#i’m sooo. i’ve been so. out of it all day but xo off to school tomorrow

[ilostyou]

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[thisdreamplace]

Out of all the blogs I’ve encountered, yours is the one I truly resonate with :) I started following your blog since 2020 and since then I’ve been trying to use the law of assumption to change my reality. I completely ignored my present reality, the reality where I go to school where my parents are split where I have actual responsibilities, and pretended like I could just change everything.

I know that Christians can use the loa but personally, I don’t desire to use it to completely change my life. Living delusionally and completely ignoring my life thinking “I’ll go to the void” or “this life isn’t real” realllllyyyy fucked up my brain lol. I’ve technically not have been really ‘living’ if that makes sense? It didn’t hit me until in December 2022, I had a loss in my family and while I was praying, God made me realize that I shouldnt try to change my life. But instead accept my reality and become the best version of myself.

I started exercising and eating healthy, acting as if I was some lifestyle blogger or as if I truly cared about my life. My life have improved sooo much since then, and I’m finally pleased with my life. I stopped trying to revise and be the absolutely perfect person that I had written in my notes app but I don’t care anymore. Trying to make my 100 years on earth perfect isn’t worth it, I’m going to die anyways I’m just going to live the way I please, by improving myself for myself and not idolizing a certain person or idea (like the void)

I still use the loa to lose weight. I realized that I didn’t want to just become my desired appearance, but I wanted to actually exercise and sweat! I’ve been working out for a couple of weeks now and every day I think to myself how beautiful I am and how much my exercises are paying off, and the results are great 🫶

This is just my journal with the loa, but I’ve made peace to not make loa my entire life but just a tool to improve my life starting now. Thank you thisdreamplace for being such an awesome resource!!

i LOVE this message ! its so beautiful to me, how you chose freedom for yourself. it especially warmed my heart to read how you started living again. omg, i remember how refreshing it was to run outside for the first time again, to embrace the heat of the sun and take in the beauty of all of the plants that surrounded me. to take in the fresh, warm air. no longer staying cooped up in my room thinking, "i can just manifest physical health" while i sat there scrolling on my phone for hours, doing nothing to experience life.

i so agree, our years here on this earth arent meant to mind control and or be perfectionists about. our years are for us to live, to experience every moment so fully, to embrace each moment, to follow our hearts and become who our heart already knows we are. to truly be one with god, in that way.

i also love how you allowed yourself to take some action because i know an obsession in the community is to get everything without moving a finger. which is like cute n nice. but it takes away so much from the experience of actually being alive and getting to do things. and i love how you found a beautiful balance within the two.

once again, i love this message so much and i thank you so much for sharing ! i hope others find it inspiring as well, as you truly found your way when you made yourself your entire life instead. and thank you for your kind words !! <3 xo