#i would lvoe to do threads of someone finding out about the arson

[amorfati-rp]

CW: Arson, Inferiority complex, Sexual Violence and threats towards a Minor, and CSA

Oh Sylvia. I said I would do a babbling on her relationship with Femininity and I do have to do so. So....it's complicated.

Sylvia currently sees her Femininity as a weapon, as a means to an end to get shit from people to take care of Linus. Though when. She was young(er) she truly believed it was all she has going for her. For it was the only things her parents really... acknowledged about her.

You see, Linus is the favored child. A sickly genius boy for a knack for invention. Of course, he was, Sylvia would surmise. She was more or less normal. Not much to her skills other than a pension for cuteness and fashion. (Even though she does find the sword intriguing)

Her parents practically treated her like Linus' nanny even though she was the youngest. And this did fester in Sylvia as a deep inferiority complex. Especially after the death of their father in the war leaving her mother to coddle Linus worse and ignore Sylvia harder. She hated her parents, she resented Linus, she resented everything. So she burned it down.

The house fire that killed their mother and nearly killed Linus, that forced him to make a pact with the Selkie to survive was caused by Sylvia. She knows this, and she deeply regrets it. She doesn't even remember if it was an accident or not. But it doesn't matter. She did this, she made Linus even weaker than before, and like her parents told her- He was now truly her responsibility.

Her seducing older men in order to get close and get money and trinkets from them started here. Cause what else does Sylvia have other than her looks? Sylvia doesn't fully understand y'know.. the repercussions of doing this as a child. And even if she did it doesn't matter, she has to take care of Linus. So she more or less offers herself to any bloke who has a wallet. Some just give money to help a poor child, others ignore her, but it's truly awful when they take the bait and try to indulge in her. Luckily...Sylvia is currently still a virgin but uh ... She's not wholly innocent. And that's the most disgusting thing.

Femininity is both Sylvia's weaponry and her fucking prison. and it sucks because Sylvia finds feminity beautiful. The beauty aspect and she surprisingly fits into he domestic and motherly aspect of it so well. But it has eaten up the entirety of her true self because of her guilt over what she did to Linus and that....he will never know. Sylvia would rather DIE than Linus find out.

But even then Sylvia does enjoy femininity genuinely. After all, she adores Furiae. Wishing that she could be just as naturally pretty and charming. She even has a crush on the goddess. Though, would never pursue it due to it not being lucrative.

Sylvia has lost her sense of self and became the ideal woman in order to lure men into her so she can use them for the sake of her brother. And even to this day Sylvia cannot tell you if it was even worth it.