#i’d love to hear if anyone else has any ‘foreshadowing’ moments in their youth

[danothan]

one of my favorite “queer foreshadowing” memories of my childhood was when in 7th grade, i was doodling and wondering aloud abt how much more fun it was to draw girls than guys, and my friend was like “well yeah, probably bc you are a girl,” and i was distinctly upset by that reasoning but couldn’t figure out why (maybe bc he was wrong), so i doubled down like “you don’t get it, girls are rly soft, they have curves that are more fun to draw,” etc etc (thinking that if i explained it more, he wouldn’t think i was talking abt myself), but he just got flustered and interrupted me saying “you don’t have to explain anymore.” (keep in mind, he’s gay)

just 2 awkward queer kids trying to deal w each other’s closeted bullshit lmao

[thecantabilelife]

Favorite Quotes of Age of Youth (K-Drama, 2016)

Brief Review:

Judging from its title, I thought Age of Youth would have light & cute vibes resembling the bittersweet of youth ages. But, apparently, this drama is darker and a bit depressing. It doesn’t mean it’s a bad thing, in fact, I am pleasantly surprised that this drama was dare to take sensitive issues in society (such as sugar daddy, dating violence, mistreatment at workplace) and pull it to an intriguing plot. All 5 main characters are flawed, and seem unlikable based on first episode, but when their layers are peeled off one by one, I start to relate to their stories. This drama is not just about a bonding relationship of 5 girls who live together in boarding house, or the characters that are described only as white & black – protagonist & antagonist. As a coming-age drama, Age of Youth offer more mysterious stories and complex characters, but still, can give moral values about how to overcome struggles and growing up. It’s such a pleasure to find an unconventional K-Drama like Age of Youth, a little gem of female centric drama with well-written story, and I can’t wait eagerly for Season 2. Yeay!

Ep 1

I thought that I was the only one who was holding back. I thought that I was the only one who felt uncomfortable at times. I thought that I was the only one who was being wary of others. I thought that it would be of no use, even if I did say something. I was scared that I would be hated if I did say something. I assumed that they’d laugh at me. In that way, I assumed that other people were completely different from me. I thought that they were ruder than me, and more reckless than I am. I thought that they wouldn’t care. I was being arrogant. Others are just like me. Other people are people, just like I am. They feel as uncomfortable as I do, and hesitate, just like I do. There are plenty of people who are as nice as I am. – Yoo Eun Jae

There are two kinds of secrets. Secrets that you can tell, and secrets that you can’t tell. Secrets that are okay to share at moments like these are secrets that are okay to be told to others. I have a secret that I can never tell. I’ve killed someone before.  – Yoo Eun Jae

Ep 2

Lies may be similar to makeup. Just like one puts on makeup to hide their naked face. People use lies to hide the truth. I tell more and more lies as my makeup gets thicker. Since when did I start feeling that going out with no makeup on was embarrassing? Since when did I become so ashamed of the truth? Yeah. The truth is pathetic, sad, and pitiful, just like that. Because it’s truly painful when your earnestness is rejected by someone else. Acting cool, and acting as if you like the other person less and acting like you’re just joking.  – Jung Ye Eun

Ep 3

I hate you because I’m jealous of you. I hate you because you have nothing to your name, and yet make me feel so poor. I hate you because you make me envy you. I hate you because I want to become like you, but can’t. So I can’t help but to hate you. That’s why it’s smell. There’s rotting smell coming from my envy. – Kang Yi Na

Ep 4

There was once a time when I longed to be special. I believed that I had a special fate in store for me and that my life would be different than of others. I told myself that I wouldn’t end up becoming average, no matter what. To be average means to be comfortable. To be average means to not catch anyone’s eye. To be average means to be boring. I’m even less than average right now. – Yoon Jin Myung

When I think that someone may like me, I become weak. And if I become weak now… it’ll really be the end for me. So… don’t like me. – Yoon Jin Myung

Ep 5

Breaking up with someone means that even if something good happens, you can’t be happy together. And that you can’t worry about them, even if something bad happens. The fact that you’ve broken up with someone means that you can no longer be curious about each other. The fact that you’ve broken up with someone means that the future that you’d imagined, with you being alongside them is something that you must give up on. – Jung Ye Eun

Ep 6

Friends shouldn’t photoshop the reality of their lives to one another. – Kang Yi Na

No incident starts out dramatically. Everything that happens in our daily lives is due to cause and effect. In retrospect, there were signs hidden everywhere. A small joke. A passing glance. The meaning behind a sigh that you thought meant nothing. If only I’d known what they’d meant, back then. But, just as foreshadowing only becomes obvious in hindsight, one only realizes the gravity of each passing second only after it’s gone. Thinking back on that day now… I may have set the stage for everything, despite not having any bad intentions. – Song Ji Won

Ep 7

You should be an independent woman who don’t need a man! This is the 21st century! – Song Ji Won *Ji Won is my spirit animal*

Ep 8

Everyone has their own circumstances to deal with. And until you know the circumstances they’re in, you can’t tell people how to live their lives. It’s not just Ye Eun. It’s Senior Kang and Senior Yoon, too. I’m sure you have something like that about you, too. Something that others can’t understand about you, but you can’t help. That’s why you can’t judge people willy-nilly…  – Song Ji Won *Ji Won is so cool!!!*

I can’t quit. To me, this place is like a test. A trial run, kind of. If I can’t last here, I won’t be able to last anywhere. But if I can last here… I can last anywhere. I’ve decided that, on my own. So I… won’t quit this job. – Yoon Jin Myung

Sometimes, I want to cry out loud. I want someone to hear me crying. I want them to hear my cry, and tell me everything will be okay. I want someone to pat me on the back, and tell me that it’s not my fault. Sometimes, I want to throw a tantrum. At a person, or at my fate. And tell them, “stop it, already.” “Haven’t you done enough?” “Please, just spare me.” And… I’ll find hope, once more. – Yoon Jin Myung

Ep 9

I thought to myself, “Why are they all trying so hard?” Life is more fragile than a cheap toy. So how is it that they all consider their lives to be that precious? I’m curious. I thought about why everyone is trying so hard to move forward. Even though they don’t even know what awaits them. I felt like people who plotted out a point somewhere and worked hard to get there seemed strange.  – Kang Yi Na

I thought that people only got lost when they tried to go somewhere and I thought that people’s lives only got hard because they set objectives. But staying in the same place for too long makes you lose your way too, it seems. I may have been… stuck underwater all this time. As I slowly sank downward. So… who was the one who’d held me back all this time?  – Kang Yi Na *I truly can relate*

Ep 10

Humans are not such simple creatures. She wouldn’t have made a decision like that just because of one reason. Right?  I mean, even if one final straw breaks the camel’s back, that’s just one piece straw we’re talking about. The reason is because of the crushing weight, not just that one piece straw… The same weight and responsibility as one piece of straw…  – Song Ji Won

And I’d especially like to pray for Senior Yoon. Senior Yoon needs help right now. Please let me know how I can be of help to Senior Yoon. And if I can’t be the one to help her, please help her, God. – Jung Ye Eun

Ep 11

You said before that everyone has their own circumstances affecting what they do. I just felt like you, of all people, would understand why I did that. I wanted someone to tell me that… there was nothing else I could do in that situation. I wanted at least one person in this world to understand me.  – Yoo Eun Jae

Ep 12

Living life diligently sure is a lot of work. Should I just quit? What if I just keep trying my best, but this isn’t the right path for me? Shouldn’t I try to find a different goal to work toward, as soon as possible? This is driving me crazy! It’s not like I’m going through puberty! Why am I worrying about what I want to be when I grow up, at this age, when other people have been done thinking about this a long time ago?  – Kang Yi Na *Again… Can relate.*

I guess people’s memories really aren’t trustworthy.  – Yoo Eun Jae

I want to do something capricious for once in my life. To be honest, I felt a bit nervous. It feels like I just jumped off a moving train by myself. – Yoon Jin Myung

Special Note:

Kang Yi Na and Song Ji Won are my favorite characters. Such a pity that the Production Team decided to not continue Kang Yi Na’s story in Season 2 (she maybe appear as cameo in 1-2 episode), because I love Kang Yi Na’s badass & tough personality *it’s so rare to find this type character in K-Drama land*. Whatever the reason behind this, I hope they can make a new great character as interesting as Kang Yi Na.

As for Song Ji Won, she is so cool and ultimately my spirit animal. She is like a glue in the squad, and I love that behind her quirky and weirdness personality, she is actually thoughtful and wiser than the other girls, and this is played brilliantly by Park Eun Bin. I am a little disappointed that her character is underused here, so I hope they can more focus and explore Song Ji Won’s story in Season 2, as she has so much potential and there are some unanswered questions in her arc. Hopefully, my wish will be granted :)

Please make a loveline for these cuties >.<

See you in Season 2 :)

-AquaMarine-