#i would die and kill for anne and kat and i dont know why i keep making them suffer

[aywdaimie]

“be the light in the dark of this danger”

* yes i know i have many fic requests in my inbox, and i promise i will get to them eventually. for now, here’s some angst because that’s what i am good at. enjoy. don’t forget to reblog and tell me what you like if you like <3 *

for most of the day, jane’s head has been pounding. she has frequent headaches, but they vary in pain level. she has taken medicine, and she’s currently drinking a cup of tea. she’s set the television to great british bake off on a low volume to try and distract her from the sharp pain behind her eyes. cathy, catherine, and anna have been in their respective rooms for a little bit getting ready for bed. kat and anne have been out shopping for a few hours because anne has discovered a new brand of makeup that she’s dying to try. eventually, the two return home as jane is about to drift off to sleep. her eyes flutter open as the hyper girls enter the house. “hey guys?” jane softly says.

“hi jane. how has your night been?” anne sincerely asks as she places her shopping bags on the counter.

“i actually have a killer headache,” she replies, rubbing her temples. “so i would greatly appreciate it if you two could keep it down. you can stay downstairs and do whatever but please please don’t be noisy.”

“we won’t!” kat assures her. jane gives her thanks and lies back down on the couch. kat and anne scurry into the kitchen and proceed to remove all the palettes and makeup brushes from the bags and spread them out on the counter. kat opens a highlighter palette and gasps. “annie! these are so sparkly oh my god!!” she swatches two of the shades on her arm and stares in awe. “you have to put some on me!!” she pleads.

anne’s mouth drops open, and she exclaims “oh my god! of course! can i do a full beat?”

kat excitedly agrees. “you know i’m always down to get my makeup done.”

anne quietly squeals so she doesn’t disturb jane. kat gets settled on a stool at the counter and anne stands in front of her. she removes kat’s makeup and starts fresh. “your skin looks really nice right now kitkat.”

kat’s eyes light up and she timidly says “really??”

“yes!! i don’t even want to cover it with foundation, but i have to.” anne says with a laugh. anne doesn’t know it, but that comment means the world to kat. after all her makeup has been wiped off of her face, anne begins her masterpiece. she completes the base and then moves on to blush and highlighter. of course kat makes sure anne doesn’t forget to use the one with the most shimmer. when she’s satisfied with her work, she holds up a mirror so kat can see. “do you like it?”

“I LOVE IT!!! IT’S BLINDING.” kat exclaims. anne shushes her while laughing. she starts working on kat’s eyes next. kat gave anne complete creative control, which is anne’s dream scenario. she blends eyeshadows on her lid and applies two clean lines of eyeliner. kat’s second favorite part is next. false lashes. anne chooses the most dramatic ones and applies them carefully. everything is going well until she starts to coat kat’s lashes with mascara. anne accidentally stabs kat in the eye with the mascara wand which makes kat scream out of shock. the scream she let out then shocked anne which caused her to burst out laughing. she tries to stop laughing and she chokes out a “sorry. sorry” before tears come to her eyes from laughter. in all the excitement, the two girls forgot that jane had a raging headache, and they would soon regret that.

“GIRLS.” jane shouts and startles kat, causing her to jump. “I ASKED YOU TO BE QUIET FOR JUST A LITTLE WHILE. WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BE SO LOUD AND OBNOXIOUS? IT SHOULDNT BE THIS HARD FOR YOU.” jane groans and stands up, retreating to her room, to try and find some peace and quiet.

kat and anne look at each other doe-eyed, unsure of what to do. anne inhales and exhales deeply before grabbing kat’s hands and whispering, “it’s okay. you’re not gonna cry. right? we’re okay” but her voice and her hands are shaking.

“i can’t do this annie.” kat quietly replies. her lip starts quivering, and anne can tell she is about to lose it, and if kat does, so will she.

“okay. come on.” anne stands up still holding kat’s hand and takes her upstairs to her attic room. when they arrive, kat plops down on one of anne’s beanbags and slowly pulls her knees up to her chest. she buries her face in her knees and sniffles really quietly so anne doesn’t hear. but of course she does. “please don’t cry.” anne pleads.

kat picks her head up and looks at anne. “you’re crying too…”

a confused look falls on anne’s face, and she wipes away the tear rolling down her cheek that she was so sure she blinked back. “kat. she’s gonna get over it soon! she was just in pain from her headache.. yeah she’ll get over it right? yeah. why would she yell like that though oh my god we-we weren’t being obnoxious i’m sorry this is my fault-“

tears are rolling down kat’s face as she sits there trying to process anne’s emotions as well as her own. finally, she silently stands up and retrieves anne’s journal and a pen from the drawer, and she walks over and sits beside her. “here.” she says quietly, as she hands her the journal. after a few seconds, anne takes it from kat’s hands without looking at her and starts writing. kat moves back to her beanbag and just sits there with her head in her knees crying quietly while anne writes. a few minutes pass, and anne slams the book shut and throws it across the room.

kat flinches and slowly asks, “annie?”

“i can’t do this i can’t..” she starts out calmly. “she has always had a vendetta against me and i don’t know why i try to be nice and i try to be calm but it never works IT NEVER WORKS she always says i’m too much and i’m too loud and i CANT DO IT ANYMORE.” at this point, she has started to sob and she has to almost choke out her words.

kat stands again and walks to anne and collapses into the space beside her. she wraps her arms around her and tries to calm her down. she’s had a lot of practice, and she knows anne will eventually start breathing again if she just holds her tight and assures her that she’s safe. “annie. annie. i’m here. it’s okay. she doesn’t hate you. we’re gonna be okay. i love you. i’m here.” anne sobs in kat’s arms for a few more minutes, and kat hides her face in anne’s shoulder and cries with her.

anne does start breathing again. she inhales and exhales slowly. when she looks up at kat and sees her puffy eyes and mascara stains on her cheeks, she feels so guilty. she sniffles and says, “oh kitkat. i’m so sorry. i can’t imagine how hard it must’ve been for ~you~ having jane yell like that. i still feel responsible so i’ll just tell jane it was my fault.”

kat wipes anne’s cheeks and laughs dryly. “i’m okay. i just wanted to take care of you. neither of us are good in these situations. but yeah. i don’t think she’s ever yelled at me like that. it was scary and sad and i don’t think i’m done crying about it yet. but it wasn’t your fault. she was just not having a good night. it was both of us.” it was a pitiful sight. they both had puffy eyes and snot all over their shirts so they just lay together on the beanbag crying and consoling each other for a little while longer until they’re both okay again.

[kathillards]

rangerstop day two

HOLY FUCKING SHIT THE MEGAFORCE RANGERS SHOUTED US OUT AT THEIR PANEL AZIM TOLD EVERYONE ABOUT A GROUP OF FRIENDS FROM ALL OVER THE COUNTRY WHO MET BECAUSE OF POWER RANGERS AND POINTED AT US AND THE MEGAFORCE RANGERS ALL CHEERED AND TOLD US TO STAND UP OH MY GOD

uhhh sorry how do i move on from that how do i even think about anything else. the panel room was CROWDED people were FILMING kat and tabby had gone up to ask questions (which were HUGE hits) and come back and sat down AND THEN AZIM SAID THAT in the middle of a question about. i dont even fucking remember. something about what great community values power rangers has or something? and i guess we were related to power rangers being a community or whatever but bitch. BITCH. he said it and like pointed at us and they all started clapping (this sounds fake as hell i know BUT THERES VIDEO PROOF SOMEWHERE???) and everyone turned to look at us and we were like hi and then like two minutes later azim went “oh wait i have to make a correction, its not a group of girls its three girls and one guy because i think abigail isnt here? right?” and we were like ya so uh moral of the story... azim rizk i would murder ten hundred men for you

ok other things happened too, this will probably not be in chronological order bc i cant think right now 

- mike ginn stopped when he saw me and looked for tabby who was hiding behind me when she saw him and he looked around for tabby and did his pointing thing again and it was so cuuute

- kat was talking to christina about how we avoided the cast all day yesterday and she was like “yes but i saw you anyway ;) and i was wondering when you’d come over to say hi!” shes so CUTE and then they talked about her rescue puppy and she was so happy to talk about her puppy

- ciara and christina made ben sign the art presents he gave them, ciara did it first and christina was like OMG WHY DIDNT YOU AUTOGRAPH MINE and made him sign hers too

- christina and i did a WHOLE photoshoot we did a normal pic then a silly pic but then she didnt like so we did a kissy face pic and she was like “oh i think i did a duck face” and im like thats ok so did i AND OUR PICS ARE SO CUTE AND SHE HUGGED ME SO TIGHT I. WOULD. DIE. FOR. YOU. CHRISTINA. MASTERSON.

- selwyn called tabby his girlfriend when i showed up without her he was like “wheres my girlfriend” bc he remembered us from last night and then she came over and he was like THERE YOU ARE and gave her a free selfie (and signed her space dvd with “tj is the real leader of in space” but refused to X out andros’ face bc that was mean) and he covered up najee’s face on her kevin t-shirt and then was upset bc it looked like he was touching her chest and tracy lynn laughed at him over it AND THEN HE TOLD US TO COME TO THE TGIF IN THE HOTEL AFTERWARDS BC THE RANGERS WERE GONNA GO THERE AND GET DRUNK AND HE INVITED US TO HAVE DRINKS W/ HIM but we stood him up because... we are tired... he was like “yeah we have this stupid vip dinner but like we’re gonna try to leave early and just go get fucking smashed” and we were like ur so valid selwyn. i love you.

- kat showed azim my tweets defending megaforce and he had to put the phone down to run his hands through his hair and be like “wow that was such a specific takedown” and kat was like “yeah she just says this shit all the time bc shes seen megaforce five hundred times” and he was like “she was so detailed though she didnt just say ‘you suck’ she put THOUGHT into her takedowns” 

- (later when he signed my super megaforce green print he called me “my sista in social media smackdown!!!” complete with that many exclamation points)

- brennan said “i like your hat” to ben five times and he also signed tabby’s as well with his three catchphrases (she asked for him to write “awesome!” and he was like “i had more lines than that....”) he also told us he and the dino charge team were invited back for a dc/nsteel teamup but they kept cancelling them bc of budget reasons till it was just him and yoshi and he was finally like “i told them to just bring yoshi back because like thats his brother” and i was like “but then they didnt even INTERACT” and he was like “i KNOW”

- tabby’s tracy story: she asked tracy if it was uncomfortable fighting in crop tops and short skirts and tracy said “it wasnt uncomfortable but it was hard to not show everything” and she was like “idk why a power ranger would dress like that” and tabby told her ashley should have her own fashion line of athletic wear for fighter girls and tracy was like YES and tabby said she should have been leader of turbo bc she was into cars and tracy said that when they told her that ashley was gonna have a car plot she was like “ew no i dont want to touch greasy car oils” but that she was happy that ashley got to challenge herself

- kat was standing around azim the entire morning and he was introducing her to everyone who came up to him like she was his handler and at one point accidentally implied that she was his girlfriend and kat was like no im not and he was like “oh whoops it did kinda sound like that...” and his actual handler was like “why did u correct him” and kat was like “NO I LOVE HIS GIRLFRIEND” 

- when i was taking my pics w/ the megaforce cast and andrew was the sweetest angel and he kept making poses over my shoulder while i giggled and then he asked me for a hug and KISSED MY CHEEK and hugged me so tight and was like “love you guys” I WOULD DIE FOR YOU ANDREW GRAY

- john mark is literally the funniest person alive and he was constantly going around the megaforce booth when we were there like (to ben when he was giving art to ciara and christina) “WHERES MINE” and to me when i was having them sign my megaforce prints “WHERES MINE” hes so funny and i love himmm

- ciara was signing my prints but she got distracted when we asked about her dogs and she stopped and opened her phone and started showing us pics and videos and she was soo happy to talk about her dogs too and then we took our pic and checked it to make sure it looked good and tabby was like “you look gorgeous” and she was like “we BOTH look gorgeous” i cannot believe. AND THEN she threw in a group photo for FREE and we all got in there

- kat was telling us and azim about some douchebag vendor who was like hitting on her and inviting her to an afterparty and was like “are you over 21″ when she was just trying to look at his spd toys and azim was literally “which guy. where. where is he.” HE WAS GONNA KILL THAT GUY FOR KAT HE LOVES HER

- we somehow got on the subject of azim SHAVING HIS BEAUTIFUL BEARD and he was like “oh well we went to the make a wish foundation to meet kids and the beard scares them so i had to shave” and i was like “thats racist” and he was like nooo but u could tell his mind was blown and i was like “cameron didnt shave” and he was like “well cameron is white” and i was like SO YOU ADMIT ITS RACIST and he laughed also im correct

- related but michael copon came over to jessica rey’s table while we were there and she was like “hi michael these are my FRIENDS” and they were talking about how they’re cousins and they’re both half filipino and tabby was like “why didnt they give you any scenes together in the teamup!” and jessica was like “because i was with erin!” and michael was like “because they couldnt have two filipinos together in one scene” power rangers got WOKE man

- kat to andrew: i have a huge troy plushie!

andrew: oh my dogs would rip that up immediately

kat:

andrew: do your dogs not rip things up

kat: i dont... i wouldnt let them...touch my troy plushies...

(we love you andrew. he doesnt even know hes at a con. hes just here to chill.)

- someone at the panel asked a stupid question about “if you could cameo in any other season which season would you pick” like they dont get asked this all the fucking time and the rangers were like hmm like beast morphers or dino charge and then andrew, my husband my light my life, was like “fuck power rangers, i wanna go to the dc universe” (he didnt cuss obviously) but like... king. legend supporting legends. AND THEN CHRISTINA WAS LIKE “oh mood i wanna be in the pokemon universe” and john mark was like “as what” and she was like “i dont know i didnt watch it” QUEEN OF POKEMON she kins jigglypuff

- tabby was at ann marie crouch’s booth and telling her how she loved that princess shayla was the wild force team’s mom and she was like aww yeah i felt such a maternal instinct even though that was before i had my actual child!! shes so cute!! shes so pretty!!

- jessica rey is literally SO WONDERFUL AND FUN TO TALK TO we went to hang out bc tabby wanted her wild force dvd signed and she was just telling us her stories of hanging out w/ the other boys and how she went to drink w/ azim just to keep him company (bc peter and yoshi were there and they were like “we dont drink” nerds) so cuuute and then she had that pic of her and peter and yoshi and they’re making stupid faces and she’s smiling like an angel and she’s like THEY DIDNT TELL ME IT WASNT A SERIOUS PHOTO and i asked her jokingly how much for it and she was like take it its $30 and i was like pls charge me more have my money take my soul

- tabby and kat were at the megaforce booths and jessica rey came over and was like “excuse me what are you guys doing with MY GIRLS” and john mark was like “uh they’re OUR GIRLS” and then cameron pulled jessica over and was like “actually this is MY babe” and then she tried to leave bc she was in the way of ppl in line and azim stopped her and was like “no no stay you’re part of our FAMILY”and uh basically the power rangers family is the cutest family in the whole world thank you good night

- taylor swift wrote gorgeous about andrew gray