#i won't stop opposing christianity until it stops being used as a weapon

[aeternalight]

As much as I understand, I also just disagree as much. I know I won't be able to convince you or others, nor do I really care to.

But some journeys of trauma are not about forgiving and forgetting, they're about fighting back against a system that continues to harm others and spread lies about other's faiths.

My journey is so much more about than being angry with christianity and angels, but this life, including many others, has existed in antithesis of a cruel light. That holiness has only dirtied others, that divinity is not supposed to be about what afterlife you end up in, but about your very being.

In my first life, me and my loved ones were tortured by people who sought the word of God above all else, not realizing that the people they hurt, were as much as deserving of divinity and holiness as they were. And I was treated like an abomination for existing, not created by their so-called god. And this life, I do run into people, and become hurt by people, who's cults are opposing of christianity, Scientology in particular. I want a world where people do not have to be forced into the duality that has been created by Christianity. Specifically, heaven and hell do not have to be the final goal, and people do not deserve to be punished for living.

My faith is wholly unique, and it still hurts to call it faith at all, it hurts to have religious beliefs, and I still don't worship any particular deity, only working with them.

I cannot help but be in antithesis of christianity, due to the united states being culturally christian. If I lived and grew up somewhere else, maybe I could have a different perspective. But I live here, I grew up here, my past lives are about existing despite the world not wanting you there, and to create a world that wants us to live freely. So yes, my beliefs are about dismantling structures that christianity has created, my beliefs are about living in shades of grey, rather than a black and white belief system. My beliefs are about reeducating and pushing the world towards a more safe place.

I know more than anyone, that existing in antithesis of something makes you ingrained in that history, that people will call you the devil, even though you are also in antithesis of that devil as well.

I want a world where we do not have to be in opposition to be free of it, but that's just unrealistic right now. In our current climate, we will be intrinsically linked to what stood before us. Even if you are right in some aspects, it doesn't mean that we are free of it, of being a part of christianity, regardless of that being our faith or not.

I'm accepting of my opposition, but I want to be able to keep twisting until the symbols and the identities pop right off. There is no future where I am not connected to the past. But I want to create a future where people do not have to accept tradition as the only option, that they do not have to oppose tradition to deny it. That their truth is theirs and theirs alone. But we're not there yet, and until the church stops affecting things like laws or people's lives, that their belief is just a belief, and not a position of power, I won't stop fighting against it.

Friendly reminder that if you cannot explain, discuss, or celebrate your beliefs without shitting on someone else's, you neither understand nor truly believe in your chosen path.

Yes, even if you have trauma.

And no, you don't get to claim the suffering of people who died during witch trials because those were not secret pagan witches.

Also, learn your history. Not everything was originally a pagan sex festival, the Wheel of the Year is a recent invention, Christians did not steal our holidays, and cultural development doesn't happen in a vacuum.

Don't be a pick-me witch. You're better than that. So do better.