#i’m more asking bc if so i’ll run a vote on certain things as i plan it out

[aimwigs]

if i did a little yard week w daily prompts for writers/artists/gifmakers would ppl take part or would it just be me and el?

[famedroleplayarchive]

Firstly, I want to let everyone know that Daylight Savings begins tomorrow in the admin’s timezone, so, if you do not observe this, acceptances will be an hour earlier than you’re used to beginning tomorrow until November. Acceptances will be at 6PM EDT / 7AM KST.

Other than that, I’m back with another admin post before the one planned for our anniversary. I wanted to let everyone know the results of the recent poll regarding activity and schedules, as well as ask for member opinion on some more matters. This admin post does involve another poll, so I apologize in advance for anyone who isn’t fond of those, but you’re welcome not to answer if you would prefer not to!

Poll results

As a result of the majority opinion on the polls, activity checks will now be conducted requiring two posts since the last activity check for points. At least one must be a thread starter or reply, while the other can be a thread post or a solo or headcanon of 400+ words.

One qualifying post, or multiple solos/headcanons but no thread post, since the last activity check will result in a warning.

No qualifying posts since the last activity check will result in removal. 

This system will be implemented beginning with our next activity check on March 19.

Some smaller activity tweaks will come around our fourth anniversary, but for now I’d like to give everyone two weeks to adjust to this first!

Schedules will also now be done quarterly on a trial basis, beginning in April.

Note: I would like to remind everyone to please only vote once in these polls. I make them anonymous so no one feels discouraged from participating, but there was one particular instance that seemed suspicious to me as the same person submitting multiple votes. I didn’t delete the votes since it didn’t change the end result and there’s always a chance this was a coincidence, but I do take note of that kind of thing since I want to make sure member opinion is being reflected accurately!

Soloist positions

Currently, all of our canon soloist positions are open. Recently, there hasn’t been as much interest in soloist positions as group positions, and I understand these positions also often have less in their monthly schedules and are limited in some claims. I’ve also had some people suggest removing these positions and/or sharing that they don’t find the canon soloist positions particularly appealing in the context and limitations of the universe, so I wanted to check if canon soloist positions were something people were still interested in keeping, or if it would be more beneficial to do away with them.

I’m going to keep the positions from reserves being made while I have the poll running that will be linked at the end of this post to see if they should be kept.

If kept, things will proceed as normal.

If majority votes to remove them, the spots will be removed and their music will be opened for points claims. If this happens, muses with past claims related to canon soloist positions (features / music video roles) may choose to either drop the claim all together or switch it to a new claim. (I’d be open to discussing making an exception for some of the past claims rules like past features needing to be in the same company to accommodate this since it would be inconveniencing these muns). Muses with points claims related to canon soloist positions will have the choice to reclaim their points in full or keep the claim as a feature / mv appearance for an undefined song by an outside, NPC soloist with the same achievements and history if they had specific development linked to it. Certain storylines linked to canon soloist positions would be reworked if they’re an important narrative, ex. Dimensions buying out a company in Dimensions Soloist 3′s backstory, BC doing something to distract from the legal situation with the former Lipstick member in BC Soloist 1′s backstory.

Adding to Fuse’s model discography

Fuse is one of the few groups remaining in the roleplay with only one model group in their discography. Their company has stated Red Velvet is aiming for a comeback, but since they haven’t come back in over a year as a full group and don’t have a lot of group activities in recent times for a number of reasons, I’ve been looking into adding to their discography to ensure Fuse can have a comeback this summer. I haven’t found any groups that have really completely stuck out to me on my own, though there are a few possibilities in consideration, so I wanted to throw this out to members of the roleplay to ask who might want to see added / think might fit in the poll. As usual, this is completely optional and you only have to answer if you have any suggestions.

Recent bullying allegations 

I’ve gotten a few questions in the ask box about this, so I apologize for not answering them up to this point, but I was didn’t want to prematurely make any decisions while news was/is still coming out. I’m going to touch base with a few members individually soon, but a public address on any actions taken in response to these allegations will eventually be up.

For now, actor Kim Jisoo and April members Kim Chaewon, Lee Naeun, Yang Yena, Lee Jinsol, and and ex-member Jeon Somin are going to be treated as banned in the interim before I get full member input since they’ve been linked to allegations that raise triggers beyond bullying as well and members have, in similar situations in the past, voiced discomfort with faceclaims involved in those triggering topics. I am aware that parts of these allegations have been officially denied by their companies, but due to the aspects of these allegations being severe and denial being dependent on trusting the word of the company, I wouldn’t find it appropriate to leave those case entirely unaddressed at this time.

I will also ask that anyone interested hold off on applying with other face claims wrapped up in the recent bullying allegations until I’m able to make a complete statement after seeking member opinion. Anyone using a faceclaim who has been or gets wrapped up in such allegations is welcome to contact me to request a faceclaim change out of that faceclaim, even if their waiting period isn’t up yet, though I won’t be specifically asking anyone to change at this moment in time. Model groups are something that will be addressed either personally with muns affected or at a later time if necessary after seeking member opinion as well.

In the poll that will be linked below, I ask for member input on what they would be most most comfortable with regarding the requirements for banning / not banning a faceclaim with bullying allegations against them. I left this open for freeform reply instead of multiple choice since it seemed hard to encompass all guidelines that someone might see as suitable. Note that this is entirely optional, so if you don’t have an opinion or if you’re not comfortable discussing the topic, you don’t have to reply. If you need some time to think, you don’t need to answer right away. This will not be treated exactly as a poll with the most popular answer being the final decision, but instead, as a forum for members to provide their input all in one place so that I can be aware of where members stand. As admin, I’ll use this to help inform the final decision, though not strictly control it.

The poll on all topics can be found here. It will close at the end of next Thursday, March 18.

[sweetest-honeybee]

To Hell and Back

Chapter 13

Summary: Ex and Hels go to meet other Hermits but a certain butcher throws Hels into a panic attack.

Characters: Helsknight, Evil Xisuma, Doc, Xisuma mention, Giran mention, Scar mention, and Beef is there briefly

TW: Panic attack, asthma attack mentions, stuff like that.

Yes, I gave scar asthma for this bc I needed a reason for something in this chapter

———————

After that whole ordeal, the two continued to meet at other areas in the map for the next week. Ex proposed the idea to give Hels a little tour, mostly sticking around the shopping district.

“And this is Grumbot, they said he got all messed up so they built a little private world for him,” said Evil Xisuma. They landed on the perch just in front of a small window and peeked inside. “Still happy as ever,” he mused.

“What does it do? Does it have some kind of purpose?”

“Ah, well while I was still staying in Xisuma’s base, they had some kind of election for a mayor of the shopping district. Grumbot if I’m correct was supposed to help Mumbo in winning.”

Hels nodded slowly at the answer. “Alright then...Did he win?”

Ex shook his head with pursed lips. “No, Scar won. He got all the diamonds everyone spent on plots of land for their shops to use for repairs and new stuff and whatnot.”

Hels hummed in response. “Well no wonder Grumbot was so upset. I hope he’s a good leader. When you had me meet him, he didn’t seem much like the leading type. He’s all soft.”

“Soft, yes. But he’s kind to the Hermits and myself. I believe he’s had quite a rough past which probably made way for some kind of pity vote here and there if you ask me.”

Hels gave Ex a pointed look, completely disregarding Ex’s last statement. “Rough past?”

“Yeah, I dunno if you saw that he’s covered head to toe in scars, which is probably where the name came from, but he’s said something here and there about some people he’s come across a long time ago.” The man shrugged. “I don’t know a whole lot about it.”

Hels looked back at the smiling Grumbot. “Well, with a good origin story emerges some kind of hero, I suppose.”

“That’s odd coming from you. I think you’re spending too much time around Xisuma.” The knight merely responded by playfully punching him in the arm.

Then Hels wondered. “Why wasn’t Xisuma the mayor, though? He’s the ruler of-“ Hels gestured around them vaguely “-All of this.”

Ex shook his head. “I thought so too, but he said he’s not the one who makes all the decisions around here and he’s not fitting for the job anyways. Apparently everyone helps with all the decision making and whatnot.”

Hels hummed, considering the thought. “Alright then, shall we continue? I believe there’s some Hermits you haven’t introduced me to. I’ve heard that there’s a creeper-cyborg-guy running around. Something about goats?”

Ex laughed at the thought of Hels meeting Doc. “I actually think the two of you may get along quite well! Same with Joe Hills. His poetry and your dramatic speeches certainly go hand in hand.” He eyed Hels with a grin while the knight rolled his eyes. “But yes, we can continue. Though, I would like you to meet Beef as well but Wels lives near his place. I think it’d be cool to meet the person who practically created you.”

“Well, the vessel anyways.”

“Right, let's head off then and give Grumbot some privacy.”

With that, the two lifted off once more, this time coming across a weirdly shaped mountain miles away accompanied by a large house split into halves. As they landed, they spotted Doc hardly a few meters away. The creeper was too busy moving items to different chests repeatedly, probably sorting, to notice the new company.

“Hello, Doc! I’d like to introduce you to a new friend of mine that’s gonna live on the server for a while!”

Ex must’ve startled the old man. An easy assumption when Doc quite harshly smacked the back of his head on the lid of the chest while standing. Glancing at Evil Xisuma, he rubbed at his neck.

“Next time, I’d rather not have people sneaking up on me.” His eyes then landed on Hels. “Woah, did Wels go through an emo phase?” He chuckled at his own joke.

“Hardy har har. I’m his evil clone.”

Doc merely rolled his eyes. “I’m not surprised. Beef was asking for some help regarding his cloning machine after you were created.”

Hels raised a brow at the comment. “And what’s that supposed to mean?”

Doc just shrugged. “Dunno. Probably doesn’t want more evil clones running around.” He clapped his hands together. “Anyways! What can I do for you guys, I’m a bit busy at the moment so you’ll have to be quick,” Doc ended with a pointed glare at Hels.

“Just needed to introduce him to everyone and we’ll be on our way. Nothing much else than that. I’ll just let him wander a bit and look around if that’s alright.”

“Fine with me, just don’t use my villagers, farms, or break anything that takes a lot of effort to replace.” Doc waved a hand dismissively as he walked back over to his chest, beginning to sort again.

With that, Hels looked up at the mountain near them. “Hey, what’s with the mountain? Looks like an animal head.”

Without removing his focus from the chest, Doc simply replied, “It’s a goat.”

“Alright then.” Hels looked over at Ex. “I don’t believe there’s too much to look at over here, we can move on. If you’d like me to meet Beef now, we can do that.”

Doc couldn’t help but to glance at them after Hels’s suggestion. “I thought Wels doesn’t want you near his base.”

“Mind your business old man.”

Doc glared at the knight once more and turned back to his chest, grumbling something under his breath along the lines of ‘I’m not that old’. The pair snorted at the scientist.

“Okay, let's go then.”

It wasn’t a very long flight this time, much to Hels’s surprise. He thought Beef lived much farther away than where he settled. The sandstone village came into view within hardly a couple minutes.

But for some reason, Hels found the village intimidating.

“I wonder if he’s here, he’s not around a lot,” Ex prefaced. As if on cue, the butcher came into view from the blacksmith, several iron bars and end rods piled in his arms. “Ah, nevermind then. Let’s say hello!”

Before Ex went approaching Beef, he was caught short by the wrist. He turned and found the knight gripping it quite harshly, a frown deepening on his face.

“Hels, would you please let go of me?”

The knight pulled him back a foot or two behind the building. “Um, actually maybe we can just do this later. He seems busy.”

Ex cocked his head to the side. “That didn’t stop us with Doc, Mumbo, Grian, Star, Xisuma, Stress, Ren-“ Hels shushed him quickly.

“No, I don’t care. Let’s just go.” Hels tugged on his wrist once more, Ex not budging from his current placement. Worry suddenly became evident in his expression.

“Is something wrong?”

Hels just shook his head, a flush creeping across his face, but oddly enough, Ex recognized that it wasn’t the good kind. “No- Please will you just come with m-“

“Is everything alright over here?” The knight stopped mid pull. To his left, Beef stood with purple glittered hands on his hips. “Why are you pulling on him like that, let the dude go.”

Without hesitation, Hels slipped his hand away. “Sorry,” he mumbled. He exhaled shakily.

Beef raised a brow almost in unison with Ex. “You’re not looking so hot, are you feeling okay? There’s a library behind you if you wanna sit in there.”

“Hels, I dunno if you know this but you’re pale. Like really pale. Do I need to call Stress and Xisuma?”

The knight shut his eyes tightly, shaking his head again, harder this time. “Beef please leave,” he croaked. With a slight nod, the butcher left. “I um-“ Hels swallowed thickly, “-Ex, remember when uh- when I said that I get scared sometimes and cry in a corner?”

Ex had to think for a second before his eyes widened. “Is that what’s happening right now?” He looked around frantically. “There’s not really any good corners here-“

“No- No, I just- please just take me somewhere else, I need to be out of this village. What’s uh- where’s the nearest place?”

“Closest place is Wels’s base but we can’t go there.”

Yeah, that would probably make it worse, especially if the other knight was at his base. Then, Hels had an idea.

“Chorus fruit,” he exhaled.

“What?”

“Do you have chorus fruit.”

Ex nodded with an “Oh” and pulled the round purple fruit from his inventory. Immediately, Hels snatched one from him.

“Take a bite on three and hold my hand.” Ex did so. With the final number, the two took a bite and, almost too conveniently, they landed at the greenhouse. Hels didn’t let go of his hand, however, the grip only became much tighter while he dragged them both to the floor.

“Do I need to get someone?”

Hels shook his head, screwing his eyes shut.

“What do I do then?”

The knight struggled for words through vigorous shaking. He just kept shaking his head and leaned into the other, taking the held hand into both of his own.

Ex honestly had no clue what to do. He’s never seen this happen to any of the other Hermits, let alone Hels. But one thing he did know is that a person shouldn’t really be breathing that frantically.

That then tied to a memory back to an event involving Scar. The terraformer had asthma, he knew. He could vaguely pinpoint a moment where Grian had helped him out of an asthma attack. And while he did so, he had Ex retrieve Stress. The evil hermit caught on to the breathing exercises the two followed before following through with his task.

Would that work? Hels didn’t have asthma. Ex wasn’t even sure if those exercises were even for whatever was happening right now.

“Hey- Hey Hels, I’m going to try something. This will be stupid, but bare with me.” He lightly tapped the other on his shoulder with his free hand and Hels lifted his face ever so slightly to face him a bit more. “Good job,“ he repeated the words from Grian. “I need you to breathe with me, can you do that?”

Initially, Hels shook his head once more. But a second after he stopped, there was a small hint at a nod.

“Awesome, just follow my lead.” Ex inhaled slowly through his nose while the knight followed his first step, albeit shakily. He then exhaled out of his mouth, letting Hels take his time to follow again after another bout of shallow breaths. “You’re doing great,” he parroted again. “We’re going to do that a few more times.”

And again, they did. Inhale through the nose, exhale out of the mouth. Granted, when Scar was having his troubles, he had some kind of machinery next to him to help him breathe, but at least this was close. Inhale again through the nose, then exhale out of the mouth.

Absentmindedly, the evil hermit trailed his fingers over the other’s back lightly. He didn’t honestly expect this to work, he thought someone was going to have to come help him. He knew for sure that he was going to have to tell someone about what happened but he’d cross that bridge when he got to it.

Soon, Hels had his face tucked into the crook of Ex’s neck, much to Ex’s dismay. He loved the guy but he’d rather his suit not be wet with tears. Still, he kept his own firm grip in the tangle of fingers between their legs and the attack died down into minimal shaking.

“Do you want to talk about it?” He proposed. Hels pulled himself away from the other’s chest and Ex practically felt his own heart break at the sight. There was the courageous and merciless knight, red faced and puffy eyed, a few tears still making their way down his cheeks, others merely sticking to them. Hels wiped at them pathetically.

“Yeah.”

“Okay then, what happened? What caused it?”

Hels meekly shrugged. “The village I guess. I dunno for sure.”

“Was it Beef? You wanted him to leave almost as soon as he came to talk.”

The knight stuttered. Ex was a bit too blunt for his liking when it came to asking questions. “I- I don’t know- He’s not even that bad. There was…” he took a deep breath. This was pathetic. Here was one of the strongest and most powerful people in Hels talking about his feelings. “The village kind of did it before we even landed,” he finally concluded.

Ex shifted in his spot. “Well, would it help to tell you about something I’m afraid of? Or at least used to be? Xisuma does it sometimes when I’m scared.”

The corners of Hels’s mouth twitched upwards just slightly. “Sure.”

“Flowers.”

“F...flowers? You’re afraid of flowers and you own a flower shop and a greenhouse?” The knight sat up more.

Ex wagged a finger with his free hand. For a second upon noticing this, Hels let go of his other hand. “I said ���or at least used to be’. I’m not afraid of them much anymore, a little unnerving with some specific kinds, but they’re my favorite thing in the world right now!”

The evil hermit knew he must’ve been doing something right when Hels let out a snort. “Flowers….who would believe.” He shook his head, lightly this time.

“Xisuma certainly found it odd. When I was still in my bad guy days, I came through this portal and everything and I told him I was gonna kill him. He was like ‘What’s stopping you?’ and at the time he was holding flowers.” The knight nodded along to his story. “After that I just ran away and-“

“The Lord of Darkness called you an idiot. I remember that because everyone in Hels heard it.”

Ex pulled a hand to his chest in mock offense. “He did not!” He laughed. “Okay maybe he did.”

The two fell into silence, now noticing the sun falling behind the hills slowly. A minute passed.

“What’s Xisuma afraid of?” asked Hels.

“Xisuma? Oh, he’s afraid of a lot of things. A lot more than me, I think and I’m scared of everything.” Hels chuckled at his phrasing. “Hm, I think he said one time that he was actually quite terrified of Enderman. But he’s not like….run away kind of scared. He’ll attack them when they scare him.”

“Fight or flight,” Hels muttered. Ex took notice to the setting sun.

“We should get going, I don’t want you falling asleep in here again. Are we going to go back to Beef at some point? Or we could meet him somewhere else.”

Hels shrugged. “I don’t know. I think it'll be fine if you give it a couple days.” He yawned. “Jeez, that wore me out.”

[alanncs]

hi my angels ! my name’s dani , i’m from toronto ontario aka best city in the worldt , & i’m 20  !  i’m the kelsey m on the main  &  i can’t tell u how excited i am to have wealthy up n running again !  i literally can’t wait to plot with all you beautiful peoples , so pls like this  &  i’ll slide in the dms , otherwise u can also hit me up on discord 𝒎𝒈𝒌'𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒆 .#1958  !!  i’m gonna put all you need  2 know about alanna below aaand i hope y’all like her ! <3

new york’s very own alanna d'alessio was spotted on broadway street in gucci bee sneakers . your resemblance to hailey baldwin is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your twenty first birthday bash . while living in nyc ,  you’ve been labeled as being reticent , but also gracious . i guess being a scorpio explains that . 3 things that would paint a better picture of you would be anything pink , the lingering smell of weed , and a cigarette between her fingers . &  ( cisfemale & she/her  )  +  ( dani , 20 , she/her , est . )

                    *  /   𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑐𝑠 .

full  name  :  alanna  marie  d’alessio  .

age :  twenty  -  one  .

hometown  :  new  york  city  .

zodiac  chart  :  scorpio  sun  ,  aquarius  moon  ,  libra  rising  .

character  inspo  :  alyssa  (  the  end  of  the  f*cking  world  )  ,  marissa  cooper  (  the  o.c  )  ,  hanna  marin  (  pretty  little  liars  )  .

                   *  /   𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚   !!  tw  : kidnapping , ransom , drugs

alanna was born heir to the d'alessio family which came with the billion dollar dynasty that her parents created . 

her dad is an italian government official  but they grew up in ny basically bc her dad is an ambassador/representative for italy  &  her mother is a super model who also wanted to raise her kids here having lived here her whole life , and so they did . 

she had everything handed to her on a silver platter and her parents expected nothing but success from her because of how wealthy they were, they knew they would never have to worry about providing for her and her siblings , and so they spoiled her with whatever she asked for and more

but that came with a price, she was expected to do everything they wanted of her, go to an ivy league college, follow in one of her parent’s career footsteps

alanna did just that, she got amazing grades in high school and was head of many student clubs, organized prom, got almost perfect on sat’s and exams, and busted her ass to get into a good college despite the fact that her parents could’ve easily gotten her a spot if she didn’t do as well as she did

her life was going so well, she had the perfect boyfriend, perfect group of friends, was on her way to brown university in a couple of months, her parents and her couldn’t have been in a better spot with their daughter

the last thing they expected was for someone, a stranger, to get their hands on their daughter . a week after her 18th birthday , she’s walking to school on a monday morning and before she knows what’s happening , there’s something over her head and she’s being dragged into a van and taken from her life

the one thing that was expected, was the $10 million ransom she was held for

basically her dad had some shady dealings with the italian mob & didn’t pay his debts to them for some time - so they kidnapped alanna in retaliation for that

they kept her for 3 days before her parents were able to work with the authorities to get her returned and pay the people in full

surprisingly, she was returned alive but she had to spend two weeks in the hospital afterwards with injuries

once alanna was returned, she wasn’t the same

she told the police what happened to her , but only barely . she didn’t tell her parents or anyone else about what they did to her when she was gone .

she didn’t speak , eat or sleep for two months after she got home

she spent the last few months of her high school in bed, she didn’t attend her graduation, deferred from going to brown in the fall, she didn’t see her friends anymore and she broke up with her boyfriend

the people who took her were never caught & she is still to this day completely terrified of going anywhere alone

she never walks anywhere alone  

it took her months to be able to get back to doing normal things again and being who she was before

to this day ,  alanna still struggles with the memories and the ptsd from what happened to her , but she doesn’t speak to anyone about it and she refuses to bring it up in any scenario

she also has a horrible relationship with her father now , having trouble forgiving him for what happened to her

some people know about it as obviously, being as famous as her family is, it was on the news at the time, and everyone she went to high school with knew what happened so sometimes it can be hard to avoid it

she wants to forget - here comes her secret - she got into drugs after the kidnapping and it quickly spiraled out of control , now she can’t seem to function without them because they’re the only thing that make her feel normal and make the memories fade

anything she can get her hands on rly

but the media think she’s an angel , her reputation has been kept p much pristine her whole life . and her parents have no clue how much she’s struggling or how much she’s changed . so if this were to come out , it would tarnish not only alanna’s reputation but her family’s  as well

                                         *  /   𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚  !!

after deferring from brown ,  alanna knew she had to find some way to keep herself occupied and make money , even though she could live off her parents for however long she wanted

alanna wants to be . miss independent .

so she started getting into modelling , bc of her mom it was easy for her to book gigs

she was able to book gigs like adidas , guess , calvin klein  etc  !

so  that was super exciting for her bc she got really into it and  enjoyed doing it sm

she started acting about a year ago - started off in a few movies , & now she’s currently starring in a netflix series - smth similiar to elite or on my block !

oko so in high school alanna was super bubbly , and just like the really overly nice girl that would talk to literally every 1

but it worked for her bc she was  voted prom queen  and valedictorian ! even tho she missed graduation . yike

Anyway now ! she is not v much like that anymore , except  when she’s super high .

since her kidnapping alanna has been closed off and aloof . in general , she’s not as talkative

she says what she thinks but it usually comes in one word mumbles

can sometimes b very entertaining  . she’s kinda like paris hilton a little bit

also think Marissa from the oc !!

call her a  spoiled brat she’s gonna be like “ yah… and ?”

she  can be very selfish to a fault  in certain situations

and very defensive if she feels attacked, judged , put into a corner , physically cornered , etc

she’s a hopeless romantic at heart and dreams of having an epic love story

but she  has Hella trust issues which easily lead to commitment issues for her so … she will cheat “by accident” lol

that’s why she tries to steer clear of relationships but she also has such a big heart she  falls in love 5 times a day sffsdkj

also w  how much this girl  can sleep around it’s not happening any Time soon 4 her ! she enjoys being single a lot

Bc she likes to get wild

shes like nicole richie on the simple life when she’s partying  lmao

like she likes 2 fuck with ppl sometimes lol , like she will flirt w anyone and everyone just cus she’s bored

umm she lives  in sweatpants n crop tops !

her hair is either in a  bun or just down , she’s rly lazy when it comes to hair and makeup   . like if her makeups done someone else did it lol

Unless she’s like fully in the mood

ooverall she’s a rly sweet lil bean whos just scared of humans ! :’(

um ya idk im always developing  her but IF U read  all this  ilysm !

here’s her pinterest board for more of an idea !

                                  *  /  𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔  !!

EVERYTHING   !  here is a link to my wc page & a link to my wc TAG which are both full of ideas so  msg me  & i’ll throw tons of ideas at u <333 let’s do it i luv plotting sm okay

[tslasvegas]

Episode 13: “What a depressing trip to Las Vegas” - Jaiden

I just have one thing to say.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING! It worked! I didn't expect Joey to vote with us. I feel bad about that, but hey, we couldn't see him being sincere. If he told us who the others were voting for, then maybe we would have changed votes. Jaiden was open to it already. Kailyn is probably the one who voted with John for Liv. Maybe she thought he would play and idol or maybe jury management. Anyway, she should have told us. 

Joey got voted out. Which was not supposed to happen this round. Pat and Jeff are just so naive and easily to manipulate. I’m sure they could be convinced to self vote without any real effort. I don’t even want to bother working with them moving forward because of it. But I might have to. I can’t let grudges get in the way of getting to the end game. Honestly at this point I’d be happy going to F3 with Liv and Kailyn. Xavier is too nice. Jaiden is too... out there? Love him, but I don’t want to sit next to him at the end. And Pat and Jeff i just don’t think they deserve to make it that far

I still can’t believe tribal tonight was real. It’s been like six hours and I’m still in shock that Joey finally went home. Like... what??? I’ve been dealing with that dude for three weeks and I’ve held his little secret in until it finally came of use to me, and... now I’m in the final seven. The game has NOT been won yet and while I feel like cheering and celebrating, I need to maintain my focus and center myself as the game is nowhere close to being over yet. We’ve still got at least four tribals to go, but after tonight I might be able to say that I’m exactly halfway through the merge (assuming it’s a final three... dear god please be a final three). Top eight was a really hard mountain to climb and once I lost immunity I felt a little out of touch with what was gonna happen next. I really felt like my time was going to come, and I’m so thankful that it wasn’t. Tbh Kailyn might’ve gone home today had Jeff not told me about a Palazzo chat still being alive and well. I don’t know how I’m gonna turn this bad situation around again but I need to convince Keegan and Livingston to work with me, Kailyn, and Xavier. It is critical now that Jeff or Pat go home because one of them is going to win. Before Joey left, he told me that there is a rumor that Jeff or Pat have an idol nullifier. While a nullifier won’t affect me right now, it’s not something that I want to see in the game going forward period and I want to use that little piece of information to my benefit and finally get rid of Pat. I’ve been saying for SO LONG that we need to get rid of Pat and now the time is ticking down. He has to go as soon as possible, fuck whatever Jeff says. Tbh I want to fly into the final six with no votes cast against me, still. I wonder if I can get Jeff and Pat to target like Keegan or Livingston and I really just need Xavier or Kaitlyn to bring up Pat’s name first before Jeff.. I doubt they have the smarts to recognize the danger that they pose, but we will see... Keegan is DEFINITELY pissed off at me now too. I made the mistake of telling him that I was “a little annoyed” about how tribal went, which was such a dumb thing to say bc tribal went exactly how I wanted it to. I’m playing off the fact that Kailyn must’ve known abt Joey voting for Livingston because her name was on the chopping block too so that’s why it went 4-2-2 rather than 5-2-1 like it was supposed to. I don’t want anybody to know that I was playing for Joey’s advantage which I’m sure people think I have right now lmfao... Anyways really I need to just make Keegan NOT hate me because he’s still part of my plan long term (I think)... he’s really smart tho and I’m not counting him out to win the whole thing but he hasn’t really done much of anything whereas people like Jeff and Pat and Xavier have kinda done a lot... If Keegan isn’t prepared to be fully loyal to me til the end then there’s nothing I can say to him except adios. All I really need right now is an immunity run til the end. I hope that the next challenge is something that doesn’t require a lot of skill because I am INCREDIBLY anxious just thinking about a competition, live. I need final seven immunity because then I’m guaranteed top five... the furthest I’ve ever been in Tumblr Survivor by a mile. I’ll break so many of my own personal records with that one single immunity win. In fact, if I make it to final five, that will be the best I’ve literally ever done in a Skype survivor org. I haven’t done that good since April and it’s just really affirming to me that this was the right decision for me to come back to Tumblr. Aside from winning challenges and making more moves, I also have gotta start fixing my bad relationships. Like I mentioned earlier, Keegan seems REALLY pissed off at me for how things went down with him being left out of the vote again. I can only apologize so many times before I am simply unforgivable. Maybe say sorry less and work to do better??? Idfk. But if Jeff or Pat can just say Keegan’s name, I’ll do what I can to prove to him that I’m loyal to HIM and not them. I hope that the Palazzos are falling to pieces now and realize that the only way to the end is to stick by us and nobody else. Jeff was also pretty mad at me for pushing his buttons a lot today. But honestly he was feeding me utter bullshit. I don’t buy that he was my savior and guardian Angel today, protecting me from having my name come up. I should honestly tell Livingston that Jeff sold him out to me not too long after Livingston said my name in their little chat. That would be hilarious. Kailyn and I are pretty close, but it could be better. I think I tend to revert all game-conversations with Xavier, so I don’t consider Kailyn my main ally unfortunately. If I want to go to the final three with her and Xavier, I need to really work on building that GAME relationship up because as a person I think we vibe well but it’s gonna come down to a couple factors and if she *has* to be sacrificed for me to get further, I can’t do anything but let it happen unfortunately.. As I just said, Xavier is kind of my main strategic ally right now which is super weird to say. He has definitely stepped it up A LOT in the strategic department and I have a lot of respect for him just as a person and I want to try and pick his brain a little bit more. The only thing with Xavier is that he seems to be playing really “safe” right now - I think had the opportunity presented itself to vote for Jeff with Joey, Xavier wouldn’t have gone for it and would’ve wanted to stick strong with voting Livingston instead. Which I totally get, but this game right now kinda requires we make bolder decisions than just what kinda didn’t work last time, you know? Okay now for Pat - god our relationship is just so weird. I have virtually not ties to Pat except the one alliance with Jeff and I feel like Jeff wants to control Pat rather than let Pat be his own player. It’s weird. I wonder if Pat would be down to vote out Jeff but fuck it’s gonna be hard to pull that off. I don’t want to hold off on Pat BECAUSE if I can’t get him out next, I will need him at final six and hopefully final five to serve as a sacrificial lamb or something. I’m wondering now if maybe Livingston needs to go because people are gonna always view Pat as a huge threat to win, even though he might not necessarily do so if he gets there. Livingston... yeah I really don’t like Livingston lmfao. I think it’s because of his super close connection to Rachael but it might also be because he is like, cool and nerdy and a bit of a try hard “around camp” so to speak. What REALLY gets on my nerves about Livingston is that he possesses zero of the charisma to convince me that he sucks at this game but enough social finesse to make me think that he’s actually gonna win if he gets to the end. He’s like, that cool dork everybody was friends with in high school. Even though parts of his game have been lackluster as fuck, he’s still a massive threat to win and I might just need to kick him off to the jury as soon as possible. :) And finally... me! I’m gonna try hard to be unbiased and self-aware but it’s so difficult to do that bc I genuinely don’t know how ppl are perceiving me this time.. I THINK it’s mostly positive but tonight was definitely one of my most negative episodes bc of how stressful I was being before tribal. Just ask Jeff. I think I’m definitely succeeding in getting votes to go my way and I have had a LOT of things go right for me since the merge. From Stephanie leaving right when I needed her to, to the double removal, to the super idol coming out and getting rid of Joey... It’s been so good so far. BUT I’m not being subtle about it. Subtlety is not a strength of mine that’s for sure.. I think I succeeded in being “subtle” about the Steph thing bc I was not making it overly obvious I wanted her out but otherwise I’ve been very clearly controlling other decisions and how certain votes went. Leaving two people I don’t trust in the game (Pat/Jeff) is tough but at least I worked with them on something, right? Joey was telling me so much that he was gonna lose to me and I think he was right. Now Jeff is saying that he’s probably going to lose if we’re in the end, but he doesn’t want to vote me out. Do I trust that? Not really... But fuck, I don’t even know anymore!!! I think if the game was over right now, I’m going to be grilled to DEATH for being fake as hell to Joey. I think that’s gonna come back to bite me so I need to start talking POSITIVELY about Joey to EVERYBODY. Read him for game, not for personal reasons. And maybe I’ll even talk his game up going forward just so that the person who goes into jury at least relays that I made a “good move” voting for Joey to leave (even tho I didn’t vote for Joey hehe). I wonder if people think I’m just playing tjem as pawns and not as real people.. bc these are definitely real people we are playing with here and I recognize that, but honestly in my mind nobody here wants this as badly as me. If that makes me the villain, I’m fine being the villain. But I’m not a human being that will ever play this game with a passion to play humanely. I want to win so badly. I’m going crazy in my own head, the wheels turning in hyperspeed. I’ve never been hungrier for something like I am for this win... I can hold out another year in this environment if I have to. I can and I will 🤠

Darn third world slow internet connection! Anyway, it made others look like challenge threats more than me, so hopefully that gets me through more rounds if they think other people can win more :) 

That was a very stressful and very tense immunity challenge. Jeff was the clear front runner for the first five rounds, being the first person to advance in all of them. He’s a quick typer which made me very worried I wouldn’t be able to pull off a win. However, the last round was “Name That Song” and with the help of Siri, I snagged the immunity necklace! Final 6 here I come! This round presents me with an interesting dilemma. Since I have immunity I can be a little more ballsy. So I could throw Jeff or Pat under the bus, try to sway Jaiden, Kailyn and Xavier to vote one of them out. Or I can stick with the OG Palazzo group that is saying (for the fifth time I might add) that they want to stick together. That hasn’t worked out at all yet this merge and we’ve voted 4 people out. Pat and Jeff seem pretty interested in targeting Xavier for being a social threat which I don’t disagree with. But Jaiden is a very strong player. This is one of those rounds where I’m insanely grateful to have immunity because there’s also a bunch of advantages out there. I know Livingston has a regular idol now. But there’s vote steals and extra votes and idol nullifiers out there somewhere and that’s so nerve-wracking. Also, Jaiden mentioned to me that this is the last round for a lot of those advantages and I just don’t think I buy that. Final 7 is a weird place for that. Regardless, I’m fully expecting this to be a wild and crazy tribal tomorrow. Can’t wait to see what happens because I get to sit there looking pretty with my new bling. Xoxo Gossip Girl

I am terrified of tribal today and I have a bunch of different ideas in my head but I just want to survive. Kind of where I am at is I feel like I am getting 7th no matter what because I have never tasted top 6 in an ORG. I could play an idol here at 7, waste it, and then just get fucked at 6. One thing I thought about was "finding" the idol part of the way through tomorrow and then letting OG Palazzo know to build trust. The only issue with this is that the idol nullifier is in play. It could still be on the board. It was on the board when I got my auction advantage. But if it isn't, and Pat and Jeff turn on me, I could be fucked idol or no idol if the nullifier is played. I suppose that Pat and Jeff have both never voted me as far as I can tell, unless I have miscalculated one of the vote counts for the past 2 tribals. Maybe it'd be safer to hold onto the idol quietly and just hope I don't leave with it in my pocket. This is so stressful because if I leave with it in my pocket, I look like an idiot that had the luck to get two advantages but couldn't traverse the game much past that. 

Okay so, Jeff is my closest ally at this point. Voting out Joey was our move and I am very happy we did. I don’t express the anger that I’m feeling and I think that helps keep my relationships good with people. I think I’m good with Livingston and Keegan and also Jaiden and Kailyn. I was Xavier out this round but I feel like something is going to happen. No one knows I have an idol which is amazing and I hope I don’t have to use it til final 5 and I have immunity and can play it on someone else for the fun of it. I can’t believe I made final 7 and am actually kicking up playing the game by voting correctly on Joey. I think so far I have 2 of the 4 votes at final tribal council, Andrew and Steph. I think I have a road there, I just hope I make the right decision because I’m still in I a weird phase of the game and anything can happen. 

This tribal feels very weird. Jaiden is insisting he hasn’t heard anything at all about the vote. Which I find very strange considering he’s basically been running things most of this merge. Why would suddenly no one tell him anything? Especially Kailyn and Xavier. Seems like those three are fairly open with each other. I could not be more happy to have immunity this round. No matter what happens, I am safe and have not a thing to worry about. I really really hope that Pat and Jeff are being honest and actually voting for Xavier like they say they are. If they’re flipping and voting for Livingston.... I don’t even want to imagine that. But I’m getting some sketchy vibes. Fingers crossed it’s just me being paranoid, though any time I say that something unexpected happens.

Ok I'm calling it, I'm going home tonight ! Literally nobody is telling me anything and it's really quite pathetic to see Keegan, who says we're super cool and good friends and will be friends once this is all over, win immunity and then not make a single attempt to pick me up and flip me to his side. Unless he's so confident that the Palazzo four will stick loyal to the very end... which they probably will, but Jeff is gonna beat all of them in the end and I think they see me as a big threat or something LOL I guess it's good gameplay for them but I hate it either way. I don't really have a lot to say bc now I just feel dumb. I wish I had an idol, but of course, I do not. Anyways, I'm going to have to stick with the fact that people are voting for Xavier tonight and hope my name doesn't come up at all. I'm going to lie and tell Xavier that I'm certain its me or Kailyn tonight and hope he holds an idol if he has it... or plays it on me heh. We'll see though... What a depressing trip to Las Vegas if it ends like this. 

The last Confessional :( 

[mingi-bubu]

Watch “Youth With You” with Me!

Episode 9 Part 2

- and we’re back

- lowkey i completely forgot that i had water and so my lips are very dry

- am also falling asleep too so that’s spicey of me i think

- alrighty drank some water, pushed up my glasses

- as mark lee says, lezgedit

- top 9 get told at end, to no one’s surprise

- 36-45

- 36 is ranran! love that we have so many double names/nicknames

- 37 is eliwa xu!  and kun deadass called her a fool i’m-

- 38 is victoria li!  aww that’s so cute

- 39 is jenny zeng!! 

- 40 is zizi xu!

- 41 is hhhhh from akb48

- aaaahhhh it’s anne hu!!!

- 42 is sunny jin!

- i love that there’s like no more build up hes just saying names now

- 43 is luna qin!

- 44 is shujun ma! h her hair is so cute for this

- i love the supprot that all the trainees show for each other

- 45 is bubble zhu!

- this half is less than last week’s but only by like ... 10? minutes

- only 41 minutes this time

- kun stop telling dad jokes, someone in the nine percent groupchat that has to exist, please clown on him

- like fcc or justing wya??  this is perfect fodder

- anywyay shujun ma is trying not to cry and naho looks so happy for her

- eliwa xu is saying she’s a member of the passionate fools ugh this is too cute

- she wants to be a sheep, zhang yixing watch your back bro she’s coming for your title XD

- 46-55 it’s nervy now

- 46 is air su!!

- 47 is ruohang feng!

- 48 is ranee wang

- 49 is kay song!

- 50 is a soprano, gross.  juicy zuo.  with the egirl heart.  love it.

- 51 is yennis huang

- 52 is vicky wei!

- 53 is ju chen!

- 54 is jessie fu

- 55 is vivi chen

- how many people are allowed to sit on the other side with the numbered chairs?

- i love vivi’s speech she really said i drink haterade and it makes me stronger

- anyway i was gonna say i didn’t watch idol producer in its fullest bc im really new to the whole cpop thing and have only really watched some of the stages, mostly from kun’s run so i’m very unknowledgeable about a lot

- sometimes i feel as if i cant ask the others in yuehuas pr team bc like i  shouldn’t ask about something that is this like idk easy??  like its not that i’m afraid of them looking down on me but at the same time it’s nice to have become friends with people who are into something that i also enjoy

- i love that she zlk;sdfjkl;asdghflkashdfgiarhgfi kunkun-ah!!  i was gonna say i love that she used kun-ah’s lyrics to young to wrap her speech up lmaooooo

- i’m deadass crying at ju’s speech oh my god she wants to make winning a seat in the 9 a birthday gift for her mom fUCK

- kay and esther sniping at each other is my aesthetic lmaoooo

- 60 spots

- fourteen spots left ooooof

- last five and top nine

- okay he’s gonna give us the last four

- 56 is menglu zhang

- 57 is xinwen xu

- 58 is monster sun

- 59 is handong

- do those who dont get a seat in the triangle get sent home orrrr???

- liek do they have to stay in that uncomfy area on the other side of the auditorium or do they literally send 40 girls home?

- kun is literally so attatched to all of these girls im emo

- the sound ppl need to figure out what they’re doing bc it keeps changing

- eughh ok gotta wait until next episode to find out 60 and 1-9

- e.e

- ooh i love that they get to act like rich heiresses

- but yueah the episode is over and i don’t have vip access so i guess i’ll never know what happens with that and with the whole baking thing from last week!!!

- anyway, since i saw esther in the uhhhhh previews for the next episode im gonna say it’s safe to assume they aren’t sending all of the nonranked trainees home.  maybe if they had under a certain # of votes?

- alrighty that’s it for episode nine!  thank you for reading and watching with me!  i’ll see you next episode!

[333kaylynn]

27 Roses / e.d.

Y/n goes to a mental hospital and Ethan visits her every day until he stops for 27 days. “27 roses for every day I missed.”

Request: nahhh fam

Word Count: 2609

uhhh i apologize for continously going from 1st and 2nd person point of view. 

I’m tagging a few people, sorry if you didn’t wanna be tagged!

@bouttogolinkurbitch

@dimply-dolan

@dolayn

@grayson-dolans-dangly-earring

@kara-dolan

@nomoregraydays

@bb-dolan

@olivia-m-dolan

@olderdolan

@justanotherdolanblog

@profanitydolan

okay im done tagging, please enjoy this bc its not the best but i meannnn

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Day One was possibly the worst. I didn’t know anyone, nor did anyone know me. I didn’t want to sit through this stupid therapy session we had to do, but of course, I was forced. They allowed me to bring someone for the first group therapy, so I wasn’t uncomfortable. Ethan stayed with me throughout the whole thing. 

Everyone in my part of the hospital was between the ages 13-17. One girl was there for trying to commit suicide, I found out her name was Amber, and she’s 14. Elisia, 16, had gone for anger management issues. Tyler, same age as me, was there for drug use. 

To be honest, I didn’t think I belonged here. I mean, in the back of my mind, I knew knew I did, but I just felt out of the loop at the moment. Everyone already knew eachother, and I just got there. 

Ethan had to leave after therapy, and it hurt me to see him go. “I promise I’ll visit you everyday. Only 365 days.” Ethan assured you you would be okay. 

“I’m gonna miss you E.” I say, pulling him in for a hug and a kiss. 

“Okay, visiting hours are over. All friends and family must leave.” The announcement went through the speakers, and I walked Ethan to the door. 

Day Two was slightly better, I started talking to a few people, Olivia, Tyler, and Faith. Olivia and Tyler were both 17, and Faith was 16. 

Tyler had been in here for about a year before this, Olivia about 7 months, and Faith for only about 2 months before I had come. 

All we really did today was sit around and get to know eachother. We played random card games, ate, and just sat around mainly. 

Ethan came and visited again, during visiting hours. Just like he said he would.  It brought joy to my eyes too see him. 

3 to 5 o clock, every day. Those were visiting hours. 3 pm to 5 pm. 

“Hey babe. I’m here, just like I said I would be.” Ethan came through the glass doors that led to the main room of the facility. He stood in the same spot for a minute and looked around until he saw you at a table with Tyler, Faith, and Olivia. 

You stood up from the table and pulled him in for a hug. You ran your small, yet nimble fingers through his ruffled up hair, probably caused by Grayson. 

“How’s your mom doing?” You ask, pushing him off of you but still holding onto him. Ethan laughed and looked at you, answering softly, “You just saw her yesterday, y/n. Right before we came here.”

“I know, E. But hey, I have to ask how my second mom is doing. You know I do.” 

Your fingers went up and through his hair again. He smiled again and said, “I know, I know. She’s doing great. She said she might visit you on Sunday, because that’s her only day off from work. My dad might come too, and Cameron.” 

You smiled and thought of the entire Dolan family seeing you here, which brought your face to a frown. 

You didn’t want to seem weak around them. You knew they already knew you were here, but they didn’t see you here yet. It was scary, the thought of them seeing you like this. 

Maybe they’d think you weren’t good enough for Ethan. They’d make Ethan stop seeing you. You couldn’t stand the thought of that. You shook your head and looked back up at Ethan. 

He could tell something was off about you for that minute. Your troubled past caused you to space out from time to time, and it probably wasn’t going to stop anytime soon. 

“You okay?” Ethan asks, resting his hand on your shoulder and rubbing it for a minute before bringing it back down. 

“Yeah, yeah. I’m okay.” You say, smiling at him and sitting back down at the table, “These are my new friends. Ethan, Tyler. Tyler, Ethan. Olivia, Ethan. Ethan, Olivia. Faith, Ethan. Ethan, Faith.” 

You took your time introducing everyone and after your introduction, Ethan immediately went into a conversation, like the social butterfly he is. 

Tyler and Ethan had a pretty intense conversation about Tyler’s life. Ethan wanted to know more about why people choose to do drugs. In his mind, there are so many things you can do to make yourself happy besides drugs. But in Tyler’s, it’s the only thing that made him happy. 

You, Faith, and Olivia were doing an even intenser range of things. Playing a game of Skip-Bo. It happened to be your favorite game since you were about 7, your grandma being the one to start your love for the game. 

Now, at the age of 17, your love still hasn’t stopped. 

“Hey, babe, I only have 30 minutes left.” Ethan says, scooting closer to your and whispering the words in your ear as you lie down a number 2 card. 

“Do you and Tyler want to join our game?” You ask, already starting to hand the two of the boys' cards. 

Day 29. It’s almost been your first month since you’ve started here. Ethan still came every day, just as he promised. 

It was now 8 pm, meaning you had 2 hours before lights out. Everyone from ages 13-15 were required to go to sleep by nine, and everyone ages 16 and 17 were allowed to stay awake until 10 if they wanted to. 

Every Thursday they put on “movie night” where the kids got to vote on a movie and watch it together with popcorn and blankets. The movie had to be Pg 13, due to the fact some of the kids could get triggered by certain things showed on R rated movies. 

You couldn't begin to imagine the things that could cause an outburst in this place. In the past 24 hours, we've had three emotional outbursts.

"Michael, sweetie. Calm down." Mrs. DeGram said as Ms. Weiss held him down due to his frustration.

Michael's mom hadn't shown up to visiting hours, but Michael was determined she'd show up.

"No! My mom will be here, she's just running late!" Michael screamed, pushing away from Ms. Weiss. Ms. Weiss got ahold of him again and held him down gently in order to calm him down.

"Michael, you need some food and some rest. Come with me." Mrs. DeGram says, holding Michael's hand as she pulls him down the small hallway that led to the dining area, where a few of the kids were seated.

Michael's mom came today, she sat and explained to him that his younger sister, Gabriella, was feeling sick last night so they brought her to see a doctor.

Faith also had a panic attack. Her father, whom she hadn't seen in ages, decided last night would be the perfect time to see her.

Faith had to be pulled away from the tall brown headed man that sat ahead of her after she screamed and clawed at him as she called him a "dirty cheating bastard"

Olivia held her closely as she shook from under her arm, whispering things to her to calm her down as her father was kicked off of the premises.

Gabe, the newest member of the facility, was having major drug withdrawals. Him and Tyler began talking about what made them start doing drugs, which seemed to have calmed Gabe down a bit.

Gabe and Tyler began laughing about their first time trying ecstasy, as me, Olivia, and Faith were playing yet another game of skip-bo.

Day 121, about 4 months in. Ethan still came to visit everyday. Seeing his tall body walk through the big glass doors, opening his arms for the hug you greeted him with every day. 

“Y/n, baby. I’ve missed you.” Ethan states as he pulls you back in for a hug, his grip beginning to get tighter. 

“Dude, I was actually just so happy when I did it. I just wanted to do everything I’ve ever wanted right then and there.” Tyler began telling Gabe, the two of them still talking about ecstasy. 

“Are they talking about drugs?” Ethan says, looking at the two of them and back at you. 

You smiled at him and gripped onto his arms, nodding your head, “Yeah, ecstasy I think.” 

Ethan just nods and the two of you take a seat, joining in on the conversation Faith and Olivia were having. Faith was laughing at some joke Ethan had made, while you and Olivia were talking more about family life and other random things. 

Olivia’s mom passed from cancer a few years back, that’s what initially started her depression. Her dad took a tough road when it happened as well, but the two of them stuck together through it all. He visits her every Monday, Tuesday, Friday, and Sunday. The other days he has to work late. 

You turned to Ethan and laughed at some joke he made once again, causing him to grin and pull you in for another hug. You continued to laugh as you thought more about it. The joke wasn’t that funny, it was just some dad joke he probably saw on a popsicle stick before coming here. 

The next hour went by pretty quick, meaning Ethan would have to leave in the next few minutes. 

“I’ll see you tomorrow, right?” You ask, hugging Ethan again and kissing him before he had to go. 

“Of course you will y/n. I wouldn’t forget.” Ethan says, holding you closely as your head rested on his shoulder. 

The next few months were basically the same, a few of the kids getting out and a few being transferred to the adult facility due to birthdays and being officially 18. 

It was now March 17th. Meaning I had about 3 more months before I was officially out of this place. They told me I would have to stay in the adult facility for a few days because I joined only 5 days after my 17th birthday, so I would turn 18 before they could legally let me out. 

Eventually, 3 o clock rolled around. I sat at the normal table I did while I waited for Ethan to show up. 

4 pm and he still wasn’t here. Maybe he had something come up. You didn’t want to worry too much, but in the back of your head you were extremely scared. 

“y/n, sweetie. He’ll be here tomorrow, just ignore it okay? I’m sure everything is fine.” Olivia said, pulling me in for a hug. Faith joined in soon after, which eventually led to a group hug with Me, Olivia, Faith, Gabe, and Tyler. The four of them all knew how much Ethan meant to me and how worried I was when he hadn’t shown up for today's visit. 

Soon enough, the next day rolled around. 

Ethan wasn’t here for this visiting either. My mind seemed to be a jumbled up mess at the time, my anxiety kicking in. 

Ethan had to show up, I know he did. He wouldn’t be late unless something bad happened. It wasn’t like him to do that. 

The next 2 weeks went by slowly, each day getting more painful. Ethan still hadn’t been there. You did everything in your power to ignore it but as the days went on you seemed to have just gotten more worried and more hurt. 

27 days later. Ethan hadn’t been there. You went over to the nurses office, where you asked Ms. Weiss if you could talk to her for a minute. 

“Of course y/n. What do you need dear?” Ms. Weiss said, allowing you to come into her office. You smile at her politeness and take a seat before asking, “Can you take Ethan Dolan’s name off of the visiting list?” 

She simply gives you a “is everything alright” look and then nods before going onto her computer to delete his name from the visiting list. “Would you like to continue receiving letters from him?” 

You nod and say that it’s okay if she kept that, maybe he would be able to explain himself. 

As you leave Ms. Weiss room, Faith runs up to you and pulls you over to where Olivia and Tyler were sitting, Tyler yelling at Olivia for an unknown reason. 

“Faith, what’s going on?” You ask, whisper-yelling into her ear. She shrugs and responds with, “I think something Olivia said upset Tyler. I don’t know what! Please help.” 

You nod at Faith and pull her in for a hug before telling her to go get one of the nurses to separate the two. 

The nurse comes back and pulls the two away from eachother and brings Tyler over to another area where Gabe was seated. You and Olivia talked about what happened and Faith sat in silence for the rest of the day, probably shaken up by two of her closest friends here getting into such a big fight. 

A fight between them wasn’t a very common thing, most of the time everything was nice and dandy. 

1 week later. Ethan had tried to show up his 28th day, you saw him. But the nurse waved him off and after a bit of arguing, he left. 

“y/n. These are for you.” Mrs. DeGram says, handing you a basket filled with roses. You look at it for a minute, confused as to who would send you so many roses. You turn it and see an envelope, which eases your confusion for a minute. 

Y/n, the envelope said very large across the top. It was clearly Ethan’s handwriting. You ripped the envelope open and started reading. 

“Y/n. I just want to begin and say how sorry I am. I skipped the past 27 days because I needed time to think. It hurt me to see you like this and I kept on my tough guy face for you. But I couldn’t do it anymore and I didn’t want you to see me like that. I didn’t want you to worry. And I know you’re angry with me. But please, please put my name back on the list so I can talk to you. I miss you.  -E”

You were still a bit angry, but you couldn’t be mad at him for too long. You walked to Ms. Weiss’ office and asked her to put Ethan’s name back on the list. She nodded and smiled as you left the room to go back to talking to Olivia and Faith. 

Soon enough, the next day rolled around. Ethan came, right at 3 o clock. He lightly smiled at you as he walked towards you, giving you a hug. 

You weeped in his arms. You didn’t expect to be sad when you saw him. You thought you’d be angry. But it wasn’t the case. You hadn’t realized how much you really missed him til now. 

Ethan began to explain himself, and if I’m being honest, it took a lot of time and tears before he could fully get it out. 

“Ethan. Why so many roses? I mean, you could’ve just gotten me one and it would have been okay.” You ask, looking at the plentiful amount of roses that were still seated at the table they had been when you got them. 

“27 roses for every day I missed.” Ethan says, hugging you again and kissing your forehead. You smiled and pulled away. 

“I love you, doofus.” 

Ethan grinned and laughed, “I love you too, y/n. And I’m not going anywhere anytime soon. I’ll be right with you when you’re outta this place.”

[thelifetimechannel]

ROSE: And it's been hanging over our heads the whole time. JAKE: Hold on a tick! JAKE: I may be a newcomer to all this cosmic mythology but i recall being informed that skaia was one of the good guys. ROSE: Informed by who? JAKE: Well... by our sprites and some of the carvings in the ruins and things like that. HALSPRITE: Everyone knows we game guides are completely trustworthy. DIRK: Wait, are you working for an even bigger bad? HALSPRITE: No. But there are certain things I can't say, or have to be party to. HALSPRITE: We've been over this, remember? HALSPRITE: My ectoplasm is still sore from your Emperor Palpatine tantrum. KANAYA: Skaia Controls The Narrative We Are Privy To KANAYA: Especially For Prospit Heroes Who Gain Glimpses In The Clouds During The Eclipse KANAYA: I Thought Those Images Were Random KANAYA: But JADE: but its pretty suspicious that it kept so much of the bad stuff from me! JADE: i might not have been so eager to play otherwise JADE: even if its not like we ever had a choice :/ JADE: and the other calliope said she had a hand in choosing those images soooo DAVE: i thought skaia "sees and knows" and couldnt do jack shit DAVE: howd we get from there to here JADE: we didnt know until today that skaia had a "cherub behind the curtain" :o CALLIOPE: after her speech i'm not sUre whether skaia reflects her will entirely or is only inspired by it. CALLIOPE: bUt it is not a neUtral actor. CALLIOPE: and she admitted to having a hand in the rUles of the game that broUght Us here. ROSE: Feferi mentioned the gods might have had something to do with it as well. ROSE: Aradia, do you know anything about that? ARADIA: i suspected something like it ARADIA: it made sense, considering derse dreamers role as emissaries to the noble circle and each incipispheres presence nestled within the furthest ring ARADIA: how they struck that deal or what it involved i dont know though DIRK: The point is, this game didn't come out of nowhere. DIRK: Someone had to make it. KANAYA: So To Clarify KANAYA: If The Other Cherub Is Skaia You Wish To Depose Her KANAYA: But If She Is The Consciousness Guiding Skaia You Would Replace Her Instead CALLIOPE: hold on. CALLIOPE: i don't trUst myself with that kind of responsibility. JANE: I'm not sure anyone should be! JAKE: Yes its like galadriel getting the ring! JOHN: if you don't make yourself the person in charge, but skaia has like... what did you call it? JOHN: a consciousness? JOHN: could you give it a conscience? KARKAT: HOLD UP. KARKAT: I KNOW ROSE ALREADY CAME TO ME PEDDLING THIS LATEST HERESY BUT I THINK IT OUGHT TO AT LEAST COME TO A VOTE. KARKAT: THIS COULD HAVE SERIOUS CONSEQUENCES, AND THE DOOR IS RIGHT THERE. KARKAT: IF ANYONE DOESN'T WANT TO RISK THEIR LIVES FOR THIS, SPEAK NOW. JANE: Could we get a description of what this plan actually /is/? ROSE: We'll need to work the details out. KARKAT: SHE WANTS TO MEDDLE WITH THE GENESIS FROG'S DNA. KARKAT: LIKE THAT WENT SO WELL LAST TIME. DAVE: the tadpoles already flown the coop on that one DAVE: unless you want to send john all the way back to our breeding session JOHN: oh come on, i can't be the solution to EVERYONE'S problems. ROSE: I wasn't going to suggest that. ROSE: Once we have a better grasp of what we want to change, we have someone with an even better skillset for reshaping reality to our liking. CALLIOPE: my other self got Us into this mess. CALLIOPE: i don't know how exactly bUt it's only fitting i get Us oUt of it. ROXY: soooo ROXY: we need 2 come up w/ a world we like ARADIA: without breaking too much ARADIA: this system works for what its designed to do ARADIA: you cant abolish it entirely without some kind of replacement SOLLUX: she's saying maybe d0n't torch the place with0ut at least reading the manual. ROXY: so we gotta reverse engineer it ROXY: sounds like a plan 2 me JAKE: I could take another look at those carvings... JANE: /clears throat/ JANE: I think Karkat is right, we should have a show of hands. JANE: Everyone in favor of pursuing this? ROXY: this game sux ass ROXY: if i can stop more doomed ppl gettin axed just bc they were in the wrong place then im gonna do it ROXY: count me in DAVE: wait i thought english was the guy behind most of our doomed timelines DAVE: with his alpha timeline forcing everyone to make one set of decisions DAVE: didnt we beat him and get rid of that JAKE: I think its fair to say calliope did! CALLIOPE: ^U^ ARADIA: its true that his influence generated far more fruitless offshots than would exist otherwise ARADIA: and constricted our paths to prioritize a single narrative ARADIA: but timeline dooming is always a mechanism available to players ARADIA: and the game sets up certain loops on its own ROSE: Lord English isn't the one who sent meteors to destroy our planet. JOHN: no he isn't. JOHN: and that's not fair, that is not what any of us signed up for. JOHN: i've been rewriting rules all day, and this sounds like a great one to get rid of. JOHN: i'll help you guys out. DAVE: well then DAVE: might as well go two for two TEREZI: SK414S T4ST3S 4R3 DR4CON14N 3V3N FOR M3 TEREZI: WH4T K1ND OF JUST1C3 SO W4NTONLY T4RG3TS 1NNOC3NTS TEREZI: 1 WOULDNT M1ND T4K1NG 1T DOWN 4 P3G JADE: i dont know how long ill have my first guardian powers back, but im willing to use them JADE: no one should be treated like pawns no matter what your justification is ROSE: My anti-authoritarian streak is already common knowledge. ROSE: I guess they were right warning you away from dreamers from the wrong side of the tracks. ROSE: Derse is a hotbed for radicalism. DIRK: It must run in the family. DIRK: Why do away with a good tradition? HALSPRITE: There's no way I'd turn down an opportunity to fuck with a fundamental component of the universe. KANAYA: Creation Is Under My Jurisdiction KANAYA: But Creation Pursued At Any Cost Can Be Just As Destructive As Intentional Violence KANAYA: Maybe I Can Put My Inclinations To Pacify Dangerous Forces To Good Use JAKE: Im through with being shoved around! JAKE: If this will help some other people out there in the multiverse who might get saddled with all this games expectations then i think its our duty to try. JANE: What kind of Empress would I be if I didn't try to secure the best possible future for whoever comes after us? JANE: Besides, I've sat back in the face of tyranny long enough. NANNASPRITE: I have too. DAVESPRITE: my programming wont allow me to participate in this DAVESPRITE: nah im just fucking with you lets kill the suffering orb ARADIA: ive spent a long time doing things because they had to be done ARADIA: to fulfill some time loop or the will of the game ARADIA: it would be nice to make a momentous decision on my own for once CALLIOPE: my other self said i woUld never be a proper mUse, bUt i take issUe with her methods. CALLIOPE: i think it's proper to set them right. SOLLUX: i feel like i'm c0ming into this discussi0n missing a lot of c0ntext but if it means we'll get a move 0n, sure. SOLLUX: sgrub 0r skaia or whatever cosmic f0rce we're ganging up on can suck my bulge. TEREZI: COM3 ON K4RK4T YOU KNOW YOU W4NT TO KARKAT: I GUESS MY REVOLUTIONARY ANCESTOR WOULD BE ASHAMED OF ME OTHERWISE. KARKAT: EVEN IF HE WAS KIND OF A JACKASS. KARKAT: AND THIS GAME HAS BEEN PRETTY TERRIBLE. KARKAT: LET'S JUST TRY NOT TO GET ANYONE KILLED THIS TIME. KARKAT: OK, WE'VE ALL GOT OUR HANDS UP NOW. KARKAT: THIS STIRRING SHOW OF CAMARADERIE WILL MOVE THE HEAVENS. KARKAT: "LOOK, THEY HAVE THEIR HANDS RAISED! WE WERE WRONG. GIVE THEM WHATEVER THEY ASK FOR, AND PASS ME THE TISSUES." KARKAT: GOOD JOB TEAM. I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY WITH YOURSELVES.

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[themeatlife]

NIL Begins, CFP Expansion, Oklahoma and Texas to the SEC, and More! - 2021 College Football Season Preview - Part 1

Wow, a lot to talk about since I last wrote about college football.  I skipped last season’s preview because at this point last year we had no idea if there would have been a season at all.  In 2020, we had no spring ball, abbreviated or conference-only schedules starting at different times, with little to no fans in the stands.  2021 will be more like a “normal” season, with most schools able to have a spring, full schedules, and (for the most part) full stadiums.  We may see more of what Tulane is doing for stadiums, especially in areas with high COVID infection rates.

So where to begin?  So much to talk about!  

Name, Image, and Likeness

From not being able to have any sort of endorsement deals to being able to profit off name, image, and likeness (NIL), the college athlete has come a long way.  Remember when people would get busted for getting stuff for free?  Well, now athletes, not just football players, can hire agents to help them manage their brand and sell their image.

The landmark Ed O’Bannon case opened the gates.  Several state legislatures pushed the NCAA by making it legal in those states for athletes to profit off their likeness starting July 1st.  It was only a matter of time before the NCAA would have to bend, and now athletes are able to make money.  And not through their schools but through endorsement deals.

And what timing!  The Women’s College World Series just wrapped up with the Sooners winning the title.  It was right before college football season ramps up their fall camps.  And NIL opened right before some of these college athletes compete in the Tokyo Summer Olympics.  Couldn’t have been better timing.  Nick Saban stated that his QB Bryce Young, who has never even started a game, was approaching 7-figures in NIL deals!

A long time coming for the college athlete.  While we don’t know all the repercussions (like the rich athletic programs getting even richer in talent), this is a win for the college athlete, particularly the college football athlete.

College Football Playoff Expansion

I didn’t think this subject would come until closer to the end of the current CFP contract in 2024, but here we are.  In early June, there were rumors of expanding the field from 4 to 12.  12?!?  Late in the month, the CFP board pushed for a summer study of the feasibility for a 12 team playoff.

The proposed 12 team format would use the existing committee ranking teams.  They would use the top 4 ranked Power 5 conference champions and then fill out at-large bids based on ranking from there.  It would have an opening round where the top 4 teams would have a bye and the remaining higher seeds would host playoff games.  The quarterfinals and semifinals would occupy existing bowl games.  And the championship game would be hosted by a bidding stadium like it is now.

There are two things that have sort of thrown a wrench in the possible expansion to the playoff: the Rose Bowl and conference realignment.  More on the second piece later.  Like the BCS and the initial CFP, the Rose Bowl demands certain criteria like playing on New Year’s Day and having the kickoff at 2pm local time, as well as accommodating their traditional Pac-12/Big Ten tie-in.  The CFP may bend to these to make it happen, or they could go on without the Granddaddy of Them All.  

There’s a ways to go before they expand, but we are much closer to an expanded playoff than any of us thought we were before.

Conference Realignment!  Oklahoma and Texas Move to the SEC in 2025 (or sooner)

2021 is the 50th anniversary of what has been known in some college football circles as the Game of the Century - 1971′s Big Eight epic matchup between #1 Nebraska at #2 Oklahoma.  Nebraska won that matchup 35-31.  To mark the occasion, Oklahoma and Nebraska (now non-conference foes) scheduled a home-and-home series, with Oklahoma hosting the 50th anniversary game.  The game was picked up by Fox Sports to broadcast, due to Oklahoma, the Big 12, and the Big Ten’s contract agreements.  OU AD Joe Castiglione asked Fox for a primetime kickoff so there can be a number of pregame festivities to commemorate the anniversary.  Fox designated the game for 11am, part of their Big Noon Kickoff package.

Why am I going over this?  Because this was possibly Joe C’s breaking point and the primary catalyst for Oklahoma’s move to the SEC.  I’m not quite sure what the breaking point was for Texas, but with the amount of 11am kickoffs, the fact that the SEC and ACC grant of rights broadcast contracts run through 2036 (ACC) and 2034 (SEC) and the Big 12′s expires in 2025, and then there is the SEC’s game of the week package going from CBS to ESPN in 2024 for a lucrative $300 million per season.  CNBC stated it as simply as it can get: follow the money.

If it seemed the Oklahoma/Texas move to the SEC was quick...well, it certainly developed that way.  The Houston Chronicle was the first to report on July 21st a rumor that both Oklahoma and Texas had reached out to the SEC about the possible move.  The article that broke the story was written by Brent Zwerneman, a Texas A&M beat writer, so it was likely a leak from the Texas A&M administration.  The next day in response to the rumor, the Big 12 called a conference call with the administrators of member schools.  Notably absent on that call - officials from Oklahoma and Texas.  On July 25th, Big 12 commish Bob Bowlsby met with Oklahoma president Joseph Harroz and Texas president Jay Hartzell.  The meeting was said to be cordial but the next day Oklahoma and Texas announce they would not be renewing their grant of rights with the Big 12, announcing by releasing a joint statement.  On July 27th, Oklahoma and Texas send SEC commish Greg Sankey a letter asking to join the conference and on July 29th the SEC membership voted 14-0 to accept Oklahoma and Texas as members by 2025.  On July 30th, Oklahoma and Texas board of regents both vote to accept their SEC invitations.

So in less than 10 days a rumor became reality, shaking the college football landscape.  The Big 12 has since considered and reached out to the Pac-12 for possible scheduling alliance or merger, Bowlsby has accused ESPN for conspiring in other conferences recruiting the remaining Big 12 members, and most recently the Pac-12, Big Ten, and ACC are in discussions about scheduling alliance.  And we’ll see if lawyers for Oklahoma and Texas can speed up the exit process, otherwise there will be some very hollow and bitter years between now and their scheduled 2025 exit of the Big 12.

I have professed the end of the Big 12 for years, since the beginning of the last round of conference realignment, to a few years ago when the Big 12 looked at possible expansion.  The Big 12′s biggest weakness is it has never been proactive.  They have always been reactionary.  They did nothing after Nebraska and Colorado left in 2011, only added teams to replace Texas A&M and Missouri when they left in 2012, and they spent so much money on a research firm to explore expansion but ended up doing nothing and not adding teams in 2016.  It was only a matter of time that anchor schools Oklahoma and Texas would leave.  And we ended up at that time a few years ahead of the end of the broadcast contracts.

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Next week, I’ll have my Power 5 conferences, Heisman, and CFP previews

[1800-seungshine]

birthday tears.

member: park woojin genre(s): fluff, romance, best friend!woojin summary: another year means another birthday to go all out and this time you were certain that you were going to make woojin cry but somehow, you find the tables have turned because after the long wait of seeing each other, you missed him. a lot more than you imagined. (requested - bullet point format) word count: 2.2k note: dedicated to life ruiner, cute snaggletooth baby park woojin ;; wheezes it’s his birthday today and so what better way to celebrate than to write!! goodness gracious i swear scintilla’s becoming woojin-centric, step aside ong someone’s taking over this damn lane jk jk. oh oh and thank you woojin anon for requesting < 33 it means so much

p.s. y’ALL IM SHOOK I DIDN’T EXPECT GETTING GOING OVER 100 NOTES FOR ‘IN LOCKED WITH YOU’ LIKE WHATDA- THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE REBLOGS, LIKES AND FOLLOWS ;;; < 33 

you’ve been best friends with woojin for a long time 

no one knows him better than you 

bc you both had each other for practically all your life

were you and woojin the definition of bff goals?? hek yeah 

you’ve always been his number one supporter 

from his decision to being an idol 

to going with him during superstarK auditions 

to encouraging him when he was a jyp trainee and even when he transferred to bnm 

to never missing an episode of produce 101 and always voting for him

all the way till he joined wanna one 

you’re always there for him and you always will be 

and vice-versa

you’ve both leaned on each other through all the hard times

laughed during the good times

and everything in between 

back then as kids and before he decided to pursue the career of being an idol, it was you who depended on him

he was always the first person you ran to 

he was the one who you cried to 

he was your go-to when you were feeling down 

he was first when it came to everything and anything 

even love 

you didn’t expect falling for park woojin - the guy you knew all your life, the one who you grew up with, the person you considered a close friend, so close that you believed he was like family 

but circumstances changed, feelings grew and your perspective broaden

to the point where you had no choice but to accept that you were falling for your best friend

yet you didn’t want to selfishly hold him back when you knew how much he wanted to pursue his dream 

so woojin was your first love 

the first love you never confided to

and the first love you had let go 

whilst you both matured as you grew up, you eventually pushed your feelings aside as the tables began to turn

bc unlike before, woojin depended on you 

you were the one he first calls 

you were the person he leaned on

you were his go-to when things got too hard and the hardships of trying to reach his dream became overwhelming 

wowowow this sounds so sad and sappy okay gonna light up the mood from now on i promise 

but forget christmas, forget new years day, forget your own birthday 

november second is your favourite day 

why?? bc that was the day the lord decided to give you the best of friend you could ever ask for 

every year you two would go super extra to celebrate one another’s birthday 

like last year on your birthday, you came home with everything decorated and there was this huge teddy bear sitting on the corner of the living room

you knew it was from woojin bc duh who else would it be from 

but what you didnt know was that he was hiding inside the teddy bear 

and honestly you wouldn’t have suspected a single thing 

if the damn stuff toy didn’t begin to move 

you legit screamed and grabbed your baseball bat in case some weird ass munted hoe bursted through 

but jokes on you it was just woojin screaming “hAPPY BIRTHDAY!!” whilst popping streamers and throwing confetti 

his goal was to surprise you 

and he did it so damn well you began crying 

not tears of joy

just tears bc wth man why would you do that? 

but dont chu worry boo his ass got kicked 

his ass was further forgiven after he took you to the amusement park and treated you food 

so with that in mind, you had the goal of making him shed a tear as revenge 

doesn’t matter what kind of tear it is as long as that tear duct come into use 

dang you were so excited to go all out 

that you prepared everything one month prior his birthday

so with the help of the wanna one boys in sneaking woojin out

woojin ends up in this dance studio that you hired for the day 

everything was dimly lit by these candles placed all over the room 

and there’s this vcr that plays the slideshow you created with all your photos together since you were babies all the way till now 

you also added photos that brought back his dark past to get him embarrassed 

anndd then a video pops up of you with a breath-taking smile on your face, excitedly holding this ‘happy birthday’ banner

“about 18 years ago on this very day, some weird kid popped out into the world. can you guess who? that’s right! it’s you.” the video begins, showing you chuckling a little

“i swear i wasn’t planning to make this sappy but i’m going to anyway; i just want to thank you for putting up with my ass all these years - never have i faced a time where you weren’t there for me and i’m really really thankful to have you by my side. i know that you’re really busy and we haven’t seen each other but you can always run to me, you can always call me and i promise that i’ll try my hardest to be there for you, every step of the way like we always have and hopefully, like we always will. happy birthday idiot and take care of yourself.” 

woojin starts feeling touched, remembering all the good times you two have 

you two weren’t the type to verbalise things and instead expressed it through actions 

yet hearing your words makes him even more grateful for all the times that you’ve been there 

because even if you weren’t feeling the greatest, you pushed it aside in order to listen to his problems and help him 

no matter what time of day it was, you always picked up his call

remembering all this reminds him that he couldn’t ask for anything more 

because you were in his life 

and you always will be 

“happy birthday to you....happy birthday to you...” 

a chorus of voices interrupt his thoughts and he spins around to see you and the rest of the wanna one members entering through the door with a cake in jisung’s hands

tears well up in his eyes as all the emotions overwhelm him 

yet once his eyes meet yours, the world freezes almost as if time was slowing down

it’s been a long while since you saw him face to face

and he realises in that very moment how much he really missed you

bc despite all his offers of hanging out, you were cautious and worried that you’d cause trouble to his skyrocketing career

and you’d decline it even if you knew it was tempting and you knew he was disappointed every time you said no

there’s a slight hint of tiredness on his face but it doesn’t change the fact that seeing you made him brighter 

meanwhile you were unable to breathe; he grew more handsome than he already was before and that snaggletoothed smile, you grew up seeing and loving, adorned on his face melted your heart once more

now that you’ve met face to face after a time that felt like eternity

you couldn’t help but to run to him 

and he welcomed you with open arms as you snaked your arms around his waist 

who cares if the wanna one members will use this later on to tease him

having you right in front of me makes him forget about everything else

and like a child, you begin to cry as you’re engulfed in his embrace

“yah, are you crying...?” woojin teasingly asks you as his hand reaches up to your head, stroking your hair gently while your bury your head in his chest 

“s-shut up, meanie. i’m not crying!” you pull away before you look at him for a few seconds before bursting into tears once again

“ahhh this idiot, you’re such a crybaby.” he replies, wiping your tears with his sleeves. “and how am i mean? i’m offended.”

“i’ve seen you go through all the hard times, i’ve seen you cry because you wanted to give up and i’ve seen you push yourself over the limit for this dream and you’re telling me off for being a crybaby?” you say between sniffles before you try your hardest to manage a glare at his way

“and yes, you’re mean - you’re so mean for making my heart melt, you’re so mean for giving me butterflies in my stomach, you’re so mean for holding my hand and hugging me all the time without knowing how i feel, you’re so mean because no matter how much i try to hide my feelings, they continue to grow and it’s all your fault, park woojin.” 

you suddenly quiet down as you realise what you’ve been rambling. “oh my god, my mouth went a bit too far.” you mutter as you harshly wipe your tears away 

there’s silence between you two yet the rest of the wanna one members begin to snicker lightly to themselves

“this isn’t funny!” you whine before trying not to cry again bc you just exposed your own whipped ass 

you avoid woojin’s gaze by hiding behind jisung who subsequently came in the middle of you two, still holding the cake 

“so woojin! do you wanna blow the candles now before it ends up completely melting? but you have to make a wish first!” 

woojin clears his throat, taking his eyes away from you “a-ah yes hyung,” he says before closing his eyes for a few seconds and opening them again to blow the candles 

the rest of the guys, to lighten the slight tension in the atmosphere begin to clap and cheer, “happy birthday woojin!!” 

but yknow it aint complete yet until someone gets teased 

hence enter ong seongwoo’s ass (i love putting seongwoo everywhere, anywhere as you can tell by now)

“sO WOOJIN, WHAT DID YA WISH FOR BUDDY? ;)” 

“yeah what did you wish for?” jisung grins cheekily at the younger guy 

woojin’s ears start to go red, looking around before his gaze naturally land on you, “i just wished for something very very important.” 

“OK YEH WHICH IS??”  WINK WINK HONK HONK 

“for y/n to always be by my side.” woojin shyly mumbles 

sungwoon then joins in on the fun with a wide grin on his face, bringing his ear close to woojin, “sorry, what? can you speak up a little louder? we couldn’t hear.” 

“yeah i’m a little deaf, hyung.” guanlin adds before a number of agreements and remarks gets thrown around the room causing noise 

woojin simply sighs before yelling, “I SAID I WISHED FOR Y/N TO ALWAYS BE BY SIDE.” 

much cringe. v cheese. im writing this and i cant even handle wowow

there’s just silence in the room before the wanna one members all grin happily at one another. 

“oH wOw lOoK aT tHe TiMe - okay kids, time to go! we’ll see you later woojin byeeee.” minhyun calls out as he exits the door with the rest following beside him, not forgetting to snicker and tease

and then there was two 

you and woojin

“so,,, what do you say?” he initiates, feeling a little nervous than usual bc good lord he’s liked you all this time since you two were little and every year he’d wish for that you’d like him back 

you simply continue looking down, still avoiding his gaze; “you’re not kidding right...?” 

“does it sound like i am?” 

“no.” 

“so....? i like you, you like me. the feelings’ mutual.” 

“but what about-”

“don’t think about the but’s nor the if’s because i don’t care about those. i’ve liked you for as long as i’ve known you and honestly, i can risk everything and anything so long as you’re here. there’s no park woojin without y/n. i’m basically nothing without you.” 

you look up as you send him a judging look, “did you just promote your upcoming comeback whilst confessing...?” 

“that totally wasn’t intentional but what do you say?” woojin says to you grinning rather happily as his arms are wide open for you. 

and having a soft spot for him, you eventually let out a sigh, “well if you put it that way...i don’t seem to have a choice, do i?” you say before going into his arms once more. 

“this has got to be my best birthday present ever.” woojin sighs in content

“don’t think i’m still not done yet from my rant- do you know how much i wanted to vote for other trainees? yah, park woojin i voted for you every single performance - i wanted to vote for jihoon but because i liked you so much and you’re my best friend, i kept being loyal but here you were teasing me and calling me a crybaby. i’m not even kidding, oh my god- the amount of suffering i went through because of you; you should be glad i like you.”

“yes yes, i’m sorry. i won’t tease you again, crybaby.” 

“it hasn’t even been a minute and you’re seriously tempting me to leave you for jihoon.” 

“ah i was just kidding, y/n. don’t break up with me for my other pink sausage duo-” 

“nOPE BYE WHERE’S THE DIVORCE PAPERS.” 

“AWE COME ON I WAS KIDDING.”

[hollowbastionsurvivor]

Episode 9 - "We made a play and swung for the fences" ~Kim

Individual Immunity: https://hollowbastionsurvivor.tumblr.com/post/631100066023768064/individual-immunity-4

Kevin creates an alliance chat with Adaora, Christina, and Amy (the heartless faithful)

Kevin, Amy, Adaora, and Christina share idol spots to hunt for the idol

Wow, I did it! I can't believe that worked. I guess ellie/kim are saving their idols?? Idk. I mean next round the heartless 3 are gonna have to do some quick moves to save ourselves from an idol play. But i believe in us! I'm so excited! that was fun! 

After hands up tribal: https://youtu.be/aYO6iSl4_78

I’m not really sure what to do. It’s 4-3 and I know if I want to be sitting at the end I have to make a move now. But I don’t really trust Dylan or Ellie and Kim never talks game with me. Is it wise to split off now? Or is it better for me to just hold on for one more round? Only time will tell...

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Results: https://hollowbastionsurvivor.tumblr.com/post/631181422736162816/results-chain-reaction

That was a really interesting challenge. Looks like it might be time for me to flip? I don’t want to be the 4th wheel in a strong 3 person alliance. The fact that they all had each other at least on the top 3 of one of their lists is not sitting right with me. I’m definitely on the bottom, and I need to flip and take control ASAP! I just have to be really careful. How I play this round could determine if I am in FTC or if I’m gone next round. I need to check in with Dylan though. Are they willing to flip and vote someone from heartless (preferably Christina) out, or are they trying to buy their way back in their good graces? Their vote is crucial and I need to secure it in order to correctly execute this plan. 

That was some tribal. I mean we made a play and swung for the fences but Kevin thought ahead and neither i or Ellie felt the need to play the idol. I feel excited to play with Dylan because they're someone who we know will play with us

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Ellie transfers her idol to Dylan

Dylan and Kim have the idols

This round i am almost absolutely using my idol. Whether or not i end up wasting it , we'll know during tribal

https://youtu.be/brlj_3hn68k

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The target seems to be firmly on Dylan after flipping on the Heartless.

Kevin - Needs to maintain his F3 with Christina and Amy

Amy/Chrstina - Need to YEET Kevin before FTC

Adaora - Needs to flip

Dylan/Ellie/Kim - Need to survive

Update: I just found out Kim was going to save me if He had just been awake. I’m so annoyed because that definitely would’ve changed EVERYTHING! I have no doubt I would’ve won this immunity. If Kim saved me in round 5, I would’ve saved Amy, Amy saves Kevin, and then Christina would’ve been knocked out. Christina most likely would’ve picked Kevin, Kevin saves Amy, and Amy saves me, which knocks out Kim in round 4. Kim would’ve picked me to stay again, I would’ve saved Amy and Kevin gets knocked out. This would leave Amy and I in final 2 and I think would’ve won as I would’ve had Ellie and Kim’s vote for sure! So all I had to do was convince either Kevin or Christina. It’s so frustrating that I lost this challenge because Kim decided to fall asleep. I’m so annoyed!

I WON IMMUNITYYYYYYY!!!!! That chain reaction challenge was interesting, though. I doubted Kevin’s loyalty to me, but I was his first choice. I’m glad I had him as mine. I still don’t think I can go to f2 with him, though. He would win because he’s liked and he’s been targeted and survived. Amy also tried to play it like she felt she had to vote Kevin. Girl. Whatever. Anyway, adaora seems a little messy recently. I think she’s in bed with what’s left of the nobody tribe. Dylan... lol. Dylan is on an island as far as I’m concerned. I think their move was idiotic and I will take pleasure in taking them out. 💜 Time’s running out on these advantages, so I need to make a move ASAP. 

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Adaora contemplates making a Big Move this round, but it is dependent on who wins immunity.

Amy expresses concern about taking Kevin to FTC

I think I know what I need to do now. I need to convince Ellie to use her idol tonight. I know I would much rather flip and work with Ellie and Kim but I just can’t quite trust Ellie completely, as there is a 99% chance she has an idol. Emma was pretty certain of it, and as all over the place as Emma was, she was right about a lot of things. So if she wholeheartedly believed that Ellie has an idol, I have no choice but to believe it. I have to get her to use it tonight so we can send Kevin home. This is going to be tricky, but I think if I drive the point home that we can’t rely on Dylan’s vote, and if I tell Ellie it’s going to be her tonight, Ellie will see that we don’t have the numbers to get Kevin out so She needs to get him out using an idol. Once she does that, I’ll officially flip and work with Ellie and Kim. At the same time, I’ll also still be good with Christina and Amy as they don’t talk to Ellie and Kim enough to know how close I am with them. I’ll be in two 3 person alliances in Final 6, making me the most powerful person in the game. Hopefully I can convince both sides to get out Dylan at Final 6, as they are the one Person I don’t have any type of deals with. If this plan fails or in the small chance that Ellie does not have an idol, I don’t see a path for me to get to that Final 3 seat AND WIN. :/ So I seriously need to get to work. This is by far going to be the most crucial vote for me and the most defining moment of this game for me. -Delusional Queen rants 

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Ellie has a wrong read and thinks they will go for Kim. If they misplay the idol, Dylan will be sent packing

Here’s what’s been going on in my host chat!! “Ellie, 7:23 AM There’s nothing in the world quite like finding two idols and ending up with zero without playing any 🤩🤩 Omen, 10:56 AM Ednndnwnwkw Omen, 10:57 AM Why did you give Dylan your idol? Ellie, 10:57 AM I was scared for them Ellie, 10:57 AM Like they flipped, soooooo of course they’re stressed and scared. Thought an idol would help them out Ellie, 10:58 AM Plus I trust that both Kim and Dylan would play an idol on me if I need it Ellie, 10:58 AM And if not, then 7th is a fun placement sjfjdjrjsjrj Omen, 10:58 AM Wig Ellie, 10:58 AM Also I’m convincing the heartless that Dylan isn’t actually with us Ellie, 10:59 AM And it was just a in the moment thing Ellie, 10:59 AM So that Dylan might be able to get back in with them Omen, 10:59 AM Why would you need to do that? Ellie, 10:59 AM I mean, it’s either Kim, Dylan, or I. Most likely Kim or myself and with both idols we have a 66% chance of playing them correctly Ellie, 11:00 AM But that’s not as high as I’d like it Ellie, 11:00 AM Plus I’d like to save one if at all possible Ellie, 11:00 AM Now it’s highly likely they’ll lie to Dylan and give them a fake name Ellie, 11:00 AM So it might end up coming down to chance Ellie, 11:01 AM But if they were to choose a target between Dylan, Kim, and I? They think I have an idol and know if I did I would play it, probably still want the nobodies gone, and would end up going for Kim Ellie, 11:02 AM But it’s no guarantee, just a guess Ellie, 11:02 AM I’m hoping to get last in the challenge, or at least Dylan or Kim get last too Omen, 11:03 AM Wig Ellie, 11:03 AM I need whatever reward there is Ellie, 11:03 AM I think I’ve 1 uped how stupid I was in kalymnos Ellie, 11:03 AM Lowkey impressive Ellie, 11:05 AM Sorry for going off on a tangent I’m just nervous and excited Ellie, 11:05 AM I’ll figure out if I made the right choice depending on if I get 7th place or not Ellie, 11:06 AM Plus I can always bluff and be like, I do have an idol if I need to Ellie, 11:06 AM They already think I have one soooo” That’s all!! And currently where we’re at is me planning to hopefully work with adaora, Kim, and Dylan to get Kevin out! And if not, Dylan will have to play their idol and we vote Kevin.

I am really nervous for this tribal . On one hand i have an idol that i can play for myself. But what if i don't need to use it and i end up wasting it and needing it next round ? 

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Kevin talks to Amy and Adaora. He tries to convince them to go for Ellie. Their plan is to tell Ellie that they are going for Dylan so that Ellie will play an idol on Dylan. This might instead just make Ellie ask for an idol to be played on her.

You so I didn't realize the challenge would be like that and just have me choose kevin so I went to heartless three and said we really need to butter up Adaora. Kevin and I jumped in a video call with her for like 30 minutes and I think she is solid. We also all 4 started sharing hunts we've tried so we know what's not working. Bow I have -10% for next immunity lol. Anyway I think we solidified it. Kevin basically said firemaking / rocks at 4 so I think Adaora is good with that to stay with us. And here I am seeing if I need to change it to be me, Adaora, and christina at the end. I have a feeling christina is going to win this. I think she's been talking to people more. Anyway I think we are solid. We are voting ellie but if they ask we are voting dylan bc we are mad. I just hope no one pulls an idol or extra vote. We are kind of banking on the nobodies to vote dylan, but really, why would they when they can use dylan to tie us up? I don't know why kevin decided to not talk to dylan... At all .. I want to tell tell we are voting kim.

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Adaora still doesn’t trust them after this call. However, her only barrier is trusting Ellie enough to go through with it. If that bridge gets mended, we might see a shake up this round.

Ellie doesn’t know if she can trust Adaora, but the idol needs to be played correctly or else Ellie will be going home.

Ellie believes that Kevin is telling her the truth about going after Dylan. Ellie has told Kim and Dylan this. The idol is likely to be misplayed tonight, unless Adaora reveals Kevin’s plan to Ellie

This just in, I'm bad at math. We are up 4-3. Praying for no steal a vote. Still a possibility this is BAD. For me.

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Adaora creates Hot Mess Express (Herself, Dylan, Kim, Ellie)

Adaora commits to flipping

Dylan plans to use the idol on themselves

Dylan doubts using the idol. Discusses with Ellie. They end up deciding not to use the idol and put their faith in Adaora.

I truly want to believe I'm safe tonight and that Adaora and Dylan are voting with us . It would be perfect.

Adaora tells Ellie that she is getting votes tonight at tribal council. This makes Ellie trust Adaora enough to not have the idols used tonight, despite Kim and Dylan wanting to. This demonstrates Ellie’s firm hold on Kim’s and Dylan’s decisions.

Tribal Council: https://hollowbastionsurvivor.tumblr.com/post/631273955535273984/tribal-council-7-seekers-tribe

Kevin is voted out

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Edgic:

Closer Views for Episodes 6-9:

[libertaridan]

Do We Live In A Democracy? Should We?

In my view many people today largely believe three false things about democracy:

That they know what it is;

That they should want to live in one as currently experienced;

That they do live in one.

We shouldn’t settle to live in a democracy as we currently experience it. It’s not a real democracy and emphasises all the negatives while diminishing many of the positives that ought to come out of living  in a democracy. It would be better, instead, to live in a Republic, but I’ll come on to that. Some people might say I’m splitting hairs and I’m happy to accept that, but I do think it matters.

Around 400 BC Plato rejected the Athenian manifestation of democracy because he believed it to be anarchic, lacking in unity, deferring to the impulses and whims of citizens, and run by fools. On virtually all of those points, if he said them today, he would be right.

According to Plato democracy mistakes anarchy (his use of the word) for freedom, and must degenerate into tyranny or mob rule (which I would argue is just another kind of tyranny).

In context – Plato was a statist, preferring rule by ‘philosopher kings’, a rare or mythical few who are wise but unwilling or lacking the ambition to rule over others. It is against this locus of power that he compares democracy and so we can understand why Plato called democracy anarchic – lacking a central plan and purpose and leader to ‘get the job done’. Perhaps if such wise and benevolent people Plato believed in could always be found, he might be on to something, unfortunately world history from ancient to modern times shows that such people are rare, and rarer still in positions of power. Instead the ‘man who can’ ends up being incompetent or a dictator. In most cases give someone a little power, as they suppose, and they immediately begin to exercise it badly to the harm of others.

It seems we can choose the tyranny of an all-powerful single ruler in a king or dictator, or the tyranny of mob rule in a modern unchecked democracy.

To highlight the inherent flaws in an un-checked democracy James Madison, one of the Founding Fathers of the USA, said this:

“…there is nothing [in democracy] to check the inducements to sacrifice the weaker party or an obnoxious individual. Hence it is that such democracies have ever been spectacles of turbulence and contention; have ever been found incompatible with personal security or the rights of property; and have in general been as short in their lives as they have been violent in their deaths.” (James Madison, Federalist Papers Nos. 10 and 51)

According to him, if you want protection for weaker people, or people who think or believe differently, or who are outspoken, and if you want personal security, or to defend your property rights, you won’t get any of that certain in a democracy.

And he’s right, isn’t he? The form of democracy we live in hasn’t protected your property rights, has at various times and in various ways punished or coerced those who believe differently, or wish to live differently, to the great mass of people.

Here’s the thing, unchecked democracy allows people, you, me, our neighbours, our work colleagues, ordinary people, to use state power to do things to us that they couldn’t otherwise do. Things they wouldn’t dream of doing on an individual basis. None of your neighbours would dream of stealing money from your wallet every night to pay for their gym membership. But more than you realise think its OK to vote for higher taxes so you can fund the local leisure centre which you don’t use but they do.

Do you see what I mean?

Through democracy what is to stop your neighbours from voting higher taxes that rob you of your earnings? Or passing laws to tax the size of your garden until you have to sell up because you can’t afford to keep your own property? Or to ban things you like? Or coerce you to do things you don’t like? Where are the limits on this tyranny of mob rule?

There are none. And here is why.

Because the only limit on democratic mob rule comes through a limit on State power.

Why?

Because the result of democratic activity is enacted by state power. Limit the state, and you limit democratic mob rule or “collective force”. Instead of mob rule we might use the term “collective force”, it’s the same thing.

It is precisely for this reason that the Founding Fathers of the USA sought to address the criticism of James Madison, that “…such democracies have ever been spectacles of turbulence and contention; have ever been found incompatible with personal security or the rights of property…”, by combining democracy with a republic (which is a State in which supreme power is held by the people, and flows up from the people to their elected representatives and elected President – rather than a monarch).

Within the republic framework, the Founding Fathers placed limits on State power within a written constitution. And this is important. Because where a government is limited, so is the opportunity for democracy to become tyrannical mob rule or of “collective force” likewise limited.

And we do want to limit that. Because without any limits democracy is two wolves and a sheep voting on what to have for dinner. James Madison made that point very clear.

So, to use the two wolves and a sheep analogy, a government limited by a written constitution would not, for instance, have the power to kill the sheep to feed the wolves. It wouldn’t matter if it was two wolves voting against one sheep, or two hundred thousand wolves voting against one sheep, the government wouldn’t be allowed to do it, and so such a vote would be invalid, and have no effect.

And that’s really important for democracy, that’s how minorities, the weak, the outspoken, the ‘different’, you, your family, your freedom and your property are protected. Through a constitution that limits government, and which says government can’t hurt these people no matter how many people vote for it.

Bastiat, the French political philosopher, said the legitimate role government should be limited to as one that defends each person (their life), their liberty, and their property. The Law should be nothing more, and nothing less, than this. To him there is no place for “collective force” other than in defence of these three rights.

Such a government is indeed the aim of libertarians worldwide.

That’s what we want, right? We want to be protected. We don’t want to have to worry each election that this time we’re going to be the sheep being fed to the majority wolves. Right?

We don’t have such a limited government here.

According to Bastiat, in his essay “The Law”, governments as he experienced them, and it’s no less true for us today, governments have perverted the law. Bastiat says:

“…unfortunately, law by no means confines itself to its proper functions. …it has acted in direct opposition to its own purpose. …to limiting and destroying rights which its real purpose was to respect. The law has placed the collective force at the disposal of the unscrupulous who wish, without risk, to exploit the person, liberty, and property of others. It has converted plunder into a right, in order to protect plunder. And it has converted lawful defense into a crime, in order to punish lawful defense.” (Bastiat, The Law)

And we will recognise the behaviour of our neighbours, and even ourselves, at the ballot box when we read some of his further explanations.

“…Man can live and satisfy his wants only by ceaseless labor; by the ceaseless application of his faculties to natural resources. This process is the origin of property.

“But it is also true that a man may live and satisfy his wants by seizing and consuming the products of the labor of others. This process is the origin of plunder.”

“…when plunder is organized by law for the profit of those who make the law, all the plundered classes try somehow to enter — by peaceful or revolutionary means — into the making of laws. According to their degree of enlightenment, these plundered classes may propose one of two entirely different purposes when they attempt to attain political power: Either they may wish to stop lawful plunder, or they may wish to share in it.” (Ibid.)

This is what happens when government perverts law away from defence of life, liberty and property.

Ezra Taft Benson, former secretary for Agriculture under Eisenhower, had this to say about legalized plunder:

“Once government steps over this clear line between the protective or negative role into the aggressive role of redistributing the wealth through taxation and providing so-called “benefits” for some of its citizens, it becomes a means for legalized plunder. It becomes a lever of unlimited power that is the sought-after prize of unscrupulous individuals and pressure groups, each seeking to control the machine to fatten his own pockets or to benefit his favorite charity, all with the other fellow’s money, of course. … With each group out to get its share of the spoils, such governments historically have mushroomed into total welfare states. Once the process begins, once the principle of the protective function of government gives way to the aggressive or redistributive function, then forces are set in motion that drive the nation toward totalitarianism.” (Benson, Former Secretary for Agriculture under Eisenhower)

The answer, says Bastiat, is to restrict the law… or, in our words – limited government.

Well, we want it, but we don’t have it.

Because in the UK, there are no such limits on government. There is no written constitution stating what those limits are. The limits are legislation which can be changed at any time. We’re living in such a time now, the Coronavirus Act, as it’s known, imposes some of the most tyrannical restrictions we’ve ever encountered – and you and I weren’t asked for our consent. Let that sink in. The right to assembly, freedom of association, freedom of religion, even the ability to work was stripped away just like that! We can argue about whether it was justified – but my point is that it happened without any reference to your views on the matter. This is unlimited government in action. (We found ourselves in the EU in the same kind of way, with no reference to us – bear that in mind too.)

In the USA, at least in principle they are a republic, and any and all powers not specifically granted to the Federal government a retained in the individual states, and then it’s down to the constitutions of each state after that. Texas is an example of a republic in the republic. But in the UK, we’re not a republic of any kind. The courts recently ruled, among all the fighting over Brexit, that Parliament is sovereign – not you, and not me. In my view that is something that needs to change.

But even in the parliament is sovereign ruling we’re neither a republic nor what I would call a democracy.

Think about what happens in elections? You vote, for a person. Then they do whatever they do until the next election. How much voice do you actually have? You only get a referendum when Parliament decides to give you one. The whole Brexit campaign, that’s still going on by the way, showed exactly how little democracy we actually have on one hand. But then the spending promises in an effort to buy your votes with your money and your neighbour’s money show how much we do have on the other hand. We have just enough democracy for those in power to legitimise and maintain their power – not much more, and probably less.

I put to you another definition of democracy, one which we don’t enjoy now, but which I prefer. It’s much closer to pure republicanism, and it’s certainly libertarian…

How about we let each individual in the country make their own choices for themselves? Millions of little votes each day, manifested by the actions they take, in the direction they prefer. What, for instance, is more democratic than the free market – instead of cronyism and subsidy, each business transaction is a real-time vote in favour of a product or service, those who serve their customers best – they succeed, those who don’t – they fail. There is no coercion in this, no state or government picking winners and losers, there is just millions of individuals voting by choosing to do business or not. That to me is the ultimate democracy. Each represents themselves, making choices they believe will help them meet their individual objectives in life.

We can have this. We can even have it here in the UK.

To achieve it we need to elect MPs who believe in this and are willing to start undoing things that have been done in the past. We need to shrink the size and reach and power of the state. Then, with all the state meddling gone, with all the trappings of former democratic decisions that represent people imposing their views on their neighbours in things that were none of their business, gone! Then we can have this.

To get it we need more people to understand the true nature of democracy, how in its really vital form it naturally exists when people are free in all of their free choices as sovereign individuals while protected in their life, liberty and property.

The unlimited government we currently experience robs people of these freedoms, ultimately limiting naturally occurring democracy to whatever Parliament permits while it overreaches and perverts the true purpose of law away from the defence of life, liberty, and property to maintaining and growing its own power.

On that basis, back to the question. No. We don’t live in a democracy. We must not be fooled by the fact we get to vote every so often. This is all theatre. What we currently experience as democracy is the activated perversion of the law, in which the power of the state increases as electors fight between themselves via the ballot box, who will be the next victim of the next perversion of the law.

I choose individual sovereignty and individual freedom – that is where real democracy is manifest, and nowhere else. Until we have that, we don’t live in a democracy.

[nemossubmarine]

I finally got around to cleaning the calendar which I’ve used to keep track of our RP since like 10th campaign. It is pretty much as accurate I can get it, so I consider it canon-ish (also bc no one as far as I know, has contested me with their own one :P), but I might tweak it every now and then. I’m putting this out here now, mainly for the ease of accessibility for me and our other GMs, since it seems we have started to run into more questions of “when did this happen?” -kind as of late. I’ll try to update this at least once a campaign.

Last updated: 30/42019 (latest session #100)

A long list of things that have happened at a certain date under the cut.

9:22

Somewhere in Bloomingtide: 

Jelaina and Randy start traveling together.

Boshara flees Kinloch Hold.

Somewhere in Justinian: 

Boshara joins Jelaina and Randy.

14.7. 

Clan Teravest arrives in Vintiver.

15.7.

Harralan Teravest is possessed by a rage demon.

16.7.

The party arrives in Vintiver and meets Cahair Teravest.

18.7.

Harralan Teravest is killed.

29.7.

The party arrives in Denerim.

30.7.

The party meets Kuisma.

2.8.

Dwarf-lord Trugva is killed by an Antivan Crow.

5.8.

Boshara is captured by templars.

14.8.

Boshara and Elspet are rescued from templars.

16.8.

The party visits Fade and meets Mareud the demon.

23.8.

The party meets Humbert Pomdeter in the old, haunted Garriot mansion.

Elspet bonds with Jonathon the spirit.

1.9.

The party arrives in Amaranthine.

3.9.

A massive human trafficking operation is busted in Amaranthine.

5.-6.9.

The party breaks into Vigil’s Keep.

6.9.

Boshara and Kustaa get together.

10.9.

The party is dropped into the Deep Roads.

14.9.

The party meets and kills a Broodmother

16.10.

Ruusu is born.

17.10.

An investigation into Arl Howe’s involvement in Amaranthine’s human trafficking begins.

29.10.

Mandulfr Ashtrak is appointed paragon in Orzammar.

2.11.

First victims of Nightmare die in Kirkwall.

8.11.

Sen Sein dies as a victim of Nightmare.

16.11.

The party arrives in Kirkwall and meets Alf Sein.

17.11.

Nightmare is defeated.

24.11.

Brett Harimann is possessed by a lust demon.

12.12.

Arl Howe goes into voluntary exile to Free Marches.

9:23

26.3.

The party joins the ship crew of the “Foul Magpie”

28.3.

Ship surgeon Nikita dies in the Fade.

Richard is cured of his semi-tranquility.

29.3.

Mutiny on the ship: Harmaakarhu and 5 other sailors are killed.

4.4.

“Foul Magpie” arrives to Estwatch.

6.4.

The ship crew takes on viddasala and her qunari troops and wins.

Alf is made captain of the ship.

Ship is renamed “Ripeä Ropso”.

8.4.

Ship bards Barius and Davos get married.

Richard and Cahair get together.

16.4.

The ship arrives to Antiva City.

Randy leaves for Orzammar.

17.4.

The party finds Sen’s will; Alf now owns the ship.

18.4.

The party finds Konstantine Holzer in the sewers. He joins the ship’s crew.

21.4.

Humbert is reunited with his sister Evenine.

25.4.

Paragon Mandulfr is murdered presumably by carta.

28.4.

Randulfr Mandulfr and Marjaleena Cenas get married.

17.5.

The ship reaches Vesuna, Tevinter.

18.5.

Brett Harimann is killed.

21.5.

Magister Mareud is killed.

29.5.

Carta leader Hedda Karol joins the Legion of the Dead.

17.7.

There’s an attempt at nobleman Harrowmont’s life in Orzammar, carta is suspected.

19.7.

King Aeducan appoints General Saelac as regent in Orzammar.

24.8.

The ship reaches Highever, Ferelden.

2.9.

The party arrives to Steppewolf Keep.

5.9.

The party has an encounter with an ice dragon.

Goddess Rilla is freed.

Kaino is cured of tranquility.

14.9.

The party is attacked by carta; Randy is severely wounded.

Boshara is let into Orzammar.

15.9.

Rest of the party is let into Orzammar.

Boshara attempts a blood magic ritual to cure Harrowmont of Blight. It fails and Harrowmont perishes. 

16.9.

Alf becomes the Master of the Special Fun Round of the Provings.

The party is captured by carta.

Boshara attempts a blood magic ritual to cure Hedda Karol of Blight. It is successful.

18.9.

The party is released from the carta and makes their way back to Orzammar.

19.9.

Boshara attempts a blood magic ritual to cure Cahair of Blight. It is successful, though he loses an eye in the process.

20.9.

Boshara attempts a blood magic ritual to cure Elspet of Blight. It is successful.

22.9.

General Saelac proposes to Boshara.

General Saelac is assassinated by Alf Sein.

6.10.

The party leaves Orzammar.

16.10.

King Aeducan is assassinated in Denerim by Elspet.

18.10.

Cahair, Richard and few other members of the ship crew are dropped off south of Denerim. They’ll visit clan Teravest and Vintiver.

22.10.

Elspet attempts to cure Carmen of the effects of Qamek. it doesn’t work.

25.10.

The ship arrives in Kirkwall.

26.10.

Alf and Boshara hire Arkaitz to locate their mothers.

Randulfr hires Usva-Kilna to teach him to be a boatswain.

The party meets Xenon the Antiquarian, and take up a job he offers.

5.11.

The party disembarks towards Teufelbäder.

12.11.

The party arrive in the town of Meünzebern, near Teufelbäder.

13.11.

The party is transported back in time, shenanigans ensue.

19.11.

The party returns to ship.

26.11. 

The party arrives in Kirkwall.

They return the time-travel necklace to Xenon.

27.11.

The party meets with Arkaitz who shares information on Boshara’s mother.

2.12.

Cahair, Richard & co return to ship.

7.12.

Gilweed picking adventures.

13.12.

Battle with the “Spotted Ladybug”.

16.12.

Estwatch adventures: Ianto and Carmen are cured.

Carmen and Kaino leave the ship to live in Estwatch.

25.12.

Alf learns that his mother is to assassinate Edmund Pentaghast at Empress Celene’s birthday party.

29.12.

Randulfr leaves to Orzammar with Dagrun, Rina, Jasinto, Jasinta, Pitkä-Breck, Carla, Jelaina, Darian, Cahair and Richard.

9:24

2.1.

Randulfr & co reach Orzammar.

5.1.

Alf, Humbert, Boshara and Elspet leave ship near Val Royeaux.

6.1.

Alf sneaks into the Val Royeaux alienage.

Elspet meets Isabella Laroi at Val Royeaux market.

9.1.

Rina, Dagrun and Breck are made members of house Mandulfr.

10.1.

Humbert and Boshara reach the house of Humbert’s sister Hannah. Boshara is taken into the house as Humbert’s illegitimate daughter Rosamunda.

14.1.

Randulfr dines with the current regent of Orzammar Decan Stonefist. They hatch a plan to go into the Empress’ birthday party.

17.1.

Humbert leaves to go back to Val Royeaux.

22.1.

Alf is hired as a servant for the Empress.

Humbert is hired as a guard for the Empress.

1.2.

Alf is transported to Halamshiral alongside other servants to prepare the palace for spring.

1.3.

Humbert is transported to Halamshiral with other guards in preparation of the party.

8.3.

Randulfr and co leave Orzammar to head for the party. Cahair and Richard take Rina and head back to ship.

11.3.

The Empress’ birthday party.

15.3.

King Maric visits Ripeä Ropso.

Nathaniel Howe joins the crew of Ripeä Ropso.

17.3.

The party arrives in Val Royeaux to rescue Kanuuna and Kuolematon Charles. They meet Marvin Mousse and co in a tavern.

18.3. 

The party starts following the templars.

20.3.

The party rescues Kanuuna, Kuolematon Charles and Egaeaeaeae.

20.3. - 27.3.

Hiding in the woods of Orlais.

11.4.

Kuolematon Charles leaves the ship at Estwatch.

17.5.

Konstantine has a near-death experience. He pleads the party to find an old friend, mage named Timo, who has a book that might help.

22.5.

The party finds out Timo’s current traveling destination to be the the destroyed town of Besagnon in Southern Orlais.

23.5.

The party leaves ship in Northern Orlais and start heading towards Besagnon.

28.5

The party meets Timo outside Besagnon. They also meet a Chantry search party led by Brother Genitivi in Besagnon.

29.5.

The party finds the books Timo was looking for, and also a magical skeleton cat by the name of Tau.

Timo agrees to join the ship as a librarian.

13.6.

In the forest near Kolkonkylä, an elf girl Miina meets the spirit of the forest and dubs them Prinssi.

24.6.

The party + Nesta Silvethari leave the ship in Gwaren. Cahair will take Nesta home, while the rest of the party will travel to Takatalvenvara to get Aarli trained.

27.6.

Boshara and Nesta stay behind in a town to spend some moments together while the rest go ahead.

The party, at the recommendation of an elven woman, decide to stay the night at a manor. They get kidnapped and transformed into dolls.

28.6.

The party gets their bodies back.

Cahair’s blight returns.

The party takes Kempers the bard as prisoner.

1.7.

Cahair leaves the party with Nesta Silvethari and Renata, planning to take them home.

3.7.

Miina’s magic manifests

4.7.

The party reaches Takatalvenvara

The citizens of Kolkonkylä and Sture & Harto Gran are turned into werewolves. 

Viljo is killed by Prinssi, because he attempts to kill Miina.

5.7.

The party goes on a search to find the missing people of Takatalvenvara. They discover that there’s something wrong in the forest.

Boshara accidentally explodes a quicksilver vein with her magic.

The party is rescued by Morrigan and Flemeth.

6.7.

The party returns to the forest and find Miina, Prinssi and the surviving werewolves. Miina is healed and Prinssi perishes. The werewolves turn back into villagers.

9.-11.7.

Sture Gran trains Aarli Hauveli.

17.7.

The party returns to ship and start towards Tevinter.

28.8.

The crew reaches Lecentum, Tevinter. 

The party joins the Festival of Hunt.

29.8.

The party comes first place in the Festival of Hunt and receive a ship as a price.

1.9.

Richard asks Cahair’s hand in marriage.

2.9.

Hopeful captain candidates hold a competition, Randy is the winner.

Randy is voted as the captain of the ship.

Cahair asks Elspet to be his first mate in the wedding.

3.9.

Randy appoints Boshara as his first mate.

1.10.

Elspet holds a Ye Olde Stag Night for Cahair.

6.10.

The crew reaches Ferelden and start wedding preparations.

7.10.

Richard and Cahair’s wedding.

30.10.

A huge angler fish attacks the ship. Randy keeps a red crystal at the end of its dangler as a memento.

Also fun additional stuff! Known birthdays: 

Randy  - Between 12th month 8:97 and 3rd month 8:98 - Currently 26

Alf - 5th month 8:96 - Currently 28

Boshara - Somewhere in summer 9:03 (5th, 6th or 7th month) - Currently 20/21

Elspet - 9:01 or 9:02 - Currently 21-23

Humbert - 2nd month 8:76 - Currently 48

Jelaina - 8:96 - Currently 27-28

Konstantine - 2.7. 8:73 - Currently 51

Cahair - 17.12. 8:99 - Currently 25

[survivor-kuwait]

Episode 12 - “MADISON IS THE CANCER THAT NEEDS TO BE CUT OUT” - Ian

I had a 3 hour long call with Corey to debrief me on all the alliances he has been apart of getting made, the "Mighty Kids" meal or whatever they are calling themselves and the "Gayish" alliance, Corey, Madison, Kait, Thomas and Devon then Trace, Matt Corey and Madison respectively.  I love the information share. Corey is really buying what Madison is selling and that is quite obvious to me, that's a battle for another day, the first battle is getting Matt out to open the game up.  Corey told me that Madison really want's Timmy out next round but we discussed that it would not be ideal given the circumstances of numbers/alliances and our true game desires.  We need people that will vote against Matt, Again thank you Matt for working with me even though you're not for saying Corey is a threat. Check your game buddy.  The current plan is to take out Trace next round, bleed Matt, then take out Matt the next round. Ideally we make both these moves happen without burning any of our advantages but if we have to we will.  Trace burned me for Matt, he has to go. 

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What I need to do is get all the "untouchables" working together, Maynor, Timmy, Cullan, and Chips. The people that aren't in those alliances that Corey told me about. The problem is how to go about it organically without blow back on Corey for me knowing that this group of people are who others have written off as a boot list.

Stephen going was sad but he was totally rude to Chips. Like idk. But it looks like im good standing right now. Theres an alliance with me Kait Matt Timmy and Owen. Which is great and Ian wants to work with me as well. Corey wants to watch each others backs. I feel like i can make it far just need to be really smart. Timmy and I working together is so great since our other 2 games we killed each other. This challenge is going alright. Its not that bad. Ive beat level one.

MADISON IS THE CANCER THAT NEEDS TO BE CUT OUT, ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN THIS TRIBE GOES THROUGH HER. EVERYONE BOUGHT WHAT SHE WAS SELLING. I'm about to fully embrace that every vote Madison gets this season is going to be mine, the Topaz idol is switched back to be wanting to be used on her instead of Matt

Cullan killed that flash game. Props to him. I on the other had sucked but i finished one though. This tribal has been very quiet. Owen mentioned that the names were Thomas and Chips. Like Thomas likes me so i know it sucks but i would rather have Chips go. Gunna play it by ear tho.

My name is being thrown out because I have been inactive. Well sorry for having a job, going to school, and having a social life, I wish I could be just like them looollll

Supposedly the alliance of 6 is doing Trace, them plus me is 7 and it's a done deal. I'm a bit nervous long term about doing this move because it's really counting on Corey to pull through with the Bull and the Lion long term and will be on board to eat the Mighty Kids meal fuck all alliance after we get Matt out. Seriously if we can pull off the two player swing of voting off Trace and Matt, the people I've coined as the untouchables/undesirables could nab some power in the game. Again that heavily requires Corey to be ready to fly by the seat of his chair and eat the six. If he's not, then I'm sure Devon will be itching to do a move by then. Devon, my KS guy, don't fail me when I'll need you the most.

I have a lot of feelings and it's been a while since I confessed I feel. So Stephen voted Thomas because I told him to so I feel happy about that because he wanted to vote Owen or Matt and I said he wouldn't be able to get motion with those so do Thomas. Moving into today's vote. I wish Cullan didn't win immunity because I would love to vote him out...we don't click so he can go. I had heard Chips and Thomas which works for me bc I'm not working with them but now apparently Trace is throwing out Owen's name and I'm like wtf because I asked Trace what he has heard and he made no mention of this so I guess we're not close like I thought we were. Either way I'm sticking with my alliance on this one because they are the people I truly trust so let's make some waves.

It looks like the move now is to do Trace. Timmy and I are conflicted because we really like Trace but he could be a liability for us because he throws a name for some people and a different name to others. And people in our I miss Borders booksellers want to do Trace right now. Hopefully it works out for Timmy and I. 

Everything went well last round, 12-1-1 which was almost expected EXCEPT I got a vote!!! Honestly I’m not completely convinced it was Trace.... idk. It seems bold of him to do. I figure either he did it in case Stephen had an idol, OR someone else did it to pin on trace or something. Either way I don’t care, I really turned that vote into a good thing because it gave me an excuse to talk to others about targeting trace hehe :) bye bye! No more hot guys on my island! Ew that was gross of me this Island is actually kait’s hehe. Ummm I rlly love her so much we bitched about everyone last night. It’s hard that her and I have all these allies that in the long run will go after each other but for now we are making t work. Hopefully trace goes tonight and then next round I’ll rllt have to deal with corey targeting matt. Speaking of, I do really love corey and I came into this with every intention of working with him as my number one, but it’s hard when he made other allies oremerge . He’s protecting Cullan and Ian? Neither of which I need in this game. And Kait just has been honest with me about stuff I feel Idk. I feel like her and I are more on the save wavelength than corey and I . But as long as I can keep them both here the better. I did tell Kait some stuff corey said not to tell her lmao including Cullan being after her.... oop idk. As wary as I am about my connection with matt, I did tell him about the idol and I did trust him with this trace vote. I think it’s going well with him but I rlly don’t want to go to the end with him and Kait kinda does eeeej. Madison I love but she tried to get Timmy out this round hehe rightfully so. Timmy has been SO GOOD TO ME!!!! I love him. And of course Maynor is still a bae too omg. I’m liking the people in this game more and more and I know it’ll get stressful but for now things might be looking up. It really looks like I’m getting exactly what is best for me two rounds in a row.... Can’t wait for something to go wrong!!!

This vote is the most nerve racking one yet. I essentially have to give up on my toeing the line and finally choose a side, and naturally I am choosing to side with my Survivor Wife Kait whomst I love. I like Trace a lot and the Queer Eye alliance with him Corey and Madison is cute, but like it’s time to frickin play and get rid of the threats in this game instead of letting life pass my by. That being said it’s quite insane that I must keep saving Thomas’s inactive ass! Kait is really adamant on keeping him but it’s frustrating sticking your neck out for someone who won’t so much as have a conversation to save themselves. I’m hoping to move forward with the Trio of Kait and Owen and myself, who currently have three advantages which is making me cackle! Let’s hope this vote rocks the boat in my favor or else I can see myself getting absolutely shafted once everyone compares notes and realizes I’m playing both sides.

Hi yes I choose violence. Sorry Trace. You have to go in order for me to get Matt out. I feel bad bc I genuinely did want to go far with him but it seems his alliances turned sour for my game! It should be 9-4 tonight, if everything goes to plan. Catch you on the flip side!

Today has been a pretty straight forward day. Now that I don’t have immunity I am a little nervous about the vote, but I am confident in the relationships that I have developed. I have been pushing Thomas since the beginning of the day. I think chips trusts me, and I don’t want to send him home quite yet. Everyone seems to be on the same page, so it looks like my work paid off. Let’s fucking move on tho and have another challenge I can actually win!

So this is pivotal for me. I really want Thomas out of this game. I don’t teust him and I do not feel like the game can progress worhba u comfort with him in it. Converse to that though my alliance would like to vote trace. However I have been informed that trace has made an alliance group with Matt Madison and Corey. Which obviously am not a fan of. So tonight is a tough choice. 

Assuming I do not get voted out tonight I will formally sit down and write what is going on in the game. I just have been busy this weekend so I apologize. The game picked up and stuff just as my school year was ending. As of this moment what I know is that the vote is between me and Thomas with the players leaning to Thomas. I was told Thomas was the dummy vote by Kait and Matt who want to work with me and not make an "easy" vote this round just because and want to vote Trace. I'm for it even though I've only gotten positive vibes from Trace simply because it would appear to make my time in the game longer. If I'm the possible vote this round via debate that means I AM the vote next time. Well I guess we will see.

okay so allegedly trace is leaving tonight, a move i'm quite happy with. trace mentioned owen's name last round and we all think that he's the one that threw the vote on owen last tribal. oh! and he mentioned tommy's name too so i have to protect my fellow scorpio fam. i got mad at corey today bc of all this shit that he's telling owen like cullan wanting me out but him talking him out of it apparently, and not telling me. it's just all this shit that;s building this massive amount of distrust for him. but for tonight we just have to bank on him i guess. i don't like it, but i'm not certain where to start with taking down his empire. our group with maynor, matt, and timmy is a good place to start. i'm beginning to think that's the truest shit i've got going for me. i don't know of anyone timmy is super close to other than like us, so i'm thinking we're his closest, or at least that's what he told me. IDK. i'm trying to think straight with tribal coming up but im just so damn nervous. i'm worried that someone told cullan who told trace, or someone told trace straight up and they've been plotting to get me or owen. i'd HOPE with how woven into people we are that we'd find out about it, but that's just a hope. manifesting that we will be okay and that cullan will leave next!

Ep 12 BYE BYE GEMINI! jk I feel kinda bad, and I honestly really wanted Timmy gone, but it is what it is. Another vote that’s not me is a win at this point. 

[alanncs]

hello all ! my name’s dani , i’m one of the main admins & i can’t tell u how excited i am to have wealthy up n running again ! i can’t wait to plot with all you beautiful peoples , pls like this & i’ll slide in the dms , otherwise u can also hit me up on discord 𝟞𝖌𝖔𝖉♡#1958  !! i’m gonna put all you need  2 know about alanna below aaand i hope y’all like her ! <3

new york’s very own alanna deniro was spotted on broadway street in gucci bee sneakers . your resemblance to hailey baldwin is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your twenty first birthday bash . while living in nyc ,  you’ve been labeled as being reticent , but also gracious . i guess being a scorpio explains that . 3 things that would paint a better picture of you would be anything pink , the lingering smell of weed , and a cigarette between her fingers . &  ( cisfemale & she/her  )  +  ( dani , 20 , she/her , est . )

☇   ❪    ˚･ﾟ ❛  backstory !! tw: kidnapping , ransom , drugs

alanna was born heir to the deniro family , which came with the billion dollar dynasty that her father created - hotels , stores , brands , cars , etc . anything u  could think of really

she grew up accustomed to the spotlight, having no choice when it came to that considering her family had been in it for decades

she had everything handed to her on a silver platter and her parents expected nothing but success from her because of how wealthy they were, they knew they would never have to worry about providing for her and her siblings , and so they spoiled her with whatever she asked for and more

but that came with a price, she was expected to do everything they wanted of her, go to an ivy league college, follow in one of her parent’s career footsteps

alanna did just that, she got amazing grades in high school and was head of many student clubs, organized prom, got almost perfect on sat’s and exams, and busted her ass to get into a good college despite the fact that her parents could’ve easily gotten her a spot if she didn’t do as well as she did

her life was going so well, she had the perfect boyfriend, perfect group of friends, was on her way to brown university in a couple of months, her parents and her couldn’t have been in a better spot with their daughter

the last thing they expected was for someone, a stranger, to get their hands on their daughter . a week after her 18th birthday , she’s walking to school on a monday morning and before she knows what’s happening , there’s something over her head and she’s being dragged into a van and taken from her life

the one thing that was expected, was the $10 million ransom she was held for

they kept her for 48 hours before her parents were able to work with the authorities to get her returned and pay the people in full

once alanna was returned, she wasn’t the same

she told the police what happened to her , but only barely . she didn’t tell her parents or anyone else about what they did to her when she was gone . 

she didn’t speak , eat or sleep for two weeks after she got home

she spent the last few months of her high school in bed, she didn’t attend her graduation, deferred from going to brown in the fall, she didn’t see her friends anymore and she broke up with her boyfriend

the people who took her were caught about 8 months later on another charge and that was the first time she felt safe since . it took her months to be able to get back to doing normal things again and being who she was before

to this day ,  alanna still struggles with the memories and the ptsd from what happened to her , but she doesn’t speak to anyone about it and she refuses to bring it up in any scenario

some people know about it as obviously, being as famous as her family is, it was on the news at the time, and everyone she went to high school with knew what happened so sometimes it can be hard to avoid it

she wants to forget - here comes her secret - she got into drugs after the kidnapping and it quickly spiraled out of control , now she can’t seem to function without them because they’re the only thing that make her feel normal and make the memories fade

anything she can get her hands on rly

but the media think she’s an angel , her reputation has been kept p much pristine her whole life . and her parents have  no clue how much she’s struggling  . so if this were to come out , it would tarnish not only alanna’s reputation but her family’s  as well

☇   ❪    ˚･ﾟ ❛  personality !!

after deferring from brown ,  alanna knew she had to find some way to keep herself occupied and make money , even though she could live off her parents for however long she wanted

alanna wants to be . miss independent .

she gets her  worth ethic from her father 

so she started getting into modelling , first it was  small  stuff , then she  got on instagram and things went really well from there

she was able to book gigs like adidas , guess , calvin klein  etc  !

so  that was super exciting for her bc she got really into it and  enjoyed doing it sm

i’m  definitely gonna expand on her career as we move along in the rp bc i have so many ideass !! fnsds 

oko so in high school alanna was super bubbly , and just like the really overly nice girl that would talk to literally every 1

but it worked for her bc she was  voted prom queen  and valedictorian ! even tho she missed graduation . yike

Anyway now ! she is not v much like that anymore , except  when she’s super high . 

since her kidnapping alanna has been closed off and aloof . in general , she’s not as talkative 

she says what she thinks but it usually comes in one word mumbles

can sometimes b very entertaining  . she’s kinda like paris hilton a little bit

also think Marissa from the oc !!

call her a  spoiled brat she’s gonna be like “ yah... and ?”

she  can be very selfish to a fault  in certain situations 

and very defensive if she feels attacked, judged , put into a corner , physically cornered , etc

she’s a hopeless romantic at heart and dreams of having an epic love story

but she  has Hella trust issues which easily lead to commitment issues for her so ... she will cheat “by accident” lol

that’s why she tries to steer clear of relationships but she also has such a big heart she  falls in love 5 times a day sffsdkj

also w  how much this girl  can sleep around it’s not happening any Time soon 4 her ! she enjoys being single a lot

Bc she likes to get wild

shes like nicole richie on the simple life when she’s partying  lmao

like she likes 2 fuck with ppl sometimes lol , like she will flirt w anyone and everyone just cus she’s bored 

umm she lives  in sweatpants n crop tops !

her hair is either in a  bun or just down , she’s rly lazy when it comes to hair and makeup   . like if her makeups done someone else did it lol

Unless she’s like fully in the mood

um ya idk im always developing  her but IF U read  all this  ilysm !

here’s her pinterest board for more of an idea !

☇   ❪    ˚･ﾟ ❛ wanted connections !!

EVERYTHING !! hehe  . i have a wc page right here & there’s a wanted  tag linked there as well so pls gimme all <3

[survivormontenegro]

Episode 13: “I Feel Like It’s Time for a Classic Blindside” - Mitch

okay so mo went home and im sad because he is my SON and I LOVE HIM. On a game level, sepearating Jones/Mo was crucial, but Mo was a goat, and Julia and Mo going back to back is bad news.

It kind of limits my options moving forwards, since I know I can't go to the end with Jones/Mitch, and don't think I can go to the end with Jason. I thought Tom would be a goat for literally self voting twice, but Jones is selling him like some big threat?

Anywho that means F3 has to be Me/Caeleb/Benj, which honestly... is all good in my back, they are my two faves on the tribe, so I'm down to clown with that.

also me clocking that caeleb is matt who won kuwait's boyfriend, i truly am the second coming of nancy drew

okay so morning after last night's tribal. i don't regret any decisions i made, but i am a little concerned about the narrow path I now have to FTC.

I feel like I'm playing a good game, and a game better than those that I have played in the past. However, I'm also not delusional, and I know how big of a threat Jones/Mitch/Jason are at FTC, and while I don't think Tom should be a threat, apparently he is too.

What that means, is I have to angle for a F3 of Me, Caeleb and Benj. I think its do-able, but its going to be tricky.

The best way I see it happening is next vote, siding with Caeleb/Jones to vote off Jason, so that the two 'pairs' are attacked with equal force. Its definitely risky, since it means I'll be very vulnerable, but HOPEFULLY the following round I can swing it back and get Jones out.

That would then leave a F5 (which oh my GOD final five already got to SCREAM), of Me/Mitch/Caeleb/Tom/Benj. I think I would then unfortunately need to take out Mitch at F5, because he is scary scary, and I think would be such a deserving winner. That leaves a F4 of Me, Benj, Caeleb and Tom which I think is probably best case scenario, where I would vote off Tom most likely, leaving the F3 as me, Benj and Caeleb. If its a F2, I go to the end with Benj.

I think its definitely a work-able and do-able plan, its just important to get all the stages right. Thinking about it, it could be worth swapping Jason and Tom on the plan. I think Jason is more of a threat personally, but perception is reality, and if Jones is saying Tom is a threat, I can't be seen walking to the end with him.

So... I'm cautiously optimistic. I think I'm playing a strong game, I still have TWO idols, and am on track to keeping on pushing on.

If I'm voted off at seventh place, the order I would vote for the remaining players at FTC:

Mitch > Jason > Jones > Caeleb > Benj > Tom

I knew that this could happen, and I was trying so hard to keep Mo around. I told Grandma's boys that we should vote Mitch, they said no. And then Benj let me know he was voting Mo, and since Ali and Mitch weren't responding to me anymore, I knew they were going to vote Mo instead. I told Jones to play her idol on Mo but she didn't do that either. Overall, I am sad. Because I let them tell me how I should play that round but I should've been confident in A) my gameplay and what I wanted to do, and B) my understanding of the roles in this game and who I felt was talking to who. If the last vote showed me anything it showed me that:

I have a pretty good understanding of who is running this game (Mitch and Benj)

Jones is playing a really good social game but she isn't ready to make big moves yet, or she doesn't understand which moves we should make.

Jones and I are in this together. We have to by default because I know about her idol, but also with pairs popping up everywhere its safer to have a voting buddy. Plus Jones is cool so like I could be stuck with someone I didn't like and for that I'm lucky.

Lastly, I need to be confident. I have played well, but I've lost momentum. I had it with the Alex vote, and it waned but I had it in the Jules vote. I was exposed and lost it in the Julia vote, and I was completely left out of the picture in the Mo vote. I need to regain this momentum. I know I like always make a fool of myself with my confessionals hehe because I always say I want something to happen but it never ends up happening. That's largely because so many people have their own agendas, dictating the vote is not my style. Being flexible as F*** for sure is. BUT, I will hopefully get my way next tribal. I am planning on using Jones, Me, Ali and Jason to vote Mitch. I am starting to sow the seeds in Jason and Ali, because Mitch has clearly played the best so far. He has ALWAYS voted right, and been the deciding vote for Jules, Alex, and Mo. Yet he also never was cursed. He'll win, and its my mission to vote him next. But don't keep me on my word because HELL knows things are gonna hit the fan anyways.

also i have to confess this because its funny and i will forget otherwise, but on the call before last tribal, i said tom is too straight for me to be able to work with him long term in my host chat, because he kept saying bro and chick.

LITERALLY, and I mean LITERALLY, 5 seconds later, he shows us this picture and asks us "how fake this chick's boobs are". I am NOT going to be a straight enabler, straight pride can WAIT, this is not gonna keep happening.

With that said, I wanna go F3 with Tom probably KSADF, or no maybe F4. I definitely know Jason, Mitch and Jones need to leave sooner rather than later, and I will then figure it out from there eeeek!

also LOVE MR CAELEB, LOVE him. BUT.

I would've had a 38 POINT WORD, if he didn't snatch that Z from me, he ROBBED me of quizzical, and now he can spell frazzled which ties my current best word. EEEEEK.

okay me making fun of tom for having a sheet when i have the same... love being a crackhead...

also me getting SO pressed about Caeleb winning immunity for 0.5 seconds, before realising I didn't want to vote him out anyway, and that him winning is like... fine.

I made this this morning:

I hate everyone KSKSKSKSKKS i want to just do something for myself so bad Bc I feel like such a follower and I wanna just die all the time but like ????? The last 12 times I try to plan moves it backfires so I just need like,,, to breathe a bit.idk??? I don’t even know if I want BENJ in the F2 with me like I said,,, anyways,,,

Best F3 scenario: me/Tom/benj

Best F2 scenario: me/literally one of those two men,,,, maybe preferably Tom? Like no offense to Tom but idt anytime on jury likes Tom rn JSJSJSJS but ya time to die and lose in immunity UwU

I WON IMMUNITY AHHH. It means I'm guaranteed a spot in the final six, and assuming I play my idols right, F5 and then F4. I'm potentially... one round from FTC, this is CRAZY.

This round is gonna be interesting, it needs to be one of Jones, Jason or Mitch for sure, I just need to angle it so that its definitely the right one. I am immune, and can use that safety to lead a vote... whatever happens i'm so EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

quasiconvexity carried me through

So the game has been going well! I wanted Mo to go at F9 cuz we just didn’t have as good of connection as I do with others but that got overshadowed by Julia blowing up but we made it happen this round me Mitch and Ali wow the votes actually fell 3-3-2 exactly like we planned.

Literally 4 votes in a row now the exposed people voted wrong LOL. Anyways next up to go is Jason, we have worked together well for a few votes but him and Tom are a duo who have to be broken up now that Mo/Jones are broken. Jason has more chance to win so its got to be him.

Jones covered my vote hehe so it should go as planned we hope but idk itll prob be ruined like stuff usually is. It should be me jones mitch caeleb voting him, tom and Jason will I guess vote jones or someone, ali can vote whoever it doesn’t matter

Me and Ali have realised the Sapphire idol is more of a curse than helpful LOL so hopefully we don’t ever have to use it. We have also decided that we want to go to F4 w Tom and Caeleb, I LOVE Jones and Mitch so much but they are the biggest threats. But I wouldn’t be surprised if everyone teams up against me and Ali and realise we have lowkey been shaping the course of the game since F11 hehe.

This is one of my favourite orgs ever and Ali is one of my favourite allies ever! Ali when u see this thank u for putting up w my being cracked and listening to all my scheming and plans u make this game sm fun so just thank u sm.

Everyone left in the game are also such good people ugh it sucks to have to vote them at some point :// The hosts went off w casting…

So ya moving forward me and Ali’s goal is to make F5 and have one of us win immunity and idol the other w Budva idol and not even use the Sapphire bc apparently if its like a 3-1-1 vote they are all immune which is too scary we cant cirie ourselves out!!

Gosh I sounded so cocky just then huh... I rlly am always looking out and worried about being blindsided aswell eeeek

I PROB WILL BE!

I just have so much hope for benjali duo ;-;

okay so this vote... it needs to be one of Jones, Mitch and Jason. I've heard from Benj that there is a plan to vote Jason, of Mitch/Benj/Jones/Caeleb, here is the problem tho... I'm down with Jason going, but if I hop on to this plan, I'm just an add on and its not a move I can claim at an FTC resume.

So, I have to plan an alternative, and its either gonna be Me/Jason/Tom/Caeleb vote Mitch, or Me/Jason/Tom/Mitch vote Jones. I am leaning towards voting Jones right now, because like... she just told me she has heard nothing for the vote, when I know she is plotting and has sorted a plan to get Jason out. She clearly doesn't trust me, we've voted separately at basically every single tribal and she is a mega threat in the end.

I think I could convince Mitch to vote her, and it also detaches Caeleb, and it means he is stuck with me, which is good, since I'll need him to vote Jason potentially next round. Its tough because I want all three of Mitch/Jason/Jones out asap... hnnngh.

So I have the opportunity to make a game changing move. Im almost certain I know who has the idol and i REALLY want the person out this round. Right now they are breezing by without being targeted a single time and I feel like its time for a classic blindside. The problem is, right now that specific person is not being targeted. The risk of telling the people who are being targeted that they are the target is astronomical but if it works it just might send the person who I want gone out. It's a risky plan that I don't know if it will work or not.

okay so I think I may have already confessed this, but loving having ZERO memory. Okay so Jones is going tonight, she is definitely a major threat, has access to jury votes I couldn't even dream of getting and is SUCH an FTC risk.

I think this vote works, because then... next round we can get Mitch. I can solidify something with Caeleb and Benj, and we can then agree to get Jason at F5, that's... such smooth sailing to FTC. I'm excited.

I love voting with Mitch/Jason for a vote, and then... voting against them in literally the two votes after, loving being a mess.