#i’m gonna use it for photocard trading stuff

[captainhongjoong]

the only thing tethering me to this plane of existence rn is the mini pink toolbox i got at lowe’s for $12 bc as soon as they came in i stashed it in my locker until i could buy it today

[rossmccallsqueen]

HELLO MY LOVE ❤❤❤

today was absolutely incredible. so there's this show i'm really obsessed with, it's a chinese drama called The Untamed (based off a book by one of my favourite authors! She wrote my favourite novel) AND there used to be an untamed ost vinyl available

i'd mentioned it a couple times and my sweet sibling tried getting it for me for my birthday last month!! but 😭 sadly, the listing got taken down right after they bought it so we thought it wouldn't come at all

IT ARRIVED TODAY!!! We had no clue, and i'm so so happy!! 😭😭😭

it came with a photo/lyric book, a character card, and some photocards! as well as a collector certificate bc apparently there's only 12800 that exist

i'm literally so happy, i spent 5 hours freaking out about this and then showed my friend on call. OH ALSO THE VINYL IS BLUE!!!

picture isn't great abkjsdhks BUT THERE IT ISSS

tell me about you now! How was your day? How have you been?

<33333

That is one of the most beautiful albums I’ve ever seen!!! I love the color!! I’m so glad you got to get it!! You have a really good sibling, my brother would never 🤣

Today was not the best day, my boyfriend went back home and I always hope it won’t hurt as much when I drop him off but it does 😫 I like to think I’m really independent but then as soon as my boyfriend is around I am 100% baby girl and I feel better as a person when he’s around. We had a really good few days for his birthday tho!! I got him a jersey for his favorite goalie from the Penguins and a signed trading card from him as well, he was so stoked. Giving gifts is my love language!

The next few days are gonna be rough cause I do not feel good but I reeeeally need to clean and find a bunch of stuff.

Do you have any big plans this weekend?

[wispywillo]

muriels traumatic background is handled in the most insensitive way possible

The Arcana is a game that indulges in many fantasies that varies from creative (magicians) and just jumps straight into inappropriate (BDSM, slavery) for a PG13 game.

I’m gonna handle the slavery fantasy because Yes. It’s there. Speaking as a diasporic black person, slavery is an incredible touchy subject for me. While never having gone through it, intergeneration trauma is most definitely a thing and even if it wasn’t -- empathy exists.

Muriel is an ex-slave. He used to really resonate within me as a character who suffered trauma and considers himself a loner. He is loved by the fandom because of his outcast demeanor. A lot of players probably suffer from social anxiety and thus see themselves within him. But let me get one thing straight:

the way he acts like this is 100% because of childhood trauma and trauma only exacerbated by the treatment of lucio

And that trauma more explicitly is from being held captive and turned into a slave.

From what we know, Muriel grew up homeless and was tortured/bullied by other school children his age. At such a young age, being without a family, being homeless, and being bullied leaves you vulnerable. It’s a vulnerability that most of us could never even dream of relating to unless you experienced it firsthand yourself. Count Lucio literally took a traumatized child’s vulnerability and abused him until he was at his beck and call.

Something that a lot of people don’t seem to realize is that slavery is one of the most traumatizing thing someone could experience

Slavery Literally Ruins Your Life

Slavery literally runs on vulnerable people’s entire lack of agency and safety. And if someone ever defies their owner in choice of having autonomy -- they’re punished with any and all kinds of abuse. 

slavery shouldnt be something you take lightly

but thats EXACTLY what nix hydra is doing to this character.

especially in heart hunter:

(cred. anonymous @thearcanasucks)

Muriel was coerced into fight under the guise of “the Scourge”

Lucio basically molded Muriel into a fighting machine persona, just so he could enjoy watching slaves fight and kill each other. He had no concern over Muriel’s physical or emotional health -- if Muriel ever died doing what Lucio forced him to do he wouldn’t even care. And muriel was put into a situation where he had to murder if he valued his own life. 

And let’s not ignore race -- Muriel is a brown man. He’s big too. And he murdered people (who were most likely stuck in the same situation as him). Nix Hydra thought it was acceptable to make a man of color into a violent racist caricature. And this is racist in so many ways -- it just matters how you apply it. And nix hydra gives you plently of room thanks to never confirming his race:

native american men face the violent stereotype of being deemed “savage” and being bloodthirsty warmongers. Muriel being a brown man tied up in chains? Living in wilderness? Fighting to the death? Checks all of the anti-native narratives.

Being a man of slavery? Slavery is already hugely racialized. Some of the biggest and longest standing slave trades involved african, arabic, and native american people. And since we don’t. know. his. race. we can just assume that he’s all of the above and fits yet another racist trope :)))

now we know that slavery is Bad and Traumatizing and we ESPECIALLY know that Muriel Is Traumatized. But does the writing know? because no.

back onto the heart hunter topic (because im a bitch who doesnt know how to organize) Heart Hunter is a minigame where youre meant to collect as many hearts as possible to win a photocard and some coins and stuff. every time you collect a heart you’re shown a cute interaction between you and a character -- or a character and a character. These interactions are meant to be lighthearted and fun, maybe even romantic. And it worked for a while.

Until the writers at Nix Hydra somehow thought it would be lighthearted, fun, and romantic to write about Muriel’s slavery. Multiple characters bring up Muriels slave persona as if its not a sensitive topic you should only approach with as much care as possible. Slavery is a repulsive practice and it should be treated as such. 

And even if you ignore slavery being slavery, Muriel as a character is shown being traumatized by his past. he tries to bury it as much as he can even if that means making people forget about him entirely

Muriel is CLEARLY bothered by his past and wishes no reminder of it -- but what do the other characters do? exactly that. They explicitly call him and refer to him as “Scourge” his slave name, even right to his face. So either everyone hates him wants to trigger him or the devs hate us and wants to trigger us. 

and this screenshot shows that even years after Muriel becoming a public embarrassment, that he still doesn’t own an ounce of his own privacy. This 2-lined interaction shows us that people are still buying and selling his personal property without his consent. All because they KNOW slaves don’t own their own agency, their own life, their own image. That isn’t okay.

what also isn’t okay is the fact that they brush over it like its some cutesy ‘oh oops!’ moment. Portia shouldn’t be enticed by the fact that her friends underwear is being sold on the black market. She should be horrified. Especially when we see Muriel uncomfortable at the fact and even his reaction isn’t a well written one.

would this your reaction if you found out someone somehow got a hold of your used underwear and sold it to creeps for god knows how much money?

Its obvious that the writers at Nix Hydra also don’t see Muriel as a character with his own agency. They will shove his own trauma in his face, but write him indifferent -- because they don’t care that Muriel suffered trauma for nearly his entire life. Nope. Because caring for a trauma-ridden brown man would just be too much work for them.

they’d rather use their time to turn their slave owning, abusive villain into a quirky little power hungry ghost uwu or whatever theyre getting at...

this isnt good. its offensive. and i almost broke out in tears at the way theyre handling this man’s situation. it fucking sucks. stop supporting these racist shit bags please i beg of you