#i’m feeling soooo sopping wet :’-) reading sweet message after sweet message was hard for me

[cruel-hiraeth]

i know this is heinously belated (i.e. too on brand for me), but i finally sat down and read everyone’s notes on my christmas tree.

i’m tearing up right now because i feel undeserving of everyone’s love and well wishes. this year has been incredibly hard for me, and i know i haven’t kept it much of a secret between moving blogs, countless emotional posts, and random hiatuses. but, in spite of it all, each one of you has stuck beside me. i truly can’t articulate how much your mere presence means to me. i feel adored beyond compare; i feel warm; i feel at home. and i will never be able to thank you enough for seeing me and my flaws, and loving me all the same.

moving into the new year, i have many resolutions and goals. one of them is to be more present for all of you. i want to return the kindness you have shared with me, because—and i mean this from the bottom of my heart—you have changed my life for the better. as difficult as it can be to exist peacefully on tumblr, i have met so many incredible people, and i have had creative sparks that i never thought possible. i can’t imagine my life without each of you.

all of this rambling is to say that i love you—yes, you—very much! and i’m looking forward to a wonderful 2025 with you in it ❤️