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𝑺𝒖𝒓𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒆 / Alex & Sid

Date: February 7, 2021 Location: Alex’s Winter Garden home in Florida

Summary: Sid flies back after a game with a little surprise for Alex but boy does she have a bigger one for him. “Charlie is yours, Sidney... she’s ours.” 

Date Started: February 5, 2021 Date Completed: still in progress 

Alex Vacant.. it was the only way to describe how Alex went about her day. She was almost glad Sid wasn't around to witness the shock and distress she was in but knowing he would be back is what flared up every ounce of anxiety her body was capable of producing. 99.99998%... she couldn't even tell you how many times she stared down at those numbers on her phone from the email she received that morning. At first she was ecstatic, so relieved that the one person she would've chosen to have a child with in the first place was actually Charlie's father but with all that came the crippling realization that Sidney didn't even know there was a possibility. She had stolen so much time from him out of fear that she wouldn't be his and her worst nightmare was finding out after Sid already thought he was and having to take that all away from him. There was no right way to go about it, not really, just the way she did it and perhaps the way he would've preferred she done things which of course scared the fuck out of her. They had finally gotten back to this good place, she was happier than ever with the way things seemed to be going between them, and now this? She knew this would strain them, that there was a strong possibility he would hate her once she told him and that's what kept her so distraught all day. For most of it she felt paralyzed, almost nothing she wanted to get done was accomplished including fixing herself up and changing out of her loungewear from the night before but at least Charlie's basic needs were tended to. It's just that she wasn't her usual self with her daughter; She wasn't bouncing around and playing with her like she normally would. She couldn't, her mind was too preoccupied by running the million different scenarios of how telling him could possibly go. She knew which one she hoped for but the footballer was a realist, she knew the chances of that were next to none. Alex debated calling her mom or her sisters for advice but it didn't feel right that they would know before Sidney. He deserved to be the first and so every time she picked up her phone to call or text one of them she just sighed and put it back down resisting the urge to throw it against the wall. She was at such a loss and didn't know the first thing to do with herself. The brunette hadn't cried yet, just stewed in her anxiety which only seemed to get ten times worse the moment she saw headlights through the curtains in her living room — him pulling into the driveway. She wasn't ready but was this really something she'd ever be ready to tell him? Alex took a deep breath trying to shake out the nerves before he came inside. She didn't want to make it immediately obvious especially without knowing what kind of mood he was going to walk through the doors in, that would probably play a very key factor.

Sidney It was good to finally be getting out of New York. Sure, there was still one more game to be had on the island, but for now Sid was coming back… home. It was surprisingly how quickly his brain had taken over and filled in the gap for him. Not that he minded. It was true. Which was probably a little crazy, but Sid just didn’t care. He liked where his head was at right now with Alex. Clear, decided… optimistic. Yes, long gone was that false narrative he’d convinced himself of, that he needed to be unhappy… that he needed to spend a life without her… just because she’d had a baby with someone else. Or that even before then, that she didn’t want him as much as he might’ve wanted her… No, he wasn’t doing that to himself anymore. He’d made up his mind now. So, when Alex had mentioned the idea of maybe moving in with her and Charlie for the rest of the season, he’d hadn’t hesitated to say yes. It wasn’t like he hadn’t already planned on making her a set of extra keys for his Pittsburgh house for Valentine’s Day… or anything…. “Yeah, mom it’s me… I’m with Alex in Florida— I don’t know if she’s got— okay, okay I’ll check... sure, yeah I’ll give her your number again. I’m sure she’s still got it— oh your new number, okay…” hadn’t he called her? “Mom, I needed to know if you and dad were going away in the— uh, because we might be— yes, mom… Alex and I, might be making a trip… no, I don’t think… okay, I’ll ask…” he tuned out. Connecting eyes with another man sitting opposite him, who seemed to share his pain and gave him a sympathy smile after mouthing the word ‘mom’ in his direction. “Yeah, yeah… look I’ll call you next week and we can talk about it some— yes, mom. I’ve met Alex’s baby… I don’t know? A baby. She’s cute, funny… a baby?” What did his mom want him to say about Charlie? She was acting like Charlie was — ‘Flight 55 to Orlando, Florida is now boarding at Gate 48.’ “Mom, I’m boarding… I’ve got to go… I’ll call you. Love you too.” He snapped his phone closed. Grabbing up his carry on; this time with more than a couple of shirts he wouldn’t mind losing to Alex inside of it and a penguins onesie for Charlie, as he walked over to the first class check in and got on board. He would’ve liked to sleep on the flight down, but the idea of seeing Alex in only couple of hours kept him energised… He felt like he was some sixteen year old kid finally getting to see his girlfriend again after spending the entire summer away at some Hockey Camp… he was ‘giddy’ Which seemed a little embarrassing now that he’d put a word to it, but he couldn’t find another… at least not one as accurate. After picking up his rental from the airport kiosk, he made his way over to the BMW, throwing his bag in and heading off in the direction of Alex’s address. By now the guards knew just to wave him in with a smile, so it wasn’t long before he was pulling up outside her house and grabbing his bag back out again. Walking inside with the aid of the key she’d given him a few days ago, Sidney looked around and smiled when he saw her. Giddy. He dropped his bag… walking over to her… his smile big and goofy… but he didn’t care, “hi.” Hands wrapping around her he enveloped her into a hug before his hands found her face and he pulled her lips towards his own… “mmm…” he pulled back, his thumb brushing over her cheek, just before… “hold that thought…” Or kiss. Whatever was about to come up next between them, because he had a surprise. Walking back over to his bag he dug in and found the onesie he’d got management to help organise earlier… “okay close your eyes…” he wasn’t sure if she had or she hadn’t, but he didn’t mind as he turned back around and placed it in her hands… “surprise!”

Alex A good mood might've been expected but this... god, the way he lit up walking through those doors and seeing her face. Alex's heart both swelled about six times and then plummeted all the way into her stomach. She wished so badly she could be as giddy as he was about their little reunion even if it had only been a couple days but she was still too anxiety stricken to be even half as energized as he was about the whole thing. Still she smiled when he wrapped his arms around her and she did the same, rubbing his lower back with her hands as they hugged. She wished they could stay like that so much longer, let her find some comfort and maybe some air to breathe but just as he was quick to pull her in, he was pulling away and going in for a kiss which would've been just as nice had he not stopped it to go grab whatever surprise he had for her. More sweets from the airport maybe? This is where Alex's giddy little laugh would've come in, she would've shut her eyes with the biggest smile on her face and asked what it was before he ever got the chance to put it in her hands. Maybe he'd know something was wrong by the way she stayed silent instead; she did close her eyes as requested but there was nothing as she waited, almost just as vacant as she'd been all day. When Alex opened her eyes she felt as though she had taken a cleat to the gut, the wind completely knocked out of her. It was too adorable the way he was now always thinking about Charlie, too. In his mind she wasn't even his and yet here he was doing things like /this./ It shouldn't have been so overwhelming but given everything it was so much more than she could handle and brought the striker to her breaking point. "Sid.." tears overflowed in her eyes and for the first time maybe ever since crying in front of him she didn't try to stop it. She couldn't. She felt the soft fabric in her hands, her fingers running over the Penguin's logo as she tried desperately to collect herself and her thoughts. Maybe if she had kept her cool she could've enjoyed being with him a little bit before having to tell him but now that didn't seem like much of a possibility. "Sid, I have to tell you something." Her hand slid down his arm, taking his hand in her own and lead him over to the couch. "You should probably sit down." She knew how precarious it all sounded but how else could she possibly broach the subject? She went over it all day in her head and still had no idea the right way to tell him. As he went to sit down Alex picked up her phone from the coffee table in front of them and re-opened the email. She sat down next to Sidney and held his hand, taking a deep breath. All she had to do was get it out and once she did he'd know. Their lives forever changed. It felt unfair of her to do this to him not knowing if it's a way he would have wanted his life to change but it's not like she had been ready for a baby either when she found out she was pregnant, not that it made this any better. Wiping away some tears, her hands shaking, she began to speak. "I'm not sure if you ever really did the math. If there was ever a question in your mind, a tiny inkling or anything? Because if there was you've never expressed it and I guess that's probably because you assumed I would've told you." She realized she probably wasn't making much sense so she reeled it back in. "I didn't want to tell you without being sure and up until the other night there was no way of me being sure because we weren't in each other's lives but I swear I'm telling you this the same day I found out. I didn't want to hide it from you I just... Sid, I don't even really know the right way to say this but ... "she held out the phone to him showing him the email that very clearly stated it was a paternity test with a 99.99998% match. More tears falling now as he was probably starting to put it all together in his mind. "Charlie is yours, Sidney. She's ours.."