#i’m in lellinger feels

[wintersportism]

i’ve got a lellinger edit to drop, should i do it between rounds or after the comp

[skijumping-fam]

sometimes when i’m sad i remember this masterpiece of a lellinger-geigenbichler picture exists and i feel a lot better

(also this makes me wonder whether we might get another lellinger-geigenbichler olympics pic this year but i don’t wanna jinx it)

[trialround]

I just wanna thank you for writing Domiel fics even tho you don't like this ship, love you ❤️❤️❤️

Hey, thank you so much! 💙☀️ It’s not really that I don’t like that ship, it’s just that I haven’t really written domiel that much (or at all really, apart from these few drabbles), so it’s a bit daunting for me. I know some people really, really like that ship, but I feel like I don’t have a clear vision of the dynamic of that ship and I fear that I’ll end up totally ruining the characters when writing, which is silly because it’s literally all my imagination anyway. But compared to, say, kraftböck or lellinger both of which I’ve been writing for years, domiel is unfamiliar territory for me, meanwhile kraftböck or lellinger literally feels like coming home. I know the dynamic in those ships, I have backstories for them, and it’s easier to take any situation and throw those ships in them. For example, if I were to write a breakfast in bed drabble, I immediately know what I would do with kraftböck (Stefan would totally order one of his fancy vegan food boxes, plate it up and pretend he did it himself and Michael would pretend to believe it all) or lellinger (Andi would spill the orange juice all over the sheets and be all upset about how he ruined their perfect morning and Stephan would immediately assure him he loved Andi anyway and at least it wasn’t red wine like last time). Meanwhile give me breakfast in bed with domiel and I’d be all ??? and it’d take me so much more time to come up with an idea and do the research on whatever I needed and write it.

Sorry for rambling like this, but I just wanted to clear that up ☀️ I very much enjoy writing domiel, it’s a nice change, but it just takes me so much more time and effort to figure them out. Which isn’t to say I don’t like it, but when writing is already difficult, it’s easier to go with something familiar than venture out to do something that’s already daunting on a good day🙈😅 But I’m so very glad about all the feedback I’ve been getting about the domiel drabbles, I love you all and it seriously means so much to me, so thank you 💙💙

[flautist10]

I was tagged by @nomen-es-omen thank you!!

Rules: tag people you’d like to get to know better :))

Top 3 ships rn: Leo/Adam (Tatort Saarbrücken) Jay/Hailey (Chicago PD) Otto/Martin (Charité)

If we include RPF : Bravertz and Lellinger :))

Last song: King by Zayde Wølf

Last movie: We bought a Zoo

Reading: a lot of fanfiction lol. Jks I’m also reading ‘When Breath becomes air’ by Paul Kalanithi and IT WILL MAKE YOU CRY YALL but it’s so good. Unbelievably intelligent and profound. The kind of book where you can feel yourself maturing as a person while you read it.

3 random things that make you happy:

the footy is back ⚽️

my teacher told everyone “if you feel lonely you may use your school email to say hi to someone in this group” and as a consequence my friends have been sending me weirdly formal greetings all day via email 😂

Next week i don’t get set any additional work cause it’s the holidays so I might have an actual chance to catch up

Tagging @skijumping-fht @jacobspeed @eehithegiraffe @millenniumfalke @allesmulleroderwas

you don’t have to do it obviously, just thought I’d let you know if you wanna talk id love to talk to you and here’s a fun game if you’re bored :)

[theflyingfeeling]

4, 6, 22, 44, 65, 93 😌

4) Would you become an animal if you could? If so what animal would it be? - I’d be a sloth because I feel like I was meant to just..hang in trees doing absolutely nothing except for strange noises every now and then (which is what I do as a human too only not on trees and with more responsibilities)

6) What is your favorite personality trait about yourself? - My wit 😅 

22) Who is your OTP (one true pairing)? - MERTHUR forever and always, also Eerola (although I still prefer Hervola for their ship name but whaveter), Kraftböck, Lellinger, Lamen (Captive Prince), Wesper (Six of Crows), Kanej (Six of Crows) and a big bunch of others but I gotta stop somewhere

edit. missed this! 🤦‍♀️44) What is an experience that you are certain you'll never experience again?- Well, I’m pretty sure I’ll never sit through a math class ever again, THANK GOD (as a student that is, and hopefully not as a teacher either lmao I can’t do even the most basic kind of math)

65) Do you believe in soulmate? - It’s romantic thought for sure but idk, I guess I will if I ever find mine lol 

93) Do you like where you live? - As for the city: very much indeed, it’s a small enough city for a country girl like myself. As for my apartment: I just moved in to a new one and omg I cannot shut up about it I am in love with the place!!

kiitän 💖

[skiijumpinng]

Kay, first of all, great that you survived exam season!!! (My exams are still ahead of me, oof. Great for you though, congratulations!) Sooo, 1st question: If you'd be in charge of an instagram account of a ski jumper of your choice, who'd you pick, what would you do differently and what would you post? 2nd question: Do you have a fav ski jumping fanfiction? If yes, what is it about? (Lol, hopefully this asks isn't lame to answer)

hii, first of all, sorry that i’m answering so late, but my battery died and i couldn’t do it sooner. secondly, thank youu, good luck for your exams :)

If you’d be in charge of an instagram account of a ski jumper of your choice, who’d you pick, what would you do differently and what would you post?

oh i don’t really know, i quite like that they all have their thing going on with the inside jokes and the characteristics that they show through instagram, but in general i would make them post more stories of random things (i am not a great example for that, i literally have waves were i post stuff for one week and then disappear).

Do you have a fav ski jumping fanfiction? If yes, what is it about?

i do have a favourite fanfic and it’s the most amazing thing ever (seriously, i can’t express how much i love it, it’s so well written and i like that it’s based on real events rather than being completely made-up (it feels way more realistic and enjoyable to read) and it combines all my favourite things: lellinger, olympic games, jealousy, awkward flirting, pining and fluff)

Draw The Line And Walk Across by @deliae

if you haven’t read it yet, it’s an absolute must, and i am not ashamed to admit that i must have reread it over 10 times but it’s still entertaining, which just proves what a masterpiece it is.

[kahunakubalik]

hello. ummm. i want to have a little rant.

basically i just wanted to express some of my feelings. i've been part of this fandom for a while now (almost 3 years), i've been on and off a lot because at some points, there were moments when it was just too much for me. now i know what you think "why do you keep coming back when it's too much for you?" well, i just simply love sharing the joy of this sport with people and unfortunately i can't do that irl, because i simply just don't have those people around me.

DISCLAIMER, THESE ARE ONLY MY OWN EXPERIENCE AND MY FEELINGS, IF YOU DON'T AGREE WITH ME OR YOU DIDN'T EXPERIENCE IT, THEN I'M VERY HAPPY FOR YOU!

first things first, i want to talk about a pressure. a pressure that i just need to like and adore every single jumper. now don't confuse like and respect. i respect every single jumper that has ever competed in wc, coc, fisc, etc... because they are all far more successful then i'll ever be. but as everyone else, i'm a human being. and for some reason, some of the jumpers are just "not my type". i have nothing against them, i don't know them (personally) and i don't hate them, but i just don't feel the way i feel about some other jumpers/athletes. and this comes to another thing and that's never would i ever talk about any jumper/athlete in a bad way only because they are doing better than some of my favourites. in my opinion that's just disgraceful and it's wrong. and at the end of the day, they (jumpers) can take it. they are able to admit that one is better/in better shape than he is and so should you.

second thing is more of my personal problem. i feel really weird about shipping. and it's not the fact that it's male and male kind of a thing. it's more of a fact that, those are real people. they are regular people just like you and me. and i don't really care that they might not ever see this (altho vojtěch štursa does have a tumblr and he knows about some of the stuff that has been written). i think my biggest issue is that some people, no matter what you tell them, they are still going to tell you that lellinger/kraftböck/literally any other ship are together because you know it or because it is obvious. no matter how close you are to ski jumping, a fan, a journalist, a person who helps out during competitions. unless you are an immediate friend of theirs or a relative or they say it themselves, you will never know, what relationships the jumpers have. not only with other jumpers but also with ordinary people. i'm a strong believer that all of the jumpers respect each other. i also believe there are some beautiful and strong friendships within the sport. but i really feel wrong about suggesting a romantic/sexual relationship between two people you technically don't know.

last thing i wanna say is that, people often say that we should be more positive and that we should stop bringing drama and negativity. so i'm saying it now. this post is not about drama nor negativity. it's about expressing my feelings after bottling them for almost 3 years.

[llamasarecoolerthanyou]

It was always you: Chapter twelve (Lellinger)

A short one today 🙈🤷‍♀️🙃

Chapter twelve

March 2018

One week ago in Korea, Stephan had felt like the happiest man in the world as he celebrated first Andi's victory and then their team's silver medal. The Olympics went better than anyone had expected with his boyfriend becoming the first German ski jumper to bring home three medals. 

As if that wasn't amazing enough, a few days earlier they'd had their first anniversary and spent a wonderful evening walking around the less populated area of the Olympic village and then enjoying a romantic dinner in their room. It might have been just some average cafeteria meal that was allowed by their dietician but he hardly cared what he was eating when Andreas was looking at him with that adoring gaze and a bright smile. 

But that was seven days ago and now he was sitting in the room that was functioning temporarily as their team's doctor's office, having come here for his annual check-up, feeling faint and more broken with every word the physician was saying. Nothing could have prepared him for the news he has received, after all, he hadn't felt any pain except for that brief discomfort in his knee after the second jump during the last Olympics competition.

But apparently, that didn't matter as it was common for the symptoms to be practically non-existent until everything progressed further. He barely understood all the medical language and explanation of his illness but he would probably never forget the words 'not possible to jump for much longer in this condition', 'an operation would be a huge risk' and 'best option is to retire'.

The doctor tried to comfort him by saying that if he stopped training, he could live normally for the rest of his life with minor pain that could be managed by some medicine. But how could a life without jumping be ever considered normal for him anymore? The sport has been all he has done for basically his whole life, he couldn't even start to picture what he would do without it but it looked like he was going to be forced to.

He spent the next few hours wandering around town, feeling numb and asking himself what he was going to do now. The thought of telling people and seeing their reactions didn't help either. As soon as he started to imagine the look on his boyfriend's face when he heard what happened, how upset he would be, he wanted to just run away and avoid being the one who was going to put it there.

But in the end, when he was already freezing in his thin jacket, he forced himself to get back to their hotel room. As he suspected, Andi didn't need more than five seconds to notice that something was wrong and start questioning him about it. 

"Well, how did it go? Is everything alright?"

Stephan felt as if it took him forever to form the words he needed to say but finally he did and as he talked he could see Andi's expression change from confusion to disbelief and grief. 

"But there has to be something they can do?" the blonde asked, the hope clear in his voice.

"No. He said that I can finish the season but if I continue training after that, the injury will get worse until I'm not able to walk normally. My only option is the surgery but the chances are slim and I'd be risking losing feeling in my leg."

"But that's still a chance! You have to keep fighting," said Andreas, desperately trying to change what Stephan knew was his inevitable future.

"There's no point, don't you understand? I'm not going to be jumping after this month and that's final," he replied, his tone flat and seemingly void of emotions but the truth was he was too tired and devastated to show any.

"So you're just going to give up like that?" asked his boyfriend, sounding angry and frustrated. "That's not the Stephan I know, the one who fought so hard to be on the team and win a medal even when no one believed it was possible."

"Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you but he's gone as I won't be winning any more medals ever again. But I understand if that's too much for you and you want to leave," he said, dispassionately. 

"Are you crazy?!?" Andreas raised his voice, his agitation evident as he paced around the room. "I can't believe you're so calm about this! You sound like you don't even care."

"Oh, of course, you know better how I feel! If you didn't notice my life just fucking fell apart but please, go on, tell me how much I don't care," he yelled back, losing his patience. 

Andi looked shocked at his outburst but after taking in what he said, he seemed to lose his anger and all that was left was the ashamed look on his face and the sadness in his eyes.

"I'm sorry," he whispered, coming closer but stopping a couple of steps before the brunette, giving him the option of moving away from his touch. "I should be comforting you and instead all I did was think about how much I don't want to lose you."

Despite knowing that they should talk more about this, after the day he had, Stephan was too exhausted to focus on their argument and so, without saying anything, he let his boyfriend wrap his arms around him and allowed himself to be comforted by their warmth.

He had no idea what the future will bring, how he was going to tell everyone else that he was leaving, what he will do from now on or most importantly if his relationship with the younger man was strong enough to survive this.

@itsloveit

[x-lipstickstain-x]

I'm so happy you decided to write more! Can't wait to read your fics.❤️ And as you're taking request, I've been dying to read a Lellinger story in which the other jumpers (from team Germany or others) find out about their relationship. 😊

First of all, I’m really sorry for being such a slow writer. I really liked the idea for this, but I’m not fully satisfied with how I wrote it because I changed a part of the plot last minute, I still hope you enjoy reading it though. Have a good day and of course thank you so much for your request! ❤️

Lellinger Fanfic ~ “You’re Welcome”

Stephan and Andi had been sneaking around for over six months.It was of course difficult for them, lying to their friends and hiding wasn’texactly ideal, but they didn’t know how the others would react and since theyall have to spend so much time together, they didn’t want to risk anyuncomfortable situations.

Training camps were the worst times for the couple,especially when they rented out a huge house for the whole team instead ofstaying in a hotel. In a hotel, the two boys could share a room and have theirpeaceful, or sometimes not so peaceful, alone time. In the house they couldn’tsneak into each other’s rooms, just in case someone saw, or heard them, so theyoften sneaked out for a midnight ‘run’, which was actually just a walk wherethey could relax together.

The team had a very hard and exhausting training day,therefore all of them headed to bed at an early hour. Stephan and Andi tookthat as an opportunity to watch some movies together and cuddle, knowing allthe others would be fast asleep after such a heavy day.

The younger boy laid on top of Stephan, his head resting onhis hard chest. Andi could feel himself doze off while he focused on his boyfriend’sheartbeat and the way he combed his fingers gently through his hair. Stephansmiled to himself at the sound of light snoring coming from the blond. Hecontinued watching the movie, letting the boy sleep for some time, before hewould had to wake him up since they couldn’t stay here, especially not in thisposition. Stephan clearly didn’t realise how tired he was himself, because soonhis eyes also fell shut.

“Who even sleeps like that?” Markus laughed, looking down atthe two boys who were still sound asleep on the couch in the morning.

“They look very cosy,” Richi chuckled.

“Very uncomfortable you mean?” Wanki raised an eyebrow, inconfusion.

“Stop being so loud, you’re going to wake them up,” Richardhuffed in a hushed tone.

Andi’s eyes snapped open. Seeing three faces hanging abovehim, made him freak out and he rolled off of Stephan, unfortunately fallingstraight onto the hard, cold floor. This of course woke up the older boy.

Stephan immediately sat up, rubbing his hands over his face.“What did you do to him?” He asked, looking up at the three boys who were stillhanging over the couch. Stephan stuck out his hand and helped his boyfriend getback up on the couch.

“Oh we didn’t do anything. I think he was just confused as towhy he was laying on top of you.” Markus let out a laugh, jumping over thecouch and taking a seat on it.

“You should have seen yourselves, you looked like a couple,”Wanki grinned, making everyone laugh. Meanwhile, Stephan and Andi shared aworried look before they joined in the laughter, trying to seem like they foundthe whole idea of them being a couple ridiculous.

During the day thankfully none of the boys mentioned thesituation, neither did they question it at all. However, their laughter wasstuck in Andi’s head and it was bothering him just as much as it was botheringhis boyfriend. They tried to focus on the training, but when the night came,they need their other half for support.

Stephan read the message from Andi on his phone. ‘Midnight walk?’. He instantly replied,before he gladly got out of bed and put on some clothes.

“You okay?” Stephan questioned the younger boy once they werefinally outside. He pressed a peck on the blond’s lips, worryingly waiting forhim to respond.

“Yeah, I guess.. Just the situation from this morning-,” Andibegan, but Stephan nodded his head, cutting him off.

“I know, it’s bothering me too Andi,” the older boy sighed,already knowing what his partner was about to say. Stephan reached for Andi’shand and entwined their fingers, giving his hand a squeeze.

“Maybe we should start hinting that we are together? Get themto warm up to it gradually?” Andi looked up at him, thinking it wasn’t such abad idea.

“I don’t know Andi…” Stephan let out a deep breath, leadingthe younger boy over to a bench, on which they took a seat.

The Bavarian was nervously chewing on his bottom lip. “B-But,you aren’t going to break up with me because of it right?” Andi asked,swallowing thickly with sadness in his gaze.

Stephan immediately shook his head. “No! Don’t be dumb Andi,I love you.” Stephan squeezed his boyfriend’s hand reassuringly and offered hima small smile.

The two boys talked for another half an hour, before theyfinally made their way back to the house. They shared one last kiss before enteringthe house very quietly, ensuring that no one was woken up. They didn’t evenbother turning on the lights, as they knew how to get upstairs without trippingover any furniture.

Andreas headed towards the stairs, but he was pulled back byStephan, who pressed one last needy kiss to the younger boy’s lips.

“See! I told you all!” Suddenly a voice called out and thelight was flicked on, making the couple jump back from each other.

Leaving the light off now seamed like a stupid idea to Andi,since it would have potentially saved them from this awkward situation. Aroundthe two boys, stood most of their teammates. Majority of them looked ratherconfused, but Wank proudly crossed his arms over his chest with a huge grin onhis face.

“I knew Lellinger was real,” Markus mumbled, a smirk slowlyspreading on his lips. “None of you believed us!” He laughed, high fivingWanki.

“Wait, you knew?” Stephan took the words right out of Andi’smouth.

“Well duh! We noticed you sneaking out for a midnight run almost everydamn night! Not to mention that one time I came back into the house for mysunglasses when the whole team went sightseeing, but you two decided to get iton instead.” Wank explained, making them both blush.

“And this morning when we found you together on the couch wewere almost certain it was true,” Markus added.

“Why didn’t you say anything? I don’t get it, you evenlaughed at the whole idea of us being a couple..” Andreas huffed, sittinghimself down on the arm of the couch.

“We laughed because we thought we finally got you two caughtand you’d just admit to it, so we stayed quiet about it the whole day, but younever got around to it,” Wanki groaned. “So then I decided to take the mattersinto my own hands.”

Stephan and Andi shared a look, giving each other a smallrelieved smile. The older boy came up behind Andi, wrapping his arms around himfrom behind. “So you don’t have anything against us being together?” Andiquestioned, looking around at everyone in the room. To the couple’s surprise, everyonearound them smiled and shook their heads.

“We’re happy for you two, but can we please go to sleep now.Wank made us all stay awake for this,” Karl yawned. Slowly, mostly everyone headedupstairs, congratulating the couple as they walked past. Eventually only Andiand Stephan were left downstairs.

“Wasn’t so bad was it?” Andi grinned up at his boyfriend. Inresponse, Stephan just crashed his lips against Andi’s.

“You’re welcome!” Wank yelled from upstairs, making laughterfill the house.

[newbieskijump]

I can't quit you - Part 2

Alright here is part 2 of my little Lellinger story☺❤

I hope you like it😘❤

I can't quit you, can I?

I love Andreas Wellinger and now everybody knows. I have been sitting in our hotel room for about an hour and a half now. I locked the door and didn't know what to do with myself. My feelings are over the moon, I have finally done what I have been meaning to do for months now. But my mind says something is wrong. I'm worried Andreas didn't want the fans to know. But on the other hand he did kiss me back. I smile thinking back at the look in his eyes when I kissed him.

My phone has been ringing ever since I left Andreas at the hill. The first phone calls were from Schuster. He is probably going to kill me when he finds me or worse. Kick me out of the team. But the last half hour the calls have been from Andreas, but I didn't pick up. I don't even know why I didn't. I love him. I really do, but something is holding me back.

Suddenly I hear something outside the hotel room's door. I fear it's Schuster, so I stand up and head towards the door. I hear two soft beeps and a click. The door lock clicks open and Andreas opens the door. I sigh and feel relieved it's not Schuster. I wouldn't have been able to cope with him right now.

"Why on earth haven't you been picking up my calls?" He asks as he closes the door behind him. "Did you shut down your phone or what?" But right away my phone rings again. I close my eyes and turn away. Andreas walks over and picks up my phone from the table.

"It's coach, why don't you pick up?" He asks. I sit down on the bed and look at floor. The phone stops ringing for two seconds, but it starts ringing again right away.

"Stephan why aren't you answering your phone?" He asks again. "Look at me!" He shouts at me. I look up and see the confusion on his face. I feel the tears welling up in my eyes and shake my head.

"Stephan what is going on?" He asks. The phone stops ringing and starts again after a few seconds. Andreas picks up the phone. "He'll call you back later. No, I. No. No, I'm not going to give the phone to him now. He'll call you back." He says and hangs up.

"Now I want you to tell me exactly what is going on, because I am loosing my mind right here." Andi sits down next to me. I look at him and I feel like such a fool.

"I'm sorry." I say. "I never should have kissed you earlier."

"How do you mean? Stephan what is going on? I thought that was what you wanted. You had been talking about it for such a long time. You didn't want to hide anymore and now that we've, well exposed ourselves, you are starting to doubt yourself? What is going on?" I look at him and see the desperate look on his eyes. How could I hurt him like that.

"I..." I start to say, but something is blocking my throat. Andi looks at me. He looks so confused and worried. I can't quit you, can I? "I love you." I whisper. "But..." I stop and I feel the tears pressing in my eyes again.

"But what Stephan?" Andreas says. His expression is changing and he looks scared now.

"Schuster'll kick me out." I look at the carpet again. I found the pattern in the blue carpet an hour ago. It calmed me down back then, now it gives me more anxiety.

"What are you talking about?"

"He told me Welle. He told me that if I'd even consider making our relationship public, he would kick me out."

"How do you mean? Did he threaten you?"

"Well yes. The reputation of the team is more important apparently. I don't want to hide anymore Andreas. I can't quit you, can I?" I say and feel so extremely desperate. At this point I don't know what to do anymore. I see the pain in Andreas' eyes and yet again I wished I never would have kissed him.

"No. We've hidden this long enough Stephan. Schuster must understand that by now." He says. I put my face in my hands. I can't take it anymore it's enough. "Hey, come here." Andi says and puts his arms around me. I lean onto his shoulder and feel a tear run down my cheek. I feel guilty. So god damn guilty. I might have ruined everything between us. I just don't want to quit him. I can't.

After what feels like hours Andi kisses my hair. I look up and he gives me a small smile.

"I'm going to call Schuster." He says and I swallow, but I nod. At some point I'm gonna have to face him anyway. I can better just get it over with now.

"It's okay." He says. I grab his hand and he gives it a squeeze. I nod again and Andreas stands up. He grabs the phone from the table.

"Do you want me to put it on speaker? You don't have to say anything, but just so you can hear what he says." Andi asks me.

"Yes that sounds good." I say. I feel my heart is starting to beat faster. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. Andreas calls the contact and puts the phone on speaker.

That loud beep calls once. I take a deep breath. Twice. I hold my breath. Thrice.

"He's not gonna pick up." I say, but right at that point there sounds a small click.

"Schuster." It calls in the room. He sounds sleepy. I wonder what time it is and look at the digital clock on the wall. 01:43. Explains a lot.

"Yeah it's Andreas."

"Wellinger, god, where is Stephan and what in earth is he doing?"

"Stephan is here with me. We're in our hotel room."

"Good. I'm coming right now. I want to speak to him about wh"

"No." Andreas stops him. "No. We'll meet you tomorrow." Coach is silent.

"Stephan won't talk to you today. He needs to sleep too anyway." Andi says.

"Fine." Schuster says. "I'll see you at 10:30 tomorrow morning."

"Alright." Andreas says and I hear another click and the phone starts beeping again. Schuster hung up.

Andreas looks at me. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine." I say and look at the ground. Guilt is the inky thing I feel.

"Come on, let's take a shower." Andi says.

"Do I smell that bad?" I ask him.

"Yeah. Yeah you do." He says and we both laugh.

I get up and follow him into the bathroom. Andreas doesn't bother to turn on the lights, so I leave the door open a little, so some light can get into the bathroom. I hear Andi's belt hit the floor and the soft sound of his t-shirt as it hits the ground. He steps into the shower and turns it on. I start undressing too and get into the shower with him. Usually when we've taken a shower together it was in quite a different situation. Even the evening before had been quite heated or the shower itself got heated, but not this time. Our bodies touch in the shower and I put my arms around him.

"I love you." I whisper into his ear. "I love you Stephan. I really do, we'll be alright." He says as he softly caresses my back.

We stand in the shower for a long time. I feel the water is getting colder and Andi turns off the shower. He steps out first and hands me a towel.

Andreas leaves the bathroom and I follow. He quickly dries himself and walks to the bed. I manage to smile at the sight. He doesn't bother to put on any clothes and lies down in the bed pulling the blanket just over his hips. I throw my towel on the ground and join him in the bed. The things I'd do to him normally flash my mind and I smile again, but I'm not really in the mood for that kind of stuff right now.

Andreas turns off the lights and takes my hand. I give him a small kiss and crawl a little closer. Andreas puts his arms around me and I relax a little. It feels nice. His stomach against my back. Now I get why Andreas loves it so much when we lay down like this. My arms wrapped around his waist. I feel safe.

[skijumpingbabes]

tandlinger or 1080p lellinger 🌚🌚

i hate you how am i meant to choose between two ultimate otps 🌚 i'm kidding i'd probably go with tandlinger bC FEELS

[trialround]

HOW COULD YOU THINK WE DIDN'T WANT TO READ ASCHI X GREGOR LIKE a friend of mine and i always hoped you would write it and i was utterly frustrated when we got it as a background ship but not the full thing i just want like their first kiss or them admitting their feelings or just i don't know i swear to god please write m o r e (in general)

I’M SORRY!! Between lellinger and - what? schlierenwald? aschenzauer? (grelipp??😂😂), lellinger sounded like a safer bet to kick off these drabbles, but the whole idea for the drabbles actually started after I had written four different takes inspired by the picture Gregor posted in Instagram when the season started (you know the one with them on the plane where they totally looked like a couple). Buuut I’ll definitely write them more! Writing Gregor is one of my favourite things anyway, he’s so much fun.

[reindeersonmytshirt]

Tag Game

Thank you @schemppion for tagging me!

Favorite color: purple

Top 3 ships: Lellinger, Vicbert from ITV Victoria (& from real life history), I don’t know a third, maybe Team Doppelzimmer?

Lipstick or chapstick: chapstick (this is educational, I actually had to google what chapstick is :D)

Last song: “Show me love” by Robyn (don’t judge me, it reminds me of a simpler time)

Last movie: On Chesil Beach

Current book: Since I’m gonna go to Vienna this spring, I’m reading a book written by a girl who has lived there for the last 15 years or so. 

I’m very bad at tagging, so everyone who wants to be tagged, please do feel tagged :)

[skiijumpinng]

more questions because dear god i need to stay awake cause i'll never wake up if i don't (in time for the comp, that is, not... ever): what's your earliest memory of ski jumping and how did you get into it? what songs do you associate with ski jumping? what's your favourite sj meme? would you ever like to try jumping yourself?

i feel you, i actually started studying to keep myself awake (why is it so much easier to study at night tho? or am i just weird)

my earliest memory of ski jumping was when i was very young and very dumb because i remember my dad watching it on tv and me walking past it and saying something in the lines of ‘why are they even jumping, everyone knows this guy will win’ and i think it was Jan Matura wearing a black suit and i thought he was so cool and noone could beat him (when in reality he only won those two competitions in Sapporo and i happened to see just those). yeah, that was the first memory i can recall? i was aware of it before of course, but i never got into it until then

the no. 1 song is definitely Planica, snežena kraljica (Avseniki) (which i unapologetically start singing in the middle of February and can’t stop until the season is over)

favourite sj meme? tbh we have so many good ones that i can’t choose, but wazon is always up there, Domen eating that tomato thing and us bringing it up for MONTHS, the times when Danny was known as the slippers king, everything that has to do with Sepp disqualifying them all and last but not least mad johann™  (because i’m kinda proud of myself for taking a pic of lellinger hug in planica that year and unconsciously captioning a mad johann™ as well)

oh god no, i wouldn’t try it, first of all, my knees are just bad and i can’t imagine being able to have enough power to jump like that, secondly, i am kinda scared of going too fast and lastly, i don’t really like skiing/not having total control and it all seems kinda scary (sometimes i wonder how is it possible that i’m so interested in this sport)

[skiijumpinng]

PLANICA- SUNDAY, 24. 3. 2019- RECAP

so, since i’ve been in Planica today and i do this every year, i decided to do a recap of all the moments that are not shown on tv but are too good to be kept to myself

coming there is like getting into another world and i get impressed by the atmosphere every year

i woke up at 3 am so i could be there in time and it was totally wort it

it was so freaking cold and my legs were about to freeze off but when the sun came out everyone was in short sleeves

i was there around 7 am and so many of the jumpers were walking around and taking pics of the hill (Antti just appeared out of nowhere and i freaked out)

Cene Prevc and Andraž Pograjc were so good as pre jumpers!!!

also Ernest Prišlič was hanging around all the time

Lanišek’s kid is so freaking cute and they played peekaboo and he gave him lots of kisses and it was too much to handle

Žiga Jelar is so good with kids?? he literally stopped at everyone and joked with them

Žiga, Tilen and Bor Pavlovčič kept walking around all the time

i also saw Pero’s kid and he was wearing a little beanie with his logo (how freaking cute!!!)

i was looking around for Stephan and i didn’t see him, but he came around in the middle of the trial round and went to the outrun and i swear the world stopped (some guy was literally leading him and holding his back and he also looked kinda sad- or maybe i’m just used to seeing him smile all the time)

i was standing on the stand on the right side of the hill and i realised i was probably in the background of the german tv oops

i saw Martin Hamann from the toilet window

also i get reminded about this every year but they are all so pretty??!!

the trial round was so good but then the first round started and the crowd cheered so much

SO. MANY. FLAGS.

if we got mad Johann last year, there was a very very mad Markus after the first round this year

Piotr Zyla is the slowest walking human i ever saw, i’m surprised he even came back on top on time

i saw a Pedersen&Fannemel hug and Robin had to squat down to hug him and they were talking and laughing and it was very very cute

also Granerud and Killian were talking about their jumps and showing it with their hands which i found very amusing

Andi radiates positive energy wherever he is

also Marius and Robin literally appeared in front of me and looked straight in my direction and i froze damn

i got so many cards this year and i’m actually kinda proud of myself for going out there and not being so anxious as last years

seeing them close up might not have been good for me tho

a little kid was standing next to me at the fence and he literally knew everyone and was very sad when he didn’t get Pero’s card, so i gave him mine because i had two (i felt like i had to, he was so freaking cute just calling everyone by their names)

i wanted to high five Walter but he literally grabbed my hand and we did a proper handshake (I’M STILL SCREAMING INSIDE)

i congratulated Krafti and he thanked me back and that’s all i ever really wanted

Michi is so sweet

RYOYU JUMPED 252 METERS AND I HAVE NEVER SEEN A CROWD CHEER SO MUCH IT WAS WILD

Zografski set a new Bulgarian record and he couldn’t stop smiling

also i love how everyone cheered for everyone so so much

Cene fell as a pre jumper before the second round and everyone went quiet but then he just backflipped out of it and laughed what a legend

i ALMOST got a pic with Marius and Robin

norwegian fans bringing in the beer in the drums is the peak of intelligence

i saw a rare Domči smile that actually reached his ears what a day

Lellinger is indeed always together, sorry i don’t make the rules

also Andi highfived Stephan and then hung his arms around him i cry

Killian and Daniel Huber gave their bibs to the fans

I HIGHFIVED WERNER

the crowd went wild when Domen beat Markus and got the 2nd place

also Andi always had snowballs in his hands what a child

i shouldn’t be surprised by now, but the Polish fans sung the anthem so loud (they were also screaming ‘Kamil Stoch’ what a mood)

Naoki carrying Ryoyu’s globes tho

Domen was sitting in the snow and the whole team Slovenia started throwing snowballs at him i stan one team

also my face is one giant sunburn but it was worth it

the Japanese anthem on repeat because Ryoyu won everything is what i’m here for

it was so nice and warm and people are so nice and everything went as planned which i was most scared about

also literally everyone is in a certain hotel in Kranjska Gora and the the cars from all the teams are all parked together

also Ammann was walking around Kranjska Gora with his wife and i met him at least three times

it just feels like home i don’t know, there are so many known faces and it feels weird but so amazing seeing them live after a whole year

i had tears in my eyes several times because the atmosphere was everything

so yeah, this was way longer than i thought (probably still forgot something)  but i had so much fun and it just made me fall in love with Planica a little bit more

[llamasarecoolerthanyou]

It was always you: Chapter eleven (Lellinger)

Thank you so much for all the support and lovely words!! 😊😍😘💕

Chapter eleven

May 2023

It's been almost a week since he met Andi at the airport and after failing to contact his friend, despite countless phone calls and texts, Stephan was worried sick that the blonde would once again disappear from his life. Although he suspected that Andreas was angry with him for his words about his boyfriend, he couldn't help wondering if maybe something terrible has happened and he had no idea about it.

As a result, he has been walking around stressed and anxious, not able to focus on his work and getting into arguments with Julia who was trying to be supportive but he knew she couldn't wholly understand why he was putting so much energy into finding somebody he hasn't spoken to for years. If he was being honest with himself, he didn't really know the answer to that question either or maybe he wasn't ready to face it yet.

By the time he was packing to leave on the trip with the guys from the team the next day, he has become angry with his friend for vanishing without a word and not bothering to even send a short message that he was alright. He was still reluctant to go away for the weekend, fearing that Andreas would suddenly call and need his help but ultimately decided it was probably a good idea to at least try to relax and get his mind off it all.  

Finished, he zipped up his bag when he heard the doorbell and curious who it could be, as he wasn't expecting anyone, he headed downstairs. Opening the door, he saw with surprise that a sheepish looking Andi was on the other side. He let him in without a word and soon they were sitting in the living room with mugs of tea on the table, waiting for somebody to speak. Stephan was reminded of a similar situation back during their ski jumping days but thought that this time it was up to the blonde to break the silence.

"I'm sorry," said finally Andreas after staring at the carpet for a minute. "Are you angry with me?"

"What do you think? You run off at the airport and then vanish for a week, no calls or messages," he replied sharply, his frustration and nerves from the past few days winning over his desire to hug his friend and never let him out of his sight again. "I was imagining the worst."

"I'm fine," assured the blonde, still avoiding his gaze. "I was just busy."

"Well, how was I supposed to know that?! You really couldn't find the time to let me know? One text would have been enough." Noticing Andi's guilty expression, he sighed and continued more calmly. "Besides, you've been acting weird since we met in the club, I just want to know what's going on with you."

Andreas frowned at his words and said bitterly, "Maybe you shouldn't have left then."

Stephan felt as if someone had punched him in the stomach, all the memories coming back and he knew the younger man must have been able to see in his face how much it hurt him to hear this. Feeling tired and disappointed, he was ready to ask his ex-teammate to leave but all his anger disappeared when he saw Andi looking at him with regret and tears in his eyes.

"I'm sorry," whispered the blonde. A sob escaped him and he covered his face with shaking hands. "I'm so sorry, Steph. It's all my fault, I know you left because of what I did. I'll never forgive myself."

Pained at seeing his friend break down in front of him, Stephan rushed over to him and pulled him into a hug, gently rubbing his back and letting him cry in his arms.

"Shh," he said in a hushed tone as Andi clung to him, finally letting out all his built-up emotions. "It's ok, I'm here. I forgave you a long time ago. I promise I'm not going to leave ever again."

Andreas moved back a little to look him in the eyes and it was heartbreaking to watch him be so upset and dejected. "You shouldn't promise that. I'm a mess, Steph. You have a wonderful life and family, it'll be better if you just left me behind."

"Better for whom? Not for me because I'd been without you for five years and it was miserable. I got you back only two months ago and I'm not going anywhere, no matter what you say. But it's clear that there's something wrong, so let me help you," he pleaded.

Andi shook his head, resigned. "You can't."

"Please, tell me what's going on," he begged, not caring if he sounded desperate, all that mattered was Andreas and his well-being.

For a moment, he thought the blonde would say something but then he averted his eyes and wiping his cheeks, said "I can't, I'm sorry. If you knew, you'd never look at me the same. I couldn't bear that. Please just leave it."

It was the last thing he wanted to do but he realized that pushing the issue further wouldn't do much good and could result in Andi walking out on him again. "I will for now but no more disappearing without letting me know you're alive. And you're going with me to Markus's tomorrow." 

Andreas seemed relieved before he registered his request, "What? No!"

The brunette just smirked and said, "Yes. You owe me for this week. We're leaving at ten."      

His friend didn't look happy but relented in the end, "Fine. I don't think he wishes to see me though."

"Well, he sounded genuine when he invited us both so I'm sure they'll be all happy to see you again," he replied, deciding not to mention that Markus told him what happened between the two, it was best if they discussed it between themselves.

"They?" squeaked Andi, looking panicked.

"Richi and Karl will be there too, it seems it's kind of a new tradition for them. Markus thought it could be fun to get together once a year and reminisce about old times."

"Then it really is a terrible idea for me to be there. I doubt they want me there, I've been an awful friend."

"You'll have a chance to make your amends then." Sensing that the blonde was going to attempt to convince him to change his mind, he added, "End of discussion."

Andi huffed, letting him know he was annoyed with him but didn't say anything else so Stephan grinned, satisfied and took out his phone to text Markus the good news.

@itsloveit