#i’m in a yapping mood today lmao

[kissdeficiency]

the way helluva boss changed me because i had no prior interest in birds, much less owls. now every time i see an owl i’m reminded of my pretty prince 🥺💞

[kavehater]

Genuinely tweaking LOL

[nanthegirl]

Day 1 ||30 Days of Productivity

22.10.2024

• Morning Routine☑️

• Total study time: 2hrs 15mins. I went through the first two presentations for MM. I need to go back and revise circuits cause I took an electrical engineering course in first semester and I’ve forgotten most of it. I spent a lot of time flipping through textbooks lmao. I also spent some time in the lab and finished two models. I think I’ll print them tomorrow. I’m too shy to ask for help to make the silicon mixture I need for my membrane. But hopefully tomorrow.

• Violin practice. This is the last thing I did cause I really wasn’t in the mood. I’m glad I pushed through though cause I enjoyed it. Since it’s 10pm I couldn’t really play. So I ended up just plucking so at least I’d hear something.

• Food. I made pasta, but I was too lazy to add any protein🫠. Funny enough, I think this one will be the hardest to keep up with.

• Walk. I walked around a bunch today, even though I didn’t go for a proper walk.

• Desk. Cleared.

• Nighttime routine. I didn’t really plan anything concrete for this so I’m just going to scrap it lol.

One of my exam grades was released today. Yap time⬇️

I wrote an improvement for Biomaterials and I did in fact improve my grade. I didn’t think I was actually going to cause I fell off the wagon the week before the exam and I barely put in minimum effort to study. And I’m glad that despite that I still did good but I feel bad that I could’ve done even better. Despite my grade being much better my gpa only increased by 0.05. It really put into perspective how much harder I have to work on my remaining exams if I’m going to hit my goal before I graduate. Which led me to pull out my calculator and start trying to get my estimates down. With the way things are looking, I need to aim for a perfect grade in everything🫠. I’m going to write improvements in maybe two exams?? We have 3 chances to do that and I want to use all of mine lmao. So I’m looking at 6 exams. Well. I’m glad this realization hit me in October at least.

I went from a 3.0 to a 1.7, small, itty bitty wins🕺🏾!!

[hana-bobo-finch]

kabbu bug fables kabbu bug fables KABBU (PERSONAL YAPPING INCOMING!!! LOOK OUT!!!)

kabbu….reading too much into kabbu get ready��.he used to be my least favorite (not that I didn’t like him but just that I liked vi and Leif more) but he is. Urghhh. He won my heart in chapter 5 (have not finished chapter 5 yet though). the way that one of the main thing he does is try to make his teammates feel ok….like he literally has a skill called pep talk…..and he spends a lotta his time helping them and stuff……meanwhile he has to have his own trauma basically pried out of him with a crowbar and is all iffy about taking about it and it comes out as anger………..uuuuuuuuu STOP IT!!! STOP DESTROYING ME LIKE THIS KABBU. it is just SO painfully relatable bc. I spend so much of my energy trying to help people, but in the process I ignore my own problems and just kinda let them fester, and then they eventually all come out in some destructive way, rinse and repeat. And that goofy little bug is forcing me to be introspective because I spent the beginning of chapter 5 thinking “TALK ABOUT IT KABBU ITS OK!!! TELL THEM!!! YOU DONT ALWAYS NEED TO BE THE ONE DOING THE HELPING!!!” and then I realized oh crap I could probably use that advice too. uurrghh don’t like this don’t like that the funny bug game is making me start soul searching. cause it’s TRUE!!! I realized it so potently earlier today. I was in a downright whimsical mood but I saw 1 (one) thing that made me remotely sad and it took like a solid 15 minutes to try to calm myself down to prevent a full blown panic attack and remember that it isn’t my responsibility to help all the time and I had to let myself be happy for once, and even then it took another hour to feel completely normal again……ooougghhh aaaarrrghhhh. the hyper empathy is hyper empathying….rrrghhh. ive mentioned it before I think but being hyper empathetic sucks so bad. feels like just soaking up everyone else’s emotions and I don’t got room for my own. Whether good or bad emotions. so I was dealing with that earlier and I thought abt kabbu and it just got me thinking yknow? maybe I’m a bit too much like that little bug man for my own liking and that’s why his backstory utterly destroyed me (and the fact that he was so panicked over leif being hurt in chapter 4 because he didn’t want to lose anyone else again HOO BOY that hit me square in the gut and I haven’t even had anyone close to me die I just have REALLY bad anxiety when it comes to that kind of thing!!!). so um. Is there a point to all this talking?? um sort of!!! will probably dial back interacting with my moots’s more personal posts because I am Pretty Sure I am soaking up all of the emotions and it is stressing me out!!! listen listen listen i can NOT stress this enough, this is not targeted towards any of yall and it’s not any of yall’s fault!!! I do not want to give off the wrong impression that is the exact opposite of what I am trying to get at!!! in short I will be avoiding more personal posts like the plague until I can get my own brain in order because right now I am nothing but a sponge, soaking up everything around me. But rest assured I will be cheering you all on in life from the sidelines. anyway I was going to go into the rest of team snakemouth and how much they mean to me but I think ive talked enough already and I haven’t even beat the game yet lmao (VI AND LEIF MY BELOVED SOBS SOBS SOBS THEY R JUST LIKE ME FRFR)

[hayatoseyepatch]

Saaaaaam congratulations on the milestone !!!!!! Looove the new event idea (and now that I’m online just in time for once and not late shellfish id like to join if you don’t mind,,,)

I’ll be asking for me and the resident loser… (narumi)

Our more or less of a tradition goes as: parading around the city and picking a spot to spend our time having a little date of sorts. Then returning home and beginning the food preparations as well as drinks. I’m definitely monitoring his alcohol as his lightweight ass cannot be trusted and I cannot risk any mishaps or accidents in the kitchen on a holiday eve. Me? It’s cocktail after cocktail baby! After a while I’ll grow bored of preparing and it’ll just be 2/3 vodka 1/3 some fruit juice in my favorite glass.

Then once it’s time to get to dining room as guests (friends) come over, it’ll be a drink fitting of the food we prepared served. Then it’s just a jolly mix of eating and drinking and talking and probably some awful karaoke attempts by Kafka and tachibana. Then a little gift exchange and games! Sadly taboo xl and catan are banned on holidays as some of us… (cough cough) get a little too headed. Regular taboo words is fine thankfully. Gen is Not pleased when Hoshina and I are on the same team and have this awfully good in sync…. As the night wears of everyone either goes their way and closer friends or those who we planned for to stay over beforehand stay:3

But the day before this and the following few days is just gen and I lazying around and enjoying the times, pretending life is always like this (save for an urgent last minute call in from our jobs…)

THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY!!! Again congrats!!! Can’t wait to see more stuff from uuuuuuuu 💕🫶

DANYLLL (ˊᗜˋ*)!♡ You have no idea how excited I am to see you coming in here to collect your loser.

Listen Narumi and you is just canon, I'm sorry I dont make the rules I just enforce them. Also, never ever apologize for yapping to me, I could listen to you with stars in my eyes. I love hearing about everyones selfships. I adore seeing the thought and care that goes into them and it just makes me happy. Gives me the opputrunity to shut up every now and then LMAO

I'm just gonna say it, Gen is literally obsessed with you, sorry. Like this man didnt know that he needed anyone in his life until he met you and now he cant imagine his life without you. He can just be authentially himself with you and he couldnt ask for anything else. Man's a certified simp. ૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ `∩꒱ྀིა Enough of my yapping tho I hope you enjoy!

Suprise! A little drabble for you (ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ.ﾟ

Narumi nuzzled his nose deeper into the crook of your neck, arms wrapped around your midsection, looking identical to a koala with the way his frame had curled around yours. Maybe it was the alcohol in his system making him sentimental, having been cut off quite some time ago. He watched the side of your face as you spoke, used to his shenanigans that you had become an expert in holding a conversation despite your boyfriend clinging to you. Normally he would whine for your attention, leading to you teasing him about his behavior. But for now he was content, you in his arms, your fingers carding through his hair as you and Rin talked about something. He had tuned it out too focused on taking in your features.

Today had really been the perfect day. He spent the whole day by your side, which given your profession, was a rarity in and of itself. Waking up with you in his arms had already put him in a good mood, then to spend the day together and being joined by your friends?  Yeah that’s all he wanted.

He had never been a huge holiday person, growing up with no family he never really saw the fuss about the holidays. Saw it more of a hassle than anything, ringing them in alone and doing nothing special. Now, though? He just hoped he got to spend every one just like this. His home had always been quiet, desolate, cold. It was one of the reasons he detested the winter. But you changed that, you kept him warm. The laughter that filled the room, games being played, songs being sung. It warmed his chest in a way he wasn’t used to. He enjoyed having everyone here (even the bowl cut bastard though he would rather die than admit it.)

He watched you interact, a small smile resting on his lips as he nuzzled deeper into your neck, pressing sweet kisses against your skin. He just wanted it to be like this always and with you by his side he knew he would do anything to keep you right here. Looking up from you his eyes lock with Hoshina’s a smug smile on his features, an obvious dig about how clingy he was being with you. He raised his middle finger to the other man. Okay so maybe he lied, he can leave and then it would be perfect.

[nanthegirl]

10.05.2024

I had big plans for today. Didn’t work out. I had a violin lesson then took a long walk. I bumped into some friends and I spent about 2 hours there. This definitely feels like a journaling day but I dont know if I’ll actually write. I’ve been avoiding it since the beginning of April lmao.

Unnecessarily long yap

My socializing has been so minimal these past few years and now whenever I get to talk to my friends I try to stretch that interaction for as long as possible. Even though I’m not in the mood to talk or I have things I’d rather do. Today is the second time I had a conversation with a friend this week, and I planned to study but I couldn’t bring myself to leave even though I wasn’t having the best time. I used to go weeks without talking to people in person but recently I’ve been having, let’s say at least one in person chat a week. And now it’s like I’m addicted or something😭. I was able to make a few friends and I’m not huge on calling or texting if I don’t have a particular reason so I usually just bump into them randomly. Then I stand there on the sidewalk or something and REFUSE to let the conversation end. I have a friend that borrows things from me occasionally and he’ll literally stand in the hallway holding a bottle of mayo for over how many minutes because I won’t shut up. I often worry that they find me just a tad bit bothersome. Like they see me walking down the street and inwardly groan cause they’re not in the mood for anything but a simple hi and they just want to get on their way or something. I would say I’m more than adept at picking up social cues but I think my observation skills suffer when I’m a bit too…excited. So I really don’t know if they find me annoying😭. And this is a bit off topic but not really but I tend to act differently around my female friends. I want them to like me so bad. Sure, I want my male friends to like me too but I want my female friends to think the absolute best of me, that I’m cool and fun and I want them to think of me when they want to do something with someone.

I’ve always had super close female friends. I’ve known my best friends for almost ten years now and I guess everything became so natural. I had people that would choose to sit with me, that I knew would want me to find them in a crowd. But now, I second guess every interaction and I’m trying to make sure I come off the right way. And I feel like my over controlled reactions just do the opposite of that. I feel like I’m being myself but like, more muted and slightly suppressed?? And maybe that makes me seem off??? Or slightly unsettling???? I feel like I’m losing my mind.