#i wuv them a lotttt

[polistini]

i dont usually post things like this but i compiled as many bust shots of ekix one of my oldest and most beloved ocs throughout the years to compare how theyve changed/my art has changed over time :) bottom row is the transition from fan character into original character! the first two are from when i was 11 and 12 respectively i think! im 26 now. for context. its been a while

[softshouyous-archive]

sleepover, curious, gravel to tempo, and let it be ?

HELLO 

sleepover: have you ever liked a friend as more than a friend? did you tell them? if it was in the past, do you wish that you told them?yeah!!! actually it’s interesting once i found out that i was bi all my crushes after that were friends (and girls, actually!! + they were more genuine), when before that they were just like... classmates who i BARELY knew. i’ve actually only told ONE person and that was way after the fact GJDFKGJDF like we were on the phone talking about guys ? something about a guy/guys who liked her and i asked her how she reacts to knowing that people like her and then there was a moment where like idk how it got there but she was like ‘DO U HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY,,,,’ and she got it out of me GFJDKG and it was nice because we were laughing about it and she said she was really flatteredoh and as for the past hm i don’t think i have bravery to like.... ever tell someone at the time... gfDGFDK bc idk i think like . the risk of things feeling weird you know ! and if it turns out not being reciprocated it’s like.... for what...gnjdfkgnfdkj though i know the chance of feelings being reciprocated is like possible but like aaaa i don’t think i could ever unless i’m like sure that the other person liked me gnfdkjgf 

curious: do you drink? what’s your favourite drink? what drink isn’t your thing?AHHH omg i LOVE stella rosa!!!! i haven’t tried the red or black flavors but i want to! a little scared bc what if i don’t like them ): idk why but i feel like they’re going to be like strong or bitter based off of the names??? gfdjkg anyway i wuv stella rosa, flavored soju, and flavored smirnoff drinks!! oh and also white wine moscotto (i think that’s what it’s called) (~: i’m more of a sweet drinks kind of person like i had beer and No...... I Do Not Understand How People Can Drink It (but i respect you?) and also regular soju and sake.... NO...... i heard flavored sake is good so i still have some hope for that!! OH AND ALSO RUM..... that was like my first hard liquor (?) experience and NO...... esp bc i drank like EIGHT shots in a vvv short amount of time.... was not a good experience.... so basically any hard liquor/non sweet drinks.... a no ghdfkjgfd

gravel to tempo: have you come out to anyone? if yes, who was the first person you told? if no, do you want to? who would you tell first?YA it took me quite a while (?) to come out i think but actually i don’t remember who the first person was ghfdkjgf okay well i do but i don’t think that counted GFDJKGL and also actually the first person that found out like.... IT WAS AN ACCIDENT....like i was vvv new to snapchat and i was sending snaps to an online friend abt possibly liking a girl and i SAVED IT BC I DIDNT KNOW WHAT THAT BUTTON MEANT... so it was in my gallery and my friend was looking through my phone and i told her to NOT but she saw it and the PANIC I FELT... it was even worse bc we were hanging out with a friend who i wasn’t all that comfortable with and she had just come back from the restroom so i was just silently sitting in intense panic without being able to address that hgjfdhgfdk

but the first person was a friend! whoever it was... gjkfdgf it’s funnie because i haven’t had a proper/conventional (???) coming out like all of them have been sporadic and just really... random gdfkjlgkfdj i don’t like planning it or prefacing it with ‘hey i have something really srs and important to tell you’ bc it just gives me a lotttt of anxiety jgkfdhg bc then that person is just like rlly intently listening and looking at me and omg my hands are sweating just thinking about it,.,,, like idk things just get a lot harder to say vs a casual joke about it you know??? gjdfkgdf like when i came out to my brother it was so funnie and unexpected like he was taking apart our vaccuum and he was like ‘ugh i wish you were more like me’ (in the sense of being able to fix things) and i just laughed and was like ‘well sorry i’m not straight’ and he was just like WAIT WHAT??? and it was so funnie bc he’s rarely ever caught off guard and i was just laughing gkfdgjfd

let it be: who was your worst heartbreak? have you ever been in love? do you even believe in love?hm does heartbreak count as being rejected or like ?? because i’ve never had that.... but i’ve experienced one sided crushes/love and i feel like that was heartbreak ESP with the more i loved a person. like the more i loved them the more it hurt that they didn’t like me back ))): oh and ywes i do believe in love? i can’t really think of a reason.. not to i guess?? gdfjklgjdfgfdasks!!