#i’m trying to get better abt it but i’m just AGH

[flutteringfable]

my parents: hey wanna come with us to visit some family friends?

me, with the crippling inability to say no and fear of sounding rude but also in no mental state or desiring to go out anywhere: yeah k

[sweet1delusi0ns]

Nicknames Naruto boys call you—☆*:・ﾟ

Characters: Naruto🦊,sasuke🗡️,kiba🐺, shikamaru🀄️,shino🪲,neji🎋,Lee🥋, choji🍥,gaara⏳, kankuro🪆

Naruto🦊-*

He always calls you complimenting nicknames such as beautiful, gorgeous and pretty ect. He doesn’t care about your looks honestly you could be the ugliest person alive and he’s still love you. He just needs you to know your attractive no matter what! But also calls you the classics like babe n sweetheart!

“Good morning gorgeous!!” “I look like a fucking raccoon babe.” “Your still attractive no matter what y/nnnn” side note he loves giving morning kisses~

Sasuke🗡️-*

Darling. Without a doubt he calls you darling or love. He’s not sure what he would call you at first other than your name but it soon came to him. He is soooo soft for You idc what anyone says I can just imagine his soft voice “oh love” “anything else darling?” “I have a surprise for you my love” (I’m crying)

He will genuinely start crying if you called him sweet nicknames like that. (I’m writing abt that later😋)

Kiba🐺-*

Hes so Basic yet so complex honestly he will call you the most basic nicknames like babe or sweetie but then go on for hours how your the only one for him and how your were like a missing piece in his heart that he has finally found, yet he can’t come up with any better nicknames😭

“Babe have I ever told you how I feel like I’m missing apart of myself every time your away. Honestly just going to bed without you pains me so much. I’m so happy I found the one for me~” “not even baby just babe?” “I’m trying to be sincere and sensitive y/n!”

Shikamaru🀄️-*

He mainly called you dear like a old couple (LOL). Other than the sweet compliments he gives you about how hot you are n such he’s similar to kiba, basic nicknames but a lot of meaning

“Dear, I have put together a small picnic for us. I finally have time to treat you right so I figured I’d take you on a date” “Aw your the sweetest old man ever~” “anything for you dear!….HEY.”

Shino🪲-*

Call me stereotypical but he totally calls you love bug, cuddle bug or flower, cuz your his little love bug yk just full of happiness (mostly). He isn’t one to just use nicknames every sentence, he thinks nicknames should be special not matter how many times he uses them!

“Shino! I’m so happy your back home ugh I’ve missed that face! Cmon give me a hug~” “of course, I’ve missed you too love bug, or should I say cuddle bug” “either one is fine Shino~”

Neji🎋-*

Destiny (ha get it) I’m jus joking. Similar to shikamaru he talks you like you guys are an old couple but still romantic, so names like sweetheart, love and gorgeous. He uses them frequently thought so throughout the day you get to hear his pretty voice

“Sweetheart how was your day?” “Love do you want to tag along with me to the store? Or just for a walk” “you look gorgeous as always” AGH

Lee🥋-*

Ez he calls you precious. He finds it complex enough to show the love he truly feels for you without the nickname being overwhelming. “You are my precious! I will spent my whole life protecting and serving you! You deserve the best!!” I love him.

“So pretty! You are so special y/n! You are the most precious person to me!” “My precious I have a surprise!” “Precious, do you care for some tea, I’m making it fresh!”

Choji🍥-*

Also ez he calls you either honey, sweetie, or pretty. Honey and sweetie for obvious reasons, he finds you as sweet as candy and as yummy as honey, but he also finds you VERY attractive.

“Honey! I’m making dinner I hope your hungry pretty~” “your so nice to me y/n, like sweets! Ooooo that’s a good name, sweetie!”

Gaara⏳-*

He just calls you by your name, he doesn’t know what he’s doing LOL. You’ll have to coerce him into calling you cute nicknames by either promising him a reward or explaining how it’s normal to call loved ones names other than their name.

“You can call me anything you want gaara!!” “Can I Call You raccoon?” “No.” “Oh.. then what can I call you?” “Oml I’ll give you cuddles if you start calling me darling~” “sure thing y/n…uh darling..?” “Your so cute when you get flustered!”

Kankuro🪆-*

Flirt. So names along the lines of hotty, sexy, doll. Pretty self explanatory he thinks your fine asf so he’s gotta make it known. “Oo whos that hotty? Oh my gosh that my lover~” he teasing you, well atleast tried you but you just end up giggling at his attempts!

“Doll do you want to come help me in my work shop?” “Danm your so sexy~ honestly I’d let you do anything to me” “what’s your problem weirdo!” “Your hot thats my problem”

[dvixiecups]

Screw the Instagram algorithm for making me obsessed with South Park.

Anyways, can’t stop thinking abt Craig and Tweek so here’s them (aged 20)

VOMIT WARNING!!

“Alright hun, water and snacks are behind my seat, blankets behind yours and plastic bags are tucked in your door,” Craig listed, his voice nasally and calm.

The two were preparing for a road trip, their first one together and Tweeks first ever. Craig was driving, despite being 20 Tweek hadn’t yet gotten his license, which Craig didn’t mind. He took pleasure in being able to drive his boyfriend around in such a small, intimate setting. Tweek usually enjoyed their excursions around town as well. However, an 8 hour roadtrip was different, and despite how safe and comfortable he felt with Craig, Tweek had been nervous for this trip for the months leading up to takeoff.

“Gnh! A-are you sure we have enough water? Agh! What if we crash in the middle of nowhere? Ngh, and no one ever finds us?” Tweek ranted, wringing his hands together.

“Babe, listen,” Craig walked around the front of his car to meet Tweek face to face. He cupped Tweek’s head in his hands, planting a gentle kiss on his head, “this trip will be amazing, we have plenty of supplies and I’m a great driver. I’ve never gotten in a wreck before and I won’t get in one with precious luggage in the car.”

Tweek looked up into Craig’s eyes, putting his right hand over where the latter cupped his cheek.

“Ngh, you’re right. Let’s just go,” Tweek reasoned, straining his voice to sound less panicked.

“Alright,” Craig pecked Tweek on the lips before pulling away and sitting down in the drivers seat.

Tweek followed suit in the passenger seat.

“Phones?” Craig started.

“Check.”

“Wallets?”

“Check.”

“Clothes?”

“Check.”

“A kiss?”

Tweek blushed, despite this being their usual routine. Craig had discovered early after getting his license that ensuring they had everything needed before leaving the driveway quells much of Tweek’s panicking, and saves Craig’s ears from incessant nagging (he loves Tweek but sometimes he can be a bit much, especially while driving.)

“Check,” Tweek said as he leaned over the center console and planted a kiss on Craig’s cheek.

“Then let’s go,” Craig announced, turning on the ignition and leaning to look out the back window while backing up.

— 2 hours in —

“Careful babe, don’t drink too fast you’ll make yourself sick,” Craig warned, casting glances to the side to watch Tweek chug a water bottle.

“But my ears won’t pop! Nng!” Tweek cried out, wiping water from his mouth.

“Check the snack bag for gum,” Craig advised, rubbing his right hand on Tweek’s knee.

Tweek leaned around and sifted through the snack bag before brandishing the aforementioned gum. He greedily took a piece out and plopped it into his mouth, immediately chewing.

“Better?”

“Mhm,” Tweek hummed, leaning his head against the car window. The water sat densely in his stomach and the winding roads were beginning to plant seeds of nausea in his gut.

They had stopped a few times in the first 2 hours to look at scenic areas, which didn’t leave enough time for carsickness to truly manifest. But at the last stop Craig had warned they needed to get a move on, lest they spend too long on the road. Tweek had been fine with the declaration at the time, but now he sat uncomfortably, knees pulled up to his chest with the knowledge that he’d be stuck in this position for quite a long time.

In an attempt to sleep off the growing sickness (and hopefully sleep through the entire trip) he reached behind the seat to grab a blanket and placed it between his head and the door.

“Sleep well Tweek,” Craig hummed, squeezing Tweek’s shoulder in a show of comfort.

Tweek didn’t respond, already trying to drift out of consciousness.

— 4 hours in—

Craig hummed minutely along to the 80’s melody playing through the car speaker. The volume was low— he would hate to wake up Tweek, especially given his boyfriends tendency to stay up during the night— providing a chill atmosphere to the car. He had the air on without the A/C to keep the car from getting unbearably stuffy. It was calming. Craig always loved driving. Everything about it, the gentle shaking of the wheel, the hum of the engine, his car which his grandma had gifted him for his 16th birthday. And being together with Tweek. Though the last bit wasn’t always included in the car-package, he relished the time he shared with Tweek enough to tack it on the list.

All-in-all it was relaxing.

Until Tweek’s eyes shot open wide, looking frantically to either side of him, as if he had been teleported into some entirely new setting.

“Gah! Pull over! Mnph, I’m gonna be sick!” He warned, clamping a hand over his mouth.

Craig quickly got on the same wavelength of panic, especially given the fact that they were on a two-lane highway with essentially no shoulder and cars behind them. So pulling over was far from an option. However, Tweek’s paranoia had thought of this scenario already.

“The bags are in your door sweetie,” Craig reminded gently, gripping his wheel a bit tighter.

“Nng! I don’t wanna puke in your car!” He exclaimed, grabbing a bag nonetheless.

“It’s alright hun, you can’t help it,” Craig comforted, sparing a sympathetic glance at his boyfriend.

Tweek’s face held the usual panicked expression, though with a bit deathlier of a pallor. His knees were pulled tight against his stomach, and he now held a plastic grocery bag open on top of them. He was glaring down at the bag, mouth screwed shut. Obviously ashamed.

Craig reached one hand over and began rubbing Tweek’s back. Tweek jumped a bit at first, hesitant to accept the touch, but ended up leaning into it.

“I’m -gh!- sorry,” he offered, a gag breaking off his sentence. His eyes widened even more (Craig was shocked that was possible) as the immediacy of the situation settled.

“Babe, it’s alright, just let it out, you’ll feel better.”

Tweek nodded, keeping his mouth positioned over the bag. He was shaking, hands clenched around the handles of the bag as it he were afraid of dropping it.

“Deep breaths Tweek, deep breaths,” Craig reminded, rubbing Tweek’s shoulder.

Tweek coughed and spat out his gum from earlier. Nausea gripped his midsection in a vice grip, promising the inevitable yet not quite allowing the release of vomiting. He whined, drool starting to leak from his mouth into the plastic bag. He decided to put his feet back on the floor of the car, moving the bag in between his knees and hunching over it. The new position wasn’t significantly more comfortable, but it reduced the risk of missing the bag.

“Aw babe, try sipping water, maybe this will pass,” Craig suggested.

Tweek hummed, hesitantly reaching behind Craig’s seat to grab another bottle of water. His stomach felt like it was lurching, hellbent on freeing itself. Tweek opened the bottle and sipped tentatively.

The new addition seemed to be all his stomach needed to revolt. Tweek hardly had a chance to set the open bottle in the cup holder before he was scrambling to open the bag again, a gag ripping through is throat.

“There you are honey, it’s okay,” Craig hummed, his hand still on Tweek’s shoulder.

Tweek heaved again, finally bringing up a thin wave of watery vomit. It splashed at the bottom the the bag with a loud crinkle. Tweek coughed again, spitting the taste out of his mouth with hardly a chance to breathe until another wave, bigger this time, forced its way out.

He squeezed the bag handles tighter, the smell of it enough to make him retch again. He spat into the bag, trying fruitlessly to rid the foul taste from his mouth.

“Feeling better?” Craig asked, glancing to Tweek.

“No! I just puked, I feel like shit!” Tweek exclaimed, gagging and vomiting into the bag again.

“There’s a rest stop coming up in 2 miles,” Craig narrated, “we’ll pull over there and take some time to recuperate.”

“Nng, but you said that you wanted to get there before 11,” Tweek frowned, tying the handles of the soiled bag together in an attempt to reduce the smell in the rest of the car.

“A small break won’t make us too late, besides I care more about you feeling good than I do about driving in the dark,” Craig informed, “the rest stop will probably have Benadryl, we’ll try to get you to sleep through the rest of the drive.”

“Okay.”

Craig pulled into the rest stop, it was barren. Only two other cars sat in the desolate lot, a small toilet building and convenience store at the furthest end away from the road. Craig slowed to a stop in the spot closest to the shop. Tweek jumped out before the car was off, gagging and vomiting again between his feet.

Craig hurried around the hood of his car to run his fingers through Tweek’s hair and rub his back.

Tweek leaned into the touch, grateful for Craig’s cold hands.

“Jeez babe, car trips really don’t agree with you,” Craig mumbled, leaving Tweek’s side only to grab his water bottle out of the car and pass it to him, “Have a seat, I’ll throw that away and check for Benadryl.”

Tweek didn’t have the energy to protest, allowing himself to collapse into the passenger seat while Craig gently pried the gross bag from his skeletal hands. Dropping it into a trash bag outside of the store before disappearing inside.

Tweek swished a mouthful of water around his mouth before spitting it out on the asphalt then pulling the door shut to obscure the puddle from his senses. Alone in the car he sipped the water, anxiously eyeing the door of the store in anticipation of Craig’s return.

His stomach felt significantly calmer at this point, only his head shared the dull ache from earlier. Still though, he dreaded the prospect of resuming the road trip and becoming sick once more. Tweek sighed, then put another piece of gum in his mouth, hoping the mint would overpower the acidic taste. His head felt stuffy, and weariness dragged down on his eyelids, he let them slide shut, head leaned back against the seat.

“Hey Tweek, think you could take this really quick,” Craig’s voice, quiet and soothing, woke Tweek up. Craig held a green gel pill in one hand, the other used to gently shake Tweek awake.

“Mm-okay,” Tweek groggily responded, grabbing the pill and swallowing it dry, then closing his eyes again.

Craig unfolded Tweek’s blanket and laid it over him, then grabbed a neck pillow from the back and tucked it around his head. Finally, he gently kissed Tweek’s forehead and shut the door, returning to the drivers seat.

Tweek slept through the rest of the trip, much to Craig’s appreciation, and they made it to their lodging before 11pm, also to Craig’s appreciation.

[sanchoyo]

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today on my lunch break I was trying to clean up my old bookmarks on my browser and started getting all nostalgic looking at how much RV stuff I had bookmarked a few years ago. Like …I don’t know if I’d realistically want to live in one at this point (or rather if I COULD even prices and cost of living allowing, given my …anxieties…to put it mildly) but having fantasies abt it got me thru a whole lot of shit in 2019-2020… its still a cute concept even given my . um. apprehensions after thinking abt it more lmao

then for funsies I looked up apartment costs and got real depressed lol. Like I know my job isn’t livable wages (part time and all) but living w parents can be hell sometimes. And the kicker is, the area I’m in is one of the cheaper ones in the country!!! Like it’s NOT a big city!! My mom complained our landlady raised the rent a few years ago and now the rent is ~almost 500$~ for a three bedroom house and I’m like. You are so out of touch (respectfully) if you saw the prices of studio apartments that are like 250 sq ft being 800-1000$ u would faint. (Granted our house sucks and has a ton of problems that are kinda Bad but…LIKE…) when our landlady kicks it I just know her son is gonna match our rent to the standard too and idk how my parentsll deal w that 😭

idk. Just made myself kinda depressed bc I do want to move out. I do wanna be independent. But with this job (that’s already kinda…not steady or dependable on hours or even just firing ppl at random lol) I def could not afford it if I consider vehicle payments and food and stuff. I just. Agh… watching cute living alone vlogs on my lunch break didn’t help either 😥 the longing is real today 💔 I’ll never be a grindset work all the time person and ik I prob can’t do too much without burning out severely, but I really do want to try to up my income thru-out the next year… (and like, ik im not in a BAD position rn, not everyone even CAN live with their parents up to this age and most ppl have to pay their own bills, etc, where im only paying part of that, so maybe I should try being grateful yk. I Try To Be)

& I know roommates are a Thing but that also makes me nervous 4 a lot of reasons too. I just. Want to live alone to see if I can!! I want to decorate my own space and listen to music and not be told when to do things or worry someone will let my cat out!! I want to be able to go places without having to ask permission to use someone’s car or explain where and have time limits!! I’m almost!! 27!! Next year!!! I shouldn’t have to do all that im Tired of it!! And Sad a lil bit. Idk. At least my job is offering overtime this week again so that’s kinda nice…(also the reason I havent been on a lot lol, trying to make Money and feeling a ll drained) I think I’ll get myself a lil treat at the end of the week to make myself feel better and as a reward for being Good and actually Working. Like. A donut or smth… 🧍🏻

[whumpasaurus101]

19th April, Plant Day!

I cannot tell you how tempted I was to write abt fungi but I didn’t want @brutal-nemesis to kill me :) so I can safely say that there is no fungi do not worry :D

Cw: plant whump / ‘stabbing’ sort of / deep cuts / caretaking after / fluff / angst / my gaey boys not having a good time tbh / Alicia being a bitch as usual /

Asher wasn’t happy. He was in Alicia’s house and Jack was right at her feet, kneeling. She raked her hands through his hair. Aaher looked at her in disgust from where he knelt, far away from them both. Why did Rodger have to leave him with this bitch? He would have prefered anyone, anyone over her. Jesus, he’d rather stick a fork in his own fucking eye than be here.

“Anyways,” Alicia sighed, “I want to go to the garden centre to revamp this house and whatnot and the two of you can come if you behave, Asher, I’m looking straight at you. Think of all the fun you could have if you don't throw a fucking tantrum, huh? I’ll even let you two go off for a bit if you're good. But keep in mind, I throw knives like a fucking champ so if one of you decides to try and run, you’ll get a knife in your fucking neck, understood?”

The garden centre was huge, Asher’s eyes lit up as he saw the building. And then there were people, normal people, not sick psychos! Couples, families, you name it! A sudden yank ripped Asher from his thoughts as Alicia pulled back on his top. He stumbled back and Alicia spoke in his ear, “Listen up big boy, you make one single sound to any other people and I will fucking kill you, got it?” Asher quickly nodded, scared to speak.

She forced a smile, “Good, now, let’s not waste any time!” The three walked into the centre, Asher standing in between the pair as he was least trusted. Alicia had her handbag rested against her forearm as she strode in.

There were plants everywhere. Some crawled up the wall, some hung from the ceiling and some were neatly potted and shelved. Asher, completely lost in his thoughts, didn't realise how fast he was walking until Alicia yanked him back, “What the fuck did I just tell you?!” Asher lowered his head, “Sorry.”

Both Jack and Asher followed Alicia obediently as she strolled around the store. Eventually, she had had enough. “Alright, alright! You're starting to piss me off! Just- just- ugh, just go -and stick together. But I swear that if either one of you tries something funny, I will slit both of your throats. Asher looked to Jack who smiled at him. He followed him to the outside area as they held hands in front of them so Alicia couldn't see.

Jack pulled Asher into a corner that was hidden by trees and kissed him gently, wrapping his arms around his waist. Asher chuckled, “Nothing funny, huh?” Jack smiled, “Fine, we can just stop you know, look at these… trees?” Asher chortled, snorting slightly at the end. He traced his hand against Jack’s cheek and jaw, rubbing it slightly, feeling the short stubble.

He brought Jack’s face closer and pecked him on the nose. Jack brought Asher’s hips closer, they kissed again as Jack raked his hands through Asher’s hazelnut hair. “What. the. Fuck?” They both pulled away with a jolt.

Alicia stood there, gobsmacked, “I-you.” She couldn’t form any other words than, “What the fuck.” Asher couldn’t breathe, “Pl-please don’t tell Rodger!! Please!!” That’s when Alicia smiled and chuckled, looking at Jack, “So you’re into Asher, huh? You like the ‘bad boys’?” Jack gulped, blinking fast, “Alicia, please! I-”

Alicia slapped him hard across the face, “I asked you a fucking question!” Jack whimpered. Asher looked in shock, finding himself frozen in shock. “Yes! Okay! I love him, I mean, what is there not to love about him? He’s perfect! He’s brave and he’s handsome. He’s there for me when I need him and he makes me happy every fucking day!”

Asher felt his cheeks flush a deep red. Alicia looked at him blankly, “How sweet. But you know this is simply just not allowed.” The two boys gulped. “Alicia plea-”

“Shut up!!” Asher flinched as she took a step towards him, caressing her sharp nails scraping against his cheek, “Now, now Asher, you know he’s way out of your league!” She cackled, “I mean, what’s the fucking age gap?” Asher clenched his jaw. Her thumb’s nail slightly pressing into his cheek as he let out a yelp.

“Alicia,” Jack raised his voice. Alicia turned to him, nails still digging into Asher’s skin. “Please, he didn’t-”

“You know what?” Alicia sneered, “I don’t think you understand. You are mine and Asher is Rodger’s. You are not permitted to even touch him.” Her grip tightened as blood now ran from Asher’s cut.

“I know, I know, Alicia, please, don’t do this, it was all my fault! I started this! He still doesn’t understand the rules!” Alicia sighed, yanking her hand away, making the cut bigger. “No, he doesn’t, but he will.”

Asher had no clue what she meant until an hour later when he was tied to a chair in Alicia’s kitchen. Alicia circled him, shopping bag in hand. “Have you ever heard of a honey locust?” Asher just glared at her in response, dried blood stuck to his cheek form earlier. “No?” She hummed, taking out what looked like branches of a tree. “Hmmm, well, I was going to give these to Rodger to use them on you, but I guess I can just get more and use these bad boys now!!”

Jack pulled at his cuffs which kept his hands right at the fridge’s handle, “Alicia I-“

“SHUT UP!!!!” Both boys flinched at how loud Alicia was. “Stop sticking up for your bitch all the time! You are mine and he is Rodger’s. And the bast way for you to understand things is to hurt people that you love.”

And with that, she got a thorn and quickly moved it down Asher’s collarbone, leaving a dark red line which blood fell from. Asher let out a howl of pain. His restraints left him unable to double over and protect himself.

Alicia snickered, “Oof, that’s a deep one. Oops?” She did the same thing on the exact another side. This continued until deep gashes covered his abdomen.

When she got bored, she picked up the thorns one by one, piling them into her hand. She dropped the branch and grinned at Jack. She approached a trembling Asher and traced one of the sharp thorns all across and down Asher’s arm, causing goosebumps to rise on his skin.

Without warning, she quickly stabbed a thorn straight into his arm. He yelled, he couldn’t take all of this pain. “P-please, no more! I- AGH!” He was interrupted when she poked another one right under the previous thorn. He felt his vision starting to blur.

Alicia, noticing he was starting to blackout, decided it was enough, for now. “Oh what now? No ‘smart comments’? You see, after a while, I do start to miss them. Its quite satisfying to be honest! You know, Rodger being unable to control his mutt while Jack just sits right at my side like a good bitch.”

Asher saw Jack flinch through his blurred vision. Jack had never heard Alicia call him that. It was always Rodger who did, never Alicia. Did she prefer Asher? No, no, she couldn’t! She loved Jack… right? He looked to the two, Alicia was running a hand through Asher’s hair with a smile as the other’s head lolled to the side as he slowly drifted out of it.

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Jack was allowed to clean Asher’s wounds. He had a tweezers and was trying to pluck the thorns out from Asher’s delicate skin. Asher let out painful moans as he rocked back and forward. Jack blinked away his tears, “Ash- Asher please, I need you to stay still.” Asher did but once the tweezers were back on the last thorn, he flinched. Jack rolled his eyes, “ASHER! I NEED YOU TO FUCKING-” He froze the minute Asher’ tear-stained face and puffy eyes turned to him. He looked as if he was about to absolutely ball crying.

“Asher, oh my god, Asher, I am so sorry!” Asher blinked and the tears followed. They streamed down his cheeks as his chest rose and fell fast. He whimpered and bit his lip to stop himself from sobbing. “Asher, please I- I didn’t mean to! I’m so sorry!!”

Asher sniffed and blinked rapidly, “ ‘s alright, y-you didnt m-mean to.” Jack’s heart felt heavy but he had to keep cleaning the wounds before Alicia would come in and make some snarky comments. “This is going to sting- wait, I might have some pain killer I can give you, mkay?”

Asher nodded weakly. “Alright, give me a second.” He got up out of the empty bath they sat in and walked to the bathroom cabinet. He scanned through the shelves and his eyes landed on one of the orange containers.

He opened it up and poured two pills into his palm. He then got a glass and filled it with water, knowing the water from the bathroom probably wasn’t the best but it was better to get rid of all of the pain Asher was in already.

He handed Asher the pills and glass. Asher looked at him, waiting for a nod of approval before putting the pills in his mouth and washing them down with the water. “Th-thank you” His voice was hoarse. Jack wiped tears of his own and sat back behind Asher.

Asher’s flinches were less violent. Jack smiled, knowing that his love was in less pain. No- no, not his. Rodger’s. The heaviness settled in his heart once more. Surely there was some way of keeping Asher. Keeping? What the hell was wrong with him?! Maybe he didn’t deserve Asher. Maybe it was for the best.

He looked down as he felt Asher’s back press against him. He was asleep. His adorable face looked so peaceful. His eyes were closed and he wasn’t in pain. His angry face was relaxed and the usual crease in his eyebrows was gone.

Jack gently traced his cheek with his finger. His scar had been reopened and looked painful. After a few moments of peace, Alicia burst through the door, “Jesus fucking Christ, you cant keep your hands off him, can you? After what he went through because of you!” Jack’s head snapped up to her, “Alicia, please, let him sleep, he never sleeps! Please, I’ll do anything!” Alicia fake smiled at him for a moment before shoving her arms under Asher’s arms and dragging him out of the bathtub. Asher let out a yell of shock as he was brought out of his sweet peaceful dreams back to this phscho bitch.

“Alicia, leave him, alone, please!” Alicia just giggled in excitement, “No way, this is a fun thing to play with. You two think you're so in love. But none of you knows what love is!” Asher hung his head in shame and embarrassment. Jack noticed, he knew that Asher had absolutely no memories of his childhood, he didn't know what love was. Jack felt terrible.

Alicia looked between the pair with a shit-eating grin, “Well, you guys must be tired! Asher, you can sleep on the floor in the kitchen. Jack, you're sleeping in with me!” Jack knew better than to refuse. Asher was dragged out of the room and Jack was left sitting in the bathtub, waiting for Alicia to come and show him who he really belonged to.

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[blackberry-gingham]

wassup :) what abt a situation where john or paul is teaching you guitar or bass and you fall for them- like just the two of you alone in a room at a music store playing guitar- AGH... anyways, your writing is amazing love 🥰

DKDKSKSKSK you have chosen like the MASTERS of who would pull a move like that while giving the reader some "music lessons", honestly lmao.

Like literally both of them would do this irl, so I can't choose 😂 I guess I'll go with John for this one, so I hope that's alright! Also, I did a little interpretation of this ask. Welcome to the Beatles music store au! This can be read as either young or old John tbh, whichever you want, so I tagged for both.

Enjoy :)

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The shop bell chimes merrily as you enter the Beatles': Music and More music store. It's a nice little place, owned by four best mates who know their stuff. You've been going for a few months now for guitar lessons, and you must say, it's been worth every cent.

Your tutor is none other then John Lennon himself, one of the four owners. He can be a bit harsh at times, but you've come to learn that teasing is really just his idea of fun. Rarely does he ever mean anything by it.

Besides, all his pushing has improved your skills better then anyone else you've taken lessons from, so you decided to stick around.

And, if all that isn't enough... Well, you must admit, you find him rather handsome. Not to mention he's charming and sweet under his prickly layers, a form of himself that very few get to know.

"Well if it isn't my star pupil!", John stands up straight from where he was leaning on the counter and exchanges some hellos with you. When the pleasentries are over, he nods towards one of the practice rooms and becones you on, "Come 'ed"

He holds the door open and you take a seat before breaking out your trusty old Fender Strat. John chooses the same old Rickenbacker he usually does and has a seat across from you.

"Now where did we leave off...", He tunes up the instrument while you do the same.

"Practicing riffs, right?"

John thinks for a moment, then remembers and agrees. Before getting to the main lesson, you always do a little warm up first. At first it was just chord progressions, but now that you're getting more advanced, you play a whole song or two together.

Sometimes he even breaks out a new one, just to switch it up, "You know, I think today we'll do one of Paulie's songs... It's rubbish of course, but the guitar part is easy enough. This one's called 'I wanna hold your hand', goes like this"

Hm, he seems to have a thing for learning love songs, you think. He's introduced you to quite a few these past weeks after all...

Regardless, you pay close attention as he does a run through of the whole song, then replays the chorus for you.

"There, think you can do just that part?"

"Seems easy", you nod and take to your Fender. With a bit of guidance on the note pattern, you make it through in one go.

"Well done! Ready to try the whole thing?"

You nod confidently, it's one of his favorite traits of yours. You never do anything half assed, and you don't seem to have any fear of failure. He loves that.

John plays through once, slowly, as you follow along to get the chords. There's a few slip ups, but nothing major. You do one more play through and then time for the main lesson.

You've been doing well on your little riffs course so far, so today John throws a tough one at you.

He plays the section again. And again. And again... But you keep messing up on the one particular chord sequence. Once again, you hit a sour note and John heaves a sigh, "No no no, like this. Here let me show you"

John stands up and puts his Rick aside before dragging his stool behind yours. He slips his strong, rough fingers over top of yours, "Now start strumming"

Your heart leaps into your throat at the whole ordeal, but you obey. As the chords come, John guides your fingers by moving his, just as though he were playing himself.

"Here, here, then here... Like that, you see?"

"Uh... Yeah, yeah I think so", you swallow and give it a try on your own. You pass through the first few hurdles fine, but from all the pressure from John's proximity, you slip up once again.

You stop playing and look ever so slightly over your shoulder.

"What's the matter, you nearly had it. Try once more"

"Actually, do you think you guide me through it... Like you just did? I-I want to make sure I have it"

Never in a thousand years would you think to ask something like that. You're normally so used to doing things on your own and John so use to you doing as you're told, especially when he says 'try on your own', that you're afraid of his response.

But, whatever you were expecting, it wasn't this...

John clears his throat and wipes damp palms on the thighs of his slacks, " 'Course", he mutters, leaning back in.

His solid chest barely grazes your upper back, and yet you can still feel his heart hammering beneath all the muscle. John's hand feels warm as it cups over yours once again, his heart continuing to flutter as he leads you through the motions.

"There... Beautif- Uh, I mean, good", John clears his throat and scratches his scalp, but nothing can distract from the blush creeping up his cheeks.

"...Are you alright?", You venture, trying to be polite, but... Well, it's almost too much to hope... It's just, you've been thinking about him an awful lot lately. More then in just your guitar tutor setting, that is.

So to even have a slight chance that he might fancy you back...

"Fine. Just need a drink... Take five, will you", he gets up abruptly and struts out of the room.

And just like that, your heart drops like a stone to the pit of your stomach. You've embarrassed him, surely. Oh why did you have to say anything! Now you've ruined everything, you must have.

True to his word, John leaves you with about a solid five minutes or so to ruminate on the debacle you think you've made. Just as you begin considering where you should go to find a new tutor, John walks back in holding two styrofoam cups of water.

You're both silent as he takes a seat, then, "Here", he hands you a drink.

You accept it, but you simply can't stand the awkward tension, "Mr Lennon, I'm sorry, I-"

John interjects, "No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have walked out like that. And... also... I'm afraid I haven't been very forthcoming with you, and I can't keep it from you anymore. Er, I shouldn't, that is"

You give him a confused look, but remain silent as he takes a sip and licks his lips.

"I uh, this is very difficult for me to say, but uh... Well, over the past few weeks, I've been having some... Feelings for you... Now i'm sure you don't feel the same way, but I jus-"

Before he can go on, you hastily cut in to set him straight, "What? No no, I do!"

John snaps to attention, looking quite shocked indeed. You continue, a small smile gracing your lips. It feels good to get this off your chest, "I completely understand how you feel... I uh, I didn't want you to think I was strange or unprofessional... I was also scared you might not like me, but I understand, really! And, well, I... Have feelings for you too"

Now it's John's turn to smile, "Not like you? Who'd be daft enough to turn you away? All that talent and charm... Almost as good as me", he laughs, and you join him.

The tension has completely evaporated, and suddenly you feel as though you're hanging out with a friend instead of at music lessons, completely at ease.

John huffs one more chuckle at his joke, then looks shyly down to his hands. "Say... Would you like to, maybe...", He brushes his fingers over yours, touching ever so lightly, as though he might get burned, "Ahem, maybe... Get some real drinks? Down the street, perhaps?"

He looks up at you from under his brow, too nervous to sit up and face you in full, and he bites his lip as he waits.

Your heart absolutely melts. A second or so goes by as you rein in your emotions, and at long last you take a soft grip at his hand, "I'd love to!"

John peeks up immediately and rubs a few quick little circles on the back of your palm, although whether it's to offer thanks or to soothe himself, you don't know.

But when he holds your hand tightly, like a childhood sweetheart, as you both stand and walk out of the building...

When he chatters with you excitedly all the while you're on your little date, showing you a whole new, fun side to him that you're eager to get to know...

When he pays for your drinks, says to hell with it, and takes you to dinner too...

And when the night is upon you and he brings you back round to the store to grab your things, slips you his personal number, amd waits up with you to see you off in a taxi home...

All you can think of is, this wonderful man you feel you've just met for the first time. You can't wait to get to know him.

[riddlebanshee]

Acai Berry, Earth, French Vanilla, Honeydew, Rain, White Ginger

acai berry: what is something you’ve always wanted to try but have been too scared to?Oh, a lot of things!!!!!!! So many things dhvjdsa like Id be lying if I said I didn’t want to try drinking or like get high just Once in my life but I don’t do it bc those things kind of scare me!! Also i’ve always wanted to go to a summer camp!! I wasn’t able to as a kid bc I got scared sleeping away from home & now Im too old for it!!Ive always wanted to try dancing or something like that too!! Id get embarrassed looking stupid in front of strangers tho dhjavjhk also I’ve always wanted to walk somewhere at night w/o telling anyone where I was going!!! Just a little secret adventure for me & the stars but that’s sadly vry dangerous so I don’t do iT

earth: what is your strongest personality quality?I bounce back!!! I am a positive person and I bounce back from things quickly, for better or for worse!!!

french vanilla: what does love feel like to you?It feels like home vhvdjksa it feels like “anywhere this person/these people go, I’ll feel at ease”. It’s like. Warm in your chest and soft feeling like u could cry thinking abt it but you won’t bc it’s not quite enough to bring u to tears. It feels like being held by your mom as a kid when u were crying or upset or sick and feeling completely, totally safe. And it feels like wanting to make those people u love feel the same way in return, and to help them, and it feels like feeling that feeling whenever you’re there for them!!!! It’s a good feeling. It’s a soft feeling dsvhavdjsa

honeydew: describe an ideal day out with a friend.Oh MAN literally anything. Literally anything dhsavdhsajvkj I would highkey love. To go to the beach & drive arnd like markets and shops and museums and stuff with friends though. Just an adventure. Anything!!!!! Thrift stores or hiking or wandering around a mall or the city or the neighborhood block any of it would be ideal agh

rain: is it easy for you to bounce back after being sad? do you hang on to your sadness?It’s not easy, and the sadness lingers, but I do bounce back!!! I bounce back strong and the sadness doesn’t necessarily leave but I’m no longer fighting it, so it doesn’t feel bad anymore!!! So even if it’s not easy & the sadness lingers (even tho I DO try to move past it!!) I do bounce back, and hopefully I bounce further than previous!!!

white ginger: if money wasn’t a concern, how would you decorate your room?BIG FISHTANK AND A LOFTI love my room how it is right now!!! But I would add a loft for art and books and I would add a HUGE fishtank on one of my walls full of fish and plants and snails lined w bookshelves to either side agh. Also I’d want more floorspace so that way my friends & I could sprawl out on the floor!!!! It’d be so nice aaAAAAlso I’d wanna have a wall just for repainting over and over and over again!!! Which is a little bit silly, maybe, but I’ve always wanted to paint on my walls & to be able to do it so many times over would be so much fun!!!! 

[dxmain]

Hey I personally find your ramblings really nice. You've said it before, it's wonderful to hear/read people talking about things they love. Your ramblings are valid and good and appreciated <333

oagh AGH you didn't have to perceive me i was just;; q q

it’s more of a. i’m self-conscious when i do ramble at... not necessarily in the open where alright, take it and leave it, if i don’t get feedback on it then RIP that’s fine i’ll mournfully bring it back up again another time. it sucks but what can be done. i’ll never know if there’s any actual interest in it and let it dust but welp! it’s usually just me self-compiling my thoughts anyways, so \o/

now when it’s with friends i... get an uncanny sense of nervousness sometimes because it’s particularly worse in the “I do Not wish to Bother/be Bad” department grjadfh it’s like the equivalent of “k.” sometimes where i just [punts self into the void] hello . . . i do not know what t -- ah but i’m trying not to be bad abt things and reminding myself to shake off these assumptions, i think i’m just sleep-deprived and things as of recent make some emotions/thoughts particularly amplified. i try not to be self-loathing and yet uhm. oops, didn’t mean to get into it here again

so wggrgh whoever u are... i’m gonna... geeva u a kees from afar, platonically, safely, because ah haha... <3 i’m glad it’s okay;; genuinely made me feel better bwugh sorry my words aren’t quite here right now but ; ; ? gnna.. keep this to look back at every now and then for myself before i get into the haze of [deletes msgs] awah... <3

[justkpopjokes]

Carat & The Beats (Part 2)

Ft. Seungcheol / Seungcheol

AU #16 (From this list)

@andytheravenclawnerd: “OMG CAN’T WAIT FOR CARAT AND THE BEATS PART 2"

A/N: AGH HOPE YOU LIKE! I think this could’ve turned out better…but it’s something! However I might make other parts because…well…read the ending

part 1

CONTINUING: The Beats serve you dinner with the singing and a performance

Jihoon probably plays himself and makes a wonderful tune he wrote bc dang that guy is talented

Until Jeonghan sends everyone to bed

Next day Seungcheol asks for you to have dinner but even if you agree YOU ARE NOT A PROPER LADY/GENTLEMAN REMEMBER

Cheollie gets ticked off and grumbles as you leave

Hm, let’s see who’s waiting for you…

A very enthusiastic feather duster bird thing that is kind of clumsily flying around

It hits you in the head and you recognize it as Mingyu

Then he flies away and hits a very unhappy Diva—

“Mingyu WATCH IT” the wardrobe snaps

Good ol’ Seungkwan here with Vernon who is barking at your feet and you sort of sit on top of the living footstool dog and he runs off to the garden

The Beats start another song, one about going by the months alone

*cough* Still Lonely *cough*

Jeonghan probably tries to embarrass Dino

And Mingyu probably crashed into Wonwoo so they’re dancing rn

Also, our 1010 is probably (ok that's the last time I say probably dw) upset bc they all should be focusing on something else, like I dunno, bringing you and Seungcheol closer together

Soonyoung doesn’t want to spoil the fun tho so he opened a window for Jihoon’s music to reach the garden

That night when Jeonghan sends you to bed…

“Don’t go to the left-wing” can’t remember if it was left or right so smh it’s left

You go to the left-wing and look at the rose

wELL LOOKIE HERE SEUNGCHEOL SCARES YOU INTO RUNNING AWAY AND YOU GET ATTACKED BY WOLVES

But the giant bear/wolf Cheol just scares them away and fights but gets hurt in the process, and you have to bring him back

Now this is where the plot strays a bit from the past Beauty & the Beast stories:

By caring for Seungcheol you can try and study what he is

Like he’s a bear wolf thing…kind of looks part deer…how does his brain work? what abt his fight/flight response

So you promise not to run away, given that Seungcheol tells you more about his… condition

He’s hesitant at first but eventually starts telling you about his fur, muscular strength, stuff like that

And he shows you the library

You obviously don’t really like books

But then you see that Seungcheol’s books are actually accurate!

And he helps you expand your knowledge in exchange of eating dinner with him

Lots of exchanges here

He even exchanges a song for your attention

I’m even exchanging sleep to complete this also CUE THE KEEP READING BAR

Like The Beats were singing something for you

You were actually reading for once

And during the piano break, you hear rapping

And without looking up you’re thinking, wow, who’s voice is that sounds really smooth and low and perfect?

And you turn around and this amazing voice is coming from a huge beast sitting on a chair

The voice DOES NOT fit the looks

Kind of like me—anYWAY

You’re spending time with Seungcheol in the library and you even compose a song with him and the Beats

You forget you’re technically being held against your will but like!! you want to be there bc this beast is an interesting…thing!!

He finally shows you this book of magic that contains many spells

And one brings you back in time to whenever you want

“What do you want to see?”

You’re just silently staring at the book with magical inscriptions

Because the one thing you want to see is impossible…

“My… mom…”

Milliseconds later you’re transported to a dark room in France

Instead of it being empty like the 2017 movie adaptation

There’s a woman lying in bed and a man holding a baby, with another figure, a doctor, at the side with a mask

No one says anything, there’s only crying and sobbing

Finally the doctor utters a word

“Sorry”

Before leaving

And you’re back at the castle sobbing on Cheol’s fur

Meanwhile, at your town…

A specific someone is drinking at the pub bc they’re bored

“Jun what are we going to do?”

“Minghao what”

“Well Y/N is lost—”

“Y/N's practically dead Minghao, leave it. There’s no way we can fight that beast…”

“But you’re Junhui! C'mon, man…”

CUE THE MUSICAL NUMBERRRR

Lol Minghao’s unappreciated voice revealed

Now Jun is riled up bc his future spouse has been kidnapped and he’s the strongest guy in the world soooo

GOTTA SAVE THE S/O

Back at the castle, you have dried your eyes and Seungcheol flips the book closed bc he doesn’t want you to see it

But ohOHOHOHO LOOK THIS SPELL THAT CAN—

Literally turn Beast Cheollie back into a human w h a t

And when you utter those last words in the spell

Seungcheol turns back into a human

How?! Was it really that simple?!?!

Ah.

NOPE™

It was just showing you what he looks like

Damn he’s handsome tho

Then you realize how fit he is as the beast bc literally he is muscular in both human and beast form

Like am I hallucinating or does he look way more handsome than he already is

The voice finally fits the body

The second the spell wears off, there’s some shouting from outside

Junhui and Minghao are waiting on horses with a gun

“Y/N comes with us... or else I’ll use this gun without hesitation”

Seungcheol quickly hands you a mirror that will show you where someone/thing is at all times

And you rush out to Jun who gives u ur horse

And you guys rush off into the distance as you wave to Cheol

He’s heartbroken

But what can he do?

He knows you don’t love him in that way

Even if he loves you, you have a life without him, it’s better for you there, with your father

Except when you get to town…

You were riding on ur horse next to Jun because he’s talking with you again

And he saved you so you start to have actual feelings for him

The second he brings up his feelings for you—

Dad isn’t here?!

You have an argument with the whole town bc WHERE IS MY FATHER

“Wasn’t he kidnapped by the beast?”

“WELL THE BEAST LET HIM GO WHERE DID YOU PUT MY DAD”

And suddenly everyone turns on Jun and Minghao because they saw your dad last and said he died by the beast

Now you’re enraged

“YOU SONS OF A—”

“WE ARE NOT RELATED”~Minghao

Time to switch sides and show the mirror with the beast

The whole town is scared and angry

You’re locked in your own house for defending the “foul monster” and the town goes to kill Seungcheol

At the castle, Jun and Minghao break down the castle doors

And there is a fight between living objects and people

Everything goes haywire

Until Seungcheol is shot

The last rose petal falls

The Beats all turn human

All the torches burn out, so the room is lit by the slowly approaching sun (DK is that you?? where is he)

And you come stumbling into the quiet castle bc you escaped by smashing the window

Seungcheol is one the floor so you rush to him

But he dies

First thing you do?

LIBRARY

…

HEY REMEMBER THAT BOOK

You open it and low and behold there’s a spell you need

But to revive the dead comes at a price—

Someone else has to take a penalty

You want to take revenge on Jun

But he bolted off with Minghao once your dad arrived from being tied to a tree for the wolves

Your dad is comforting you crying bc you can’t find it in your heart to kill someone else

No one besides your dad offers, and you can’t kill your dad

Well no one except one

Jihoon, propped against the wall in pain, because in his piano form he took too much of a beating

“Ah, my body’s too battered for me to live without pain as a human… might as well end this”

And then you see Mingyu next to him just wave quietly

He was too clumsy as a feather duster so he has a lot of injuries (especially head injuries)

Wonwoo looks at Mingyu before looking at you and saying ”me too” (TRUE MEANIE RIGHT THERE)

And then Jeonghan and Dino (Realized I’ve been calling him Dino and not Chan all this time…)

And eventually Soonyoung, Vernon, and Seungkwan

Why you too mY GOD

So when you recite the spell in front of Seungcheol

Nothing happens

You’re broken

Going through your brain to remember all that time you spent with him, singing and him taking you to see what happened the night your mom died

And as you whisper “I never said it because it wasn’t true at the time…sorry I couldn’t save you… I love you…”

Seungcheol radiates light

He turns human

And his eyes flutter open!

And you kiss him

ThE vOiCe fITs tHe bOdY

But when you turn around to cheers

Propped up against the wall is a piano and on the floor is a feather duster, a teapot, chipped cup, clock, wardrobe, puppy, and a candle

They’re gone…but they just wanted you to be happy

You have Seungcheol tho and he treats you like royalty even after you become a literal royalty

He loves you with all his heart💕

And hey, maybe you give all those objects a seat on the table

Yknow, in case they ever come back to life again

You do adopt the puppy that replaced Vernon tho lol

And your dad plays Jihoon’s piano in honour of him

But you know, there never really was a death penalty

Because seconds after, Jihoon woke up at a piano next to another small town…

“Certain as the sun, Rising in the east, Tale as old as time, Song as old as rhyme, Beauty and the Beast”

[r-o-se]

A summary on Produce 101 Season 2 Episode 8 its ya boy back at it agian with another let’s play this time its evaluations and painful crying time

1.     BOA GOT THEM FOOD SHE GOT EVERYONE PIZZA

2.     Physically restraining myself from screenshotting everything Jinwoo appears in and posting those as the best moments

3.     They show the winners of each category again aka Taehyun, Jonghyun and Gunhee

4.     Sfkdjhlajk who said that those clips of hugging crying trainees are acceptable

5.     Seonho keeps saying 1, 2, 3 and looking at Guanlin as if he wants him to say ‘fighting’ but none of them will say it lmao I love my dumb chicks

6.     They showed solo clips of both Daniel and Jisung but not Jinwoo haha nice ;)

7.     Kiiahoiadjh Hyunbins failed b-boying how beautiful

8.     I am not emotionally prepared for this Jinwoo won’t make it I have too many goddamn faves just stab me

9.     Ok they’re showing concept evaluation stuff first this is basically like last season

10.  Im crying Jonghyun is 1st and BoA publically thanked him he is so shy and aaaaaaaahhhhh

11.  Ok the voters choose the best team and the idol that suits the concept best, most voted team gets FUCKING 220 000 VOTES!!! THE FUCK!! And the trainee who gets the most votes out of the team gets 100k votes, the rest from that team get 20k

12.  And here we gooooooooo the producers, first, Shihn Hyuk one did stuff for SHINEE!!!!!!!!! And also EXO and Justin Bieber I guess lol his song is ‘I Know You Know’

13.  Kigen & Assbrass from Monsta X next, they wrote hiphop song ‘Oh Little Girl’

14.  Ren’s visuals are done so dirty in this show I swear to god

15.  Next comes Geunwoo, ASHTRAY and Oh Seonghwan from Kyuhyun and Yesung who wrote a nu disco genre song ‘Showtime’ and LMAO THE CHOREO FOR IT HAS DONGMYEONG’S SIGNATURE DANCE AAAHAHAHAH POOR PLAGIARIZED ELIMINATED BABY

16.  Now composers called Devine-Channel who did songs for VIXX!!!! and BTS and their contribution is a Future EDM song ‘Open Up’

17.  TRIPLE H WHAT THE FUUUUUUUCKKKKKK THEY MADE A SONG

18.  It’s a Deep House genre song called ‘Never’

19.  Overall, Open Up and Never sound the best imo holy fuckkkkk those songs are LIT AS HELL

20.  Danik, Dongbin and Kiwon did the unthinkable and hinted at the songs they want and as a penalty they get sorted last

21.  I know Daniel wanted the fourth song which makes me emo bc I LOVE THAT SONG!!!! SO MUCH!!!!!! And now he cant get it lmao dumb boyo

22.  They look so ashamed aw

23.  Now everyone are getting sorted to songs, Baekho first aaaaaaand they didn’t show us what he got I don’t think they show any songs before the teams are full agh

24.  Everyone get their songs one but one and the reactions vary from jumping to absolute neutrality lol I’m not gonna say all of their names

25.  BoA brought up Samuels 15 place rank drop Kindly Shut Up Please

26.  Samuel, Sanggyun and Namhyung are all in one group

27.  Jaehwan also chose Hyunbin as the one he doesn’t want to be in a group with since he has already been with him twice aaaaaahahahhahah

28.  Jaehwan DOES want to be with Jonghyun and so do Baekho and Yongguk as well EVERYONE LOVES HIM THIS IS SO CUTEEEE

29.  JONGHYUN IS WITH JAEHWAN AND THEY HUG RIGHT AWAY!! CUTE!!

30.  Winkdeep are the only ones in their practice room well nvm THAT’S HYUNGSEOB all the cute popular visual ones are together again

31.  Taehyun joined the badassery that is Samuel, Namhyung, Sangbin and Sanggyun and Samuel IMMEDIATELY goes like OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! SAME THO FUCK I LOVE TAEHYUN

32.  ???? Woodam went to the badasses room?? GOOD CONCEPT!!!

33.  Jihoon is discussing his endless aegyo techniques

34.  IT IS GUNHEE IN THE ROOM OF CUTIES!!! AND SUUNGWOON WITH JR

35.  The Sinners are all in that room and give their formal apologies aw kiddos it’s ok I don’t care lol

36.  Danik goes to the practice room where JINWOO IS!!!!!! YES!!!!AND SO DOES KIWON!

37.  Dongbin is with the cutie group lol

38.  The song for the badassery group is SHOW TIME!! Sangbin is dead inside but Samuel just gave a kiss to the song sign lmaooo

39.  Jonghyun group gets Never also HOLY SHIT this team has Jonghyun, Minhyun, Jaehwan and Seongwoo are all here it is like 2/3 of Sorry Sorry lol

40.  The cutie team gets Oh Little Girl  Justin looks so blessed out of this world and hugs w Hyunngseob YUEHUA PRIDE!!!!!

41.  All other group want open up lol

42.  Danik-Baekho group GETS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

43.  So the other group gets I Know You Know everyone are crying inside

44.  The temporary centers for Oh Little Girl are chosen now, Ren, Jihoon and Euiwoong all want to be center

45.  They are trying out and honestly I have such second hand embarrassment rn but everyone think Jihoon and Minki were better including Hyungseob whos labelmates with Euiwoong

46.  Wait so… Jungjung, Euiwoong, Justin and Hyungseob are ALL in the Oh Little Girl group damn whole Yuehua squad here

47.  KAHI JUST BOUGHT THIS YUEHUA THING UP!!! I SAW IT BEFORE!!!

48.  Euiwoong was really worried about doing mistakes but KAHI CONGRATULATED HIM BC HE DID RLY WELL!!! CUTE!! DON MILLS TOO!!! LIL KID SLAYING IT

49.  JINWOO LOOKS SO GOOD HERE!!!!

50.  Anyways Jinwoo was like maybe someone who is good with dance as the leader for Open Up team since it has a hard dance and Baekho was like ya what about Daniel AND THEN INSOO IS LIKE WHAT ABT U DONGHO IKAJAKI TRAINEES LOVE BAEKHO WILL MNET FINALLY STOP LYING

51.  Baekho still pushes it back to Daniel and Danik is like I’d totally love to be the leader JINWOO NODDING ALONG MMO PRIDE

52.  Apparently Daniel is having problems paying attention to all 12 people and Kenta is a bit salty over it and tbh I understand his reasoning

53.  But Daniel noticed it too and heh fucking apologized don’t drag him for this he’s younggg and doesn’t know that much about leading

54.  It’s Showtime team now and everyone want Woodam to be the venter but HWISEUNG IS THERE TOO!!! PAY ATTENTION TO MY BABE HES AMAZING AT HIGH NOTES GIVE HIM SCREENTIME!!!!!

55.  Hwiseung was 56 but raised to 36 LET MY BOY!!! LIVE!!! PLEASE!!!

56.  Taehyun recommends the cringefest that is facial expression battle

57.  Wtf the two ones who didn’t even sing got to be the centers what’s going ooooooonnn

58.  EVERYONE ARE SHOOK BY HWISEUNG AND WOODAMS ADLIBS AND FOR A GOOD REASON AAAAA THEY ARE SO GOODDDD

59.  He’s so cheerful and keeps cracking jokes LET MY BOY!!! DEBUT

60.  Never team is choosing the center I hope Sungwoon gets it tbh let my boy rise some ranks

61.  The centers are Guanlin and Minhyun rip I mean I love both of the kids but LET SUNGWOON SHINEE!! FOR ONCE

62.  SUNGWOON VOLUNTEERED FOR SOLO DANCE CHECKUP PLEASE DO WELL BABE I BELIEVE IN YOU HE DOES REALLY WELL IM SO GLAD BABE I LOVE U IM PROUD OF U I LOVE U LOTS PLEASE DO WELL

63.  HE DID WELL AND GOT PRAISED A SHITTON I AM SO PROUD BABE KILL IT KILLL IT WELL I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!! DEBUT!!! PLEASE!!!!!!

64.  I Know You Know has a shiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttttton of low ranking trainees and I feel so so sorry for all of them ugh

65.  WHY IS HWANOONG SO LOW RANKS CMON PEOPLE!!! HE WAS CENTER!! HE IS FUNNY!! HE IS CUTE!!! WHY YALL HATING

66.  The centers are Donghan and Hwanoong and all of them got praised a lot by Kahi and even Hyunbin got the footwork down fml I’m so proud of my kids

67.  This elimination gonna hurt no matter what I got too many faves they show the lower ranked kids like Woo Jinyoung and Hwanoong and Dongbin and Justin and whatnot I AM SO SO EMO!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! LET MY KIDS LIVE

68.  Most of those kids already feel that they’re gonna drop and it’s so fucking depressing I love so many of those kids I feel so bad rn oh my fucking god II want to save them all I want them to be happy and popular and debut well

69.  23 of my own children are gonna be beat away from this show I am so angry anyways thte last time there was abt 2.5mil votes this time its GODDAMN 5.5 MILLION WHAT ON EARTH

70.  HYUNBINN SURVIVED THANKK GOD!!!! THANK FUCK!!!!!! I am not allowed to cry about each trainee I CANT

71.  YEHYUN MADE IT MY MUSICAL GENIUS!!!!! FUCK!! HIS STATS ARE LIKE A ROLLERCOASTER

72.  Moonbok deadass fell from 2nd to 32nd what the fuck this show is so unpredictable and I hate it

73.  KENTA BABY MADE EIT WITH 0 SCREENTIME I LOVE MY BOY SO MUCH

74.  Gunhee also made it what the fuck why is he such a low rank with the goddamn 110k benefit and you can see the light leave Hwanoongs eyes because if Gunhee is so low what happens to him

75.  Its HF and Woodam went up he fell like 10 places fuck he said ‘You’ll have to go up’ to Jinyoung IM SO SADD!! FUCK!!!!!

76.  SUNGWOON MADE IT!!! HE LOOKS LIKE A LIL CLOUD W HIS BLEACHED HAIR!! PROUD OF U BABE

77.  SUNGHYUK MADE IT AGAIN!!! ROSE SO FUCKING MUCH!!!! HE WAS 95 BUT NOW HE IS 24 WHAT ON E A R T H HOLY MOTHER OF FUCK

78.  TAEHYUN IS THERE!!!! HOTTSHOT BOYSSSSSSSSS IM PROUD HE HIGHFIVED SOMEONE IN THE LINE

79.  Oh my god 20th place trainee already has over 1mil votes this is fucking wild whos it gonna be ITS REN!!!!!! WHYS HE SO LOW!! HE FELL TWO PLACES WHAT THE FUCK

80.  Everyone are apologizing this is so sad also JIHOON ACTUAL ANGEL SAID HE MIGHT BE PERSUADED TO GIVE HIS CENTER POSITION TO REN WHAT ON EARTH

81.  Hwiseung is so bright and cute…. How does he do that….

82.  Jinwoo looks dead inside like he has already accepted his place…… but also proud and smiley at Jisung and Daniel… I’m so sad yall what the fuck

83.  WOOJIN DIDN’T HIGHFIVE YOUNGMIN AND WOOJIN RAN BACK FROM THE STAGE TO HUG HIM BRAND NEW PRIDE

84.  I hate Hwiseung why is he so good…. And loveable… in those dark times… fucking god I’m so sad

85.  BoA said cue and Seonho just stood up without the name and BoA was like wdym and Seonho is like it cant be Guanlin bc he’s a superstar

86.  KJALFSA HYUNGSEOB IS THANKING WOOJIN IN HIS SPEECH IM SO EMO THIS IS SO CUTEEEEEE

87.  SEWOON EXPOSED MNET BAEKHO AINT SCARY GET FUKT BOIIII ITS TOP 11 TIME NOW

88.  Oh my GOD it’s a god fucking damn cutscene are you SERIOUS!! Blocked anyways they have a punchinc machine it will be somekinda strength off and they deadass chopped the 1st place seat off and put it there

89.  HWISEUNG AND BYUNMIN ARE THE MC’S why are they doing this to me

90.  Ren is so dumb I love him how does he do THAT with his shoulders

91.  Seongwoo is there and he sure is making himself look cool he does into the trainees to go faaaaaaaaaaar so he can get the motion in and puts sooo much into the show BUT FUCKING STAYS UNDER 900 I LOVE MY DUMB SON HE IS SO STUPID AAAAAAHAHHA FUCK I LOVE HIM HES SO FUNNY EVERYONE ARE LAUGHING LIKE HYENAS

92.  Donghyun was embarrassing w his stretching but fuckin WRECKED that machine taking the throne from Sunghyuk who took it from Dongbin

93.  ITS BAEKHO TIME GODDAMN HWISEUNG SAID IT’S BOSS FIGHT LMAO I LOVE THEM

94.  His punching sound was so loud holy fuck AND HE GOT THE IDENTICAL SCORE!!! WHAT!! LMAO

95.  Rematch, Donghyun hit 949, Baekho 950 lmaooooooo MY SUNSHINE TIGER  

96.  We are back in the elimination its rank 11 ITS BAEKHO!! MY BABE!! MY FIRST BIAS!! POWER VOCAL DUMBO!!! LOVE U!!!!!!!! BoA asked him to do aegyo I’m so done lmaoooooooo

97.  Seeing low ranked trainees be quietly emo and cry is seriously the worst fucking feeling I’m so angry and sad

98.  JAEHWAN IN TOP 10 INDIVIDUAL TRAINEE PRIDE!!! I LOVE U BABE UR AMAZING BY VOCALS AND PERSONALITTY AND LOOKS I HOPE U DO WELL!!!!!

99.  Danik fell by 6 spots I’m emo and he even apologizes at everyone HE IS SO CUTE!!! FUCK!!! STAY UP THERE BABE

100.   Ong has a lot of male fans and Guanlin was like ‘I’m a fan too’ why shouldn’t you be tbh that dude is perfect in each way like hes pretty and can sing can dance ran rap and has a sense of humor the hell else do u want then

101.   Minhyun got 5th and his face on the big screen everyone are like fuck hes hot anyways HE SAID HE WANTS TO DEBUT W JAEHWAN I love how close Jaehwan is with 2hyun aaaaaaahhhh

102.   YOUNGMIN IN A PUPPY HUG PILE I LOVE U RED ALPACA BABE

103.   HE IS GONNA DO SOME BITCHASS ALPACA DANCE SINCE HE GOT 5TH AAAAHAHA SO CUTEEEEEEEEE

104.   The top 4 is Jihoon, Guanlin, Jonghyun and Daehwi

105.   Daehwi is 4 and thanked his mom in America poor kid HES CRYING!!!!!! HE HUGGED YOUNGMIN SO TIGHT!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING SAD!! FUCK POOR BABBIE

106.   JIHOON IS THIRD!! EVERYONE WERE SO READY THAT ITS GONNA B GUANLIN INCLLUDING HIMSELF

107.   OK OVERALL HOW THE FUCK DID GUANLIN GET SECOND!! GODDAMN AINT I SHOOK!!! GOOD JOB LIL CHICKEN

108.   JONGHYUN!!!!! BABY!!!! GENTLE SUNSHINE AND BEST LEADER!!! BEAUTIFUL SMILING CHILD!!! A BAB WEEB!!! IM SO PROUD!!!!!!! IL OVE HIM SO MUCH IM EMO!!!!!! HE CRIED ABOUT NBOT BEING GOOD ENOUGH THOSE YEARS BACK!! AND NOW HERE HE IS!!! NATIONS LEADER, LOVED AFTER FINALLY HAVING SOME EXPOSURE!!!!! FUCK YOU PLEDIS FUCK EVERYONE WHO HAVE SAID SHIT ABOUT HIM I LOVE HIM AND HE IS BEAUTIFUL AND GOOD FUCK YALL

109.   I’m dead Guanlin thanked Baekho and then asked BoA to buy them more food b a b e

110.   ITS TIME FOR THE 35TH!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!! THE CANDIDATES ARE SUNGWOO, DONGSU, DONGHAN AND EUNKI AND ALL OTHER OF MY FAVES ARE DEAD AS FUCK IM SO SAD RN

111.   DONGHAN MADE IT!!!!!!! BLONDIE BABY!!!!! HES CRYING SO HARD!!!!! I FEEL SO EMO ABOUT ALL OF MY FAVE BUT HE MADE IT!!!!! TAEHYUN LOOKED SO LUCKED OUT WHEN HE WAS ANNOUNCED!!!!!! BABY DOLL IM SO PROUD OF YOU YOU DESERVE IT!!!!!

112.   Hwiseung dropped 3 ranks this is why god doesn’t exist

 Overall THANKS MNET FOR ONLY GIVING HWISEUNG AND HWANOONG SCREENTIME WHEN THEY GET ELIMINATED LOVE YA

[kohakhearts]

a 75k novel when you were 13!?? wow, im a year older, what am i doing with my life... on another note, how thoroughly do you plan your stories beforehand? i always get stuck, and im indecisive abt plot details. sorry im barraging you with all these questions, but i really look up to ur writing ^^

oh, and thank you so much for your last reply!! there was a lot really useful information, and it was so reassuring to know that quantity > quality, because i have that same habit of wanting to edit as i write. C:

AW thank you so much you’re so sweet!! don’t worry though aha you have all the time in the world to write there are really no limits to it! it’s all about you and what you want to do with it/where you want to go with it c;

i recently learned about a site called blindwrite (this might not be the right site idk i haven’t tried it myself), which a mutual of mine on twitter who’s expressed she’s bad for editing as she writes has said is extraordinary and increased her efficiency, like, tenfold. like i said, i haven’t tried it myself but i’ve done similar stuff (like changing my word document page colour to black and typing away) and it just does not work for me because i’m super typo prone so writing without seeing what i’m typing doesn’t allow me to catch those really bad typos (and by the end i’m not sure what the hell i was even trying to write in the first place haha), but it may work for you so i’d say give it a shot! i’m sure you’re probably better off than i am with that aha my friends used to call me typo taylor way back when and the title still fits to the day xD

planning!! planning is. ok well uh i’m a total pantser tbh!! aha i barely ever plan i find it incredibly stifling and boring and yeah. the only times i’ll plan in advance are with multi-chaptered fics and novels. my novels, i plan using an program called scrivener. it unfortunately costs money, but if you have the money to invest in it, i think it’s worth it (i also got a discount on mine though for winning camp nano haha sO maybe full price it might not be who knows). it’s really helpful for organizing the details and stuff, because in orig i write high fantasy and i create languages (like in osa there are….multiple made-up languages) and damn i can’t even remember words in english and french, not to mention sentence structures and grammar rules, so it’s nice to write that kind of stuff out!! also good for character planning and stuff agh i have 5 000+ words written for each of my main characters and stuff. i don’t plan plot; just do all the world-building and character development stuff. plot is bs imo and 100% of what i write is completely character-driven. the plot follows the characters, and i let the characters lead it.

with fics, though, i’m much less meticulous about planning haha. for ss, unbreakable, and wb, i have a notebook split into three sections and each section is dedicated to one fic. i take 2-3 pages and write out the points i need to address in each chapter, but do it in such a way that leaves me with a decent about of wiggle room. i did not plan every single chapter in advance. ss is the only one i have the entire thing plotted, but when i first started writing i’d only plotted up to chapter 5, which is a good thing because by the time i actually wrote chapter 5, what i’d initially thought would come next when planning it then was very different from how i was writing it. i hope that makes sense haha. i’m a big-picture thinker, so i don’t do well with all the little details. i need the room to just write.

as for other fics, i don’t plan those out at all. not even find a place, ratc, or wswbwr (this one i’m guessing will be between 50k and 80k words once it’s finished). i don’t skip scenes, either, but writing out of order can be helpful if your thinking isn’t super linear. i just write, beginning to end, and then once i hit the end of that last sentence, i don’t do anything else with it haha. i usually just let someone else beta my stuff and i don’t actually edit it myself xD i hate editing (again: i’m not detail-oriented, so editing sucks ass for me). this is a bad habit and i do not recommend doing this at all.

on the rare occasions i do edit my own fics, though, i just want to point out that google docs’ comment system is amazing and very helpful ! but nothing beats double spacing your work, printing it out, and putting the red pen to that sucker. that’s what i do for orig stuff when i’m feelin’ really inspired, and you’d be amazed at how much easier it is to edit and revise on physical paper than on a screen (also would recommend this for school hgnfd noT that i do that either LMAO but it does help with essays).

anyway !! i digressed there a bit aha but really!! some people function better on no planning, some function better on a lot of planning, some write best with something just in between. uH well i did career counselling last summer and my counsellor taught me a lot about mbti types, so if you aren’t sure if you’d do better at planning a lot or a little, i’d say take a look at that ! i’m intj, so i see the big picture more than the details, despite being a total perfectionist and wanting to plan everything out lmao. sometimes you need to try different things out, too!! in the past, i’ve also used web planners (like those organizational charts they give us in elementary school to plot out stories iDK if you got the same thing but!) and they didn’t work super well for me, but it’s all about how you process information best! trial and error is the best way to figure out what works imo. here’s a lil list i found just from googling; there are lots more like it, and they’re usually written by fellow writers, so they can be really worth looking into!^^

i hope this i helpful to you in some way!! good luck in your writing endeavours and please feel free to ask any questions whenever you wish to (and if you happen to post some writing, feel free to hit me with links too aha i’d be thrilled to read whatever you write~!)

[thesniffler]

(pt 1) Hey, love :) I'm fairly sure it's obvious to you who this is, and if not, then it will be. So, I think I'm falling for my best friend. Like, maybe even in love. The problem is, is that he lives across the country. And has a semi gf (idk for sure if they're together). But I've known him for abt a year and a half and we've liked each other the entire time. And he's always being incredibly sweet and cheesy and wow he's perfect. Like, perfect perfect.

(pt 2) And today, we were talking about his nickname in my phone is loser squad from when we first met and when we first vid chatted. And he said that "he remembered it", "how could he forget the first time he really met me", "it was an unforgettable moment that always stuck in his mind" and it was so sweet and cheesy and Jesus, I think I finally fell all the way for him and it terrifies me. And hes always saying that I'm gorgeous and cute and adorable and it helps so much w my insecurity

(pt 3) & today he said it wasn't fair that the perfect girl lived so far away and just agh. Hes sweet & attractive & brave & protective & wow. Ive been trying not to fall so hard but its so difficult when hes always saying how hes fine w losing sleep as long as he can talk to me and how hes always complimenting me and hes just... it terrifies me to think Ive fallen so hard. Bc I know we'll eventually meet in person, we have plans but idk. FYI we met through a mutual bestfriend that we both trust”

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I mean. There are a couple of options here. One. Tell him how you’re feeling and maybe he’ll stop being so forward through chat because of how it’s making you feel which might not be the best thing. Though I still think you should tell him about these feelings, regardless of his relationship status. In my opinion, unless there’s a potential for massive emotion or physical harm, telling someone how you’re feeling so that they understand what level you’re on is one of the best things.

In my personal experience it feels better when you can get things off of your chest.

Another option is back off a bit, try to spread your romantic wings in other directions to dissipate the feelings. Admit to yourself that there’s too much distance for the relationship to be healthy.

Overall, it’s alright to fall in love, sometimes it’s unfair and it sucks but it’s alright. Even if he’s thousands of miles away it’s okay to be in love with him. It’s just how you go about it that matters.