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chemicallichdom · 1 month ago

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slow coiling dread in my stomach realizing ive failed in my one role in the system - that my failure is not just familiar but identical, even surpassing, the failure ive criticized in others amongst my own . was it not fear and knowing, truly knowing that drove my word and my heart

#who am i and what is my purpose #existing as a portion within a whole leaves one reaching and wondering #i dont know if i would have chosen this #i dont think this was a choice #if i cannot succeed even in my role #truly what am i #structurally do i exist. could it be seen on scans. has it been attempted.#i wish i had the physical ability to go learn more about the brain i want to understand desperately #i dont know if i will ever forgive myself for being born wrong and it keeping me from higher ed #i wish higher ed wasnt the only way to learn certain subjects #especially at the current time it is so hard to find information i just want to learn

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