#i was rlly young and struggling with mental illness/lacking acceptance from the people around me irl. he made me feel rlly accepted

[besarelcielo]

okay so i met both of them around the same time in like 2012-2013. i had quite a few mutuals with the first person on tumblr and we eventually ended up becoming mutuals too and then adding each other on a chat app and texting on there all the time. we got pretty close and opened up to each other quite a bit, but despite me constantly asking, he would never add me on skype or send audio messages or call me or anything. i gave him my phone number because i wanted to talk on the phone to solidify our friendship/know that he was a real person (i had at least skyped or got on voicechat with all of my online friends that i considered close to me at the time..we used to use tinychat to do group calls back then lmao). but he never texted or called from his phone number. looking back this was totally a red flag and such a catfish move especially since you can look people up by their phone number -_- so not only did we never text with our actual phone numbers, but i never heard his voice or video chatted with him. another thing that was catfish-like imo is that i had only ever seen like 5 photos of him total. a couple of selfies he had posted on his blog, and a couple of pics he sent me. i think some of the pics of him were also low quality. i know this was a time where cameras weren’t as powerful but it’s always a little off when someone sends u a pic of themselves and it’s blurry..like where did u screenshot this from lmao. also ofc there are people who don’t take pics of themselves much (i barely started taking/posting more pics of myself cause for awhile i just didn’t like the way that i looked at all) so he could’ve been that way…but that along with him never videochatting or letting me hear his voice just leads me to believe he was lying about his identity!! but we talked for awhile, i can’t remember if it was 6 months or a year since it was so long ago, but our friendship was rlly intimate like i think we would talk so much that we would say goodnight every single night almost. and we would talk about a lot of deep and personal things. he also introduced me to pierce the veil and chiodos and sleeping with sirens and other bands that could be identified as “scene music” hahaha and i ended up rlly loving that genre so we bonded over being emo hormonal teens together lmao. but then one day he deactivated his tumblr out of the blue. i think i tried to message him on the chat app but saw that he was deactivated. i was literally so upset about his disappearance like so disturbed and gutted because he gave me no warning. he was one of the people i felt closest to at the time so it was even more painful for me. i don’t recall how we ended up exchanging emails but i emailed him at this point asking what happened and he responded after several months. i can’t access all of the emails for some reason but im pretty sure i never got a real response as to why he disappeared…but it is common for catfishes to disappear bc they feel guilty and then resurface again so you know..that’s another red flag right? im pretty sure he just told me that he was going through a lot though he never told me what it was despite how much we had shared before. i just found a gmail chat between us where i said i wish we could video chat and his response was “nope u don’t need to see this trust me”…in one email he said he didn’t know how to attach things so he couldn’t send me any pics..get a grip girl!!! i accused him of being a catfish after he ghosted me and came back, and he said he was really offended i would insinuate that he’s a liar, because he really values honesty. but even after that he never provided proof that he was real. there were a few scattered emails between us until like 2015, and i was the last person to ever reach out after forgetting to respond for like a year. last year i was bored and emailed him to see if it would go through but i never got a response. so that’s pretty much the end of this saga. my other catfish story is a lot messier than this one tbh -_- i’ll type that one soon, i think it will be a shorter story.

Would you be willing to share the catfish story 👀

OMG i would love to sorry i took so long to answer this. i will type it out tonight i actually have two catfish stories so i’ll share both 😭