#i wll get to it i promise just idk when

[1-800-i-ship-it]

HI GUYS im so sorry ive been ded for a while ima explain in the tags but I HOPE YALL R DOING WELL <33 sending hugs & thanks for sticking around ^^

i was literally about to type like ‘wow cant believe i didntn run out of tags’ turns out i ran out just then LMAO so 

good timing to me ig xD the last tag was gonnan be that and then <3 so here u go 

im not sure when i’ll get back on things cause i legit start midterms/exams season next week lmao rip cause summer :’) but yea if anyone wants to talk pls feel freee to message me! i’ll try to reply soon to those who already did, but if anyone wants my discord lmk cause i check that more ^^ 

take care!! and dw im not leaaving xD im just a mess lmao and i miss u guys 

[biffhofosho]

HELLOOOOOO

I am back!! And ready to read this story before the next one drops! So exciting

Also I do not like this “angst” word in the mood,  I appreciate the “hopeful” part but still. 

I will deal with you later.

So, he visits often, mhmhmh, yesss

I LOVE THE COTTAGE, i wanna live there

She’s living my dream life, I WANT IT

Also I love how painful this situation is for him, obv he wants to obey the law and do his job but also he likes her so much. The fact that he feels at home with her is delicious

“The day will come, Hyunwoo, all too quickly when you’ll have to make that choice for real, and all the calculations and recalculations and misdirections and cloaking spells won’t be able to stop it. One day, you’ll have to decide what you care about more: your antiquated laws drafted by crusty misogynists and cowards, or me.” I LOVE HER SO MUCH

He is so stubborn, as she is, they both have a point! Tho of course I am much more willing to lean to her side.

PERVERTED TOWN CRIER!!! I love her more and more

Is he also capable of magic???? Eye emoji

This scene of her getting naked???? GORGEOUS

Like she is clearly calling the shots, but she is also allowing him to have her, to an extent at least and i am here for it

Mhmhmh, suspicious pill is suspicious

The forbidden lover trope. I don’t know if I love it or hate it, mainly because it stresses me a bit, but this is so yummy.

Also it is so hard to reconcile the fact that she lives like that in a modern world. I mean it feels like in the puritans age, like a long time ago, not a very modern world full of computers, trains and gyms.

Oh man, sex magic sound awesome

HE TAKING CONTROL LIKE THAT ;lskfnvl;adnf;landv;lksdn

“Don’t leave.

“I won’t,” he promised.”  THIs WLL MAKE ME CRY LATER ISN’T IT????

Now they’re fighting. Fuck, that’s the angst!!!

SHIT THIS WAS SO INTENSE

ALSO DAMN YOU YOO!!!

I love how you include the rest of them whenever possible

“And he realized one other thing with paralyzing clarity: he was breaking his precious laws, too, because in the end, wasn’t love its own sort of magic, maybe the most universe-altering of all?” THIS IS GORGEOUS

He is in love and I am crying. This ending, SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

I absolutely adored it!!!!! All my witchy dreams have come true.

Now to wait till next week for the last story, that I will have to read in november when we’re back from the long weekend holidays.

see you soon!

I am made of fail and forgot to answer your lovely asks, my dear friend. Please don't disown me. Let's blame it on all the writing I had to do in October lol. I had PTSD.

Aw, man, and you even took the time to read my Shownu fic before the Kyun one dropped. Double fail on my part. :(

I know you're not an angst lady, but I love that ish. At least you know me well enough to know that hope is a necessity for me. No matter how disconnected I write my characters, I will always balance it out with connection, too. Put your trust in me, beloved!

Yes, this cottage was entirely too real to me, I think. I feel like I lived in it. In fact, I would live in it if I wasn't so concerned about spiders. But then again, if I were I witch, I'd just cast a barrier spell to keep them all out heh heh.

I think this was my first time of writing an established pre-existing sexual relationship, so I wanted their tug-of-war to really come through in the dialogue especially. I tried to let that stuff come through organically rather than exposition, but, yes, “home” was an important theme I really wanted to shine through. You know I can’t help myself on the feelings front.

I realize in writing a hyper-specific AU that not everyone would get into this, but I am really head-over-heels for my OC in this. I enjoy creating OCs for everything, but there was just something about Gray that had me especially in love. Idk

Ooh, girl, I love the inherent spice of the forbidden lover trope. High-anxiety? Definitely. High rewards? Fuck yes.

And, yes! That dichotomy of Gray living a simple life while the world charges forward without her is one of my fave things! She is wild and unpredictable and of the earth, and I wanted that sharp contrast to show Shownu why he feels so othered in the mainstream society.

Sex magic was majorly fun to write. :) But also, I wanted it to show how her magic is drawn from nature and the natural, which was meant again to reinforce the concepts I just mentioned.

Hahaha more connection before the disconnection, yes!

Girl, yes, you know I will always include the rest of the guys whenever I can! They’re a package deal. <3

Ended on hope, yay!!! See? Aren’t you glad you trusted me now? lol

Thanks for reading and analyzing as always, my darling. It’s fun to relive the stories with you as though we are watching another show together. <3

[pokkogalli]

jjk characters as kindergartners + some as teachers

 characters [nobara, megumi, yuuji, maki, inumaki, panda, nanami, todou, mai, momo, miwa, mechamaru/koichi muta, junpei, geto, mahito] (didn’t include noritoshi bc idk what to write for him sorry lol but wll update if i do)

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nobara bites other kids. she also hits them and throw balls at them. she gets mad if she gets her clothes dirty because of some other kid. she likes to compete with other kids about who will rule the playground. nobara likes to play on the kitchen set during inside playtime

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megumi doesn't like talking to anyone and spends time sitting in the sandbox at recess playing in it. megumi once played a game with maki since he's her relative and he got FOLDED LMAOO. he befriends yuuji and nobara and become besties though (he still prefers to wind down during recess but has fun with them anyways)

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yuuji loves playing any of the sports with other kids and also loves the playground. yuuji hates mahito because he's weird and bullies the kids. he became friends with megumi after getting him out of trouble from a fight with other kids. later on he became friends with nobara too after teacher!gojo introduced her to yuuji since yuuji was also new. megumi was there too since he hangs around yuuji. yuuji also became friends with todou after getting asked what show he likes and todou liking his answer since his standards are high.

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maki is also pretty athletic and plays any sports or anything involving a ball with other kids. however she usually wins everytime. she also aces through field days,, kids are scared to play with her because she's so good

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inumaki created a language where he only speaks with food terms, the teacher wants him to speak properly but he always refuses, but they compromised and inumaki will have to write his answer on a whiteboard instead of speaking it to show he is learning (the other kids get jealous because he gets to use a whiteboard all the time)

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panda works on his speech when the class has freetime whether it's to finish a worksheet or whatever. panda and inumaki play with the blocks and toy dinosaurs together. panda and inumaki were together during speech lessons and became friends (inumaki was there because the teacher thought he had trouble speaking, he didn't he just wants to speak in food terms and the teacher wanted to respect him in this time of age so they just wanted to make sure he was still learning)

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gojo doodles on everything.. everything. he's also very cheeky and likes to joke around all the time. but he somehow still manages to learn a lot and everything amongst all the chaos he causes

teacher!gojo is very fun and gets his students engaged with his energy. he is hard to please for the quieter kids since they don’t like how bubbly gojo is. gojo tends to make more jokes instead of teaching his class, which is why he co-teaches with nanami.

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nanami is just here to learn and go home. he will through a fit (he'll huff and puff + sigh really loudly with a big pout and angry eyebrows with his arms crossed) if his parents are late to pick him up or he has to stay at the afterschool program.

teacher!nanami is a bit too,, stoic for a bunch of kindergarteners. the kids get bored in his class often and lacked a teacher who had energy to keep them engaged. when he got paired with gojo to teach their classes, he was not having it. however they came to an agreement where nanami does the lessons and gojo keeps them engaged and makes sure they have fun in their class.

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todou is really aggressive towards othee kids but unintentionally. he's genuinely a nice kid but thinks being tough is the way to go. he ends up befriending yuuji and gives him the nickname of "best friend" and "friend"

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mai hates her sister and is very competitive when playing against her during recess. she hangs out with momo though. mai is really straightforward with other kids and has made some cry because they thought she sounded so mean,, but mai also insults other kids too. she has an attitude towards other kids and especially maki because she broke their promise of staying together all the time

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momo carries a plush around all the time, they are inseparable, she also hangs with mai. momo doesn't like it when the boys act sexist and say things like "you can't play with us you're a girl" or "you're just a girl, _____"

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miwa is kind of a teacher's pet but only wants to provide assistance. she's really nice to the other kids.

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mechamaru/koichi muta hates other kids because they're able to play as much as they want while mechamaru is unable to walk or go out in the sun without being intensely covered. he also only has one working arm which is his left because his right forearm is missing. he despises other kids for having what he doesn't have. [SPOILER//‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ he likes miwa because she's always been so nice to him]

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junpei is really shy and scared of the other kids because poor bb gets picked on, his lunch money gets stolen, etc but yuuji became his first REAL friend and they are besties!! he hung around mahito and geto before because they were nice to him + noticed him but then mahito starting being really out of pocket towards him :[

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geto hates the other kids and calls them monkeys. he hangs around mahito by default

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mahito is the weird kid that eats everything,, he also has accidents and doesn't feel remorse because he's fucking weird. he bites and scratches other kids too (even hisses) and will laugh because he thinks it's funny. if your child is like this, that's not your child, that is a demon spawn. mahito's also mean to other kids but in his own weird way lol. he also pretends to be a worm and slither on the ground. he finds amusement in tormenting other kids. he also hates people which is why does the things he does

[nofeelingsandallthefeelings]

whats best for me

today was tough. I promise on god on my grandpa, I WLL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO BE IN A DEPRIVED FINANCIAL SITUATION, I LIVE IN ABUNDANCE OF LIFE I AM ABUNDANCE ABUNDANCE EASILY FLOWS INTO MY LIFE. 

I am conflicted with going into heavy work today or just giving up and calling it a day. It was rough sis but I think I made the right decision for myself and my values and boundaries, on the contrary its amazing how powerful vanity and pride are, i felt sad upon the realization i wouldn't get to take cool pics or go out to the clubs - even though i have 0 energy for all of that, it still bruised me. I literally cant taste anything because of these allergies. The conversation with alex was the most disappointing conversation - he was supportive but i dont think he gets it to a basic extent- i understand he was trying to do the best he can but it is so ignorant i cannot tolerate it, he told me he had debt too and its just something I would have to live with and that i shouldn't trust my mom, duh girl- thats not all he said, he was nice and kept telling me he loves me. I looked out the window and decided I think I resent alex to a little bit and mostly because when i tell him things that are really bothering me, like really deep things as such my mom problems, etc. my mind is so blank right now. I dont know what to say.  yeah just with my mental state, i would not want to go out and be in loud places or get ready and spend all that money, and be in a little room with alex and his bf idk why i dont like darius, hes just annoying to me and when they are together they are super annoying, maybe i think alex is annoying and wouldn't otherwise be his friend but I have known him for so long that it has naturally combined. 

I wish i could relate to the little and significantly less tumultuous lives they lead, but alas I cannot and I am okay with that. I am strong because of the unfortunate parts I couldn't control but I am me now and need to take my lessons to apply them and I am. I am grateful for all the lessons the universe has revealed to me. It is just frustrating finding how to balance that and it is exhausting always having to explain my choices. It has been revealed you really can only rely on yourself and base my decisions on me, bc I know me - have always lived with me and will always live with me, my feelings, my choices and all that follows. I feel good making the decision not to go to nyc, I feel like I couldn't have another case of drake on my hands, where I wasn't really enjoying it but was already there. I made the right decision that align with my values, priorities and in the best interest of my future self. This is the first adult decision i have made in the realm of priorities and responsibility. and I am not in any way shape or form in any state to bring on shawn or make it of importance, there is no way in hell. That is over the edge, thats way tooooo much and he doesn't know my struggles either- even with the money it wouldn't make me happy thats just too much. 

As I evolve, I am realizing boundaries as far as telling people things, reveal the worthiness of their ears - as in such, as I pulled one layer back It allowed me to test the waters, ie, I didn't tell Alex about what I was going through bc he minimizes it a little and doesn't get it, and so I pulled big layer back and realized its not worth it to pull another layer off, and if I was to pull another layer I would be setting myself up for disappointment and voila, thats how you know the worth of their ears. Knowledge is a privilege. 

One of the proudest part of today was the epiphany of stopping myself when I began to desperately search for what man I could turn to and hahaha girl, I was like noooo they cant fix nothing and looked within myself and what I could do to improve my situation. V proud, growth sis, I managed to get out of the dorm despite my uncontrollable crying and now I am sitting in Massey writing this about to study for french. 

i have also been spending a significant amount of time retraining my brain to not believe my thoughts, although its been extremely difficult amidst the recent situations bc my brain goes into code red or something and cant get it together to understand they are just thoughts. 

I am in the moment, I am in the present, I deserve happiness and love, I spread happiness and love and light, i spread light i spread light. i love myself i love to like myself i like myself i like myself, i love myself, i actaully literally made the decision today that I go first, I am my priority, I did it, now keep doing it sis, keep making the best decisions for you, you know what is best for you, you know you, I love you, i like you i love you i like you. I love you i love you i love you. 

a hot, sad but revealing october day 10.4.18