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artaxerxesthegreat · 3 years ago

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Playing with Fire: Part 4

A/N: Everyone in this story is 18+, if minors are mentioned they aren’t getting in any weird, sick, twisted situations with adults. I also use female pronouns for the reader and the reader may be a bit OC. I would also prefer that minors DO NOT interact with this at all. Thank you.

Warnings: Dream based, Actors mixed with characters, College AU!, Mixed universes, Raffey Cassidy stands in as Sprite, Swearing, gaslighting, manipulation, cheating, mild violence (?), implied sexual content, mentions of bullying, college strife, MCU/X-Men/Spider-Man/Actors mashed in one universe, self- doubt, insecurities, depression, angst, fluff, enemies to lovers, slow burn, family issues, mentions of disabilities, mentions of accidents… (I’ll probably be adding more warnings as the story goes on. Please let me know if I’ve missed something too.)

Red- Makkari signing

Purple texts is Y/N

Also this chapter is short. I’m sorry 😞

“This is gonna bite me in the ass one day, I just know it.” I look off to the entrance of the library hearing the voices of students coming and going.

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Part 4

“Welp, I’m gonna go now.” I say turning to walk towards the library, “What’s that noise?”

Peering over my shoulder I see a flash of white hair and black hair, startled by the fast moving bodies coming towards me, I stumble into Druig who catches me by my waist preventing me from falling on my ass. My heart lurches in my chest for two reasons:

1.) Pietro is running at me full force with a girl with black hair in tow- they’re neck- and- neck.

2.) I can feel Druig’s breathe on the shell of my ear.

“I- I can’t… Too much is happening!”

“Y/N! Y/N! Quick, tell us who will win!” Pietro shouts at me, stopping in front of me with his mysterious friend, startled by it I press myself closer to Druig.

“Oh geez.” I whisper, closing my eyes trying to calm myself down.

“You alright?” Druig whispers in my ear, not helping my current situation at all. It almost sounded like he was smiling; as if he knew what was happening to me. I take a quiet shaky breath and answer with an “Mhmm.” Because let’s face it, I can’t trust my own voice at this moment in time.

“Well, Y/N?” A smooth Sokivian accent hits my ears bringing me back to the track star.

“Ummm, what?” Blinking a few times I get a good look at Pietro and his friend; both are wearing tracksuits, out of breath- panting as if they just ran a 10K, sweat running down their brows, waiting expectantly for my response, “What’s going on, exactly?”

The girl has a look of confusion and then it changes into a huge smile as she makes different gestures with her hands.

“Whoever touches her first wins.” Rushing forward she places her hand on my shoulder, “Ha! I win.”

“What the fuck just happened?” Jubilee stops in her tracks watching us in clear confusion, “Who is she and how come she gets to touch you? Why is Quicksliver panting? Where the hell have YOU been, Loki?! Wh- Why are you two so- so- close. I thought you hated each other?”

“Oh, we’ve reconciled- OOF!” I elbow Druig in the gut, “What was that for?”

“S- sorry, it’s gonna take me a minute to get used to this.” I give him an apologetic smile moving out of his grasp. “Hi there, girl I don’t know.”

“Hello, my name’s Makkari, you must be Y/N. Pietro talks about you a lot.” She signs to me with a hinging smile.

“What?”

“She said her name is Makkari and that he talks about you a lot.” Druig translates.

“Hey, don’t make it sound bad. I only tell her good things, I swear.” Pietro says quickly to me.

“No, no, I know what she said, it’s just a lot has happened in this short amount of time. My brain is still catching up.” Rubbing my forehead I let out a groan. “I think I have a headache coming on.”

“So, you know sign language, then?” Loki asks, sitting on the table with his feet on the bench. “I must say, Y/N you never cease to amaze me.”

“I’m not fluent or anything, I just know bits and pieces, cuz of Clint.” I say cautiously.

Makkari smiles understandingly and signs, “That’s alright, it’s nice to know that you can understand me- even if it’s just a little bit.”

“I didn’t know Hawk-man was deaf.” Loki scoffs.

“Okay, first off it’s Hawkeye, and secondly he wasn’t always deaf. He had an accident when he was a kid, something about an arrow and a boom box.” Jubilee shrugs, sitting down next to Loki. “And you! Where have you been?”

“Oh you know me. Here and there, sometimes everywhere and nowhere.”

“Alright Cheshire.” She bumps shoulders with him, rolling her eyes.

“Wait, how do you know sign language?” I turn to face Druig who just smirks in response. “Smirking doesn’t answer the question!”

“I know.” He laughs out, still smirking.

“We’ve been friends for the longest. And don’t mind the smirking, it’s a defense mechanism.” Makkari laughs as Druig moves to flick her forehead.

“Hey now, don’t be telling everyone stuff about me!” His accent breaking through.

“Whoa dude, what happened to your voice?” Jubilee asks pointing at Druig concerned.

“Oh, yes, he’s a bit sensitive about that.” I drape my arm around his shoulder, using my free hand I pat his chest- wow, it’s a lot harder than I thought it would be. “You work out?”

“Is this your way of copping a feel?” He retorts, sliding a hand to my waist. Neither of us say anything, we just stare at each other unblinking. I know he’s challenging me, he’s just trying to get under my skin, but if I deny it it makes him sound right, and if I accept it… He’s still right!

“I’ll tell you this once, Druig,” I remove myself from him and grip the hand that’s on my waist. A pained look crosses his face as he opens his mouth, “Sh! I’m speaking now. If you want to keep using your hand, do not put it on me. Can’t even give him an inch.”

“Who’s copping a feel now?” Makkari signs laughing at the shocked look on Druig’s face.

“Whose side are you on?” Druig snaps at Makkari extremely annoyed.

“I’m not on anybody's side. All I’m doing is stating facts.” She crosses her arms, smirking back at him.

“Whatever.” He glowers, casting his eyes to the ground.

Makkari walks up to him, giving him a hug and kissing his cheek.

“Just friends huh? Yeah right.” I scoff as a light blush crosses Druig’s cheek; he’s trying to play it cool, but it’s obvious this Makkari person does things to him. “Ugh, gag! I’m not jealous! Just… disgusted… yeah, disgusted.”

My scoff might have been a little loud because Loki and Jubilee are giving me the ‘Ooo girl really’ look. No one else seems to have heard it so I can recover from this… Not that there’s anything to recover from, or anything. It was a scoff of disgust, not jealousy. I don’t get jealous, it’s a colossal waste of time and energy. I have more important things to do, and being jealous isn’t one of them. Besides, I have friends that kiss me on the cheek so it’s not a big deal seeing it between two friends- even if they are different genders…

I am. Not! Jealous… Not even a little bit. Mm-mmm, no jealousy here.

“You two seem rather close for “friends”.” Loki’s voice cuts through the white noise of my non- jealous brain. I involuntarily let out a sigh, which I disguise as a simple clearing of my throat. Loki glances at me, indicating that he knows what I just did. Rolling my eyes I turn my attention to Makkari who begins signing.

“We’ve known each other for a very long time; he is one of the few people who didn’t make me feel different from everyone else. He treats me with the same respect as any other woman.” She places her hand up stopping Loki from pointing out Druig’s track record with women, Loki bites his tongue waiting for her to continue, “I know, but I’m talking about when we were 8 years old, this person he’s decided to show case isn’t the Druig I grew up with. But I love him regardless.” She grabs his shoulder shaking him as she smiles at his expression- even though he’s smiling he’s annoyed at her bit of truth.

“Ah, I see. Well, that’s good to know. You know, for some of us, who were wondering.” Loki smiles at Jubilee, who nods her head in response.

“Oh, and we dated for like, what? 5 years?” Makkari adds nonchalantly.

“Oh.”

“…Oh…” All heads turn to me, “Nice. I guess?”

“It was.” She keeps her same smile, and I have to be honest, it’s kind of getting on my nerves.

“Alright, well Jube’s it’s time to go- been time to go! You’re gonna be late for work, so let’s go.” I change my focus, to avoid the looks from everyone. I’m acutely aware that my response to Makkari was…. Basically rude, but we didn’t need to know that they dated for 5 years. She could’ve just said they dated, but whatevs I guess.

“Right, I can’t be late again! I’ll get fired- AGAIN!” She scrambles off of the table but freezes as she spots something in the distance. I turn to see what spooked her so bad but I don’t see anything, just a few students walking to and from the library.

“Oh, your Man Crush Monday is walking this way.” Loki snickers.

“Wha- who?! Who is this man?!” I search wildly for her crush who is pointed out to me by Loki, “Oh, him?”

“Why’d you say it like that?” She shrieks at me.

“Whoa, calm down, I just- didn’t think he’d be your type. That’s all.” I raise my hands in surrender taking a step back.

“You have no right to judge, your taste in men isn’t that great.” She jesters to Pietro who had started laughing, but let out a gasp at her.

“Rude.” He mumbles crossing his arms, “I’m a great taste, just ask the cheerleaders.”

Makkari, Jubilee and myself make faces of disgust while the boys grin like idiots at Pietro.

“Okay, wow. Didn’t need that, at all. But, Jubilee, why don’t you talk to him? He’s just a person like you or me.” Tilting my head I can see panic rising in her as her crush walks closer. “The worst thing he can say is that he doesn't like you… Okay, yeah it would suck, but it isn’t the end of the world. Plus, it’s not like you’re gonna walk up to him and say ‘Hi! I’m Jubilee and you make me feel crazy. Will you go out with me” that’s not something a sane person would do. Do you know why?”

“Be- because it would freak them out…?” She winces.

“… You didn’t, Jubilee please, tell me you didn’t.”

“No! I- I didn’t… It was much worse.” Her head hangs in defeat.

“How?!”

“I walked up to him, prepared to talk to him, but I choked and ended up just standing there like an idiot with my mouth hanging wide open not saying a word until class ended.”

“Oh, Jubes. Well-“ I think of what I can say to help her feel better, I got nothing.

“I know!”

“Okay well you can still salvage this. Just say you were having an off day, it happens to the best of us. I can assure you that your MCM has had an off day at least once.” I give her a reassuring smile and look at her MCM whose face is vaguely familiar to me. We make eye contact, and I know he finds my stare uncomfortable, but the need to know why he looks familiar to me is strong. Then it hits me.

“Barnes?” Shock clear in my voice, his discomfort is morphs into to shock, then relief.

“Y/N, hey.” A soft smile graces his features and I’m reminded why so many girls fawn over him, “How’ve you been?”

“Eh, can’t complain too much. You? I see you cut your hair.” I pout slightly, glaring at his hair, “Guess I won’t be braiding it anymore.”

There’s a shift in the atmosphere at our familiarity, and I don’t need to look at Jubilee to know that she feels betrayed. I shift into a more comfortable position causing Bucky to reflexively drop his shoulders; his guard is still up, but now it’s more manageable.

“Yeah, I guess not. Sorry.” He chuckles. “I figured it was time for something new. Or, old, really. You know.” His eyes glance around our faces, telling me that he isn’t ready to share his trauma with strangers. I nod my head understanding what he was talking about.

I remember when he told me about his train accident; he didn’t even mean to tell me, it just happened. By the time he realized what he told me, it was too late, we barely knew each other and it was obvious that he was scared. Scared about what I would say, how I would treat him, whether or not I’d tell people about him. When I said that it wasn’t my place or business to tell, he couldn’t believe me; after that he’d watch me to see if I was serious or lulling him into a false sense of security, 2 months later he decided I was ‘good people’. Even introduced me to his friends, Steve and Sam- great guys, shame they’re dating- shame for me, not them! Seeing how happy they are with each other almost makes me wish I could have something like that too, but feelings are a distraction and gross, so, eh!

“It looks good, I guess, I’m gonna miss the long brown locks though.” I put my finger under my eye, sliding it down my face.

“It’s hair, it’ll grow back.” He shrugs smirking. “You can still give me head massages.”

“It’s not the same.” I look to Jubilee, looking for confirmation but I’m met with a glare, looking at Loki I’m met with amusement, “So Bucky, how goes the project?”

“I haven’t started it yet, it’s not a big deal since my great grandfather was a WWII soldier who kept a journal, not to mention my grandfather told me the same stories he heard growing up. Let me know if you want some stories, I don’t mind sharing them with you.”

“Oh no, that’s alright, those are personal and they were mean for you and your family.”

He gives me a shrug shaking his head, “It’s history, besides my grandfather would be rolling in his grave if I wasn’t telling someone about the real things that happened during the war; he took one look at my history book when I was in the 6th grade and threw a fit. After that, I was told about all the hardship, death, fear, and pain they went through, it’s something that needs to be known, not sugarcoated or glossed over in three small chapters.”

“That is true, if I can’t come up with something by tomorrow I’ll hit you up. Thank you.” He graces me with a genuine smile- those are far, few and in between.

“Anytime doll.”

A giggle escapes me at the pet name, coincidentally not lost to the members of our little group- Okay I know I said Jubilee could do better with her taste in men, but to be fair I didn’t see him up close, and yes, I may or may not have had a crush on him when we first met the semester before, but that’s besides the point. I knew that he needed a friend at the time not a girlfriend- that and I’m not compatible with him in a romantic sense. We kissed one time and it felt like kissing a sibling and we vowed never to do that again.

“Doll?” Druig mutters with a scoff turning his eyes to the library.

“So what’re you up to now?” Bucky asks unbothered by Druig.

“Nothing much, we were just about to leave.” I look to Jubilee, whose glare has evolved into a death glare that makes me jump a bit in surprise, quickly looking to Loki, I’m met with the same intensity. Getting the hint I look back to Bucky, “Hey Bucky- James-“

“James?” He laughs in disbelief, “I told you that you can call me Bucky. We’re close enough for it. James just sounds weird when you say it.”

“Uh, right.” Turning away from the two I can feel heat burning into my skull, “So. Bucky. Have you met Jubilee?”

Her death glare promptly ends, and she’s a deer stuck in headlights. Perfect!

“Hmm, don’t think so.” His eyes shift to her and there’s something there, something good, “Hi, I’m Bucky.”

She stares at his outstretched hand, and I jab her in her side causing her to reach out and shake his hand. It was a very noticeable jab, but Bucky being Bucky smiles and steps closer to Jubilee. Poor girl's heart is definitely racing.

“Is she bothering you, Y/N can be so mean sometimes.”

“Uh- y-y-yeah.” Her eyes still trained on their hands.

“Smooth.” As soon as the words leave my mouth Bucky kicks the side of my leg never breaking his- his whatever it is. He’s really just staring at her face since she hasn’t looked up from their hands, either way, “The kick was uncalled for. Just saying.”

“So what’re you up to?’

“REALLY?!” I throw my hands up in the air, “Unbelievable.”

“…Noth- nothing.”

My head starts shaking as they’re eyes lock.

“Nothing?! Girl, you have work!”

“You sure?” Bucky asks Jubilee.

“Yes I’m sure, I’m her ride!” I answer thinking the question is for me.

“Yeah I’m sure.”

“JUBILEE!” I pull their hands apart and step between them, “Yes I’m cockblocking right now, but only because you need to get to work. You can’t afford to get fired. Again! And you!” I spin around to Bucky, “You should know better! Just pick her up from work, she gets off at 9 tonight. Hell, you can even take her to wok now if you want.”

“Yeah?” The happiness in his tone changes my mind instantly.

“No. Nope, mm-mmm I’ve changed my mind, you sound way too happy and eager. Slow your roll dude.”

“Y/N you’re not my mom, if I want to go with Bucky I can.” She snaps at me.

Slowly my head turns to her as she begins to apologize.

“Get in my car.” I hold my keys out to her, “Now.”

She gives me a small ‘okay’ and does a walk of shame to the parking lot.

“I forgot how scary you can be, Bast. It felt like my mother was here disciplining me for lighting Thor’s homework on fire again.”

“I wasn’t mean, I was stern. There’s a difference, she can’t get fired again, or else she’ll be dealing with someone who is actually mean. Hey, give me your phone Buck, how else are you gonna tell her you’re waiting for her outside.”

“It sounds so creepy when you say it like that.” He hands me his phone, and I give it back after sending Jubilee a ‘hey this is Bucky’ text. A muffled shout is heard from my car as she stares at her phone.

“Good luck.” I smile, and begin walking backwards to the parking lot, “See yeah guys later! Bye Drui- Barr- Dru- *sigh* guy I’m doing a project with.”

“Smooth.” Druig smirks.

“Eh I try!” I wave walking towards my car to a hyperventilating Jubilee.

“OMG! OMG! OH MY GOD!!!!!!! Y/N!!!! HE TEXTED ME!”

“I know. I gave him your number, how else is he gonna text you that he’s waiting outside for you?” I put my seatbelt on and drive out of the parking lot.

“You know it just sounds creepy when you say it.” She grimaces at me as a loud laugh pass from my lips.

“God, you two are gonna get along great. Just remember to invite me to the wedding and make me a bridesmaid.” Stopping at the stop sign, I bat my eyelashes at her as she shoves me blushing.

“Shut up! Don’t get ahead of yourself. I don’t even know if he likes me or not.”

“Bitch really?” My eyebrow raises at her.

“No, I mean like like-likes me.” She sighs out.

When I don’t answer her right away she looks at me to see that my face is still the same.

“Bitch. Really?”

“Well you two seem close.”

“We are, but not like that. I know him well enough to know that he genuinely likes you. Not many girls make his eyes light up, let alone want him to shake and then hold their hands.”

“Drive Y/N.”

I chuckle checking the road and merge into traffic, Jubilee was quiet for about 5 minutes when she breaks it.

“I’m not the only one who had her hand held by a guy whose eyes light up.”

My foot taps the accelerator accidentally and we surge forward, “Shit Y/N be careful!”

“I- I am!” I say correcting our speed thankfully nobody was in front of us. “Besides I don’t even know what you’re talking about.”

“Right. Loki told me.”

“Wha- when?”

“You’re not even going to deny it?” She turns to face me, shocked.

“I’m tired and not in the mood, and there wasn’t any ‘eyes lighting up’ or anything. If I had a good night's sleep it never would’ve happened. The only reason it did was because I was tired and didn’t catch it in time. So, don’t get the wrong idea.”

“Mm-hmm, right~.”

“Don’t do that.” I pull into the strip mall parking lot pulling up the curb, “Nothing intense or romantic, or magically happened between me and Druig- BARRY! We just buried the hatchet, that’s all. I’ll be damned if I ever fall for that guy.”

“Alright.” A cat-like grin spreads across her face, and I know she’s not letting this go anytime soon.

“Seriously Jubilee, my morals are too high. Besides, even if something ever did happen between us, he wouldn’t even know what to do.”

“Ooooooo, cocky aren’t we?” She wiggles her shoulders at me as I push her out of my car.

“Got out, now go to work.” I laugh watching as she makes sure she has everything.

“Love you! See you later babes.” She blows me a kiss as I watch her go in. When i can’t she her anymore I drive back to campus, and the thought of seeing Druig again hits me. My stomach begins to churn from the overwhelming feeling of butterflies!

“Ugh! I thought I was done with this?! Damn coffee!” Stopping at the red I can’t stop the images of Druig from flooding in. From his smile, to the head tilt that he does when he’s trying to figure something out, all the way to his eyes. Those blue, blue eyes that compliment him so well, that seem to bring out a softness to him.

“What the fuck?!” I say startled at the honk from behind me, “Dammit, pay attention Y/N.”

Driving back to the library parking lot I see that everyone is gone, and my heart feels… heavy?

“How is that even possible? It’s just because I’m tired, yeah. I should go back to my room and sleep.” Driving to my dorm I park and sit for a bit rubbing my eyes, “Oh shit! I never got Dru- Bar- Dr-… I didn’t get his number.”

Let my head fall onto the steering wheel. I feel my phone vibrate.

LOKI 🐍✨

1:59 PM

“So, today was fun 😏.”

“Define ‘fun’”

“Oh, you know… 😏”

“…”

“No, No I don’t. What do you want Loki? I’m super tired.”

“Sigh fine, you’re no fun when you’re tired.”

“Duh.”

“This is for you.😘”

2:14 PM

“Loki?”

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“Okay then?” I get out of my car and walk to my room. Unlocking the door I walk to my room and collapse on my bed, “Ooooooohhhhh how I’ve missed you.”

Snuggling into my pillow I feel myself drifting off, but it’s disturbed by the buzz of my phone, picking it up I see Loki has texted me back.

LOKI🐍✨

2:21 PM

“XXX-XXX-XXXX”

“Loki, whose number is this?”

“Text it and find out 😘😘 Love you!”

“🙃”

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“Whatever, I’ll deal with this when I have the brain power… Oh what the hell.” Turning on my back I text the number.

“Sup.”

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“Sup..”

“Not much, you?”

“Same.”

“Cool.”

“Who are you?”

“Who ARE you?”

“I asked you first.”

“What’s your point?”

Thought bubbles appear on the screen but disappear after a few seconds, but soon enough they’re back again. It goes on like this for about 30 seconds before I type.

“What? Cat got your fingers?”

“… ha ha…”

“😌”

“I’m Y/N”

“OH! Hey~”

“… bye.”

XXX-XXX-XXXX

“WAIT WAIT! It’s me Druig.”

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“Hello?”

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“Sorry, I’m falling asleep rn.”

“Rude.”

“Sorry I told you didn’t sleep well.”

“Oh I thought you were joking”

“I never joke about sleep”

“No, not when you told, I meant now. I thought you were saying I bore you.”

“Oh…no…”

“…very convincing”

“Heehee”

“Haha”

“Ok. Well I’m goin to sleep now.”

“K”

“Sweet dreams❤️.”

“Mm-hmm, if i don’t think of you i will have them”

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“Did I hurt his feelings?” My phone buzzes as his text comes in.

“What’s my contact name?”

“Don’t have one yet. Still thinking.”

“Don’t hurt yourself”

“HA! Nice one.”

“I try😉”

“Mmmm k.”

“I’ll let you know when I think of one😘”

“Oh. Okay, I look forward to it, Dote.”

“Dote?”

“My nickname for you, dont worry it’s nothing weird, or gross lol”

“Alright good! 😂”

“I’ll text you more about the project later”

“Look forward to it Dote”

“You know you don’t have to text me just for the project you know”

“You know you wrote ‘you know’ twice…you know?”

“🤓 nerd!”

“Thank you❤️”

“You’re welcome 🖤”

“Black heart?”

“I like black, besides red hearts are so over done. And people get the wrong idea about it”

“?Y/N.exe has stopped working.”

“Lol”

“At least for me, girls get the wrong idea when I sent a red heart. So I only send black.”

“Ok. I guess”

“A heart is a heart but whatever.

“Anywho good night dude.”

“You can do better than ‘dude’”

“I’m stil thinking! Geez!”

“So impatient 😒”

“Sorry😘”

“🖕”

“Really now, you dont strike me as that kind of girl.”

“🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕”

“🤣”

“Get some sleep Dote”

“❤️”

“Thanks”

“🖕🖤”

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Placing my phone on the nightstand I feel the weight of sleep pulling at me, before my head hits the pillow again I’m already asleep.

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It’s been a good few days since I’ve posted and i want to let you all know that it will get worse. My family and I are in the process of moving across the country (US) so posting is gonna be a while. But hopefully it won’t be too bad.

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