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[barbatoskisser]

Hello humans! Quick warning - I spam sometimes and I just reblog ang type wtv. Consider this q blog full of whatever catches my eye. May contain smut but I try to keep this as sfw & friendly as possible <3

Pronouns here for those who want to compliment but dunno how <3 (i love you all, i need to update it, but its pretty accurate for now!)

Commissioms OPEN 0/5 link here for info

PSA - not terribly active due to irl reasons!! Dw, ill explain everything once I have a chance. But yeah, I'm mostly on discord because thats where a lot of my friends congregate. May still reblog occassionally. Asks are always open, just might take a min for me to respond !

Name

Adin River Barbatos

Age

19...somehow? I don't know either.

Pronouns

He/Its but if it/its just feels awkward to you, they/them is fine (in moderation). Primarily I use he/him though.

Rules / Guidelines

Very much basically just don't be an asshole to me or my mutuals and to protected groups. I support palestine and ukraine, gay and trans, and I'm far from neurotypical. I'm white too, but nyeh. Overall I dont support racism, zionism, homophobia, transphobia, and abelism. Be nice. Not as enforced but if your a minor and think "oh hey neat! A sfw adult blog!" Thats cool but dont be surprosed if I randomly rb a venti smut or spicy venti, lyney, xingqiu, or aether fanart. I fullhearted consider all above as adults and now willing to debate it. If you don't think so, just block me. If genshin ever says directly "[character] is under 18 years of age." And its one of the few, then no shit I'll get rid of this but otherwise it stays up. Eitherway, yeah, no promises i wont reblog spicy occassionally. Be warned and dont interact with that stuff unless ur a legal adult. Also, preferrably, keep drama to a minimum. If a mutual of mine, or someone ypu may think of as a mutual of mine, does something problematic send me a dm and be respectful about it. I'll investigate and if I find it absolutely appalling I'll no longer be friends with them. But just know 9 times out of 10, I really dont care about what my friends post about (see: "problematic" fics. I DON'T CARE. If it doesnt involve in real life humans, i do not give less of a shit.) Unless its in real life that someone did sonething illegal then I'll give a shit. Otherwise, yeah, i'll side with my friends. No offense.

Friends

@definesanity , @archaicanathema , @gunterdon , @unkownknowledge , @pale-value , just to name a few. They're all great [chefs kiss]. I'm always open to gaining more mutuals, but preferably be 16 or older. I don't understand gen alpha or anyone under 16. They confuse me. Henceforth; please be over that age otherwise I'll feel like I'm talking to a toddler. And i doubt you wsnt to be treated like a toddler. Anyone born past the 2010s atp is a toddler to me. I'm a 2005s kid.

Species

Am catboy future vtuber / streamer with secret human. Hint, a friend of mine. Also, if you ask my friend gunter, he'll say eldritch creature. So, honestly, who knows ~ ehe.

Fandoms/Interests

Hunter x Hunter, Genshin Impact, Ouran High School Host Club, Lunasmr audios, That Time I Got Reincarnated As A Slime...If its popular enough, I've probably watched it. I used to play Honkai Star Rail, but I've since fallen out of it. Kuma Kuma Kuma Bear, some others. Essentially, quite a number of modern isekai. Up to Overhaul arc of my hero academia with no plans on finishing, all of Hunter x Hunter, all of Dragom Ball Z, up to the universe tournament arc in Super, All of Slime in the anime adaptation. Though i do have webnovel spoilers. By the grace of the gods (pleasw someone yell at me about it. I beg you), Lowkey getting into Monkey Kid lego edition

Okay as I'm rewriting this I've watched a lot, and I mean a lot of shit. So ask me about a show if its not on here. The only ones I can say I haven't watched are demon slayer, attack on titan, naruto, and one piece. Maybe one day, but certainly not today. Currently about to start a few new series. On youtube I'm starting to watch Grian and Kaboodle. Damn their fun. I dont know if its on here, too lazy to check, but also pLEASE ALSO YELL TO ME ABOUT IRUMA KUN. I LOVE IRUMA KUN SM. I NEED MORE IRUMA KUN MOOTS.

Favorite character(s)

Killua Zoldyck, Gon Freecss, Venti / Barbatos, Goku, Illumi Zoldyck, Ryoma Takebayoshi, Alluka and Nanika Zoldyck, Kurapika Kurta, Izuku Midoriya, Shouto Todoroki, Rimuru Tempest / Satoru Mikami, Milim, Veldora Tempest, Paimon, Xiao, Gorou, Lyney, Lynette, Arlechhino, Furina, Zhongli / Rex Lapis, Focalors, Karma Akabane, Korosensei, Nagisa Shiota, the rezt are kinda forgettable. Mavuika, Nahida, Mualani, Kachina, and more to come. I love so many different characters its not even funny.

Other Things

Congrats if you've read down this much! Here would be a secret code for a silly but the co-conspirator said no. You'll have to wait!

[transrightsjimin]

i dont like to talk abt this much bc itll make me feel sad but i feel bad abt not remembering much of the concert itself but rather more all the interactions w other fans that i had and just everything happening that wasnt the concert itself. i had the same thing as w the two previous bts concerts i attended where i did think it was super good and laughed and nearly cried when thinking abt how much i love and will miss them but also most of the time i was, even while smiling, just thinking so much abt my depression and wishing i would feel MORE like just nothing ever feels real nd i hate it! i especially had that feeling this concert bc the members were so far away. i could finally see their entire bodies rather than sometimes the top of a head like at the previous two concerts, but they were still too far away to make out their features well so it took a few seconds to recognize e.g. who was standing at the front or w his back to us or smth and i had to look at the screens more which was nicely filmed (w cameras sometimes switching late to a member but thats all) but that wasnt the REAL them abd i wanted to look at that and just. man at every concert i attended thus far i just couldnt see shit in one way or another. maybe i saw them the best at the first concert. i mean i saw them the best at the interview and lottery thingy at kcon paris where i won the lottery and honestly? i think that kind of ruined my experience to some extent. i hate fans who want to seek only attention (or as annoying twt ppl call it, "wanting to be y/n") but i am a super needy person nd this fan interaction has given me unrealistic expectations and they were so CLOSE and VISIBLE the first time i saw them snd that just wasnt the case in the concerts like. they were there and i was there but it didnt seem to be in the same place nor irl. and time passed so fast in the paris concert! the amsterdam one seemed to take ages but that was bc i was dead exhausted but at bts stade de france the 3 hours seemed to pass within an hour and it was just so fast and i didnt know mikrokosmos was the final somg so i was li e wait why are they bowing?? nd i wanted to cry so bad, maybe crying wouldve made me feel more alive. i just want to feel alive and i guess i want bts to give me that feeling and they do, but when im at their amazing concerts i can only think abt how depressed i am and how much my depression ruins everything and fuck im crying. i truly had an amazing trip and the concert was great, i just wished i truly FELT it was great! maybe im just also remembering mainly the bad stuff bc of depression. and i filmed so much of the concert so i could look back at it again and while i did try to look at them irl at the same time, it was hard to balance my phone and army bomb and flag and watch them irl and on their screens and the fans and just. i didnt know where to look and i could only see them well on the big screens. man fuck depression. my new therapist recommended me mindfulness apps and first i thought oh god and i still dont truly understand the floaty(?) abstract concept that no one seems to b able to reply but shes right, it would help me a lot to just be able to focus on one thing only and live more in the moment. it's just hard when youre depressed and autistic and stressed / anxious and very likely have adhd. man i needed this good cry. i want to see bts again and again and again. i want to go back. i wish i went for two days. i wish it wasnt windy so jungkook could fly in the air towards us and bts could jump on the bouncy castle. i wish we managed to do the two singing fan projects. i wish i wasnt so fucking sad while seeing my favourite boys in the world.