#i’m back to thinkpiecing

[rosesradio]

people will say “don’t ship pairings that are sibling coded!!”…until their favorite pairing gets sibling coded

[chrollohearttags]

just a lil heads up for my next few fics + psa now that I’m back on this page

my next works are going to be exploring some dark, toxic and taboo themes and the dynamics aren’t going to be all sweet/loving. If you want “healthy relationships and good rep for black women”, there are several, HUNDREDS of fics on my page with plenty romance. Find them and leave me alone.

my page is STILL strictly for black women and the fat girlies. if that makes you uncomfortable, good. I ain’t explaining shit or entertaining a troll.

my opinions/commentary are not for everyone and I will not change them to coddle ur feelings. I really could give two shits if they make you mad. I’m also not a machine. Do not expect me to shut my mouth on issues that matter to me so you can have written porn in peace.

there are exactly .5 black characters in the animeverse and three of them date white women. If I want to write for them I will. If I don’t, then that’s my business. I hate all men who aren’t fictional anyways so save the dr. umar ass thinkpieces for sumbody who wanna hear it.

I don’t mind giving writing tips or advice but do not come into my dms asking me to rb ur work and you don’t even know/follow me. I’m not a promo page, I support what I love and leave the rest.

don’t announce ur unfollow. imma laugh and ik you’ll be lurking from a burner as soon as another fic comes up. I promise these bills still get paid, I still sleep and eat very well w/o you.

[lacesoflove]

guess who’s back on tumblr after trying to unalive themselves 😍 i don’t really wanna talk about my absence and go into the depths of the reasoning why, so i’ll just talk about why this account was made - which was for hamzah and slushy noobz. i want to have my own little thinkpiece on the match as well as my place in the slushy community moving forward

i want to say the match and the production is the reason why i love them soo much. they have such an ability of creating cinema with their videos, hence why one of my favourite video from them is the camping video (i tend to watch this video more for comfort rather than for humour though) – and there’s an immense amount of payoff as a viewer watching their content, you can see all the layered inside iokes (i.e having aldo, and nettspend’s producers) and internet jokes culminate in something so carefully crafted (like the way chase’s commentary was genuinely good??). and then the obvious reasons as to why i liked it, hamzah looked so damn good, and he knows it too (i also find martin attractive too, i’d just prefer not to talk about it too much in respect to his relationship). there’s something so beautifully boyish about their content that i can’t find something else (as much as i love them and before anyone says it, no - the dancing gamers cannot replace hamzah and martin and that’s okay!)

however this video kind of cemented why i don’t think i’ll continue regularly engaging with their content. this video kind of felt like a bittersweet ending to one of my favourite eras in my life (watching them). and before i proceed, ik the reddit fans are gonna be annoying - on a side note of the reddit fans i feel like the reddit community is so pedantic over small stuff and because of the few, genuine bad eggs in the community, they over correct and just get so bitter and mad about everything (i.e them being so cruel to fanfic writers) and call everyone chronically online whilst they use the same old “*insert trending braintrot joke* 💜”. i feel so aged out in a fandom even though i’m 18 - i can’t imagine how the slushies who are actually around hamzah and martin’s age feel when their fandom is so reminiscent and full of the same 14 year olds that i’m convinced are the reincarnations of the 2021 14 year old dsmp fans. definitely more sane, i’ll give them that. but community aside, at least reddit community, i want to talk about something another one of my mutuals mentioned recently in their own post and it’s how money hungry they seem. two things can exist at once, let’s get that straight - hamzah and martin don’t get a lot of sponsorships but also being upset that so much of this well awaited come back was heavy promotion for the patreon which, mind you, had a decent amount of members subscribed (i do commend hamzah for encouraging people to unsubscribe over the break!) and also they get money off of ad revenue. i just personally find it egregious that their hoodies, the out of character ones, which are at least unique designs unlike them literally reselling temu shirts like the “find x” shirts, are the same price, in my currency, to the essentials fear of god hoodies.

for any south africans here, it was around like R900 for a hoodie! which is gross im sorry :)

there are also other reasons im distanced from them, and its their associations with chase and claire - i made a, now deleted, post about this before but chase has this annoying tendency i notice in white ‘queer’ (i think he’s queer lmao) men where they speak in blaccents, which was heavily highlighted to me when he was a commentator and he was able to speak in a ‘normal’ white accent, and claire made weird ass comments about black women. as well as having fucking idubzz (who im not sure why was even invited when like sm people are like “who even is he??”) who literally had to make an apology about the fact he created a racist culture with his platform, years after the damage was done. i also have other smaller issues with them that would definitely actually get me cancelled (not even over on the reddit but here). but idfk, what are yalls thoughts?

[shabbytigers]

charles dickens: how can anybody tolerate reading him

it’s not the uncontemporary prose style i object to. i got super into the early novel in college, like samuel richardson and i mean his real doorstoppers, not pamela, which kind of sucks tbh, clarissa and sir charles grandison are much better. i also have a thing for old english. victorian prose still has new-car smell to me, and i like it just fine in general

i will concede the scrooge story but that’s basically one gimmicky short-story-length bit

and that’s the problem

all of dickens reads to me like a bit that’s fine as far as it goes but really should be over in twenty minutes tops. it’s like watching someone act out a comedy routine with hand puppets. there are some nice cutting passages about like socioeconomic shit, and some excellent quips, but i’m not sitting through a novel-length puppet show for that

forster’s distinction between flat vs round characters is the top-level read on what’s “wrong” with dickens: he does a lot of one-dimensional characters. really caricatures, not people. but like, that’s fine, sort of? jane austen also has some flat-ass characters. mr elton, mrs norris. mr collins! a great ‘caricature’ character, very much one long bit play-out. and he’s hilarious. idk though, i should probably try to articulate this better but basically he’s funny in a way that matters. mrs micawber isn’t. i’m done with her after one appearance. why is she still here? because dickens is saying something interesting with the plot twists that are inhabited by caricatures like mrs micawber. well, great: i don’t like that. it’s a puppet show. write me a blistering ass thinkpiece on what’s wrong with the economy or legal system directly, it’ll be more interesting. if you want to write a novel maybe write one where i can be bothered to give literally any kind of a shit what happens

i didn’t like fielding back in my early novel era, either. or candide and rasselas. picaresque is a puppet show too and i can’t live on just plot and atmospherics. i wouldn’t even say character is my biggest thing: what really drives me as a reader is worldbuilding, i read austen as much or maybe more for the window into how social shit and daily life work in this particular milieu as for the character arcs per se. writers in the mode i’m talking about aren’t trying to paint a world at all, a puppet-show stage is plenty sufficient for their purposes. i get it. but it’s excruciatingly boring. to me

[woman-respecter]

how can you be shady about chappell roan winning best new artist when she's a beacon of queer resistance against the rise of fascism in our lol jk i just know the thinkpieces are gonna be insufferable tho

LMAO u had me for a second there. i’m not watching the grammys but i saw that lady gagita, who has been fighting for lgbt rights since kayleigh was a child, explicitly mentioned trans people in her speech, yet i bet people will act like chappell roan is the only artist in the world “pushing back against fascism” or whatever. like bffr

[chaoticamelay]

I am /absolutely/ going to regret getting into this discussion again but what the hell…

explaining that mcu peggy is based on a nazi, a thread:

Comics Peggy Carter is a blonde from the American South who joins the French Resistance as a teenager. Comics Peggy doesn’t know Steve at all pre-serum, they fall in love while she’s doing missions with the Resistance, and she gets amnesia and goes back to Virginia.

In 1991’s Adventures of Captain America run, Agent Cynthia Glass is the brown-haired, British love interest of Steve Rogers who first meets him pre-serum, is present during Rebirth when he is given the serum and when Erskine is murdered, and accompanies him on his first mission.

Does Cynthia Glass’ character sound familiar? It should, it’s MCU Peggy Carter! Except Cynthia Glass is very famously also a Nazi spy who betrays Captain America to Red Skull, then suddenly changes her mind about that and sacrifices herself to save him.

MCU Peggy’s character (and physical appearance) are much closer to comics CG than comics Peggy.

Marvel officially confirms in their Agent Carter: Season One Declassified book that MCU Peggy is based off comics Cynthia Glass.

MCU Peggy Carter doesn’t really have anything in common with comics Peggy except for a name and a (retconned) relationship to Sharon. But she IS, undeniably, closely based on Cynthia Glass. Cynthia Glass is, undeniably, a Nazi.

Is MCU Peggy explicitly a nazi? No. Is she implicitly a collaborator? IMO yes, but I’m not getting into that (beyond that it’s sus Peggy died peacefully of old age despite founding the org hydra secretly grew in and in CA:TWS Zola said anyone who got in hydra’s way was *stopped*)

“The MCU and comics are different” yes obviously! The MCU combines characters all the time, but the comics remain the source material. Not separable. And it’s still weird to base your character on a Nazi for no reason, there are so many other possible options for love interests!

“Cynthia Glass saved Cap in the end! She’s not a nazi” don’t care!! She worked for the nazis, saving him at the last minute doesn’t negate those actions, or prove she ever stopped believing in nazi ideology beyond that. With all due respect she can get fucked <3

Other smarter people have written many thinkpieces on MCU Peggy’s many issues so I’m not going to. I’m just going to end with saying that people (especially jews and roma) are allowed to feel any way we fucking want about this character who is confirmed to be based on a nazi.

[multiheadcanons]

EVERYONE LOVES(?) MEDIC!

aka merc relations with medic

a note before we begin: this is an incredibly indulgent writing that has full basis on an entire thinkpiece i have about medic. like i’m making thematic assumptions based on things i made up as fact about medic. but if you’ve liked my characterization of medic so far then you’ll probably like this. either way, enjoy it! i sure as hell enjoyed writing it!

scout: scout does not like the fact that medic keeps him awake during surgeries to chat. he does not like seeing the doctor handle his organs with such fascination and care. one time medic smelled his stomach. medic assured him it’s solely scientific, but the only good scout gets out of it is that he’s able to account for every organ that doc puts in him. no he doesn’t fucking know what his organs look like. but he’s counting and there better be the same number each time. medic weirds him out. heebies his jeebies big time. medic gets in his face, and just stares at him. eyeing him up and down. scout doesn’t like how tall he is. it pisses him off and creeps him out more. and he doesn’t like that the doctor has handled his organs personally, and spoken to him while actively holding his organs, while he is cut open on the table. and when he can feel the doctor’s breath on his face as he seems to just… take him in. like he’s just meat. and medic looks starved. and it’s weird because he can’t look away from medic either. and they stand there, in silence, staring at each other. and he takes the doctors features in, and gets flustered at the fire he can feel burning behind his eyes. he knows the fucker’s plotting something, he just can’t tell what. but then medic will walk away, and leave scout with no words of explanation, and scout doesn’t know what to say after that, really. sometimes he has to verbally tell medic to shove it because he’s just staring so hard. cause medic makes him feel like prey.

soldier: soldier will always have respect for his medic! that man has regrown his limbs, he is very thankful that there is even a doctor he can go to for free. and medic always compliments his organs, he calls them strong organs. and he’s got the doctor to thank for that! he gets suspicious when medic takes them to another room, but he has literally never had an issue before, during, or after being on the operating table, so he tries not to think about it. the only time they have ever had an issue with each other is during board game night. medic caught him cheating and called him out on it; but what he didn’t know was soldier had also caught him cheating, and one of them seemed a lot more likely than the other to cheat. and he pushed medic, and pushed him and revealed the doctors cheating and in a fit of rage, medic lunged at him. that was some of the most fun he had at game night. by the time the rest of the team managed to pull them off each other they were both bloody and bruised. and in the rush of blood, and the heightened emotions, soldier removed his helmet so he could look medic in his bruised eye and tell him he looks real pretty when he gets his ass kicked. and then to watch him calm down enough to come to a democratic decision and kick demo’s ass too when the decision didn’t favor him? yeah, he might be from germany but that’s an american man right there.

pyro: pyro loves the doctor! that’s their best friend! they go burn things together, they laugh together, medic shares heavy with pyro with no issue, they play games together, medic respects their “mask on” rule during surgery; and he’s talented enough with a scalpel that he doesn’t need to look to slice pyro open! he’s only interested in what’s on the inside, and pyro really appreciates that. also, he’s really pretty, so when pyro’s haze breaks and they’re faced with the real world, staring at him is really soothing. and in the times they can convey their feelings right, medic always knows what to say to take them back to their happy place. understands in a way that medic treats them like a pet. they’re okay with that. it’s some of the best treatment they’ve ever gotten. and the affirmation that it’s not them, it’s everyone else who is weird is so comforting. pyro only wishes they shared the same love for heat. they can’t stand the clinical cold of the infirmary.

demo: oh that’s his old hen. demo doesn’t know what it is, but there was something about their first meeting and that wide smile and those bright blue eyes that hooked him in, and now they are old maids together. they’ll sneak off base to the bar to cause havoc and deny they ever went anywhere. they’re both horrible drivers, so they are normally the only ones who want to be in a car with each other. medic actually calms down with demo as a passenger, but also demo is normally asleep in the car. so they just get along famously. demo doesn’t actually get why nobody wants medic to drive. it seems to demo that they compliment each other in a lot of ways, but are similar enough to be substantial, which is good for him because he doesn’t think he can handle two of himself. recognizes they are fully friends by proximity. he would probably never give medic a second glance if they didn’t work together, but that’s the beauty of human nature. he got to know the doctor anyway. doesn’t care for being awake on the operating table. he trusts medic enough to know he’ll be okay and if he won’t… he’ll come from the respawn room soon enough and let the doctor try again.

engineer: engie doesn’t really interact with the doctor as much as he knows he should. something about how far he has to crane his neck to see the man’s face is bothersome. it’s nice enough if medic gives him a little attention with the medigun, it’s a rare occurrence when he gets to experience the warmth of the rays that everyone first spoke about. the one mind altering experience he had with medic is that engie used to use dip tobacco. only occasionally, but frankly you only need to get caught once, right? and medic caught him in his workshop spitting out the tobacco in a cup. it freaked him out when he heard the medic sigh, and he turned very quickly to the sound of his boots, adjusting his goggles. this is when he really decided he didn’t want to be around the doctor, as they stared at each other. engineer still holding the cup in hand. it felt too personal as the medic took the cup gingerly out of his hands, and leaned down and into his face, blowing hot air on his skin. he whispered he’s too handsome to have such a nasty habit. engie kicked him out of the workshop immediately, but something about that experience made him quit cold turkey. he never wanted to be put in that situation again. he doesn’t know what medic did with that cup either. he didn’t speak to medic for a week after that, medic himself had to go make amends in the mess hall.

heavy: he LOVES his doctor. and that is HIS doctor. despite their horrid first impressions of each other, once they got over their rough start; they actually got along famously well. heavy hated the idea of his doctor not being on his side, so after heavy returned from his maiden voyage to the respawn room, after the battle they sat down and had a very frank conversation; and medic was an open book; shocking to him. more than willing to discuss how he felt about it all, his methods, his mindset, what made him the way he is. and moreso he was willing to put it behind them and truly reforge their paths to account for them both, and make sure they will never lose each other in a fray again. and it did remind heavy of his second thoughts of the doctor. how he is gracious. he is kind, and he can be respectful when he wants to be. they made a blood oath, at medic’s behest, that regardless of what happens, they will not turn on each other again. they looked each other in the eyes and said it. their faces both set in a grim understanding that it was until death now. neither of them have broken that oath. it amuses him to think medic chooses to be the way he is. he doesn’t quite believe it. he likes to think the doctor is good. actually he knows it. even unethical doctors save people. it quickly became second nature to go out of their way to find each other. on and off the battlefield. it was very quickly a normal sight to never see one of them without the other close behind. it’s what makes them lethal in battle. and don’t think heavy doesn’t notice that the doctor is… very nice to him. he isn’t sure what it means, but he knows that there is a difference in medic’s treatment of him and his treatment of everyone else. truthfully? he doesn’t care! let them whine, if they could do for the doctor what he can they wouldn’t be so upset. but they can’t, so they cry, like little babies. everyone can try if they want, he knows he will always be the doctor’s top priority. he swore it on his blood.

sniper: sniper doesn’t mind the doctor, but it’s funner to think about killing him. he’s a pompous smart ass with a blood fetish and an unsettling face. sniper is heavy’s friend more than he’s the doctor’s. but he knows they are a package deal. so he’s polite. he’s courteous. and sometimes he’ll overhear them talking, or peer at medic through his scope and yeah, he even gets how medic can be… funny. quick witted. creative. handsome, even. charming. he doesn’t think any of that tops the fact that the doctor is a freak. but he also knows that this mention will fall on deaf ears. and regardless of how he feels, that’s his doctor. the dude digs through his body for work, half the time he believes medic does it for fun. face visibly sours if medic approaches him, though for some reason medic will act… normal with him. not even like… standard medic but he’ll just be a normal person making normal contact, and sniper knows that him acting weird makes it weird. but it is weird. there’s a look behind his eyes everytime. he knows that quack is planning something. he’s so sure of it. he would feel like an idiot if he was wrong. but he knows he’s not wrong.

spy: spy is a baddie and medic is his baddie friend. they are fascinated with each other, how men like them can even come to exist. spy plays it nonchalant. medic is very much chalant about wanting to personally examine every single one of his organs. spy is… kinda flattered, but refuses him. they are two classy men who also happen to love to run scams. have grown an organic mutual appreciation of each other. they’re the worst. they’re vapid and vain, and so… so conceited. it makes them laugh as they catch themselves talking about how the constant treating for blood stains will ruin the fabric of their clothes, and they look at each other… and a stupid smile spreads on medic’s face and spy has to look away, fighting a snort. there was a period of time when they first started working that they ran a side business of murder-for-hire, undercutting the price at mann co. and it got the team new contracts with a very clear no compete clause. they will go read that in their contacts and laugh to each other. medic harps on his smoking. the first time, to call him on his bluff, spy placed an unlit cigarette in medic’s mouth, and pulled him in by the back of his neck to light it with his own in the middle of his monologue of tobacco usage, his fingers tangled in medic’s hair. he kept his eyes on the doctor’s, silently daring him to refuse it. in a shock (but not to spy), medic accepted it, and they smoked their cigarettes in front of the fireplace in silence. spy registered the rising heat he could feel from the doctor as his face flushed, watched his breath hitch as he did that. how the doctor’s eyes narrowed at him before he blew a cloud of smoke in spy’s face, and could tell he was fighting to keep his body in check. medic falls asleep in spy’s smoking room when he wants to disappear for a while and not be found. fights the itch to stab him in his back when he’s sitting on a chair with his elbows resting on his knees, or when he’s sleeping and turns over and his back is just… there. the white coat is a very loud target and it’s an ingrained habit. sue him. places cigarettes in his clothes. in case he ever felt the urge again. he knows where to find spy. it’s not easy for one to catch the other off guard; and they make it each other’s mission to terrorize the other when they can. flustering each other in public is their favorite pastime.

[galedekarios]

I’m not surprised honestly, but I don’t need an award to validate how much I love it. Veilguard is my personal goty, that being said if it can’t be that. Go Metaphor!

that is very true.

i'm just feeling some kind of ways about the positive aspects being completely dismissed in favour of endless criticisms, some deserved and some not.

the same thing happened with inquisition back when it released.

it's funny when i see large parts of the fandom - and even outside of that - now getting misty-eyed over it.

i do remember all the thinkpieces back then on how the inquisitor is actually the worst protagonist, the companions the weakest, the tone too goofy, the plot and chars too railroaded, the lore and stories retcon'd and/or ignored, and so on and so.

i talked about this before and i suppose it's the cycle of bioware games and the bioware fandom at this point. in additions to that, we sadly live in a time now where grifters picked up on it and i do genuinely think that influenced the decision process to some degree.

[littlestarbigsky]

*deep breath, steps up onto dead dad soapbox*

okay so i lost my dad unexpectedly when i was 18. i was a freshman in college and my little brother was a freshman in high school (darry/soda age gap sibs :p ) and i *literally* can not express just how different our experience was with it. soooo it’s time to project !! this turned into a whole thinkpiece i really didn’t expect to write this much lol

grieving curtis brothers in school under the cut ;)

for argument’s sake, i’m just gonna go with darry took a gap year after hs and was a freshman when his parents died. they died right around his 20th birthday, and given the timing of it he was most likely still on winter break. pony would have been a freshman and soda would have been a junior and hadn’t dropped out yet (this isn’t meant to be divisive or questioning the canon timing i’m just throwing this in to establish the timeline i’m going with here).

oh darry,, bro is not having a good time

going through a loss in college is such a lonely experience. darry was sort of established with some people at school and he definitely had friends but at the end of the day, most east side type families couldn’t afford to send their kids to college so most of his friends don’t really know his family or much about his background. the social conditioning he went through with paul and co. was enough to get him into crowds just like the kids from the west side instead of scholarship kids, but once a greaser, always a greaser.

darry went through a lot of heartache leaving school. obviously he would do it again in a heartbeat, his brothers meant more to him than anything in the world. the thing is, he didn’t fully grasp everything he was giving up when he got custody. any hope of he had of going to college on an athletic scholarship or with the safety net of his parents was gone. he was the sole provider for two teenagers. and he just had to learn to be okay with that, whether or not he regretted giving up on college or not.

he tries to go to his dad’s boss to see if he can take over his position since it was open and they were family friends, but it’s a tenure position and the best he can do is offer darry a job with the roofing division of the company.

he can hardly look soda in the eye when he asks him to come along to help him pack up his dorm room. he’d left most of his things there, thinking it would be waiting for him for another semester. he calls his building and asks to get in before everyone comes back so he doesn’t have to see anyone and tell them about what happened. he leaves a note for his roommate explaining that he dropped out for ‘personal reasons.’ soda pretends not to notice the tears falling down darry’s cheeks while they drive back home.

he doesn’t really have anyone but the gang. his friends from high school are out of the picture, and his friends from college wouldn’t understand, at least not enough to really be of any help. he doesn’t really get to lean on his brothers because he’s too busy trying to keep them together. he just… really doesn’t get the support that he needs.

as for the little bros..

pony and soda are both out of school for a week after the accident, a few times one of them said they wanted to go to school to get out of the house but tbh darry wouldn’t let them out of his sight or get in a vehicle if it wasn’t with him. but when they finally do get back, their teachers don’t really give them much of a break aside from giving their condolences. i like to think some of their teachers let soda visit pony in some of his classes or turned a blind eye when one of them would fall asleep in class, but beyond that, they don’t get much leeway workload-wise.

the social transition is also pretty intense. i think this was much more of a ponyboy problem bc soda keeps his circle pretty tight, but it’s so easy to lose friends when something like that happens because people don’t know what to say to you and eventually just stop reaching out. all of a sudden, his only identification in school is his dead parents, and shockingly, he doesn’t want to talk about that. he wants to just carry on with his life bc he’s still a person despite what happened to them. quite honestly the only people who don’t treat pony and soda differently after the accident are the gang (and sandy prob but idk when they got together).

pony doesn’t have too hard of a time getting back into the swing of school and getting himself caught up, but he’s like a child genius anyways soo he’s fine. soda though, god bless this poor boy, the week that he missed is probably the reason he ended up dropping out :( he already had a hard enough time missing one day let alone a whole week, and he was so far behind in some of his classes that it felt like they were speaking a different language. the worst part is he tries SO hard, too. he asks his teachers for help but they don’t know how to get through to him, cut to darry trying so hard not to lose his damn mind at the kitchen table trying to get soda to understand his english homework.

[nickssidewitch]

We obviously know nick supports kamala and i’m wondering if someone’s holding him back from publicly endorsing kamala? is it something or someone? is it himself? it just doesn’t make sense to me that he wouldn’t take this opportunity to publicly shame trump like he’s done before. Maybe i’m thinking too hard but it’s suspicious to me

I can feel that the triplets have made their own decision to not mix politics with their content and position in the entertainment business. It’s a business decision they made so that people can judge them solely on their content rather than their political views, as they feel it can turn them and their content into political thinkpieces. They also think that they’re too uninformed to even give their own political opinions, which makes them less confident in their stances.

I personally hate the idea of separating politics from work because at the end of the day, your job is dictated by politics. Your whole livelihood as well as those around you are dictated by the state of the political world. You can’t run away from it.

Also as people in the public eye, it’s also (imo) worse to be silent about your political views, as people can interpret your silence as something that you may not even support. Silence can mean complicity.

All in all, the boys just don’t wanna get themselves into something they feel could either hurt their careers, make them thinkpieces for political reasons, or make themselves look stupid.

[11x13kyle]

stan and kyle are both into nerd shit for the rest of their lives but when they’re not into the same nerd shit they look at the other and go “god that’s lame. why does he even like that stuff? i’m glad he’s happy though…….” and get back to their own personal nerd shit. kyle sees stan hunched over the coffee table absorbed in warhammer eyes bloodshot not registering any outside stimuli and shakes his head before turning his focus back to the thinkpiece he’s writing on why steven moffat’s writing choices fall flat despite it being years since he’s written anything culturally relevant so kyle is really just doing this for himself

[nuclearconsole]

im a fandom oldhead but i think the fallout fandom has an insane nazi infestation problem now. it was alr there ages ago but its gotten far worse in recent years. FNV is one of 4chans top favorite games and has threads daily and that comes with all it entails. Theres a new huge fallout community critical of Bethesda but for bigotry tinged reasons. Elon Musk and Varg Vikernes (infamous Nordic yt supremacist) have had their inner circles have FNV fans in them that beg them to play it (who else but the unironic Legion/Enclave supporter fanboys also from 4chan) the huge rightwing community on twitter is highly full of Bethesda critical FNV fans and leans all the way to the far right having fans undercover at the irl New Vegas Day convention at Goodsprings irl doing thinkpiece psychoanalysis posts on the left-leaning female fans they talked to there. Chris Avellone now has a ton of white nationalists replying to all his posts on Twitter. SchizoElijah, a YouTuber who started a FNV fandom renaissance snuck sonnenrads and white nationalist memes in his videos and had 100k subscribers at one point. I joined a fb group for the fallout TV series and a guy was spamming gore and scat telling the community “Bethesda fans aren’t real fallout fans” w nazi shit in his bio. I went to No Mutants Allowed and a guy had swastikas in his post sig “ironically”. I’m not even mentioning how many unironic Caesar’s legion roleplay groups ive seen that get way ‘too’ into it

Feels like y his fandom has a severe Nazi problem now and it feels like it’s gone COMPLETELY under the radar to the majority of fans

also a fallout fandom oldhead, trust me im well aware 😭 the reason why i tend to stay in my little circle is because as a jewish person ive had issues with far right fallout fans targeting me in the past, i even was forced to delete my old blog (ghc) just to get away from a neo-nazi stalker who followed me to twitter, all because i pissed him off by saying the fallout fandom has a nazi problem...and this was back in 2019. he targeted me nonstop and even made new blogs to bypass blocks for almost a year before finally giving up NMA is a lost cause and im not surprised over the other facets (iirc elon attended the bethesda conference back last year) but the fallout convention moment i didnt know about and is genuinely so insidious. lord knows those same chucklefucks wouldve approached me. i appreciate you trying to spread awareness as someone whos been impacted in a severe way from it

[angstics]

i’ve been mulling over this since the reveal because i’m sooo entranced by it: gerard's new haircut. like we hadn’t seen him have it so short in like a decade? and even tho i don’t quite understand all that’s going on there cut-wise 😭, i feel there’s something kinda gnc abt it… but then again maybe it’s just cause it’s gerard lol but since we know he gives a lot of emphasis to presentation as a performer, i’d just love to know what the thought process was and seeing as we can’t go right to the source i figured the next best option was you 🙏 basically what i’m asking is: what do u make of it? i’d love to see some thinkpieces on it bc i really do think it’s not just a random thing. sorry for the long ass ask <3

that gifset i just reblogged reminded me i never replied to this. iiiiiii think it's just a personal choice. even back in mcr 1.0 days, i think the band (the concepts and stories) was just an excuse to do what they really wanted to do (play around, dye their hair, cut it weird). i assumed the thought process was, "i have a show, lets cut the hair, lets cut it fun."

i also think it could be practical. during swarm tour, his hair visibly got in the way when it got wet and slapped him in the face (he'd push it or gel it back, wear it in a ponytail in one instance if im remembering right, hold his hair w a towel, wore that scarf the whole night at riotfest). gerard cut his hair a few times during the tour, most visibly b4 the la shows and b4 the 2023 shows (which was a couple inches off how short it was during wwwy!)

could be a character thing, it obviously has been related to that in the past lol. if it is, could be something about military short cuts, or even callback to the same significant cut in 06. could be to be more somber, to be a shock. and it was, the same way it was a shock in 06! but many times it also was not about the story ie the whole 02-05 period, the 10 thousand haircuts he had 07-09.

also could be she wanted to go butch after her femme era #butch

[kaylor]

sometimes I think about how the folkmore eras on their own were fun and different and brought good music and I’m truly grateful for them but in a very weird way those experiences and eras are also crucial factors into birthing things Taylor does now that I just truly don’t enjoy and I side-eye so so much. Like the way she navigates her space within the industry was altered by the folklore win which although deserved in my eyes personally still sometimes makes me go like what alternative reality have I entered. It’s weird cuz obviously I truly don’t want Taylor to go back to feeling scared about her fans moving on and leaving her in the dust or that her time is running out in the pop scene but it’s so weird that that’s also what kind of kept her feet alittle on the ground. I feel so guilty even saying this cuz it’s kind of along the same lines of that yeah big machine sucked and Scott can absolutely get fucked but clearly atleast somebody was pushing back against her opinions and sometimes it feels like bts nobody is pushing against her opinions atleast not artistically and at this moment in time I think not in any capacity. By the way I also find it fascinating how this time around I think she truly believes she can like out PR the overexposure somehow and I have to laugh cuz the amount of thinkpieces I had to read over the years about how actually Taylor always wanted to be private and the 1989 era was horrible for her emotionally always from start to end when in reality my girl loves the attention and honestly at this point I think it’s safe to say that she even loves the overexposure

yeah man, completely agree on all points. and it doesn't seem like she wants to relinquish this ubiquitousness at all. it's honestly a little concerning because if anyone on her team has a finger on the pulse of public opinion they would know people have been getting tired. we were all saying how it would be such a good move to complete the recordings this year, complete the tour, and give the public some space to breathe. but no, ts11 in april. brilliant. if it's a good album i'll eat (some of) my words but if 2024 gives us 3 new taylor swift albums if it means closing the door on the rerecordings then we're not getting off this ride any time soon.

[keen-eye]

sam as a character + a long personal anecdote

dear diary, idk what happened…

after 10 years i randomly thought of supernatural which made me want to rewatch the pilot just for nostalgia’s sake

i ended up rewatching seasons 1-5 which is about as far as i got the first time, not that i remembered literally anything. i had a vague idea of destiel being a big deal? only from what i gathered from people irl, i wasn’t part of any fandom community back then. and i’ve only had tumblr for less than a year now

and then as i’m watching i’m actually digesting the plot, i guess i wasn’t Dialed In like i am currently. and i’m connecting to sam and just really invested in his part of the story. and feeling defensive of him in seasons 4 & 5 as well as disliking dean’s behavior towards him. so i go on tumblr bc i’m curious about others thoughts about the show and his character

and then i get whiplash once i find out that there’s so much drama about the show that’s seemingly been going on since 2005. and part of that drama is about sam and fans/creatives on the show having opinions of him ranging from disinterest to pure hatred. calling him selfish and whiny. as well as extending it to the actor who plays him? and i’m shocked bc to me he’s so fascinating and complex and deserving of empathy

and then i become obsessed with everything going on about That and dive head first into the abyss. it must be a combination of (1) very much recognizing him as a kindred spirit (& queer-coded/harmed by misogyny) and (2) unfortunately finding myself personally offended by the treatment of his character by the show and the opinions on him, by apparently a large portion of the fans. this is genuinely heartbreaking to me lol. also i can’t think of another fictional character that has suffered as much as him which is something.

in conclusion, this whole mess has consumed my brain going on weeks now. never have i ever become this obsessive about any character ever. at first it felt like it would be just another addition to the adhd fixation train where i would immediately move on once i became consumed by something else. the show isn’t even that good.

but this feels different. (hyperbole ahead) i’m afraid i’ve been sucked inside the black hole of spn forever, doomed to seek out validation from the same thinkpieces and debates repeated over and over for all eternity. only time will tell…

[lsleofthelost]

desperately going to need you to elaborate on chad's dream being a racecar driver actually hdjkfdsfklsdfds

that’s actually from my mutual’s @thebluestbluewords tags!! also i think there was some tie in media where he said it?

but as someone who’s into formula 1 i will take this opportunity to talk about it.

it’s no secret that racing is a very expensive sport to get into. so like 99% of all the drivers come from wealthy backgrounds. and as fans, we all accept that as a reality of the sport. but like i said, what i’m picturing for Chad is something of a Lance Stroll situation.

if u don’t know who that is, Lance Stroll is a driver competing for Aston Martin at the moment. and well, he’s not a bad driver by any stretch of imagination (or he wouldn’t have made it all the way to formula 1), he even was the second youngest person to get a podium iirc. BUT he is the son of multi billionaire Lawrence Stroll who is a part owner of Aston Martin. so yeah i think his family would invest in a team to secure a spot for him lol

so like. there are a couple of ways we can go here.

one would be, if he is the oldest son, he probably wouldn’t be allowed to pursue something like f1, since it’s so time consuming. so, let’s say, he gets into karting, gets into an academy, and he could probably get to f3 or even f2 before getting pulled out for his duties. but he loves the sport, the feeling of adrenaline, the speed. he’d probably be able to go karting recreationally but it’s not the same. he probably goes to as many grand prix as he can, keeps in contact with the drivers from his grid, hangs out with them during the off season, and talks wistfully about it in his interviews. i think people make sad edits of him about it

the other way, if he’s not the heir apparent, he would move up to formula 1. i think he’d start with a middling team. as a rookie, his first race would be a bit of a disaster, maybe even dnf, which causes ALL the gossip sites to rag on him but eventually he does get himself together and even has a podium finish in that season. he spends a couple of seasons there while his parents prepare the team for him and goes there. first season there is a dip in his previous ratings as the team is still getting used to it all but after that i think he’d have a solid career and is generally well liked by the public because he proves himself as a driver. he’s also really funny.

ALSO important to me. i think he definitely has a bit of a one sided rivalry going on with another driver on the grid, dating back to their karting days.

also also. maybe down the line he even has a hamilton-rosberg-brocedes thing with a teammate (if u don’t know it don’t look it up the lore will consume u)

people definitely make thirst edits of him taking off the helmet/stretching in the suit/spraying celebratory champagne. there are constantly articles and thinkpieces on whether he deserves his place in the grid. there are videos on youtube titled “(actual prince) chad charming being dumb for 10 minutes” and “charming team radio but it gets more chaotic”