#i wasnt having his shit HAHAHHA

[lenaffin]

I played obscura and I had to draw a vespersona!

Her chosen name is Circe and she’s a fortune teller (who may or may not be legit), Her best match is with Keir and her absolute worst is with Cirrus.

She used to be a singer many years ago, but the competitive culture of the performing scene was not for her…

My commissions are open!

[borathae]

Chapter 10

ALSO HOW DID SHE GET BACK LATER?? wasnt she waking out of the uni? how did she end up in bed?? doesnt she have any classes on tuesday or wednesday? cuz then she would have realized somethings wrong

hold on i checked, she didnt have any classes on tuesday and was in library studying, so she is doing the same thing on wed too. and uni/colleges doesnt call you if you didnt attend until its not enough to apply for exam. holy shit she is only going to realize it until she goes to her class and finds out the said class was yesterday and today is tomorrow

GO AWAY (JIMIN) ANNA ofc joon stood up cuz it was yesterday and not today

THE MOVIE RAIN SCENE YEEHAW He is drenched, hair sticking against his forehead and shirt clinging to his body. IM GONNA DIE IM SIMPING TOO HARD AAAH

ok apology accepted i guess

“force of habit perhaps."  that hurt

keekek they are running home in the rain THEY ARE RUNNING HOME IN THE RAIN AAH JAOLXGWUIS giggles

STOP THEY ARE SO FUCKING CUTE WITH ALL THE SPLASHING AAAH I CANT PLEASE WHY AM I SINGLE AF 😭😭

If he keeps kissing you like this, you can’t guarantee that you won’t jump his bones right here and now. You twist his tie, needing him closer. TWISTING THE TIE AAAH PULL THE TIE FUCK

ALLOW ME TO FUCK YOU HOLY MOLY NOBODY SAYS THAT AND THATS SAD AS FUCK but it also makes it extra hot when tae says it

30 BUCKS FOR AN UNDERWEAR WTF YALL IT BETTER HAVE GOLD LACE OR SOMETHING i can get a dozen of normal underwear for less than 30 riyals???

FUCK THE TURN FROM ALL THE SWEET TALK- DIRTY TALK TO DESPERATE AS FUCK aaah my skin's hot??? oof

shit she is soo ruined, You are pretty sure you just gave birth. SHE GAVE BIRTH TO KTH 1 CONGRATULATIONS

Allow me to find my release on your chest”, THIS IS SOO FUNNY AND HOT AT THE SAME TIME

LICKING HER CLEAN FUCK IS THIS THE HOTTEST SMUT I READ OF YOURS??? (me with all your smut fuck)

“Vampires?” Taehyung gasps and inhales so harshly that he chokes on his spit, “my” – cough – "darling" – cough – "why would" – cough – "you think that?” - cough. ha caught u in 4k

SAYING JOON was in her dream caught his attention ALSO RM??

NOT YOU TO TAE NOOOOAUR AARGH *im this close to jumping off a cliff

oh my god idk what to do AAAH IM PULLING MY HAIR OUT

ALSO HOW DID SHE GET BACK LATER?? wasnt she waking out of the uni? how did she end up in bed?? doesnt she have any classes on tuesday or wednesday? cuz then she would have realized somethings wrong. hold on i checked, she didnt have any classes on tuesday and was in library studying, so she is doing the same thing on wed too. and uni/colleges doesnt call you if you didnt attend until its not enough to apply for exam. holy shit she is only going to realize it until she goes to her class and finds out the said class was yesterday and today is tomorrow

THE CONFUSION IS GROWING LIKE WHAT DID JOON DO TO HER?? WHAT ARE THEY ALL DOING TO HER?? HELP HER

THE MOVIE RAIN SCENE YEEHAW He is drenched, hair sticking against his forehead and shirt clinging to his body. IM GONNA DIE IM SIMPING TOO HARD AAAH

relatable. valid. me.

ok apology accepted i guess

hahah me when wet!Tae JFAJSDF

“force of habit perhaps."  that hurt

the pain </3

keekek they are running home in the rain THEY ARE RUNNING HOME IN THE RAIN AAH JAOLXGWUIS giggles

HAHAHHA ME

STOP THEY ARE SO FUCKING CUTE WITH ALL THE SPLASHING AAAH I CANT PLEASE WHY AM I SINGLE AF 😭😭

me fr (I was at a street festival yesterday and the men there reminded me why I'm single. imma stick with my delulu fictional men tbfh)

If he keeps kissing you like this, you can’t guarantee that you won’t jump his bones right here and now. You twist his tie, needing him closer. TWISTING THE TIE AAAH PULL THE TIE FUCK

LIKE I NEED HER TO PULL HIM AROUND BY HIS TIE

ALLOW ME TO FUCK YOU HOLY MOLY NOBODY SAYS THAT AND THATS SAD AS FUCK but it also makes it extra hot when tae says it

like he is the king of consent AND I NEED HIM

30 BUCKS FOR AN UNDERWEAR WTF YALL IT BETTER HAVE GOLD LACE OR SOMETHING i can get a dozen of normal underwear for less than 30 riyals???

lmoaoao me fr JFADJ

FUCK THE TURN FROM ALL THE SWEET TALK- DIRTY TALK TO DESPERATE AS FUCK aaah my skin's hot??? oof

barking at him out of my vagina tbfh

shit she is soo ruined, You are pretty sure you just gave birth. SHE GAVE BIRTH TO KTH 1 CONGRATULATIONS

I forgot I wrote this BAHAHAH 😶 help why is she so unserious? jfasjdf

Allow me to find my release on your chest”, THIS IS SOO FUNNY AND HOT AT THE SAME TIME

HFAHDSHF I need him so bad

LICKING HER CLEAN FUCK IS THIS THE HOTTEST SMUT I READ OF YOURS??? (me with all your smut fuck)

LIKE BESTIE I ALSO FORGOT I WROTE THIS LIKE BARKING AT HIM

“Vampires?” Taehyung gasps and inhales so harshly that he chokes on his spit, “my” – cough – "darling" – cough – "why would" – cough – "you think that?” - cough. ha caught u in 4k

hfhadshf he is panicking hard

SAYING JOON was in her dream caught his attention ALSO RM??

jfajsdfj they are NOT subtle with it AFHSDFH

NOT YOU TO TAE NOOOOAUR AARGH *im this close to jumping off a cliff

LIKE STOP GASLIGHTING HER!!!!

[a-kaash-me-outside]

I agree with prev anon that reader was a bit frustrating because she said some out of pocket stuff (though it wasn’t intentional or said out of maliciousness) but Atsumu making an effort and trying for 3 weeks is the bare bareeeee minimum come on!!! 😭We gotta stop giving credit to men who do the bare minimum in terms of being a nice respectful person. Like if someone was into me I’d HOPE they would be nice and “try” while they were making an effort to date me???

Especially cause all it took was one comment for him to revoke it and throw it in her face. What does that say about him 😭 reader’s mess up was due to nerves and not stopping to think before she spoke, Atsumu’s mess up was due to him knowingly choosing to perform an action that he was aware would hurt her on some level since he knew she was into him as well. Their convo outside their rooms could’ve been solved with an honest follow up conversation, but he decided to revenge fuck a stranger and make her a witness to it so he could punish her for making a petty comment towards him.

What she said wasn’t even false either because he did have a track record of bringing home multiple girls every weekend lmao if he doesnt like people pointing out his past behaviour then I dunno maybe demonstrate that you don’t engage in that behaviour anymore?! Not go out and immediately prove y/n right!!

okay yes. no okay yes I UNDERSTAND i understand. and i'm not saying we like praise him for the effort that's he's putting into it and the change in patterns that he's exhibiting, but more like aw man no yea this is actually the longest change in pattern that he's displayed.

(omg look another read more because i have so much to say/try to explain) but also it'll all be explained better in the next chapter lmao lmao. i will probably stop long explaining a lot of these and just let you guys read the next chapter and either like it or not HAHAHHA.

i feel like no one is -IN ANY WAY- skipping over the fact that the bs he pulled was shitty and he is an asshole because like yea no ur 100% right he's an asshole.

i just think that the layers that i built into twrt are kinda a lot and complex because it's not just "oh reader is super super into atsumu so why doesn't atsumu just date her instead of having sex with other people" its much more like "reader is keeping atsumu at arms length while still engaging with and flirting and practically fucking him while they're drunk" like reader specifically is not trying to be in a relationship with him while still doing relationshipy things because she's terrified of the effect that it'll have on a lot of aspects in her life and the hesitancy that she's feeling is super evident and real frustrating for someone who has, many times, tried to breech this line of oh let's actually date.

NOW IS ALL OF THIS AN EXCUSE FOR THE WAY THAT ATSUMU ACTED? yea no of course not but i just mean that it doesn't boil down to oh yea no reader has done NOTHING BUT want to be with atsumu she literally wanted to fuck maki like,,,, a few weeks prior to this conversation. and it wasn't as vindictive or shitty as atsumu's because of cOURSE IT WASNT but we don't really get to see atsumu's side or feelings in any of this the entire time bc its from reader pov. so it's hard to like,, understand the other side of it.

and i will say the comment that she makes outside of his door serves less as a reminder of his past and more of sudden change in tendencies. i don't know if that distinction makes SENSE but it does in my mind hehe.

also when i came up with the idea for this fic, this is always the way that i wanted the conflict to go. which became a bit difficult as it moved from being a oneshot to a chaptered fic and all of the feelings that came along with it. this shit is much less ouch when yknow- you dont have as much background as you do in the chaptered versions but i hope that chapter7 gives some insight? some better like oh yea ok yea tori you explained that really well, nice.

[vanesasengg]

My crush Tyler 😜

Hey,Im Jack.You know about me so I won't introduce myself.

Its been a month since i met Tyler.Do I miss my condo?Maybe...Is it more important than Tyler?I dont think so.He has a charming smile.His childish smile...

-Good morning

Marla...Yeah the problem is Tyler was fucking Marla.I know he doesnt like her but hearing them still hurts.

+morning

-Is something wrong?Why are you mad?,she comes closer.

+nothing.

I went to my room.If Marla didnt existed.I hate her.She cant have Tyler.TYLER BELONGS TO ME.

I wake up in Tyler's room.Shit! It must have my insomnia.I got out of bed.

-What are you doing here? Get out

+Tyler

-GET.OUT.

+I-Im sorry

I looked like a creep.Maybe i was a creep?

Its Saturday.Tyler and I are walking to Lou's.Something is wrong with him.He is extremely silent.He is a talkative person.

+Is something wrong?

-Like what?

+You are silent.

-Im not.

He lights his cigarette.I hate cigarettes but it smells nice on him.

We are at Lou's.Bob is there

-Hey Cornelius!Maybe we should fight tonight.

I agree.I wanted him to beat me.I wasnt trying to defend myself.I didnt want to hurt Bob,just myself.Then i looked at Tyler. He had a disappointed look. I dont want to disappoint Tyler.Then something snapped.I fill up with rage and power.I punched his face.Again,again,again.Until i get tired.When i looked at Tyler,he was proud of me.I had a smile on his face.Sorry Bob.

We were walking to Tyler's house.No.Our house.

-You are improving Ikea boy.

I was tired.I slept like a baby.I havent slept like this for days.

When i wake up,the house was quiet.Marla wasnt here.I yelled at Tyler but he didnt responded.I go to his rooms door.

*knock knock*

No respond.I slowly opened the door.Tyler was sleeping naked.I closed the door quickly.He was a heavy sleeper.I opened the door again. Starring at his amazing body.I wish i could have that body.Only for myself.He opened his eyes and looked at me.I didnt noticed he was looking at me.

-Good morning Big boy.

I was shocked.I couldn't do anything.Just stand still.

+Im sorry.I was just going to say the breakfast is ready.

-Dont lie.I know you didnt make any breakfast.

FUCK.How did he know?

He comes near me.

-Are you going to make breakfast?

Our noses were touching.He was so close to me that i could feel his breath.I couldn't hold myself anymore.I kissed him slowly.

-HAHAHHA You are the gayest person ive ever met.

I was embarrassed.I went to the kitchen.Made some eggs.

-What are we eating

+Eggs

I was busy looking at eggs.

-Dont burn mine.

I turned my back.Holy shit he was still naked.

+Ugh here is your egg.

-You are acting like a creep.

+No.uhm.W-why did you even said that?

-Are you in love with Marla?

+NO!

-Yeah that would be pathetic.So you are in love with me?

+TYLER

-We cant be together.

+And why is that?

-You'll know soon.

My phone rang.It was Bob

+Yes?

-Can we please meet at the bar.I want to talk to you about something.

+Is it important

-Very.

+Okay im coming.

What could it be?I had no idea.I put on my clothes and walk to the bar.

+Hey, Bob.What did you want to talk to me about?

-Cornelius,you've said you've heard about Tyler durden.I didnt know it was you.

+ What?

-I saw it was you when Lou beat you.It was the first time i was seeing Tyler durden.

-Bob im not Tyler durden.I just live with him.

+Tyler durden lives alone.You said you live alone.

When did i said that?I feel dizzy.

I wake up in a hotel room.Tyler was sitting

+Tyler what was Bob talking about?

-You know what hes talking about.

+Are we the same person?Is that why youve said we cant be together?

-Exactly.

+How do i get rid of you?

-The way to kill me is killing yourself.

Was i really going to do it?Killing the man i love and myself?Im nothing without Tyler and Tyler is not real.

Im at the rooftop of the hotel.Its really high.

-Dont do it.

+Goodbye Tyler.

[ssreeder]

hi!!

i was just thinking ab ria and i wanted to ask you a question ab liab/ria

how much time passed between sokka being captured in the northern water tribe and the current events in the fic?? since sokka lost track of time im pretty sure it wasnt said how long hes been gone (MAYBE IT WAS AND IM JUST BEING DUMB but i dont remember anything like that 😭) so i was just wondering what the timeline is.

i understand if u havent really thought much ab that/it will be an important part of the fic later on, and u dont wanna say, i totally get how it is w writing

soo yeah that was my question hahahha

BTW I LOVE YOUR FIC and im impatiently waiting for the next update!!! ily

I’m sorry it took me so long to answer this, I was going to draw you up a timeline and do cool dots and shit but I ran out of time and idk I just gave up ahha.

Sooooo here is the timeline I promised you:

I know canon said that aang had “one year” to defeat the fire lord, but they never clarified how many months were in a year…. SO…. I can do whatever I want and it’s fine :D :D

Timeline:

Zuko was captured after the Blue Spirit season 1 episode 13.

He was captured in the forest by Zhao and was taken to the prison camp by caravan. It took one week and he was incarcerated for four months before Sokka arrived.

Sokka was captured in the NWT during the siege and it took two weeks to ship him to the prison camp.

He arrived there and was incarcerated for two months with Zuko in prison.

When they escaped Sokka has been in prison a little over two months and Zuko was locked away for a little over six months.

They were on the run for a month and a half until the RR captured them.

After Sokka’s injury he was in a coma for a week and then continued to be captured by the RR for a little over a week until Bato and the men came to save them. So Zuko and Sokka were captured by the RR for almost 3 weeks

They have now been at the Water Tribe camp for about three weeks, give or take a few days.

I hope this makes sense let me know if it doesn’t :)

I keep things vague because I don’t want to be held accountable for time not exactly adding up haha. If you need anything else PM me :)

[jjramsey]

what is going on with villa rn?? why are people being elf out of the squad and why are fans mad at ollie???

ah yes anon we are in complete tatters honestly

so the game on sunday was pure AWFUL like i honestly dont think ive seen them play worse in my life like they did not play as a team at any point during the match - it was like watching a sunday league team go up against prime barca it was so poor and i can be quite dramatic but lord it was bad

like dougie was just rough like i personally think it was one of his worst games - as well as mcginn. buendia wasnt fit (bc it was said he was gonna be a doubt and then he was chosen to start???) and mings…… i cant even talk about it bc i honestly think i would get death threats

so gerrard is obvs having none of it and he was mega fuming so sources are saying hes gonna drop a bunch of the team this week and basically play our second team (with some first team exceptions) because its just not good enough

and i think most people are happy with this (?) because we’ve never really had a RUTHLESS gaffer who actually considers things and drops people who arent playing well??? so this is like an improvement yet also kinda bad bc we need the points lol

so thats that part and then basically ollie hasnt been playing well recently and people are saying his head is being turned by offers, hes not good enough and stuff like that, then ollie took villa out his bio and did something to his profile pic and this guy called waze dm’d him this:

and now everyones kinda up in arms bc half of the fans are like “hahahha he has more beef than shots on goal🤣🤣🤣” and half of them are like “dont spread hate!!! if he leaves in the summer you know why!!!”

so yeah its kinda a shit show❤️

[manet-boleyn]

The Tudors Rewatch Season 1 Ep 2

that cloth of gold place looks fake as fuck

i gotta admit the ruari connor is actually a good henry actor,meyers's season 1 henry just doesnt fit as well

FRANCOIS IS SO HANDSOME LIKE NO JOKE

the scene were mary kicks down the dauphin is the funniest shit ever

THE CGI IS SO BAD LMAO

mary boleyn is so sweet

UGHHH I HATE THOMAS TALLIS FOR NO REASON

thomas more has nice eyes uwu

why does mary boleyn have this stupid hood like wtf is she

THIS SCENE IS SO FUNNY AND AWFUL HAHAHAA WHEN HE THROWS EVERYTHING

i love bessies earrings oml

ewww norfolk

whos this ginger guy?? the one who eventually becomes the lover of the musician kid??

bruh ??? is this norfolk like,,, the uncle of anne?? his father... wasnt killed, his granddad was ??

ok but i really wanna learn about the 2nd duke of norfolk now

damn its the clock again woweeee

oh its that girl that slept with henry cavill bruh

cries about his daughter?? HE CRIES ABOUT HIS DAUGHTER ??? HE HIT HER LAST EPISODE

"I HAVE A SON""" camera zooms up like its the office

the burger king crowns hahahha

SHUT UP CHARLES BRANDON

the awkwardness oml

the hopelessness in Katherine's voice, this is good acting here

OH MY GOD ARE THOS ACCURATE HOODS I- IN THE BACK OF BESSIE< I GDUJDBJBD

annenanenanenannanneanneanneanne

I- THE FALCON OH MY GOD HOLY SHIT AHHHHH THATS HER SYMBOL HMMM

with anne calling her dad "papa" reminds me of those johnny johnny videos

the way her dad rubs her cheek gives me the worst vibes

im gonna pay less attention to the show after this, i gotta write lmao

[star-mum]

LIVE REACTION TO NIGHTMARE TIME EP 1

Idk if anyone would even be interested in reading this but as I was watching the show last night I kept writing down my reactions on my notes so here we are

*this is all in caps idk why just roll with it*

THE OPENING SONG IS SUCH A BOP OMG NICK LANG HIMSELF ?????? MONSTER FUCKER RIGHTS ???? HIDGENS ENTRANCE HOW ICONIC "LUCY IS HAVING NONE OF IT" I LOVE THAT OMG JOEY PLAYING KONK (?) IS SUCH A POWER MOVE I LOVE THAT THE BEGGINING IS JUST TARZAN FANFIC SKSKSKSKS MARIAH IS TEXTING JOHN (?) AND HES LAUGHING SM WE LOVE A COMEDY QUEEN I LOVE THEM USING THE ZOOM BACKGROUNDS SKSKSKS KONK IS AWFULLY CLOSE TO COCK AND I THINK ITS ON PURPOSE ?? SPECIALLY WITH THE LAG I HAD TO DO A DOUBLE TAKE SOMETIMES SKSKSKS SOMEONE JUST SAID "TED'S ORIGIN STORY" ON CHAT AND I LOST IT !!!!! COULD YOU IMAGINE ???? HANDSOME LADY ? I MEAN SURE TIGHT JOHN IS LOSING IT FUCK MAN, SAME CURT OMG THAT ACCENT OOOOOOOOHHHH BOY I KNEW IT WAS HER FIANCEE SHIIIIT WE CANNOT TRUST HIM I KNOW THIS !!! "ENTAGLED" SKSKS WHAT SIR HES GAY CHILL OUT WHATS THE YEAR, IT FEELS SO OLD TIMEY "I'D SAY YOU HAD FEELINGS FOR THIS APEMAN" OOOOOOOHHHH DONT U SAY JONATHAN IS A PUSSY BITCH I CAN TELL LUCY JUST DROP IT OH SHE ACTUALLY DID ????? FUCK IT UP BABE

(I JUST ACIDENTALY DELETE HALF OF WHAT I WROTE SHIT, ILL HAVE TO REWRITE IT FROM MEMORY) WHAT THE FUCK THEY WERE TRICKING US??? THEY CALLED IT, WHAAAAAAAAT WDYM "PLAY THE PROFESSOR" IS HE NOT A PROFESSOR WHAT ALTERNATE REALITY IS THIS I NEED TO KNOW

ARE THEY GONNA FUCKING KILL HIM WHAT??? SINGING LONDON BRIDGE WHILE CHASING SOMEONE IS MY FAV SCARY TROP HAHAHHA YEEEEESSS "TOOK OFF WDYM" GIRL HE IS HOLDING A GUN WHAT DO YOU THINK "WDYM" WHY DID HE KEEP THE KONK ACT AFTER LUCY LEFT SKSKSKSKS TED WTF SKSKSKS "I DO SOME OF MY BEST THINKING WHEN IM ERECT" HAHAHAHA TED LIKES TO BE A HIMBO THATS GREAT IS HE GOING TO KILL TED ?? AAAAAAAHHHHHH TED HE HAS A GUN PLZ DONT TEST HIM HE HAS ALREADY KILLED A MAN OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHH FUUUUUUUUCK RECAST???? WHO IS TAKING TED'S ROLE ????? OH SO ITS NOT OLD TIMEY AFTER ALL RED SOMETHING???? OH TED'S GONNA PROPOSE IS SHE GONNA SAY NO? SHES GONNA SAY NO RIGHT ? FUUUUUUUUCK HAHAHHAHA WHY IS HE NAKED ??? JAHAHHAHA WHAT WHAT IS HAPPENING TED WHAT ? "PROFESSOR SHOULD GO FUCK HIMSELF" HAHAHAHA PORNHUB PREMIUM ACCOUNT HAHAHAH "OOOoooOOoOoOoOoOohhHhhHh BUT IT IS" FUCK NO DONT KILL HER OOOOOOOOOHHHH TED'S DEAD SHIT OOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH ROBERT'S ACTING IS *CHEF'S KISS* DAMN OH SHIT TED *NOW* TED IS DEAD FUCK HIDGENS IS HERE NOOOOOOOOOOO IS HE GONNA KILL HER ??? OH SHIT OH FUCK LUCY'S CAUGHT IN  A BEAR TRAP WHY ARE PPL SAYING WORKING BOYS IN THE CHAT ??? OH THATS WHY !!!!!! YEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAHHH MINE IS A LITTLE BEHIND IS SHE BROKE ??????? OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH HAHAHAHAHA I KNEW IT HIDGENS GOT PLAYED THATS ON YOU BUDDY OH FUCK HIM UP LUCY ! BECKY BARNES ????? HATCHFIELD LORE ???? WAS SHE RUNNING AWAY FROM HIS HUSBAND IS THAT WHY SHE CLIMBED A TREE APE MAN SHOW UP PLZ WHO IS IT THO ?????? JEFF HELL YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK JESUS CHRIST APE MAN YEEEEAAAHHH WOOLY FOOT ?????? IS IT CHUMBY???? OOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH HAHAHA YEEEEAAHHH HOW DID HIDGENS KNOW ????? OH IS IT OVER ?????? NOOOOOOOOOOOO I WANTED MORE ;-----; THIS WAS SO GOOD THO OOOHHH FUCK ANOTHER MUSIC NUMBER JAMIE YOU LOOK AMAZING !!!!!!!!!! I CANT WAIT FOR THESE SONGS TO BE AVAILABLR FOR US (IN LIKE 3 YEARS CAUSE IM BROKE SKSKSKSK) HE DANCES THE CAN CAN ?????? OKAY I SKIPPED A BIT TO BE ON TIME WITH EVERYBODY "ARE YOU FUCKKING HIGH????" YEEEEEEEEEAH PART 2 BABEY !!!!! NICK'S HAIR LOOKS AMAZING OMG OH ???????? BILL AND ALICE !!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD I MISSED THEM !!!!!!!!! OH THE TEEN ANGST I LOVE BILL SM HE'S SUCH A GOOD DAD DEB ????WHY WOULD U HURT BABY ALICE LIKE THIS ???? "I MIGHT NEVER SEE DEB AGAIN" GOD ALICE CHILL OUT LET HER BE A PLAY WRITER BILL CMON "MY BUDDY PAUL" AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH BLINKY ??? I DONT TRUST THAT AT ALL FUCK NO JOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHNNNN I DONT TRUST HES CHARACTER THO OOOOHHH LOVE DISCOUNTS I DIDNT LIKE THE WORKER CALLING HER PRINCESS THO, SHES BILL'S DAUGHTER NOT YOURS OOOOOOHHHHHH NO OH NONONONOONO BILL IS GOING TO DIE I JUST KNOW IT BLINKY IS EVIL I CAN FEEL IT ALICE NO NO LITTERING WHORE JAMES !!!!!!!!!! ALICE IS ALSO GOING TO DIE MAYBE RIGHT NOW WHO KNOWS BLNKY WTF SHE IS A MINOR WTF AAAAAH I DONT LIKE IT HERE JAMES ILY BUT THIS CHARACTER IS CREEPY AS SHIT I DONT LIKE IT HAHAHAH TIGHT LOVE THEME PARK STUPID SHIRTS "I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE FUNNY" HAHAHAHAH DROWSY TOWN ? THE CHAT PULLED MY ATTENTION TO THAT BUT I DONT GET WHY ? IS THIS BAD "I'D FOLLOW YOU ANYWHERE" THIS IS SUCH A DAD THING TO SAY OH ALICE CMON DONT SAY THAT BILL CUT IT OUT WITH DECIDING YOUR KIDS FUTURE THATS NOT FUN OH GOD I DONT TRUST THAT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO NO NO NO "AHOY BOYS AND GIRLS" NO NONONONONO UNCLE WILEY FUCK OFF THE SNIGGLES NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUUUUUUUUUCK NOOOOO AHHHHHHHHHHHHH "WE'RE THE SNIGGLES DONT BE SCARED" YOU KNOW WHAT SNIGGLES I AM SCARED BUT HELL YEAH SONG TIME OOOOOOOHHH FUCK IT UP JAMES OH ARE THEY GONNA LIKE GIVE THE AUDIENCE A SLEEP INDUCING DRUG OR SOMETHING ??????? "DONT BLINK" AHAHAHA I DONT TRUST THAT AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH "GREAT WE'RE DEAD" HAHAHAH THE SONG WAS A BOP THO "WHAT ARE THE SNIGGLES?" GREAT QUESTION ALICE "NOW U KNOW HOW I FELT WHEN I HAD TO SEAT THROUGH DEH" HAHHAHAHA "SEE U IN A SNIG" HAHAHA SNIGGLETTE ???U OKAY BBY??? OOOOOOOOHHH MORE SONGS HELL YEAH I LOVE ANGELA'S VOICE SM THE SNIGGLE PUNS ARE KINDA CONFUSING ME NGL WHY WAS THAT SO SAD OMG OOOOOOOH SHIT OH FUCK THEYRE GONNA KILL HER I JUST KNOW IT OMG "PRAISE THE WATCHER" OH MY GOD PLZ DONT KILL HER "UNTIL HE'S SEEN EVERYTHING" W H A T LAUREN'S VOICE SKSKSK SO CUTE PAPA SNIGGLE I DO NOT TRUST YOU THOSE ARE ALIVE ARENT THEY ????? OH FUCK SNIGGLETTE IS SHE OKAY ????????? "ANGELA R U ALRIGYT" WHAT "SHUT UP JEFF" OH MY GOD I DONT LIKE WHEN THEYRE SELF AWARE SKSKSKSK " U CAN SHUT THE HELL UP LAUREN" HAHAHAHA BILL OMG HE'S SUCH A DAD HAHAHAHAH ALICE IS SO NICE DO THEY NOT KNOW "ARON AROOON" HAHHAHA OH CHURROS I LOVE THOSE THE GIRL SHE DOESNT LIKE ?????? OH NON BINARY RIGHTS LOVE IT "IS THIS A FRIEND OF ZIGS" OH LOVE RESPECTFUL DAD DEB NOT COOL OH ALICE SHIT ALICE BBY IF SHES CHEATING ON YOU THATS NOT ON UR DAD STOP SHITTING ON HIM LIKE THIS "ITS UR MOTHERS FAULT" OH MY GOD HAHAHHAHA GREG AND ALISON ? AND BETH ?? DOES BETH LIKE HER ????OH NOOOOOO GREG NO U SHITTY SON OF A BITCH GOD FUCKING PUNCH HIM OH  NO HAHAHA FUCK NO THEYRE ALL POSESSED ARENT THEY THATS THE TEEN FROM THE MOVIE THEATER HAHAHHA "it lagged ;-; now we wait" A MAN IN A HURRY HAHAHAHHA OH SHIT BILL IS MAD IS HE POSESSED TOO ??????? OH SHIT WHATS HAPPENING BLINKY ????????? OH NO OH NO SHES GONNA HAVE A PANIC ATTACK THEYRE GONNA BE FINE RIGTH ??????? RIGHT ???? BREATHING EXERCISES BABY CMON OH NO PLZ DONT DO ANYTHING STUPID BILL NOOOOOOOOOOO BILL PLZ DONT DIE AGAIN I LOVE YOU SM PUT UR SEATBELT BACK ON PLZ NOOOOOOOOO OH THEYRE BOTH GOING TO FALL ARENT THEY OH NO OH MY GOD OH SHIT PHONE IS BROKEN OOPS AWN IM GONNA CRY PLZ LET THEM SURVIVE I BEG YOU NICK LANG OOOOOOOOH TWILIGHT BUT GAY I AM *HERE* FOR IT OOOOOH THANK GOD THEYRE SAFE THANK YOU NICK LANG BILL YOURE SUCH A GOOD DAD OH GOD SHIT ALICE CHILL OUT ITS JUST A PHONE BABE "SHE KNOWS IM WATCHING HER" I DONT TRUST THAT IS *SHE* POSESSED OR IS THIS JUST TEEN ANGST ALICE UR DAD IS TRYING HIS BEST PLZ CUT HIM SOME SLACK OH MARIAH TURNED HER CAMERA OFF OH DEAR GOD WHAT DOES THAT MEAN HAHAH I LOVE LIVE BLOOPS OH MY GOD BLINKY IS TERRIFYING FUCK NO DO NOT GET THAT WIGGLY JUNIOR BILL DONT HOW ??????? OH MARIAH IS BACK WHAT DOES THIS MEAN ??????? WHY CANT BILL GET THE MALLET THING DONT TAKE IT YES SMART LAUREN ? SKSKKSS WHAT MADAM IRIS I DO NOT TRUST YOU WHAT ?????? IS THAT ALICE'S PHONE ???? BILL DONT GET SCAMMED OH ITS AN ALL SEEING IPHONE ALICE CHILL PLZ IS HE GONNA DIE ????? PLZ NICK DONT DO THAT ALICE DONT DONT KILL UR DAD 49.95 AGAIN BILL PLZ TRY ANOTHER GAME JAMES DAMN THATS RUTHLESS BILL WHAT AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH IS THAT REAL ???????? IT CANT BE ??????? OH ITS NOT REAL ARE THEY MAKING THEM HATE THEIR FAMILIES AND KILL EACH OTHER ?? A TENDER KISS ON THE CHEEK FROM A DEMON HOW NICE GUYS PLZ JUST GO TO THERAPY I BEG U WHAT ARE U GONNA DO BILL? KICK HER HEAD ??????? (SORRY I HAD TO) BLINKY'S FUNHOUSE THAT SOUNDS WARM AND COMFORTING THIS IS LIKE THE OPPOSITE OF NOT UR SEED FIGHTING IN THE MIRROR PART OF A FUN HOUSE IS ALWAYS A GOOD HORROR MOVIE TROPE OH FUCK ARE THEY GONNA WAKE UP OH FUCK PLZ WAKE UP ESCAPE THIS ALIVE YEEEEAAAAAAHHHHH OH SHES GONNA SHOOT HIM ISNT SHE ????? SHES GONNA SHOOT HIM I JUST KNOW IT HES AWAKE SHES NOT IS BLINKY GONNA KILL THEM ?? OOOOOOOOHHHHHH FUCK I KNEW IT OH HELL YEAH ALICE FUCK IT UP ARE THEY GONNA DROW ?? OH NO OKAY DID THEY SURVIVE ???? IS SHARED TRAUMA GONNA SAVE THEIR RELATIONSHIP SKSKSKKS THEY SURVIVED !!!!!!!!! THANK YOU NICK LANG (AGAIN) WAIT HOW DID SHE GET HER PHONE BACK ? OH MADAM IRIS DID GIVE HER PHONE BACK AWWNNNNNNNN ALICE THIS ONE HAD A HAPPY ENDING YAY WELL IG THE OTHER DID TOO BUT NOT FOR THE CHARACTERS WE KNEW

THIS WAS SO GOOD I LOVER STAKID !!!!!!!!!!! I JUST WISHED I WASNT BROKE SO I COULD PAY FOR THE NEXT ONES KSKSKSKSK WILL BE WAITING FOR YOU GUYS TO DO YOUR REACTIONS FOR THE NEXT ONES !!!

I HEARD GREG AND IT WAS CRAIG SKSKKSSK OOPS

*from this part on is reactions from after the show when starkid was answering questions from the chat*

YEEAAH VOTE FOR BIDEN HELL YEAH STARKID

"THE WITCH IN THE WEB" WEBBY ???????? DO WE GET TO SEE HANNAH AGAIN ?????

A THEORY ON TUMBLR FROM REDDIT ON A INSTAGRAM ACC ON YT OH MY GOD SKSKSKSKKS

THE STORIES ARE CANON !!!!!!!!! THEORIES LETS GO GANG

STARKID FANS WHO CAN DONATE TO STARKID PLZ DO I WISH I COULD DONATE TO THESE TALENTED PPL G O D

I WAS CORRECT IT WAS KONK WITH A K

NERDY PRUDES MUST DIE YES!!!!!! WORKING BOYS !!!!

"NICK LANG IS A BOSS"

MARIAH: SAYS FUCK AS ALICE ALSO MARIAH: GEEKED THE *FREAKED* OUT

TIP JAR HAS BEEN OUT FOR 11 YEARS HELL YEAH

HOW TF DO YOU SPELL ZIGGS BTW

OOOHHH THEYRE FAKE THAT MAKES SENSE OK NOT FAKE COMFIRMED BUT PROBABLY FAKE LETS HOPE DEB DIDNT ACTUALLY CHEAT

"WELL I WAS BORN IN 1989" HAHAHAHA

BECKY CLIMBED WHILE RUNNING FROM HER HUSBAND I FEEL LIKE THATS WHAT THATS ABOUT

OH GOODIE I GET TO WATCH THEM LATER IDK WHEN BUT AT LEAST IK SOMEDAY

BLINKY VS WIGGLY

OH CMON NICK I WANTED TO KNOW ;-;

THIS WAS SO NICE I MISSED THEM ;-;

[borathae]

“Cause I talked all big balls at the garage and now I’m nervous. I’m big mouthed, nothin’ more.”

SHUT UP I CACKLED

He throws his legs on your lap, relaxing with a loud sigh. He grunts and then hums in content as he rubs his own tummy.

“Pff”, you scoff, “you and your dad noises all the time.”

Taehyung peels his left eye open, “those ain’t dad noises. They’re uncle noises.”

NO WONDER MY FRIENDS CALL ME DAD OR GRANDPA

“Mhm honey, you’re so hot”, he rasps that was so cowboy of him

he would actually die of blue balls during the date. my head is now a tv channel

the headlines in eng is making me baomn and the one in my mother tongue IS EXTRA HILARIOUS

You slam your hands onto his round buttocks, forcing him to yelp it surprise.

“Babe”, he gasps, widening his eyes, “whatcha doin'?” FUCK HE YELPED AAAH

Taehyung has the sexiest ass in the universe. FACTS LIES UNDETECTED *insert gyatt meme, booty so big damn lord have mercy *twerks like a stick figure

“I think my heart's gon' give up.” BREAKING NEWS guy dies during foreplay cuz it was too hot. honestly died like a champ

“Don’t look there”, he whines when he realises that you are gazing at his ass. pls he is a cute lil pookie

OMG ITS GETTING TOO HOT YALL PHEW

u can never be prepared enough for your smut its like those twitter army meme

HIT ME WITH THE COMEBACK IM READY

OH MY GOD I WASNT READY WTF AAAH

“What are you doin' to me?” he somehow manages to produce ME TO YOU

HOLY FUCK MA MANZ RUINED OOF *shivers

OH MY GOD I HAVE TO GO SHOPPING?? NOW??? AAAH IDK WHAT TO DO AAH

5 ORGASMS?? AAAH

anyways the meal was delicious, gob smacking(im not british but i had to say it) as always mommy

omgmg I love this review ehheheheh ✊🏻😔💜

“Mhm honey, you’re so hot”, he rasps that was so cowboy of him

we love a cowboy in this household ✊🏻😔

he would actually die of blue balls during the date. my head is now a tv channel the headlines in eng is making me baomn and the one in my mother tongue IS EXTRA HILARIOUS

KFADJ imagine if he actually did like bOY was HORNY hahahha

Taehyung has the sexiest ass in the universe. FACTS LIES UNDETECTED *insert gyatt meme, booty so big damn lord have mercy *twerks like a stick figure

TAE'S ASS IS GENUINELY TOO HOT TO HANDLE LIKE *buries face in it*

“I think my heart's gon' give up.” BREAKING NEWS guy dies during foreplay cuz it was too hot. honestly died like a champ

I repeat. boY WAS HORNYYYYYY

OMG ITS GETTING TOO HOT YALL PHEW u can never be prepared enough for your smut its like those twitter army meme HIT ME WITH THE COMEBACK IM READY OH MY GOD I WASNT READY WTF AAAH

FJAJDFJ I'm happy you're enjoying my smut so much bahahaha

“What are you doin' to me?” he somehow manages to produce ME TO YOU

👁👅👁 hehe

5 ORGASMS?? AAAH

WE LOVE A MAN THAT PERFORMS!!!!!

anyways the meal was delicious, gob smacking(im not british but i had to say it) as always mommy

OMFG HAHAHHAHAHAHH PLEASE omfg please rate my smut as "gob smacking as always mommy" from now on BAHAHAHAH this is a 1000/10 compliment bahhahah (also why do i lowkey wanna write aaol!kook going "gobsmacking as always mommy" after she railed the shit outta him?? like helloo?? hahahah)

[poursomesunaonme]

thanks for the tag babe!<333

1. Favorite pre renaissance Disney movie *anything before 1989

either oliver and company or the rescuers ! i rewatched these movies last year - yall i have no idea how my parents werent bawling crying every time they watched it w me and my siblings (and we watched these movies A LOT). i love my little animal heroes heheh <3

2. Favorite renaissance movie *1989 to 1999

hercules!!! never gets old! so funny and sweet and not to mention that insane soundtrack

3. Favorite post renaissance Disney movie *after 2000 or newer

this is sO TOUGH! so i gotta do musical/non musical:)

musical:

princess and the frog ! im a sucker for how accurate it is for southern culture (“yall from shreveport?!” - ON TNE FLOOOR every time!!!) and the cajun accents are spot on. (prince naveen is so hot). the soundtrack is phenomenal, tiana’s character is amazing, and the overall “you cant just wish on a star” theme (basically rewriting disney’s entire career) makes it the most relatable movie to me (not to mention that i feel like im home every time i watch it)

also tangled! cutest hero<3 rapunzel has the sweetest character ! and maximus cracks my shit up. i love love love the soundtrack and the animation and lights are so beautiful <3

(anastasia wasnt produced by disney but it still gets a mention here!)

non-musical:

inside out ! the main reason why i love it so much is because it teaches emotional maturity in the most easily comprehended way. its a great movie for kids to learn early that you dont always have to be happy and feeling other things is okay too. it also just makes me feel so nostalgic. such a beautiful movie !

4. Favorite princess *Including anyone who married into royalty

tiana is top tier goddess material ! i adore how strong-willed and stubborn she is, not to mention she’s the epitome of southern hospitality and kindness. people who are the foundations of community are my favorite kind of people. she’s also my idol with how well she cooks lol (i need to learn how to make a mean gumbo HAHAHA). but in my opinion she’s the most relatable character out there:)

mulan and merida are close seconds because of how badass they are:’)

5. Favorite prince *Including anyone who married into royalty

yall know i cant choose HAHAHHA but i adore naveen (i love men who can dance) and his character development is magnificent ! eugene fitzherbert/flynn rider is tied for first as well (i need someone to look at me the way he looks at rapunzel out on the lake waahh)

i also ADORE milo thatch from atlantis <3

(dmitri also gets a shoutout)

6. Favorite villain

funny villains are my kryptonite! i love scar from lion king and hades from hercules hehe. yzma from emperors new groove is also way up there!

(rasputin tho!)

7. Favorite non royal Disney character *ie, Alice, Megara

charlotte or ray from princess and the frog ! i love charlotte so much and shes my top kinnie from the movie lololol but ray:’) i am evangeline and i need a ray :’)

8. Favorite animal

maximus ! cracks my shit UP

9. Favorite sidekick *good guy

mushu is my fav i love him (barring how the second movie trashed his character) ! hes so mf funnyyyy

olaf is so pure and loving i adore him

10. Favorite henchman *bad guy

gonna put kronk in this category - himbo king !!! but also shenzi, banzai, and ed (the hyenas from the lion king) sweet jesus theyre funny

(bartok !!)

this was so fun darlin thanks for the tag !! taggin @sparklekitteh @saoney & anyone who wants !

Disney animated favorites (1/3)

Disney favorites tag game!! (part 1/3)

Here it is! I hope this is okay! Tried to group similar questions together. Some things might be a little specific, will mention if it matters. Doesn't matter really, answer how you want! :)

First three are just an excuse to get to name more movies hehe!

1 Favorite pre renaissance Disney movie *anything before 1989

2 Favorite renaissance movie *1989 to 1999

3 Favorite post renaissance Disney movie *after 2000 or newer

4 Favorite princess *Including anyone who married into royalty

5 Favorite prince *Including anyone who married into royalty

6 Favorite villain

7 Favorite non royal Disney character *ie, Alice, Megara

8 Favorite animal

9 Favorite sidekick *good guy

10 Favorite henchman *bad guy

which is your favorite movie?!

Any details or whys you want to include go for it!

Hope you all have fun with this!

tagging: @smol-stone @dinaackerman @thesimpsstuff @holy-guacamoly @m-jelly @charlotteplsdosth @sckerman @ack3rlady @lucysarah-c @hauntedhousecat @jayteacups @galactict3a @levisbrat25 @levisbrat25 @notgoodforlife @mcjenkins19 @hashaneeee @nelapanela94 @starryenigma @levis-hazelnut @cookiefics @levi-supreme

everyone is tagged I just didn't know who wanted to do this! Let me know if you do or don't want to be tagged in the next one.. if your name is on here and you do this you are automatically tagged in the next one!

Check out below for my answers!

1 Favorite pre renaissance Disney movie *anything before 1989

Sleeping Beauty!

You know it wasn't my favorite for years and when I got a little older I loved the story and how pretty it is!

2 Favorite renaissance movie *1989 to 1999

The Little Mermaid!

Completely in love with everything in here

3 Favorite post renaissance Disney movie *after 2000 or newer

Tangled!

I watch this whenever it is on. Makes me laugh and smile and sing.

4 Favorite princess *Including anyone who married into royalty

Ariel or Belle!

Ugh this one is hard, I love them both really!

5 Favorite prince *Including anyone who married into royalty

Phillip!

The man fights a dragon for who he thinks is a peasant with the help of 3 fairies he doesn't know! Yes, please!

Honorable mention to Eric, who fights a sea witch for a mermaid with the help of a crab and a seagull.

6 Favorite villain

Maleficent!

The mistress of all evil, cursing a baby and a kingdom and literally invoking the powers of hell. Wow!

7 Favorite non royal Disney character *ie, Alice, Megara

Jane, from Tarzan

She's so adventurous and I love her accent and say "oh look, bananas!" in her voice when I'm at the grocery store lol!

Shout out to Nani who is trying to be a big sister and a parent to Lilo!

8 Favorite animal

Nala

I could probably name 8 more, but lioness power all the way!

9 Favorite sidekick *good guy/animal

Bagheera (Jungle Book) or Maximus (Tangled)

As a kid I loved Bagheera even though Jungle Book wasn't my favorite, as an adult Maximus acting like a dog is hilarious!

10 Favorite henchman *bad guy

Jasper and Horace from 101 Dalmatians

They're so funny and have to deal with that crazy Cruella!

Iago is high up there too!

[thoughtsandeverythingelse]

‘nah’

“nah,” he says, as he reaches out with a bag that contains a bag of egg tarts.  work hasnt been easy, but i think this is on me. i chose to go for this. i chose to want to learn, i chose to place these things on myself. it is on me. but nonetheless, im thankful for the guidance that has been placed - i truly appreciate it!  today at work a message came in. he texted, asking for a pint of ice cream, and if we could meet halfway for me to pass it to him.  honestly, i really wanted to ignore that message. i wanted to ignore because simply, i wanted to see him there. i wanted him to come in, to sit down. for me to have the opportunity to brew him a cup, for us to have a long conversation, or to do “ministry”, hahahha.  but i knew that wasnt going to happen. i knew that he was tired, and i wanted to respect that.  but unfortunately, work caught me. someone had a work place accident, and i had to OT. we would still meet granted, just on the condition that everything is pushed back. i didnt expect anything, was probably just slightly bummed out that i might be late for my night class.  ended work and i dropped a text -  me: just left ! (did this real quick as i was leaving, so that he might have time to prep that im otw even though i texted on such short notice)  him: you just left? me: yea  him: okay hang tight. i’d come find you  honestly, i was surprised - bc i totally did not expect this at all.  him: im at the back, at the carpark.  i walk towards the car and open the door. he asks, ‘have you eaten?’ me: nope  him: nah, here.  he puts his hand out, it was three egg tarts in a bag.  honestly, i did not expect that. i was lowkey a bit dying because i missed my meal, and i was thinking how i could have settled it then.  i go into the car, he shows me that he’s with his friends on zoom. this is strange, bc that means they can see that he’s in the car - which he might have to explain why.  he introduces me as usual, saying: sheila wants to say hi  i say hi to his friends, who at this rate - arent unfamiliar to me.  “hey sheila!” they say.  that felt slightly strange, because that meant that they would have known he was picking me up.  i casually put my seatbelt back on, he looks over and says, “i got say i want to send you home meh?”  knowingly, i know that he would. or at least, i would assume. but then again, in that moment, i truly second guessed. like oh shit, did i assume too much? then how should i reply him? so i played along and probably said something like ‘if u not sending me home then i go out now lor/then u come for what’ tbh, i dont remember hahaha.  but of course, i got a ride back home. im not sure if it was him of initiated, or i asked, but for some reason i only remember him saying, ‘eat.’  and me replying, ‘in the car?’  and him saying, ‘yea, that’s fine.”  i gobbled like two in like 10 mins. ahahhaha. i was too hungry oops. but that was so strange.  strange to be honest about receiving love.  strange to blatant about it.  strange to receive freely.  strange to assume that this is love.  strange to assume that he wanted to love me.  i mean, it could have been under the name of “picking the ice cream up”. (which i totally did not want him to pay, and he did bc of a miscom, and now i dont know whether to return the money or not)  but it felt strange to be on this other end. a part of me wants to second guess this whole thing, but i think i am trying to learn -  to learn to receive freely  and love freely. 

[documentinq]

7/21/17

Why do I always have such big gaps between posts lol I need to start posting more. I re read everything I posted and just really have to get this out there, ive loved a lot of people. But all of them have been different types of love, I don’t think ive ever actually been in love. I love my current boyfriend kevin but we’ve only been together 4 months and I know im going to be with him for the rest of my life so that love has room to grow in a healthy way. What scares me most about myself is my imagination. i have 2 different types of “love” ive felt. Group 1 consists of: Justus Carr, Noah Coombs, and Austin Mahone. Group 2 consists of: Michael, Dylon, and Kevin. I have loved 6 people, all in very different ways. Group 1 was me being in love with the idea of what could be/have been and group 2 was me loving the reality. Ive always had a vivid imagination and thats often whats set me back in relationships. My unrealistic expectations and fantisies overshadowed how i was being treated. I was so blinded by the possibilities of what we could be that i was incapable of focusing on what was right in front of me. The thing about being in love with an idea that nobody ever wants to admit is that its one of the most powerful loves you can feel, but its the loneliest because the person/relationship you want to be in love with doesnt even exist. Their empty promises and leading you on only makes you more interested. The chase makes you feel alive and you feel like if you cut it off you’ll miss out on this great big prize. But the truth is there is no pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, and that rainbow you’ve been chasing can’t even be touched, its nothing but a beautiful illusion. Justus was my first love, though it was all in my head it was the first time a boy had been able to make my heart drop just by him looking at me. I was only in 7th grade. He never knew how i felt about him because he was my friends older brother but I looked up to him so much and i tried so hard to be a better person simply because he inspired me to be so. Noah Coombs, hah. theres a tricky one. It pains me to say I still feel love for him but i almost want to make a separate category for this type of love. I know he never loved me back and never even understood why I felt the way I did but thats just how it is. I would never want to be with him in a million years because our past has been so toxic and hes a terrible person but ive always gotten the strangest feeling from the universe from him. I think one of the reasons ive always been so obsessed with him was because there were like a million coincidences that kept happening everytime i said i was done with him, as if God kept telling me nope he will never ever leave your life. He even moved to LA after I did hahahha but anyways, I was infactuated with the idea of what we could be and didnt even think i loved him until we “broke up” or whatever. His absesnce drove me insane and his games intrigued me with a passion. Like deadass I would choose kevin over noah anyday but I know I will never feel a love that intense and heartbreaking in my whole life but thats okay because only toxic loves can drive someone to a crazy love like that and its kind of cool knowing no one will ever be able to cause me as much pain as he did to my little 16 year old heart. Austin Mahone, haha another tricky one. We never met but I considered him my best friend for a while. But the fact we never met I think is what made me love him to an unhealthy degree. I was crazy over thinking of what we could be and how perfect he was. I was blinded by it but the truth is hes not perfect at all and i see it now with all the clarity in the world. He was my friend but when we were together he brought me down to make himself look better and i never felt good enough for him. He was litterally just another Dylan who went to church lmfao. I wish him the best and I know we will cross paths in the future but I am so thankful i didnt meet him or have sex with him. Im just glad that relationship ended because it was toxic as well. He just lead me on the whole time and was more in love with the chase than he was with me. Now lets talk about group 2, the type of love where at the time you feel like its gonna last forever. Michael was my best friend for a year and then we started dating but I got a feeling it was wrong so I just dropped it all of a sudden. Dylon, he was the type of love that was perfect for me at the time but also terrible for me at the time. terrible bc i was about to move across the country but perfect because i hadn’t had that type of relationship in a long time. he cared about me a lot but we were very different and there were so many things about him and our relationship that screamed to me he wasnt the right person for me, plus his anger issues were out of control. Now Kevin.... kevin is the type of love i wish i had with dylon. Like, I definetly loved dylon at the time but there were things missing with dylon that ive found with kevin. Kevin has the perfect sense of humor, hes trusting and caring, and so fucking attractive. The only doubts I have for our relationship is my fear of the future, what is he going to do for a career? I want him to pursue his passion as a comedian bc I have full faith in him, hes the funniest guy ive ever met.. but I dont know what his deal is. He has all these friends in the entertainment bussiness but isn’t making any moves. I want him to be successful but I don’t know how to talk to him about this without hurting his feelings. He isn’t where he should be in life, hes unemployed living in a frat house. I mean a lot of it is because of his mistakes in the past, hes had plenty of great opportunities come his way but he screwed all of them up with his drug addictions but hes so much better now and im just praying more opportunities will come his way. I love him and I want to support him but our relationship wont last if he doesn’t get his shit together, hes 25 and doesn’t even have his liscense bc he got it taken away bc of drunk driving a few years ago, and he can go and get it now from the dmv but he doesn’t even have the money rn to get a lisence. and i know his parents are rich and hes gonna get money from his family eventually but i don’t want that to be the only thing hes betting on? I want him to live up to his full potential and hes not doing drugs anymore but his past mistakes have set him back so much these struggles are taking a toll on him. and i know right now is the time he needs me most so obviously i wouldnt end things but where is the line where I need to cut things off? I want to start a life with this man, I want to move into a little studio appartment in LA just us two and me do my music shit and him do his comedy shit and it would be perfect. But I know im not doing perfect either, I’m broke as fuck too but im focusing on my music right now and once that kicks off theres no limits to how high im able to go. i’m also only 18... 18 and broke is not nearly as bad as 25 and broke. But the thing is I don’t want to talk to him about it because he KNOWS these problems hes depressed as fuck about all of this and he regrets all of his past mistakes but i dont know what hes doing to fix them like when he thinks of how to make money quick he just turns to illegal shit like selling drugs. I know he has great potential but when is enough enough? He treats me so well and I really do love him, I honestly havent vibed this hard with a guy since noah. literally. I know i said that before about dylon but i really do realize i just met him when i was in a very fragile state and clung onto him, but hes literal trash lol. Kevin is so different from anyone ive ever been with, hes honestly 10x better of a person for me than noah ever was and I do believe hes my soulmate which is why I need to stick with him through this hard time, he just needs prayer. I used to think Noah was my soulmate but I know thats not true now, what I do know is that the universe did make sure noah was a big influence in my life for some reason. I don’t know what that reason is right now but I know i’ll find out within the next few years lol. The song im recording rn i dedicated to my mom but i initially wrote the first few verses bc of kevin because i want him to make a change in his life. The song definelty applies to my mom more but it does apply to kevin as well. Its about how a person will never change for you and they have to want to change for themselves first before they will ever consider changing for anybody else. Kevin will never change his life for me, he has to want it for himself and I will continue to try and motivate him but I’m giving it till December, if Kevin isn’t financially stable enough to have his own place and doesn’t have a career I’m going to give him a break until he finds himself. his birthday is in January and being 26 and unemployed is so unnacceptable. Because love really isn’t always going to be enough to save a relationship.