapped in each other's arms.

Their heartfelt moment was interrupted by a loud crash from inside. Startled, they both turned to see Cassian, looking sheepish, standing amidst the wreckage of a toppled shelf while Tanwyn attempted to salvage what was left of it.

Valeria and her mother burst into laughter.

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[cowgurrrl]

Losing My Cool

Pairing: rockstar!joel miller x actress!reader

Author’s note: shortie short but I’ve already got another part half finished 🤠 fic named after this song

Summary: What do they say about all good things? [1.1k]

Warnings: yearning idiots, probably incorrect interview technique, idk what else

A PA brings you over to your mark and instructs you to stay there until your name gets called, which seems simple enough, but she stays nearby to make sure you don't wander. It feels a little silly to always have to be babysat, but you brush it off, smoothing your hands down your blue dress and taking deep breaths. You've done late-night shows before, but they still make you nervous, especially since you know just how many people watch them. Ryan sent you a video of Elizabeth sitting in front of the TV, watching an ad for tonight's show, and cheering when she saw your name and face. So, who knows who else might be watching if your five-year-old goddaughter is?

You can hear the introductory remarks, laughter, and applause that come with them, but you miss the voices whisper-arguing behind you. They die down by the time your brain wraps around the sounds and decide to stay focused. And you do. You run through what you want to say about the movie, fun anecdotes, and easy ways to skate around questions about Joel. You feel settled and prepared until familiar hands wrap around your middle, making you jump and turn in his arms. 

"You're gonna get me in trouble," you say, and Joel smirks.

"I had to convince the production assistant to let me come kiss my girlfriend for good luck."

"You're getting fast and loose with that term, huh?" 

"D'you want me to stop?" He asks, his thumbs swiping over your hips, and you shake your head.

"I kinda like it."

"Good," Joel says as the band starts playing, and you push at his shoulders. He quickly kisses you, his hand lingering on your lower back for a second longer than necessary, before rushing away with a mischievous look on his face. "Kick some ass!'

You laugh at the sentiment as your name gets called from the front of the stage, and the curtain opens enough to let you walk through. You smile and wave to the audience members as you walk over and shake Jimmy's hand. "Thank you so much for being here," he says so only you can hear, and you smile. The band vamps until you sit in the plush chair beside his desk and accept the applause when he repeats your name.

"It's so great to see you! You look fantastic!" He says, and you smile as you run your hands over the skirt of your dress.

"Thank you! I'm so happy to be here."

"Well, we are very lucky to have you. You've been a very, very busy lady these past few years. When was the last time you were in New York?" He asks, and you puff out your cheeks as you think.

"At least four or five years."

"And you went to school out here, right?"

"Yeah, I graduated from NYU. I was lucky enough to earn a full ride on a merit-based scholarship which doesn't happen very often, and once I graduated, I did a few projects here in the city before getting my first movie deal out in LA."

"That's amazing! And since then, you have been nonstop. I mean, you are everywhere. And you have a new movie coming out called Red Dirt Girl," he says as he holds up a picture of the movie poster, and the audience cheers at the image. You reach out to boop Lilly's nose and feel yourself smiling so hard that your cheeks hurt, but you're so happy. For once, it feels genuine. "What was it like to work on this film?" 

"It was just the opportunity of a lifetime. We filmed out west around the Colorado-New Mexico border, and I hadn't even been out there, so it was so fun getting to know that area and working with the cast and crew. I mean, it was just like coming to work and having fun for twelve hours a day, and then we all lived in the same building, so we would just keep hanging out, and we got to be really close."

"And the girl who plays your sister, Lilly Porter, is just phenomenal for someone as young as she is. Did you find yourself getting protective of her?" 

"Oh, absolutely. Lilly just turned sixteen about a month ago, but when we were filming, she had just turned fourteen, so she was really young, and I hadn't worked with someone that young that closely. And we had a day where we just sat down and talked for hours, and she's such an old soul, and she's so smart, but, I mean, we both know how hard the industry can be. So, I set her up with people I trust and gave her advice I wish someone had given me. I got really close with her family, and, of course, they are fantastic people as well. So, it was a learning curve for both of us, but she is an amazing, beautiful person, and I'm so lucky that I got to work with her. I totally consider her a little sister now." 

"Which is ironic considering that you guys butt heads so much in this movie."

"Oh, yes, we do."

"Let's take a look at this clip here," he says as a short clip from the movie comes up on the screen behind you. Lilly's character, Sabrina, is arguing with your character, Jo, about getting sent home from school because of her behavior. Lilly perfectly portrays the annoying little sister as she stomps through the house, making sarcastic comments and driving you up the wall. The clip ends with Sabrina telling Jo that she's just like their mother, which obviously, hits Jo right where it hurts. You smile and clap along with the audience as the clip ends. "Wow! I mean, just fantastic! Were those scenes hard to shoot?"

"The scenes where we were fighting were really hard to film because I just love her so much, and I never wanted to yell at her, but Lilly was absolutely brilliant because she would do a new thing each time we shot the scene that would completely throw me off. So, like, one time she knocked over a chair or slammed the door so hard that pictures fell off the wall, and it would startle me each time, and then it was pretty easy to access that anger after that." You laugh, remembering the time you accidentally did raise your voice because she scared the shit out of you. 

"And did the director tell her to do that?"

"No, she just did it! And Peter, the director, was just sitting there like," You cross your arms over your chest and lean back in the chair, copying the famous Peter Jankowski slouch, and nod, pretending to chew gum. "And like, that's it! Which is great! You always want a director that will let you try things, but I was given no warning." Jimmy laughs at the story and seamlessly transitions into a commercial break. 

The rest of the interview goes smoothly, with you promoting the movie and even playing a game where you had to answer New York City trivia facts. Appearances like this can actually be really fun when they're done right, and you always have a good time when you're on the Tonight Show. As you're leaving the stage, Jimmy tells you that you and Joel have to get dinner with him and his wife the next time you're in the city, and you agree, knowing that it will probably never happen. 

You're excited to see what Joel will say about how things went, but when you go backstage, he's nowhere to be found. You don't find him immediately in the wings where you left him or in your dressing room. You almost ask the PA if she saw him leave, but she's dealing with five million other things, and you doubt she would've noticed even if he did. You furrow your brows as you fish your phone from your purse and type out a quick message to Joel.

Hey! Where are you? I just got done.

The message delivers even though his phone is on Do Not Disturb. You think about calling him but figure he might've just gone back to the hotel room before you. Paparrazi gets pictures of you leaving the studio alone and shouts questions at you, wanting to know where Joel is. You don't answer. You just get in the car and try to get back to the hotel as fast as possible. Truthfully, you're a little embarrassed. You looked around for him like a lost puppy backstage, and now you're just dutifully returning to the hotel to look for him. It also doesn't help that you were photographed arriving with him but not leaving with him. You can feel Melanie's migraine from here.

When you scan into the hotel room, all of Joel's stuff is gone. His clothes, shoes, and even his razor have all disappeared. You were there for an hour, maybe less, and he just left? Your phone buzzes in your purse, and you quickly pull it out to see a text from Joel.

Ellie had an emergency. On the first flight back. I'm sorry. I'll make it up to you.

You sigh, plop down on the now too-big bed, and kick off your heels.

No worries. Take care of your baby. I'll see you when I get back.

Thank you. I owe you.

You don't owe me anything, Super Dad. Just text me when you get home, and keep me updated. Let me know if you or Sarah need anything.

He starts typing something before deleting it and then typing again. For a moment, you two stare at the same screen, waiting for the other to say something even though he's at the airport and you're in an empty hotel room. Your heart clenches in your chest as he types and types and types, just for the bubble to disappear as fast as he did.  

[floralovebot]

Honestly, tonight is the sort of night where I need a bunch of flora/helia head cannons.😂

same i always need more florelia headcanons

idk if you're asking me for more but,,,

i've mentioned this already but florelia picnic dates :') flora making little sandwiches and cakes :') helia picking fresh fruit and surprising her with flowers and sweet wine :') bringing two little picnic baskets because coco likes sleeping in one :') OUGH :')))

cannot stop thinking about what they would do if the other had a bad nightmare... flora trying to gently wake him up, running her fingers through his hair and giving him time to calm down :') helia wakes her up, tightly hugging her while affirming that she's safe :') crying :')))

flora definitely steals his sweatshirts we all agree on this yeah?

florelia building a pillow fort for their movie night in,,, watching romcoms and planet documentaries because they're both sappy nerds,,, i'm like 90% sure they both enjoy kettle popcorn and riven call them freaks for it <3

helia taking care of flora while she's sick OUGHHHH he tries to sneakily ask her family for a homecooked recipe she loves without her knowing to cheer her up and she definitely connects the dots but doesn't say anything because it's so sweet :')

they're both sentimental little dorks who save every little thing that reminds them of the relationship! so they both just have boxes and boxes under their beds and in their closets filled with little trinkets, dried flowers, old tickets, etcetc. they're so :'))

someone has definitely gone up to them at the club asking if they were looking for a third aldgh

flora says she feels safest in helia's arms and all of the winx collectively gag (they think it's cute and they're so happy she found her true love)

helia says he thinks it's hot she could kill him and the specialists collectively hoot and holler (they completely understand and feel the same way)

you'd think that on vacations flora would be the chill one and helia would be the planner but it's actually the opposite! helia thinks walking around with no plan is Peak vacation while flora gets nervous and wants to maximize her Fun Time while they have it. they don't argue about it though since helia is perfectly fine following flora along wherever she wants to go (but she does add in things he'll enjoy too obviously)

flora likes to watch the rain from the comfort of her room while helia likes to go lie down on the gravel <3 flora gets scared that he's going to get sick <3 helia always tells her he won't but he always gets a little sneeze after <3

yknow that fell first, fell harder dynamic,,, florelia <3

^this is canonically them AKJDVG

helia: aww look what pretty flowers i wonder if flora will like these :3

flora: YOU'RE GONNA FUCKING DIE

[your-bigender-big-brother]

I like the concept of unlabels. I think it creates a space or place of freedom to say "my gender is pretty" without me coining or using a specific neologism (neolabel) for that (eg. prettygender).

It can be useful for people who use simple words to explain their experiences. Anyways using specific labels always gave me issues due to the need to explain the complexity of every label always with that sentiment "not every person with this label experiences this the way I do", and needing extra explanation to how that works for other people.

Idk if it's just me bc i come from a place that a lot of people around me don't even barely understand the concept of bisexuality, imagine bigender. Well, I explain and I'm a very talking person, but sometimes when I talk it seems I'm coming from an exoplanet and these things don't exist on the planet of the person I'm talking to too.

Maybe I overthink a lot and I fear apprehensively getting embarrassed for things I can't control (what other people think).

And that's maybe what language is for, for (re)cognizably understandable communication, comprehensive sharing, interactability/interagility (intelligibility), and a sense of mutual belonging (in case of group identities).

Also maybe I'm easier/susceptible to confuse or forget exactly what some words mean, and I have a bunch of identities that I loose the defs. I need exomemory. But then I will go back to list entries and don't fit that label anymore (if I ever fitted).

Yes, unlabels are really great for filling a space we don't otherwise have the language for!

I understand the feeling of having to explain your gender but it feels almost like speaking another language, like the other person couldn't ever understand where you're coming from. I'm definitely an over-explainer. After discovering so many new things about myself, I started writing essays because I felt like that was the best way I could explain all the little details. Someone asks me what maverine or neutrois means? I've got an essay for both of those things!

It helps that I also keep it broad where needed. Nonbinary man. That makes it a little easier for me if I'm not in a space where I really want to or am able to explain so much.

Having multiple labels definitely also helps. I only have two genders (I think) but I end up using a dozen labels just to convey all the things that make up those two genders. Unlabels might also help but mine would be more like... "a guy, but also more" or "a guy (sort of.)"

I'd love to talk more about the usefulness of unlabels! I might type up an essay draft tonight. - 💙💚

[mamatayto]

Imagine having a subby wife who shaved and showered while you put your eldest baby to bed; smiling as you find her outside reading a book and vaping off an e-cig. She's reading your favorite, Eragon. Just barely over half way through it, but she can't help herself smiling at you and bluntly asking to play before bed.

That's where his point of view ends...

I had noticed him feeling very sore and beat up. He admitted to getting hard and horny in his after work shower. Stretching and groaning a lot. Rubbing the more sore areas a bit as he lit a cigarette. My thighs and other parts of my body were sore from working out the day before... but I couldn't help from wondering if he would let me fuck him maybe? We both have orgasms and get laid, where he doesn't have to exert his battered bones. In fact, he could just lay back and enjoy the ride I would take. Just thinking about it was making my clit start to ache while I finished the page of my book. He curled up under the blankets, wanting to warm up a bit first. It was rather cold outside tonight. He was partially hard when I pulled the blankets back, and grabbed him from out of his boxers. I remembered my best to hold his balls and pull the elastic all the way back underneath him, and waited for him to adjust if he needed to before sliding my eager little mouth over the length of him. I was excited and ready that deep throating wasn't even as difficult as normal tonight, so I made sure to have some fun with it. I waited until I could feel all his body start to tense up before sliding my wet hand between my legs and sliding him inside of me. I sat down in reverse cowgirl slowly. Enjoying and delighting in the feel of him stretching my little pussy out a little filling me. It feels amazing like being a virgin again even after having had 2 kids still. Idk an old romantic part of me takes extra pleasure in knowing that he's also the only man I've been with since leaving my abusive first marriage and starting my life over in a new state as he fucks me and fills me, which is heightened with the sweer sentiment of having had 2 of his babies. I played around with angles a bit, having several orgasms on him; I'm pretty sure I gasped and shivered a little even before hearing his sweet moan and feeling him shake with his own finality; having 3 more orgams just from the after shocks and being filled. Every time I gasped and tightened around him I could feel his cock harden again for just a second before I slid off him to reach for the towel. To help him relax and fall asleep I then tickled and rubbed his back, and even played with his hair a little. Some times I'll fall asleep doing this. Other times I'll kiss his shoulder and tell him I love him when my arms get too sore to keep going, and then I cover him back up with the blankets and snuggle him.

One of my favorite ways to end the night~♡

Him being sore from work and not wanting to initiate sex is fine. I could use tue practice and it's great exercise for me when I'm on top. And some times that tiny but if control is fun; I won't lie.

I love my Daddy~♡

[i-am-beckyu]

YOUR RESPONSE TO THE PLAYLIST THING !! DOES THAT MEAN YOUR SPOTIFY IS ALL FIXED? SORRY I AM EAGER I JUST IDK FEEL LIKE YELLING IN CAPS!!!!

— brick

Oop. sorry for a slow response time today lol. Been super flat out with paperwork today its crazy.

No haven't done spotify yet. I'm still using my old one till the months subscription runs out (get my moneys worth) and its on my agenda tonight to get a new personal email.

been very unmotivated to do it because I'm sentimental about my current personal one rn :/

Don't worry I haven't forgotten and you'll be the first to know when I get a new one <3

AND DON'T APOLOGISE FOR CAPS! I LOVE CAPS!!! ENERGY IN CAPS!!!!!!!!!!!

[violadiaries]

Fluffcember Day 14: Winter Soup

@fluff-cember

Fandom: Tales of Berseria

Pairing: Van Aifread x Zaveid x Eizen

Additional: Aifread Lives! AU; Established VanZavEizen

Tbh, I'm not really…idk satisfied with this. Like…I don't know, I didn't really have a vibe going on for the prompt, but still wanted to write something…so hopefully anyone else gets some enjoyment out of it :')

Zaveid had long reacted by the time Eizen or Aifread had even been able to notice a thing. How they could be so utterly idiotic, whenever they sailed north was something Zaveid had chosen to stop questioning. And then they would come whining to him. So by the time, the temperatures dropped surrounding them, and the icy shores of Northgand came into view, Zaveid was standing in the kitchen, a large pot of nice and warm chicken noodle soup almost at the ready. So the whole crew could enjoy some obviously. But also, so he could have an excuse to cuddle up with his two idiot pirates and just enjoy the warmth of the soup. And of them for some time.

And even if Aifread and Eizen always claimed that the cold wasn't affecting them as much as it did with everyone else on the ship. Zaveid knew they were lying. At least Aifread was lying. He would be able to buy it with Eizen, him having an abnormally high body temperature, even for a malak, but not Aifread. Not if Zaveid looked at the way he would chug even more rum to keep himself cosy. Not that anyone noticed.

Zaveid shook his head and hummed to himself, as he stirred his soup. No, he wouldn't let them get off the ship, at least for tonight. Because he had plans, and for once Zaveid wanted to be able to successfully cuddle with his two idiots in peace. Just enjoying a nice warm evening, while they all warmed up with a recipe he knew was good. It also wasn't often that he was able to make something nice for them like this. He liked to spoil them when he could. Just like he knew that the sentiment was the same on the other side.

"Whatcha making, handsome?"

Zaveid smiled and looked over his shoulder. Aifread was standing in the doorway, arms crossed, eyes going up the meet Zaveid's the moment Zaveid's head had turned around. Definitely having stared at his ass before. Not that Zaveid minded. "Soup. For everyone, so we won't have to freeze to death," Zaveid said.

Aifread rolled his eyes and walked into the tiny kitchen. Or rather 'Zaveid's cabin' as the crew had started to jokingly call it. He got some bowls out, setting them aside, as well as a spoon. Before Zaveid could scold him, he had dipped it into the soup and taken a spoonful to try.

Zaveid sighed and just shook his head, adding some more seasoning, before he deemed it done. Now it would just have to sit on low heat for a little longer, so the flavours could all spread nicely and it would be done. And then they all could enjoy something nice while on the road. He knew the crew would definitely thank him for that.

"Nice~ I can think of other ways to warm us up though," Aifread said.

Zaveid rolled his eyes, and groaned as he heard an affirmative hum from the back. Of course those two would be on the same page with that kind of idea. Eizen had assumed Aifread's place in the doorway, watching the two of them. Nodding and grinning.

Zaveid shook his head and took his apron off, to put his jacket back on. Just so he wouldn't need to freeze to death. He would be able to compensate with mana, but he didn't really feel like it. Not when he didn't need to, no. And not when he had at least one living furnace around who would willingly cuddle the cold away.

"Well, then go ahead, though I distinctively remember you two telling me the last time you tried to hook up went horribly wrong. I'm not in the mood," Zaveid said.

Aifread frowned and moved to hug Zaveid from behind, while Eizen sighed and stepped closer. Looking over Zaveid's shoulder towards the large pot he had prepared for everyone.

Zaveid leaned against Aifread as Eizen leaned forward to press a kiss to his lips. Only for Aifread to turn his face towards him not even moments later to do the same, drawing both a satisfied and exasperated sigh from Zaveid's lips.

"I guess cuddling and enjoying something very, very delicious then it is for tonight, what do you say, Captain?" Eizen said.

Aifread nodded and hummed in agreement, snuggling his head into Zaveid's shoulder. Zaveid reached behind himself to turn the heat down on the soup, as he smiled at Eizen. He could make out some disappointment in his eyes, but also knew that they would never try to force him into something.

Maybe, just maybe, he would let them convince himself to allow them to let their hands wander. But first he wanted his cuddles in this cold weather, while they enjoyed a warm meal together. And then they could get their spice.

[nathank77]

9/15/24

11:44 a.m

The cramping stopped, I've had a sandwich with each pill of my antibiotics. I feel like a fat ass.

For all I know it was brief food poisoning. All I know is I'd rather be a fatty for another 5 days than risk having such extremely painful cramping.. I can lose whatever I gain.

I've been getting a slight pulsating above my left ear today. I've also been having some popping in my ears but not a lot.

My tsh being normal is a good thing, it means I can celebrate the weight loss if the scale was correct that is... but I mean inevitably eating another sandwich a day for a week solid will raise the scale. I'd rather that than having that cramping. I feel bad for women who get extreme cramps for their period cause holy fuck it hurts. I will be off the antibiotic by Thursday and be able to go back to my regular diet.

I'm terrified of going to the eye Dr this week it's far away and idk what she's going to do. I'm worried she will want to poke my eyes......... also I'm prob going to have to do a standard eye exam. I'm wondering if my script went up. I can't afford it. Idk if they will do that but I think it's likely.

Idk what to think about these extract white mulberries as I play a game with less dialogue I believe they aren't as powerful.

Then i think about weed for example- a gram of weed has 30% thc in it. When you buy a vape it has let's say 3.5 grams thc extracted into it to make 80% thc in the vape. But the weed and extracts are regulated by the government... but extracts are a thing....

I'm back on the other brand feeling like its ineffective. Idk....

Then I think of synaptic pruning. And it takes years. It happens when children are growing but happens over life too. So Maybe one day my neurons will return to normal but I doubt it.

I took a little more last night to make sure my circadian rhythm is back to 10:30... I hope tonight I fall asleep easily bc otherwise we are smoking weed..... unfortunately... expired vape weed.... that I want nothing to do with.

I'm lonely. I'm playing silent hill and having a red bull day bc I deserve it but I'm sick of being alone and fighting so hard for this life.

I'm trying alternative ways to bypass hdcp but idk if its possible we will see. As I really want to play shattered memories and silent hill 1.

Idk I'm just feeling unfulfilled....

I did sleep well but I always do on more....I had strange dreams. Katie came back to me. She knew I was her soulmate. I kept thinking what if Elise shows up for me I don't think Katie is my soulmate...

In the dream I was taking care of Nala and keeki.

Beyond that 3 girls were in love with me and moved in, I forgot who they were. They stole all my silent hill games. I kept looking for them.

I dream a lot of my car being destroyed. That didn't happen in my dream. But the most valuable things I own are my car and those silent hill games.

When I die my sister will sell those games never having played them. Instead of cherishing them for what they are some of my most sentimental memories. If I was to die, I'd want them buried with me or given to my children and I'd want them passed down the line. In 200 years they'll be worth millions.... rather than the Hundreds they are worth now... and beyond that they are one of the only things that bring me true joy.

I want my car passed down too. But I have no one to give it to that won't sell it.

All I know is I'm sick of living in a virtual world. I want a real life.

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary273

6/16-17/24

sunday - monday

our friend will be leaving tomorrow.

i will be sad to see him leave, it's weird what having someone sleep on your couch can do, i suppose cooking and living with him, talking to him a lot, going out tonight after he got back from san bernadino, idk, it's made me very warm to him. he is a really kind person, he reminds me of a now dead friend a little, but only a little i think. maybe i am just overly sentimental in that way right now, either way, i will miss him, there's something very nice about having him around, i'm glad he's been crashing here instead of staying at some hostel which would make him feel, like, freaked out probably, and he couldn't be himself as much maybe. a sad prospect.

today was kind of a lot, i feel a lot better today but definitely not fully healed, waiting for that, i hope soon i don't have anything wrong with me, we went to like one of the better burger places in vegas, this place called fuku burger, it has a chicken katsu sandwich i really like...and they have yummy fries. we hung out there a while, they had this insane like, tik-tok compilation tv channel on, as well as a video of a guy playing all of mw2 and a guy playing super mario world.

here's pix of me:

here's a pic i took of a furry sticker in there on the psp camera:

funny thing to me.

he liked it, he told us their like, messy fries option was kind of like poutine, which was interesting, i never eat fries like that cuz it's just tooooo muchhhh but that's funny to hear. we talked about how insane/horrifying that tik tok compilation tv channel was, like a super psycho america's funniest home videos type thing, just so bizarre.

after this we went to a place a friend works, also in chinatown, she was just getting off work so we said hi, talked to her for a bit, which was nice, happy to see her, and then we saw one of her co-workers go up and stuff, this weird guy who makes up a lot of insane lies, currently he says he's a ghostwriter for rappers, before he said he was signed to def-jam and that he was almost a kpop star. but the kpop thing is interesting, it got into a sad thing honestly cuz while talking to him he mentioned how he was doing that whole thing, he said that during the try-outs he was given a chemical that made his skin super nice, in his words "super white", which is like, kind of a horrific thing i've noticed w/ asian beauty standards, once in chicago, in a restaurant in their chinatown this girl was talking to her friends about how she could actually get her skin way whiter than it already was, and it's just very depressing, one hopes these beauty standards will disappear one day but it feels like they might not, especially as the dominant popular images of asian people remain what they are, kpop, super fair skinned people being beautiful, you know. anyway he went on about that because really all i knew about him is that he tells bizarre lies, so we came up with a bit that was like, our out of town friend telling the guy he's a guy managing an idol group, and the guy, i can't tell if he saw through it really, but it made him open up kinda, he started talking about how he sang and how he likes karaoke, he used to manage a karaoke place but the issue was that he had to get drunk with the people there, as it would make his tips huge, and he would come home drunk every night, he lost all his muscles he said, got kind of miserable, worked too late, and at this place he's at now works fucked up shifts too where people want him to drink too, so he's still drinking, and the habit dies hard, you know, and all this stuff about how he's just sad now, doing mushrooms a lot, getting fucked up, trying to quit to get away from that, like quit that job, you know. i really feel bad for him. he always just struck me as odd, i feel like an asshole a bit but he didn't seem upset at us, honestly i really like him now, or like, i want the world to be better for him, i want better for him, i want better for a lot of people, it's really depressing how you can be reminded of how horrible everything is for everyone. i am constantly wanting everyone to be saved, i mean, really, a lot of people deserve it, is maybe the roughest thing. a lot of intense and strange pains, i see this in our out of town friend too, he's got rough stuff going on at home, he's a sweet guy, his parents are assholes. the world's too much pain...

anyway, sorry to be a downer, it's just on my mind. i want people to not be miserable, but i guess there is like no choice. i want to cry a river. it doesn't feel stupid to cry a river, infinite mourning feels like all that's available to me, i am maybe just a super useless kind of person.

when we left, around leaving i suppose, he started asking us what kinda music we like, my gf did the music nerd 'oh we listen to like everything' and then he said he liked death metal stuff, he said 'the kinda stuff where it's like, don't give me the aux', and our friend said 'i'd give you the aux man. most people let you look at it, i'm giving it to you' and he said he really appreciated it. i guess i'm sheltered for this, but it really felt like meaningful or something. i hope it was i guess.

it's already pretty late so maybe today i won't really get to work on cover art... sad, but i have some ideas. or beyond ideas honestly, plans for stuff to put into the current illustration. after this one's done, there's gonna be like 2 more about, they should be less effort,,

another night where i must gargle salt water again. i'm getting kind of good. and i'm sure when i get up, i'll do it again, again, again. maybe for the rest of time. not that long but it feels like it could be forever. i'm only ever sure the bad things will be forever. i won't comment on the good things. i let them grace me for as long as i can allow it. i say too much, it feels like i'll destroy it...

it's interesting when people find themselves in pictures of musicians / artists to mold themselves after, or feel like. when usually i feel like, the i want to be, i relate, type thing, in like, images of relatively lesser things, or i guess, less idk, evidently art oriented. or maybe untrue, i feel myself in art, and stuff, or a desire to change because of it, or that it exposes me to myself or exposes me to outside a self, whatever, it's a blurry thought, really what i'm getting at is like, a friend sent me a photo of inga copeland performing being like 'this is a me' and i'm like sure. but i can never do that kind of thing ever, i'm never thinking like that i guess is one thing, the other is like, i dunno. i don't know what i am is one thing, the other is,,, idk.

i was looking thru some references i've been collecting, got the itch to look for more related to this old makeup brand from the 70s... check this stuff out... i'm cribbing some of this for something, eventually, too lovely to not.

genius design stuff. i think, so it's good even just for inspiration. the website i found these on seems really good too, like check these letter set things out, from something called damn everything but the circus:

anyway, i ought to go to bed now, so:

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[lycankeyy]

Feeling weirdly sentimental or smth tonight and honestly I'm still blown away by how much people seem to enjoy my writing . I don't tend to write for really popular fandoms so I have no way of knowing how actually popular my stuff would get if I did but it's wild that most people who read my writing enjoy it. I spent years hiding away every piece of fanfiction I wrote because I was convinced it was too indulgent and not good enough and to this day I still feel bad when I post something that doesn't feel like it's top quality work but people still like it anyway. Idk how to close out this post I'm just rly grateful for everyone who even clicks on my ao3 uploads let alone kudos' them or bookmarks or comments HDJAJDJS

[jackienautism]

fire emblem update part three!! i played a BUNCH yesterday and am probably going to finish my first playthrough tonight!! update on character opinions - while my overall ranking of the eagles hasn't changed, i will say that both linhardt and ferdinand have gotten sooo much more special to me post timeskip. similar thing happened with hubert actually, where i like him even more but he's staying in the same spot on my rankings.

DOROTHEA IS MAKING ME SO EMOTIONAL POSTSKIP like. ending the war For Her <333 she and bernie and caspar are still my besties in the whole world. this getting redundant but. i am LOVING bernie postskip. caspar too! i got all of his supports with petra since my last ask and im rotating them in my head they are so interesting to me. actually i had really not gotten too many supports between characters by my last ask and i've been trying to get the ones im most interested in currently and like. i am rotating these guys and their dynamics in my head they are sooo interesting to me. sooo mad bernie and petra don't have an a support </3 i want more of them.

im trying my best to avoid killing any of the former allies. so far i've avoided killing ignatz, let seteth and flayn run away, recruited lysithea, avoided killing hilda, and spared claude. had to kill leonie bc she would not stop killing caspar and bernie no matter what i did. and i killed alois.

little bit sad that i'm missing out on the potential angst this playthrough of having like... only one blue lion kill the rest but. there's always another playthrough! i'm def gonna play all the routes (although honestly i'm gonna have a tough time on the church path.... idk it's one thing to fight edie without being closer to her but it's gonna feel sooo bad to like. directly betray her) but i'm probably gonna replay CF being a little more careful with who i recruit from a story standpoint.

semi related but MAN im LOVING the edelgrid posting im thinking about them soooo hard rn. anyway. on to finish the playthrough! already plotting my next playthrough which is gonna be VW. sort of considering who i want to recruit for that one bc so many of my favorites are in the black eagles so for maximum angst potential i should recruit one or maybe two. but who to pick.... or maybe im lying bc maximum angst would just be killing them all. and then at the same time. what if i just decided to save as many people as possible. what then. minimum angst.

anyway! im going to be thinking about these characters forever now. this game is basically the perfect storm in terms of media that's gonna have me thinking about it for a while (big cast with interesting concepts that could definitely be dug into way deeper, and tons of possible dynamics to think about) so. thank you for your posting about it because i found myself suddenly with an abundance of unscheduled free time and i am. definitely enjoying it now! also side note but i lovee how so many of these characters come with adorable nicknames. i love calling them like. bernie and hubie and edie like yessss those are my besties <333333

YIOPPEEEEE OHHH GOOD FOR YOU GOOD FOR YOU... IM SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT YOURE CLOSE TO FINISHING YOUR FIRST FIRE EMBLEM PLAYTHROUGH EVER HEHE and maybe even by now you may have finished it? but regardless, super happy for you my friend<3 AND RIIIGHT,.. THEY JUST GROW ON YOU POST TIMESKIP... sooo glad the same happened w/ ferdie and hubie for you! next time you check in you def have to submit or create your Official black eagles ranking! id love to see!!!

DOROTHEA IS SOOOOOO GOOD AND FULLL OF ANGST POST TIMESKIP AAAGH YEAH. THATS WHY SHES SO SPECIAL 2 ME.... THE ARC W/ HER DEPRESSION IS JUST.... GOSH. so gladyou're ending the war for her aand only her<333 i support that sentiment 10000% i still have to go through the black eagles supports w/ each other (i enjoy getting them myself... hence why i dont just watch them on youtube or smth. plus i havent played through crimson flower in a looong while) but im SOOO happy youve been enjoying tjhe characters and the dynamics between each of them! fire emblem is especiallly good w/ writing stuff like that. and they def did not fall short in this ggame! so i unfortunately cant comment too much on individual stuff but im glad you like the supports<3 ALL OFD THE CHARACTERS DESERVE A SUPPORTS TBH!!!!!! luckily im pretty sure there are more supports in three hopes so if youre interested for more content you can always loook them up on youtube :o

understand why youd try your best to avoid killing former classmates,def makes it a bit more difficult but ): it's super fucked up, especially in the perspective of the characters. the angst potential is sooo good but sometimes i am Weak of Heart. so im glad to hear that you were able to spare / recruit most of them! rip to leonie and alois though. i defunderstand alois bc wasnt he abt to do some shit during the battle for the monastery? makes sense why youd need / want to get rid of him asap

FDJGDFBG GLAD THAT YOURE LOOKING FORWARD TO THE POTENTIAL ANGST????? did you only recruit sylvain and ingrid this route? or were you able to recruit felix as well? sorry i remember you saying you liked felix but i cant remember if you recruited him or not! but yeah im sure the crimson flower!blue lions is esp....... hard for them. considering that 3 of them were close friends w/ dimitri as children. but thats whats so GOOD about it..... there's so much angst in that alone. ouugh what are your plans for a future crimson flower route regarding the blue lions :o? BUT YEAH. SILVER SNOW (THE CHURCH ROUTE) IS GONNA BE ROUGH LMAO I DONT WANNA GO AGAINST / BETRAY EDIE LET ALONE THE REST OF THE BLACK EAGLES.... its gonna be tough but we'll make it through </3 that is why i am putting it off for as longas possible👍

HEHEH SO GLAD YOUVE ENJOYED ME GOING BATSHIT OVER EDELGARD / INGRID. SOMETHING SPOKE TO ME AND THEY JSUT..... GOD. YEAH. HAPPY YOU UNDERSTAND. fdjndfg i totally understand that want to like. get as painful as possible but for me personally. whille i HATE separating the black eagles from edie. i just cant be without them and kill them in battle i jusr CANT .... so props to you for wanting to do that! i will sauy though theres alreyad enough angst surrounding edie and hubie if you choose to save everyone else in the BE.... it just. it fucked me up, so have fun in VW<3 good luck w./ the rest of crimson flower if you stilll havent finished and verdant wind when you get to it :D!!!!

<3333 SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT MY SILLY POSTING AND MUSINGS GOT YOU TO PLAY AND THEREFORE ENJOY THE GAME!!!!!! MY WORK HERE IS CERTAINLY DONE... also happy that this new piece of media gave you more shit to think about<3 theres def a bunch to think about in terms of three houses man...... AND RIIIGHT THE NICKNAMES ARS SOC UTE..... ADN THEF ACT MOST OF THEM CAME FROM DOROTHEA ALONE MAKES ME SO ........ GOD . GIOD.

[the-enchanted-dreamer]

I want someone who I can call at ungodly hours of the night to talk to them about both fighting parents and monstrous turkeys. Someone who would love me on purpose.

[stasammenarchive]

do you ever think about some of your long lasting internet friends... bc i do.. thinking about min, who i’ve known for 13 damn years and still puts up w my ass... i love her so much. emma’s been 13 years too... my god.. i’ve been on the internet for too long..

thinking about kc.. it’s been like.. nearly 8 years??? eight years dude.......that’s a true tumblr bestie right there LMAO

but also thinking about the friends i had from years ago who didn’t stick.. we drifted apart or stuff happened... i hope they’re doing good. i still think about certain people sometimes and it makes me :) to think about ‘em.