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swanandphoenixsong · 5 months ago

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Off hiatus...?

So! it's been a loooong year, but it it's time to finally look back and review a little about what I've been doing...

It's officially been a year since I made these posts about my stroke (back then, I had not made any reblogs since the 23rd of June, I was hospitalized on the 26th, and I had entered rehab on July 6th. As you may note, I've been back on tumblr long since my hiatus explanation.

(However, now I look back and see I hadn't actually posted any creations - writing, art, edits, or otherwise since April of 2023. 😬Yeesh. I hope to change that during July or August. Before my stroke, I was coming home from spring semester on campus, and I was already planning to take a break from my studies for at least the summer and fall, and had hoped my writer's block would relieve itself after Father's Day and I had adapted to being home again.)

Anyway! What's been up more recently/how am I feeling? — Pretty good. Started feeling much more like myself partway in April this year, when I felt I could tap into the 'flow' of creative thoughts, for writing, and they were coming easier, and I was getting excited about getting back into it, and art, and other media. However, I decided to wait til I had some ideas planned, and to get more medical stuff handled.

I still have a lot to do over the latter half of this year, but I thought the anniversary of the hiatus post would be the best time to make an update. I'll be making other posts as well, including something to pin on my blog, until I have some new media posted.

Plans! — Of course, I’ve played various amounts of Animal Crossing, Pokémon, and other games over the past year, so I hope to share some edits/vids/experiences from them.

Art! — I eventually want to migrate my art either to Ao3, or here on tumblr, or on my own website, but basically just get it off DeviantArt or Instagram, since AI art generators are running rampant on them and other various websites. Not that my art is <that> good, but I don’t want to support websites like DA or Insta as much.

Speaking of, I will eventually be making my own website, and ‘locking’ my Ao3 to only logged in users, so that it will be less likely to be scanned by AI generators. I haven’t done it yet, but expect posts about that soon.

Writing — On the smallest scale of update, I’d revisit my first fic, Inhibitions, that I originally began in Spring of 2013 (I had forgotten I had started it in HS, 😅 sheesh!) I think I’ll be making my own comments on some of the chapters, and I’ll post about them on here as well. It’s still so important to me, as it was cathartic as I dealt with my own depression and anxiety over the near dozen years since, and I want to share part of the writing process, research, or my thoughts now.

Following that, I hope to update Aspirations soon too! Finally I’m figuring out some writer’s block, and wanted to show something for it.

Alongside, I may also have an update for my Star Wars Nouveau AU, on fanfics Aliit or Jedi Scholar soon, but am still figuring out some things on the back-burner.

Of the greatest relevance to me and to those of you in the Sandman fandom, I want to update my Sandman fic, The Nightmare of Orpheus, as again, I’m finally getting through some writer’s block, and I would like to update it before we get the “A Midsummer Night's Dream” episode (next year? Somehow sooner? Who knows?)

— as far as when I’ll actually have any updates before August, I aim to have proper goals set by my birthday, July 21st, so if I have fallen short, you can at least expect me to make a progress update then!

Thanks for reading!

#stroke survivor #Swan's bio #Swan's creations

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dark-roleplay-finder · 1 year ago

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{🥀🕊️} tldr about me; 24f she/her, novella multi-page writer, fantasy / zombie apocalypse / historical fiction, mxm & mxf and doubles-friendly, nsfw and dead dove friendly but will discuss limits and triggers, eastern time zone, plotting and worldbuilding heavy, discord pinterest and spotify are my best friends!

tldr looking for; heavily literate 18+ long-term rp partner, a lover of fantasy (fae, demons, dragons, chosen ones and dark lords, etc) or open to supernatural historical fiction or dark zombie-centric apocalyptic threads. replies preferably at minimum once a week, and please no ghosting–i am very understanding of real life and burnout so if we need breaks thats okay! discord + pinterest friendly, and must vibe ooc! romance is required, as well as being okay with lgbtq+ characters, dark themes, and nsfw content.

read below for more details if this sounds like your cup of tea~

hi friends, i’m 24f she/her, looking for someone similar in age (18+ required, absolutely no minors, preferably 20+) who loves fantasy, monsters, romance, and loooong lengthy replies. i’ve been writing for the past 15+ years with dreams of one day being published, and have been roleplaying for the past 10+ years, though i’ve been on an extended hiatus. i’m recently quit my job (living in EST) so my schedule is pretty open to start writing together! Even though i have a lot of new free time, i do have a partner and responsibilities, and am also aware of burnout, real life, and mental health so never be afraid to pull the breaks for a few days, weeks, or months if we need to but please communicate that. i almost exclusively write medieval high fantasy, but also enjoy historical fiction (absolutely nothing modern ie. 1930's onward) and lately have been into zombie apocalypses as i’m rewatching twd. i only work with originals, ocxoc, but am open to playing with a canon universe as long as we make it our own! i’m mainly looking for mxm and mxf romance since that’s what i have the most experience with, but i am lgbtq+ friendly. i prefer a partner who is open to writing a wide range of characters, not just female ocs or “submissive” types, just to ensure we keep the threads fresh for both of us. i’m more than happy to double and work on multiple threads as well. i like a heavy emphasis on troubled characters with real flaws, trauma, and their subsequent development, exploring interesting relationship dynamics both healthy and toxic, and extensive worldbuilding + magic systems. customized discord servers, fanart, headcanons, drawn maps of our worlds, couples playlists, pinterest boards–you name it, i love it and am here for it.

concepts in mind; while i don’t have any set plots, characters, or worlds (i generally enjoy figuring this out organically with my partner) there are some things that i like to write and cliches i love to see. Anything with fae, monsters, demons and witches, interesting takes on vampires + werewolves, i’m here for! i love fairytale retellings and mythology, and playing with religious motifs and inspiration (think paradise lost). themes of rebellion, war-torn kingdoms, corrupt monarchies, prophecies, racing against the clock to defeat eldritch world-ending monsters, dark overlords, magic always has a price, everyone is living on borrowed time just to name a few. when it comes to romance tropes, you can never go wrong with enemies to lovers, soulmates, forbidden romance, arranged/forced marriage, hidden identity, the hero falls for the villain. i foam at the mouth for soft ocs that snap and go feral, not a god’s chosen but a god’s cursed, the found family out of a band of ragtag misfits, complex villains who are actual people, i could literally go on for hours.

other tidbits; i don’t write canon characters or with fandoms, but i do enjoy my fair share of shows, books, and video games! i'm open to taking inspiration from any of them, so i’ll list a few if it helps give a better idea of what i’m into and possible interests we might share–

shows/movies: game of thrones + house of the dragon, outlander, the walking dead, pride and prejudice, stranger things, lotr, twilight

books: a court of thorns and roses + throne of glass, six of crows + shadow and bone, the night circus, and many more

games: animal crossing, legend of zelda, the sims, dragon age, stardew valley, the last of us

contact; if you are interested in any of this, like this post and i'll message you or comment with your discord username and i'll add you

Like this post and the asker will reach out!

#roleplay #roleplay ad #1x1 rp #discord rp #18+ rp #original rp

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findyourrp · 1 year ago

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read below for more details if this sounds like your cup of tea~

other tidbits; i do not write canon characters or with fandoms, but i do enjoy my fair share of shows, books, and video games! i'm open to taking inspiration from any of them, so i’ll list a few if it helps give a better idea of what i’m into and possible interests we might share–

shows/movies: game of thrones + house of the dragon, outlander, the walking dead, pride and prejudice, stranger things, lotr, twilight

books: a court of thorns and roses + throne of glass, six of crows + shadow and bone, the night circus, and many more

games: animal crossing, legend of zelda, the sims, dragon age, stardew valley, the last of us

contact; if you are interested in any of this, like this post and i'll message you or comment with your discord username and i'll add you

#rp finder #18+ rp #fandom rp #fandom roleplay #oc rp #fandomless rp #historical rp #zombie apocalypse rp

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the-traveling-poet · 8 months ago

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hello!

not a request, but i just came here to tell u i hope everything gets easier for u. during your hiatus i was so tempted to send in an ask to check up on u (i really love ur content and u seem like such a genuinely nice and kind person), but i guessed its a hiatus for a reason, so i didnt want to bother. i hope uk ure really appreciated, and i really did miss seeing u on my dash! and never stop doing what u do. im sure things will look up for u soon. i understand its hard, but it wont be like this forever. goodluck with everything🫂❤️

and, and...i cant wait enough for the rose honestly, ive read each chapter enough times to recite them.

anon i cant describe with words in the english language how much this means to me, especially after waking up on 2hrs of sleep last night and currently feeling like death from sinus infection/bronchitis. i cant- thank you so so much, you literally made my whole week cause imma be thinking abt this constantly 😭

never be afraid to reach out at any time! i love interacting with y’all sm, it makes me feel appreciated lol.

and tbh you’re so right abt that. things have been shitty for a loooong ass time now but through it all i’ve found that; that’s life man. everything’s shitty. and that made me realize back in 2022 i should appreciate all the small things i’ve got going on so so much more. thank you for making me remember that today🤎 and i sincerely hope you’re doing well on your end of the screen ml!!

and omf i’m so glad you’re enjoying The Rose??? literally it’s my baby at this point even if i haven’t expended on it as fast as i first planned to. ahh that makes me so happy someone other than myself is enjoying it!!! i have chapter 5 almost ready to publish on wattpad, but really need to update my tumblr chapters lol.

sorry for ranting on and on lol but pls you made my day thank you sm 🥺🤎🤎

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captainskyson · 2 years ago

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AO3 Q&A

Saw this from @talldecafcappuccino a while back and saved it for later, mucho life happened and I forgot about it, then just found it again in my drafts and thought “hey, it’s been a long time since I’ve done a Tumblr q&a post. Why not.”

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

132

2. What’s your current Ao3 word count?

1,803,382

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

On Ao3, 7 - but I can think of 3 more off the top of my head that never saw the light of the Internet. A handful are just one-offs, too. But the full list I can think of, most-prolific to least, is: Agents of SHIELD, Buffy, The Blacklist, Harry Potter, The Man in the High Castle, Longmire, CSI, MCU, Ted Lasso.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

GH-325 (Agents of SHIELD) - my first baby! I hadn’t finished, due to show circumstances and becoming a bit disillusioned to writing for it (the show, not the ship), but I refuse to give it up. It’s still a wip, just in long hiatus. Too many people have supported this one over the years for me to give it up… despite the apologetically loooong hiatus.

I Need A Bad Idea (BtVS) - my true baby; this fic is a beast. It’s ridiculous. When I first surpassed GH-325 word count numbers I wondered what the hell I was doing - now well beyond, I just roll with the chaos. I deeply appreciate the love on this one because I’d still be doing this nonsense even without it - so it’s very encouraging to have it. ❤️

Sweet Nothings (The Blacklist) - to be honest, I’m just now discovering this is my #3 kudos’d fic. A pleasant surprise! This one was pure fun to write, and I’m more than pleased to give Lizzington shippers something positive to indulge in, considering… everything.

A Cover Is Not The Book (BtVS) - one of my earlier BG fics. A fully light-hearted story which I know can be rare for these two haha.

Secrets and Surprises (Agents of SHIELD/MCU) - my indulgent attempt at writing a Tony Stark-Daisy Johnson friendship - FUN. Also, of course, Lola is a main feature. 😍🚘

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not.

I try to! Even if it’s just a thank you - I really do appreciate every single comment on a story and I like to try and show that. Sometimes I accidentally miss some, but yeah usually I do my best to respond.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I don’t do angst very well. I’ve been told otherwise (😅) but I’m just a sucker for my happy (or at least hopeful) endings. Two of my Buffy fics, Shrike and Beloved, are pretty angsty UNTIL the end… lol.

7. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Not as a habit. Technically a few of my AoS fics could count as crossovers, even though I’m firmly of the belief that SHIELD *is* just as canon as the rest of the MCU (Or it was??? I lost track of the plot after season 6.) A number of years ago I wrote a Buffy/MCU crossover fic that just makes me laugh now… it’s a little nuts, as it spawned from a weird dream I had haha. It was actually also my first Ao3 posting for my beloved ship…

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Oh yes. The most hateful comments tend to spawn elsewhere, but I’ve had two or three silly-gooses forget that they have a ‘back’ button on their Ao3 browser. 99.9% of the time Ao3 is a lovely community though. But I also tend to live in smaller corners of fandoms, we keep to ourselves. 🤙

9. Do you write smut?

Does one make lemonade out of lemons? 🤣 🍋🍋🍋

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

11. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yessss - Lemon Giles! I am deeply proud of this collab. It was one of the most magical writing experiences of my life. Two people, a shared Google doc, opposite time zones and a chaotic level of shippy feels 😂 It was so much fun.

12. What’s your all time favourite ship?

Oof magoof. This is a tough one. My knee-jerk reaction is to go BG, as that’s definitely been the most affecting ship in my life (as far as real-life friendships and relationships made and heroes met and goals inspired etc). But Grissom-Sara from CSI: Las Vegas has been close to my heart for an even longer time. I also deeply adore Longmire-Vic… it’s not often a tv show follows the books (sort of), and/or canonizes your otp. At least, not when it’s any of *my* otps hahaha.

13. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

If my memory serves, I first wrote for CSI, but I first posted online for Harry Potter. On Ao3 specifically, my first posted fic was for Agents of SHIELD.

14. What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

Oh dang it, I cannot pick one answer here. I have different reasons for favourites: “Shrike”, because a friend and I actually had that one printed and bound (for funsies and a gift to a fellow friend, not for dough) and my copy ended up read and signed by someone I adore. The Infinite, because Coulson-Mace was a ship fandom of like, five (bless you), and I’ve never felt Mama-Bear about a ship before, but those boys are just… so much to me. Plus, working on that story had helped me mourn a sudden real-life death of someone close to me. “I Need A Bad Idea” is my favourite in regards to the amount of work I put into that one. It’s so satisfying when all the research and brainstorms and notes come together into a ready-to-post chapter.

#q and a #ask skyson #ao3 #fanfiction #writing #shippy ships

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its-akila · 8 months ago

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Hello, hello! I’m back from a very loooong hiatus. (One which not even I could have seen!). Actually I remember why I lost the rhythm of posting in a fairly often manner. I got a job to design a mascot for a company so I wanted to write about the process but I didn’t want to post any image before they finalized it. Ah yes! Before typing this i kinda forgot (I did just say i remembered right? It’s complicated!) because I didn’t plan to talk about that today and I was going to post another image .Wow time flies!! I was planning on abandoning this blog and heading over to the ever popular instagram, but I don’t know…I can’t abandon my first offspring. As someone once said, “I love my baebae”! Okay, so the formula I’ve come up with is that i will continue to blog here as usual and post the same image on instagram with the link to this blog if anyone is interested in reading my neuronical nonsense (things my brain made up, yah)….

on to the image! Not much to say about it now since it’s been such a long time. The company wanted a lion mascot with different outfits (including underwear so they can add clothing if they wanted) and expressions. I think they wanted more street type clothing with big jewelry but somehow I didn't know what to draw even though i'm interested in fashion im not fashionable. Maybe that’s what they didn’t like about it. Ah well….I can dress him as i like now. Here’s a few of the images.

#illustration #drawing #art #artwork #digital art #cute #lion #vector art #mascot #illustrator #resurrection

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miyagifangkai · 2 years ago

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Spooky Season 👻

Summary: You and your friends go to Spirt Halloween together for your friendship tradition.

Word Count: 1.9k

Couple Pairing: Hawk/Eli x Reader

Warnings: honestly none?? Maybe a few curse words and talk of Halloween stuff??

Characters Involved: Reader, Hawk/Eli, Miguel, and Sam

Also this is pure fluff and nerdiness!!!

!!!Also not completely proofread!!!

A/N: Hey guys!! I know it’s been a loooong time since I’ve wrote something. Had to deal with my mental health. I’m gonna start writing again but for right now I’m not gonna take any requests, I’m sorry.. but soon I will! But for right now I’ll post some of my own works. Still on like a semi hiatus, I guess. I hope you all enjoy reading this and thank you for taking the time! 😊

“Hey, you all know what time it is?” You exclaim to your friends slightly hopping up and down.

Sam, Miguel, and Hawk all three turn around to look at you knowing exactly what you’re going to say. Seeing your Halloween themed vest adorned with ghosts, pumpkins, and bats; as well as your very dorky Halloween pun shirt with two broom sticks saying, “Witch Please!” on it. It was safe to say that you wanted to make a statement today.

Hawk tried to hide his excitement as well knowing that he’s going to receive the judgmental glares from Miguel and Sam, as per usual.

“What is it?” Hawk looks at you wide eyed with a big smile.

Miguel stares at him with sarcastic narrow eyes, “C’mon dude. If you don’t know by now then you’ll never catch on!”

Sam chuckles from Miguel’s response as you stand there still giddy.

Sam looks back at you and asks, “Well?”

You get a devious grin, “It’s officially September! And you know what that means?”

Everyone shares a smile and you all say in unison, “Spooky Season!”

You jump and down out of excitement causing your sparkling spider web earrings to bounce with you. Hawk decides to join in on the excitement as you two giggle together. He holds your hands and you two jump together forcing you to almost fall into him.

Miguel and Sam both cross their arms and laugh at you and Hawk.

“Ah, the best time of year!” Hawk exclaims as he pulls away from you leaving you there starting to feel the emptiness between your fingers.

“So, it’s the first weekend and you know what that means too?” You ask your three friends.

Miguel sighs, “Spirit Halloween, huh?”

Sam smiles, “It is tradition!”

“Yeah, dude! We have to go this weekend, we always do!” Hawk practically yells at Miguel but softens his expression when he hears you speak.

“Don’t be a party pooper, Miguel! You always end up having fun every time you go!” You say in almost a sing-song voice, “You know you want to! Pleeeaassseee?”

You see Sam lightly punch Miguel’s arm and he rolls his eyes with a smile, “Okay fine! We’ll go.”

“Yes!” You, Sam, and Hawk celebrate.

Hawk looks at you and gives you a hug; as the hug lasted a little longer than usual you started to wonder if he meant something more. You hug him back like you always do and you feel like you never wanted to let go. You finally do though, letting a small dull ache creep back in your heart, as you hear the bell ring and you all head to your classes to start the school day. You spent all of your classes anticipating the weekend and being able to go to your favorite store with Hawk.

You always had feelings for him ever since the early grade years when you two met but you never knew if he felt the same.

You would notice different hints from him throughout the years. He would hold your hand sometimes, rub your shoulders, play with your hair, or especially give you hugs that would last a few more seconds too long. You always convinced yourself that you were just overthinking it but you had hoped you weren’t.

As you got home that evening you decorated your room with Halloween Knick-knacks and started your countdown.

As the weekend rolled around you were more than excited to carry on the tradition with your friends. You dressed in some dark jeans, sneakers, and of course another punny Halloween shirt reading, “I’m so corny!” with a bunch of candy corn decorations on it. You even paired it with your dangly candy corn earrings.

You heard the car horn honk and you rushed out of the house. As you opened the door you saw Hawk wearing a black shirt with a big picture of Frankenstein on it. It was his favorite shirt due to Frankenstein being his favorite classic monster. In a way it made sense, Frankenstein was a freak. Everyone hated him for being him so he eventually had to become strong and overpower everyone else; sometimes you thought Hawk took that storyline to an extreme.

You walk up to the car acknowledging Hawk’s shirt, “Classic! We love it!”

Hawk almost blushes at you and says, “Nice shirt too. You heathen!”

You shake your head and and get into the car.

On the way there you and Sam begged for something pumpkin spice from Starbucks to Miguel’s disdain, “So basic!”

“Hey! Don’t knock it till you try it!” You say before sipping on your latte.

“Yeah, pumpkin spice is the shit!” Hawk gives you a high-five.

On the way there you and Hawk exchange glances with each other and talked all the way there about what your costumes are gonna be.

Finally you arrive at Spirit and the windows are covered in the posters for the store with the signature grim reaper design and you can feel your heart pounding from excitement. You couldn’t wait to see all that they had this year. As you all get out of the car you and Hawk race to the front door.

“LAST ONE IS A ROTTEN PUMPKIN!” Hawk yells.

“HAWK YOU CHEATED WHAT THE HELL!” You yell back.

“God, they’re such nerds.” Miguel chuckles.

“We heard that!”

You stop at the entrance with shallow breaths deciding not to accept your defeat and you shoot Hawk a glare.

“What? I can’t help that I’m faster!”

You cross your arms, “Oh yeah? That’s what a CHEATER would say!” You step closer to him feeling your anger rise as he smirks at you.

“So I guess this means I’m better at running than you are, hmm?”

You scoff, “Excuse me? Absolutely not!”

You take another step closer to the point you’re almost touching noses.

“Okay, ladies break it up! Either kiss and makeup or we can go home!” Miguel steps in between you two causing you both to separate and fake grimace at each other, “so competitive, geez!”

You look at Sam with a pout and a slight blush on your cheeks and she swings her arm over your shoulder, “You’ll get him next time!”

You four walk in and are greeted by the many animatronics and the setup of the laboratory. Your eyes go wide from excitement and you almost start to hop up and down again until you feel someone grab your hand.

You look up and see Hawk smiling at you, “Wanna go inside?”

You nod your head excitedly but get distracted by Miguel getting jump scared by the animatronic he walked in front of. You all laugh at him and he looks back at you all, “Shit! That dude is huge!”

“And apparently super scary, you coward!” Sam chuckles.

“Shut up!” Miguel smiles, he looks at Sam, “I hate this place.”

“I know you do. You’re fine. Suck it up,” she pats him on the shoulder.

“You sound like Sensei sometimes,” Miguel giggles.

You all enter the laboratory setup and are greeted by flashing lights and huge tubes filled with red liquid.

“Kinda looks like an oversized lava lamp or something,” you say, reaching out to touch it.

“Yeah, it totally does!” Hawk touches it with you and you two look at each other with big smiles.

“SHIT!” Sam gets scared by the jumping spider and almost screams.

“Oh, wow! Who’s the coward now!” Miguel exclaims.

“Seriously, Miguel? Aren’t you supposed to protect me or something?”

You step up, “Him? Protect you? You’d have a better chance with me protecting you!”

You smirk and lead on with, “or even worse have Hawk protect you,” you pretend to get chills and over exaggerate your body movements.

“Fuck off, dude! You are seriously the worst!” Hawk yells back.

Miguel fake laughs with you and Sam, “How original! So funny! Wow!” He slowly claps at your corny joke. You stick your tongue out at him and you walk down a little further and look up at the ceiling.

You see the grim reaper being projected up and it looks like you can almost touch him. You look at the walls and see the stories of some of the animatronics being projected onto the wall.

“I can be in here for hours,” you say completely enamored with everything in your eyesight.

“We know!” Hawk answers, grabbing your hand and leading you towards the exit.

Once you are out of the laboratory you all decide to browse around; with you and Hawk heading over to the horror costumes and Miguel and Sam going to the couples costumes.

“Ugh, gross. Couples costumes,” Hawk has a grossed out expression to his features.

You lightly slap his arm, “No way! They’re cute!”

He scoffs at you and starts looking at the Friday the 13th costumes. You were looking at the Scream costumes when you see Hawk come up with a costume in his hand.

“I know what you could be!” He gives you a big smirk.

“Oh no, what is it?”

He hands the costume to you and you read out, “Sexy camp counselor?” You look at him slightly amused but trying to hide it, “I’ve never been this disappointed in you before.”

“Awh, I think you’d look really good. I could totally be Jason and we’d match!”

Your eyes go wide, “Whoa, whoa, whoa! Are you suggesting a couples costume right now?” You feel a slight jump in your heart rate. You weren’t really sure if this was what Hawk was going for but you wanted to test the waters.

Hawk tries to hide his surprise by your question and you see his face start to turn red so you push further, “Does this mean something?”

“What? No? No. Of course not. Between us? Gross!”

You cross your arms and smirk, “Sure, dude.”

You see Sam and Miguel approach you two after looking around and you turn to them and you exclaim, “I think Hawk wants to do a couples costume with me!”

“What?” Sam asks.

Miguel and Sam look at him with smiles on their faces.

“No! I was just saying we could match! A cute friend idea! Maybe!”

Sam narrows her eyes, “Sexy camp counselor? Not very ‘friendly’ to me, right Miguel?”

Miguel laughs, “Dude, just ask her out already!”

Hawks face at this point is blood red and he is at a loss for words. His face almost holds no expression or at least you thought until he starts to clench his jaw at your teasing.

“I guess the cat's got his tongue!” You say.

You all start to laugh slightly which gives Hawk the push of anger to finally bite the bullet.

“Fine,” he sighs, “I wanted this to be a bit more romantic or something,” you hear him almost audibly swallow the lump in his throat, “but would you like to do a couples costume with me?”

You almost burst out at the seams but you keep your cool knowing your friends would make fun of you forever if you did so you calmly answer with, “Duh!”

You and Hawk share another smile with each other as Miguel stretches his arms out, “Finally! He asks!”

Sam comes up and says, “Okay! We need to find you two the most perfect couple costume for your first Halloween together!”

You can already feel Hawks' eye roll from her statement but for some reason it makes you feel so happy inside. You could almost say it made you feel electrified!

#cobra kai #hawk x reader #hawk moskowitz x reader #eli moskowitz x reader #miguel diaz #samantha larusso #johnny lawrence #daniel larusso #karate kid #cobra kai imagine #jacob bertrand

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life-loss-leaving · 3 years ago

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I don’t know what to think nor what to expect tbh. I think deep down I’m sure we’ll get a happy ending, because I don’t think those two would be available for a second season honestly.

If they were available and we could actually get a second season or a special episode of sorts, then I could stand an open ending or even a not so happy one. It would a loooong wait, but this show was so good that I would find a way to handle the hiatus.

I’m scared we’ll get a sad ending because I know I won’t be able to rewatch it knowing where it’s going, just like what happened with History 3 modc. I haven’t been able to rewatch that, even though I loved it. It’s too sad, makes me feel like shit, so I won’t go back to that ever again.

Anyway, this show meant so much to me and I’m trying to figure out why. It’s the details, I think.

Each episode was special, each and every single one. It never happened before. There were no lame episodes, no filler episodes. If I had to pick one I didn’t like and that didn’t move me in a way, I would really have trouble doing it. Of course, it was difficult to top episode 5 and that kiss, but I don’t think I’ve ever felt this way about a show before.

The scene at the end of episode 3, Pran’s face and Pat’s eyes when he’s about to give him the guitar. Man, how do you get over that?!

Like, each week I’d be like “I can’t believe I’ll get to see them move again and talk again and just show emotions again, be alive again” — I felt to blessed for all of their work, so grateful. It’s a gift, really.

So tomorrow will be tough and I keep thinking and dreading how I will feel this time, Tomorrow, when it’s all over.

This is just a rant, forgive me. I needed to get this out.

#bad buddy the series #bad buddy #patpran #gmmtv

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kinetic-elaboration · 2 years ago

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July 21: Working on SGAU

It was storming terribly today so I got a ride home from work. That put me in a better mood than usual because I didn’t have to recover from the heat. Plus the stormy atmosphere seemed good for working on the Southern Gothic AU. I actually spent a lot of time on it, not frantically, but steadily and slowly, and progress was made. I’m going through all the characters first, then I’ll go through the chapters. The characters part is mostly about making sure I understand what’s happening, people’s motivations, the universe as a whole, character arcs. Going through each chapter will allow me to make sure that everything I need to include has a place somewhere in the narrative. I’ve done this in a half-assed way before but never properly. And I am paying for it, because not only has writing what I have so far been quite difficult, and not only have I fallen into a loooong hiatus on this fic, but I’m going to have to re-write a large chunk of Chapter Two because it doesn’t include.. a lot of important stuff.

I’m a little annoyed with myself for painting myself in this corner. But not that annoyed because at this point this fic is just something I live with permanently so adding even more work to it is like... lol whatever. Also, I don’t usually scrap big chunks of text like this and rewrite without reference to the original, and I’m sort of curious to see how that will go. I can’t just edit the original because there are too many changes, and it would be easier to start again than to try to organically edit some parts and stick in others. I want to change the tone, too. It’s too soft. It’s too nice. I need Raven to have grief and anger and defiance and determination and verve. I need it darker. All that said, there are parts that are going to be essentially the same but for being written at different times and I’m curious to see how those will compare.

Only one more day. I’m very tired and tired of the heat but I think I can make it. Over the weekend, I hope to work on Slide, so it might not be till next week I return to these notes, but hopefully I can continue steady work on them and then transition that to steady work on the text itself. The good thing about this hiatus is that any progress seems amazing after months of nothing...

#the year 2022 #2022: writing thoughts

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simalayan · 4 years ago

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Life Update

Hey guys! It’s been a while. I’ve been on a loooong hiatus. I still am, but I wanted to give a quick update. Things have been pretty busy for me. I’ve been working full time and playing other games, but most importantly I had a baby! My daughter Phoebe was born on 4/20/21. She’s amazing, fantastic, beautiful, so easy going, smells like love, lets me give her all the kisses with no complaints, 100/10 would recommend.

I know it’s been a while (like 1 1/2 years oops) and most of the tumblrs I followed are gone or won’t really remember this blog. I’m not even sure if and when I’ll ever post on here again, but this community was something I really enjoyed for a long time, so it only felt right that I should make this post. I hope it finds you well, and thank you for all the memories!

#personal #me #nonsims

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ramuoto · 4 years ago

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TOP 10 MANHWAs

if anything good came out of 2020, it’s my discovery of manhwas.

well, it’s not like i’ve never read a single manhwa in the past 15+ years but tbh, the ratio of manhwa:manga i consume on a weekly basis has jumped exponentially this year. previously it was like 1:99 and now it’s like 90:10 LMAO.

so, just to remind myself that the world is still full of good things, i had to make this list. which i will probably edit in the future, if i can be bothered to. :)

anyhow, this list was not made in any particular order, just whichever came into mind. it’s loooong so be prepared! (I’ve read way more titles than mentioned but just included the ones worth checking out)

for whoever stumbles across this list, i hope some of these resonate with you and i hope they make you as happy as they made me.

pic credits: https://geekculture.co/geeks-guide-to-transmigration-novels-avoid-death-at-all-costs/

1. Ebony

https://mangadex.org/title/41838/ebony

Bahahah omg he looks evil there! But our dearest archduke is hardly that aww. Soz, I just ripped off the covers of the manhwa cos I can’t find a panel I liked more than another. I mean, this manhwa is a GEM. I can’t even begin to describe this because everything about it blew me away. This is not something you read when you are craving for fluff, or just wanna have something brainless after a hard day at work or if you just wanna have some eye candy lol. This is something you pick up on a weekend, when you have time, because you need those hours to digest, appreciate, clutch your chest, tear a little because you find yourself falling in love with these characters. It doesn’t have any of that cliche isekai, romance, revenge themes going on. It has a solid plot, backed by incredible characters, beautifully woven by the authors and artist with incredible pacing that keeps you on your toes and keeps you looking forward to the next chapter. Maybe I would have been happier if I found it after it was completed lol. HAVE I CONVINCED YOU ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU WANNA READ IT?! like, idk, just go. JUST GO READ IT GDI.

p.s. it says there romance but naaaaaaah, dont go in with that expectation. :) this story is so much more than that.

2. Bring the love

https://mangadex.org/title/44472/bring-the-love

This...this!!! THIS MANHWA NEEDS MORE LOVE. If you need a lot of fluff, a little, ok maybe quite a bit of sadness and tragedy, sweet sweet romance, cutie pies, please, look no further!!! Again, pacing, character development are so important to me and this manhwa aces it. I love the 2 MCs very much. And the side characters too. :)

3. A Stepmother's Märchen

https://mangadex.org/title/39474/a-stepmother-s-m-rchen

When I first read this, i fucking cried. like please don’t ask me why. it’s not like its an absolute tragedy but I was just rooting for the MC so much and I really want for everything to go her way. That’s how much I adore this MC!!! I LOVE HER. I LOVE HER MORE THAN YOU DO NORA! HAHAHHA. okay soz. I need to keep this spoiler-free.

Anyhoo, there is nothing typical about this time travel plot. Sure, she goes back to try to undo the stuff that went wrong but phew, she certainly changed things so much everything that comes her way have made it so her previous experiences can hardly help aaaaaaand that’s what makes it fun! I sometimes wish the pacing could be a little more consistent, and there could be more characters I could love a little more wholeheartedly (so i wont have to be in so much despair when i read this sometimes lol) but omg the art, isn’t it pretty?! I’ve re-read this soooooo many times but the art blows me away all the time. And have I already mentioned how much I love her?! I LOVE YOU SHULI! AND I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY!

4. Lady Baby

https://mangadex.org/title/34691/lady-baby

I literally LOL-ed when I saw this cover. WHO THE HELL ARE THEY. WHAT LADY BABY?! ehehehe. okay anyway, uhm, this is already incredibly popular. im not sure if i need to elaborate but yes, it’s adorbs!!! i dont think i like the MC as much as i love her family lol. and everyone else who adores her. im looking forward to when they get older. :) actually not really. please stay cute for as long as yall can! but yeah, i do wish the plot can move a lil faster. i want to see more character development in the other kids too COME ON!

5. Death Is the Only Ending for the Villainess

https://mangadex.org/title/47754/death-is-the-only-ending-for-the-villainess

am i allowed to reveal how shallow i am rn? like the previous choices were all like ‘wow-deep-plot’, ‘wow-character-development’ and this one i just included cos of AESTHETICS ALONE?! the novel covers are breathtaking!!! the manhwa art is amazing as well. and the harem is great! LOL. as for plot... uhm... it’s alright. it’s pretty engaging and i quite like the MC, she’s smart and independent and i love how she views them all antagonistically at all times HAHAHHA. her past is kinda... weird though and i do wish they’d stop referencing it. cos... girl why do you wanna go back to reality!!! stay here! it’s way more exciting!

i love the whole isekai/reincarnate/transmigration theme and this is honestly one of the better, not-so-cliche or cheesy ones HA.

6. Beware of the Villainess!

https://mangadex.org/title/47286/beware-of-the-villainess

do you already see the whole villainess theme?! am i suppose to start feeling embarrassed about my choices?! NO! cos this one is AWESOME!

again, another wildly popular title. for good reasons. it’s hilarious, our MC is as real and candid as it gets and LOOK AT THAT BLUE HAIRED BEAUTY. DO YOU SEE HIM?! IMPLANT HIM INTO YOUR MEMORY NOW!

it’s highly entertaining and breaks all isekai-reincarnation-villainess plot stereotypes. definitely one of the titles i look forward to every week.

7. Who Made Me a Princess

https://mangadex.org/title/32506/who-made-me-a-princess

what? why did i choose this?

BECAUSE OF CLAUDE OF COURSE. ahahaha. okay aside from the amaaaaaaazing art and the beautiful people, the plot is not too bad. a little extreme at times but it’s interesting enough to keep me going. it’s currently on hiatus though and i was highly annoyed by how the first season ended. (YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENED? NOTHING.)

i hope the plot can move faster in the next season! and that our dearest MC athanasia can you know, finally be a little more useful... like omg just tell lucas already!!! and tbh girl, no matter which guy you choose, i approve. :D

8. The Flower That Was Bloomed by a Cloud

https://mangadex.org/title/37648/the-flower-that-was-bloomed-by-a-cloud

i featured this before, mostly out of frustration HAHAHA. do you see why i chose this cover?! yeah, i support this (unpopular) pairing okay! the other one is doomed!!! no matter what the author is trying to do now!! I DONT SUPPORT IT!!! lol.

anyway, i had to feature this cos the art is unique! and the story is great. :) and i looooooove listening to the ost while i read it. it starts out kinda slow but as the pace picks up, you won’t be able to stop. and you find yourself conflicted at various points. it did win an award for a reason.

no matter what, i still think dowun is best for her okay. it’s dowun or nothing. he’s devoted to her, we all know that! he just needs to ditch that annoying female guard!!! ok yknw what, maybe nothing is better. :/ *cries*

9. Solo Leveling

https://mangadex.org/title/31477/solo-leveling

why do i even bother? this manhwa is popular enough.

the art is great. the MC is great. i use him and his gang as my wallpaper.

im just not sure i like how this season’s plot is progressing. :/ but i guess it brings us nearer to solving the mystery in the first leg of the manhwa. i just enjoyed the whole part of him leveling up and now that he isn’t really leveling up anymore... idk. am i hoping for more plot shit like bleach (oh wow now u quincy?)... idk man. anywho, no regrets starting on this series and marathon-ing it to death.

cross fingers the plot picks up and doesnt get too complicated for its own good.

10. The Reason Why Raeliana Ended Up at the Duke's Mansion

https://mangadex.org/title/31606/the-reason-why-raeliana-ended-up-at-the-duke-s-mansion

okay, tbh, by the time i reached 10, i still have like 15 other series i was considering LMAO. i even considered lengthening this top 10 to top 15. but that would just be more of me and my nonsense. so... why did i choose this?

COS I LOVE THE 2 MCs!!! they’re adorable. the plot is again, kinda far-fetched at times (i literally laugh my head off at some parts) but it’s isekai-reincarnation okay! anything is possible in whatever magical crap country you end up in! lol. and i like how straightforward it is... in the sense there’s no 2nd lead. like okay i mean they are there but we all know they have no chance. oops. sorry!

and cos i can’t give up on the other titles i have, imma just list them down, without pictures... cos im tired. HA.

11. Doctor Elise

https://mangadex.org/title/29474/doctor-elise

Kudos to the huge improvement in art style lmao. The good... lovable MCs, engaging plot. The bad... sometimes lengthy, incredulous medical moments (i work in the medical field so i... idk. sometimes this borders on iryu LMAO and i need to remind myself this is romance) otherwise, this is a highly highly entertaining read.

12. Seduce the Villain's Father

https://mangadex.org/title/46775/seduce-the-villain-s-father

This is another of my ‘father-love’ whims. MC is adorable and ML is handsome. enough said.

13. The Villainess Lives Twice

https://mangadex.org/title/49644/the-villainess-lives-twice

This is like a lesser version of Ebony and Bring the Love combined HAHAHA. The plot and premise is great and it’s awesome to marathon! I don’t find myself loving the MC as much as I should but the ML is a darling! I just find her a little toooooooo gloomy. Like come on girl, be more spunky!

14. The Stereotypical Life of a Reincarnated Lady

https://mangadex.org/title/46790/the-stereotypical-life-of-a-reincarnated-lady

I dont know why I like this so much HAHAHAHA. It hardly has a plot. I just find the MC and ML amusing i guess lol.

15. I'm Stanning the Prince

https://mangadex.org/title/45586/i-m-stanning-the-prince

Sometimes I wonder if I should be ranking this higher but I kinda feel this manhwa is trying to achieve too much with an underpowered MC. I love her... but I just don’t like how she’s just a pawn of everyone else and I dont know how she can change this situation of hers. It’s cute though. the MC and ML. and the ML reminds me so much of american/jap Mackenyu.

16. The Villainess Reverses the Hourglass

I HAD TO. the art is so pretty! but girl, dont use the hour glass so much! you look a little too old! i would appreciate it if MC stops basing too much of her moves on the “past” tho like idk you are gonna sound unoriginal soooooon like develop your own thoughts soon okay? <3

17. Inso's Law

ANOTHER ONE. omg. im a lil on the fence regarding this but i like MC too much. and her harem LOL. i dont see where the plot is going either but i just hope for a happy end... ):

18. Why Are You Doing This, Duke?

HAHAHA. this is sooooo sooooooo cute, i would have ranked it top 15 if it wasnt licensed by tapas tho cos they are a joke. WHY NOT TAPPY GDI.

19. Miss Not-So Sidekick

Uh-oh. Is this a top-20 list now? anyway, the MC for this series is GOLD. im not liking where it’s currently heading tho thus the lower ranking.

20. IRIS - Lady with a Smartphone

omg IVE NEGLECTED THIS FOR TOO LONG. lemme go buy more chapters hahahaha. it’s a tad too lengthy... otherwise i like the MC and yummy ML!

still not enough?

Special Mentions - Okay, these will be unranked cos I don’t think these are that good but probably still worth a read.

I've Become the Villainous Empress of a Novel - this is new, im looking forward to how it progresses wheeeee.

Lady to Queen - It’s a ruthless manhwa. There was a point i started reading all sorts of sadistic content (i was running out of content i swear) and this was one of the better ones. I appreciate the MC very much. the plot now is a little weird and im a bit wary of the MC’s sister... hopefully the ML can be more useful. he’s pitiful though. but dude come on, dont rely on the wrong gal.

Goodbye, In-law - I’m not sure if i like the current progress buuuuuuut MC and ML are cute so who cares.

The Duchess' 50 Tea Recipes - plot is still engaging. MC and ML are cute. i dont know where the plot is heading towards though.

A Falling Cohabitation - this is interesting and fun but a lil lengthy.

Light and Shadow - the sequel is out!!! i highly enjoyed this entire series!!! i would have probably ranked it a lil higher if i did this post earlier but too many series have overtaken this in my heart lol.

This Girl Is a Little Wild - is the hiatus ending yet? i would add it back to top 20 if it came back LOL. it’s highly entertaining tho. ML is adorable.

The Duchess With an Empty Soul - pretty nice. MC and ML are a little boring. i think it can end soon. LMAO.

A Capable Maid - it’s amusing how she gets her powers for all sorts of situations lol. the prince is creepy tbh. and im secretly rooting for the other king hehe.

Beware of the Brothers! - it’s cute and heart-wrenching at the same time! not too sure im digging the latest plot development but okay... i’ll take it. they’re all cuties.

Living as the Tyrant's Older Sister - hehehe. it’s cute. duke is kinda silly but the latest chapter made me squeal!!!

The Evil Lady's Hero - idk where the plot is going but MC and ML are adorable!!!

The Dragon Next Door - HAHAHA. it’s hilarious.

The Youngest Princess - she’s growing uppppp noooooooooooo

Virtues of the Villainess - ginger is hilarious. i dont see where the plot is going tho... and cant say i like the ML yet. i dont even get to see him much, hello?!

The Justice of Villainous Woman - pretty wholesome... i like the MC! (the ML is fine. no one else to contend with so...) can u end already?! lol.

Amina of the Lamp - hey, what happened to this? it’s pretty inconsistent but i do like the MC and ML... and the art...

The Villain's Savior - this is some sadistic shit. i reserve it for when i feel sadistic. i pretty much wanna see MC happy but idk if she’s making the right choices. :/

I Don't Want to Be Empress! - HAHAHAHA uhm it’s getting interesting. i just want ML to step up more...

La dolce vita di Adelaide - I FINISHED THIS! and it’s wholesome, feel-good and cute. some parts felt a lil extra but ah whatever.

The Black Haired Princess - plot. move. faster!!! otherwise the MC and ML are pretty cute.

The Abandoned Empress - im a lil on the fence but i know how popular this series is. it started out HORRIBLE. i hated the ML so much. and then i found the green hair boy creepy. like MC, you need better taste in boys. it’s certainly getting more interesting now though. so please, continue to make my money’s worth!!!

Lucia - i. am. not. guilty. of. anything. *smut warning* anyway go read the novel. it’s better. hehehe.

What's Wrong with Secretary Kim - i do not need to elaborate any further.

Past loves

I created this section just to remind myself, that what i could like one day, i could hate the next LOL.

The Monster Duchess and Contract Princess - I know this is wildly popular. but i lost interest in it once she grew up. i dont think she’s particularly lovable. soz.

Survive as the Hero's Wife - another popular choice. I find the plot kinda boring now. MC and ML are cute though.

Sincerely: I Became a Duke's Maid - another popular one. again, boring plot. like cant it end yet? oh you mean we need to wait for the real female lead to show up? dont need luh.

I Am a Child of This House - wow. the plot is shit now. and i do not support the MC and her guard. soz. she’s OVERPOWERED tbh.

This Is an Obvious Fraudulent Marriage - idk what happened but my enthusiasm for this died.

Charlotte and Her 5 Disciples - i don’t get it. i dont get their obsession for her.

#manhwa #fav manhwa #ebony #bring the love #a stepmother's marchen #lady baby #death is the only ending for the villainess #beware of the villainess #who made me a princess #the flower that was bloomed by a cloud #solo leveling #the reason why raeliana ended up at the duke's mansion

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staticevent · 4 years ago

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a... recap, kinda

so I’ve never made an end-of-the-year text post like this until now, while it’s still 2020 where I am (it’ll be 2021 in like, 5 minutes), I’d like to make one. (under read more bc. this is long)

to start off simply and to get the ugly stuff over with; I haven’t drawn a lot this year. In fact, 2020 is my least productive year on this blog in my almost-8 years of having it and is the first year I’ve actually taken an extended hiatus, and to put it even more simply, this has been an Extremely difficult year for me, (even disregarding everything that made 2020 generally terrible for literally everyone else). the most major blow in my life this year is the loss of my grandfather, someone very close and dear to me this year (as some of you might remember) and who’s the entire reason I began drawing; I’d not only lost him, I was with him, all by myself, and I watched him die. on top of that, my financial situation at home has struggled the entirety of this year, and plus there’s been a Deluge of family issues (which I would. really rather not get into here), and in general 2020 has been... one struggle after another.

needless to say, my mental health was affected, which in turn affected my productivity. the burnout was so heavy that, as I’d stated in my hiatus post, I couldn’t even bring myself to draw things for my friends. my self-esteem started to drop, and it turned into a vicious cycle; I drew less because of low self-esteem, but drawing less made my self-esteem dip even lower, because i felt that drawing was the One thing i was good at/for, and that i had to justify my existence through my art, and when I didn’t draw, I felt useless. i started intentionally not taking my medication, depriving myself of sleep until I could feel my body pretty much failing; self-harming as a means of punishing myself. Let me absolutely stress the fact that this was absolute No One’s fault, not my followers, not my friends, no one; this was a battle I was fighting purely against myself, and was losing.

but, now onto the whole point of this post. I’ve received an Overwhelming amount of support and kindness from both followers and strangers, something I Never expected to get when I started this blog; I’ve gotten so many kind comments/tags/etc on my work, tags saying that my work cheered them up, tags thanking me for drawing something. said support is part of what motivates me to continue drawing; when I draw, my primary goal is to make people happy, sad (in a non-malicious way of course), excited; to just have Some kind of impact in someone’s life, to feel like I’m not just taking up space. but, while this is Very important to me, there was something I was losing sight of, and that was making Myself happy.

however, as just one example of this kind of encouragement I got, when I first made the memorial post for my grandfather, I’ll be completely honest, I hadn’t expected to receive any condolences, and I’d felt that I was doing something wrong by showing Human Emotions on my art blog, but I’d received dozens of messages/replies showing understanding, and that, along with the response I got to my hiatus announcement and comfort from my friends, made me realize something; people genuinely care about me as a person, and being productive shouldn’t be at the cost of my mental health, and once I fully understand that, I know that creating art will bring me the joy and comfort that it brought me 7 years ago, and that is my most important New Year’s resolution, and I fully intend to work toward it.

and, to any artist (or content creator in general) who’s reading this and going through a rough time and suffering burnout: it’s ok to take breaks. it’s ok to be honest with yourself, you aren’t a Bad Artist for being human. I promise you, the Right People will understand, will give you space, will support you no matter what, and anyone who’d shame you for needing time and space isn’t worth keeping around.

so, to end this loooong ramble... 2020 has been hard, but I survived, and my will to keep creating has survived, and I thank each and every one of you for your continued support and encouragement, and, most importantly, for reminding me of something I’ve forgotten; that I’m a human being too, that my art is a part of me, part of what makes me happy, and that’s something I should never give up on.

anyway, onward to 2021, and i’ll see you all there!! 🌹

#misc stuffs #tw death #tw self harm #if yall could drop a like or reply etc if you read this if you can i'd appreciate it #this is like all over the place but. Yeah

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