#i would play it like 10 times before going back to sleep xD

[ryker-writes]

This is kind of a crack request, but can I ask for Heartabyul, Savanaclaw, and Octavinelle having to babysit a furby for a week? How they get the furby I'll leave to you, but I just wanna see what chaos would unfold XD

I love this. I've never had a furby before but I've seen them and they are horrifying and cursed i love them

Request rules and Masterlists

warning: furby death

Set up: Crowley has decided that students should have to go through a lesson to test their skills as future parents. But we know Crowley, he isn't going to spend a lot of money on fake baby dolls that scream. Instead, he decided to purchase furbys, and have the students babysit them for a week...

Riddle:

he tries his best, and does decently well

like most school things, Riddle aims to do his best and be prepared

but this has an extra level of effort for him, because it's proving he can take care of another being

so he's going to do everything he can for the furby

he'll carry it everywhere with him and give it food, tea, attention, and it'll even study with him

and it goes pretty well

that is, until the furby breaks a rule

he'll scold it and it doesn't care, making Riddle more angry

in the end, the furby got a little burned (it did not survive), and so did the rest of Heartslabyul

Trey:

10/10 furby dad

the best furby dad on this list actually

for starters, his furby survives the week

Trey feeds it on time, talks to it, and even has a little bed for his furby

if the furby demands food in the middle of the night, he's getting up to feed it

it's starting to learn to talk too after he reads to it

but he starts to get a little tired after a few nights

so he's happy to hand the furby back to Crowley at the end of the week

Cater:

on magicam, the furby is thriving

in reality, it's being neglected

Cater takes all sorts of photos of him doing activities with his furby and taking care of it

he calls himself a great furby dad

but anytime the camera is not pointed towards the furby, it's left there sitting on it's own

if furbys could die of neglect, his would

but he's got to get those photos to look aesthetic ✨

it's all fun and games until he tries to get some photo's of the little guy playing in some water

...turns out furbys aren't supposed to get wet

Ace:

he tries at the beginning

in his mind, taking care of a furby should be easy peasy

he feeds it and everything

but the first night with the furby is, unfortunately, it's last

Ace had made it a decent bed on one of his shelves to sleep in

in the middle of the night, the shelf collapsed creating a loud noise that woke Ace up

the next thing he heard was his furby speaking gibberish

and the last thing the furby saw was a blast of magic headed straight for it

Deuce:

oh Deuce...

he tried his best to take care of the furby

but poor boy got the one furby that was actually creepy and potentially possessed

other Hearslabyul students have told him that they've heard it talking at night, but Deuce always sleeps through it

it doesn't help that half the furbys words came out garbled and in a very deep voice

still, Deuce is trying his best to take care of it and even learned to understand the garbled nonsense

Furby: GHIKASHUPAHiGNA

Deuce: okay I'll go get you some food

overall pretty good furby dad like the furby is pretty well taken care of

but he got to attached and didn't want to give it back to Crowley at the end of the week

Leona:

no way

there's no way he's going to take care of a furby

the first few times the furby asks for things, it simply gets ignored

but the more it talks and starts demanding things, the more he gets annoyed

he tries to hand it over to Ruggie, but Ruggie has his own furby to take care of

so he's stuck with the furby

he starts to get pretty good at blocking it out

but then the furby wakes him up during one of his naps

Leona has reached peak annoyance

that furby got its first and last flight lesson out Leona's window

Ruggie:

honestly he's not that interested in taking care of the furby

it's decently taken care of for a while

the furby gets fed and talked to regularly

the big problem arises when he visits Sam's shop

Sam just casually mentioned that they could be sold for a decent price

not expensive, but not totally cheap

either way money is money and Ruggie is all about money

his furby got sold immediately

Jack:

he wants to take care of his furby, he really does

but it freaks him out

he hates it's eyes and especially it's stare

Jack is so hesitant about even feeding it

anytime it speaks his ears perk up like he's startled

it was the middle of the night when he heard it

from the darkness of the room, it laughed

he just couldn't take it

at first he just tried to take the batteries out

but then it kept talking

and that furby got crushed to death

Azul:

it's a school assignment, so of course he's going to try his best

the furby gets well taken care of and even gets the VIP treatment

he has to admit, it kind of ruins his negotiations a little bit when the furby interrupts

"if you want that to come true, I can certainly make it happen. All you have to do is-"

"WEE-TAH-KAH-WEE-LOO"

but for some reason, this scared many of his victims customers into signing a contract

so he kept it around and actually started to make it work

he even taught it how to take orders

but then one day, the furby stopped working during one of their busy days

as much as Azul tried to change it's batteries and fix it, it just didn't work and the furby's eyes didn't open again

the furby had been worked to death

Jade:

another good furby dad...with a twist

Jade takes good care of his furby always making sure to feed it and give it attention

but he spends a lot of time teaching it things

the furby learns pretty quickly how to speak and some other things

in fact, it's probably the smartest furby of them all

so smart that it starts to take after Jade and pick up some if his traits and...hobbies

near the end of the week, the furby had disappeared

but Jade wasn't worried

because there was some rumors floating around about a growing furby mafia

Jade is such a proud dad

Floyd:

he has so much fun with his furby

it's such a fun and creepy guy

just like him :D

he brought the furby everywhere with him

so much so that the furby learned a word, and only one word

so when Floyd was annoyed with someone, the small furby voice beside him would chant

"Squeeze! Squeeze! Squeeze!"

the two practically became best friends who could never be separated

and I mean never

even when Floyd went for a swim in his mer-form, he held the little furby in his arms despite the furby having stopped moving

the poor furby had drowned in the arms of someone who loved it

Totals:

Furbys handed out - 11

Furbys returned - 1

[katyspersonal]

Today's SOTE adventures.. The gist of it is that I've failed one questline but finally got to the other!

1) So I decided to proceed with Ymir quest and go to the next Finger Ruins! But first things first, I followed into a meteorite crater looking place. Excepted the Fallingstar Beast there of course x) It dropped a sorcery, wasn't hard.

2) There was a path full of Lamprey curled up and sleeping... with their eyes open... fair enough lol

3) So there were those really annoying Lamprey that were spamming the paralyzing sorcery same as what ringed Fingercreepers do, right? And not only they kept doing that, but also EVERY time one of two of them paralyzed me, instantly from somewhere ANOTHER Lamprey would jump out and bite me :/ :/ :/ I kept thinking they were jumping from the walls somewhere, until I saw a portal above and realized they were being summoned :/ :/ :/.

I noped out of that road and decided to find another way, very carefully hugging the walls of this location and killing enemies slowly one by one, to get to the bell safely! And I did do that! ....and then used my position to sneak on those assholes that kept spamming me with that spell and kill them too. XD There was no point at ALL in doing that, they were not guarding anything important, I deadass just felt like it :pensive: Yayyyy pointless cruelty XD

4) Speaking of pointless cruelty, @val-of-the-north IS A TREACHEROUS LITTLE DIPSHIT THAT IS NOT A FRIEND TO ME AGAIN!!!! AAAAAAAAA

OKAY SO I allowed him to take me by hand again and asked whether there was anything else to look for in this place! He mentioned that I could have picked a Spirit Ash in a hole in the location he marked for me on the map!!! So, since he delivered it in such a way as though it was just a casual nook to check on I went in unprepared...... AND THERE WAS THE LARGEST GODDAMN FUCKING FINGERCREEPER EVER AND I DIED

5) I was YELLING at Val for not having warned me at ALL about it and basically deceiving me!!! Like, a little heads up would not hurt when I TRUSTED my game experience to you! It'd be one thing if I naturally discovered the surprise enemy, but this time I LET YOU DIRECT ME!! AND THEN VAL BROUGHT UP THE FACT THAT BASICALLY HE WAS PATCHES IN THIS SITUATION AND IT WAS SO HYSTERICAL THAT I ACTUALLY LAUGHED AND FORGOT EVERYTHING VHJGGB

6) I did get that Spirit Ash though!

I simply dashed past that Fingercreeper and grabbed it on Torrent and hid in the cave way! .....only to return and kill this enemy anyway. It deserved it.

7) I went back to Ymir to talk to him! Instantly surprised at the wildest lore that Two Fingers themselves had a mother??

Also the map he gave me was REALLY obvious, I instantly knew the third place was right here! I didn't expect that though!

8) This time though, Val WARNED me to prepare for the battle. Instant character development? XD

9) He also pointed out that the grave Ymir is sitting at already was there before the previous Yuri died! I would not have remembered of course

I've seen the speculation that he must have had a real, human child at some point who died, and seeing how people who try to become fingers is part of lore maybe it's possible that he seeks to rebirth a person as a Fingercreeper!

I actually got that dialogue about him not being able to birth Yuri properly earlier, even before the second bell, and found the passageway down already but decided to go there later as I was sleepy. ...but the next time I played it was closed and he was back on his throne. XD I wondered whether I messed up, but turned out it was a good call that I didn't go there!

10) Also defeated some invader on the way and told Jolan about it

11) Okay, I got really surprised by the location I got teleported to!!! Underwater / water-themed space is always an automatic W for me, but also those weird 'tubes' above! What are they!!

12) I lasted long enough until second stage and then just started to frantically screenshot everything because of the cool visuals XD Also:

She uses these, apparently!

13) So... Yeah, I could not kill it, and I've been trying for a very long time. Jara can't save me for some time either. You see, the enemies I ABSOLUTELY suck at and am completely incapable of killing are Runesbears, Burial Watchdogs and giant Fingercreepers. So this boss is like a GIANT giant Fingercreeper gvfgfffgj I am already horrendously bad at playing Soulsborne games (just have to play so I can absorb all the lore efficiently), but with the type of enemy who both hits like tank and can't be effectively held at the distance I am especially helpless :/

14) That does make me wonder though. This place is called Manus Metyr, and Metyr is her name. In Ranni's secret location we find her in the place called Cathedral of Manus Celes, so what if Celes is actually the name of the fingers that grow there? 🤔 The pair assigned to her IS unique compared to everyone else's, after all?

15) So I just decided to end some loose business before going to bed. At first, I picked this armor that I didn't find the first time:

16) And another thing, I still haven't met Trina even though I wanted to back then and Jara helped me!! I needed to fix it!

17) I heard from the girls that you need to imbibe nectar several times, so I did! Her voice was so sweet ;-; Also noticed that even when you talk her lips still move xd

18) Something about Thiollier stung quite a bit.. No, the part where he calls us a liar and tells us that he'll "never forgive us" is understandable, as well as attacking, impulsivity and insecurities are human and all. As long as you get better, dude. It was the part about like, possessiveness, if you can call it that?

I was very close with the guy that refused to "share crushes" (all also were 'unattainable' for one reason or another, so comparable with worshipping the same deity) in an eerly similar fashion! More than that: we did have a problem where he was very desperate to see someone in his dreams just one more time at least, and yet unexplainabliy I was the one to be talked by that someone in my dreams... for which the guy I am talking about was really mad at.

This is just weirdly coincidental, but yes, the memories stung a bit. Hopefully the bitterness will go away.

19) Not sure what I am going to do next, there are probably a couple of locations I am yet to explore, and also Messmer. I guess I am also reluctant to get to the "important" parts because I am just having so much fun and don't want this DLC to end ;-; I hope that they'll get the hint regarding its success and add another one later, since they already had precedent of multiple DLCs for one game! Or would that be way TOO heavy for any platform to manage? Argh

[mechformers]

Ma Miles - Ch. 10

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Bold letters are spoken in English by the Reader to Quaritch.

The comments I've received have energized my writing so much that I've finished in "record" time! So please, have all my thanks and the next chapter of Ma Miles XD

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There’s a nose breathing you in, tucked firmly against your neck as you’re held against a solid chest, a large arm beneath your head. The big body spooning behind you is warm and solid as you’re held while you sleep. Smiling, you rub your thumb over the back of the hand that rests across your chest, your smile widening as a deep rumble erupts behind you, vibrating through your back. The nose that had been breathing you in lowers as your mate pulls you closer, ending up against the crook of your neck as his lips mouth at your sleep-warm skin. Chuckling, you grin widely, your heart soaring at how affectionate he is with you. 

“Good morning, yawne,” You mumble, unwilling to open your eyes to the bright light pouring in through the see-through metal wall. 

“Mornin’, m’ love,” The sleep-raspy sound of your mate’s voice hums immediately, his smile spreading across your shoulder as he pulls you even closer. 

“Ugh… you’re both disgusting,” Spider’s voice scoffs as the bed dips before the sound of his feet hitting the ground and a door opening and closing harshly. 

Reality crashes into you the exact moment the man behind you freezes. The sound of the TV plays in the background but all you can really hear right now is the sound of your heart threatening to beat out of your chest. It’s not the first time that you’ve woken up in Quaritch’s arms, but it’s the first time you’ve awoken in an intimate embrace like this. The both of you are unable to move, completely frozen in the same position as Spider left you in. Quaritch’s heart beats loudly behind you, his breathing labored and deep as he just holds you. His face is so close to yours, the heat of his body almost suffocating. It’s not before Spider emerges from the bathroom that any of you move. 

“Seriously?” Your son exclaims, a thinly veiled annoyance trying to hide his obvious embarrassment over the situation. 

Quaritch’s arms lift from around your body at the same time that he pulls his head back from your shoulder. He waits patiently for you to move away from the arm beneath your head, only then does he step out of the nest. 

“Pardon me, Ma’am,” He mumbles before his heavy footsteps pad over the ground. 

“Can you let me out? Lyle promised to play the videogame with me,” Spider asks, his voice hopeful, then happy as his father walks up to the door and puts his hand on the box before stepping into the bathroom. “Thanks!”

Left alone in the room, you’re allowed to breathe freely, taking deep breaths of much-needed air as your eyes begin to water. What was going on? How could you just let your guard down like this for a second time? And to think of him, the very demon from the skies, as your mate! Closing your stinging eyes, you clench your teeth as your chest tightens. You were being unfair, acting out on old prejudice because of who he once used to be. With the exception of how he brutishly took your son from you, he had done nothing to warrant this hatred from you. Out of all of them, Quaritch had been the first one to fully embrace the Na’vi ways, taking to your way of life with great curiosity and interest. No, you could not fault him for who he once was before being reborn. 

Opening your eyes, you look out at the bright day with watery eyes. Why your heart, your very soul, had decided that he was the one you would call mate, you would never know. But you could not deny it any longer. The swelling of your chest, the fluttering in your stomach, and the heat spreading across your face could no longer be excused as mere coincidences. The Great Mother had accepted him as her child, had allowed him to enter your dreams as you rest peacefully, had allowed him to act as your mate while you slept soundly, both in and out of his arms. 

“Why are you crying, princess?” His worried voice drifts over to you a moment before the nest dips under his weight and warm hands cup your face, thumbs gently wiping your falling tears away. 

Shaking your head, you close your eyes, unable to look into the worried warm ones affectionately staring right back at you. Immediately, you’re gathered up into his lap, his wide chest rumbling deeply as he shushes you, a hand rubbing your back while the other cups your head, holding you close to his heart. 

“I’m sorry, sweetie,” Quaritch continues, his voice sounding almost lost and small. 

It was obvious that he didn’t know what to do, that he wasn’t used to comforting someone in distress. His clumsy hands patted your back more than rubbing soothingly, his shushing almost sounding as if he was afraid you would be head. Still, the man continued to try, powering through this unknown territory for your sake. Opening your eyes, you looked out of the see-through metal walls, looking longingly at the forest just beyond the kill zone. As if sensing this, Quaritch lifts his head to look in the same direction. 

“What do you say we take the banshees out tonight, get a little wind under our wings?” He asks, his voice immediately more confident than it had been just moments ago. 

“I will like that,” You agree, looking forward to taking Hawnu out so soon again. 

“Alright,” Quaritch hums behind you, “Alright, sweetheart,” 

He doesn’t let go of you, however. You sit in his lap, staring out of the see-through metal wall together, the silence comfortable as he holds you close. As the day slowly passes you find yourself sitting between his legs as you lean back on his chest. His big hands are resting on your bare stomach, your fingers tracing the four knuckles on the back of his hands. His stomach suddenly rumbles loudly, making him groan. It pulls a chuckle from your lips. 

“Hungry?” You ask, bending your head back to look up at him. 

“Unfortunately,” Quaritch hums, looking down at you. “I don’t particularly want to move, however.”

“You are then not hungry?” The confusion on your face, in your voice, makes him chuckle softly, the upward stretching of his lips making him almost adorable when he closes his eyes and shakes his head. 

“Not what I meant, princess,” He grins before moving his hands to your hips, effortlessly lifting you off of him and placing you onto the ground below the nest. “C’mon, let’s get some grub,”

“What is this grub?” You can’t help but ask, especially not when the corners of his lip lift in one of those gentle smiles again. 

“It’s food, sweetheart,” Quaritch grins, a hand at your back gently leading you to approach the door. 

He lets you exit first, slowly following as you step into the hallway. Four sets of eyes meet yours when you look into the room with the videogame TV. Slowly, grins spread across three of the faces as Quarith steps up behind you, placing a gentle hand on your hip. It seems to set off the three recoms behind the sitting bench

“Sooooo… Colonel,” Lyle starts, his face all but split in two as he grins while leaning an arm over the back of the sitting bench. “The walk of shame?” 

The other two snicker to themselves, bumping their fists together like teenagers. Behind you, Quaritch growls dangerously, the gentle hand on your hip tightening as he reacts to what was said. You don’t understand how walking would be shameful, but you did know that you would never feel shame while doing so. 

“I do not walk in shame,” You announce proudly, only for the room to fall deadly silent before full-blown laughter erupts. Even Quaritch chuckles behind you, his hand easing up the pressure on your hip. It does not sound malicious, however.

“She-” Lyle starts, but laughter forces a halt to his rambling. 

“They think we’ve slept together, sweetcheeks,” Quaritch helpfully explains, trying to fill in the blanks you’re drawing. 

“Did we not sleep together?” You ask, confusion clouding your voice. 

“That’s not the kind of sleep I’m talking about. It can also mean…” He looks over to the others, his face darkening slightly when he turns back, before bending down, whispering the meaning of having ‘slept together’ in your ear. 

Immediately, your face heats, your ears slicking back against your skull as you lean back to stare up at him. The warm hand on your hip disappears and uncertainty crosses Quaritch’s face before it too disappears, replaced by the stony indifference he usually wears around the General Ardmore. Turning back, you see that the grins haven’t left the three recoms now hanging off of the back of the sitting bench. 

“But you did sleep together the entire night,” Spider pops up between the recoms, his face one of deep confusion as he stares at you. “He was holding you while you slept,”

“Gee, thanks, kid,” Quaritch drawls, his hands resting on his hips as he sucks his bottom lip between his teeth again. 

Laughter unlike before explodes around the room, the recoms all but crumbling with it, and in the middle, a very confused Spider chuckles as he tries not to get squished between the seemingly adult men. Shaking his head, Quaritch walks over to the sitting bench before lifting Spider out of the pile of long limbs, gently setting him down on the ground. 

“Have they given you anything to eat?” He asks and immediately, your son grins up at him. 

“Yeah, Mansk made me something called a lumbersjakebreakfast. It was really good,” Spider explains animatedly while Mansk chuckles an unsteady ‘lumber jack’ as he gets up from the ground. 

“9000 calories, Mansk. You tryna kill the kid?” Quaritch chuckles, directing the question at Mansk. 

“What? Kid looked at a book and pointed. Wasn’t about to say no to the Colonel’s kid, you know,” Mansk shrugs, a playful grin on his face. 

“Figured we were all going out for some real food later on today. Wasn’t expecting you to actually sleep in though… Sir,” Ja added gently, earning a fond kind of annoyed huff from Quaritch. 

“Well, you figured right,” Quaritch starts, resting his hands on his hips before sucking his bottom lip between his teeth once more, an obvious habit of his. “Gonna have to get some real food in this kitchen. Luckily, the three of you volunteered, ain’t that right guys?”

A collective of groans sounds before the three sit back down on the bench, mumbling while their ears twitch. You didn’t understand why they were complaining. If they didn’t go out to gather food, how would they have anything to eat? You didn’t know where the sky people food came from or how it got there, but then again, there were a lot of things about the sky people you didn’t understand. 

“Get off of the couch already,” Quaritch barks, but you notice that there’s no heat behind it. “And Lyle?”

“Yeah, Colonel?” Lyle turns to Quaritch while turning off the videogame TV. 

“Take spider with you,” Quaritch grins when both Spider and Lyle groan. 

Looking up at him, you notice how his smug grin shifts into another fond smile, and it’s like there’s a whole new person standing before you. Staring up at him, you let your mind wander for a little bit before turning to walk over to your son. Spider and Ja are bent over a small screen, Ja’s long fingers pointing as the two whispers to each other. As you come to a stop behind them, you can see that there’s a drawing of the forest on the small screen and when Ja pinches the surface with two fingers, the drawing gets smaller. Or bigger? You’re not really sure. The drawing is showing the clearing where you’ve taught them the Na’vi way, the area where there’s an abundance of food available for them to take back here. 

“My dearest boy,” You call for Spider, watching as your son turns to smile at you. “Be careful and listen to Eywa’s signs. Use your senses,”

“Mom, it’s gonna be fine. I grew up here, you know,” His smile turns into a cheeky grin and you can’t help the sinking feeling that drops in your chest. Your boy was becoming a man before your eyes and there was nothing you could do about it. 

“But you haven’t grown up in this area. Watch out for them. They are still like small children,” You open your arms as Spider steps closer, leaning his forehead against your stomach. 

Wrapping your arms around his head, you gently press it against your stomach in a tight hug. You understood that he was a young man now, understood that he wouldn’t cling to you like he used to do. The blessed extra time you had gotten while imprisoned here, was one you would treasure for as long as you lived. To have that extra time with him before he left your nest entirely… 

“Don’t worry, mom,” Spider gently pulls back, looking up at you, “I love you,” 

And of course, he saw right through you. For as long as you had been together, he would always be able to read your emotions. As a child, he had been both hot and cold, always on the move until he wasn’t, then he would stick to your back or chest in a sling, snoring softly as he slept oh-so-soundly, cuddled close to your skin. Being of the sky people, he developed a little slower than Na’vi children, which led to more time spent with you while the other children moved more freely with their long, strong limbs. It didn’t take long after Spider’s sixth birth bead was added to his songcord, however. He was off like an Ikran after that, giving the Sully kids trouble to keep up with him. In the end, only Lo’ak had been able to keep up, their energy level just about maxing out together. 

“I love you so much, my son,” You whisper back, leaning down to kiss the crown of his head before pushing him away to follow the recoms as they left. 

Standing in the middle of the room, you watch as they walk out of the common room. Mansk stands by the door, looking over at Quaritch. The two of them are having a silent conversation, much the same way you’ve seen Quaritch and Lyle communicate. Mansk eventually nods and then, he too is out of the door, leaving you alone with Quaritch once more. A big, warm hand rubs your shoulder and when you turn your head, Quaritch stands there smiling down at you. 

“Don’t worry your pretty little head about him, sweetheart, the boys will keep him safe,” Quaritch squeezes your shoulder gently before walking over to the videogame TV, putting away the stuff that they had been playing with. 

Turning to him, you watch as he bends at the waist, letting out soft grunts as he reaches for the pillows on the ground, before putting them on the couch. You don’t understand why there were many pillows on the couch and only one in the nest, but you were certain that sky people had their reasons for that too, however strange it may be. 

“I reckon you want some real food, sweetie?” Quaritch hums as he folds a blanket before hanging it off of the couch end. 

“You are hungry too,” You offer, hoping he too wants the food Pandora has to offer instead of the awful stuff he had fed you all those months ago. 

“I am, sweetcheeks, but I’m not particularly picky. Now, for a sweet angel like you, a simple “pb-n’-j” on toast won’t do, will it?” You chuckle at the weird way he speaks, not really getting what he’s talking about. “Come,” 

Holding his hand out for you to take, Quaritch gently wraps his fingers around your hand before gently leading you through that very same door your son and the other recoms had left through. Walking down the corridors, he doesn’t let go of your hand. What he does do is walk slower, as if the destination he’s taking you to is one he doesn’t want to go to. However, when he opens a huge door and leads you outside, you’re confused as to why he didn’t want to go outside. 

“Call for Haw-nu,” He mumbles, but that couldn’t be it, could it?

“Hawnu,” You repeat back at him, noticing how he still hasn’t let go of your hand. It makes your stomach flutter wildly as your ears perk toward him. 

“Haw-nu. That’s what I said, wasn’t it?” Quaritch turns to you, his sharp eyes looking into yours as he silently tastes Hawnu’s name on his lips. 

“Not Haw-nu, but Hawnu,” You try again, an amused smile unable to stay hidden on your face. 

“Hawn-u,” Quaritch tries again, and try as you might, you’re unable to hold back the gentle chuckle that bubbles up within you. 

“No, Quaritch. Hawnu,” You repeat again, grinning up at him. 

“Hawnu,” Quaritch repeats perfectly, a fond smile sliding into place across his face as he looks down at you. “I like that very much,”

“Like what?” 

“The sound of my name on your lips, darling,” Quaritch cups your face with his free hand, his thumb caressing your cheek as you stare at each other. 

You hadn’t noticed that you had called him Quaritch. You don’t know when you had stopped thinking about him as the sky demon and when you had started referring to him as Quaritch. Worse than that, you were starting to think of him as Spider’s father. You don’t know what to do, or what to think at that moment. Quaritch was looking down at you in a way he had no business to - except… he had every right to. He had initiated a courtship and you had accepted it, foolishly thinking that he didn’t know better, and now, months down the path, you realized that you had developed feelings for this man.

Before you could pull away though, before you could step back, Hawnu and Cupcake landed before you, the two having heard or seen you long before you got the chance to call for them. Walking with you over to Hawnu, Quaritch greets your Ikran with a firm rub down his long forehead before gently helping you up on his back. Only then does he let go of your hand before walking over to Cupcake, greeting her in the same manner before making tsaheylu with her in such a smooth way only a natural-born Na’vi, that had made the connection through years of friendship, could. You’re left to clumsily make tsaheylu with Hawnu, your Ikran pushing worrying feelings your way before he gently takes off and you’re in the air once more. 

Feeling the fresh Pandora air against your face calms your nerves to a degree where you’re able to think straight again. Turning your head, you look over at Quaritch, finding his eyes already looking at you. He smiles gently, holding your gaze for a while longer before turning his head back. His profile is beautiful against the setting sun, his long neck, his broad shoulders… his slim waist. You don’t think you’ve ever seen such a thin waist on a warrior this mighty. The thought of running your hands up and down his sides, of holding onto that solid waist in either a hug or… 

Swallowing hard, you turn back to the sight before you. Distantly, you can feel Hawnu pushing his feelings of approval. He thinks you’ve made a good decision in your choice of mate and maybe he’s right. Quaritch has been attentive after you accepted his courtship, has paid more attention to you and your needs, on top of the attention he was already giving your son. He has proved to be a man worthy of love, worthy of a family, and the deep bond it creates. Calming your nerves, you breathe deeply, trying your best to settle the worried lump that has grown in your stomach. What a fool you had been to have believed him ignorant when it came to courting rituals, the only side of learning the Na’vi way you never thought him interred in, and therefore never even mentioned. You want to believe in Quaritch so much, want this change in him to be true because he willed it and not because it would gain him something. But trusting him fully, could you even do that? You realized that it was a choice you would have to make before soon. 

Hawnu dips down, descending to the ground below, and you suddenly notice how your mind has drifted away from you. Looking to the side, you can see Quaritch staring at you with a worried look on his face. You try your best to give him a reassuring smile, but you should have known that it wouldn’t fool the man. Instead, he points down to a clearing on a cliff and it’s only that you recognize where you are. You’ve been here before with the unit, training with their Ikrans as they learned how to make tsaheylu while free-falling. Nodding, you ask Hawnu to land, holding on tightly as he comes up on the clearing fast. Sliding down from Hawnu’s back, you gently break tsaheylu before moving in front of him, leaning your forehead to his as you silently apologize for your absent mind. 

“Are you alright, sweetheart?” Quaritch asks just behind you, his voice careful as he stands awkwardly behind you. 

“Yes,” You smile up at him, “Come, we should eat,”

“Right,” He doesn’t sound like he wants to gather food, but still, he follows you as you move toward the treeline.

The sun is quickly setting behind you as you enter the forest, the Great Mother bathing Pandora in a bioluminescent hue. Grateful that food is never far from places like these, you take your fill until you’re almost uncomfortably full, sighing happily at the sweet tastes the fruit offers you. Quaritch eats messily, juices dripping down his chin as he digs into the various fruits, eating with a healthy appetite. Distantly, you wonder if he feels grateful for having tasted Eywa’s creations, but when he looks up from his half-eaten yovo fruit, you can’t help the happy grin that spreads across your face. 

“What?” Quaritch asks, his mouth full, seeds sticking to his chin. 

“You eat like child,” You offer as you step up to him and gently wipe the sticky mess from his face. Bending down, Quaritch closes his eyes as he lets you clean his face, your own hands now slick with the fruit’s juices. 

“Well, I was hungry, darling,” He grins down at you when you step back, making a display of digging into the rest of his fruit, a grin of his own on his face as he gets messy once more. You can’t help the laughter this time and with it, Mile’s eyes glitter in the bioluminescent light. 

Showing Quaritch the nightlife in the forest, you study him as he touches every plant he can lay his hands upon, an almost childish, open smile on his face at every different reaction the plant gives. The wonders of the Great Mother shine so clearly in his eyes as he follows you, his ears twisting back and forth as you walk through the forest. Eventually, you lead him back to the clearing, noting how his face falls a little when he realizes. The child-like wonder shifts into soft contentment as his eyes meet yours, a gentle smile crossing his lips once more. For a moment you can feel your breath catch in your throat while your stomach flutters. He’s a beautiful man and when he smiles, when he directs it at you, and you alone, it feels like you’re caught in an invisible net.  

He sits down close to the edge of the cliff, leaning back on his long arms as he lets his head fall. Looking at you upside down, he huffs a chuckle before lifting his head to look out over the beautiful Pandora landscape ahead of him. Following his line of sight, you know exactly what he sees. The forest is bathed in glittering lights of every color, the plants below glowing beautifully as they share their lights with everything Eywa has touched.  Sitting down on the ground beside Quaritch, you fall into a comfortable silence, your eyes turned to the Great Mother’s creations. 

As the silence stretches on, Quaritch’s heat draws you closer until your shoulders eventually bump into each other. His bare skin radiates so much warmth, the sensation almost like getting wrapped up in soft blankets on a cold, rainy day where the wind howled through the cracks in the maruis. You don’t notice how you gravitate closer and closer until you’re plastered to his side, your head leaning against his shoulder. The silence is comfortable and his warmth even more so. Looking up at him, you notice how he’s only staring at you, a gentle look on his face. Smiling back up at him, you close your eyes as his right hand comes up to slowly push away a strand of your hair. The hand ends up cupping your face before his thumb caresses your cheek as you open your eyes to stare up at him again. You watch as he slowly leans down towards you, his eyes hooded as he nears, clearly intending for your lips to meet in a kiss. His descent is slow, his forehead resting on yours, giving you time to pull away if this is not what you wanted. His eyes meet yours, asking for permission before he turns his head slightly to the side to kiss you. Panic strikes you and before you know it, you pull away. You’re not ready for this. It’s too soon. You quickly get to your feet, stepping away from him. 

“It is late. I need to be with my son,” It’s the sorriest of excuses, the rejection so poorly veiled that it almost pains you. Still, Quaritch does not rage, does not raise his voice or take. Instead, he looks up at you with something aching to sadness before he nods, pulling his long legs beneath himself as he gets up. And that somehow makes you feel worse.

“I understand,” He says, not meeting your eyes. 

You’re just left standing there as he calls for your Ikrans, watching as they land before you. He holds your hand as he helps you up on Hawnu’s back, but no matter how much you search for them, his eyes never lift up to meet yours. There are no lingering touches, no gentle smiles, or commentary. Instead, he lets go of your hand as soon as you’re sat across Hawnu’s back, turning his back on the both of you as he walks over to Cupcake, rubbing her forehead and whispering something to her when she screeches loudly after he makes tsaheylu. The flight back is uncomfortably silent. And when you arrive at the base, your parting is even more silent as he walks to your door, putting his hand on the box before opening it for you. But before you’ve even entered, he’s turned for his own door, opening and closing it, without a goodbye, without even looking back. 

Stepping into your room, the wrongness of the situation fills you. The door closes behind you, its metal latches clicking into place as it seals you off from the outside world. Stepping into the room, you smile gently at Spider snoring loudly in your nest. He’s twisted into his blankets, a half-eaten spartan fruit sitting beside his head. Picking up the fruit, you put it down on the table before stepping into the nest. Curling around Spider, you wrap your arms around him, smiling at the way he sighs happily. There’s a pain in your chest, however. A pain that doesn’t go away as night gives way to dawn. Staring out of the see-through metal wall, you go through what happened time after time, after time again. 

Why had you pulled away? Had you not wanted this from him too? Huffing a humorless chuckle to yourself, you almost chastise yourself for even thinking about it. He was the sky demon, the destroyer of Pandora, the very person who destroyed your hometree. He was incapable of loving anything but himself and yet… Eywa eventually blesses you with rest, your mind numb and your soul empty as you drift off to sleep.

When the door to your room opens, the day is bright and Spider has watched his TV for a while. Ja enters your room carefully, eyes searching for yours as he takes you in. Understanding seems to hit him and he clears his throat before stepping further into the room when Spider excitedly greets him. You watch as the two bump their fists together, Spider grinning wildly as he asks about what the plans for the day were. 

“Bet you’re hungry?” Ja grins down at Spider before looking up at you, “Ma’am?”

“Mom, you didn’t get to see all the stuff we gathered yesterday. Mansk said we’ll be rolling down the hallway by the time we’ve eaten it all,” Spider’s excitement brings a smile to your face, but it doesn’t reach your eyes. You thank the Great Mother that your son doesn’t realize it. 

“He made some really great dishes for us, Ma’am,” Ja smiles gently before walking out of your room. 

Following Ja into the common room, you’re surprised to see a long table in the middle of the room. The unit is gathered there, eating and chatting animatedly with each other as they laugh. Quaritch sits at the end, moving a piece of ovumshroom around on his plate. He doesn’t meet your eyes as you sit down to eat with them, doesn’t greet you or acknowledge you at all. In fact, Quaritch doesn’t meet your eyes the entire day, avoiding contact as much as possible and giving silly excuses each time you try to talk to him. 

It pained you to see him like this. Pained you to know that your hesitant rejection had caused this. He had been nothing but kind toward you and your son, had worked harder than anyone and yet when it came down to it, you hadn’t been ready to accept him just yet. Maybe he thought you didn’t accept him at all? But that couldn’t be, you had accepted his courting after all. Your heart twisted painfully at the thought, your ears flattening against your skull as your tail whipped anxiously against your nest. Sighing deeply, you decided that you would corner him come morning. All of this just had to be a poor misunderstanding, right?

Chapter 9 | Masterpost | Chapter 11

[hawkstincan]

Get to know me tag game!

Tagged by @kitkatt0430 thanks for the tag <3<3<3

1. Do you make your bed?

Nope. I dropped making my bed as soon as my mom moved out. Maybe even before that. I sleep on two blankets and under a blanket. It’s just easier. And I toss a lot in my sleep and shits were always on the floor in the morning anyway. So I just stopped wasting my time and energy on making bed 

2. Favorite number?

I consider 666 and 13 lucky ones. And have a soft spot for 6 and 9

3. What’s your job?

Post office. Night shifts. Salary sucks but it’s like two steps from my apartment and I spend most of the shift alone there  

4. If you could go back to school would you?

Honestly? No. I’m too anxious to go back to learning. I dropped out the first time around. And I don’t really have passion for any subject to put myself through this kind of struggle. If I ever find something worth it maybe, but for now no      

5. Can you parallel park?

Nope, I’ve never learned how to drive

6. Do you think aliens are real?

I don’t have a strong opinion. But with the size of the Universe? I thinks that’s quite a possibility 

7. Can you drive a manual car?

Nope, I’ve never learned how to drive

8. What’s your guilty pleasure?

Hmm, Catwoman (2004) and other movies/shows I love but they are considered bad. And yeah, I know that catwoman is bad. But Halle Berry is so beautiful! And I have working eyes! (A Beginner's Guide to Endings on the other hand rated like 6 on imdb. I? I unironically think it’s a masterpiece) 

9. Tattoos?

Yep! I have four for now: snake biting its tail on my right ankle (it goes around the ankle like a bracelet);  flying crow on my right hand below the elbow; mass effect inspired geth crawling on my left shoulder and lightning and snowflakes (if you’re thinking it was inspired by ship you are right) all over my left hand below the elbow. Lightning goes on my palm and point finger. If I have more ‘spare’ money… I’ll get some more. I have ideas and places. 

10. Favorite color?

Purple since I fell in love with hawkeye. And it was black for the most of my life. I still love black. 

11. Favorite type of music?

Rock. Or metal? Or hard rock? I never thought too much about the types. So lets say rock. All the rock 

12. Do you like puzzles?

Kinda? I like them but they are usually very hard for me to solve. And I hate feeling stupid. I like idea but rarely try to really solve them

13. Any phobia?

Insectophobia. I can’t even go near some bugs. Just nope. I once almost jumped under the car to avoid a bug 

14. Favorite childhood sport?

Badminton. We never played by any rules. Just ‘do everything you can to keep the shuttlecock in the air’. And I was good at it. At school we once played with tennis rackets for almost two hours. Good times  

15. Do you talk to your self?

All the time xD Sometimes aloud. “You are a strong capable woman you CAN STOP READING AND FINISH THIS” can be heard every shift from me to me. Luckily I’m the only one hearing this xD 

16. What movies do you adore?

Wrath of Man and Pacific Rim and all Resident Evil movies (with Milla Jovovich) and 10 Things I Hate About You and Bring It On and MASH and From Dusk Till Dawn are my comfort movies/shows. I love the Critters trilogy. I love the new Star Trek trilogy. Nightmare on Elm Street (old ones). The Gentlemen. Old Guard. Kingsglaive: Final Fantasy XV (I rewatched it like four times in a row). The Suicide Squad. The Boondock Saints. Ten Inch Hero. Drive Angry… Well. Like. I have weird taste in movies I guess? (I’ve mentioned only movies I saw more than 5 times)    

17. Coffee or tea?

Coffee. I can't find balance with tea. It’s either tasteless or makes me sick because it’s too strong. Coffee I can drink non stop. Hot and cold, instant and beans. I love the bitter taste of coffee.   

18. First thing you wanted to be growing up

Veterinarian, I think. I always loved animals and thought that being the one to heal them is the best career ever

Tagging (no pressure): @holycafe, @nixie-deangel, @luna-shimizu, @bedalk, @madsteacup, @mommalosthermind, @eaion, @thing2dani and whoever feels like participating :3

[kyunniebuns]

//yume ask game I saw except no one is asking and I'm just answering xD!! I wont answer all because too much and I'm lazy

Feat. JinSeul (Should I make one with Delilah and Aventurine? Yes I have a honkai yume)

Who would end a heated argument by defending their actions with ‘because I love you!’ ?

No doubt it's Jinwoo dopfjkger. Seul-ae is very scared of fighting so when they argue she's quiet after speaking her mind for 2 sentences. Otherwise, it's Jinwoo since he's more vocal in their relationship

What would they do if the other woke in a manic state after a nightmare?

Seul-ae doesn't go manic when she has nightmares surprisingly. If she has them she'll just go "Oh. That happened" Jinwoo meanwhile is more prone to nightmares. On those evenings, Seul-ae will coddle him or she suggests midnight snacking and movies ^^

Do they wear the other’s clothes? (sweatshirt, bandana, necklace, etc.)

Seul-ae is a known hoodie thief heheh~ Well, in her defense Jinwoo leaves his hoodie on display all the time mind as well!

Which one is more protective? Who needs to be ‘protected’

I think neither of them need protection from everything but themselves. Jinwoo is self-sacrificial, Seul-ae has destructive habits that includes scratching herself to the point of wounds. She has a bad habit of digging her skin too. But in hunter situations, Jinwoo is always hovering near her or he drives away the danger.

Describe their cozy night in.

Quiet chitchats of Jinwoo listening to Seul-ae yapping><!! She'd either be drawing, painting or playing the kalimba while she tells him all the stuff she watched from the afternoon he is gone.

Who would beg the other not to leave? Who has to leave to protect the other?

Seul-ae. She will sob and Jinwoo would feel weak but he has a job to do. He'll do anything for her because he knows she would do to him too. But in the end, Jinwoo will come back<3

Would they build a pillow fort together just because?

THEY WOULD!! Seul-ae is wildly impulsive and do random things like flipping the furniture over or random bouts of energy so he's used to her being extra hyper and will entertain her whims. He enjoys the fort making with her since Seul-ae notoriously sleeps with 10+ pillows and xx numbers of bunny plushies.

What happens if one of them gets sick?

Seul-ae is notoriously sickly because of her chronic allergies and asthma. If it's bearable levels of sickness Jinwoo wouldn't use potions to heal her because he wants her to be reliant on him<33

What are their thoughts on having children?

They'll make babies once they're both ready:D! For now, they pretty much prioritise living in the moment and seeing different places.

Describe their first date.

An aquarium date<33. Seul-ae's core memories include jellyfishes so she suggested he come with her. It's actually her quiet way of saying she likes him by showing him where her most precious meories are formed.

Do either try to hide their emotions if upset? Can the other still tell?

They both do<33!! At first it was trouble but both learned how to feel the other out and Jinwoo started encouraging the act of telling him what she feels and he also does the same so they can be on the same level!

Do they have many heated arguments? How do they smooth things over?

Nope<3, Seul-ae is very scared of fights. If Jinwoo looks even remotely upset she'll start crying. She's just very sensitive and has no backbone and arguing with someone just gives her traumatic flashbacks and she just shuts down. So often Jinwoo is careful and firm on telling he's not upset and he just wants to talk.

Who’s the bigger tease?

Jinwoo, he's a bastard. And she calls him all sorts of swear names<33

Do they always say ‘i love you’ before leaving?

YEAH:DD, Seul-ae is always beaming whenever she does it.

How likely are they to have fur babies? How many and what kind?

SEUL-AE IS A BIG KITTY AND BUNNY PERSON!! She will have a ragdoll kitty and a himalayan colored bunbun

How do they feel about PDA?

Seul-ae is extremely bashful so the most she does is just grab his sleeve xD! Jinwoo doesn't really care about pda and lets her touch him the way she wants

Choose one song that perfectly describes their relationship.

Moonstruck. Jinwoo to Seul-ae is her salvation and reason to live in bliss instead of succumbing to her loneliness and pessimism. And Seul-ae to Jinwoo is his paradise because with her he can forget about everything and see everything in rose-colored lenses

Who would get into a fight to defend the other’s honor? Who tends to the other’s wounds?

Although both will throw hands, Seul-ae is actually more prone to bashing heads in. She is notorious for slamming the end of her gun on other hunters if they slander Jinwoo or she would just outright punch their faces. She doesn't care if it's an S-ranker too, she will punch even if the hunter is as big as Thomas Andre. So as a result, Jinwoo often has to pull her away and tend to her while scolding her xD,,,,

Who’s more artistic?

Seul-ae :3, if it weren't for the hunter thing— She would be an established artist

Who would give their life for the other without a second thought?

Both.

What’s a non verbal way they say I love you?

Seul-ae would paint/sketch him. And Jinwoo would remember everything she tells him to heart

Who’s more likely to carry the other to bed?

Jinwoo :D!

Do they like watching clouds or star gazing?

Yes^^!!! Seul-ae childhood involves a lot of watching star documentaries, so she loves going out at night to admire the night sky

Whose the serious one when grocery shopping and who likes to toss random things in the cart?

Jinwoo is more serious and Seul-ae is shoving whatever snack and chocolate they see

Who pulls the other closer when they’re sleeping?

Both:D!! But mostly Jinwoo!!

[lowkeyed1]

Twenty Fanfic Writer Questions

Tagged by @storyspinner91 AND @ankahikoibaat so you know i gotta do it - thanks guys!

Tagging @bisexualshakespeare @blackdalek @rotaryshakes @aurorawest @bizzybee429 @mareebird @woobifiedvillain @cenobitic-anchorite @maeve-curry-writes @morriganwarrior @celamity @peterbenjaminparkour 1. How many works do you have on Ao3?  29. not bad for thirteen months!

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count?  226,628

3. What fandoms do you write for?

willow 2022, my obsession

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Velvet Fist, Iron Glove - so what if kit and graydon had to get married after all? and graydon was a trans man and kit discovered a predilection for domming? and then they started sleeping with jade? and graydon started sleeping with boorman? and graydon and airk got kidnapped together and... and then i need to get back to writing this one i guess. the greater tir asleen polycule is thriving! Thrown Like a Star - a kissing lesson on the shattered sea gets out of hand, and graydon and boorman start fooling around. when the immemorial city happens, they realize they're down bad for each other, and it changes everything. graydon finds out about the lie he's been living, boorman finds out what his life is about now that he knows he's not the hero of the story, and they find peace in each other. i gotta get back to writing this one too actually, there's a sequel a-comin Shattered Sea Crack: It Came From Beneath the Mud - a halloween fic about the questie gang telling scary stories on the shattered sea, and jade smokes 'em all Zombie Crack: Night of the Living Dental Dam - kit and jade try some role-playing to spice up their sex lives. i wrote this ficlet to get my ao3 word count to an even 100K! Funhouse Crack: Mirror Maze - kit and jade go on a date to a carnival, but the mirror maze proves tricky... 5. Do you respond to comments?

pretty much every one, yeah. i'm dying to talk about my writing XD

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? 

i don't really do that, lol. some of the halloween crack fics end with everyone dying.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? 

a lot of them have happy endings, if you know what i mean ;) but no they pretty much all do. except the ones where they all die!

8. Do you get hate on fics? 

no? not sure i'm popular enough for that lol

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? 

mostly yes! mostly m/m, mostly fairly vanilla. some light bdsm flavors here and there. the graydon/airk/elora silly kink funtimes series features a lot of goofy roleplay.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? 

not yet but i keep pondering them

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? 

nope!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? 

ooh way back in the day yeah. would love to again (i see you @littleblackraincloudofcourse)

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

graydon hastur and thraxus boorman, or as i insist on tagging my constant posts about them, #graythrax

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? 

anything i've posted is gonna get finished. i don't know when because i keep getting distracted by new shiny ideas but i plan to finish them all :D

16. What are your writing strengths? 

i've gotten really good at ignoring that little voice that goes 'that isn't good enough. that's dumb. no one will like this. give up'. i'm a really good speller too! committing to the bit is a big one. aaaand going from 'people will figure out things about me from what i write oh no :0' to 'frankly i would enjoy the attention so go ahead'

17. What are your writing weaknesses? getting butthurt about not getting enough attention, lol

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? 

i would have to ask someone who's fluent to help me

19. First fandom you wrote for?

xena!

20. Favourite fic you’ve written? 

Thrown Like a Star - it's what got me writing again after a very long hiatus, and it's the story i most wanted to see that no one else was writing. how i write has changed a bit since i started but it's still so powerful to me, to have realized my vision for it to such a degree. i only wish more people were as interested in my favorite ship so i could share that joy with them <3

[officialauthorofanotherworld]

responding to multiple tags like i said i would (finally)

i've been busy (read: depressed and lazy) for a while now and decided that, before i start writing today i'd reply to the tags i got a while back :P

might be a bit of a long post due to that but uh...

alright, here we go (srry for stealing your formatting @jev-urisk)

✨️Headcanon Rating Tag✨️

Rules: use this headcanon generator to generate some headcanons for your OCs! How accurate are they?

Using the two main parties from Party of Three

Taka

Taka has an intense fear of people. 3/10: While Taka is a very nervous/anxious person, I wouldn't say he has a fear of people. He has a fear of social situations maybe, lol.

Taka is an extrovert. 0/10: Taka is a introvert. This ties into him not liking social situations where he's near a ton of random people, why he's so nervous wandering around Leln for the first time, and why he has a hard time sleeping on the carriage ride there. He's obviously far calmer/extroverted around his friends, but i'd say around strangers he's 100% a introvert, although if you approach him he might find it easier to open up and talk to you after a little bit.

Taka gets bullied on roblox. 4/10: Taka would be the one doing the bullying on ROBLOX. This is such an incredibly funny one to me, if Taka and Beriyl and Arthur had been born into this world instead, I 100% guarantee a few things. Taka is the kind of kid to play Fortnite and do the dances irl to piss off people. Beriyl would hate it and Taka would find that so funny. Secretly, Beriyl would actually like Fortnite and if Taka found out, he'd make him duo with him. Taka is also the kinda kid to go on TikTok and start repeating all the brainrot terms out of a weird ironic comedy, not actually having brainrot but thinking that pretending to would be funny. (Also because it would piss off Beriyl) Arthur would stop them from fighting like he already does.

Beriyl:

Beriyl gets into Twitter discourse. 10/10: 100% 100% ONE-HUNDRED-PERCENT, he is the exact type of person to be easily anger-able by pretty much anything, ESPECIALLY if he's already in a bad mood, he would one HUNDRED percent have fruitless, long arguments with random internet strangers on youtube or something lol

Beriyl voted sans in the tumblr sexyman poll. 0/10: Beriyl probably would play Undertale but I don't think he'd find sans attractive. He'd probably draw some connections from sans to Taka's sense of humor (i bet Taka would vote sans cuz he'd think it'd be funny) but idk if he'd vote sans. maybe if Taka hijacked his account and voted for sans (which i could see happening, and then them fighting about it)

Beriyl is tumblr famous. 5/10: Either Beriyl would be very popular or very unpopular, but believe he deserves to be popular. He's a very vain person for a good part of the story, so his reaction to either way sorta depends on how much growth he's undergone personality-wise. Let's say that early Beriyl would believe he deserves popularity and not have it, and if he DID have it it would massively go to his head and result in a big ego trip, and if he didn't, he'd be really mad about it. Late-stage (i hesitate to say lategame but not sure how else to describe the end of book 1 chargrowth wise... latebook? XD) Beriyl probably wouldn't care either way.

Arthur:

Arthur can't spell resturaunt. 0/10: The headcanon website misspelled restaurant. Arthur's parents were merchants and educated him as best they could. I kinda doubt he wouldn't be able to spell restaurant. Beriyl can spell it. Taka maybe. Sometimes he has trouble writing long/"big" words. Qlul and Ecirr probably could write it. Eirairr would probably scribble all over the page and start laughing when you tell him that he didn't even write anything.

Arthur has fallen asleep at their desk while working in the middle of the night. 0/10: For the most part, i'm assuming this is an AU where they were born on Earth and not in Tamalnh, but Arthur has such a crazy work ethic I imagine he'd stay up all night to the point where this would happen. I mean, for the most part, if he has something he needs to do, he will just not sleep, to the detriment of his overall health. So for that reason, I was going to say 10/10, but Arthur is the kind of person to just refuse to sleep if he feels like he has something he needs to do (i.e protect someone) so, 0/10. Maybe 1/10, but... ok, moving on

Arthur has been canceled on Twitter. 0/10 Arthur would either not use Twitter, not understand Twitter, or have an account cuz Taka told him to sign up and barely use it. I can see him maybe having a cooking twitter or looking at Gordon Ramsay or smth, but he wouldn't be cancelled.

Qlul:

Qlul is oblivous to any and all romantic interest someone may show them. 4/10: The site misspelled oblivious. Anyway... I mean, he's dating Ecirr. But I can see this going two ways, him being oblivious or him knowing more than he lets on. so due to my indecisiveness, 4/10

If Qlul was presented with an intergalactic portal, they would enter it without question. 1/10: Most likely not, it depends how it "feels" to him. Is Ecirr there? What does Ecirr say about it? What are the stakes-- what does he stand to gain/lose? He's not the impulsive type-- I can't say I can see him jumping into a portal, especially not in a world where, yaknow, orbs of destruction exist. Eirairr probably would, if he "sensed" that it wouldn't kill him. Maybe. It depends lol (i doubt i'll end up calling them that, but i imagine that in dungeons things like that do exist. yes im talking about the destruction orbs from 5e)

Qlul is very willing to eat inedible things. 0/10 No. Kaardan cuisine is sorta weird, they probably use a lot of bugs, monsters and make lots of soup/stew, but... no, Qlul isn't gonna eat rocks.

Ecirr:

Ecirr has a stuffed animal under their bed. 3/10 If he did, it'd be of the messenger ravens he and Qlul communicated with back in school, or of Qlul himself. But he'd never let anyone know-- so i'd say this is a fifty-fifty :p

Ecirr is a sleepwalker. 0/10 He's not.

Ecirr set a public school on fire and got away with it. 0/10 Ecirr would not do something like that lol, none of them would. I'm not sure "public school" even exists in my world... but anywaaayyy, on to Eirairr!

Eirairr:

Eirairr does not know what sleep is. 10/10: This is absolutely hilarious. Eirairr has never slept before in his life. Eirairr is a full-blooded elf, and does not need to sleep. While i'm sure he knows what the concept of "sleep" is, he has never personally experienced it. With that logic, you could say he does not know sleep.

Eirairr is a cry baby. (I got the sleepwalker one again and i was like....i dont wanna do duplicates, that's boring. also he can't sleep, so no. although i can see him pretending to sleepwalk to be funny, definitely in his personality to do something like that.) 0/10: No, but Taka certainly cries a lot. Just like me.... that means i'm a crybaby D:

Eirairr is great with kids. 8/10: Honestly, if Eirairr maintained his calm personality for a extended period of time, I could see him being a great babysitter. He definitely has that childish energy. So maybe he'd destroy the house with the kid. But on the off hand he controls himself, then yeah, he'd be great for both the kid and the parent. But if he doesn't... well, let's say the parent won't be very happy when they get home and both of them are climbing all over the place.

Bonus: Villain Round!!! Vitsmunir!!!

Vitsmunir:

Vitsmunir likes to eat straight coffee beans. 7/10: maybe. I could see Vitsmunir being a dark chocolate, licorice, and black coffee sort of guy... if he let himself relax and wasn't on the verge of a psychotic, murderous-rage-filled mental breakdown + panic attack every second of his life.

Vitsmunir bullies kids on roblox. 10/10: I know I said I wouldn't do duplicates but this is very funny. Yes, yes, he would. He 100% would bully people and try and feel better about himself through this. And then he'd wonder why he doesn't have any friends. :(

Vitsmunir is a simp. 0/10: I kind of feel like if he were in our world, he'd be asexual/a-romantic. And probably in prison for murder.

Okay... that was a really long one, i'm tempted to just do two posts but eh, whatever, here's the second tag thingy (again, ty jev, im stealing ur formatting XD)

✨️OC Questionnaire Tag✨️

My questions:

So you're one of those people?

Is this really where you wanted to end up?

Why can't you just.. stop?

Your questions:

Where do you see yourself in ten years?

If you could change just one thing about your current life, what would it be?

What is your favorite thing in the whole world?

I'll be answering as Beriyl Edmund Ciphre von Aschwaz from Party of Three.

For the purposes of this one, Beriyl will be his early book self. Cocky, self-indulged, and worst of all, bri'ish.

Imagine him speaking as a posh British noble, with a hint of uh... flamboyance? He's a very dramatic person. Anyway, on with the questions...

1. So you're one of those people?

What the hells do you mean by that? One of those people? If you mean, beautiful, wonderful, and much better than you, then yes! I am Beriyl Edmund Ciphre von Aschwaz, after all! So glad you noticed. Of course I'm better than a worthless commoner like yourself! Hmph.

2. Is this really where you wanted to end up?

Wh- I must say, what is it with you and all these rude questions?! What does that even mean?! I- *he pauses* ... Crossing his arms, he peers outwardly at you. Are you speaking of Taka? No, I must say... I did not wish to end up stuck in a party with a commoner like him, nor a brute like Arthur. Gods, they're so unrefined. They're so imbecilic! Hmph... yes, that is quite the apt descriptor for them. Well, I suppose, put any of lowly birth next to one of such high status like myself and they'd appear a fool next to a saint, or some such... Saint Beriyl, I do like the ring of that! Are you-?! Why are you scoffing at me?! How dare you!! I am Beriyl Edmund Ciphre von Aschwaz, and I-

3. Why can't you just.. stop?

Stop, stop what?! This entire conversation has been one of the most unpleasant I've had since I met that damnable fool, Taka! Are you as stupid as he is, or are you just trying to get on my nerves?! Hah! If anything, you should stop! Stop breathing, that is! Yes, hmm! Stop breathing near me, commoner! I, Beriyl Edmund Ciphre von Aschwaz, refuse to breathe in your disgusting commoner air! Away, away from me! Thank you!

welp, there ya go jev. told you you'd piss off Beriyl with questions like that :sob: Hope you had fun reading all that :D I certainly had fun writing it. Feel free to tag me in more of your stuff, I love answering them. It's a lot of fun, and a nice writing exercise/warm up.

Have a good day everyone :)

(For those who enjoy reading the weekly posts, i will try and have the third... or was it the fourth, out soonish.... soonTM, okay? :p)

[paladin-of-nerd-fandom65]

Like the answers! :D

1: if they were able to paint their faces, what would they paint? When I was little I got my face painted to look like Batman with the blue cowl 😂

2: do they do nostalgic kid stuff, like making noises in front of those plug in fans or play with those door stopper thingies?

3: are the duo the type to slide down a railing/stair banister? For slapstick comedy, I can see them accidentally fall sideways off of it or hitting the end piece crotch first XD

4: has there been a time where they accidentally spilt their pants or taking a energy beam blast, leaving them in their underwear? (Don’t know if this question is ok to answer, message me if this is ok)

5: what was their first cuss word? Either accidentally or purposely.

6: what’s your opinion on the tv show Superman & Lois? I have a few rewriting ideas that you might love ;)

1: the “twins” are much younger, like 8-10

2: the twins aren’t twins XD

3: the Jordan character is superboy Jon Kent who is a year younger. The Jonathan character is Chris Kent who pretty much a little of your version: blue heat vision, gets powers from moon, from the phantom zone (if it exists don’t remember)

4: the first season is about gangs somehow having kryptonian weapons, later it’s revealed it was brought from a wormhole from space similar to Chris’s arrival. The season finale reveals that Chris is a sleeper agent anytime he hears words similar to portals ( portal, dimension, phantom zone itself) for his father Zod.

5: the second season is about Zods invasion & at the end, Chris breaks free of the program due to his superfamily loves & for drama, snaps his neck like in man of steel, due to his “warrior blood”

@pin-crusher2000 Glad you do, now here’s some more of them lol

1) For Jake, I can see the aforementioned Batcowl around his eyes and forehead while for Chris on the other hand, he’d probably would get two matching blue dragons on each side of his cheeks and a House of El S logo on the space between his eyebrows, just being a bit experimental

2) I can see the Duo probably jump on the couch if they’re especially bored (though remembering to put it back together after they’re done), be a little silly and wacky with their Lego sets, have some soda drinking contests and maybe as established before roleplay as warriors from their planet’s past akin to say tag or hide and seek in a way.

3) Mostly likely Jake alone would be doing that since Chris can conversely can float down the stairs for funsies instead. As for comedic mishaps, Jake on his try did indeed accidentally fall off sideways upon making it to the bottom, thankfully he wasn’t badly hurt but now he knows to adjust his balance better afterwards.

4) Actually if they do sustain damage to their outfits, I envision it being for more dramatic and painful reasons than comedic ones, mainly a result of bad beat downs the Duo would get from supervillains on their similar power level. It’s actually more common for them to have their boots shredded off by massive energy blasts and explosions or missing one of two gloves after saving the day. So yeah, nothing too comedic on this case

5) Chris: “Oh hell”; accidentally when he was six and after hearing Lois say it so many times when things went wrong for her. He said it out loud during a time the family were watching Clark trying to fight back against Solaris The Tyrant Sun and it was going badly

Jake: “Son of a Dick!”; On purpose when he’s about five when trying to float of the ground because his powers hadn’t kicked in yet.

6) Oh I like it for what it is just fine but I’ll freely admit those rewrite ideas are REALLY something that they should go for one day. Especially the one of Chris being an unintentional sleep agent for Zod and later fighting back as a season finale. (Chefs Kiss)

I love that SO much XD

[medtech-mara]

10, 12, 24, and 30 for Mara? <3

List for questions can be found >here< pls ask me more, or rb so i can ask you some ⸂⸂⸜(രᴗര๑)⸝⸃⸃

TW death.

10. Does Mara have any regrets?

I'm going to be completely honest here, and it gives me a pit in my stomach. The answer can easily be answered with Yes, but at the same time its more complicated.

I'll explain a bit, Mara suffers from Cyberpsychosis, though she's not totally out of control, she exhibits classic signs. One, of those is permeant. I took it upon myself to add this characteristic for her as her only way coping with everything thats happen. No amount of therapy will ever scrub from her. mechanically speaking, she could just go to therapy and if she gained enough humanity back, she would then lose that characteristic.

Mara's traits are the following currently:

Impusle control

Poor behavior control

Cunning and Manipulative

Failure to Accept responsibility

The last one was determined the last time she had dropped to 1 humanity point from full cyberpsychosis, one of those i rolled to see which one would be the perma trait..... So...(IF I had lost 1 more point... I would have had to turn her over to the DM, I no longer get to play her til she gains more humanity.)

Thats where it gets complicated.

God, I feel like I have so much to include here so I'll totally understand if you never ask me a question ever again. xD

If you were to ask ME what I want her to feel regret about its for Jack's death, after all it was her fault. If she had been open and honest with him before she left for the city center gig, he might have been saved from being mauled by one of Biotechnica's experiments. She knew in the pit of her stomach that Jack was up to something, but was too busy trying to remove the kill switch to do anything about it.

If you want to know what she regrets, its a few things:

Not going half on that Sig frame Jago wanted the night before he was beheaded.

Not reaching out and grabbing Jago to keep him from pissing off Tetsuo Okada.

Putting her fear aside and taking her chance with Jack Adams .

12. Does Mara have any sense of style? Regardless of the answer does she believe she has a sense of style?

Honestly, not really. Due to Mara being 6'2, its not easy to find clothes that fit her, so she often has to have things custom tailored for her. Which works great, because she gets the help she needs.

24. Does Mara have any Enemies?

She has no shortage of those... Some I don't even think I can name, because I just don't know them yet. Those I can name:

Tetsuo Okada, one of Wakako's sons, reasons for Night Raid putting him in the hospital for killing Jago.

Another one of Wakako's sons.. For J I H Z Z Y publically humiliating him and shaking him down for the repairs and solving their maelstrom turf war on livestream. I was too drunk over J I H Z Z Y being a bad ass to remember his name, im gonna be real.

Voodoo Boys, for stealing a black box containing unknown program, could have been the A.I that infected NIGHT RAID with the killswitch. Also killing Brigitte second in command, just as equally formidable as Placid. Also the violence between the two is starting to ramp up again. Due to hearing Panthera's interview with Genesis Vijun they've decided to leave a calling card on Mara's clinic door.

Saul Herrera- Valentino Fixer- While, if you ask Saul, he'd tell you she's just a borg'd brain bitch who needs to downgrade, and probably regrets ever contributing to her upgrades. He'd say it started when Desiree "Token" Yang had asked her told flame to help with a prank NIGHT RAID wanted to pull on a sleeping Panthera in the back of the crews car. He agree'd went with one of his chooms, pulled out his piece and tapped on the window of the car to wake Mara, he was to act like he was robbing her.

What NIGHT RAID didn't expect, Mara's reaction to be woken up with a gun in her face. Pulling the lever to get out of the car, Mara slid quickly back and kicked the door as hard as she could, causing the two valentinos to fly back, then Mara pulled her gun out and was about to paint the pavement when Saul's choom grabbed her by her hair pulling her off, kicking, screaming, and determined to go down fighting, Mara hissed clawing at the mans hand warning him if he didn't let her go she was going to rip his throat out with her teeth. Thats when NIGHT RAID stepped in and was like "Its just a prank, bro"

However, you ask Mara, she'll tell you the disrespect he's shown her every single time they met before the prank happened.

30. If Mara had the chance to be famous would she take it? If She is famous would she rather she weren't?

As it stands, Mara is famous. NIGHT RAID is on everyones lips currently. She's easily recognizable by anyone. Frankly, she wishes she wasn't.

It wouldn't matter if NIGHT RAID had stayed under the radar or not, she's married famous South African Rockerboy J I H Z Z Y, who has been making waves in the club scene from JAPANTOWN to Wellsprings, you'll hear his new single.

Though thankfully, Mara brings a threatening energy that most dont wanna fuck with, so they don't really approach her much.

OH MY GOD

I'm so sorry, Info dumped a lot, theres just so much about this campaign and so little time (and frankly peoples interest) to talk about it. I hope this doesn't prevent you from asking in the future. AND DONT JUDGE ME for giving up on linking every single person to the character key or do their respected pages. It's a lot to do. And I think you get the point by the first few times. This is probably all word vomit but its how i thrive in chaos.

[having-conniptions]

KinnPorsche ep 5 Rewatch Rambles:

"What happened to me?" "You were drugged. But they didn't do anything to you." YEAH BUT YOU DID KINN

"Why are they targeting me?" To hurt Kinn, next question

Detective Kim at work lol

Kinn: "As a boss I had to take care of him" Korn: "As a boss you didn't have to fuck him" (I know that's not what he said but it's what he meant)

That Tankhun and Kim interaction tho lmao

"Are you fucking dumb, bro?" xD I don't like Ken but I love Perth

Porsche is having flashbacks of Kinn's boobies. Same, girl.

And the not-very-subtle "playing with fire" metaphor? Nnnnnice.

I also didn't notice before that he was crying while he's having those flashbacks. Investing in full hd sure payed off

At least Pete is just as clueless as Porsche usually is

But back to those flashbacks, you can't tell me Porsche didn't feel violated. As much as I love the series and the ship I still can't accept what happened and that it's just brushed off after Kinn apologizes for "crossing a line" by which he just means losing professionalism by sleeping with one of his subordinates (which is already very questionable in and of itself)

GUYS!! COMMUNICATE! Kinn is sad bc Porsche has been acting distant so he gives him the cold shoulder and calls up one of his boys and then Porsche isn't too happy about that ugh what a mess

Hahahah Porsche's like "I can do that too" and tries to get with a girl

But how poetic is it that they both can't stop thinking about each other and end up not going through with it

Ayyyy Vegas is back 🖤🔥 tbh I was kinda rooting for him the first time around

Ok the VegasPorsche motorbike ride with Why Don't You Stay in the background is actually so cute

Even though Vegas' intentions were questionable at best, he did manage to take Porsche's mind off things and make him feel better. I feel like they could have been such great friends without the whole manipulation and boyfriend-snatching

Gahhh Vegas is so cute in this, really close to Bible just being himself

THE HUG Vegas is smiling even when Porsche can't see his face VEGAS JUST WANTS TO BE LOVED

"What took you so long?" Kinn calm down he's not your husband (yet)

"Are you saying that I've hurt you?" "And have you not?" TELL HIM PORSCHE

"I can do whatever I want" KINN WHY DO YOU ALWAYS SAY THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT YOU WANT TO SAY

*almost kisses Porsche* "Starting tomorrow, Ken will be my head bodyguard" KINN NO USE YOUR WORDS. THE CORRECT ONES.

KimChay being cute I can't I can't do this again I can't take this heartbreak again I just can't

Detective Kim analyzing whether Chay is lying about Porsche he is really in his own separate detective movie huh

Omg the pics in Porchay's phone are so wholesome, just Chay with his loved ones, food, and cats. In mine Kim would find the same mirror selfie from 10 slightly different angles or with slightly different poses and then the same thing but from the day before and maybe the occasional random pic of something interesting I saw

Chay winning Kim over with his cuteness and talent AWWWWW

Pete is so hilarious

And such a good friend aaaaaa I love him

Porsche having dinner with his friends is just so wholesome awwww (why did Kinn have to show up and make it awkward)

I know I'm sounding more and more anti Kinn but I swear I'm not

"It's kinda cool to have a henchman. But he seems dull" ahahahah I fucking can't

"I'm taking you home" I REFUSE TO INTERPRET THAT AS ANYTHING OTHER THAN DOMESTIC AS FUCK

This is kinda where Kinn finally starts showing a bit more of his dorky side that we love so much

"If I don't care about you, why am I sitting here then?" <3<3<3<3<3

Aaaaand the handcuffed arc begins 👀

Daaaamn Chan really got that guy with one clean shot

Handcuffed in the forest arc here we gooooo

[mythicamagic]

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? - no.

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? - my Chihuahua, Teddy.

03: Do you regret anything? - yes. I regret not being there emotionally for someone but hindsight is a wonderful thing. I now try to be more conscious of how everyone's doing.

04: Are you insecure? - yes.

05: What is your relationship status? - perpetually single.

06: How do you want to die? - in my sleep lmao

07: What did you last eat? - an oreo. They're overrated.

08: Played any sports? - I used to play hockey and be a good swimmer, thing of the past tho.

09: Do you bite your nails? - Nope!

10: When was your last physical fight? - ohh hm long time ago. I think I was 15-16.

11: Do you like someone? - kinda but it's not gonna happen

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? - I think so, years ago XD

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? - Nope

14: Do you miss someone? - Yep

15: Have any pets?- joint own Teddy with my sister

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? - pretty good!

17: Ever made out in the bathroom? - ha Nope.

18: Are you scared of spiders? - the big ones freak me out but I know they're just dummies. I don't mind the small ones.

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? - yes, provided I keep my memories of this time.

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? - not applicable XD

21: What are your plans for this weekend? - do nothing

22: Do you want to have kids? How many? - Nope none never

23: Do you have piercings? How many? - my ears are pierced

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? - Art and English

25: Do you miss anyone from your past? - yup

26: What are you craving right now? - Any kind of food lmao pizza would be nice

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? - no, but I've turned a couple of guys down.

28: Have you ever been cheated on? - no.

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? - no.

30: What’s irritating you right now? - I kind of have a headache bc I teeth grind a lot and need to stop that loll

31: Does somebody love you? - platonically yes

32: What is your favourite color? - sky blue

33: Do you have trust issues? - hm...I'd say I'm skeptical but not to the point that it impacts my relationships with friends

34: Who/what was your last dream about? - really horrible actually, was about animal experiments. Then some guy was driving me somewhere, very odd.

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? - I think it mightve been my brother in law last year but I'm not sure he noticed, I prefer crying alone.

36: Do you give out second chances too easily? - lol no. If anything I cut people out of my life too quickly

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? - eh, apathy is the best policy.

38: Is this year the best year of your life? - I've had a strange year. Had a great time chatting to online friends, worked on myself mentally by going to the doctors, trying to become a tad more independent and adult and less harsh on myself. I'd call it a gentle growth year

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? - never had one

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? - lmao no

51: Favourite food? - indifferent to food but I guess pasta

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? - no

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? - looked at my phone

54: Is cheating ever okay? - for me personally no.

55: Are you mean? - sometimes

56: How many people have you fist fought? - two

57: Do you believe in true love? - for other people yes. I think I've seen it. In my family though I don't think I've witnessed 'true' love between spouses.

58: Favourite weather? - Warm sunny day but not too hot

59: Do you like the snow? - its pretty to look at but I don't like walking in it

60: Do you wanna get married? - it's a nice thought XD

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? - might sound patronising. Depends who's saying it

62: What makes you happy? - simping over fictional characters, walking Teddy.

63: Would you change your name? - my last name yes.

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? - nope bc I kissed Teddy's forehead

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? - I don't have any guy friends

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? - nope

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? - the male cashier. He looked very tired, must be because it's around Christmas time XD

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? - my sister

69: Do you believe in soulmates? - no

70: Is there anyone you would die for? - yes. Theres a couple of people.

@ochrosia ask and you shall receive, you cruel woman XD

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[megan-loves-surveys]

#52.

1: What would you name your future daughter? I don't want kids but if I did have one, I'd probably name her Cheryl, Imara or Stella.

2: Do you miss anyone? Yes.

3: What if I told you that you were pretty? I'd say thank you xD

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? No.

5: What are you looking forward to in the next week? Not much tbh.

6: Did you go out or stay in last night? I stayed in cos I went out the night before and was super tired.

7: How late did you stay up last night? Cos of daylight savings, the clocks went forward so it was 3am when I actually did go to sleep lol.

8: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? Yep.

9: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? I was using the blow dryer on my hair after a shower, lol.

10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? No.

11: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Sure, but I wouldn't want to, that would be boring. I like a drink every now and then.

12: Have you pretended to like someone? Probably.

13: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Yes.

14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Yep.

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? Depends on the situation.

16: Think back five months ago, were you single? No.

17: Have you ever cried from being so mad? Yes.

18: Hold hands with anyone this week? Yes.

19: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? No, it was at my boyfriend's front door before I walked back to my house this morning (we live on the same street so I can walk to and from his house lol).

20: Who did you last see in person? My Mum, she literally came up the stairs about a minute ago.

21: What is the last thing you said out lot? My Mum and I are talking about the internet dying briefly last night.

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? Yes.

23: Have you ever been to Paris? No.

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? Depends.

25: Do you use chap stick? Yes.

26: Who did you last share a bed with? My boyfriend. He was out late last night watching sports with his friends and got back at like 2am super drunk and basically woke me up crawling into bed LOL. Thanks babe...

27: Are you listening to music right now? Yes, Little Mix - More Than Words

28: What is something you currently want right now? Hmm... a trip.

29: Were your last three kisses from the same person? Yes.

30: How is your heart lately? Fine.

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? If I need to, like it's raining or something.

32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? This morning.

33: What do people call you? Depends who it is - most people just call me Megan, or Meg if they're a friend or know me pretty well. My boyfriend calls me every pet name under the sun, but his fave is baby girl. Online, people call me Mox Girl, Mox or MG.

34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? Probably.

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? Sometimes.

36: What are you listening to right now? Spice Girls - Naked

37: What is wrong with you right now? I'm just still tired, but apart from that I'm good.

38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? Sure.

39: Do you make wishes at 11:11? No.

40: What is on your wrists right now? My FitBit is on my right wrist.

41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected? Taken.

42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? It's a Mox t-shirt, so likely from either AEW Shop or Pro Wrestling Tees, depends when I bought it cos I don't remember.

43: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Yes.

44: Have you hugged someone within the last week? Yes.

45: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? Yes.

46: What were you doing at midnight last night? I was playing a colouring game on my laptop while watching a YouTube video on my bf's TV, curled up with his doggies <3

47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? It was pretty much the same, lol.

48: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? If it's my bf, then with someone else.

49: Have you ever been to New York? Yup, 4 times - 2013, 2014, 2016 and 2019.

50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Yes.

Aries: What or who is your inspiration? Jon Moxley, Dakota Kai and my boyfriend. Do you often have a short-temper? Not really. Do you often have days where you either hot or cold with anybody, not in-between? No.

Taurus: What’s something you have a very strong opinion about? Wrestling. LOL. Would people consider you to be materialistic? I don't think so. Is it hard for you to accept change? Depends on the change.

Gemini: What would someone have to do in order to catch your attention? That really depends. Do you often feel at world with two different aspects of yourself? Yes - I have an extremely sexual side to me that only my boyfriend gets to see lol. Would people consider you to be flighty? No.

Cancer: What gets you emotional? Lots of things. Are you family orientated in everything you do? No. I love my family though. Do you feel the need to be needed? No.

Leo: What are you best at? Typing and data entry lol. Do people often assume you’re pretentious? No. Do you hate being alone? No, I like it.

Virgo: Name an interesting fact about yourself. I've broken 3 out of 4 of my limbs, only my right leg hasn't had an injury of some sort. Do you often over analyze simple situations? No. Are you often skeptical? Yes.

Libra: How far would you go to make someone feel better? Depends. Do others consider you to be stuck up? I hope not. Do you often try to find common ground when in a political debate? I don't like politics, so I stay out of that stuff. Plus I think I'm super in the centre cos I agree with facets of both sides.

Scorpio: Do you believe in love at first sight? Maybe. Would you often call yourself a moody person? No. Do you tell it like it is to your friends? With some of them - some of them can't handle it.

Sagittarius: What’s your biggest goal in life? To enjoy myself and travel. Are you often humorous? I like to think so. Would you like to go on many adventures? Yes!

Capricorn: Are you someone who trusts easily? It depends. Are you self-sufficient? Mostly. Do you often conceal yourself from the world around you? Some of it.

Aquarius: How loyal are you to other people? Super loyal. Do you come across as cold and aloof at times? No. Do you often think about the complexities of life? No.

Pisces: Do you hide how you feel or do you speak your mind? I speak my mind. Have you ever given it your all just to have someone walk away from your life? No. Do you have any skills or interests in the arts? I love to write.

About You: What sign are you? Cancer. What sign is your best friend? Gemini. What sign is the person you like/significant other? Taurus. Do you believe in astrology? Not really, but it's fun to read about. If you could change your sign will you? Maybe yeah cos why do I have to be the one that shares a name with a horrible disease?

A. Why did your last relationship end? Cos he dumped me. B. Favourite band? Blue or Five. C. Does someone like you? Yes. D. Sleep position? I sleep mainly on my back cos of my busted shoulder, but over time I've been able to sleep on my left side again - before it was too painful but it's gotten easier over time. My boyfriend loves to spoon so I make him sleep on my right side xD E. Who is your best friend? Ngawari. F. Do you have an online best friend as well? I have loads - I have all my friends on Discord! G. What kind of job do you have? I'm a secretary - my main tasks are data entry, note taking during meetings, working reception and doing odd jobs for my boss. H. Do I smoke/drink? I drink. I. Have any tattoos or piercings? No. J. Are you currently in school? No. K. What is your relationship with your parents? I live with my Mum and we are BFFs, and I'm also super close to my Dad as well. L. Do you have insecurities? If so, name one. M. Are you a virgin? No. N. Favourite place to shop at? Depends what I want to buy. O. What are the color of your eyes? Green. P. What do you love about summer? Wearing less clothes, it's light till late, the weather is far better, it's easier to get ready cos less to put on lol. Q. What is your relationship status? Taken, since 2022. R. Favourite song at the moment? Melanie Martinez - Nymphology S. Are you often mistaken to be older or younger? Younger. The other day at the gym I was chatting to a woman, she thought I was 21 lol. T. What age do you get mistaken for? Most of the time people think I'm in my early to mid 20's, I'm actually a decade older than that xD U. Are you going out of town anytime soon? I wish. V. When was the last time you cried? Haha it was actually this morning cos of something kinky my boyfriend did to me, but it was a good cry xD W. Have you ever fallen up the stairs? Yes. X. What would you do if the person you like died? Be devastated obviously. Dumb question. Y. Last time you where in the hospital? 2017. Z. How are you? I'm good.

[castle-dominion]

6x1 valkyrie

It has been a while since I liveblogged. I want to finish watching castle before summer is over.

She got a job ok, they got engaged ok.

Lol love the yes/no/yes/no "most serious thing I've ever done"

RC: You do know how this works, right? his twelve hundred names lol (& yeah that is HUGE gem)

Ah NOW it has been two months no longer sayong "nypd" must have been a change.

I remember when I first saw this I thought "oh it must be this gif with the sexy bra" but it wasn't. & then she got hit so hard she fell back like that?

"or worse: me"

Ew she doesn't have her plans anymore?

I love the music dskljfsdlkfj "he's best with rhetorical questions"

Alexis is pretty. Oh yeah. Pi. I love him so much. Spelling is a construct anyway bro. RC: Uh … make sure you put some blankets out on the couch for Pi if he’s staying? (his meaning is not subtle) Want him to be comfortable. (his phone rings) And visible. I mean like yeah boy sleeps on the couch.

Meh won't clip

Poor them, not seeing each other.

Lol what are you smiling about to the castle cutout.

Is that still her mom's ring? How did Castle get here? You want me to leave? Immediately *starts kissing him*

Castle mr nosey man.

Wow they're good! she looks a lot like castle tbh CASTLE NO SHE'S LITERALLY NOT EVEN IN THE CAR YET YOU CAN CATCH HER

the baby sdkfljslkdjklj (clipping) Halo nights, new trivi fact "well since you offered"

could clip the part where ryan tosses the baby doll on esposito Yay Tory Ellis "isn't that beckett's backyard?" jf ey tunnel shdgy cal.l d*lat.er when i ^bet1er

*castle is already at the golf course*

"it better be on a book jacket" unless he is at home when you drop beckett off bro

"I didn't think I'd get caught"

Yes the old haunt! Mccord is also getting the same info I'm sure.

Oh no phtos of Castle.

Oh no r they tattling on becks?

Picked up a guy, talked in my sleep, let out info about Scoffield. What if you get the license plate when he opened his trunk? Really you have a match off of THAT?

Infiltration? Yeah this fellow def going into a building.

Her voice cracked hella when she said "clear" Also wow these folks are hot in their vests. Her phone is on ring mode? She just went into a building with guns, what if she got in trouble? What if they needed to be quiet?

"the kind that makes me feel all" *ooh*

RC: I have salmon that needs to be refrigerated He's so right RC: that's a read THAT'S A RED!

My man has been shot or smth.. At least castle grabbed the gun. "10 & 2, 10 & 2" XD

Castle getting checked for a concussion lmao *waves at her*

Castle say "I had salmon to refrigerate-- would I have bought that if I was planning on getting abducted?"

"Given your fiance's history.." yk what so valid bestie Her little "I'm sorry" through the screen.

Glad they are doing 70% match not more bc yeah, people can change what they look like.

KB: Maybe it’ll be better. This way when we come home at the end of each day we’ll have something to talk about like normal couples. RC: Only your day will be classified. Like that one physicist who insisted that his wife get classification access so that he could talk to her abou this work day & rubber duck to her. At least castle has the money to fly around visiting his wife all the time.

Pi my beloved. Isn't fruitarian like "I don't eat fruit unless it has fallen from the tree. Those carrots were brutally murdered."

My man lives in amsterdam? Pi has his sixth sense I love pi sm. "you're absolutely right" *walks away*

RmC: You want to talk about it? KB: No RmC: Good

of course she wasn't taking a direct route

Aww castle talking to rysposito about it

KR: You know, I don’t think Jenny and I have been apart for more than two days since we met. It’s gotta be rough. (HOLY CRAP WAIT WHAT?) RC: I just feel like we’re so out of sync I don’t know how to get back. I guess I was just … trying to make it feel like us again. JE: Yeah, by playing me and Ryan for chumps. (KR nods, but it’s not in anger) You should have known that we were going to figure out this case was real. RC: Well, you’ll be happy to know for my sins I was abducted by a maniac at gunpoint and nearly killed. But at least I didn’t get Beckett fired. [They’re both surprised.] JE: Whoa, whoa, abducted? (RC pauses) By who? RC: realizes he might have said too much and tries to evade. RC: Look guys, I really shouldn’t be talking about this. [They don’t let him off so easily.] KR: C’mon, Castle. It’s us. JE: And thanks to you, we’re already involved. KR: nods. RC: Okay, but this goes no further, all right? (at KR’S nod) So I’m walking down the street and this guy that they’re looking for grabs me, shoves me into a car, starts talking crazy, starts asking me all these questions. JE: What kind of questions? RC: Something about Valkyrie, how much the feds knew, and then I thought he was going to pass out, because he was talking about going off to dream world. (JE freezes & looks off with his eyes) But he didn’t pass out. He dropped dead. JE: Uh … this guy? Was he, uh, was he military?

RC: Why? Is Valkyrie a military term? JE: I don’t know about Valkyrie, but Dream World? It’s a highly classified special operations base in the Gulf. It’s a ghost base. The government’s never confirmed its existence, but I – I met a guy who knew a guy who was stationed there. (everyone knows someone who knows someone) RC: (intrigued) Where is it? JE: It’s – it’s a ghost base, Castle. You think it’s going to say where it is? KR and RC share a look, then look to JE. They both shake their head. JE: No. But I will tell you this, if Beckett’s case has anything to do with this base, well, then she’s into something way bigger than she realizes. (won't clip, not even the double shale heads of rystle)

Oh no they lost her, beckett's instincts screwed them up. Or not nvm. If you've never seen it then why were you running away with evasion tactics? Is this the same interrogation room as the precinct & they just dolled it up differently?

GOLF COURSE I expected rachel mccord to slam the table & yell "he's dead" to scare this jeanette girl into talking. KB: Well, people do crazy things when they’re in love. RmC: I've noticed

Well you have the encryption system so you don't need to find the Bad Guy. Stop looking for the thing they REALLY stole. Ah! Genetics lab, classified floor, etc. lmao you would SO get results for dreamworld, even if it is all BS.

Castle chill & cut pi some slack. But also alexis is so pretty really really pretty. RC: how would they know? MR: Richard, these federal agents are here for you...

Ah yes, the military Why would Jack Bronson die if they were trying to set him up? How badly was he exposed? A few days & castle is still mostly fine? ngl I expected it to be more like "a few months before it ruins your systems, but we have a few days to flush it from your system so that you can go back to living your normal life" or smth

Ok I got a few clips, I'm happy.

[jeffgrant4real]

My Barbenheimer Experience

(I don’t think there are any spoilers here, just basic thoughts on the movies)

Saturday, July 22, 2023  7:23 PM

I guess I feel the need to type “Barbenheimer” even more this weekend so I figured I’d recap my busy Friday at the movies. It was definitely an experience and people need to know this information. Yes, this is important. 

WELL, I’m on the internet so I was aware of the Barbenheimer meme phenomenon and knew I’d see both movies at some point but didn’t make any plans until my friend BJ texted a week or 2 ago asking if I’d want to join he and 1 or 2 other people for the movie event of the year. It doesn’t take much to get me to watch movies so I said I was down. We got our tickets for a 10:45 showing of Oppenheimer on one of the XD screens at Tinseltown in Grapevine followed by Barbie at 5:30. Cool. 

So Friday rolls around and I drive the half hour over to the theater, which I don’t go to often these days but it was the main place I saw movies at in high school so it always makes me think of the late 90s when I go back. I remember Friday nights and teenagers driving fancy cars their parents bought them. #memories Anyway…

I met up with BJ in the lobby as he waited for his friend Michael. I got a large popcorn and a bottled water, my usual lately. I found our seats and went for a successful pee and sat back down like 30 seconds before the movie started. Now, to be clear I think all I knew about Oppenheimer, the actual person, was that he was the father of the atomic bomb. I was more going to see the new Christopher Nolan movie than because I’m a history buff but I was glad to have a chance to learn more. 

The screen was gigantic, like 3 or 4 stories high, and the filmmaking and acting were top notch but there was more talking than I expected and for some reason I kept losing focus and just blanking out for whole scenes, which of course were important to remember later, so I kept feeling like it was going over my head. I think I’m going through a sort of personal Christopher Nolan existential crisis where I can’t tell if I’m a fan anymore. I respect and admire his ambition but I’ve been having a difficult time hooking into the stories in his movies. I think maybe he’s smarter than me and I feel kinda dumb. Yesterday, I kept telling myself that it was an important story and that I should pay attention better but I just couldn’t chill out and enjoy the movie like a normal person. Maybe I was thinking too much about how I was going to watch another movie afterwards, I’m not sure. I just know that as the movie kept going I got noticeably sleepier, which doesn’t typically happen with me at movies. Like I kinda wanted to take a nap even though I got decent sleep the night before. 

All this to say I had a pretty lukewarm feeling about the movie by the end of it, which I’m pretty sure isn’t the normal response; most seem to be blown away by it. I’m seriously not sure what my deal is because I think it was a good movie and I’d recommend it, but I was just sorta bored if I’m being honest. I’m sure it’ll be nominated for Best Picture later and maybe I’ll revisit it but I just wasn’t feeling it much on the first viewing. 

Anyway, after it was over we walked out and the other 2 seemed more positive than I was. We had 3 hours to kill before Barbie and Michael went home so I hung out with BJ. We went to his house where his wife and 2 of his daughters were and it was hilarious to me that we were leaving them soon after to go watch Barbie with 2 other dudes (a 4th, Codey, joined us). 

If you asked me before we went which of the 2 movies I was looking forward to the most it would 1,000 times be Barbie. I’m a big fan of Greta Gerwig’s previous 2 movies Lady Bird and Little Women and was excited to see what she would do with a giant Hollywood movie. I don’t have much of a connection to Barbie as a toy but it’s an interesting pop cultural thing to play around with and the trailers and promotional material made it look like a blast. Also, her partner Noah Baumbach co-wrote the script with her, and he’s a director I enjoy, as well as his writing collaborations with Wes Anderson, (The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou and Fantastic Mr. Fox) so Barbie has been in the “stick it in my veins”-zone for me for a while. 

Anyway, I was disappointed with one thing going in. Where we got to see Oppenheimer on a gigantic screen, Barbie was playing in one of those older, longer auditoriums and we were sitting near the back so the screen was maybe 8 times tinier. I knew the movie was going to be dynamite visually so I wished we could’ve been closer to the screen (maybe I’ll see it again just for that reason). I didn’t mention this earlier but ALL DAY LONG we were passing by groups of people dressed in pink and it seemed like over half the people in our screening were outfitted for the movie, which added a fun extra layer to the experience. BJ and I thought about going to Target between the movies to get pink shirts but didn’t make it. 

I thought the movie was incredibly entertaining and creative and super weird for a big studio tentpole, which made me like it even more. I don’t know how Gerwig got away with so much of what happened. I can see a lot of people not enjoying it, but I admired how boldly it was its own thing; it felt very punk rock for a movie that’s going to make boatloads of dollars. It reminded me of The LEGO Movie in how it used the IP in a fresh way and made an actual good movie out of a film that was probably put into production mainly to sell toys. The most impressive parts of Barbie to me were clearly the production design and the performances. I couldn’t believe how cool the sets and props looked and Margot Robbie and Ryan Gosling could seriously, weirdly be nominated for Oscars for playing these toys. 

More than anything the movie reminded me of things like The Brady Bunch Movie in how it took a beloved, if dated, property and honored it while also satirizing what it stands for. I remember seeing that movie in the 90s when it came out and not getting it and thinking it wasn’t very good, but I rewatched it a few years ago and thought it was hilarious. Heh. 

If you haven’t seen Gerwig talk about the movie’s inspirations they’re pretty interesting. She’s cited The Wizard of Oz, The Truman Show, Pee-Wee’s Big Adventure, The Umbrellas of Cherbourg, Singin’ in the Rain, 2001: A Space Odyssey, Rear Window and many others as references. It’s fun to think of the movie leading young, emerging cinephiles to some true classics. 

I’m glad I was able to see both movies on the same day and fulfill the meme but it was honestly a LOT and I don’t think I processed either one especially well. This was a special movie day though and I’m happy I got to participate. I think that’s about it. Thanks for reading.

SUBLIME!

[dzpenumbra]

6/11/23

Well fuck me, it's 4:20AM and I'm just starting this.

I wish I could say I took the day off on a Saturday and just chilled and lost track of time and that's why I'm doing this now... but... nope. I literally just finished working, grabbed a drink and here I am.

In fact, I kinda need a piss break first, I haven't stepped away from my tablet since like... probably midnight?

Alright. So... today started as another wake-up-in-an-anxiety-attack day. I legit don't know what's going on. I even dream journaled, the dream was like... funny. Not anxiety-inducing at all. I had a dream that was like... a cross between the late 90's movie Mystery Men and It's Always Sunny... but it was like an 80's style sports comedy. And there was a basketball team and all of the characters had some kind of superpower that wasn't really a superpower. Like one was like... really good at driving because he had good short term memory or something? As though that had anything to do with basketball... XD And Danny DeVito was in it, and he was playing a character that was a bowler, but on a basketball team. And his hair looked comically like the lines of a basketball, and when the coach asked him what he'd do in different situations, he just had this same catch phrase, "I'll roll." You know, in that drawn out Danny DeVito way.

And I woke up after like 3 hours of sleep from this and I was having fucking chest tightness and pains and my heart was going and shit. I still can't figure it out, honestly. I know a lot of the feeling is like... sleep deprivation, exhaustion, and my body panicking because that's not healthy. I'm wondering if I somehow was woken up by my neighbors again. Idk. Still can't figure it out. But I was able to fall back asleep before too long. But man, I mean... I was awake and like... immediately box-breathing, like before I even opened my eyes. And that shit gives like... a few minutes of relief. But the wave just comes right back.

And yeah, that physical anxiety has been going on intermittently all fucking day. I've still got a bit of it now, though I'm sure some of the feeling is from pushups earlier.

I did yoga. I went right back to the RP streams, I said I wanted to distance, I wanted to try to wean off, but I just went right back again. I had a healthier breakfast today after light yoga and a heavy Day 2 of my workout challenge, which was pushups and punches alternating. And again, I felt like I could do even more than the 3 sets I did. Again, not even really that sore. For breakfast, I thawed out some frozen strawberries and had some dry granola. I would've preferred yogurt with it, but I don't have any and... I still don't know if it's good for me, even if it is low fat.

I tried to give myself a break from working so hard... tried to play Oxygen Not Included a bit... but that lasted like 10 minutes and I just dove right back into my fractal piece. I'll go into that progress more in a bit.

The stream I was watching was really upsetting me. It was really stressful. A lot of it just felt like people griefing the streamer. Like... most of it. Like... there were a ton of opportunities for good RP and people were just OOC angry and taunting him and insulting him right out the gate. And the whole 80's immersion thing has been just... disappearing. The same shit that was happening in WildRP, where it was this really fucking weird fusion of Wild West and... Twitter Progressive Social Justice. And, I mean... don't get me wrong... you know? But like... if you're doing roleplay set in a specific time period... and then you just... act like we have all the same social values we have today? I mean... it just becomes an alternate universe. And if you're going to do that, then just say you're going to. Say "this is an alternate universe where all people have equal rights and people use they/them pronouns in the early 1900's." I have no clue what kind of fantasy would compel you to play a character like that in a time period that was so hostile towards people in those demographics... it seems masochistic... but it should really make you grateful and appreciative of how much times have changed. I can't even put into words how happy I am that we are evolving, and moving forward. But rewriting history is not a smart thing to do, even if it's uncomfortable. It's never a smart thing to do. Because by keeping the past clearly and accurately documented, as we move forward? And the past fades from the memory of the living... Then we have actual accurate documentation. So we make sure we don't repeat the mistakes that led to that.

I really don't like getting political. I really don't. It makes me feel very unsafe. I say this purely as someone who values immersion in storytelling. And when people, for instance, form a fucking mob to go after a villain character cat-calling a woman at a construction site... which still happens, by the way, but was much more of a social trope back in the 80's... it gets to the point where gang punishing that behavior is just kinda powergaming. But if you defend that character's time-period-accurate behavior? People look at you like you're advocating for it. It's very... polar. Very black-and-white. And people get angry and offended and seek retribution and punishment. And... I don't fucking like that shit. This is fucking fiction. It's a fake story with fake characters in a video game. And I truly wish that... fervor, that raw emotion... was put into actually making a difference in the world right now through social action. Not by trying to punish or hate people. Call me crazy, but I feel like MLK was really on to something. But I guess we just don't play by those rules anymore.

Needless to say, that upset me. And it upset me enough for me to just turn the stream off. Because it was literally like watching people @ someone on Twitter in RP form. And it was fucking dumb and stressful. I worked more, I watched YouTube for a bit, changed gears. Eventually I went back. And what ended up happening was oddly difficult.

Another streamer that I like watching sent the streamer a DM, it was about how he got a letter from his landlord. His neighbors made a noise complaint about loud voices and "foul language", and they kinda demanded he keep it down. This dude is a streamer, he's been streaming regularly for years. And... I said last night... my top concern with streaming is not upsetting my neighbors. And my reaction to this was immediately - "welp, guess streaming is off the table." And again, I started to get the anxiety chest pains and tightness. For hours. I left Twitch again shortly after that message, went back to YouTube and was drawing. And I just kept getting waves of physical anxiety the whole time. For hours. It was really upsetting.

Eventually, around 12:30, I went back to Twitch on impulse. I didn't want to, I just was getting tired of scrolling through clickbait thumbnails with people making stupid fucking faces. And the streamer whose landlord wrote the letter? He was live. I immediately hopped in and... this was fucking genius... he made a character that was designed around having larynx damage, and he was a huge hit. It was actually really goddamn funny. And he had on infinite scroll at the top of his screen the transcript of the letter his landlord slipped under his door. It was fucking brilliant. He only did a 2 hour stream, but, I shit you not, my anxiety just melted away. It was inspiring. I mean, if he can adapt and make it work, why couldn't I?

So yeah, I drew so long today that I actually had to force myself to take breaks because my finger felt like it was getting bruised. I did a ton. It's coming along nicely.

And here I am. And it's getting late, so... tarot.

Past - XX: Awakening, inverted (Metamorphosing into a new self, moving into a new chapter.  Gathering oneself and reflecting on past growth objectively.) Present - Three of Swords, inverted (Grief.  Separation from something or someone beloved.) Future - V: The Wise One, inverted (Spiritual guidance.  Doctrine and tradition.  Connecting with a spiritual group or mentor.)

Before I get to the analysis... I've been pulling a fourth card to use as a bookmark in my little reference book as I continue learning the deck. That one was Five of Cups. Very fitting for this reading, at first glance. Let me show you what I see.

This thread starts with inverted Awakening. Awakening (traditionally "Judgement") is a symbol of shedding the past self and evolving into a new phase of life. Sorta like... the preparation to enter that new phase, gathering strength to move forward. I'm guessing the traditional symbol is more about like... sorting what you're bringing with you and what you're not. And this is more about... a phoenix-like metamorphosis, shedding the dry skin of the past. Either way, for me it's inverted. It's stuck, or it was presented and I didn't accept it... something dysfunctional associated with this symbol.

This is connected to inverted Three of Swords, which is a rough fucking card. Three of Swords is grief, it's loss, it's separation from something beloved and held dear. And I don't see inversion as "opposite", I see it as kinda... piling on even more crap. I see inversion as kinda... stuck, or not able to resolve; dissonant.

This is connected to The Wise One, inverted. Which I think I've gotten before, inverted as well. This represents the entering of a spiritual mentor or guide. And I see this as... delayed, or stalled, or disrupted somehow.

So, in short... a "failed" transformation of self led to being stuck in grief and loss... and this is preventing me from finding a spiritual guide that I've really been yearning for for years now. That could probably help me a lot with most of my life. Since most aspects of my life have some spiritual aspect to them, albeit unrefined and self-constructed.

Okay, it's getting super late. I'm off to bed.

[lil-melody-moon]

Okay @fiammee, so here's the answer <3

In all honesty, but in truly in all honesty, it happened so suddenly and randomly and chaotically that I still wonder how I went from "He's cute" to "I want a boyfriend like that, I want him as my boyfriend" in less than a month, but let's dive in and see XD

So it all started at August. I got Instagram again and while I was kinda cleaning it to have more posts of older bands (Led Zeppelin, The Beatles - my Beatles phase was slowly fading away, replaced with come back of Led Zeppelin one) instead of System of a Down that I had my dash all with and while my algorithm was fixing itself I think, I saw this photo:

I didn't have a CLUE who it was, but I looked at him and thought: "Okay you are cute, who are you?" and that never happened before. Sure I got curious about who I saw, but never this much. Luckily there was a description and a lil story about him so I got his name, found out about the band and this happened, in this very order:

-> I forgot to search for him, I was focusing on getting into a new band (it was The Rolling Stones at that time), but dad came in with "I'll show you Deep Purple 😎"

-> found "Who's Next" album in the record store connecting the dots that that's Keith's band

-> NOT GETTING THE CD AND REGRETTING IT LATER

-> forgetting again

-> enter 23rd of August and me seeing posts with Keith on my dash specifically one where he was all neat in a suit, elegant ya know and I looked at the gifset and said out loud: "That... THAT'S KEITH?!"

-> keeping him in my mind this time but still not checking out The Who

-> until September when "Love Ain't For Keeping" played

-> day before listening to whole "Who's Next" album I had a dream with Keith, I can't remember anything from it besides that: we were talking about something, Keith was as happy as a little child can be and that he pinched my cheeks

-> I've listened to the whole "Who's Next" and two things happened: I recalled that I've heard The Who while watching CSI with mom when I was 10 years old, I shook so much after listening to the whole album that I sat curled on my chair and I heard someone say "Welcome back home"

-> few days later I've stumbled upon "Who Are You" song, recalling that this was the first song I heard by them - 10 years old tiny me, realizing that this was THE song that blew my mind when I was little because of drumming

After realizing that, I've came to conclusion that he's responsible for my love for drumming and he was the first drummer I loved, not Lars Ulrich like I always thought. Then came the documentaries I've watched, articles read and I've realized as well that my dad is a tame version of him. Then came the loneliness crushing on me and I somehow dealt with it by thinking of Keith, he became the guy to go with in my thoughts if I felt bad, the guy to listen to or to see to cheer myself up, to keep him near me just to feel better and loved (being single at the age of 25 sucks so bad) and it works!

My love towards him just got worse and worse with months, I'm usually joking that if he saw how insane I am about him he would laugh at me XD He was Moon The Loon and I'm Loon about The Moon XD

And what I see in him. Surely his playing style is the peak for me. Like, there's no better drumming, he set the bar that high since I was tiny, I'm not expecting to find anyone better, in fact I'll tell you that I had a very specific need for searching when I came into music two years ago. Discovering The Who ended that, I can listen to new bands, but I don't have the need to find a new obsession. I came back home and I'm fine with that <3

I love to see him drum. I'm always leaving The Who's concerts for specific days where I feel down or when I need to see Keith - because if not I'll go mad :D - and then the magic happens. The last time I did that I've literally played a concert at 22:00 and then screamed about how great he was to my friends, not being able to go to sleep XD I can watch him be all over his drums any time and I'll still look mesmerized at him - oh God, he was a BEAST in the last concert I've watched, I'm melting at the thought of what I've seen like how can someone drum so good?!

And if it comes to character... I see him as incredibly silly, charming, childish, happy, crazy, but there's also this side of me that sees a guy who needed a lot of care. So like I'm half seeing him as the friend and partner I would have the best fun with in my entire life (had a friend with similar character, she was the fucking best) and then there's that other half of me who wants to take care of this poor sod, those addictions of his were destroying him which concluded in 1978 in his death (20 years before I was born, can you believe that?) and you know I like to think that maybe there would be a way to save him, but like not in this life. I can do that in fic and I will, no one will stop me, I'm writing it, but like... the maybe still exists *sighs* Not in this life Mel, not in this one...

Hello, how have ya been? How did your trip ended, did you have fun?

I guess reaching to you through asks is easier than DMs, so here I am, being generally curious about where we left off the last last time, but since I am here I'll also leave a big ask:

How did it happen that Jon Lord is so important to you? When did you hear him and saw him for the first time? What's the thing in his playing and in his character that makes him be that special guy to you?

Write the longest answer you want - or a short one if it's more in your style - I'm just a curious lil mutual <3

Heyaaaaa haiiiiiii dear!!!! Thank you for these questions *rubbing hands* Finally lets hope that I can respond this time XD

Times could get better, but summer is coming and Im pretty excited in beginning uni academy next year, lets hope🙏

About my trip end, it was a bit unexpected but funny: we leaved our rented house at 10 AM but we quickly found out that all highways were clogged up, and we managed to reach home a whole day after, at 1 AM, literally praying that my mom wouldnt fall asleep while driving 🤣

Abt Jon, lets begin *cracks knuckles*

I dont remember if I have ever said this to anyone, but usually my dad, when I was little, made me watch purple lives instead of cartoons;

So, throughout my childhood and my first teenage years I had this blurred memory about the members and how they looked like; (my thoughts were like: why the drums guy is so little? Why the guitarman is so scary? Why that mans moustache are so big and silly? Why the singer looks like Jesus and has my same hair? Just pure childlike wonder lol)

And finally, around 2020, I gave them a chance by listening my dads machine head vynil and OH BOY OH BOY I was quickly captivated by their roaring and powerful sound.

My first crush was big ian but I later revalued Jon when, out of pure curiousity, I went searching for pics on pinterest and I stumbled upon this:

My brain and hormones went apeshit🤭🤭 and this sort of awakened me, I was asking myself questions like "wtf is happening to me whattt?" in pure confusion.

The rest is now history, and here I am today :]]

Apart from the obvious phisical attraction (please mind that I was still new to this world at the time🤣) What I always found fascinating about him was the crazy talent and gentle personality among the "rock people" that Ive known previously.

I consider him to be a pretty unique rock soul: no extreme drama, nor arrogance, stupidity, rudeness or immesurable ego; he was just happy to be in the scene, and had the intelligence to make himself respected and valued... I think that he did that pretty well😌.

He used MUSIC in his everyday life as the main method of expressing himself rather than using words (as an introvert I consider him as a role model for what he gifted to others and himself) and lets be frank, isnt it cool that a BIG strong 185 cm man is easily brought to tears of emotion by listening to a classical piece or spectating a good sunset or landscape? He's an 800' romantic author trapped in a motocyclist body, an unusual combination🤣🤣

And what about his music? He combined classical, popular, blues, jazz and sick improvisation in a fresh versatile style that changed rock music and organ playing forever, and would inspire generations of musicians since this very day! And lets not forget his pure classical works, full of a wide range of emotions that have helped me in various rough times.

I hope to have answered your questions my dear :)) and it wouldnt be bad if I addressed the same questions to you about keith, with you making a post about it reblogging this one, obv if you feel like doing it 🫰🏻