#i was reading SO MUCH at the beginning of january but i've kinda dropped off :(
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fic recs january 2021
hi guys!! okay so i got to thinking and i’ve seen a lot of these posts around so i made my own!! i think that fic rec masterposts are such a great way to support writers and get more people to have the chance of seeing fics!!! plus i’m leaving a bit of feedback too :))
if you know of any fics that you’d like to share a little love on / you’d like me to read so that i can reblog and give it a little love, send me an ask with the title and the author’s url!!!
so here it is, all the fics that i read in january 2021 (and the very end of december but i’m including them anyway)
total number of fics listed: 92 (series counted as a single piece)
@moonchildstyles
aster / tattoo artist harry aster | daffodil | sweet pea | gardenia | poppy
i read this entire series at like 8 am after not sleeping the night before and oh my god i was literally so soft!! like this is so fucking cute i literally felt like i was going to throw up the entire time (in the best way yk) like omg the butterflies i got from this series? unmatched. also, i feel that it’s necessary to add the part of this that made my heart absolutely explode: Harry’s thumb stroked her jawline, a smile molding his features. “Y’not a baby love, unless you want to be my baby. And I like you a lot, too. And stuff. like okay kill me <3
citrine / witch harry citrine | opal | lepidolite | sodalite | carnelian | angelite
alright so h is literally so sweet in this one!! he’s so gentle and lovely and i truly fell in love with him in the very first few paragraphs. and he’s so out of tune with everything but he’s trying his best to understand and just... sigh. “I’d look forever for you, if I had to.” love love love this line so much it’s literally the perfect way to tie everything together
chiaroscuro / vampire harry chiaroscuro | sfumato | craquelore | non finito | fresco | renaissance
this is very creepy during the first chapter but in such a good way!!! i literally found myself gasping and i barely ever vocally react to a fic unless i am squealing at the fluff or crying but i vocally react to lindsee’s fics literally they are so good pleaseee. and omg the growth throughout this fic truly is impeccable i swear.
@gucciwins
adore you
okay this is so cute!!! loved every single word of it!!! there was a bit of angst at the very beginning that had my heart hurting but it was all mended by the end!!! the dad!harry content was absolutely immaculate omg i literally loved reading about atticus!!!!! i absolutely love long pieces and i think that this piece was the perfect length!! there were so many things that were packed in there but it didn’t seem rushed or jumbled or anything like that!!!!
@soysauceharry
watashi no sakura
okay first things first, i love japanrry in any form so i knew just by looking at the description that i was going to love this regardless of what was in it. to be honest i didn’t expect him to have a penny board that he used to get everywhere but there’s something so cute about that to me. throughout this entire fic, i was so amazed at the way that their relationship moved along so naturally and at such a good pace. i feel like there’s an art to making things move along at the right pace, and you definitely have that down!! i truly loved this fic so much and will probably be coming back at times to reread!
@havethetimeofyourstyles
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i am very in love with this!!! boxer!h is so freaking yummy plus it’s so well written that i can feel everything, which is so amazing. i love that i’m able to feel all the emotions and picture everything while reading!! my heart broke a bit for harry while he was sad and just looking for love in any way he could find it. like mega sigh. also, i love the way that the characters are introduced. like, y/n doesn’t come at the very beginning but it’s so natural when she’s finally introduced. and omg the interactions that they had??? the reassurances??? *chef’s kiss*
baby, it’s cold outside
before i even started reading this, i knew i would love it!!! teacher!h has a special place in my heart for some reason i truly love him so much!! oh my god the yearning in this piece is so heartbreaking!!!! i literally read through the entire thing thinking that i was going to cry because of how much i could feel y/n and harry yearning for each other. sigh this is so cute i will definitely be rereading (most likely multiple times)
bright & blooming
ahhh this is literally so cute i live for the long distance friendships + only seeing each other over the summer!!! that is literally so amazing to me that you love someone that much to wait all year to only see them for a month!!! and this was such a good representation of the love and yearning that come with that!!! and i absolutely adore the way that you described each of them and their nicknames for each other!!!! love love love!!!
where the world takes you
this is my study abroad dream!!!!! the loveliness of them meeting and drunk!harry is just so sweet i love it so much!!! and the way that the flashback is in the middle and explains everything is so genius!!! and the full circle of it all makes me so happy!!! also the way that i cried at the end of the four months!! like that was heartbreaking but everything was pieced back together as it went along!!!
extra credit
this is prof!h so you know it’s great!!! i am such a sucker for this au i swear. this was so cute!! the way that everything progressed and the confession and the tension!!!! and then the “Yours.” at that one part had me screaming!!! and the way that he literally had a plan oh my god that’s so cute!!!! i love their dynamic so much!!!
deep sleep
this is so :) :( :) :( if that makes sense!! like i love love love dad!harry but there are just a few things that make me want to sob <3 i absolutely adore it though!!!!! it’s very sweet how mr. styles comes out here comforting as he should!!!!
beautiful inside & out
this is so sweet oh my god it’s beautifully written and i really felt everything that was going on!! personally, i’m not a person of color, but i think that this piece truly was written so wonderfully and it’s very lovely!!!! the insecurities made me literally want to cry, but the way that h was there to comfort was very nice, it made me so soft!!
admiring
this is so sweet!! the background snippet in there is so well done i love getting to know exactly how they met!!! and the way that harry’s being admired is just!!! so good!!!! like i love the descriptions and the feelings connected to that!!!! the entire thing is just so cute!!
for your eyes only
i shed tears reading this!! like it is so sad but also so happy!! i know that makes no sense but there was just a sense of my heart breaking and then it being put back together again and i love that!!! definitely a fantastic use of ‘if i could fly’ which is one of my fav one direction songs so that’s just a plus honestly!!!
@greenorangevioletgrass
to feel good
miss ava!!!! coming out strong with your first harry fic!!!! it’s so lovely, so pure, so sweet!!!! the memories that are included make everything that much better!!! the flashback really fills out everything nicely!!! the interaction that the two of them had at the end was so comforting to read like... that’s literally one of the most wonderful endings i’ve ever experienced on a fic like this!!!
@adashofniallandasprinkleoflunacy
demon!harry angel!y/n - a total of 51 blurbs, drabbles, and one-shots demon!y/n - a total of 8 blurbs, drabbles, and one-shots
yeah okay so there are...... a lot of things here so i’ll do a demon!harry + angel!y/n feedback thingy and a different one for demon!harry + demon!y/n demon!harry + angel!y/n: he’s such an asshole but he’s... already kinda turning soft like... he’s already got the little simp showing through!! “ When it comes to love, if it doesn’t hurt, it isn’t fun.” i’ll cry right here right now what the fuck is this?? sigh. “Tell me…” He gulps thickly, licking his burning lips in anticipation, “tell me you want me. Tell me this— whatever this is— tell me it’s real.” yeah that made me almost scream literally shut up andrea. also not me reading this and literally sobbing at some of the pieces like... no <3 “I promise on my soul— as damned as it may be— that I will not let anything bad happen to you. I swear.” i literally want to set myself on fire what the hell the things your brain comes up with literally what the fuck. i literally read all 51 pieces in a day and cried a million times but they were just because i’m soft for simprry. demon!harry + demon!y/n: okay so i am writing this after i’ve read the first two pieces and.... that escalated quite quickly i would say!!! if you like smut, you’ll like this!!!!!! if you like smut just go to andrea she’s got you!!!!! and we see some more simprry but not full swing because he doesn’t want to admit that he’s wrapped around her finger!!! and the way they’re not exclusive but they’re each other’s? *chef’s kiss*
@jawllines
harry is the bad boy cliché of y/n’s dreams, she just doesn’t know it yet
this is so very sweet, so very soft!! all the pet names have me crying omg it’s literally one of the cutest things!!!! the way harry is so soft for her and he’s just so sweet and so obvious about his feelings even though she doesn’t completely see it is so sweet!!!!
harry’s a porn star and y/n is new
i love their dynamic here!! they automatically click and everything between them is so genuine and lovely!!! the way that they care about each other so immensely even though they haven’t known each other that long is so beautiful!!
harry is y/n’s dominant
okay obviously this is like... smut but it’s so much more than that!!! their relationship is so sweet and lowkey domestic even from the very beginning and i love the trust that they have in each other!!! very cute!! and the ending was so so perfect!!!
y/n works in a roller rink and harry goes there to read
literally so sweet!!! the shy, kinda introverted h is to ide for!!!! and the way that they’re so cute together ahhh!!!!!! and i absolutely love the way that they support each other and are falling for each other before they even admit that they are!!!!
harry’s a vampire and y/n never dresses for the weather
i love how when they met it wasn’t on great terms and he couldn’t get her off his mind so he was like “no, stay away!” but he was already so whipped for her and then!!!! when he asked how to be warm for her??? that made me so soft i literally thought i was going to cry.
harry and y/n are best friends and y/n isn’t his “type” (or so she’s heard)
this is so absolutely soft!!! they’re so whipped for each other and don’t even know it!!! and miss y/n hearing things made my heart break but all was well at the end!!! love love love!!! the entire dynamic that they have is so fun plus there were peeks of jealous h so that’s always a win!!!
y/n and harry don’t really mesh well, until they do
we love a bit of an enemies to lovers moment!! and the whole “y/n’s being a good friend to jeff, that’s it” and the tension and the drunk cuteness and literally all of it, it’s so wonderful!! harry being a softie is one of my weaknesses and although he’s a bit mean at first, he redeems himself!!
harry’s on the football team and y/n steals a dog
this is absolutely so cute!!! y/n has such a beautiful little personality and harry feeling things with her even though his “reputation” is different than hanging out with people like her is so great!! and the way that he takes up for her and the way that she comforts him is so lovely!!
harry is y/n’s grumpy neighbor and he has a secret part 2
this is actually the second time that i’ve read this fic tbh!! it’s just so good!! the dynamic of him trying to stay away from her because it’s dangerous for her to be too close to him and then him trying even harder to stay away from her and hide his feelings only for her to make a move is golden.
y/n pretends to be harry’s girlfriend
okay this one hurt a bit at first. i wanted to flick h in the forehead at first for trying to make someone else jealous with y/n but he redeemed himself as he does so i shall let him off the hook this time haha. i think that the way that they progress is so sweet plus!!! everyone loves a good fake dating au!!!
werewolves exist... pt. 2
this is the first werewolf au i’ve read in a while and it’s actually really good!! i love how everything progressed and the way that harry was like.... this isn’t supposed to happen like this!!!! it’s all very cute and it’s very enemies to lovers-esque even though they aren’t enemies lmao
y/n delivers sweets and harry lives on the side of a mountain
this made me so sad tbh like... the fact that they treated harry so bad just because they judged him before they know him makes me so sad and i really wanted to punch some people but it’s a fictional universe so i can’t actually do that lol. but the way that y/n was with him made me so soft i really love this piece
y/n is on harry’s tour crew and harry just think’s she’s lovely
y/n is so sweet in this piece!!! it makes my heart hurt when harry gets overwhelmed and snaps but thankfully everything is well in the end and he gets his act together so that he can realize what is truly important!!!
harry is y/n’s criminology instructor part 2
this dynamic is an automatic yes and that’s on my love for this au. anyway, the way that he was like “it’s just a kiss” made me absolutely want to scream but i didn’t and thankfully i didn’t write him off as a prick because he’s actually so sweet and he takes care of her and loves her and just... he’s everything.
harry used y/n as a model for his art final
i wanted to smack harry upside the head so hard when he kept talking about his crush when y/n just wanted a good partner. thankfully he finally saw the light and realized that the only thing he wants is y/n by his side because y/n is there for him and cares about him and loves him
#fic recs#harry styles#harry styles writing#harry styles fluff#harry styles angst#harry styles smut#i was reading SO MUCH at the beginning of january but i've kinda dropped off :(#i'm hoping to read more this upcoming month though!!#i have three fics that i want to read before i go to bed but they'll be on the next list :)
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Tough Love
After what happened to Sammy's girlfriend we decided to pay our respects to her. I could hear the birds chirping as Sam, who is wearing a suit and tie, holds a bouquet of various flowers excluding roses. Me and Dean watched from afar as he walks through an otherwise deserted cemetery. From what I could see Sam sighs and stops next to a gravestone. It reads "Jessica Lee Moore, Beloved Daughter, January 24th 1984 - November 2nd 2005."
"How did she die?" I ask Dean, after a few minutes of silence.
"....She died in a fire."
"I know that...but what caused it?"
"A demon...the same one that killed our mother."
".....I'm sorry....." Dean glances over at me and puts an arm around my shoulder.
"You have nothing to be sorry about....besides, we'll get the son of a bitch." I give him a small smile, then focus back on Sam. I spot a small picture of Jessica grinning that's set into the stone above her name, then a black-and-white picture of her leaning against the stone between a white teddy bear and a wooden box with a crucifix leaning on the picture. Sam looks between the gravestone and the flowers. "I, uh..." I heard Sam laugh. "You always said roses were, were lame, so I brought you, uh..." Sam looks at the picture set into the gravestone, then looks away, choking back tears. He steps closer to the gravestone. "Jess...oh God..." Sam kneels to set down the flowers. "I should have protected you. I should have told you the truth."
I look over at Dean who is just staring at him. Pain was shown across his features, I could tell Dean did not wanna watch this. After Sam put flowers on his girlfriends grave, we went back on the road again. I was sitting in the back while the boys were in the front. Sam was asleep, at least until he jerked awake and sighs as he hears "Hot-Blooded" is playing. Sam rubs his eyes and Dean looks over, concerned.
"You okay?" I questioned, Sam glances back and then away.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"Nightmare?" Dean chimes in, Sam clears his throat, signaling he doesn't wanna talk about it.
"You wanna drive for a while?" Sam laughs.
"Dean, your whole life you never once asked me that." I grin and lean forward.
"Hold on, so you've never driven the impala?"
"No, but it's ok. I'll be able to drive it one day." Dean glances over at Sam.
"Yea, still gonna kill you for that little stunt Sammy, letting her drive baby into a house. But uh....I just thought you might want to....Never mind."
"Look, guys, you're worried about me." Sam replies "I get it, and thank you, but I'm perfectly okay."
"Mm-hm." Dean agrees knowing Sams not okay, Sam grabs a map.
"All right, where are we?"
"We are just outside of Grand Junction I believe." I say. Sam folds down the map, which is of Colorado and has a large red X labeled 35-111.
"You know what? Maybe we shouldn't have left Stanford so soon." Sam admits.
"Sam, we dug around there for a week. We came up with nothing. If you wanna find the thing that killed Jessica-"
"We gotta find Dad first." Sam interrupted Dean.
"Not to be nosy but...you still didn't tell me how she died?" I ask.
"Y/n now's not the time." Dean says while looking at me through the mirror.
"....Jess, my girlfriend died stuck to the ceiling with a stab wound in her stomach while being burned.....She was killed by the demon that killed my mother."
"How can a monster be capable of something like that?"
"I don't know, but our mother's death was the whole reason dad started training us."
"Yea..which your dad kinda helped ours with the whole 'how to kill monsters' thing." Dean smiled. "If it wasn't for Y/D/N, Dad would've probably been dead by now." Sam nods in agreement.
"So..with your dad disappearing and this thing showing up again after so many years, it's no coincidence. That's for sure." I pointed out.
"Dad will have answers. He'll know what to do."
"It's weird, these coordinates he left us. This Blackwater Ridge." Sam replies.
"What about it?" Dean asked.
"There's nothing there. It's just woods." Sam puts down the map. "Why is he sending us to the middle of nowhere?"
"Sam it's not the place, it's the monster. Just like in Jericho there could be a monster we have to fight, right Dean?" However Dean stays silent and just keeps driving. For the next few hours no one says anything. I decided since it was quiet that I could get some shut eye and after a few minutes I fell asleep with my cheek planted against the window.
~
When I wake up, the Impala comes to a stop and is parked next to a sign that says "RANGER STATION Lost Creek Trail, Lost Creek National Forest". I follow the boys out of the car, still tired. Sam smiles at me "How did you sleep?" He asks.
"Fine, I guess."
"I think you slept more than the both of us combined." Dean jokes.
"Well see if someone would let me drive-."
"Nope never again!" Sam laughs at our little feud and we keep walking.
"So Blackwater Ridge is pretty remote." Sam says as he looks at a 3D map of the national forest, paying particular attention to the ridge labeled "BLACKWATER RIDGE" as Dean looks at the decorations. "It's cut off by these canyons here, rough terrain, dense forest, abandoned silver and gold mines all over the place."
"Dude, check out the size of this freaking bear." Dean fantasizes, me and Sam look over. Dean is looking at a framed photo of a man standing behind a much larger bear. Me and Sam go to stand next to Dean.
"Eh I've seen bigger bears." I say.
"There's no way." Dean says.
"My dad used to take me hunting, it was part of my training." I laugh. "I took down my first grizzly when I was nine."
"Well there's a dozen or more grizzlies in the area. It's no nature hike, that's for sure, at least we have an expert with us." Sam says, I just roll my eyes. A forest ranger, walks up to us when he speaks, the three of us whip around.
"Y'all aren't planning on going out near Blackwater Ridge by any chance?" The ranger wonders.
"Oh, no, sir, we're environmental study majors from UC Boulder, just working on a paper." Sam laughs a little. Dean grins and raises a fist.
"Recycle, man." Sam's eyes flick to Dean, who doesn't move.
"You're friends with that Haley girl, right?" The ranger asks, Dean considers.
"Yes. Yes, we are, Ranger-" Dean checks the ranger's nametag. "-Wilkinson."
"Well I will tell you exactly what we told her. Her brother filled out a backcountry permit saying he wouldn't be back from Blackwater until the twenty-fourth, so it's not exactly a missing persons now, is it?" Dean shakes his head. "You tell that girl to quit worrying, I'm sure her brother's just fine.".
"We will. Well that Haley girl's quite a pistol, huh?"
"That is putting it mildly."
"Actually you know what would help is if I could show her a copy of that backcountry permit. You know, so she could see her brother's return date." Dean suggests and Wilkinson eyes Dean as Dean raises his eyebrows. After we get the permit we leave the ranger station. Dean is holding a piece of paper and laughing.
"What, are you cruising for a hookup or something?" Sam jokes.
"What do you mean?"
"The coordinates point to Blackwater Ridge, so what are we waiting for? Let's just go find Dad. I mean, why even talk to this girl?" The boys stop on opposite sides of the Impala.
"Maybe we should know what we're walking into before we actually walk into it?" I suggest.
"Pretty smart." Dean agrees.
"Since when are you all shoot first ask questions later, anyway?" Sam wonders.
"Since now." I laugh as me and Sam get in the car
"Really?" I hear Dean say and he gets in as well.
"Could you guys drop me off at the metro store? I need a new phone." I ask.
"No need." Dean smirks at me, and goes through the glove box. Then he leans back and hands me a small flip phone. "There, so you can call us if you get in trouble."
"Thanks..." I take it from him but sigh in sadness, I miss my dad, I thought.
"What is it?" Sam worries.
"I just miss my dad...I mean I left him a letter telling him I was ok but..."
"Hey, cheer up, you'll get to see him soon. Besides everyday we get closer to dad, you'll see him before you know it." Dean smiles and begins to drive away.
Deans Pov-
After we got to the motel, I asked Y/n if she wanted her own room, she just shrugged and said she didn't care. So I originally planned on getting her own room but in all honesty...I don't want her to die like Jessica. So we got a two bed room, she'd have to sleep with one of us. I put my duffel bag on my bed and sigh, Sam does the same. Y/n was outside calling her dad, letting him know she was ok but she had a time limit so he wouldn't track us.
"We'll isn't this place homey." I comment.
"Yeah...so what do you think of Y/n?" Sam asks.
"I've gotta be honest..She's not suited for this."
"C'mon she isn't that bad."
"Are you kidding? Sure she's smart, and pretty, and helpful..." I smiled to myself, lately I've been having weird feelings around her. "She's...badass."
"Dean, kinda getting off topic."
"Right uh, sorry. Anyways, she's never done this before, I don't think she's ready for this."
"Her dad trained her for this, just like our dad trained us. She maybe haven't done this before but she's been a lot of help. When we were facing Constance, if it wasn't for her I would have probably died."
"She's reckless, she drove baby through the side of a house."
"It was the only way to stop her! I probably would've done the same thing."
"What about the dent that suddenly appeared while we were at the bridge?"
"That was Constance-"
"No, if it was Constance then Y/n would have gotten hit. That....That was something entirely different, and besides that she didn't even talk to us for an entire three hours."
"She was scared-"
"We don't have time to be scared!"
"Dean that was her first hunt, look she did pretty well in the end."
"Yeah well...."
"Well what?"
"We have to take her home...."
"Dean come on."
"No!" I stand up and point a finger at him. "You were the one who was angry at me for bringing her into this. Now that I want to take her out your upset?"
"...I-I...Why don't we let her stay a while longer?"
"Why?"
"Dean she was gonna learn about this sooner or later, might as well be now. And if she wasn't here we would still be stuck in Jericho. How bout this, if she gets hurt or acts immature we'll take her home but for now she stays." I stayed silent, thinking about my next move. Should I really let her stay? What if she gets hurt or even worse...dies. My thoughts were interrupted when I heard the door open and close, quickly I put a smile on my face and turned to Y/n. Although she wasn't smiling, she was....heartbroken.
"Y-Y/n?" I called out, and with those sad E/C eyes, she looks at me.
"....I'm no longer welcome home."
Y/n's Pov-
*10 minutes earlier*
This was it, the moment I would call my dad after almost a week. Slowly I pressed in the numbers and the phone began to ring as I put it up to my ear.
"Hello?" A gruff voice said, it was dad, my dad. He seemed sad, and instantly I was filled with regret.
"Hey dad...."
"Y/n!? Where are you?!"
"I'm safe dad....it's ok."
"No it's not ok, me and your mother have been worried sick! If I find you with Dean-"
"Dad please I'm just help-"
"No don't give me that bullshit, you are just being rebellious because I was strict on you."
"No I'm doing this because you wouldn't help Dean find John!"
"I only said no because I don't trust Winchesters! And neither should you! They only care about themselves, not anyone else. Everyone they know dies around them!"
"I haven't died-"
"Which is a miracle, but it's only a matter of time. You better come home this instance or I'm sending out a missing person's add. And when they find you with a twenty-six year old man-"
"Your bluffing, even if you did that they would escape."
"Your not safe Y/n-"
"I never was! No one is every safe in this world! Besides you were training me for hunting my entire life so what's the big deal?!"
"Your only seventeen that's the big deal!"
"Well I'm not going home unless they make me."
"They? Who-Please don't tell me John is there!"
"No it's not John, it's Sam."
"Sam? You mean Sam from Stanford? That's even worse! Y/n you have to get out of there! Something...Something is wrong with that boy!"
"There is nothing wrong with him or Dean, I'm staying here whether you like it or not."
"Then you better stay gone cause I'm tired of a disobedient brat like you! If you don't come home right now I-I'll disown you!" Those words, we're like knives, they went straight into my heart. Tears ran down my cheeks as I realized....I would never be able to go home...
".....Wow.." I say after a minute, "...you say you don't trust the Winchester's, more specifically John....but your just like him." And with that I hung up, what else was there to say? If dad wasn't gonna support me helping someone in need then...there's no point of going home. I have to finish what I started, silently I entered the motel room. I could feel the boy's staring at me.
"Y-Y/n?.." Dean called out, slowly I meet his gaze and say "....I'm no longer welcome home."
~
"What do you mean no longer welcome home?" Sam questioned, for the last ten minutes I had been crying my heart out in Dean's chest. I told him how the conversation played out, and by the end both of them were furious.
"I knew Y/D/N had a little anger issues, but to go that far?....That's just low." Dean said.
"Don't worry Y/n...you'll always have a home with us." Sam soothed, making me smile.
"Thanks guys....for the record, if I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't change my decision."
"Well I'm glad." Dean smiled and kissed me on the forehead, making me instantly blush. "Cause I wouldn't want you to change it either." No one said anything after that, we just continued with our mission. Later after we got settled in our motel, we drive to the girls house. We stand at the door and it opens to reveal Haley Collins.
"You must be Haley Collins. I'm Dean, this is Sam and Y/n, we're, ah, we're rangers with the Park Service. Ranger Wilkinson sent us over. He wanted us to ask a few questions about your brother Tommy." Haley hesitates.
"Lemme see some ID." She says. Sam pulls out his fake ID with the name 'Samuel Cole' and held it up against the screen. Haley looks at it, then at me and Dean, then opens the door.
"Come on in."
"Thanks." The door swings open as Haley catches sight of the Impala.
"That yours?" She asks.
"Yeah." Dean says proudly, Sam looks back at the Impala.
"Nice car." Haley leads us into the kitchen, where a boy is sitting at the table on a laptop. Dean turns his head to mouth something to Sam, who rolls his eyes. We show her the permit but she just scoffs and leaves the kitchen.
"So if Tommy's not due back for a while, how do you know something's wrong?" Sam asks. Haley comes back into the room with a bowl she places on the table. "He checks in every day by cell. He emails, photos, stupid little videos-we haven't heard anything in over three days now." She answers.
"Well, maybe he can't get cell reception."
"He's got a satellite phone, too."
"Could it be he's just having fun and forgot to check in? Maybe it dropped in the lake or something." I say.
"He wouldn't do that." The boy at the table says, I eye him, but he looks away. Haley comes back putting more food on the table and says. "Our parents are gone. It's just my two brothers and me. We all keep pretty close tabs on each other."
"Can I see the pictures he sent you?" Sam asks.
"Yeah." On the laptop, she pulls up pictures.
"That's Tommy." She clicks twice and another picture comes up, then the still frame opening the latest video.
"Hey Haley, day six, we're still out near Blackwater Ridge. We're fine, keeping safe, so don't worry, okay? Talk to you tomorrow." I spot something on the video however, it was like a shadow.
"Well, we'll find your brother. We're heading out to Blackwater Ridge first thing." Dean smiles.
"Then maybe I'll see you there. Look, I can't sit around here anymore. So I hired a guy. I'm heading out in the morning, and I'm gonna find Tommy myself." Hayley confessed.
"I think I know how you feel."
"Hey, do you mind forwarding these to me?" Sammy asks.
"Sure." We smile and leave, departing from them.
~
After the meeting with Haley, we decided to go to the bar, after I got a fake ID. Now I was Y/n Dixon, a twenty-five year old female. The three of us were sitting down at a table.
"So, Blackwater Ridge doesn't get a lot of traffic. Local campers, mostly. But still, this past April, two hikers went missing out there. They were never found." I mention as I was using Sam's laptop, he told me I'd probably get better luck if I'd try to find information. Sam was opening John's journal, searching it for clues.
"Any before that?" Dean asks.
"Yeah, in 1982, eight different people all vanished in the same year. Authorities said it was a grizzly attack. And again in 1959 and again before that in 1936. So every twenty-three years, this thing comes out. Okay so since Haley sent Sam the video, watch this." I put the laptop where both of the boys can see go through three frames of the video one at a time. A dark shadow, like the one I saw earlier crosses the screen.
"Do it again." Dean says. I repeat the frames.
"That's three frames, a fraction of a second. Whatever that thing is, it can move."
Dean hits Sam.
"Told you something weird was going on."
"Yeah you were right." Sam smiles.
"The only thing that I know that can move that fast is a werewolf." I state.
"That's what I thought to." Sam says. "However I got one more thing." Sam hands over a newspaper article. "In 'fifty-nine one camper survived this supposed grizzly attack. Just a kid. Barely crawled out of the woods alive." I nod and the hand it to Dean who looks at newspaper.
"Is there a name? Uh...Oh here, Mr. Shaw." Dean reads.
"So then we go talk to him now, right?' I ask.
"That should be the plan." Sammy says.
"Ok what's up with your hair?" Dean asks.
"What?.."
"It was just H/C now it's yellow, is it like some kind of special hair dye?" I grab a lock of my hair, and he was right, it was bright yellow.
"No I haven't dyed my hair since I was fifteen."
"Ok something is definitely going on with you. First dad mentions you, then you somehow put a dent in my car without touching it and now your hair is yellow." The moment he said that my hair changed to purple.
"See there it goes again!"
"I...I don't know." My heart starts beating faster by the second, what's happening to me me?
"Dean I think you scaring her. Maybe we should call Y/D/N.." Sam suggests but Dean shakes his head.
"No screw that guy, look we'll figure it out. For now try to...keep it one color."
"You think I have control over this?"
"Maybe it's connected to your emotions?" Sam says grabbing his laptop and starts typing.
"W-What are you doing?"
"Keeping notes. Maybe if we keep track of what's happening to you then we can figure out what's going on. So purple is fear, then that would mean yellow is joy and when your hair is H/C it means you are experiencing no emotions."
"Well, other than this magical weird...stuff. What now?"
"To the store, we need to get you a business suit, then to Mr. Shaw." Dean says.
"A business suit? What for?" I wonder, but Dean only smirks.
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Finding the perfect suit was hard, it wasn't until I walked out of the dressing room for the 5th time. This time both of the boys smiled, and Dean looked away blushing a bit. It was like a coat that went halfway down my thigh, however you could see my cleavage a little bit.
"How bout this one?" I ask.
"Y-Yea yea, that's good. Nice and formal." Dean stutters.
"Good, now I guess we buy this and then we can be on our way."
After we bought the suit, we went to go see Mr. Shaw. He talks to the three of us while leading us inside his house. He has a cigarette in his mouth, I coughed a little from the smoke.
"Look, ranger, I don't know why you're asking me about this. It's public record. I was a kid. My parents got mauled by a-" Sam interrupts.
"Grizzly? That's what attacked them?" Shaw takes a puff of his cigarette, takes it out, and nods.
"The other people that went missing that year, those bear attacks too?" The room went quiet. "What about all the people that went missing this year? Same thing? If we knew what we were dealing with, we might be able to stop it." Dean says.
"I seriously doubt that. Anyways, I don't see what difference it would make." Mr. Shaw sits down with a sad look on his face. "You wouldn't believe me. Nobody ever did...."
"Try me."
"I said no and that's final." He huffed, I knew he wasn't gonna tell us. I hesitantly sit down across from him.
"Mr. Shaw, what did you see?...I know you think we won't believe you but your our last resort. If you help us, I promise you we will get revenge for your parents." He looks at me like I was lyin, but sighs in defeat.
"Nothing. It moved too fast to see. It hid too well. I heard it, though. A roar. Like...no man or animal I ever heard."
"It came at night?" Shaw nods. "Got inside your tent?"
"It got inside our cabin. I was sleeping in front of the fireplace when it came in. It didn't smash a window or break the door. It unlocked it. Do you know of a bear that could do something like that? I didn't even wake up till I heard my parents screaming."
"It killed them?"
"Dragged them off into the night." He shakes his head. "Why it left me alive...been asking myself that ever since." Shaw's hands go to his collar. "Did leave me this, though." He opens his collar to reveal three long scars. Claw marks. Sam and Dean look at them. "There's something evil in those woods. It was some sort of a demon."
~
The three of us walk the length of a corridor with rooms on either side. "Spirits and demons don't have to unlock doors. If they want inside, they just go through the walls." Dean says.
"So it's probably something else, something corporeal." I state.
"Corporeal? Excuse me, professor."
"So what do you think?" Sam chimes in.
"The claws, the speed that it moves...could be a skinwalker, maybe a black dog"
"No it looked more human...what about a Wendigo? I don't know. I can do some research when we get to where ever were goin next." I offered.
"Where were goin next is our motel." Dean says. We drove back to motel, and I get out of the car as Dean opens the trunk of the Impala, then the weapons box, and props it open with a shotgun. He puts some guns in a duffel bag as Sam leans in.
"We cannot let that Haley girl go out there."
"Oh yeah? What are we gonna tell her? That she can't go into the woods because of a big scary monster?"
"Yeah." Dean looks at Sam.
"I may not know much about monsters Sam but that is probably the most stupidest idea." I intervene. "Besides her brother's missing, Sam. She's not gonna just sit this out."
"Then we go with her, we protect her, and we keep our eyes peeled for our fuzzy predator friend." Dean says picking up the duffel.
"Finding Dad's not enough?" Sam slams the weapons box shut, then the trunk. "Now we gotta babysit too?" Dean stares at Sam in annoyance.
"What?"
"Nothing." He throws the duffel bag at Sam and walks off. I follow in pursuit, when I walk through the door Dean looks at me and Sam who is behind me.
"So Y/n, you have to sleep with one of us tonight since there's only two beds."
"She can sleep with me." Sam offered.
"Well I mean it's up to her."
"I don't care, you two do rock, paper, scissors shoe whoever wins gets the bed to themselves."
"Alright seems fair enough." Dean says and holds out his hand in the formation. Sam rolls his eyes and throws the duffel bag onto one of the bed then gets into formation.
"Ok one, two, three!" I count down and both of them go, Dean chose rock while Sam chose paper. Dean smiles but quickly hides it and enters the bathroom.
"Is it just me or is he happy that he lost?" I ask making Sam shake his head.
"That's a first, though if he tries anything let me know. I'll let you sleep with me."
"Eh if he tries anything I'll break his hand." Sam chuckles.
"That's our girl."
~
Later that night all three of us was in bed. I couldn't sleep though, I still kept hearing my dad's words over and over. "I'll disown you", how could he say something like that to me? Tears began to form, I cover my mouth trying to keep quiet but Dean heard me.
"Y/n?" He quietly calls out. "You ok?"
"Y-Yeah...."
"Is this about your dad?...." Slowly I nod and Dean pulls me closer.
"It's gonna be ok, ok? He didn't mean it, he probably just said that so you'd come home....if you ever wanna...don't hesitate."
"But you said once I'm in this-"
"And I was wrong, your just a kid, you don't deserve this life...." I could hear the sadness in his voice, I look up at him. Those big green eyes stare down at me, making me smile.
"Neither do you...."
"...It'll be ok, I promise." He gently puts a hand on my cheek and caresses it with his thumb. I felt that urge, I wanted to kiss him, it was the perfect moment. It was like a moment in a movie where everyone is waiting for that kiss, waiting for the love to blossom. I slowly lean in, while staring into those beautiful forest green eyes. He doesn't move, which makes me nervous and my hair turns purple.
"Why are you scared?" He asked. "Was it something I said?"
"No I just....No it wasn't you....well I guess I'll let you sleep. Goodnight Dean." Quickly I move so I'm facing away from him, my cheeks are burning. Did I really just try to kiss Dean?
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I think I'm ready to talk about this now, so here goes (apologies in advance, this is going to be very long and I can never get read more to work on mobile):
Started out my day with my car starting to make a weird sound on the highway. Just kept praying, "Please let me make it to the office. I don't even need to make it home, I just need to make it there." Surprisingly, I did! Turns out I got a HUGE screw thing embedded in my tire. Somehow, it had not gone flat at all, so I called the car shop and made an appointment to have them attempt to patch the tire on Monday (earliest they could fit me in). I just bought new tires in January, so it's going to REALLY be a stab to the soul if I have to buy a new one again, especially after dropping $400+ on my brakes just last weekend (yikes)!
Realized that meant I was going to miss the clinical research meeting that I so look forward to each month - and yes, I could call into it remotely, but it's not the same (harder to participate, plus I'm trying to pull one of my friends into it, because I've been helping her with some research lately). I'm already disappointed because I wanted to start my own research project and for a couple reasons, decided to hold off announcing that until at least the May meeting. Got really upset about this.
However, I asked one of my coworkers if I'd potentially be able to get a ride in with her if I could take the bus in the morning to meet her closer to her house - she lives not far from me, but I am not on her way in - and she offered to just pick me up when I dropped my car off at the shop Sunday night and have me sleep over. I work with the BEST people, and this friend is just supportive to her core, so yeah, really grateful for that!
In the meantime, work just got progressively more upsetting throughout the day. The beginning was nice, I made some progress catching up on some stuff where I'm so deep in a hole that it actually keeps me up at night sometimes, and I had a couple minutes to spare so I could look at my friend's research a bit, etc. I followed up with my clinical lead to ask about scheduling a lunch for us to discuss my goal of transitioning to the clinical department, and she was still into that, which I'm so grateful for. And, one of my former clinical leads had baby and puppy pictures to show me! But. Made an idiot of myself trying to insert myself into a conversation about things I want to learn, but it's just not quite time yet - seemingly I can talk one-on-one with either clinical lead or office crush #1 about this stuff, but as soon as it's a group conversation, everyone kinda goes, "Mm, not your thing yet." Fine, whatever, it's just the RSD was LOUD with that one.
Knew I needed to follow up again with office crush #1 about a report he's been working on for my study since July, but just could not bring myself to do it - it's so much harder when the person who owes you things is your friend, and you know exactly how much they're not sleeping already between work and their thesis and school stuff, you know? But I KNOW if I go to my boss one more time and say this task is falling behind badly again, she's going to ask about the report, and I just really do not want her to get involved, you know?
Then, I ended up having to spend my entire afternoon redoing some work with office crush #2: I worked my ass off last week (read: stayed up until 12:30am) to send these files to the data analytics lead in Prague so the clinical leads would have sufficient time to prep for our next presentation next Friday, and he didn't even LOOK at them until a week and a half later. I missed sending him one of the files, which I felt horribly guilty about, but whatever, it should be fine now, right? Nope, he finally started running his analyses and came across some errors in the data extracts. Which OC2 and I definitely should have seen, and in fact I suspected were there because someone else mentioned them earlier this week, but I just hoped it was due to an error in how she opened the file, because I could NOT have this come down on me. So OC2 had to regenerate the files, and I had to re-check them all over again, which takes HOURS between us. It would have been so easy to direct my annoyance at OC2, because he made the mistake and this particular thing isn't something I check for, but I made sure he knew my rant wasn't directed at him - him, I trust to actually fix the process for next time. The data analytics lead is just next to impossible to work with, and I don't understand why it took him this long to look at this when we bent over backwards to build in some buffer room in case something like this happened. Then again, he was actually really responsive and nice for once, which made it hard to be that mad at him.
On top of this, my boss asked me last week if the level of work I am putting into these data extracts is appropriate for someone in my department/position, and as much as I hate it, I think she's right - this really should be something OC2, or someone in the data services department at least, is checking, not me. I think what happened is OC2 knew I wanted to learn R, and that I really want to dig deep with data analytics, and figured this would be a great opportunity - and it really has been, I won't argue that, but it's requiring me to become proficient at a "bonus" skill set not expected of someone in my role much faster than I can reasonably manage, and I think he's not doing the checks he ordinarily would because I naively set the expectation that that work would fall to me, and I don't have the ability to actually fix anything I notice - so it's kind of an effort in futility. So again, I have to push back with someone who's a friend, who I know is busy working on other things, and that's really freaking hard. And here, it's extra difficult because I know this distribution of tasks only happened because he has so much faith in me and wanted to help me learn things, and if my boss gets involved, it's going to look like I complained to her to get him in trouble, when I really didn't. Plus, back when we were trying to get everything for my study's data analytics process set up, OC2 fought to have me primarily responsible on my team, because he knew it was important to me, he doesn't like working with my boss, and we agreed I'm the one who actually knows this stuff: "We can sit in a meeting and everybody's talking in circles, but I can just look at you and we know we've got this." Right, but unfortunately, this particular aspect does not really fit into my current job description, so unless and until that changes, I sadly have more important things to take up my time - and this isn't as easy for me to pick up as I guess he thought it would be.
So yeah, I felt really defeated on a lot of levels yesterday. On top of everything, it hit me hard after the past week that I do not understand stats (or, probably, data in general) enough to do the job I really want. There's this window right now where I was going to try to leverage my way into the clinical department by arguing I could be a data analytics specialist, especially since they don't have the headcount to bring me in under a more typical role. Except I don't feel like I actually have sufficient skills to do that. I mean, I absolutely can learn, and I do think I know enough to be useful if I have a more knowledgeable person to work under, but that's not what the more immediate need is right now. And yes, I can learn the things I need to know, but even if I pretend I could do that in, say, six months, these conversations about rewriting the process and who's going to be responsible for what and what all this is going to look like, those are happening NOW. I'm already missing out on a lot of this, and it actually really, stupidly hurts. I know I'm impatient, but I really feel there's a limited window here where I can work this to my advantage.
(And? A really dumb additional worry? If I do somehow get what I want with my career here, it would mean working a LOT with office crush #1. Who I do have a very real, rather inconvenient crush on. Basically, the whole reason we have a data science team now is because they built one around him, and he's in position to eventually take over as data analytics lead - not that you should say that to him, because he's got a big enough head as it is! We usually work really well together, actually, but as mentioned above, sometimes the crush stuff complicates that. It also adds an extra reason why I couldn't actually date him, but those already exist... Sometimes it's just fun to pretend to myself I could somehow make that work.)
So, yeah. I screwed up on something that's my baby, that practically broke me trying to do perfectly the first time, and I felt horrible because it put people I care about in a bad spot. And I felt really ignorant and stupid about multiple things, and I was completely overwhelmed by my car situation and the knowledge that I was going to continue to be off my routine and under stress. And all the while, I'm overhearing these conversations I desperately want to be a part of, but can't be yet. I felt utterly defeated, and as things kept devolving, I went from quietly screaming and trying to refrain from slamming my head on my desk repeatedly to crying as unnoticeably as I could manage, because I didn't have time to actually walk away and take another break. Stayed in the office super late, completely alone, feeling very, very sorry for myself.
I guess God took me rather literally on the "just let me make it to work" prayer, because I did not make it out of the office parking lot before my tire started losing pressure. It's probably a miracle I made it that far in the first place, so I am grateful. Thankfully, I just called AAA to put on the spare (it's been not quite two years since my last flat in the same parking lot...), and the repair guy was just SO nice. Really, genuinely good guy. Made it home without further incident, and the only places I need to drive on the spare this weekend are the grocery store five minutes away (I'm completely out of cat food, sorry Bo) and then to the shop on Sunday. So yeah, it could definitely be worse.
Rough day. Like, really rough day. There were some nice parts, especially in the middle, but the beginning and end were very sucky. I just want to go home and cry in peace while I binge carbs and TV.
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