#i would simply freak myself out so much id be exhausted

[leafwateraddict]

Him again

[zaney-hacknslash]

FallOut Ch. 2

Aizawa

              In the station lobby, lights flickered, and the normally polished floors looked dull and scored; fingerprints marred the windows from when some kids had passed, and no one manned the reception desk. All of it made me feel foolish for thinking that, once Kira had been captured, I’d be able to return to this place, which had always been full of camaraderie, a second home to me, and go back to my old life as a detective.

           Kira had been dead for thirty-three days, and people expected him to come back at any moment. The world resented us for announcing his death, and on January twenty-eighth, a new world had been born. Fresh and blinking, lost and confused, not sure who to follow or who to trust. Crime rates stayed low, leaving us with nothing to do, and wearing my badge earned me nasty looks in public.

           Ide insisted it would all blow over; I knew, when it did, this new world would become just like the old one—violent, hateful, and full of fear.

           Sulky Matsuda didn’t help. I’d gotten used to him being the voice of optimism, shamelessly expressing his naïve and upbeat views, but I hadn’t realized how much more bleak life would seem without any of that. I had no idea how to compensate, no idea how to draw him from the haze he’d wandered into.

           For the first few days after Light’s death, he’d completely disappeared, not answering his phone or his door. I’d been wrapped up in an exhausting debriefing session, so there hadn’t been much I could do, but by the time I saw him at the funeral, he was already too messed up to intervene.

           If it was just the sloppy state of his apartment or the lack of food, I’d look the other way. The change in his attitude was what worried me.

           Most of the time, he seemed tremendously far away, disinterested, and straight up spacey. He wouldn’t talk to me the way he used to, spouting off everything that happened to enter his head, whether I wanted to hear it or not, and I rarely got face time with him at the precinct. I had a captain’s duties, no time to discuss feelings over a cup of hot chocolate. All I could do was watch him from across the squad room, worrying over what I saw, standing behind delicate, red tape as he drowned.

           Since Light’s funeral, normally punctual Matsuda had gotten into the habit of being fifteen or twenty minutes late everywhere he went, but, this morning, when nearly an hour had gone by without any sign of him, Ide and I had started to grumble to each other, in passing, about his carelessness. When more than an hour had passed, Mogi suggested we call him. No one else had seemed to notice he wasn’t around—in addition to getting lazy in my absence, the squad had lost the sense of community which held it together back in the days of Chief Yagami—so I’d taken it upon myself.

           He hadn’t answered. I’d thrown my hands up, said it wasn’t my problem, and tried to focus, but I couldn’t stop watching his desk, more and more anxious with every second he wasn’t sitting at it.

           Three hours turned out to be more than enough for me. New, moody Matsuda freaked me out too much, and if angry Matsuda would go to the extreme of shooting Light Yagami, I didn’t dare put anything past depressed Matsuda; I’d even worried about what I would find if I busted down the door to his apartment.

           Then the dope had just looked at me like he didn’t understand why I was there.

           Worrying seemed silly now, walking next to him. Yeah, his hair was ragged, and his suit wasn’t pressed, and he looked distant, eyes a little red. At his apartment, he’d snapped at me for the first time ever, and I hadn’t known if I should slap him with a write-up or make him some tea. But none of it was really that alarming. Most importantly, I had to keep in mind that he was a coworker—a subordinate—the task force had been unceremoniously dissolved, and if he didn’t want to confide in me, I had no right to push.

           When we stepped off the elevator, I saw Ide and Mogi standing down the hall, waiting. Ide swiped some black hair back from his forehead and fumbled through his suit for cigarettes, apparently trying to look unconcerned, but Mogi stared hard at us.

           Matsuda greeted them listlessly. “Good morning, Lieutenant. Good morning, Sergeant.”

           Ide stopped in front of him, folding his arms. We’d known each other a long time, and I recognized true concern in his narrow eyes as he admonished, “It’s practically afternoon now, Sparky.”

           “Yeah.” Matsuda heaved a light sigh.

           “The captain was starting to panic.” Ide grinned at me.

           “So was the lieutenant,” I grumbled. He’d only hissed at me, half a dozen times in the last two hours, do you think Matsuda’s okay?

           But those were fears he wouldn’t confess to anyone other than me, and Ide simply laughed like it was all a joke.

           Matsuda choked out a strained chuckle of his own. “No reason to worry.”

           Twice as earnest as Ide, Mogi towered over Matsuda, thick build making the kid look smaller and more delicate than ever. “So, then, you’re okay?”

           Rubbing his face, tiredly, Matsuda nodded. “I better let the commish know I’m here.” He stepped past them and continued on his way.

           Lately, higher-ups had been hard to come by; a lot of them had quit out of fear, including our chief, and, for the commissioner had stepped in to handle daily supervisions.

           He was a new hire, brought on by Deputy Director Yagami not long ago, and I suspected he’d made our precinct his temporary office simply because it was home base to the former task force. I’d rather not believe that—God knows, there was more than enough to be concerned over without suspecting my own superiors—but, I couldn’t fully trust him. Not after my debriefing.

           There had been a hell I didn’t need. Not twenty-four hours after Light had died, they’d dragged me in here, trying to get all the facts, they’d said. But the debriefing had been anything but protocol. Day after day of relentless questioning had passed, until I’d thought I might break, and, in the end, I’d only gotten out of it because Ide managed to get a hold of Near.

           He’d set them straight on what they did and didn’t need to know about Kira

, I’d written up a bullshit report, and they’d finally left me alone, but Commissioner Oshima had been watching me ever since.

           The last thing we needed was for him to set his sights on Matsuda next.

           “I better go check back in myself,” I announced, following him.

           Ide came right behind me, muttering, “At least if that snake tries to rip him a new one that’ll give me an excuse to tell him what I really think of him.”

           “We can’t afford to draw attention to ourselves,” I reminded him.

           “Sure.” He gestured to Matsuda, who wandered ahead of us, seemingly in his own, little world. “We’re off to a great start.”

           Lucky for all three of us, Oshima didn’t have much to say. He was an older guy with graying hair and hard eyes, and I could tell Matsuda’s idiotic story about letting his phone die and oversleeping did irritate him, but he brusquely told him not to let it happen again, and then called me forward to explain where I’d been for an hour and a half. In fact, he seemed more annoyed with my absence than he did with Matsuda’s, and I got the feeling he viewed me as a more valuable officer.

           Compared to most of the squad, Matsuda did have a soft demeanor, a glow of endless youth to him, and the naivete of a starry-eyed rookie, even now. Four or five years ago, we’d started referring to him as the kid behind his back, maybe sneeringly, at first, but, anymore, it looked lik that cheerfulness and blithe might be damaged forever. And, after watching him shoot a pen out of Light’s hand, I had no doubt that Matsuda was much more useful to the NPA than he looked.

           “I went to pick up Corporal Matsuda,” I said, daring the commissioner to say anything about it.

           Oshima’s jowls quivered. “I have a hard time believing that was necessary, Captain.”

           Maybe it really hadn’t been. I hadn’t known what else to do when his phone went directly to voicemail.

           Ideally, I could express my concerns to the commissioner behind closed doors, maybe find a way to help Matsuda without interfering too directly, recommend that he be given more leave.

           I didn’t trust Oshima, though, and I’d be loath to let on to any weak link in our chain.

           Instead, I promised it wouldn’t happen again.

           “And you, Lieutenant?” Oshima wondered, next, turning on Ide, who lounged against the doorway with a cigarette in his mouth. “How can I be of service?”

           “You can’t.” Ide smiled. “Sorry, sir, I doubt you ever will be.”

           “Please excuse us, Sir,” I jostled against my partner, shoving him into the hallway before Oshima could decipher his disarming tone and detect the contempt in it. “I said keep your heads down.” I frowned at him and then at Matsuda. “Remember?”

           “I was just late,” Matsuda muttered, with a shrug. “I don’t see the big deal.”

           Ide snorted. “That prick threatened you with sodium penthathol. Sorry if I’m not inclined to play nice.”

           “He’s still the commissioner, Ide.”

           “For now.”

           Sighing, I turned to Matsu again, saying, sharper than I meant to, “Did you finish that assignment?”

           From the way he gawked at me, it seemed like he barely remembered I’d assigned him anything, and a sheepish, “Not yet, Captain,” was all he had to say as we stepped out of Oshima’s office.

           “I want it by tomorrow,” I reminded him, he nodded, and we all went back to work.

           Ever since the Kira case ended, every day felt just a little slower than the one that came before it, leading toward the most mind-numbingly boring day ever lived. The community safety and traffic bureaus still had things to do—domestic violence and traffic accidents—but our branch of the department no longer seemed necessary.

           To make matters worse, Oshima hadn’t been doing much delegating; supposedly, he was stretched too thin, just like everyone else, and so far I’d had to be pretty proactive just to find a job to do. It gave me an opportunity to finalize and edit the official report on the Kira investigation, as well as to keep working with Ide, Mogi, and Matsuda. All three of them seemed content to help me out, but once we had that filed, I might have to get a little more creative to keep from getting stagnant.

           “I might have to transfer just to get back on the street,” I muttered to Ide, as we made our way across the squad room.

           “Well, I like it this way. Lazy detectives thrive in times of peace.”

           “Just remember your metabolism’s not what it used to be, Hideki.”

           Things would straighten themselves out, I supposed, in time, but, once we had a new chief who was willing to delegate, I doubted I’d ever have a chance to work with Ide, Mogi, and Matuda ever again.

           It shouldn’t matter, I kept telling myself. They were just coworkers. Ide would always be my partner, at least, and I wouldn’t let him get fat.

           Still, undeniably, after all that time of being able to count on them, of knowing that even if it turned out we couldn’t trust L I could trust them, being around them felt natural and safe. I couldn’t imagine not working with them, filing paper work and taking coffee breaks, chatting at the water cooler like everything was normal when it seemed like they were the only people in the world I still had anything in common with.

           Becoming chief, of course, would mean more sitting at a desk than ever before, working alone on everything that came my way.

           Determined to savor the peace while I had it, I went back to work, throwing myself in headfirst so that I barely noticed the passing of time. When it was nearly time to clock out, Mogi appeared to place a large stack of papers on my desk. “I finished my compilation for the Kira investigation.”

           “Thanks.” I studied the form I was supposed to be filling out and tapped my pencil. For years, the NPA hadn’t wanted to help with the Kira investigation, but of course they’d better make sure they had a record of it. Like they’d helped all along.

           Being chief wouldn’t keep things like that from happening either.

           “See you later, Aizawa,” Mogi said abruptly, and turned to walk away, never one to waste words on pleasantries.

           With a sigh, I set my forms aside and grabbed my jacket. “I might as well head out too. Gotta give Matsuda a ride home.” Throughout the day, I’d watched Matsuda wander around the station looking lost or spending a lot of time staring off into space. As his supervisor, I could have snapped at him to pay attention, but I’d decided against it. More and more, it looked like he just hadn’t been given enough leave.

           Playing favorites won’t fly if I become chief.

           Mogi and I walked in silence for a moment before he asked, “Did you find out what’s going on with him?”

           “I didn’t realize I was supposed to,” I answered, dryly.

           “Not even in passing?”

           “I don’t know,” I sighed, reluctant to express the concerns I’d been feeling for the last few weeks. “Obviously this whole thing with Light was harder for him than it was for us.”

           “He was close with Deputy Direcor Yagami,” Mogi mused.

           There had been times I’d thought it was borderline inappropriate how close he was to Chief Yagami, but knowing Matsuda the way I did, I’d come to realize he needed that firm guidance, and the former chief had inspired affection in all of us.

           “Matsuda’s a grown man,” I decided. “None of us should waste time worrying about him.”

           Mogi only grunted.

           I said it, but then I wondered, if I didn’t watch his back, who would.

           “He should see someone,” Mogi decided.

           Startled, I looked up at him, but as usual, his plain-featured face revealed very little. “What, like a therapist?”

           He nodded sagely.

           Seeking help from a stranger for your personal problems… What a foreign concept in my mind. I could hardly believe people did it.

           “After shooting Light like that,” he went on, “who wouldn’t be depressed?” He loosened his tie and cleared his throat, and then he hesitated, giving me the impression he wasn’t sure how to proceed. “Ide and I…think you should talk to him about it.”

           “Why me?”

           “He looks up to you.”

           “But not either of you?” They knew better—Matsuda looked up to all of us—and talking to him about something that delicate would require a lot more tact than I possessed.

           “I just thought you could try it,” he added after a moment of silence.

           We had reached the main lobby of the building, where Ide and Matsuda stood at reception. They’d always been the chatty ones, even though Ide’s dry remarks were an odd contrast to Matsuda’s unstructured babble, and it was strange to see my old friend muttering, practically to himself, about what he’d had going on lately, drawing on his cigarette, filling in Matsuda’s side of the conversation while casting him occasional sidelong glances like the silence bothered him.

           Even at a distance, I could see the disturbed look on the kid’s face, characterized by a vacant stare and a deep frown like a gash across his chin.

           “Ide should do it,” I countered. “He’s better at delivering bad news.”

           Mogi paused, and I stopped with him. Carefully, he pointed out, “Ide doesn’t exactly inspire the same…respect that you do.”

           I couldn’t deny that. Ide’s better polished social skills and natural charm made him friendly, and I’d seen how Matsuda latched on to him as a sort of friend or older brother, but even if Ide could bring himself to get involved on such a personal level, Matsuda might just laugh off whatever he had to say.

           “In any case,” Mogi ventured, “being told he might need professional help isn’t exactly bad news. I think he’d take it better from you.”

           I grumbled, “As far as I’m concerned, he just needs to deal with it.”

           Mogi’s expression and voice didn’t change, but he said, “Isn’t that a little cold, Aizawa?”

           Even though the words did evoke some guilt, I muttered, “It isn’t my business.”

           “They’re talking about promoting you to chief,” he said suddenly.

           “So I heard.”

           “If that happens, you will be responsible for Matsu.”

           “There must be other candidates.”

           He shrugged. “I would assume so.”

           Ide had noticed us and stared right at me, obviously expecting me to come and bail him out of an awkward situation. He even called, “You guys going home, or what?”

           “What about you, Mogi?” I asked, moving forward again. “You’d make a good chief.”

           One raised eyebrow barely wrinkled his stoic look. “No. I’m thinking about leaving the NPA altogether.”

           Startled, I paused. “Where would you go?”

           He shrugged. “I’ve got a couple ideas.”

           That was all he had to say, and then we reached Ide and Matsuda. The four of us spent a few moments discussing our version of the boring day we’d just put in, and then made our way to the exit. Ide and Mogi strode to their own vehicles, and Matsuda followed me to mine, maintaining his unnatural silence.

           Of course, I wanted to help him, but I had no control over his decisions; I had my own career to think of.

           I found myself dwelling on what Mogi had suggested as I drove, nonetheless. It was common enough, I supposed, for people experiencing depression to seek professional help, and since Matsuda had outright denied being depressed earlier, it clearly hadn’t crossed his mind to involve anyone, professional or otherwise. Even the blank way he’d stared at me when I showed up at his apartment seemed to indicate that he just wasn’t thinking about the way he looked from the outside, or the solutions available to him.

           There must be other options, though, ways to snap out of it if he tried. Depending on how deep the depression really ran.

           “Hey,” I said suddenly, voice unnaturally loud in the awkward silence. “How would you like to come over for dinner some time this week? We’d love to have you.”

           I’d never invited him anywhere before, and from the way he paused, I knew he was surprised. In a moment, he tried to smile. “Oh… No, thanks. I’m fine.”

           Stopping at a traffic light, I couldn’t help frowning at him. “You know, you’re not supposed to refuse a dinner invitation that casually. You could at least make up some excuse.”

           “An excuse? What kind of excuse do you want me to make up?”

           “Hell, I don’t know.” The light changed, and I floored it. “Anything’s better than thanks I’m fine.”

           In lieu of sheepish excuses, the quiet resumed, and I felt foolish. At his level of disinterest, I should have known he’d decline the invitation, and, actually, I didn’t know what difference it would make even if he’d accepted. Matsuda wasn’t going to snap out of his funk simply because he came over to my place for dinner one night.

           It did give me a better idea of just how bad he was doing, though. Matsuda loved social events, from the smallest gathering to the biggest galas, even to the point that he’d made the Kira investigation feel like a hangout.

           Strange, though. For being that way, he’d never talked much about his personal life, and over the six years of getting to know him, I’d gradually come to realize that he didn’t have many friends or even much connection to family.

           Having no support system during an emotional crisis didn’t help, but I couldn’t fix that for him.

           Outside, a light drizzle of rain began, and I focused ferociously on the unnerving quiet between us. In the past, he’d always filled any pauses with meaningless conversation—opinions on pop culture and celebrity gossip, or bragging about personal conquests, mostly—and I’d snort vague responses or mutter at him about anything I thought actually warranted a reply. Raving about actors and gloating over buying a new TV hadn’t often been appropriate, considering the circumstances, but I missed it, I admitted to myself. In a strange way, I missed him.

           “How’s the bachelor life going?” I wondered.

           Bewildered, this time he stared at me. “Fine. Why?”

           “Just wondering if maybe you met somebody.” I knew better. His dating game had never been impressive either, and the one or two times he’d actually picked somebody up, it had been all he could talk about for days, his excitement sweeping him along like a river, until he got dumped and was tossed over the edge into a somewhat sulky mood not so different from this one. The difference, though, was that this time it lingered, affecting every aspect of his life.

           I added, “You’ve been distant lately,” hoping he’d recognize it as an opportunity to be real with me.

           Matsuda just said, “Oh,” and then muttered, “Still single.”

           “Well, maybe you’ll have better luck now that the case is over. You’re not getting any younger—time to settle down.” I flashed him a grin I hoped seemed friendly, if not supportive.

           Matsuda’s eyebrows etched together like the smile just confused him.

           “When’s the last time you even went on a date?” I asked, teasingly.

           Gradually, he turned to the window again. “It’s been a while, I guess.”

           Throwing discretion to the wind, I told him, “You’ll have to try and move on at some point.”

           I’d thought I said it carefully—gently even—but Matsuda glared at me, and I knew I’d missed the mark. “You think I’m doing this on purpose?” he demanded, outraged.

           “Of course not. I’m just saying… Light wasn’t even related to you.”

           Way to stay in character. I kicked myself. Way to be completely blunt and insensitive.

           He had nothing to say, and I knew I’d only added to his turmoil.

           This was exactly why shouldn’t be the one to talk to him about anything delicate.

           Trying to tone it down, I amended, “Touta, if you’re so upset it’s going to affect your work, you’ll have to do something about that.”

           As much as it had alarmed me on a personal level, I knew his coming in late and disheveled could turn into a real problem if he made a habit of it. No chief worth his salt would overlook this level of sloppiness, no matter the reason, and I thought, suddenly, that more important than convincing him to do something was to try and find a way to stress the gravity of the situation to him.

           After all, just now, this job seemed to be all he had, and if Matsuda got fired, he’d utterly collapse into his depression.

           “What do you think I should do?” he murmured.

           That was what I wanted to hear, in a way, and at the same time, I had no idea what to tell him. Coming right out to say, go see a doctor felt like overstepping a serious boundary.

           “I don’t know,” I admitted, finally. “Get yourself together, that’s all I’m saying; find a girl. Get involved with something outside work. Whatever helps.”

           Giving a brief sigh, he suddenly brightened his tone. “Heard anything about the promotion?”

           Nothing annoyed me more than to have someone ask my opinion and then refuse to acknowledge it. If he didn’t care what I thought, why ask in the first place? “No,” I grumbled. “Nothing.”

           “Don’t you wanna be the chief?”

           “Sure.” I’d never thought very hard about it, and I’d certainly never expected it would one day be staring me in the face without warning. I didn’t know if I wanted it. “More work, though. More responsibility.”

           “The pay’s better,” he reminded me with a ghost of his old sanguinity. “That’ll make up for it.”

           “Yeah,” I agreed, not sure how to explain the way the possibility of promotion made me feel. More money sounded great, and so did calling more of the shots for a change. It would likely be less dangerous. By all accounts, it was a step in the right direction. Ten years ago, I might have jumped at it.

           My guts twisted as I thought back on my interrogation. After that, I’d assumed it would be years before I got any kind of promotion at all—it was lucky I hadn’t been demoted—so why in the world would they suddenly be thinking of making me chief?

           Kira had left me dog-tired, stretched, old, disillusioned with everything. I didn’t feel up to being the boss.

           By the time we pulled up in front of Matsuda’s apartment, the rain had started to pour, but he opened his car door without a thought to it.

           “Borrow my umbrella,” I offered.

           “It’s not that far. Thanks for the ride.”

           As he started to climb out, I snagged his arm, and he whipped around to stare at me, giving me the impression that he really wanted to get away from me right then, and I honestly couldn’t blame him, but all the same, if nothing else, I needed him to understand my concerns.

           “Hey. Remember,” I said sternly. “If they make me chief, and you come in almost four hours late on my watch…” I drew a short breath to keep from wincing as I grated out the cold words, “I’ll take your badge.”

           Matsuda held my gaze a long moment, measuring whether I truly meant that or not, and, again, I thought it seemed like he didn’t completely understand this crack he’d fallen into.

           “This isn’t some job at a crappy fast food place, Corporal.”

           It didn’t matter that he was depressed. It didn’t even matter that we were friends. He had to figure out a way to navigate through this in a professional and healthy way, and he needed to start working on that before anyone higher ranked than me noticed how badly he was failing.

           Suddenly, Matsuda forced a grin. Amazing. It looked almost perfect—straight and white, lighting his face, turning back the clock to a month or two ago when he’d been okay—but his eyes looked darker than ever, and his voice fell flat as he agreed, “You got it, Captain.”

           With that, he jerked away and shut the car door in my face.

           For a moment, I watched him stalk up to the building, hunched in his coat, all the energy I’d always known him to have simply gone. A little voice nagged at me that I’d better do something.

           That voice drove me in all sorts of circumstances. It had driven me to become a criminal investigator, it had driven me through the academy, and it had earned me every promotion I’d ever received. It drove me to get involved with the Kira case, it drove me to form my own task force when I had to leave L’s investigation, and it drove me to start cooperating with Near when I’d come to realize Light was Kira.

           But, I recognized grimly, the only thing to my advantage was a couple ranks and almost ten years on Matsuda, and, despite what Mogi had said, that just wasn’t enough.

[regoregitates]

i think im misunderstood. i dont understand myself and im adamant nobody else can fathom out the way i am and why ive always done the things i do. ive been like this for a significant amount of months. i think im lost? 

well im sure i am as i dont know what my future will look like. i keep doing things that i know trigger my manic episodes. i feel too much, perhaps if there was a switch i was able to control i wouldnt feel so misunderstood because id be in control entirely. or maybe its not even about control?

either way im very depressed right now, i no longer enjoy the things i used to all because everything was so sudden, being absent of a person isnt that big of a deal generally but somehow it is for me, it’s never been like this before and the whole atmosphere is scary. being absent of someone you clearly depended on a hell of a lot is something ive never truly experienced to its full capacity, im not really sure what dependency is? i never knew what i expected of them, i wanted the bare minimum and i didnt receive that, and thats okay. i shouldnt be hard to love however my trauma has made me this way, they kinda got rid of the reminder for me. it was something i didnt have to worry about because he made me safe. i wonder if he truly feels happy, as harsh as ive been towards him - i hope he is. i think? 

i talk about him too much for who he truly is, im proud of him. im proud of him for being sensible when i really am not, im childish because im sick. i know im exceptionally ill mentally due to all of my unresolved trauma, i was 9 and now im 15. my therapist mentioned to me that perhaps im still mentally the age of 9 because i was never able to come to terms at the time so its still impacting my emotions.

i feel like a very lonely person purely because of the things that have happened to me and all of my unsuccessful relationships ive been a part of, ive never truly reflected on them. simply just moved on to the next because i thought it benefitted me. i think thats why i freaked out at him when i realised he didnt even consider waiting. it probably is. at the end of the day being as unloved as i have been throughout my childhood i think love just is not for me now.

i want to be a good person to people but i think everytime i try to be ‘loving’ it turns into a very toxic and inherently sickening act of limerence. i wonder if ive truly ever known what love is without the infatuation i face? im still very young and supposedly have my ‘whole life ahead of me’ however im not sure if i want to live that life if i cant even love someone. from a really young age ive always wanted to be loved, ive wanted to provide for someone and make their life worth living and perhaps with him, just like all of the others, i inevitably tried too hard. 

my hope and selflessness would probably be my demise if i was in a really shitty low-budget movie idk that sounds cliche... regardless of my mental health i want to love but i dont think im going to learn that for a long time, which upsets me.

i miss the person i used to be before all of this happened, its so ironic how me and my friends would say i was the only ‘mentally stable’ one yet i cant even stay clean for more than two days. its been such a long year so far, i want a lot of things to end. im incredibly drained and exhausted to the point where i struggle to feel empathy for anyone that isnt myself or him. i cannot blame anyone but myself for the way i havent been able to let go.

i miss him and the way he spoke, he was so intellectual and understanding of how i felt, he spent a very long time trying to stop my consistent paranoia and the constant feeling of being ‘scared’. i was scared because i didnt want to lose him. the honeymoon phase is undoubtedly intoxicating and i think it ended for him before it ended for me. i appreciate him so much even if i treat him with upmost disrespect. they are such a beautiful soul and i wish i didnt take it for granted. i wish i saw through the times that they were happy just for my benefit. its cliche to say but i wouldve done so many things different if i was able to go back now, i regret so much but i cannot regret the person he is. he truly was like a dream and i wish i never woke up from that.

[maysurprisedyou]

Michael Didn’t Make An Entrance Pt 6

Jeremy woke up to a dulled pain in the back of his head. He groaned, wanting nothing more than to curl into a ball. However, he found that to be a hard task when he was strapped into a car seat.

“You awake?” Jeremy turned to see the same girl from before, a sympathetic smile appearing on her glossed lips.

He struggled to respond as his every muscle screamed at him to stop moving.

“Hun, that was rhetorical,” she chuckled. “Don’t push yourself.” She took one hand off the wheel to ruffle Jeremy’s hair. His face reddened slightly. Every little action she did gave Jeremy a painfully nostalgic feeling.

“I guess I should explain who I am so it doesn’t look like I’m kidnapping you,” the girl continued. Jeremy gave her a bewildered look, causing her to burst out in laughter. “I’m not doing much to lower your suspicion, am I?” She wiped a small tear from under her glasses as her smile became a bit more sincere. “You did know me at one point, but I suppose you were pretty young. My name is Nicola Mell, but you and Micah used to call me Nica.”

Jeremy’s heart stopped. “Mell,” he muttered. “That means...”

“I’m Michael’s older sister,” she finished. Her tone changed into one of someone who had been deeply offended. “Jeremy Heere, who I’ve known since he was a tiny baby doesn’t remember me! What has the world come to?”

“Sorry...” Jeremy apologized nervously, unsure of how to respond.

Her laugh rained out again, and Jeremy’s heart fluttered. He finally understood why all her actions seemed so familiar. She had all the same habits as Michael.

A silence washed over the two of them for a bit before Jeremy broke it.

“I really fucked up,” he said quietly. Nicola stayed silent, but she gave him a sympathetic smile. Jeremy took this as an encouragement to continue. “I listened to everything that damn computer said, even if it meant leaving behind the only real friend I’d had my whole life.” He bit his lip, breathing a bit before continuing. “I didn’t mean for everyone else to get squipped too... Before I knew it, it had just... happened. They’ve all changed so much because of me... I guess I’m just glad Michael is safe.” He paused, realizing that the voice in his head had been completely silent since he’d awoken.

“Is it quiet?” Nicola asked, gesturing to his head. Jeremy nodded slowly. “I thought that might be the case. Last night when you were out of it, Michael texted me saying one of you needed to drink Mountain Dew Red. Said it would kill those super brain computers. He also told me not to freak out if any of you started screaming...

“Either way, Jere, you gotta cut yourself some slack. Sure you messed up, but everyone does once in a while. The important difference is whether or not you do something to fix it.” When she had finished, Jeremy was quiet. He felt a sharp pain in his nose as tears formed at the corner of his eyes.

“I don’t even know how I could face him...” Jeremy frowned, feeling a tear slip down his cheek.

“Jeremiah Heere, if there’s anything you should know by now, it’s that my brother can’t stay mad,” Nicola said, raising an eyebrow at him but smiling fondly. “Especially with you. I mean, if it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t have even known you were in Elizabeth. He figured out everything to try and help you. Seems to me like he either likes you a lot, or he’s looking out for you.” She lowered her voice. “But if you ask me, I think it’s both.” She winked, causing heat to rush to Jeremy’s cheeks.

“W-what?” he asked weakly. “Likes...?”

“Oh please, Jeremy. I could sniff the bi out of you before you even knew. Fellow bi-intuition.” She laughed as her signature grin returned.

“Hey,” Jeremy started, struggling to change the subject. “I probably should’ve asked before now, but... where are we going?”

Nicola’s laughter died down before she smiled softly. “I’m taking you home, Jeremy.”

He inhaled slowly. “What about-“

Nicola’s smile grew a bit sad. “The others? You’re a sweetheart, Jere. I’ve arranged for them all to move back. They seemed pretty confused when they had come-to after the bar incident. The short one with black hair broke down crying, the poor thing. They’re in good hands, though. Apparently one of them had a fake id? And someone stole a credit card? You kids are crazy.” She chuckled. “Though from what I’ve heard, you had a bit of unwanted influence, so I won’t judge you all too harshly.”

Jeremy grew quiet again. “Hey, Jeremy, don’t worry, okay? You’ve got people who care about you so much that they’re willing to bring you back from losing yourself without a second thought. Isn’t that comforting to think about?”

A warmth filled Jeremy’s chest. “... Thanks, Nicola... I’d never thought about that.” Another tear made its way down his face, causing him to sniffle slightly. “I think I’m ready to go home now...”

Nicola reached over to rub his shoulder soothingly. “You’ve come a long way, you know? But you’re still the same at heart, and that’s a beautiful thing. Just go out and live your life the best you can, alright?”

Jeremy nodded, looking out to see a familiar street. They had reached his house, his home. He checked the clock to see that it was four in the morning. His dad would most likely be asleep by now.

Nicola parked, and Jeremy looked over to her. Unlocking the doors, she gestured to the house. Jeremy nodded before scrambling out of the car and running to the door. He’d never been more happy to see that door in all of his life.

He opened it slowly, knowing his dad never locked it. He walked in, nearly crying. It had only been a day or two, but it had felt like forever since he was last there. He made his way into the living room, somewhat surprised to see Michael and his dad fast asleep on the couches across from each other.

He walked over to see the receipt from his move laid on the table next to an unlocked phone. It was open to the map app, tracking someone’s location. Looking closer, he realized that it was Nicola. His heart felt heavy as more tears sprung to his eyes.

“... Jere?” a quiet voice asked in disbelief. Jeremy whirled around to see Michael squinting at him. “JEREMY!!!” he yelled, tackling the boy into a hug.

The tears began to flow down Jeremy’s face as he was embraced tightly and lovingly. “Michael...” was all he managed, his voice cracking as he hugged back for all he was worth. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I acted like shit to you, I’m so so sorry,” he rambled between sobs.

“Shhh,” Michael soothed. “You’re home now, you’re safe, and that’s all I ever wanted. I love you so much, Jere, it’s okay now.”

Jeremy continued to break down, exhaustion crashing into him like a tidal wave. Michael continued to hug him, rubbing circles into his back in a rhythmic motion. Jeremy’s breaths grew more even, and he sighed shakily. He felt safe, as if everything was right.

“Hey Jere, you’ve had a long day, you should get some rest,” Michael suggested, carding his hands through the other boy’s hair.

Jeremy buried his face into Michael’s chest sleepily. “I don’t think I can fall asleep by myself,” he admitted, his voice vulnerable and tired.

Michael’s face heated up slightly, but he continued his comforting actions. “Let’s at least lie down on the couch, all right?”

Jeremy nodded, shuffling over to the couch with Michael. Michael sat propped against one of the arms, grabbing one of the throw pillows and placing it in his lap. He patted it gently, and Jeremy took it gratefully. When he had laid his head on the pillow, Michael continued running his fingers through his hair.

“Hey, Michael?” Jeremy began quietly.

“Hmm?”

“Did you really mean that? That you... love me?”

Silence hung in the air for a little, and Michael’s hands slowed before admitting, “Yeah... I’m sorry I never told you. That was probably awkward.”

Jeremy shook his head. “No it... I was happy. I... I love you too.”

“Oh...” Michael said, his voice shaking a little. “Y-you do?”

“I think I have for a long time. I just didn’t know it,” Jeremy said simply yawning and leaning further into Michael.

“You should sleep,” Michael said slowly, recovering. “We can figure this all out tomorrow, yeah? For now, we should rest.”

Jeremy mumbled an agreement, already nodding off as Michael’s hands returned to his head, continuing to pet him softly. And for the first time since he’d gotten the squip, Jeremy felt at peace.

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