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autisticskeleton-s · 2 years ago

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frankly silly how big this pinned post is

hi!! i’m roman :)

last update to this post: dec 5 2024

link to the picrew i used for my pfp: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/582810

if you are from Gaza and have sent an ask promoting your campaign, i want to say i stand with you and your people and i’m also disabled. i see the world differently and may not respond in a way that seems empathetic. i am trying my best to stand with you and your people while also making sure i don’t degenerate myself to the point of not being able to function. i come to tumblr to escape from my reality, so forcing myself to comb through my inbox only makes me want to do it less. i promise that i will get to it eventually!! thank you for your patience with me and FREE PALESTINE!!!! :)

my pronouns are they/he/she, i am 19 years old, and i’m autistic/adhd. i communicate in a way that may not make sense to you

this account is sfw. maybe some swearing and references to dirty jokes but nothing crazy.

my special interest is:

-Undertale. been here since 2015. i've seen everything. i know A Lot. my url is a Papyrus reference. my undertale blog is @autisticundertal-e

this blog is very multi-fandom and very hodgepodge-like. besides my special interest you’ll probably find a lot of things. longtime interests of mine that you Will find on this blog if you scroll long enough (not in order of importance):

-pokemon. games focused, but i like general lore. i have a pokemon roleplay account (UNREALITY CW): @rofromsinnoh

-avatar: the last airbender (i don’t like blue people avatar don’t talk about it here)

-omori. spoilers will be tagged #omori spoilers because this is a game you can only play once

-fnaf. this is a borderline special interest

-disney parks trivia and history. this is a borderline special interest

-posts about being autistic/neurodivergent

-casual/narrative video games. think “slay the princess” (amazing game) and animal crossing

-markiplier. his youtube content, distractable, and his cinematic universe. don’t know what that means? you’ll find out if you’re here long enough

-percy jackson. PJO and HOO. this began in like 2013

-marvel. specifically 2013-2016 era marvel. this comes from childhood

-sonic. games focused and shadow the hedgehog focused

-music. don’t have the energy to delve deep into this but you’ll see posts about what music i like

-writing. mostly fanfic n the culture surrounding it but also other forms of writing too

-random shitposts i think up

current hyperfixations. you might see this on my blog for a while and then it’ll completely disappear or it’ll become a longtime interest.

-hyperfixating on making my darkiplier fanfic: your ivy grows rn (check the 'my fics' tag!)

-arcane!!! i’m a jayvik truther but i swear to EVERYTHING if i see ONE MEL HATER on this blog i will be SHOOTING YOU WITH GUNS. if Miss Mel Medarda has zero fans i’m DEAD btw

if it’s not any of those i’m probably just brainrotting over it for a while and it'll pass soon. or it’ll become a lifelong interest. who knows? i don’t! hope you find something you like!!

#good shit #<— my favorite posts tag #later #<— that’s for me #GOAT #<— personal goat posts #queue know i had to do it to em #<— queue tag awooga #hi beloved #<— mutuals tag #my fics #<— self explanatory #edits i would eat #<- for good edits

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beastieclub · 4 years ago

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Top 5 Video Game

oh man. this one’s actually a really hard one to do, there’s a lot of games i love and that i feel are super instrumental to my growth as an artist and person! my tastes are super basic though i’m sorry hFKSDHFDSKGh

5. undertale/deltarune; i’m counting these as one because i’ve axed enough games i love from the list as is. these games were what helped me realize that i can create something fun AND meaningful in my future. they’re part of what sparked me to start to become a game designer!

4. life is strange; this is the favorite game of one of my best friends in the world, so while i haven’t played it in years it makes me think of my friend so naturally, i love it. it’s also interesting for the way it weaves atmosphere together with narrative to create some emotionally pointed moments.

3. this one’s kinda out there, but, this game called Coffee Talk is one i downloaded at the start of the pandemic and it... really put me in an interesting, calm place mentally. it was never a fixation of mine, but i think about it a lot. it taught me about story-based characterization and really kind of helped me think about worldbuilding. some of the tropes it uses to build a fantasy world aren’t... the best jsyk but, it holds a place in my heart anyways. if you’re ever looking for something to help you calm down after a rough night, i can’t recommend this enough.

2. BOTW/WindWaker; i’m sorry i’m ONCE AGAIN squishing two games into one. wind waker was the first game i ever played and because of that, it holds such a dear place in my heart. so many memories with this one! breath of the wild has been the only zelda game since to spark the same feelings in me that windwaker did so i appreciate it based on that, and again the ARTISTRY that went into it? unparalleled. the zelda series in general is super important to me and it’s been the reason i’ve not only made a great friend (i noticed her zelda backpack), but it’s the thing i’ve been able to connect with my dad over. when our relationship’s good, we talk about zelda.

1. this game getting the #1 spot is purely based on it being my hyperfixation rn but it’ll probably be one of my favorites for a LOOOOONG time. No Straight Roads! it’s a game passionately made by artists about their own craft and what it means to them, and that spoke to me. i’ve been having kind of an identity crisis over what i want to make and what story i want to tell, and NSR has helped to point me in the right direction. i still have so much to learn about game design and storytelling from NSR and i absolutely adore it. plus, it’s really pretty!

#asks #thank you for sending this!#automata-systemata-hydromata

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sociallyawkward--fics · 4 years ago

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heyy xy its been a while again idk how long i wanted to send smth earlier but my brain wouldnt let me so:// im kinda Going Through It rn tho& surprise its abt my romanticality again but this time it has nothing to do w a crush. its ,, i was wondering how romantic attraction felt so i did a question thread on twitter but the answers ,, were all stuff ive felt ?? &i think maybe ive been thinking of romantic attraction wrong this whole time but ?? how do i know ?? -H (it is. frustrating)

its like ,, i love the idea of cuddling& holding hands& hugging& yes that could be platonic but ,, ive never kissed anyone but i think it could be smth i enjoy& maybe even smth i want but it wasnt ever anything i thought abt until now ,, recently ive kinda been wanting to date someone nonromantically ?? but how do i tell if the way i want it is romantically or not ?? romantic attraction is just a thing u feel right u dont get to decide whether or not its romantic attraction it just is right?? -H

&i have gotten my own version of crushes but its always ,, i just rly want to be their friend or in extreme cases just ,, like me the way i like them, like liking me best ig ?? but maybe i have wanted to date them& just didnt realize it ?? when i get crushes i think of them a lot& want to be around them& i get butterflies& all the things ppl say they get with romantic attraction. but then ill ask myself if its romantic& i just feel like No. It's not ??? -H

romantic attraction always just felt so ,, other ?? so even now that i realize what i want is what ppl who feel romantic attraction want it just doesnt feel right ?? ive never kissed anyone& ive never dated& maybe if i did those things id know ?? &sometimes ill wish i had a partner but like in a queerplatonic way i think ?? i just want to do traditionally romantic stuff but ,, without it being romantic ?? but thats not how it works is it ?? -H

like if u feel& want all the things that comes with romantic attraction then that means u experience them romantically ?? maybe ?? i cant wrap my head around wanting all those things but not romantically ?? bc romantic attraction is defined as wanting things like dating& kissing& cuddling - not some other alien feeling i thought so ?? maybe im greyromantic or lithromatic or bellusromantic but ?? how do i know ?? -H

maybe im just too young to completely know how i feel ?? maybe if i dated someone or kissed them id know ?? &i kinda rly want to do those things just to know how id feel bc im tired of not knowing im already confused abt my gender identity if i dont know my romanticality what do i know ?? -H

lmao so im over my crisis nvm -H

i dont remember exactly what i was saying but theres a difference between wanting those things& like ,, wanting them from a person yknow maybe i want to be kissed but only theoretically bc who do i want to kiss me then ?? any strong feelings usually fade when i get to know the person so. also apparently romantic attraction is Not just wanting those things apparently theres supposed to be a feeling that comes with it idk -H

help i found u on tiktok while looking through aroace tiktoks skjdjk i saw u& i was like xy ?!?!! u exist in places outside of tumblr ?!?!??! unbelievable -H

i saw ur undertale hcs tiktok& i highkey panicked bc ive been hyperfixating on undertale for like ,, a month now, so it was my 2 favorite things : aspec hcs& undertale. personally i see papyrus as aroace bc of his whole speech after ur date with him& its like ,, a v v important hc to me bc hes the only character ive ever felt i had representation in sjdhfks idk hes like my comfort character now -H

aahhh but yea ive been hyperfixating on undertale so badly but :/ we lost our switch :/ so i couldnt play :/// i had to resort to watching playthroughs on yt. i have watched dan& phils playthrough 3 times& i am going on a 4th. luckily we did find our switch !! &i cant wait until i get papyrus' phone number so i can go through every room& call him& then befriend undyne& go through all the rooms& call him again to see if the responses have changed -H

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I’m So Sorry it took me literally like 2 months to answer these, I promise i wasn’t ignoring you, I just have Stupid Brain!!

Imma be honest with you, romantic attraction is so confusing, and I can’t say I understand it myself. Also, that’s totally how it works. You can do romantically-coded actions with a queerplatonic partner and not have it be romantic at all. Sure, kissing and dating and cuddling are romantically-coded, but that doesn’t mean you have to be in a romantic relationship to do them; doing those things in a queerplatonic sense and not having any romantic emotions in it is totally valid. You can want all these things and still not have/experience romantic attraction. Take all the time you need to figure it out, though. I may tell everyone I’m grayro, but for sure that does not mean that I have it all figured out. I just say that because it’s the closest to whatever confusing feelings I’ve had lol. It takes time to work these things out, just do what feels right for you. You don’t need to force yourself into a romantic situation just to try and see if you’re aro. Honestly, to me? Nothing you’ve described seems inherently romantic. That all seems like it’s queerplatonic or just platonic.

Lol, yes I exist in places outside of tumblr on occasion. Tbh, since we all know I have no time-management skills, tiktok is a little bit why I’ve been so absent around here lately lol. I was focusing a lot on building my account and content there, but I really miss everyone over here and i miss writing my fanfics so I am Back and I’m gonna try and split my time better, now! Undertale is such a valid thing to fixate on, and Paps is such a valid comfort character. Aroace Paps is so valid, I only said grayroace Paps because 1) brain said “make him you” lol and 2) sometimes I think Papyrus/Mettaton can be cute if done right. And yeah, it’s so fun going through the rooms and just calling them lol

#ask #anon #H anon

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