#i was living month to month waiting for something to push me over the edge. i was planning to die

[wandasaura]

WEST HOLLYWOOD

summary — casey novak isn’t the stereotypical god loving catholic girl with a diamond cross necklace to prove it, but the presence of religion in her upbringing has kept her from fully accepting who she wants to share a bed with since college; a woman

warning(s) — established friendships, religious guilt, slight internalized homophobia, prior hookups, threesome, implied polyamory, dom/sub dynamics, inexperienced casey, dom alexandra cabot, switch casey novak, lesbian bar, alcohol consumption, sexual tension, teasing, choking, hair pulling, slight corruption kink, praise kink, pet names, degradation, light condescension, finger sucking, oral fixation, bratty reader, public encounters, making out, dirty talk, consent is hot, condescension, light public/verbal humiliation, biting, marking, fingering (c!receiving), makeshift gag, oral (r!receiving), face riding (a!receiving), begging, crying, check-ins, mention of bondage, light face slapping (once), aftercare, men/minors dni

authors note— happy pride, babies !! a request i’ve been holding onto since may. dream eiffel towel variant 7. enjoy :)

“I still can’t believe you never slept with Ally.” Alex’s voice is smoother than the whiskey she sips slowly, hunched over the ledge of a sticky Midtown bar top as Casey waits for her martini.

The air is electric, a dangerous combination of adrenaline and alcohol priming your veins as you stand between the two of them, sipping a cocktail only complete because of the pink umbrella balancing on the rim. It’s a cheesy detail, one that contributes to unnecessary waste and pollution, but it gets you in that soft spot every time its advertised on any menu. Alex knows to anticipate some kind of fruity drink floating into your hand; Casey still holds out hope that you’ll develop a taste for something stronger.

It’s ironic to think she’s the one pushing you to expand your boundaries, when this is the third time Alex has brought up a potential fling gone south for Casey this month. At least you have the balls to take a girl home at the end of the night, even if whiskey makes you shiver on any date — first or last.

“Do not bring her up.” Casey warns, but there’s hardly an edge to her tone when she goes up against Alex. Everything about her seems so soft when she tries to level the field between herself and the strong jawed blonde. You can’t imagine the sight of you facing off against either of them fares any better in the minds and wild imagination of onlookers, but you’re not the one giving a performance to scrutinize right now. “She tried to give me her number. I thought she was just trying to push her clients case. I’m an idiot.” She wallowed in embarrassment and self pity quite well for someone who never admitted to being in crisis, but you could only offer a smile of amusement as your eyes flickered to Alex’s.

“She’s finally catching on!” You cheer brightly, influenced by alcohol, encouraged by the thumping beat that you can feel in the soles of your feet.

It’s a lively little club in Manhattan, a discreet enough lesbian bar that only attracts the kind of people you’d expect to frequent a discreet lesbian bar in the higher established area of Midtown. You think you recognize a couple of faces throughout the room as your eyes sweep across the crowd, but you can’t specifically name any of them. They’re not important enough to steal your attention away from what’s happening with Casey right now.

Alex huffs over an amused laugh, her hands falling onto your hips as she guides you into her embrace protectively. Her arms curl around your waist, warming the exposed skin of your belly that shows between your crop-top and hem of your denim shorts. You hadn’t even realized that your sheen of sweat had dried down to a clammy cold feeling until her arms were bringing warmth back unconsciously.

“I still don’t understand how you can be here,” You gesture around clumsily, the orange liquid in your glass sloshing around, threatening to spill onto your toes that are exposed by your sandals; a rather bold shoe choice for conquering the New York streets and clubs. “but not have the balls to say yes when a pretty girl asks you out.”

“You don’t have the balls to ask a pretty girl out either.” Alex snorts, unable to help herself from sending a pointed quip down at you when you’d set the scene so perfectly for her contribution. Your eyes roll, your elbow digging into her belly in petulant retaliation.

“But I say yes. I’m here, aren’t I?” Your lips close around the baby blue straw cheekily, eyes sparkling as they trail up to taunt Alex’s with a seductive wink that will ever so slowly chip at her reserve. You’ve played this game a few handfuls of times. No invitation for drinks is ever purely platonic, especially not when it involves dragging Casey Novak, your designated baby gay in training (because she still has to accept she’s gay to officially enter the program), to a gay bar in the middle of Manhattan.

Half of your drink is gone before Alex can reply, or ignore you entirely and bring her attention back to Casey who's watching your lips with a thirst you’d recognize instantly if you stopped trying to get on Alex’s nerves before you’d even spent an hour at the club. You only pull away when it becomes unbearable to take another sip without easing the piercing cold on the roof of your mouth. Your thumb shoots to baby the frozen patch of skin, probably looking like a damn fool to anyone that glanced your way, but further enticing Casey to throw all of her concerns out the window.

“If I say yes… that makes it real.” Casey finally responded, a real, genuine answer falling off of her lips and making you feel the slightest bit bad for making light of her conflict. It was just so silly to you, though you’d never truly been burdened with the weight of religious rejection when considering the repercussions of coming out. Casey didn’t keep in very close contact with the family she had left, and everyone you associate yourself with between work and leisure was either swinging for the same rainbow team or very loudly an ally.

A giggle tingles your spine, the peach snapchat you’d explicitly requested a double on beginning to take irreversible effect against your consciousness. “Ally and ally…I think it was a sign, Case. I’m not drunk yet, I promise.” You continued to giggle, and both women smiled knowingly as your cheeks flushed.

“Oh, we know. Definitely tipsy though.” Alex can’t resist the urge to pinch the apples of your cheeks between her fingers, squeezing the flesh warm with blood. You whine, shuffling away from her grip, finding solace at Casey’s side when she wraps an arm around your waist welcomingly. You know she doesn’t even spare a second thought to this kind of affection, but somewhere between this and sex she can’t seem to fall in line.

Alex looks like she has something to say, something that’s genuine helpful to Casey’s situation and the dilemma of first learning how to navigate the process of learning anything about your sexuality at all, but you beat her to the punch, filled with social ambition. “What’s the worst thing that can happen if you try it and don’t like it?”

“I burn in hell for the rest of eternity.” Casey solemnly utters, dramatics tainting the sincerity of her fear even though you know that she’s not being entirely funny with you right now. Your heart pangs for her, because you know she’d never look at either you or Alex or determine you were going to hell because of who you slept with on your off hours.

“You’re not going to burn in hell.” You roll your eyes, looping an arm around her waist and leaning in closer, feeling the eyes of a woman burning into your back though you can’t tell if they’re attempting to unmake you, or read whatever situation is going on between you and Casey right now. “You just need to take it slow. Find someone you can trust. Don’t think about it like you’re committing to the life of a lesbian, or even a bisexual. Just…feel things out.”

“Yeah? I’d have to actually talk to any of the girls that ask me out to even try to get to that point.” Casey rolls her eyes, only taking her attention off of you because the bartender comes back with her martini, the salted rim catching beams of light from above and glittering enticingly.

Alex’s eyes are sharp as she takes in the sight of Casey so at ease for a single moment. She doesn’t seem to even consider that she’s being a tease or that her actions could be considered as leading as she pokes her tongue out sensually and licks a broad strike around the rim, humming at the explosion of salt on her tastebuds before she dives into a full sip.

“Well, who says you have to find anyone at all? All it takes is one word and we can spend the rest of the night showing you what its like to be loved by someone who knows your body, and your mind, and who you are.“ Alex’s tone drops, sultry and alluring as she draws you into her embrace like a predator. Casey’s at a loss for words when you pull away from her, inching toward Alex with eyes glassy with submission.

Casey knows that the both of you have fooled around before. Hell, she’s been in the same room as Alex has completely ruined you with only her fingers and her words, memories of college nights and vodka flashing before her eyes, but it’s suddenly so real as she notices how easily you fold to fit into Alex’s palm like you belong there.

“It’s not so bad being my girl for the night, now is it, sweetheart?” Alex knows what she’s doing and it infuriates you how easily she can turn your belly to butterflies that make you antsy and soft, eager for her praise and her attention and anything else she’ll give you to state the burning desire of passionate need.

It doesn’t strike your memory often that Alex had been born and raised in Texas before you’d met at Harvard as law students, but when she plays her cards just right on nights like tonight and stacks that accent on top of that intoxicating dominance, your mind goes blank with fireworks.

“No, it’s not so bad.” Alex likes when you use your words, she likes when she gets to hear your thoughts and your pleasure and your consent. You’ve never met another woman who goes as crazy for consent as Alex does; even before she’d been temporarily assigned permanent ADA with the Sex Crimes unit. You think its the knowledge that you’re willingly and knowingly giving yourself over to her that she finds so utterly addicting. “Kiss me.” Your words are whispered, your eyes hazed over and glassy. It had been a long time since you’d find yourself in this position with Alex. Most times that you met throughout the year were generally wholesome dinners or weekend hikes, it had been at least six months since you’d let yourselves take that bite of something more again.

“I may not have any expectations, but I do have expectations for you, and you know that.” Alex’s jaw locks, her eyes narrow. You think she’s going to cup your jaw, throw caution to the wind and squeeze your cheeks together until your lips are puckered like a fish, but instead a hand tangles into your head and tugs just sharply enough to have Casey gasping behind you.

Her small squeak, a little inflection of breath getting caught in her throat, sobers you enough to grin at Alex, sending a wink that Casey couldn’t see or expect you to throw around. Alex’s fingers twitch in your hair, and she pulls them again seconds later, attempting to confirm the suspicion that Casey’s bark in bite wasn’t actually followed by any bite. Her hooded eyes, flush cheeks, trembling hands were all indicative of one thing — Casey wanted to be in your place, not Alex’s. You’d placed money on the opposite, but it seems your ‘domdar’ isn’t as statistical as you tell Olivia it is. Even if Casey’s out of the running, you have your entire career on Olivia.

“Please.” You barter, not even having to consider what these alleged expectations that floated over your head were. Alex liked a polite girl, one that used her manners and asked nicely the first time, and you could be just that when you felt like it. Right now, you could be that for her if it meant luring Casey further into your trap.

“Good girl.” Alex sighed, melting into you like she’d been hoping the night would end like this. It usually did, any night out on the town with Casey in tow usually ended with pent up sexual tension being released in one of your apartments after she stumbled back home. She loved the closest to the bustling city life, which was rather ironic considering she was the hardest to coax into a night out.

Alex tastes like whiskey, and at first, it’s a taste so stark you can't fathom ever adjusting to it, but then her tongue sweeps across your bottom lip and she doesn’t allow you the pleasure of denying her entrance even if you wanted to — you didn’t. A whimper climbs up your throat as your hands tangle into the light fabric of her top, nothing overtly feminine, but soft enough to compliment the fairy like sheen to her complexion without any makeup.

When she pulls away, it feels entirely too soon, but it must’ve felt like an eternity to Casey because when you turn back to face her, your eyes gleaming, your lips swollen and moist, she’s three shades redder than she was before and her martini is gone, sucked dry.

“Okay.” She nods, not even giving Alex the chance to pose the question again. It makes you laugh, but it doesn’t satisfy Alex, whose lips curve upwards into a truly sadistic grin as she pushed Casey farther.

“That’s not the word I want to hear.” She doesn’t tease, but she’s not harsh with her corrections either. There’s no name for the tone she takes when she speaks to you like that, and you can tell that nobody’s ever taken a tone even remotely similar to Casey before because her chest catches and her eyes go wide in dazed confusion. “What’s the magic word?” Alex coaxes, and Casey nods like her brain is working again, licking her lips as she thick’s on her toes.

“Please.” It comes out eventually, and Alex rewards that small step with a soft hand leading her forward until Casey’s chest is flush with Alex’s and you're sandwiched between them to a whole new level of closeness.

“We’re gonna take this slow, okay?“ Alex assures, not wanting to scare Casey or go any further than she’s willing to try. It seems to ease the remnants of nerves that were holding her back, because Casey leans forward, wrapping her arms around Alex’s neck until your suffocating between warm, exposed chests. It’s paradise for sure, but equally suffocating as their warmth becomes a blanket you can’t throw off.

“This isn’t nearly as sexy as romance books makes it sound.” You whine, eventually shoving your way out from between their buzzing bodies. Alex laughs, corralling you back in by the loops on your shorts while Casey finishes her martini, already looking to flag down the bartender that's pouring out shots of something clear.

“You okay with this? Still the same limits?” Alex keeps her voice quiet, not wanting this moment to reach the ears of anyone standing nearby, also waiting for the bartenders to return and continue dishing out alcohol until every impulse is natural and easy.

“Yeah, yeah I’m still good with everything.” You nodded, flattered by her ever considerate sweetness that bloomed like delicate flower petals. “I’ve missed you. I’ve been meaning to call, but campaign season and all… you know how it gets for me.” You sigh, trailing your fingers along the dip in the neckline of her top, the rough black fabric suiting the darker highlights in her hair nicely.

“That’s alright. Got all night to make up for lost time.” Alex grins, teeth digging into her bottom lip as you get trapped in her eyes, giggling only when Casey’s voice reaches your ears as she requests another Sex on the Beach from the bartender wearing a nametag that says ‘Jenny’. You grin at the drink ordered specifically for you, leaning away from Alex but not separating yourself from her touch entirely to crane your body over the bar.

“Can I have a green umbrella?” You call over the music, and Jenny laughs, giving you a salute of confirmation as she turns away to complete the order Casey put on her tab. You hadn’t even gotten a chance to start one yet, the first tab being put beneath Alex’s name as she flaunted a cocky smile over her shoulder at the both of you in satisfaction. “Thank you!” You yelled after her, smiling until you were pulled back into Alex’s chest, taken into a kiss that had your world ending and fading into blackness.

“If you keep kissing me like that I’m gonna make you take me home right now.” You muttered when she pulled away, only because you both needed to breathe despite attempting to share air back and forth. Her lips glistened with your saliva, the taste of peach on her lips as she lets her tongue clean up what you’d left before in a daze.

“Oh, did you forget that you don’t make the rules here, Senator?” Alex questioned, a single eyebrow raised. Her palm ghosted around the base of your neck, so faint you almost considered you were imaging it, but when her fingers pressed into the column of your throat in one teasing squeeze you knew it was happening. Heat flamed your cheeks as your eyes darted around the club, a gleam of arousal glittering in your eyes that dismantled any fear in Alex’s mind that she’d gone too far. A whimper fell off your lips when you realized that Casey had been watching, and that Jenny had been too, a knowing smirk on her lips as she came over with your Sex on the Beach and another martini for Casey.

“I think she asked you a question, babe.” Jenny grinned, a mischievous spark in her eyes as she took in the bulging muscle in Alex’s exposed bicep, the way she held your waist forcing definition to be easily seen.

A beat of humiliation washes over you, arousal pooling in your belly and leaking into the panties that you’ve hidden beneath your shorts, but then it gets a bit too heavy, and Casey looks a little too intimidated by the easy jesting that’s happening between you, Alex, and the bartender, and you bustle with a laugh. “I’ve still got a law degree, babe. It’s Senator to you.” You grin, sending Jenny a cheeky wink that has Alex exploding with laughter, pulling you away from the bar before you let your hormones take over and distract you from the plan of going home with her.

Between the alcohol in your drink and the teasing touches that Alex leaves on your skin when she’s not preoccupied with feeling Casey up beneath the strobe lights, there’s a fire burning in your belly, twisting all of your sensitive parts and turning them to jelly.

Alex can tell she’s undoing you slowly, but you bc an tell that every time you grind your hips into hers or fix your hair over your shoulder in that sultry way that exposes just a shadow of your clavicle that you’re undoing her too. Her touches on Casey’s waist are getting desperate. Her little kisses and sharp nips are getting sloppy, not so concealed by the dim lights overhead and all around.

Casey’s not much better, practically eating Alex’s face off as she finally gives into her desires freely and eagerly. Casey had kissed a few handfuls of men, she’d kissed you a time or two too, but she was kissing Alex like she’d never felt anything so enticing, chasing pleasure that wouldn’t led to where she wanted unless something more was initiated, but that wasn’t happening anywhere near this club or these people.

“Come here.” She demands, turning to look at you, to admire your flushed cheeks and your hands that are empty now, no longer curled around the cold brim of a glass. It takes you by surprise when she hooks her fingers into the belt loops of your shorts, pulling you into her until she can kiss you as feverishly as she’d kissed Alex. You hadn’t expected the passion and unabashed desire for control. You hadn’t expected her to hold the back of your head in her hand, one palm on your cheek, her lips sucking bruises into your lips as they slotted together like a perfect fit.

When she let you go, standing with her shoulders squared until she towered over you in her ‘going out’ heels, you traced every move she made, letting out the softest whimper when her fingers trailed across her bottom lip. She pulled her glistening digits back, and your face flamed when she seemed to inspect them beneath the flashing lights, only showing any indication of satisfaction when she dipped those two fingers past her lips and let her tongue lap them skillfully, like she’d done a lot more than just suck a couple of dicks in her life.

Alex groaned, evidently just as captured by Casey’s theatrics as you. “You sure you’ve never eaten a pretty girl out before?” Alex rasped, taking claim of your belt loops now and tugging you into her, deciding you were too far from her body in the crowded room.

Casey flushed, like she suddenly remembered her inexperience and inhibitions. Alex smiled, catching the slight regression of her outward confidence. You were still blinded, riding a glorious wave of pleasure that filled your mind with only whispers of how to get these women into a bed and fast.

“Is this still okay?” Alex checked in, and it brought you back to the moment, your eyes finding Casey’s with an understanding softness that you hoped would convey the encouragement she needed. “We can slow down if you need a minute to breathe. Your lips are pretty swollen.” Alex laughed, reaching forward to drag a finger across Casey’s lips, raising her eyebrows when the redhead's tongue sought to chase the digit instinctively, the tide of desire still swaying Casey’s self-control even if bible verses were floating through her head like ships right now.

“No, I’m okay. That was just… that was just vulgar.” Casey flushed, not accustomed to feeling so exposed even if it was just you and Alex, the two people she’d somehow known since that first year of law school at Harvard. If she was going to take this step with anyone, it was going to be you both, but the earth still seemed to rattle beneath her feet as she fought every basic principle she’d unconsciously lived by. It never dawned on her before that she had such a hard time committing to a relationship because she was ignoring what she actually wanted for what her religion had told her she needed to find. She’d been happy to play the role as a non practicing catholic who happened to align with the teachings she’d absorbed, she’d never realized that it suffocated her more than she recognized.

“Yeah? But did it make you wet?” Alex rebutted and Casey’s eyes darkened, her thighs pressing together as she shifted on her heels, just a hair taller than Alex as their heels differed by an inch.

Your own mouth went dry at her question, your eyes batting, thighs quivering as you looked between Casey and Alex. “Oh my god you’re going to kill her.” You retort, and Alex rolls her eyes at your utterance, pulling you into her side and slinking an arm around your waist until the weight of her hand on your hip silences you obediently.

“Ignore her. She’s a politician; she likes to hear herself talk. I’ll deal with that later.” Alex dismissed you, and your stomach turned at her careless acknowledgment of you. Casey seemed to take that note, her head nodding as her jaw clenched and a look you’d never seen her wear before fell over her expression.

“Yeah? I wanna deal with her too.” Casey nodded, right back into that headspace of desire that you and Alex so meticulously protected.

“Careful, sweetheart. Wouldn’t want to bite off more than you could chew, would you?” It’s not hard to imagine Alex in a courtroom saying that exact sentence, though without the pet name dripping condensation as she tried to level Casey, remind her that she’d agree to let Alex take the reins on this introduction, but Casey proved stronger-willed than you, evidentially not the quiet pillow princess you’d thought of her when she was rolling around with pathetic men not with half of her time let alone body.

“I know what I can chew. And she’s no problem.” You huffed at Casey’s bold assessment of your attitude, playing right into the palm of her hand and you hated it. You hated how someone with no experience could get you where she wanted you with only an hour of practice beneath her belt. Alex found it beyond amusing, finally revealing a smile beneath her expression of stoic dominance when Casey didn’t waver beneath her intimidation attempt.

“I take it you’ve made a few grown men cry?” Alex teased, quirking an eyebrow at Casey as she began to put together a picture of the ginger's sexual experiences. Entirely inexperienced? Absolutely not. Inexperienced with women? Alex certainly still had that assessment going for her as Casey’s eyes bobbed between her lips and eyes, like she’d never truly seen a woman in this light before. Odds are she never had.

“Baby, I made them weep.” She sneered cynically, leaning in until her breath fanned across Alex’s neck. Her teeth nipped at delicate pale earlobes, naked of any jewelry even though Alex owned a handful of gold hoops and studs. It was a tactical effort to remove all choking hazards, one that reminds you she’s a sensitive sweetheart beneath all of her bossing around and demanding.

“If one of you doesn’t take me home right now, I’m going to go find Jenny.” You declared, your eyes glancing over Alex’s shoulder to find the bar. It’s swarmed with warm bodies, some of them practically half naked as they’d dressed for the sweltering interior of the club.

Alex didn’t object to your bossing around this time, dragging you and Casey out of the bar by your clammy hands trembling with arousal that was bubbling to the surface beneath your skin, threatening to explode out of you in anyway that it could manage if it wasn’t probably tended to and quenched soon.

You didn’t discuss where you were going, you just let her lead you there blindly, your covers forgotten about until the morning when you woke up to an inbox and a fee. Or, Casey and Alex woke up to inbox messages and fees, you were still in the clear.

Alex’s apartment hadn’t changed much since the last time you’d seen it in this exact same way, but she’d added pictures to the mantle in the living room from the last trip she’d taken back to Texas, and her smile caught your eye as Casey hung her purse by the door and Alex kicked off her shoes.

It was a shower of garments for a couple of minutes. Three pairs of heels being kicked against the wall, dresses being thrown away shamelessly like the hundreds of times you’d gotten undressed before, but when it was just a bra and panties that remained on Casey’s toned body, she faltered, the reality of the situation catching up to her again as Casey guided her backwards into the bed with a bruising kiss that had her panting and trembling.

The bedroom was tidy, but details weren’t important as she climbed onto the bed, kneeling beside Casey as she tangled your fingers into her hair and analyzed her features in a way you’d only ever thought about throughout your decade of friendship.

“Are you okay?” Alex asked after she caught her breath, her face hovering over Casey’s as she trailed a finger between the valley of the younger prosecutor's breasts, tracing over the cups of her black lace bra that hardly hides anything from the naked eye and dim lighting in the room. When all Casey managed was a weak nod, her hands scrambling to grab at Alex’s shoulders and pull her back down into another kiss, Alex tsks, capturing her hands in a reprimanding hold and pining them above her head. “Don’t make me tie you up, too. Answer my question.”

“Yes.” Casey breathed, her eyes fanning closed as Alex leaned in closer to her face, her breath washing across Casey’s lips as she hovered just out of reach.

“Yes, what?” Alex sang teasingly, her grip on Casey’s wrists loosening before she dragged her fingers up naked arms, letting her digits curl around the thin bra strap tantalizingly.

“Yes, I’m okay. Please, just keep going. I don’t want to deal with teasing tonight, you’ve already done enough.” Casey pants, and typically that’s not enough to sway Alex, but she smiles at the admission and leans down to peck Casey three times before her lips progress downward and she leaves wet patches in her slow wake.

“Good girl.” Alex mused, slowly coaxing Casey to spread her legs until both of you could peer between them, an obvious patch of arousal on the pale material. “You’re so wet.” Alex stated the obvious, probing Casey’s center with an incessant finger as she hummed thoughtfully. “Do you like this, Casey? Do you like when a woman takes her time with you? Kisses you, tastes you… makes you whine.”

Alex sold her point by pulling the fabric of Casey’s panties away from her core, sinking a single digit into her velvety walls until she couldn’t plunge any farther without inserting another finger. Casey gasped, her back arching off the bed as she attempted to writhe into Alex’s palm, chasing pleasure she wasn’t allowed to have just yet. “Answer me, Casey. We’re not going to keep going over these expectations. I know you’re not dumb, so why don’t you use your brain like the prosecutor I watched you become and answer the simple question I just laid out for you.” It’s so many words, too many for Casey to really grab onto with a single finger remaining painfully still on her core, but that’s the intention. Alex doesn’t want clarity, she wants broken down and babbling.

“Yes! Yes, I like this! Please, Alex. Move, do something!” Casey covers her face with her hands, sobbing in frustration as her hips jump. Alex doesn’t waste a second, adding another finger into the warm walls that squeeze her tight and jackhammering them into Casey until there’s squelching sounds to fill the room and partner with her moans and cries.

“Don’t cover your face. Don’t hide from us.” You frown, prying Casey’s hands away from her face, pulling them away until you could see her tear stained face, flushness on her cheeks that’s not just a result of pleasure. It’s the final barrier breaking down. That last twinge of avoidance falling away and leaving her just the sensitive center of herself with no protective outer shell. There’s no going back for her now, but she hadn’t been truly alive until this moment regardless. “Does it feel good? Has anyone ever hit those spots before? Right here?” Your hand falls onto her belly, pressing down right above where you know Alex’s fingers are digging into.

Casey jerks on the bed, sobbing pathetically as her hands grapple to hold onto the comforter that Alex hadn’t bothered fixing when she climbed out of bed that morning. It’s bunched up beneath your calves and Casey’s back, probably an uncomfortable lump beneath her shoulder blades when she wriggles enough to shift down on the bed and bring her hips closer to Alex, forcing those two, now three fingers deeper into her walls that haven’t accommodated a stretch this thick in years.

“Yes.” She whines, her head craning, her muscles tensing. You lean down to capture the sound of her explosion as Alex thumbs at her clit, rubbing practiced circles around the engorged bundle until Casey was thrashing wildly, sucking at your lips to find a way to manage the explosion of sensations through her body.

You grin when you pull away, crawling on your knees to Alex until your straddling Casey’s thighs, the warmth of your core through the thin white panties making Casey moan as she tensed her thigh, muscles spasming against your clit just right.

You don’t focus on the sensations, don’t give her any indication that she’s making having any kind of composure increasingly hard for you, instead you give Alex your undivided attention, prior bratty comments haunting you now that her attention is pinned to only your desperate eyes.

“Been running that damn mouth all night.” She noted, playing with the arousal that clung to her fingers, pulling them apart to watch the stringy evidence stretch before she gave into the tension of the string, letting her fingers close to save the structure of the evidence. You watch the movement desperately, your jaw hanging slack as you anticipated getting a taste of Casey.

Your jaw snapped shut when Alex raised her fingers to her own mouth, sucking off the juices that she’d let you believe you were getting a taste of. The disappointment was amusing, and even Casey laughed at your saddened whine as you climbed off of her thighs, sitting by the pillows.

“Does pouting usually get you your way?” Casey asked, finally collecting herself enough to sit up and strip the panties off of her lower half, a grimace of discomfort brushing her features when the fabric caught on her sensitive clit.

“No, it doesn’t.” Alex answered for you, taking the lace garment from Casey before she could discard them on the floor. The prosecutor's face flamed with embarrassment as Casey’s finger traced the patch of wetness that had expanded to cover practically the entire patch of fabric after the leg-quivering explosion of pressure. She hummed at the sticky residue on her fingers, wasting not a second more before she tapped your jaw with firm fingers, guiding you to open your mouth.

Casey inhaled sharply when Alex shoved the panties into your mouth, assuring that the patch of arousal was directly against your tongue. “Maybe that’ll shut you up for a while. Stay there and stay still. Don’t make me tie you up too.”

Alex turned her attention back to Casey when you offered a meek nod, your pupils blown and full submission in your eyes. Casey marveled at the sight of you so pliant and willing to give your pleasure over to Alex, something she’d held herself and knew how delicate it was, but this felt different than any one night stand she’d ever had with a curious minded man. There hadn’t ever been any tears, any tender check-ins, any soft smiles derived of fondness and affection between harsh and heated moments. She hadn’t realized she’d been missing out on so much character in sex until she was watching Alex undress, her body still being studied though left untouched.

“Still okay?” Alex asked again, waiting for a nod before she pulled her bra off of her body, revealing her pebbled buds and b-cup breasts for the both of you to shamelessly ogle. “Do you want a glass of water?”

Casey ran her fingers through her hair, drawing in a deep breath, but eventually she shook her head, trailing her gaze over to you with a burning stare that held just enough softness to ground you in the reminder that all of this was new to her.

“I want to make her feel good.” The way she speaks about you like you’re not even in the room is so humiliatingly addictive, and the way your thighs squeeze together further seals the belief that you get off on this behavior. She’d followed blindly in the footsteps Alex had left behind all night, gathering small tidbits and pieces of information to use against you when it mattered, and it had found its way into the open air as she sat on the edge of the bed pliantly but unwilling to break completely.

“Think she deserves it?” Alex teased, glancing back at you with an expression twinged with fondness and desire. She’s been waiting to ravish your body since you showed up at the bar in tight little shorts and that top, but she’d kept her composure, played the long game, she was bursting at the seams to get her hands on you and her own pleasure.

“Regardless, I do.” Casey turned her attention back to Alex, and you whined wantonly in the middle of the bed, kicking your foot out until you could strike Casey’s side. You didn’t utter a single plea, but the wide frame of your eyes said everything you wouldn’t. “What do I do?” She asked softly, looking at Casey for all the answers to your body.

“Eat her out.” Alex hummed thoughtfully. She’d worked you up too much to send Casey in with her fingers, knowing that what you needed she couldn’t give without coaxing and coaching, and there was no way she was letting the newbie loose on her strap and harness when Casey would probably run for the hills before she could even step into it, but she knew that you went crazy for a warm tongue on your cunt, that if all else failed, she could have you falling apart on her mouth in mere minutes. After Casey’s show at the bar, Alex has no question on whether she can deliver the needed pleasure. “I’m gonna ride her face.”

You whined, your head falling back onto the pillows as you fought against every urge to rip the panties from your mouth and beg for one of them to make a move. The taste of Casey on your tongue was heavy, but the promise of adding Alex was beyond enticing as you squirmed on the mattress.

“Are you ready to behave now?” Alex questioned, looking directly at you with such power and conviction that you forgot all about the gag in your mouth and tried to answer her obediently. She smiled softly at you, and Casey did too, both of them momentarily swayed by your visible softness as you sank into the mattress, threatening to implode. “Good girl. That’s all you really want to be, huh? That mouth just gets you in trouble sometimes.”

Alex crawls onto the bed, over your thighs, your torso, your shoulders until she’s hovering over your mouth, her folds glistened with arousal that threatens to drip down onto your awaiting lips. She pries the panties from your mouth, the only thing keeping her upright determination and thigh strength.

“Do you want to taste me?” Alex asked and Casey groaned at the edge of the bed, crawling forward until she could slot her body between your legs, looking straight at your weeping core. “Pretty, isn’t she? All wet and puffy and nobody’s even touched her yet. She’s a little slut, a greedy little thing, but she knows how to treat you right. Isn’t that right, princess?” Alex glanced down at you, and you nodded, drunk on the sight of her body just out of reach. Your hands twitch to pull her down, but you don’t want to end up tied to the headboard, and you know she’ll carry through with that promise if you don’t keep your hands still until she folds.

“Please, Al.” You moaned breathlessly, batting your lashes up at her unintentionally, though it only helped your case as she finally lowered her core to your lips, sighing in relief as your tongue lapped at her clit dutifully, easing the ache that had been throbbing there for hours now.

“Oh fuck, there you go. There, there, oh fuck!” Alex grabbed fistfuls of your hair, barring only as much of her weight on you that she knew you could take.

Casey took your abrupt start as her own encouragement to dive in, her fingers pulling your lips apart before she licked a broad stripe up from your entrance to your clit, moaning unabashedly into your cunt when your taste exploded on her tongue for the first time. She was like a feign after that, her tongue bobbing in and out of your entrance, her lips creating a loose suction around your clit when she wandered away from your weeping hole, but never enough to send you tumbling over the edge, though you figure she doesn’t know that as she gets lost in the act of eating you out at Alex’s direction.

Your hips are wild as they buck upwards and sideways, attempting to grind into her face and the teasing pressure she applies the same way Alex does. She slickens your face with arousal, her core dragging over your lips until her clit bumps your nose and the texture on your tongue scraps against that sensitive part of her walls. Your fingers could get so much deeper, hit that spot so much harder with more ambition, but Alex is content with using you to her own benefit, grinding and gyrating her hips however she feels so inclined.

“Pay attention to her clit, Case.” Alex gasps, her head thrown back as she rocks harder against your mouth. “Don’t be afraid of it. She’ll let you know if it hurts and trust me, she likes it.”

Casey moaned into your core as her efforts to make you cum doubled, her lips creating a tighter suction that had you seeing stars and flattening your tongue beneath Alex, giving her a textured surface to use to her own advantage as you got lost in the pleasure Casey sparked.

“Oh god, I’m going to cum. Fuck, just like that. Keep your tongue like that. Don’t move, don’t move, don’t mo- Fuck!” Alex exploded and the onslaught of moisture hitting your tongue propelled you into your own glorious orgasm that Casey handled like a champ, perhaps too well because after Alex crawled off of you, panting and smiling cheekily as she wiped your cheek with her thumb, feeling you the evidence of her pleasure with a satisfied hum, Casey continued on working, her tongue plunging into you, slurping all of the juices that leaked onto Alex’s comforter.

“Too much, too much.” You whine, your hands batting at Casey’s head, trying desperately to push her away and find reprieve from the sharp sensations shooting through you. “Case, I’m done. I’m good.” You panted finally separating her from your cunt. She grinned with wild eyes, her face a mess of arousal that she didn’t even both wiping away.

“I’m going to go get new sheets and blankets. You two just… stay there.” Alex micromanaged the situation, always unable to help the restless feelings that overcame her after a night together until she was certain you weren’t leaving her place disoriented and feeling used. Her attempts to level friends with benefits with genuine platonic care was cute, but you were too tired to tell her that as she slipped out of the room.

“How are you feeling?” You turned your head toward Casey who came to lay on the pillows with you, her red hair fanning around her head like a halo. “You didn’t burn alive, so I think that’s a step in the right direction.”

“My whole life, I’ve felt like there was this impossible weight looming over me anytime I really entertained the possibility of… of being gay. It was never drilled into me that it was bad, or wrong, or not what God wanted for me, but somewhere along the way I picked that up. But it feels… It feels good to not have that hanging over me anymore. Like I can breathe. It feels better to know it was you and Alex too.” Casey nodded, and you hummed thoughtfully, glad that at least a fraction of her questioning was handled appropriately. “I didn’t think Alex would hold all the cards between you too. In college you always seemed so… uncontrollable.” Casey laughs, recalling the first time she’d walked in on the two of you together sometime during freshman year finals at Harvard.

Your eyes roll, a fond expression hanging over your features. Sometimes you wonder what could’ve been of your lives if you’d stuck with prosecuting, not verged off into politics on a whim, but those choices were already made, nothing would rewrite the years you’d lost with Alex and Casey to independent passion. “I took the lead the first time, believe it or not.”

“After tonight? Definitely or not.” Casey teased, letting her head rest on your shoulder as you both stared at the ceiling waiting for Alex to return. “I had a crush on you, you know.”

“Oh I know, honey. We all knew.”

[sugoroo]

#AND THEY WERE ROOMMATES...

ʚɞ summary: the chronicles of what happens when you share a living space with the jjk men: expect tension, embarrassing revelations and (of course) séx! . . . ft. gojo, geto, toji, choso + nanami.

warnings. fem!reader, masturbation, panty stealing, plushie humping in choso's, penetration (p in v), doggystyle, oral (f receiving), 18+ minors dni.

SATORU GOJO — THE LOUD ONE!

satoru gojo is the most irritating, annoying and overly loud roommate you could possibly have.

at all hours of the day, he can be heard through the thin walls separating your rooms doing one (or all) of the following things: shouting down the phone to his bestfriend suguru, raging at his teammates for losing a match in a video game... and even jerking off.

yes, that's right.

and whatever satoru is doing to himself in there simply cannot feel good enough that it warrants the sheer amount of obnoxious moans that he releases; you're sure of it. he has to be playing it up purely to get on your nerves — and to his credit, it works.

so eventually, after yet another hour of trying to focus on doing some work on your computer but being unable to get anything done due to the noises coming from the other room of the apartment, you decide to do something about it.

without stopping to knock, you unceremoniously barge through his door, mouth already open in preparation of the spew of complaints you have ready to throw his way.

but, rather embarrassingly, once you lay eyes upon what he's currently doing, any and every word in the english language disappears from your mind without so much as a puff of smoke.

satoru, for his part, doesn't react at all save for looking mildly amused at your reaction. in fact... you think the pale hand he has wrapped around his cock even speeds up its languid strokes at the sight of you.

"girl, finally!" he sighs dramatically, lips spreading into a wide, impish smile as he beckons you with the curled finger of his other hand. "been waiting for you to get the hint for months now. i was starting to think you didn't want me too, honestly."

"you— what?" you push out awkwardly, wincing through your confusion as you fight the fruitless battle to tear your eyes from his unnecessarily big cock and meet his bright eyes.

"you heard me," satoru hums with an easy shrug, letting out one of those all-too-familiar, almost pornographic moans when he squeezes his own hand around the leaky tip of his shaft. "...or do you not want me too?"

sighing, you raise your thumb and forefinger to rub your stressed temple, shaking your head at the sheer audacity of this man. "you're ridiculous, gojo. i was hoping you were just pretending to jerk off in here— but no, of course you actually are."

"mhmm," he groans raspily between increasingly loud squelches of his cock. wait; is your scolding only helping him get off even faster? oh, you can't make this shit up. "keep talkin' to me just like that, baby."

"first of all, don't call me baby," you scoff, jabbing an accusing finger in his direction with a scowl etching its way onto your features. "and secondly, if you're gonna do this... stuff right next-door to me, can't you atleast try to keep it down? some of us have work to do."

satoru rolls his eyes at this, as if he's somehow the one being inconvenienced here; but any real irritation quickly evaporates into pleasure when he starts fondling his heavy balls, tongue lewdly lolling out of his mouth like a bitch in heat.

"i-i'll keep quiet. shit— i'll do whatever you fuckin' want if you just... just get me over the edge here, pretty girl. hah— help a guy out, would you, roomie?"

and damn if that isn't an enticing offer. finally getting rid of the noise around here so you can actually submit a work assignment on time for once?

yeah... you're definitely on board.

"fine," you mutter, attempting to sound as uninterested as possible as you shuffle closer to the bed. "what do you want me to do, gojo? and don't even bother asking me to suck your dick or anything, because who knows the last time you properly washed that—"

satoru snorts out a strangled laugh, shaking his head quickly and peering up at you with wide, darkened cerulean eyes. "n-no... not that. just— just talk to me, please? and call me satoru, not gojo, damn."

"okay..." you huff thoughtfully, brainstorming what you can say to get this over as quickly as possible. eventually, you purr: "are you gonna be a dirty boy and make a mess all over your hand for me, satoru? hmm?"

and, to your surprise and... arousal? that's all it takes to get him to explode, thick ropes of sticky white cum trickling from the reddened tip of his cock as he whines in ecstasy.

huh. maybe your work can wait a little longer.

SUGURU GETO — THE ONE WHO MAKES YOUR PANTIES GO POOF!

suguru geto is a man of many talents.

but in his humble opinion, the one he is most proficient at? oh, it has to be stealing various pairs of his cute little roommate's panties without her even taking notice.

yeah; that's right, his entire underwear drawer is not actually filled with articles of his own clothing, but rather with scraps of material he has swiped from your room over the past few months.

"ugh, i lost another pair of panties!" comes a frustrated groan from you room; you must be on the phone to one of your friends, suguru muses. "i swear, it's like there's a black hole at the bottom of that washer or something."

ah, if only you knew.

if only you knew that while you're busy stressing over the mystery of your missing underwear, suguru is slumped just against the other side of the thin wall that separates your rooms, one of the aforementioned pairs wrapped tightly around his throbbing cock.

he does this more often than he would like to admit — waits until he hears you get on the phone to jerk himself off. why? well, because then he can listen to your pretty voice while he bucks up into his fist. that's why.

"such a clueless girl..." suguru mutters under his breath as his eyes flutter closed, letting himself get lost in the combination of the soft fabric of your panties surrounding his shaft and the sound of you speaking ringing in his ears. "has no idea where her precious underwear keeps wandering off to."

meanwhile, on the other side of the wall, you have a mischievous smile pulling at your lips as you pretend to be utterly oblivious about your panty thief to your confused friend on the other end of the phone.

as if you wouldn't work out it was suguru snatching them — after all, who else could it possibly be? but you figured it was better this way, letting him think he's holding all the cards in this situation.

it only makes it all the more enjoyable for you.

leaning a little closer to the wall, you can faintly hear the familiar sounds of him getting himself off as you slowly dip a hand beneath your own skirt; and you're not wearing underwear, of course, because you don't have a single pair left thanks to your roommate.

you end up dropping the phone carelessly to the ground when suguru's deep, satisfied groan sounds out from his room, eyes rolling back in ecstasy as his orgasm swiftly brings you to your own.

so lost in your own pleasure are you that when the door softly clicks open, you don't have time to compose yourself before suguru strolls right on in, seeming much too casual for someone who just came in his hand.

"well well well," suguru hums smugly, tilting his head to the side and peering down at you with a condescending smile. "what do we have here, hmm? did you really think you could outsmart me, beautiful?"

oh.

maybe you really are clueless if you genuinely thought he didn't know you were pretending to be as such... but would it really be such a bad thing if he decides to punish you for your attempt at deception?

TOJI FUSHIGURO — THE ONE WHO NEVER PAYS RENT!

toji rarely (if ever) pays his part of the rent for your shared apartment.

he doesn't even bother trying to lie to you and tell you he'll scrounge up enough cash to cover it next time it's due, because he already knows you wouldn't buy that for a second.

so, instead, he offers you something else to keep you sated. something that he can say without a shadow of a doubt he can give to you better than anyone else could even hope to.

cock.

because if he keeps you in a perpetual state of bliss underneath the sheets of his bed, how can you possibly have any time remaining to think of such trivial things like paying the entire monthly rent on your own?

"mmm... what was i saying again, toji?" you slur, voice just delirious with pleasure as he pounds into you from behind, one strong hand effortlessly keeping your face pressed against the mattress.

"nothin', baby," toji lies easily, threading his thick fingers through the back of your hair in a distractingly tender gesture as his mean hips keep up their ruthless pace. "just relax and let y'erself feel me, yeah?"

"but—" you protest weakly, followed by an involuntary hiccup as his pudgy cockhead reaches that spongy spot inside of you once again. "i have a feeling it was important..."

"nah," he grunts dismissively, free hand snaking down to where your bodies are connected to rub messy, stimulating circles around the puffy bud that is your clit. "don't worry about it, pretty."

"...okay. if you say so." you mumble eventually, brain far too hazy from his skilful ministrations to bother putting up much of a fight against his convincing words.

toji's scarred lips spread into a victorious grin behind your back at how easily you give in. he just loves having you like this — so cockdrunk you can't even remember what you were talking about from one moment to the next.

and when the time inevitably comes for you to pay the rent on behalf of both of you yet again, he already knows you won't bat an eye; because, in the big scheme of things, what's a little cash matter if it means you get to have access to his sinful dick game whenever you so desire?

yeah... he'd say it's a pretty fair trade.

but the best part of all is that toji thinks he's the mastermind behind this little arrangement when in reality, if you were looking for a roommate who could pay their rent, you would never have picked someone who looks as jobless as he does in the first place.

but you'll continue to let him believe it was his idea; because, after all, he fucks you better when he's feeling proud of himself.

CHOSO KAMO — THE SECRETLY PERVERTED ONE!

choso doesn't mean to be perverted; not really.

but whether intentional or not, he finds himself desperate for anything that reminds him of you each time he gets himself off: a t-shirt, a pair of underwear, or even one of the cute little plushies you have lined up on your bed.

he wonders, fleetingly, what you'd think of him if you could see him humping one of your stuffed toys while you're out at work — would you be disgusted? would you kick him out and start the search for a new roommate?

or would you, just maybe... take pity on the poor boy and lend him a helping hand?

by the benevolence of some undefined higher power, choso doesn't have to mull over the answer to his question for much longer. because apparently, he was so desperate to release the desire coursing through his veins that he forgot to check the time before starting like he usually would.

so when he hears the tell-tale sign of the door opening and indicating that you've just come home from work, he has nowhere near enough time to cover up what he's been up to in your room while you were gone.

well, shit.

"hey cho, what are you doing in my— oh." comes your dumfounded voice as you peek your head around the slightly ajar doorway, eyes widening in a manner akin to a cartoon character at the sight of his sinful state.

choso blushes profusely, attempting to hide his face by ducking it into his shoulder with a muffled whimper of embarrassment. to his horror, his pathetically hard cock is fully exposed to your view, nestled between the soft limbs of one of your plushies where he had previously been thrusting.

you both stay completely silent for a few long moments, neither of you daring to move a single muscle... but it isn't long before your body is climbing onto the bed to join him before your mind can even begin to process your movements.

"w-what are you doing?... are you gonna hit me? because that would be okay, you can d-definitely hit me if you want!" choso squeaks hurriedly, peeking out from his shoulder and looking for all the word like a puppy who just got caught doing something naughty by its owner.

"i'm not gonna hit you, choso," you chuckle softly, carefully tugging your abused, slightly sticky plushie out from underneath him and tossing it away. "i wanna help you. don't you wanna try doing that to something other than a stuffed toy, hmm?"

"...oh, f-fuck!" he whines loudly, hips rutting just once against the mattress before his cock cruelly betrays him and spurts buckets of cum at the mere thought of being inside of you.

choso hides his face in shame again, figuring he must've absolutely ruined his chances with you now. because there's no way you would still want to help him after witnessing that little display, right?

wrong.

when you tug his head away from his shoulder by one of his scraggly pigtails and pull him into a searing kiss, he realizes maybe his pretty little roommate was just as perverted as him all along.

KENTO NANAMI — THE RESPECTFUL ONE!

kento is very fond of you; his sweet roommate who always wakes him up for work in the morning if he happens to accidentally oversleep and leaves him homemade dinner in the fridge to cheer him up after a late shift.

he figures these things making him feel attraction towards you is fairly normal — but it's the other, not-so-intentional things that make him go crazy for you the most.

when he spots you walking around the apartment in nothing but one of his oversized shirts and a pair of socks because your clothes are in the communal washer... or when he silently observes you bend over to grab something from the bottom cupboard in the kitchen?

yeah, those are the things that really make it hard for him not to pounce on you like some kind of feral animal.

it all comes to a crux when you come home in tears one night, babbling about your fool of a boyfriend having the audacity to cheat on you. hmph, nanami never liked him anyway.

but there's no time for petty jealousies now — no, now is the time for him to make you realize that what you've been craving has been here all along, living in the room right next-door to yours.

so he pulls you into a gentle kiss, pouring all of his pent-up affection into the gesture as he effortlessly lifts you up onto the kitchen counter, positioning himself between your spread legs.

"i want to make you forget about him, beautiful," nanami whispers, voice rough with sincereness as he places a soft peck on the corner of your lips. "may i?"

and you're nodding shakily, but it isn't enough. he reaches up with a large hand to grasp your chin in a firm yet tender grip, thumb stroking over your skin. "use your words for me, dear. come on, i know you can do it."

"y-yes. please, kento."

and that's all it takes for nanami to fall to his knees, brushing his lips over the insides of your thighs as he slowly works his way upwards. god, he's wanted to do this for so long — if for nothing else then to thank you for taking such good care of him and never asking for anything in return.

but oh, is he going to give you something in return now; specifically, in the form of his hot mouth attached to your cunt, tongue lapping up every drop of your translucent juices as if it were the finest wine on the menu of a high class restaurant.

he can't help but wonder, while he's buried nose-deep in your sweet pussy, why on earth a man would choose to cheat on a goddess such as yourself.

but he supposes it doesn't matter, if it means that he's the one who finally gets to worship at your altar from now and for as long as you'll allow him the honour of doing so.

© 2024 SUGOROO. please don't copy or translate any of my works without my explicit permission. all rights are reserved to me.

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[unadulteratedsoulsweets]

A DC X DP IDEA #47

I would turn back time just to see you again

Imagine dis…

I just needed to clean my drafts and this one is a bit overdue. Also I think I saw a post similar to this one and I cant find them anymore so either way kudos to them cause their post inspired me to make one of my own.

…..

Danny Phantom, now Danyal al Ghul, had found himself hurled into the past. Panic clawed at him. He didn’t need to guess, he already knew something had happened to Clockwork, his mentor, his protector, the Ancient of Time himself. A disturbance in the Infinite Realms had yanked him forcibly back into his younger body, leaving only his soul intact and including the full weight of bearing the title the Ancient of Space.

And he had landed here.

In Nanda Parbat.

In the very place where his life had ended the first time.

But Danyal was not without resources. He had memories. He had the power. And most importantly, he had training. He understood he couldn't act suspicious not here, surrounded by League members who could smell weakness.

So he slipped into his former role.

He became the perfect illusion of young Danyal, the former him, the wide-eyed, devoted son who adored his mother and idolized his older twin, Damian.

Every smile, every soft word during the rare times where only he and Damian are together, every clumsy move was calculated, down to the tremble in his voice and the slight hesitations in his steps. His every expression was carefully crafted to mimic innocence.

As much innocence he was allowed within this halls.

Danyal was acting, and he was doing it so well that even Talia and Damian, the supposed two people who knew him best, never questioned him.

Not at first.

He trained in secret, pushing his ghostly powers to the edge while outwardly struggling with swordplay in which Damian mastered months ago. He let it show in his own body language on how confused he is during strategy meetings, deferential during training sessions. He laughed and cried. Anything to keep suspicion off his true nature.

He will avoid the Fentons at this time around at all costs. As much he adored Jazz and Dani he wouldn’t want to feel his own organs rearranging itself and beating outside of his own body for the second time.

But he will wait, wait for the fateful day where Ra would only need one heir. The day where Danyal Al Ghul could never grip his sword right as to follow the order to fight by the Demon Head.

The day Damian had killed him without so much as a second thought always vying for the rightful title as the heir.

But something went wrong.

A week into his second life, Danyal watched with growing horror as events began to diverge from the past he remembered. Talia and Damian that was once Ra’s al Ghul’s most loyal heirs, had killed Ra’s themselves. The man who had cast his shadow over their entire lives was gone, and now both mother and twin looked at Danyal with sharp, unsettling intensity.

Family dinners became mandatory, silent meetings took place behind locked doors, and Danyal could feel the weight of their stares lingering on him longer than ever before.

He clung to his mask of naivety, knowing any slip might reveal the powerful being hidden beneath the skin of a boy.

He almost convinced himself that he could handle it—that he could steer this altered fate back on course.

That deep down Damian still wanted to be the only one. The one true heir.

Until a horde of colorfully dressed vigilantes stormed Nanda Parbat’s gates.

As Danyal al Ghul, he had to respond.

Katana in hand, neutral expression plastered on his face, he sprinted toward the throne room. He braced himself for bloodshed, for the clash of steel.

Instead, he heard shouting.

Bursting through the doors, he found not assassins or invaders—but Gotham's vigilante elite: Nightwing, Batman, Red Hood, Red Robin. Only Robin was absent. They stood frozen, as pale as specters, staring at him.

At the boy with Damian's face—and crystal blue eyes.

….

Six Years in the Future:

The Batfamily had been losing a brutal war against Eclipso—the personification of God’s wrath, possessing Ra’s al Ghul’s body, corrupted by endless dips in the Lazarus Pit. Eclipso had shattered mountains, unleashed floods, brought devastation with the power of a fallen god.

Just as he delivered what should have been a killing blow to the broken Batfamily—

They woke up.

In the past.

Dick was back in Blüdhaven. Tim was Robin again. Jason was a newly minted Red Hood. Bruce was a broken man, still mourning Jason.

Memories intact, instincts sharper than ever, they knew where to go: Nanda Parbat.

They expected to find Ra’s. They expected to find Damian.

They did not expect Ra’s to already be dead, his ashes scattered to the wind.

They did not expect Talia to step from the shadows and confess she had killed him herself, striking before Eclipso could even thought of possessing the former Demon Head.

They did not expect Talia relinquish her own hold to Damian. Talia as though pushed him towards them.

And they certainly did not expect Damian go wide eyed in surprise and then anger and be so so insistent to stay here.

The argument between Talia and Damian was vicious, each screaming accusations and betrayals at the other—until a boy, a stranger, entered.

A boy who looked like Damian.

But whose eyes blazed bright, glacial blue.

The room fell into stunned silence.

Danyal al Ghul.

A son Bruce had never known. A brother Damian had killed in the first timeline. A secret Talia had buried deep within her heart.

To Damian, Danyal was the brother who had loved him without hesitation—whom he had destroyed in cold ambition.

To Talia, Danyal was her true heir—the one she had nurtured, protected, loved beyond measure.

To the family of vigilantes, Danyal was a son/ brother that they didn’t know about, and didn’t get to mourn about.

And now, faced with a second chance, neither Talia nor Damian would let the Batfamily take him away so easily.

Because no matter how much Bruce or his sons demanded— Talia would rather die than lose Danyal again.

And this time, Danyal wasn’t a helpless boy.

This time, he had secrets of his own.

…..

PS: If someone out there wants to continue or make a fic about this you are free to do so, don’t forget to tag me though.

PS: This is shorter than i thought it would be....

[enhani-ki]

enhypen as your "stressed" boss

warnings: very suggestive content, cursing, etc.

when your job is suppose to make your boss' life easier but he gets hard to you instead...

HEESEUNG ─── ★

"do me a favor?" heeseung asked, lifting his necktie between two fingers like it was a dead thing. "fix this again… i swear these things come alive at night."

you exhaled slowly, not even dignifying that with a response. he didn't even bother standing up. he just stayed leaned back in his chair like he was doing you a favor by being seated.

heeseung's legs were spread open just enough for you to stand between them. his shirt sleeves were rolled up, the two buttons were left undone... it's enough to draw eyes, or maybe just to suggest something.

apparently, none of his past secretaries ever lasted more than two months. some said they quit, others claimed they were transferred, and according to office gossip, he couldn't even make it through the first week without anyone crossing a lineーyou could see why.

people believed what they wanted, but you've been working for him over a year now and had never actually fucked your boss like everyone said you had.

though, sometimes… you kind of wish the rumors were true.

your fingers started moving automatically. you looped the fabric, tightened the knot, and smoothed his collar… you could probably do this in your sleep by now.

"don't look so serious," he murmured with a soft chuckle. "pretend you love doing this for me."

you glanced at the guy who was already looking up at you. "love is a strong word, boss," you muttered before resting your hands on his shoulders, "but i ca—"

the door swung open suddenly, making both of you jump in surprise. the intern's eyes went wide, stammering, "i—i—i'll just come back!" like they just walked in on a porn set, before slamming the door shut.

you stepped back instantly, running a hand down your face with a sigh. "great. that's gonna be all over the building before lunch," you said, making him chuckle again.

"heeseung," you said sternly. he actually preferred it when you used his name like that—just casual and familiar, even if you only say it when it was just the two of you. "you really need to learn how to tie your own damn tie."

he whined, "i don't want toooo."

JAY ─── ★

you're sitting on the edge of his bed, legs swinging slightly, doing everything in your power not to look anywhere inappropriate while your boss buckled his belt in front of you.

this was the third time this week that jay had been late to work. he kept oversleeping, ignoring calls, blaming traffic and accidents that never even happened.

you've seen this version of him before, back when he lost all his motivation and nearly quit. this time, you weren't letting it get that far.

you let yourself into his apartment, pushed open the heavy blackout curtains, dragged him half-asleep out of bed, and make sure he gets to office in time.

"thanks for coming to get me," he muttered. his voice was still raspy from sleep, running a hand through his messy hair. "my alarm's been… off lately."

you reached for a pillow without thinking. you hugged it tightly to your chest, burying your face in the soft fabric, trying to hide the heat creeping up your cheeks.

jay smirked, catching the way you refused to look at him before shamelessly staring at your bare legs that's still swinging awkwardly above his floor. "you always get this shy?" he laughed, tugging the tank top down over his torso with a little stretch.

"just fucking hurry!" you muttered angrily into the pillow.

he chuckled again, shaking his head at his cute assistant while grabbing his keys from the nightstand. "you can wait in the living room next time if you don't want to see me naked again."

you peeked, "and let you fall back asleep? no way."

JAKE ─── ★

jake has been side eyeing you. he cleared his throat butー "don't even say it," you muttered before he could even speak.

he crossed his arms, eyebrows raising. "say what?"

"that you need another coffee... i know i'm your assistant but honestly, you look like shit."

"oh, wow..." his mouth fell open, amused. "you always look sexy whenever you scold me, you know that?"

"yes."

he blinked, taken aback by your bluntness—then snorted, shaking his head with a grin as he leaned back in his chair. "...then be careful. i'm ten seconds away from dragging your ass over here."

you rolled your eyes, unfazed. "you say that like it's a threat."

jake spun slowly in his chair, eyeing you with a grin before biting his lip. "come here... let me touch something that doesn't make me want to scream."

SUNGHOON ─── ★

you knocked once before stepping in, sunghoon didn't even look up. he was seating behind his desk, sleeves rolled up, tie already discarded somewhere across the room. his hair is a mess from running his hands through it too many times.

he looked pissed. "about the meeting..." you started carefully, "i already sent the corrected draft."

"okay..." he replied, eyes still locked on his screen. "i think i'm going to have a fucking aneurysm."

you hesitated. "…are you?"

sunghoon looked at you like, seriously? before smirking, "depends. are you planning on doing that thing again...?"

you smiled a little. "depends. are you going to give me a few vacation leaves after?"

sunghoon leaned back in his chair, finally letting out a breath. "yes. and i'm going with you too."

you raised a brow. "oh? as my boss?"

"no... as someone even worse, baby."

SUNOO ─── ★

sunoo was laying across the couch, resting his head perfectly in your lap while wearing a soft, hydrating face mask on his face.

his hand traced circles on your knees while you ran your fingers through his soft hair, nails scratching lightly against his scalp. "you're too good at this..." sunoo murmured. "you trying to make me lose my mind?"

“i thought you already lost it?"

he smiled faintly. "which one do you think's doing it? the scalp massage or your attention?"

you chuckled, "which one do you like more?"

"hmm…" he hummed again, giving your knee a playful squeeze. "both. mostly your attention." he was about to close his eye but then he suddenly raised his brow, lips quirking. "why do you always touch your boss like this when you're off the clock though??"

"are you okay? you're the one on my lap."

sunoo smiled, closing his eyes. "sorry but you can't report me at my own house," he teased, then continued, "i can say whatever i want."

your hand slid in his chest. "i might start saying things back." you said, making sunoo sat up without any warning, signature eye smile started dropping through his ridiculous face mask.

"start talking."

JUNGWON ─── ★

"what are you looking at?" jungwon said without even turning his head as he could feel your eyes on him.

he hasn't spoke much since he walked in. he just buried himself behind his screen. you blinked, looking down at your desk like you hadn't been caught staring. "no—nothing."

he sighed through his nose before loosening his tie.

truth was, he hadn't been able to focus for the past hour because of you. and the way you bit your pen while choosing from the series of his pictures, making his brain short-circuit.

he really was trying to be good today.

you stood and walked over, leaning slightly over his desk to drop off a file. jungwon's fist clenched lightly on the desk as his eyes lowered right to the edge of the table, where your hip was angled just slightly in his direction. oh, it'd be so easy if you just drop to your knees now—

you tilted your head. "boss... you okay?"

he nodded eagerly. "yeah. yeah—just stressed." he said before looking up at you again, looking so innocent even though his tongue was pressing into his cheek, legs bouncing uncontrollably under the desk.

"...it's making me think of things i probably shouldn't about my assistant."

you blinked, confused. "whaーwhat?"

jungwon cleared his throat and quickly looked away, cheeks growing faint pink in embarrassment. "ignore that. i didn't say anything."

he avoided your eyes, rubbing the back of his neck... feeling how tight his pants suddenly felt.

NI-KI ─── ★

you tapped your foot impatiently as ni-ki walked past you in nothing but a towel and toothbrush hanging from his lips.

he pointed vaguely toward the bathroom, eyes half-lidded, and mumbling something incoherent before disappearing behind the door.

you checked the time as thirty minutes passed. why the fuck he was moving like a sloth?

"ni-ki?" you called, knocking on the bathroom door but there's no answer. you frowned before pushing it open, and just as you suspected, he's not there. the shower hasn't even been turned on.

"ni-ki!" you stormed into his bedroom—only to find him curled up on his bed, hugging his pillow like a baby. ni-ki groaned, cracking one eye open. "ughh, the fuck you so loud for?"

you marched over and shook his body, "we're gonna be late!"

and instead of getting up, he just reached out and pulled you into the bed like a goddamn trap. he locked you in his arms and buried his face into your neck. "let me borrow you real quick," he mumbled, his breath felt warm against your skin.

"ni-kiー" you struggled, squirming in his hold.

"shhh," he shushed you, tightening his grip with a little smirk, "you keep calling my name like that, i'll make sure you'll moan it out the next."

a/n: random ahh fic. posted this with round with my baby - reader x ni-ki

similar: ENHYPEN AS YOUR "HOMEBOYS"

masterlist: マスターリストm.list

[callsign-fox]

Dance with Me? - Bob/Robert Reynolds

Pairing: Bob/Robert Reynolds/Sentry x Fem!Reader/Superhero

Super fluffy, no warnings xo

I knew this movie would get me to write again, and I haven't even seen it yet! Don't worry, I am seeing it tomorrow ;)

Bucky’s apartment wasn’t home—but it was the closest thing to it. Nestled in a secured corner of Brooklyn, reinforced by his new position as a Congressman, it was a safe haven. A quiet place to hide. It was where Y/N had been laying low ever since she’d turned into a massive, flaming Phoenix above Manhattan—an event that had sent the world into a panic. The headlines hadn’t stopped. Neither had the government’s search.

The Phoenix inside her was too new. Too wild. Too dangerous. So, she stayed hidden. Waiting. Healing.

But that quiet broke the moment the Thunderbolts burst through Bucky’s door, weapons holstered but tension palpable—and someone new in their midst.

Something inside her shifted.

Light moved over her skin like a breeze—curious, tingling, alive. She felt it before she even saw him. From her place curled on the couch, Y/N lifted her head, gaze narrowing on the stranger. Her voice was calm, but her instincts were alert.

“Who's your new friend?”

“This is Bob,” Bucky replied casually, already heading toward the kitchen like this was just another Tuesday.

But Bob… wasn’t just another face.

Y/N’s eyes lingered longer than they should have. She could feel it—that coiled, restrained power humming beneath his skin. But deeper than that was something raw. Broken. Familiar.

He met her gaze, but didn’t smile.

She wondered if he felt her too.

Rising from the couch, Y/N moved a step closer, her voice soft. “He’s not like the rest of you.”

“No,” Yelena cut in, her eyes sharp. “Is this where you’ve been hiding the past few months?”

“Maybe,” Y/N answered, a sly grin tugging at her lips as she picked up her empty mug and headed to the kitchen.

“You’re a terrible government official,” Yelena called after Bucky. “Hiding a nuclear-level threat under your own roof. Cute.”

“I’m not a threat,” Y/N muttered, rolling her eyes.

Yelena mumbled something under her breath that Y/N chose to ignore. Bob quietly slipped into one of the armchairs while Yelena turned to the group.

“We’ve got things to discuss. Mind babysitting, Phoenix?”

“I don’t need a babysitter,” Bob said, barely louder than a breath. But even he didn’t sound convinced.

Y/N moved back into the living room, her fingers trailing along the back of the couch as she sat, perching at its edge. Yelena took the hint and filed out, Bucky following her with a last glance.

“You two don’t get into any trouble,” he said before the door clicked shut behind him.

Silence settled over the apartment like dust in sunlight.

Y/N rose slowly, her bare feet brushing over the cool hardwood floor. She could feel him watching her—his presence tugging at something inside her chest. It was strange. Electric. Right.

“You don’t talk much,” she said quietly.

Bob’s voice was rough, but not unfriendly. “Not a lot to say.”

She didn’t push. Instead, she turned to the bookshelf, flipping through the records until her fingers landed on something smooth and timeless—Sam Cooke. She dropped the needle, and the music filled the apartment like warmth spilling from an open window.

Turning to face him, she lifted a brow. “When’s the last time you smiled?”

He blinked. “I don’t really know.”

A small smile tugged at her lips. “Well… I don’t know you yet, Bob, but I have a feeling I can fix that.”

She held out her hand. He stared at it, confused.

“What?”

“Dance with me?”

A flicker of something crossed his face—surprise, maybe. Hope. He didn’t move, not at first.

“You want me to dance with you?”

“You heard me,” she teased, her grin growing. “A pretty girl is asking you to dance, you’re not going to turn her down, are you?”

He opened his mouth—maybe to argue, maybe to laugh—but no words came. Instead, he slipped his hand into hers and stood, slow and uncertain.

His hand was warm in hers. Solid. Real.

“One song,” she said softly. “No brooding. No worrying. Just… be human with me. Just for a moment.”

She guided him in, gently placing his hand on her waist, her other hand resting against his chest. It had been years since someone touched him like that—like he wasn’t dangerous. Like he wasn’t broken.

She moved first—swaying slowly, fluid and graceful. Bob was stiff at first, clumsy and hesitant, but she didn’t care. She wasn’t watching his feet.

She was watching his face.

“What are you, anyway?” she asked, her voice soft but steady.

His eyes narrowed, shadows flickering behind them. “Something powerful. Too powerful.”

She studied him for a beat, then nodded with a hint of a smirk. “Sounds like you’d give me a run for my money.”

He gave a small shrug, unreadable. “Maybe.”

But he didn’t look away, his eyes locked on hers.

“You’re allowed to let go sometimes you know,” she whispered, her breath brushing against his cheek. “I do.”

His eyes met hers, flickering with something fragile. “What happens if I let go… and everything falls apart?”

She tilted her head, inching closer. “Then we dance in the ashes.”

Something in him unraveled.

His shoulders dropped, his arm relaxed against her waist—and then, for the first time in what might’ve been forever, he smiled.

Y/N’s heart skipped, and she beamed back at him.

“There it is,” she said. “And it’s even more beautiful than I imagined.”

His smile lingered, shy and uncertain, but real. Y/N felt it again—like a pull deep in her chest, a thread tying her to him. It wasn’t just the dance or the song. It was him. The quiet storm beneath his surface. The sense that somehow, even though they'd just met, he wasn’t a stranger.

Their movements slowed until they were barely swaying, just standing in each other’s space. Close. Breath mingling.

Her hand slid up from his chest to rest just over his heart. “That smile looks good on you.”

Bob looked down at her, his brow furrowed like he was trying to solve a rather difficult puzzle. “You feel… familiar,” he murmured, his voice soft and reverent, like he was afraid of breaking whatever moment they’d stumbled into. 

Y/N’s breath caught in her throat. “I was thinking the same thing.”

The air between them shifted—charged, magnetic. Her eyes flicked to his lips just as he leaned the smallest bit closer. His hand at her waist tightened, just slightly, anchoring them in that fragile, suspended second.

It felt like the world had gone still, like the Phoenix inside her was holding its breath.

Then—

Click.

The front door swung open.

“You leave them alone for five minutes,” Bucky’s voice filled the room, too casual and far too loud, “and they throw a damn prom.”

Y/N took a sharp step back, cheeks flushed, pretending she hadn’t just been about to kiss a man she’d known for less than an hour.

Bob ran a hand through his hair and turned away, the moment shattered like glass underfoot.

Bucky blinked, then narrowed his eyes. “Am I interrupting something?”

“Nope,” Y/N said, voice an octave too high as she reached to turn off the record player. “Just... entertaining your guest.”

Bob sat back down without a word, his eyes carefully avoiding hers now, like if he looked again, he’d lean right back in.

Bucky raised an eyebrow but didn’t push. “Right. Well. We’ve got updates. Let’s all have a chat, shall we?”

Y/N nodded, but as she brushed past Bob on her way to the kitchen, her fingers grazed his—and just for a second, she felt that spark again. That pull.

Whatever this was between them—it wasn’t done yet.

Technically Part 2 - Space to Breathe

[saatorus]

for all the people who've suffered an emotionally abusive father :)

“I’ve told you multiple times, I don’t always have the time to coddle you. Don’t you understand? I get home from a tiring mission and you’re being like this—”

You try to tune it out. You try, you really do. But it’s hard not to feel a little bit of anger — no, hurt — at how insensitive your husband, Satoru, is being. You had waited all day for him to come home. Today was your goddamn fifth wedding anniversary. You had decorated the living room with fairy lights, made his favorite dinner, even wore the soft blue sweater he liked — the one he once said made you look like “something out of a dream.”

And yet, the moment he stepped through the door, it was like none of that mattered. His shoulders were tense, his hair still damp from a rushed shower, the scent of lingering sorcery clinging to him like smoke. You had wrapped your arms around him, pressed a soft kiss to his cheek, whispered a “Happy anniversary, love” against his skin.

But he had just gently pushed you off.

Not harshly, no. Satoru was never cruel. But it was enough to make you freeze. Enough to stir that little ache in your chest you’d worked so hard to quiet over the years. Enough that it led to all this.

“I never asked you to coddle me, I was just—”

“Well, I was obviously indicating you give me some space. I don’t always have to kiss you and touch you. I get so tired sometimes and—”

“I know,” you interrupted, your voice barely above a whisper. “I get that you do. I just thought… I thought maybe today, of all days…”

Your voice cracks. You hate that it does.

Satoru exhales through his nose, running a hand through his hair in frustration before suddenly—falling silent.

Just like that.

Not another word. He turns his back, walks into the bedroom without so much as glancing at you again.

And it’s that silence that cuts deeper than anything else.

Because suddenly, you're not standing in your shared apartment with your husband. You're eighteen years old again, sitting on the bed in your room with a weird sense of despair coiling in your stomach, watching your father turn away after another minor argument he claimed wasn't worth his breath. Sitting there, trying to figure out what is wrong with you. You remember how he would go days– no, weeks, even months– without speaking to you, how you’d tiptoe around the house trying to be good, better, perfect — all so he’d finally look at you again.

It’s not the same, you know it isn’t.

But your chest tightens all the same. The air feels thick. Wrong.

And just like that, the old panic sets in. The kind that gnaws at your ribs and wraps around your lungs like a vice. You swallow hard, gripping your hands tightly in your lap. You’re back in a place you swore you'd never return to—feeling like a burden, like your love was too loud, too much. Like your father all over again, who’d shut down and ignore you for ages if you ever stepped even slightly out of line. You blink away the sudden sting in your eyes and sit on the edge of the couch, your fingers twisting in the hem of your sweater. You try to breathe, to rationalize, but the panic builds quickly, threatening to tip into something messy and raw.

And then suddenly—he’s there.

“Wait, what’s wrong? Baby—hey, talk to me,” he says quickly, eyes scanning your face. “Did I…? Shit. I messed up. I know I did. I’m so sorry.”

You look up at him, startled by the urgency in his voice. His blindfold is off now, and his cerulean eyes are wide, frantic. He drops to his knees in front of you, resting his hands on your thighs.

You shake your head, tears clinging to your lashes. “No, I’m sorry too. I didn’t mean to cling or make it harder on you. I know you’re tired from missions, and I should’ve just… I could’ve wrapped everything up. We didn’t have to celebrate. I just thought maybe even a few minutes would’ve been nice.”

“No, no, no, don’t say that,” he whispers immediately, voice cracking. “You didn’t do anything wrong. Don’t ever apologize for loving me. Please.”

You try to look away, but he gently cups your face, thumbing away the tears on your cheeks.

“It’s just… when you went quiet,” you murmur, “it brought me back to a place I hate. My dad used to do that. Walk away. Shut me out. Make me feel like I was nothing. Like I didn’t deserve even a word.”

“I’m so sorry,” he says again, this time softer. “I didn’t realize—I just thought you were being clingy, and I was tired, and I snapped, but that’s not an excuse. You didn’t do anything wrong. God, I just realised it’s our anniversary and I…”

You don’t realize you’re crying until he cups your face gently and wipes a tear away with his thumb.

His expression crumples, heartbreak swimming in his eyes. “God, baby, I didn’t know. I didn’t mean to—fuck, I never want to make you feel like that. Ever.”

“I know,” you whisper. “You’re not him. But sometimes, my heart forgets. I just wanted to celebrate with you,” you whisper, voice trembling. “And when you shut down like that, when you go quiet… It makes me feel like I’m back there again. Like I’m that girl who was never good enough, never worth talking to.”

His expression falls.

“Baby,” he breathes. “No. No, no, no. You’re worth everything. You’re worth so much more than I can ever put into words. I’m so sorry for making you feel like that. I swear to you, I’ll never walk away like that again. Not from you. Never from you.”

He pulls you into his arms tightly, like he’s scared you’ll slip through his fingers. You bury your face into his neck, inhaling the scent of his skin, letting the warmth of his embrace slowly thaw the ice that had begun to creep into your heart.

“I love you,” he murmurs into your hair. “So much. I know I’m a pain in the ass sometimes, but I love you more than anything. Even more than sweets. Which is saying something. Like I’d ditch Kikufuku f’you—”

You laugh through your tears, and he grins like it’s the best sound he’s heard all day.

He pulls you into his chest again. “Never again,” he murmurs, voice thick with emotion, “I’ll never walk away like that again. Not even when I’m tired. Not when I’m angry. You are never too much. You are everything.”

“I love you,” you whisper.

“I love you more,” he replies instantly, nuzzling your temple. “More than anything. And I know I don’t say it right every time, but I feel it every second I’m breathing.”

You stay like that for a while, wrapped up in each other, until the silence finally feels safe again.

Eventually, he pulls back and flashes a small, sheepish smile.

“Come on,” he says, standing and lifting you up bridal-style, ignoring your surprised squeak. “Let me make it up to you. We’ll re-do the whole night, yeah? Lights, candles, that ridiculous playlist you made—”

“The one you said sounded like a 2005 prom?”

“Exactly. I hated it. Let’s play it right now.”

He sets you down gently on the bed, then kisses your forehead, your cheeks, your nose, and finally your lips — soft and slow, like a promise.

“You’re everything to me,” he says against your mouth. “And I’ll spend the rest of my life proving it.”

This time, when he pulls you into his arms, there’s no tension in his shoulders. Just warmth. Just love.

And despite the rocky start, the night ends just how it was meant to: with candlelight dancing across the walls, soft music playing in the background, and Satoru Gojo curled up beside you, feeding you spoonfuls of lukewarm curry and whispering “I love you” between every bite.

Flawed, but perfect. Just like the two of you.

And the rest of the night passes in the glow of fairy lights and bad music, wrapped in the comfort of knowing that even in the moments where things falter — you always find your way back to each other.

yes this is entirely self indulgent and yes my father has been ignoring me for an exact month and yes this is a slight trauma dump but for anyone in a similar situation just know that you're never alone, and it will get better, i love you

[aleksatia]

What would the LaDS do if MC just had enough of the whole secret keeping/manipulation/stalking/controlling behavior and ran away? Like she made sure all of the ways they're keeping tabs on her don't work anymore, secretly leaves to live elsewhere, and never comes back? Like she's GONE gone and can't be found.

Thanks so much for the question and the idea — it made me spiral beautifully into angst territory. 🖤 At first glance, this is how I imagine things would unfold in my headcanon.

Every LaDS reacts differently, and honestly… some of them never really recover. I poured my heart into each of their perspectives, so if you see it another way, I’d love to hear your take. Always open to different interpretations — especially when it comes to pain like this. 😌✨

UPD: Requested continuation is here:

Sylus | Rafayel | Caleb | Zayne (coming soon) | Xavier (coming soon)

🦅 Sylus

(He doesn’t lose things. He takes, he keeps. But this—this is loss. A slow-rotting, world-tilting, soul-gnawing kind of loss.)

The Moment It Hits

It’s a shift in the air. An emptiness where something vital used to be. His breath catches, fingers tightening around the crystal glass of whiskey.

He calls you. Nothing.

He tracks you. Nothing.

He tears the city apart—contacts, satellites, underground networks. Nothing.

Then it hits. You’re not hiding. You’re beyond reach.

Does He Blame Himself?

At first, no. You’re just being difficult. Testing limits. He trained you too well in the game of power.

Then the days stretch. The silence rots in his gut.

Maybe he pushed too far. Held too tight. Loved too hard.

But if he had been softer, would you still be here? No. You were always going to run. He just never thought you’d win.

First Day

He sits in his study, staring at the last glass you touched. His fingers hover over the rim, but he doesn’t pick it up.

The Nest is in chaos, men scrambling for orders, but he says nothing. Just listens to the empty resonance where you used to be.

He doesn’t sleep. He barely moves. And when dawn breaks, he realizes—you’re still gone.

First Week

The silence is unbearable.

He smashes a mirror. Then a chair. Then an entire fucking room. But the noise doesn’t bring you back.

Music. That’s the answer. The organ swells under his fingers, but the sound doesn’t fill the void. It just makes it worse. The walls of his mansion tremble with the weight of his grief, but no one dares to stop him.

The first time he says Kitten, it’s barely a whisper. The second time, it’s a growl. The third—it’s a plea.

First Month

He kills a man just for saying your name. He kills another for looking at him wrong.

The city learns to be silent.

The organ plays every night, each melody heavier, darker—until one evening, he simply stops. Because music is agony now.

He thinks he hears you sometimes. A shift of fabric. A sharp inhale. But he turns, and there’s only the crushing weight of absence.

Five Years

People say he’s gone mad. That he talks to ghosts. That he’s lost his edge.

They don’t understand. He hasn’t lost it. He just has nothing left to prove.

He still feels you. Somewhere distant. Beyond his reach but never truly gone.

New Relationships? Don’t be ridiculous. He fucks, maybe. But no one’s ever allowed to touch his soul again.

He doesn’t chase anymore. Because one day, the universe will break in just the right way, and you’ll be within reach again.

And when that day comes—you’re not running anymore.

🌊 Rafayel

(He always smiled through pain. Painted beauty over grief. But when you disappeared, not even art could hide the collapse.)

The Moment It Hits

He waits three days before admitting to himself that you're really gone. Not late. Not upset. Gone.

Your studio key still sits on the shelf. The mug you always used — untouched. He tries calling. Messaging. Pretends he's not panicking.

Then he checks every port, every passage, every gallery, every alleyway where your soul might've left a trace.

You’ve vanished. And he knows—you didn’t want to be found.

Does He Blame Himself?

Every minute.

He retraces every word, every joke, every lingering glance he didn’t take seriously enough.

Maybe he should’ve said it clearer. Or sooner. Or not at all.

Maybe if he hadn’t tried so hard to keep it light, you would’ve known how deep he really felt.

First Day

He draws you. Over and over. Not from memory — from guilt.

He tries to remember how your mouth looked when you smiled through frustration. How your eyes dimmed when you thought he wasn’t watching.

He doesn’t eat. Doesn’t sleep. Paints until his fingers bleed.

First Week

He keeps thinking he hears your voice in the wind. That you're just out of frame.

Sits by the harbor, waiting for a boat that never comes.

Finishes a canvas. Stares at it for an hour. Then sets it on fire.

Tells himself he’s fine. He lies beautifully.

First Month

People ask where you are. He says you're traveling. Or healing. Or chasing a dream.

But the gallery knows — there’s a new collection in the works. All unnamed. All in shades of drowning.

The walls of his home are covered in your outlines. He keeps the lights low. Pretends it’s intimacy, not absence.

The world starts to lose its color. For a man who once saw millions of shades, everything dulls. Muted. Grey.

He stops using yellow entirely.

First Year

He vanishes beneath the sea. A whole year. Gone.

They say he swam through old ruins, sang to coral reefs that didn’t sing back.

He gathers shells—perfect, fragile—and crushes them into powder, making pigments no one's ever seen.

But they all come out grey.

When he finally resurfaces, his skin is colder. His voice is softer. His art—wordless grief on stretched canvas.

When asked what inspired them, he says: “Nothing. She’s not mine anymore.”

And when no one’s looking, he traces your initials into wet paint. Every time.

Five Years

He exhibits a piece called "When Silence Learned to Scream." It sells for millions. He doesn’t show up to the opening.

He no longer draws faces. Only fragments—lips that look like yours, fingers that used to hold his brush.

He’s touched people. Kissed some. Loved none.

He still sets a second cup of coffee. Still leaves the balcony door unlocked. Just in case.

The color never comes back. He just learns to fake it.

He doesn’t wait. He just… exists beside the ghost of you.

✈️ Caleb

(You were the only thing that made him feel human. Now, he’s just another machine built for war—functional, efficient, and dead inside.)

The Moment It Hits

He notices the silence first.

Your messages stop. Your routine shifts. Something’s off, but he tells himself you just need space. You’ve always needed space.

He checks on you through the usual systems—his eyes, the satellites, the passive trackers he swore weren’t invasive, just precautionary.

Nothing. Not disabled. Not broken. Gone.

His knees hit the floor before he can stop them. His hand wraps around the metal tag you gave him—the one he swore never to take off. It digs into his palm so hard it leaves a mark.

Does He Blame Himself?

He doesn’t even need to ask. Of course, it’s his fault.

Maybe if he had held you a little looser, if he had let you breathe, if he hadn’t always been watching, waiting, bracing for the day you’d run.

Maybe if he had been less Caleb and more someone you could love without suffocating.

But it’s too late now.

First Day

His body stops feeling like his own. Like his mechanical arm, the rest of him loses sensation.

He moves, eats, speaks, salutes—out of habit, not need.

But sometimes, when no one is watching, the pain surfaces.

And when it does, it swallows him whole.

First Week

He takes every mission no one else wants. The more dangerous, the better.

Tells himself he’s just doing his job, but deep down, he’s testing fate. Daring it to take him.

It never does.

He always comes back. And he hates it.

First Month

He stops cooking. No more spices, no more warmth, no more shared meals.

Only bland, military rations. Fuel, not food.

He doesn’t touch your photo albums, but he doesn’t throw them away either.

Let them rot with him.

First Year

He hasn’t eaten apples since the day you left.

Too sweet. Too alive. Too much like you.

The dog tag you gave him is still around his neck. A brand. A wound. A curse.

He tries. Once. With a woman from the med bay. She was kind. Gentle.

But when she reached for his hand—his jaw locked, his throat closed, his stomach churned.

He excused himself. Never tried again.

Five Years

His name is legendary. His rank? Higher than anyone imagined.

The man who never dies. The ghost pilot. The one who walks away from wreckage without a scratch.

He used to hate attention, but now? Now his inaccessibility makes women chase him more. He lets them. But never sees their faces. Never lets them touch his scars. Never lets them hold him the way you used to.

Because pain is all he has left of you. And he’s not ready to let it go.

🧊 Zayne

(Some men burn in their grief. Some men drown in it. Zayne? He freezes. The world still turns, the city still moves, and he walks through it like a ghost wearing a doctor’s coat. Precise. Detached. Functioning. But never living.)

The Moment It Hits

He finds out through absence, not presence.

You were always predictable in small ways. The way you fidgeted when nervous. The way you always texted before vanishing for a few hours. The way you left traces of yourself in his space, even when you didn’t mean to.

But one day, all of it stops.

Your number disconnects. Your bank account closes. The security cameras catch nothing. Too clean. Too final.

You didn’t just leave. You erased yourself.

Does He Blame Himself?

No. Not at first.

Because blaming himself would mean accepting that he miscalculated, and he does not make mistakes.

He spends months analyzing. Running simulations. Mapping out every logical reason why you left.

None of them make sense.

Then, one night, while sitting alone in his office, he makes the mistake of asking himself the one question he’s been avoiding—

What if it wasn’t logic? What if it was just pain?

That’s the first time he doesn’t sleep.

First Day

The hospital is quiet. Too quiet.

He operates. He consults. He performs at peak efficiency because the alternative is stopping, and stopping means thinking.

At the end of the day, he unlocks his apartment and stares at the empty space where your things used to be.

He stands there.

Just stands there.

First Week

His routine doesn’t break. Not once.

5 AM runs. 12-hour shifts. Research until 2 AM.

No deviations. Because deviations lead to cracks.

The first time someone mentions your name, his scalpel slips.

It never happens again.

First Month

He starts closing doors he once left open.

Stops looking at his phone. Stops checking messages.

Your coffee order is deleted from his usual café’s system.

He doesn’t erase you. That would be emotional.

He simply moves forward.

First Year

He doesn’t say your name anymore.

When people ask, he says you’re gone. No details. No elaboration.

But his residents whisper.

How their attending stopped smiling. How he works more than sleeps. How his precision became ruthless.

They never mention the fact that he never, ever, takes cases where patients have your eye color.

Five Years

The rumors are true. He has a daughter.

No one knows the mother. No one dares ask.

He never talks about it, never brings her to the hospital, but he leaves every shift at exactly the same time—always back before she falls asleep.

He teaches her to count constellations on the ceiling. Reads her anatomy books like fairy tales.

She has your eyes. People notice. Whisper. But no one asks.

And when she laughs—it’s a sound that shatters something in him.

When she asks, “Was Mommy like me?” He pauses. Looks at her. Then, softly: "She was... the part of you I’ll never be able to explain."

He never married. Never will.

And sometimes, when the room is too quiet, and she’s asleep in his arms—he looks at her face and wonders if loving someone this much was ever ethical.

🌌 Xavier

(He doesn’t fall apart. He folds in. Quietly. Gracefully. Like a dying star still casting light no one realizes is already gone.)

The Moment It Hits

It starts with your resignation.

No dramatic exit. No farewell. Just one line in the system: “Resigned. No forwarding information.”

You, who lived for the Hunt, for duty. You, who said this was everything.

He tries to message. Silence.

Asks around. Friends. Colleagues. Command. They say you just… vanished.

Then one day, he walks past your old apartment—someone else lives there.

Your scent, your presence, your trace in the universe—gone.

Does He Blame Himself?

He tries not to.

Tells himself you were always drifting, always meant to disappear.

But the silence between you, the things he never said— “Stay. I need you.” “I was never calm, I just didn’t know how to show it.”

They echo in his mind louder than any explosion.

He doesn’t hate himself. But he never forgives.

First Day

He stays on duty longer than needed.

Doesn’t take off his coat. Doesn’t go home.

Doesn’t even speak, unless the mission demands it.

At night, he stares at the ceiling and wonders if you’re staring at the same stars.

First Week

He starts bounty hunting again. Harder. Deeper into uncharted zones.

He sleeps more—but worse. Dreams flicker like static.

When he returns, they say he’s become faster. Colder. Lethal.

No one dares ask why.

First Month

He stops wearing light colors.

White fades into grey. Grey fades into black.

He says nothing about the change.

But those who know him realize: he’s mourning.

And it’s a mourning that will never end.

First Year

Women try. Of course they do.

He’s distant. Beautiful. Untouchable.

He lets a few in—physically. But only when the emptiness claws too loudly.

He never sees their faces. Never lets them stay the night.

One once whispered, “I could love you, if you let me.” He didn’t respond. Just walked away.

Because you never had to ask. You already did.

Five Years

He’s still hunting. Still tracking the lost, the dangerous, the damned.

He walks through warzones like a shadow of starlight.

No one has seen him in white in years.

They call him a myth. A legend. A ghost.

But he’s just a man who would trade eternity for one more day with you.

Just one day.

Just once—to see your face again.

[rafesgreasycurtainbangs]

Rafe catching you applying for more higher level jobs after the incident with telling Ward you’re pregnant

you don’t have to prove anything to me - rafe cameron x pregnant!pogue!reader

series masterlist

content: ward (ew.), pregnancy related stress, pregnant!reader, emotional distress, family conflict, self doubting

au: love writing these. keep the asks coming!

word count: 689

Rafe wasn’t stupid. He might’ve acted impulsively sometimes, let his temper get the best of him, but when it came to you—he noticed everything. That’s why, when he stepped into the bedroom that night and saw you curled up on the bed, laptop open, brows furrowed in focus, something in his chest tightened. You looked determined. Too determined. And that’s when he saw it—the email drafts, the open job applications, the résumés lined up on your screen like a desperate, last-minute attempt at control.

His stomach dropped. He didn’t say anything right away, just leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed over his chest as he watched you, waiting for you to notice him. It took a moment, but then your fingers slowed on the keyboard, and you sighed, rubbing at your temples before glancing over. The second your eyes met his, you stiffened. “Rafe,” you breathed, snapping the laptop shut like you’d been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to.

His lips twitched, not in amusement, but in something softer, something sadder. “Something you wanna tell me?” You hesitated, eyes darting away. “It’s nothing.” “Doesn’t look like nothing,” he countered, nodding toward your laptop. “Looks like a whole lot of job applications for positions you swore you weren’t interested in just a couple of months ago.” You swallowed hard. “I just… I just want to be prepared, that’s all.” “For what?” His voice wasn’t harsh, but it was firm. Steady. “Baby, we don’t need more money. You don’t need to prove anything.” Your throat tightened. “It’s not about that.” Rafe pushed off the doorframe, walking toward you slowly, carefully, like he was approaching something fragile. Maybe he was. “Then what is it about?” he murmured, sinking onto the edge of the bed, close enough to touch you, but not yet reaching out. He needed you to tell him first. You exhaled shakily, fingers curling into the blankets.

“Your dad.” Rafe’s jaw clenched. “I just—” You sucked in a sharp breath, shaking your head. “He made me feel small, Rafe. Like I wasn’t good enough. Like I was just… some girl who made a mistake. And I know I shouldn’t let it get to me, but I can’t stop hearing his voice in my head, and—” Your breath hitched. “I don’t ever want to feel like that again. Like I have to prove that I deserve to be in this family. That I deserve to have this baby with you.”

Rafe was silent. Not because he didn’t care. Because he cared too much. Because he knew exactly what it was like to live under the weight of his father’s expectations, to feel like no matter what you did, it would never be enough. And now, Ward had made you feel like that too. Something inside him burned. He reached for you then, cupping your face, his thumbs brushing softly over your cheeks. “Listen to me,” he said, voice low, almost rough with emotion. “You don’t have to prove anything to him. Or to anyone. You are enough—more than enough. For me, for this baby… for everything.”

You swallowed thickly, blinking up at him. His grip tightened, not harsh, but firm. Grounding. “I don’t care what he thinks,” Rafe continued. “I don’t care if he never comes around. I chose you. You are the mother of my child. And there is not a single doubt in my mind that you are exactly where you’re meant to be.” Your breath shuddered. “But what if—” “No,” Rafe cut in, shaking his head. “No what ifs, baby. Not with this.” Your eyes were glassy now, the weight of his words pressing into your chest. Rafe exhaled sharply before pulling you into his arms, wrapping himself around you like he could shield you from every cruel word, every doubt, every fear. “You’re everything to me,” he murmured against your hair. “And I swear to you, I won’t let anyone make you feel less than that again.” You buried your face in his chest, your fingers gripping onto his shirt like a lifeline. And for the first time since that conversation with Ward, you felt safe.

[malfoysanctuary]

Teach Me Softness

Mattheo Riddle x Reader

Summary: He thought every touch had a cost, every kiss an expectation.

Mattheo Riddle had always been fire. Not the warm kind that crackled under hearthstone, but the kind that razed forests, left nothing but ash.

So when Y/n touched him the first time—just a brush of her hand against his as they walked from Potions—he flinched like he’d been burned.

She didn’t say anything.

She never did.

The first few weeks of dating him were… hard. Not the usual “he forgets your favorite drink” kind of hard, but the kind that lives in your chest and makes you ache for someone who never learned what softness felt like.

Mattheo was beautiful, dangerous, impossibly intelligent—and terrified.

Not of her, exactly.

But of what her love meant. Of what it asked of him.

Because to Mattheo, love came with strings. Expectations. Rules written in scars and moans and skin pressed too hard against his.

So when Y/n kissed him on the couch in the Slytherin common room—just kissed him, nothing else—he tried to tug her shirt up before he even pulled away.

“Mattheo,” she whispered, breathless but not giving in, her hands gently pushing his away. “That’s not what I’m asking for.”

He froze.

His eyes clouded, confused. “Isn’t it?”

“No,” she whispered. “Not tonight. Not now.”

He blinked like the words didn’t compute. Like he’d misread the entire language of touch.

And maybe he had.

Because for the first month they were together, he couldn’t even hold her hand without his fingers tightening, sliding up her wrist, trailing toward skin he wasn’t sure he had permission to crave.

It wasn’t about lust.

It was about instinct.

Mattheo had learned early that touch came with a price. That kisses turned into currency. That warmth always spiraled into heat until someone got burned.

Three months in, Y/n finally understood what it meant to love someone who didn’t know what safe felt like.

And he started to understand, for the first time, that maybe her touch wasn’t a spark begging to ignite him— Maybe it was a balm.

The moment it all changed wasn’t loud.

It wasn’t a fight. It wasn’t even a kiss.

It was a quiet Tuesday. Cold. Wind rattling the windowpanes of the castle.

Mattheo had just come back from detention—his jaw tense, knuckles red, eyes darker than usual. He walked straight past her in the common room, didn’t even meet her eyes, and disappeared into his dorm without a word.

Y/n waited ten minutes. Then fifteen. Then thirty.

When she finally climbed the stairs and pushed open the door to his dorm, she found him sitting on the edge of his bed, elbows on his knees, shaking.

“Mattheo.”

He didn’t look at her.

“I—” He swallowed. “I said something to Professor Snape. I don’t even remember what. He asked why I was always angry and I—I couldn’t even answer him.”

She came closer. Slowly. Sat beside him, far enough that he didn’t feel caged.

“I think I’m broken,” he whispered.

“No,” she said simply. “You’re just bleeding.”

His throat bobbed.

“I don’t know how to do this,” he confessed. “Be… held. Be soft. I’ve never known a touch that didn’t want something from me.”

“I don’t want anything from you,” she murmured. “Just you.”

She held out her hand—not reaching for him. Just offering.

It took him three full minutes before he took it.

When he did, his grip was so light it barely counted. Like he was afraid he’d crush something delicate.

And then he didn’t let go.

Not even when they lay back on his bed, side by side, fully clothed, eyes fixed on the canopy above them.

He didn’t touch her the way he usually did.

His hand just stayed in hers. Still. Quiet.

And that was when he realized—maybe her touch didn’t mean fire.

Maybe it meant home.

Time didn’t heal him. She did. Slowly. With patience that most people didn’t understand.

The first time he let her cup his face without turning it into something more, he cried.

Not a lot. Not loud.

Just two tears that slipped down his cheeks as her thumb brushed over his jaw.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered, voice wrecked.

“What for?”

“For only knowing how to take.”

“You didn’t take anything from me,” she said gently. “You gave me something. You gave me you.”

He shook his head. “I gave you ruins.”

She leaned in, kissed his forehead.

“Then I’ll build a home from them.”

It wasn’t all easy.

Some nights he still woke up with bruises under his eyes, heart pounding from nightmares he never talked about.

Some mornings he avoided her touch, afraid he’d forget again—that he’d grab her waist, pull her close, kiss her neck before asking if she wanted him to.

And she never punished him for it.

She just kept showing up.

Holding his hand for eleven minutes instead of ten. Laying beside him in the dark and reminding him that love didn’t come with conditions.

That she wasn’t a test he had to pass.

That he could love her with trembling fingers and still be enough.

The turning point came during Christmas break.

They were alone in the Slytherin common room, curled up on the sofa beneath a green wool blanket.

She was reading. He was sketching something in the corner of a torn-up Arithmancy book.

Y/n reached over, absently tucked a piece of hair behind his ear.

He didn’t flinch.

Didn’t tense.

Didn’t reach for her hips or slip his hand up her thigh.

He just… smiled.

And then, very quietly, leaned in and pressed a kiss to her temple.

“Thank you,” he whispered.

“For what?”

“For teaching me how to want you… without needing to take from you.”

Y/n turned to him, heart aching, eyes wet.

“I’m so proud of you,” she said.

And gods, that broke him.

Because no one had ever said that before.

Not once.

He didn’t even realize he was crying until her hand was on his face again, thumbs brushing under his eyes.

“I love you, Mattheo,” she whispered. “In all the ways no one ever taught you you deserved.”

He rested his forehead against hers.

And for the first time in his life, he didn’t think of touch as foreplay.

He thought of it as safety.

As proof.

As love.

[thecoochiefairy]

sucky sucky. satoru.

𑄽𑄺 warnings 𑄽𑄺 10K words. blackpregnantfem!character, satoru gojo, pharmacists!satoru, sub!satoru, dom!satoru, nasty sex, shower/tub sex, sweet sex, black woman, vaginal penetration, rough, sweet talkin’, hair pulling, creaming, oral [f], choking, praising, LOTS of dirty talk, riding, face sitting, condomless sex, size kink, daddy kink, creampie, squirting, kissing, spanking, minors aren’t welcome!

━━ 𝒄𝙤𝒐𝙘𝒉𝙞𝒆𝙛𝒂𝙞𝒓𝙮 𝙩𝒉𝙤𝒖𝙜𝒉𝙩𝒔 .ᐟ this for that one anon who wanted satoru, cause i wanted him too. love you pookie. hehe.

showering w/ satoru. ride me, baby. sitting on his face.

DAWN WAS YOUR FAVORITE TIME OF THE DAY. The sun hadn’t risen just yet, the sounds of your box fan humming through your pitch black bedroom always brought you comfort, and it was almost as if the entire world was still asleep. Your feet sunk into your bunny slippers, your soft steps pad along the white marble floor of the condo you resided in with your husband—who was currently sound asleep, able to knock out in a natural disaster as you crept out of bed. 

You decided to not turn on any lights as you came down the hallway, letting the dim screen of your phone guide you as you went towards his office close to the living room. Your hand lightly planted along the swell of your belly, taking deep breaths as you tried to focus on making it to his baby blue IMAC, needing to do more research. You were desperate at this point. 

You were nine months pregnant, the full term having been a wonderful experience as you waited for your bun to come out of the oven—the only issue was, you were almost a week after your due date, and you were now miserable. Your entire body felt heavy as your baby sat directly on your bladder, causing you to have shortness of breath at times, making you waddle essentially all the time. Regardless, you had the support you needed. Even if you were an emotional wreck. 

You keep the door cracked as you push the light switch halfway up, allowing the room to be dim as you make your way over to the desktop, clicking your french tipped fingers along the mouse to ignite the screen. Your heart shaped Cartier wedding ring glimmers along your finger—it always reminds you of the price, how you cried for Satoru to return it for something cheaper, and he felt that you deserved nothing but the best. 

You didn’t mean to wake him up, but you did anyway. You sigh lightly as you can hear his heavy footsteps coming down the hallway, his tall and broad frame unable to sneak around even if he tried. 

“Baby, please come to bed.”

You turn your head, pulling back the flyaway of your curls as they’re hidden under your baby pink bonnet to protect your hair. Your edges swirl to perfection along your forehead, glasses tipping at your nose. 

You softly ask, “Did I wake you up?”

 “I woke up when you left. Your absence was too loud." 

He rubs his eye with his big fists, his body leaning up against the door frame. His voice was low and husky with sleep. His hair is white as snow, his bangs covering his eyes as he rubs at his face, shirtless as his basketball shorts fall right below his defined and veiny V-line. The minimal tattoos along his body and arms are visible with the light from the computer, but considering how small they were you’d almost miss them.

You turn yourself towards him as you apologize, “I know you have work in a couple of hours. You should go back to sleep.”

"It is four in the morning, baby. I’m good. C’mere.”

He stretches his arms out, his veins popping along each one as he motions for you to come over to him. You knew he had work tomorrow, but the way he said it made it feel like you were crazy for even staying up this early. Your eyes glance at his biceps as he stretches, his toned body and defined abs on full display.

“I’m just doing some research. Google says raspberry leaf tea can sometimes induce labor, I might need to grab some tomorrow,” you hum more to yourself, your eyes flickering up as he walks towards you, seeing the amusement within his icy eyes.

"I might just have to block that Google shit entirely, you find more things to research and it sends you into a complete spiral.“  

You sigh, turning to him as you chew on your lip, wanting to hold back your pout.

“Baby…” you sigh, almost in an exhausted manner, hearing as that makes him chuckle at your disappointment of his words.

"Don’t make that face at me. You know I’m right.”

He knows you're trying to help the process, and you're tired of sleeping on your side, being swollen and achy. He leans down as he presses a kiss onto your jaw. Your hormones are all out of whack as you even try not to get emotional at his words, knowing he meant no harm.

“It doesn’t hurt to try,” you lightly defend, hating when he was dismissive. You then click off safari along the computer as you attempt to stand, pressing your hand along the desk as you groan lightly—you just wanted to stand without struggling.

"Hey, let me help you, baby.”

He stands behind you, placing his hand on your lower back to steady your stance, but hesitates as you push his hand away.

“I can do it myself, Satoru…” 

Fucking hell, there it was. The tears forming in your vision. You didn’t know why you were about to cry. You wipe your eyes as you hold your belly, taking a deep breath as you sniffle, “I’m not helpless.”

"I know you’re not, pretty girl. Let me just help you, okay? You can walk yourself back to bed.” 

You were always prideful and resilient, but right now—you were a hot mess, the pregnancy hormones making you teary eyed often these days.

He knew how to handle you. It just depended on your emotions, and he was there to respond in any way he needed to. Like now, it was best not to make you become defensive—because you were—instead giving you an ultimatum, to make you still feel in control of yourself. You lean your hand along his stomach as you use your other hand to wipe your eyes, “Baby girl’s sitting on my bladder again.”

He places a hand along your belly, his palm firm as it sits atop of your own. 

"Do you need to pee, baby? You’re always feeling like that.” 

His voice was so tender as he spoke, he knew you were sensitive right now, so he had to be gentle with you.

You shake your head, “Just wanna lay down.” 

He nods, understanding as he makes sure your legs are sturdy before he helps you walk down the hallway, taking your hand to let him guide you. His big palm practically engulfs yours, but the warmth of his hand instantly gives you some comfort as you take slow and wobbly steps towards your bedroom. 

You successfully make it towards the soft white comforter set, golden swan headboard curving under the lights of the room as you sit yourself on your side of the mattress. You squeeze his hand a little tighter as you then say, “I wasn’t crying.”

He lets a low chuckle escape from his lips as he stands in front of you. Taking your face in between his hands that makes you look up at him, his soft thumbs graze along your skin, wiping away your tears. 

"Oh, you weren’t? An intruder cutting onions in my house?”  

His lips press a sweet kiss to your cheek, the faint scent of his cologne lingering on his skin. It was your favorite fragrance, a mixture of sandalwood and musk. 

You release a soft sigh, gently pushing his hands down as you say, “You’re unserious as hell,” rolling your eyes. You then ask, “Are you sure your employees will be okay if you have to leave work tomorrow?” 

You had a doctor's appointment to determine whether or not they could just pop your water bag, or give it a couple of days to let the baby come herself. Your husband was a Pharmacists CEO—which seemed fairly easy within the name—but it was so much more into his job, keeping him at work for hours at a constant.

"They’ll be good, baby. I think you forget that I have a team working for me, I don’t hire any dumbass staff. If anything they’re excited to play on the clock while I’m not around.”

You absentmindedly lock your fingers around the pendant of your necklace, nodding as your other hand rubs along his flexing forearm. 

You then remind him, “You need to sleep, Satoru. Otherwise you’ll be the dumbass on your team, walking around like a zombie on the clock.”

"I’ve been dealing with sleepless nights for almost a year now because of someone,” He leans down, “Gimme’ your mouth. I’m missing you like hell.”

Your eyes scan across the dangerous glint of his, always a mischief somewhere in them. Your lash extensions flutter as you say, “Kay,” almost a little too girlishly, raising your mouth up to his. 

He could be a completely different person when things became a little feisty between you two, feeling his mouth wrap around your lips, hungrily sucking your tongue inside to reel you closer. It makes your cheeks warm.

It felt like years since he held your mouth to his own, the taste of you making him grunt as he took his time with it. He knew he’d have to be cautious to not get carried away, you were heavily pregnant, and the last thing he wanted to do is hurt you. 

He sucks on your bottom lip as his hand moves down to your ass, squeezing and massaging his fingers into the plush skin under his hand.

The feeling makes your breath lightly hitch through your nose, and a throb comes between your legs. You pull your mouth back, pressing your forehead against his as you softly say, “I’m tired, ’toru,” using that as an excuse as you felt yourself becoming incredibly horny, not wanting to continue further than that.

He knew your signs of exhaustion when they came, so he wasn't surprised when you pulled back from his lips, but a part of him didn't want to stop. The sight of your pouty expression makes him release a low groan. Your swollen face, your long eyelashes, your pretty lips. The pregnancy absolutely made you sexier. 

He reluctantly pulls away from your face, "C’mon, imma’ try to get some rest before I’m cussing out my employees for no reason.”

Somewhere in you feels bad. You know he’s been holding back for months, considering your libido has been incredibly low since you became pregnant. But for whatever reason with you close to giving birth, your lower body was on fire, needing him in ways you couldn’t imagine yourself acting. It was egregious. Maybe you should’ve googled something on that.

When the next day came, you were being dropped off by the chauffeur at your doctor's office. The walls inside were pink, your smile soft as you greeted silently at other pregnant women. You sat in the waiting room as your hands were along your belly, watching the smaller children play with the toys provided by the office, imagining yourself to have a playful baby of your own. It’d already been Satoru’s third time calling you today, making sure you arrived safely to your appointment while he was at work. And he said you were worrisome. 

When it was your turn to be called back, you couldn’t help but feel a little nervous. You were so close to the due date, and still, the baby hasn’t shown an indication of coming out the oven. 

You were greeted by your OB, a middle-aged woman who was friendly enough, but you couldn’t help but feel a little uneasy. After getting your weight checked, you sat on the examination bed as she began looking over your swollen belly.

“How are you feeling?” she questions, cream colored skin being complimented by her red lipstick, onyx hair clipped perfectly into a bob.

“I’m okay,” you say softly, giving a smile to her, “I’m just feeling a little heavy. It’s been a bit of a struggle to walk at times, she won’t get off of my bladder,” you give a light laugh, “I just wanted to see if I was okay to get induced today? I’m just—I feel ready, doctor.”

The doctor nods as she looks over your information sheet on her clipboard, listening to you as you spoke with her. After a short pause, she answers, “Well, you’re full term, your water could break at any moment. However, I suggest waiting a few more days before we try the induction process, your body will go naturally when it’s ready.”   

She moves the stethoscope along your belly, listening to your baby’s heart rate. But not what you wanted to hear. It makes you sigh, “May I ask why there would be a difference between induction, and if the baby came on her own tonight?”

“The induction process can be a little more painful for you, honey. The contractions are more intense as we try to force your body to go into labor,” she moves away as she takes off her stethoscope, placing it back onto her neck as she pauses, “I would try some natural techniques that can induce labor, but, there’s no guarantee.“

“That makes sense,” you nod more to yourself, “I was up doing some research last night. Didn’t find much considering my husband ordered me back to bed. Are there any at home suggestions you’d give me as far as going into labor?”

The doctor gives a chuckle as she writes something on her clipboard, “I see. Your husband is a smart man, he knows what’s best for you right now. How about you try walking more? It helps bring the baby lower into the birth canal, maybe that will help your body’s natural contractions begin?” She looks back at you, “Sex is also a very healthy way of triggering a natural induction. A lot of my momma’s have some quite interesting stories,” she pats your leg lightly, same sweet smile against her face.

You’re a grown woman, but an older woman suggesting sex with your husband is something that makes your throat go dry. It even makes you blush a bit. You blink, pulling down the baby tee you wear that desperately wants to release your breast from the confinement of the material, your nipples extremely sensitive.

“Uh…sex can trigger my labor?” You repeat.

"Absolutely, sweetheart. It can help release oxytocin and prostaglandins, which can stimulate your body’s natural contractions. I’m sure your husband will be very happy to hear that,” she gives you a little smirk before adding, “It's a very effective way to start labor, a nice release for both momma and poppa.”

“Is it safe, even with my baby girl being so close to my cervix?” You have a thousand questions—definitely should've been a little quieter as you snuck into the office last night. Maybe you would’ve known this by now.

The doctor laughs, seemingly surprised by your question, but answers it anyway, “It’s absolutely okay. Baby girl won’t be harmed. A lot of my patients have sex throughout their pregnancies, it’s completely normal,” she moves back and takes her seat on her office chair, “Just be careful, but don’t be too careful. It might just do the job for you.”

At that moment, your head turns as a knock comes to the door. When it opens, it reveals Satoru—who’s not dressed within his lab coat and button up. He wears a black long sleeve, matching sweatpants accompanied with his blue New Balance 9060 sneakers, shades on his eyes as his vision strained from the sun at times. His top is practically suffocating his large frame, it’s like he has to crouch down to make everyone else comfortable. You see he holds your pale pink Nike duffle, your birth bag slung over his shoulder in preparation for anything. It almost makes you giggle. 

“You’re here,” you say, a warm smile coming to your face, not expecting him to be since you didn’t call him to come.

He loved this. He loved how you were absolutely radiating right now, all round and pretty, carrying his baby. He moves closer, bending over as he presses a kiss to the top of your head before greeting, “Hey, my pretty baby. I had a free hour in a half so I thought I’d come check up on my girl. She’ good?” he questions the doctor.

The doctor nods, placing her clipboard back into its holder, “Everything looks great. Your wife is full term and healthy, and your baby girl is ready to meet you both,” she gives a kind smile before giving a quick wave, “I’m going to have the nurse bring some pamphlets, it’s got some more information in there, just to help out. Do you have any other questions?”

You shake your head, “You’ve been amazing this entire journey, doctor. I just wanna say thank you—you’ll be one of the first people I come visit with my little muffin.”

You don’t know why you’re about to cry, but it’s a radiance of happiness you feel as you rub your eyes, so glad to have a good physician in this situation. You ignore Satoru’s, “Fuckin’ hell, baby,” rubbing your back immediately as he sees your vision glossing over.

The doctor gives a light laugh, clearly used to this type of behavior from her patients. “No problem, honey,” patting your knee once again, “How about you let papa take you out for a nice big lunch, hm? I have another patient coming in, I’ll see you soon. Congratulations.”

She leaves you both within the room, your fingers padding your eyes lightly, giggling at yourself as you greet him, “Hi, how’s work been so far?”

He’s still rubbing soothing circles along your back, finding it cute the way you were being overly emotional right now. 

His lips press to your temple, “Busy as hell. You’ hungry?”

You nod your head, taking his hand as you step off of the table as you hold your belly, a light gasp coming to your mouth as you begin waddling towards the door, thankfully not seeing the way Satoru holds back his laugh as you ramble on, “Baby! I saw this cute little restaurant not too far away when the chauffeur dropped me off, it had chicken tenders, Mexican food, burgers, all kinda stuff!…”

It’s not like your legs just stopped working, but he knows the added weight was probably hard to get used to. He chuckles as you speak, following after you as he opens the door for you both, letting you walk out first as he says, “That’s perfect, baby.”

It was in fact cuter on the inside. Small circular tables, thinly designed chairs, brown architecture and green plants hanging all around the ceiling as calming music played throughout the building. The bustle of people walking past brought a sense of comfort to you, your eyes trailing to the roses that sat decoratively along the table.

“Isn’t it so pretty?” You blink, giving a polite smile to the waiter that places tall glasses of lemon water along the table, giving you time to glance over the menu.

He could honestly care less about a restaurant’s interior. If they had the best burgers in the world, he was there, but the way you were glazed over at the interior, made the whole situation a little sweeter. 

He reaches across to hold your hand, giving a light squeeze to your fingers as he answers, “It’s pretty as fuck, baby, just like you.”

“Don’t be tryna distract me, boy. Why’d you leave work? I never called you,” you remind him, “Pregnancy doesn’t make me all ditzy and shit.”

He knew that question was coming, even if you were happy that he showed up. 

He shrugs, his thumb stroking your skin, “I was worried. You’ seen my big ass carrying that labor bag, I wanted to be there in case they induced you. Is that a crime?” he questions, “Plus, I needed a break from my annoying ass employees.”

“Oh, now they’re your annoying ass employees. You spoke so highly of them last night, what’d they do today to piss you off, Mr. Pharmacist?” You tease, accepting the fries they placed down in front of you that you ordered, taking one in your mouth, your stomach grumbling at the salty potatoes entering your system.

He reaches over to steal a fry—ignoring the way your hand smacks his—“One of them spilled a whole bottle of medication that’s hard as fuck to get again. Another one put some wrong information on a medical document. My third worker was late, and had no explanation why. So yeah, call me pissy. Don’t care.”

“Stuff happens, Satoru. Now imagine if your workers were irrational about you just ducking off the clock because you wanna have lunch with me? That isn’t fair to them,” you point out.

He pauses, listening to you as he gives a nod, chewing through the fry he had in his mouth. Satoru knew you had a point, and he respected the way you always made him realize those points. So he simply replies with, “Yeah. You’re right. Sorry, baby.”

“I know I am,” you agree. You give an excited clap as they place down your nachos, craving Mexican food like no other. They also give Satoru his gourmet burger and fries, the man refusing to eat anything else at times. He was the pickiest person on the planet. 

You shake your head, “You and your beef. You’d be perfect as a pregnant woman, with excessive amounts of protein.”

“Shitt, to be able to take off work, wear whatever I want and crash out on somebody if they comment on my eating habits? Somebody call the government and start making pills to get men pregnant. Quickly.”

You roll your eyes, “Yeah, well, I don’t think you’d enjoy the luxury of having the doctor tell you they don’t want to force your induction, and you have to wait several more days to see if you’ll naturally go into labor.”

He leans back into his seat, placing his arms over his chest as he stares at you, “Damn, maybe you’re right. Being a woman is stressful—no offense.” He pauses, his own eyes glancing at the way you looked a little disappointed from the doctor’s words, not getting what you wanted. He leans forward, his hand reaching over the table to take one of yours, “Hey. She knows what she’s talking about. Baby girl will come when she’s ready. You’ll be a great momma, y’know that right?”

“Maybe she’s hiding in there cause she thinks imma’ be a bad momma,” you sigh, kneeling yourself on your elbow against the table, “You’ think babies can feel anxiety?”

He listens to you express your concerns, his jaw clenching. He knew you were nervous. You were carrying the product of you and him for months, you wanted everything to go perfectly. Satoru wanted that for you. But he also wanted you to stop being so hard on yourself, so he says, “Nah, baby, I don’t think she can feel your anxiety. She’s probably too busy listening to how amazing her momma’s heartbeat is, probably a lullaby to her.”

You exhale lightly, feeling a bit better at his words. On the other hand, you find yourself…gazing at your husband. His dark shades along his strident face, alabaster hair and muscular frame wanting to explode through his top. He made the table almost look small, and your mind flashes to memories of you…creating your bundle of joy, an entirely different Satoru in those times. You pull your fingers away as you put another nacho into your mouth, giving a weak smile, feeling the blush on your cheeks as you say, “You’re so sweet.”

He catches the way you stare at him. Your feline eyes blink slowly, your dark curls filling the roundness of your flushed cheeks.

He leans a little closer, his tone lowering as he says, “I’m sweet, huh?”

You didn’t have to wonder whether or not Satoru looked at you in the way you were currently staring, because it was a constant gaze in those arctic pupils. There was a time he’d fuck you anywhere. You could always feel his eyes on you, especially today as you wore an all white baby tee and yoga pants set, brown sandals complimenting your pedicure, the gold along the strap of your sandals matching the dermals on your lower back. The set clung itself to your frame, never ashamed of your body even within the pregnancy. Your child bearing hips, full ass, nipples protruding through your top. You were stunning.

You always feigned an innocence, giggly like a schoolgirl when he flirted as if he weren’t your husband. Your eyes glance up to him, “You’ wanna know what the doctor said?”

His eyes were practically glued to every part of you. He took notice of the pedicure with the little white flowers against your feet, the way your shirt hugged your frame perfectly, and how he could see your pretty brown skin through the white fabric. His grin meets your face, ignoring the way you tilt his chin up to keep his eyes on yours, “Tell me.”

“She suggested that sex might be a way of inducing my labor,” you rub your fingers along his ear, a habit of yours when you talked to him in close radius.

The way that those words slipped from your mouth, the tone of your voice, it had his mind in overdrive. 

He feels your fingers against his earlobe, and he almost loses himself at the touch, his jaw clenching, “How you’ feel about that?”

“Like I need to go home and confirm that on some physicians website. I mean, that sounds terrifying! What if you bump my baby girl's head? Is that too impossible to think about?” You scrunch up your nose.

He holds back his laugh as you seem so concerned about hurting the baby that way. He knows it’s an irrational fear, but it’s adorable nonetheless, his hand coming up to rub your cheek as he says, “Baby, you do realize she’s protected in your womb, right?”

You sigh lightly, “Mhm. I just wish she’d sit up more, she makes me feel like I have to pee every millisecond. Like now. And you need to get back to work,” you remind him.

He glances at his Chopard watch, knowing he had to leave. He loved spending time with you, but he did need to get back to work. He felt awful, but that’s what it was like owning a massive corporation— you didn’t always have a life outside work.

“I’ll probably be back a little late. You’ gonna miss me?”

You roll your eyes, accepting the pecks he presses along your mouth as you say in between them, “I always miss you, Daddy,” giggling as he raises an eyebrow at the nickname. 

He could feel himself losing restraint. You stand as you wrap your arms along his neck, Satoru lowering himself so you don't have to stand on your toes. He grunts as he smacks your ass, pressing a kiss to your jaw, not wanting to pull away. But he had to. So instead he gives a sigh, watching the chauffeur pull up to drop you off at home as he waved, “Later, baby.”

The rest of the day was mostly you laying in bed, rewatching American Horror Story and also pushing yourself to read another chapter of a book you’d been interested in. You also pushed yourself to do your usual routines of being a housewife, feeding your large black husky that didn’t do much besides holler and follow you around, or even tend to your garden outside. 

You thought about the doctor's words, and although you were a bit fearful of them, maybe a relaxing night between you and your husband wasn’t the worst thing in the world. Maybe it wasn’t about your concerns for the baby, maybe you were just nervous of having intimate time with him, considering it’d been a month without it. So, you had a plan. 

You waited until you heard your husky barking loudly at the door as it unlocked, meaning Satoru was home. You could hear his deep voice chastising the dog for her noises, dropping his keys along the counter like he always did. You lightly pad your feet along the cold floor, clutching the fluffy pink towel wrapped around your bare body as you peek around the corner at him.

He had dealt with so much work bullshit, and all he wanted was to take a hot shower and lay with you in bed. But the sight of you, dark curls pulled out of your face, natural freckles sprucing against your nose and cheeks, the pink contrasting with your brown skin, he was glaring at you.

“Was work that bad?” You poke fun, holding the towel at the top to keep it from falling.

He shakes his head, his eyes still glued to you. You looked so sexy, and he hadn’t touched you in weeks. He wanted you. He craved you. His eyes trail down your frame, taking notice of the curves along your legs, and he gives a grunt.

With a few quick strides, he’s standing in front of you, his large hands taking hold of your face as he answers, “Work was hellish, baby.”

“Mmm, I’m sorry,” you say, pressing a kiss against his palm, “Wanna come shower with me? I’ll scrub your back like you love.”

He exhales, almost sounding like a sigh of relief. A shower after his stressful ass day, and his wife? He didn’t argue the offer. The way you stood in front of him, your hands clutching the fluffy material against the curves of your body, it made his fingers itch. He needed you. He needed to touch you. 

“Yeah? You’ being all nice to me and shit, but I’m not complaining.”

You take his hand as you pull him down the hall, making your way towards the double doors of the bathroom. Satoru notices a pop of red along the floor, focusing his eyes in as he then realizes it’s a rose petal. When the door fully opens, candles sit all around the mesmerizing black clawfoot tub with golden feet, already filled with water that looks surprisingly warm. Not just red rose petals—but pink ones, lilies, sunflowers, colorful flowers overall floating atop of the water, swimming prettily.

You turn towards him, beginning to remove his watch as your warm face comes down, “I just thought maybe a relaxing night between us would be nice. You’ um…You’ like it? I used a lot of flowers from my garden so…I hope you do,” you nervously smile, pulling your hair behind your ear.

His eyes scanned the room. He could smell the sweet aroma of flowers, and the way the room was dimmed had his shoulders relaxing almost immediately. His eyes trailed the petals on the floor, realizing just how much effort you put into this.

“Baby, you shouldn’t have gone to this trouble. I should be doing shit like this for you.”

“It’s okay, I know you would have if you weren’t at work,” you place your palm against his cheek, “It wasn’t so bad, Storm helped me carry most of the stuff I needed anyways,” you refer to the dog, “She slobbered on the stems, but I cut them anyway.”

He chuckles at the way you talk, knowing your dog was like your first child . He reaches over and pinches your cheek, “You and that husky of ours have a whole ass bond. But I appreciate this, baby, really. Is the water still warm? Need me to refill it for you?”

You shake your head, “Just need you to follow me in.” 

You raise on your toes, giving him a soft, tender kiss. As you come back down, you turn away, removing the towel from around you as you stride over to the tub, arching your bare body as you make your way in. 

You sink beneath the water as you ask, “You’ coming?”

He was practically mesmerized as you made your way to the tub. The way the candles illuminated along your skin, the water moving as you slid in, he was almost at a loss of words. But he couldn’t just stand there like an idiot. 

He smacks his lips, “You think I’m not?” making you giggle at the way he yanks his tie off, beginning to unbutton his shirt.

Your eyes watch as his clothes drop to the floor, scanning the curve of his abs, how perfectly sculpted he was. Veins ran through his arms and fingers, flexing up and all the way down to his v-line that harshly dipped into the monster that sat between his legs. It made your eyes pull away a bit, seeing as he was already coming into the tub with you.

He knew he had your attention. The way you stared as he undressed, the way he caught your eyes taking notice of his body, he was confident. A little cocky, per usual. Especially when you looked away, almost as if you couldn’t look at him. He slips into the water across from you, his hands immediately taking hold of your hips as he pulls you onto his lap.

“Is it warm enough?” You question, wrapping your arms along his neck, adjusting yourself on top of him.

As you straddle him, his hands move along your thighs, holding onto you tightly. He’s already nodding as he answers, “Feels good, baby.”  

He brings you closer, burying his face in between your neck and collarbone, inhaling your scent deeply. He loved how you smelled. He loved everything about you. You take the pink sponge you had within the water, your other fingers gripping the nape of his hair along the back of his neck as you tilt his head, dipping the sponge deeper before squeezing it above him. You watch as his light hair darkens, pulling back out of his face to reveal him fully. 

“It’s getting close to that time of renewing our vows,” you remind softly.

Your touch felt good. He enjoyed it. The way you took care of him, the way your fingers worked through his white locks. He closes his eyes at the feeling, leaning a bit more into your touch. When you mention renewing your vows, his eyes flutter open, gazing directly into yours. 

He gives a grin, “Baby, I’d marry you thousands of times over and over again. I don’t give a fuck where we do it, you’re just indecisive.”

You sigh, “I know. I just want it to be as perfect as the first time…” you think to yourself, eyes lighting up as you suggest, “What about Singapore? Maybe only our parents and friends, make it small, explore the country, yeah?”

He lets you speak, knowing just how perfect you wanted everything to be. But honestly? Satoru didn’t care. The first wedding was nice, but you were the only thing that he truly cared about. He just enjoyed listening to you.

When you suggest Singapore for the renewal, he chuckles a little, “You know my parents will argue with that. They’ll want to host it somewhere fancy like Rome or something.”

“And Singapore isn’t?” You blink, “God, you really were raised bougie as fuck. My parents thought the Statue Of Liberty was the nicest thing they’d ever seen.”

Satoru couldn’t help but laugh a little at how you put it, knowing you weren’t entirely wrong. But he shakes his head, “Singapore is extravagant, but it’ll be like talking to a damn brick wall, trying to persuade them to even consider Singapore. They’ll probably suggest some damn castle in Europe.”

“It’s unfortunate for them that it’s our wedding, hm?” You tilt your head, “Your controlling ass parents gon’ have to suck it up. Cause I can be a bridezilla,” you roll your eyes, ignoring his chuckle against your lips as he kisses them.

“You’re their princess. They’ll put up with your crazy ass and plan the wedding where you want it. Me on the other hand? I don’t give a fuck if it’s in the middle of some street, as long as you walk down the aisle and say you still love me.”

You giggle as he tickles your neck with his lips, pulling yourself back and you’re inches away from his face. You sigh, “I love you.” 

Satoru raises an eyebrow, “You’ having a stroke or something?”

You roll your eyes, “I mean it.”

He grins at your eye roll, knowing you were playful. But when you tell him you mean it, his blue eyes shift into a softer, more serious expression.

 He brings his hands up, holding your face gently as you continue, “I just…appreciate you for being so patient with me. You love me, even if I cry because the sky’s blue.”

Your sincerity makes him want to melt. He didn’t care how many bags of potato chips he had to buy you, how many stuffed animals you wanted, or how many times you changed the sheets because your pregnancy hormones had you paranoid that the bed smelled weird. He could deal with it. He would deal with it. You were having his baby, carrying the most precious thing he’s ever had. He’d deal with you forever.

Satoru leans upwards, capturing your lips in a soft, passionate kiss. He pulls back, gazing at you as he says, “I’d go to the fuckin’ ends of the world for you.”

When he clutches you back against his mouth, it makes your heartbeat in your ears. You feel his nails dig into the skin of your hips, almost as if he’s trying to be soft with you. Key word—trying. You lightly pull your mouth back, breath hitching as he quickly wraps his fingers along the back of your neck, holding you close, your lips centimeters apart. 

“Satoru…”

The way you breathe his name, it almost made him lose his mind right there. The way your body pressed against his, the way you sat in his lap, it made it damn near impossible to hold back. He wanted you so bad. He’d wanted you the moment he walked through the door. He needed to make you his again.

“I’m hungry,” he grunts along your mouth, your eyes fluttering as you blink, his light ones deep within your vision. 

“Oh, um—“ you inhale, “Do you wanna stop? Want me to make you something?”

“Yeah. Open your fuckin’ legs.”

Your light gasp is swallowed by his mouth, his head twisting to the side, mouth overlapping as his tongue envelopes yours. Your shoulders fall, trying to get a grip along him as your body sinks lower within the warm water—the heat of the tub, the heat within your kiss, you feel fuzzy.

He pulls your mouth from his, clutching the side of your face as he questions, “Good, baby?” to which you nod your head, running your tongue over your bruised lips. He nods with a grunt at the confirmation, and it’s quick—you nearly lose your breath as he pulls you up by your hips, your small frame being bent along the rim of the tub, Satoru scooting your thighs above his face as he puts himself beneath you. 

“Hold the edge of the tub. Arch your back,” he orders, and you grip your hands against the black marble, lifting your hips high, his large palms cuffing you by the skin of your ass. You hesitate as you try to look beneath yourself, nearly wanting to roll your eyes as your belly is in the way of seeing his face.

You stand on your toes beneath the water, legs lightly shuddering as you say, “Don’t wanna hurt you, baby…”

You grip the edge, biting your lip as you feel him spank your ass, rubbing the skin to soothe the sting it gives. 

“Pussy is fuckin’ pretty, baby. Can I taste you?”

You let one of your hands gently reach down, pushing your weight onto his palms as you clutch a lock of his hair. You nod your head as you exhale shakily, “…Yes, please.”

He grunts, his tongue flattening as he drags it up the entirety of you, the rush of pleasure unexpected as you immediately tense. You can feel the vibration of his chuckle at your reaction, holding you tighter as his warm breath fans against your slick folds. He spreads you farther, his tongue darting out, licking another slow stripe up your slit before circling your clit with the tip. 

It’s his moan that makes your lashes flutter, it’s like a candy he’d been rewarded with. You whimper as he spanks you again, “Fuck, baby. You taste like heaven,” he’s already stuffing his face in between your legs, pulling you down as he’s lapping at your clit like an animal, making the flesh even more wet from the arousal that’s collecting on your pussy.

“O—oh shit,” you gasp lightly, clutching his hair tighter, your legs shuddering more than before. His tongue swirls around your sensitive nub, soft and throbbing as it rubs against his lips, being tugged at each time he sucks in between his mouth. His jaw nudges at the opening of your walls, your legs beginning to tighten on each side of his face.

“Baby, you're dripping,” he groans in between licks, his voice muffled against your pussy, “Oh my god, shit is so fuckin’ sexy. Give me more.”

“Baby—w—wait,” you pull at his hair harder, your arousal beginning to spread in all parts of your mind, knowing he was desperately trying to pull that side of you that didn’t normally appear. 

He raises one of his hands as he orders, “Come hold it. Not gonna let you run from my mouth, so imma’ ask nicely for now.” 

You nearly pout, taking one of your hands as you reach back and intertwine your fingers together, Satoru placing it back against the skin of your ass, fully holding you in place, eating you out just how he wanted to. 

Your moans fill the air as he continues to devour your pussy, sucking and licking with reckless abandon. He buries his face deeper, inhaling your scent deeply as he laps at your juices, drinking in every drop he can get.

"Mmmmph...need you to ride my face baby," he moans, that pleading voice beginning to get to you. He always knew how to knock your walls down. His hands grip your hips tightly as he begins motioning them in a thrusting motion, pulling you harder against his mouth to make you grind on him, whimpering to you,  “C’mon, baby. C'mon, cmon. please.”

With each beg, his tongue begins to reach for your squelching opening, probing at your inner walls, sending shockwaves of pleasure through your body. Your head kneels back as you arch, moaning as you pull yourself towards him, whimpering with him as you quietly ask, “Put your tongue in me.”

“Yeah? Want me to fuck you like that?” 

“Y—yeah, ‘toru,” you whine softly, digging your nails within your own skin, the same hand that’s trapped under his.

He parts his mouth wider, giving your clit a good suck before he slides his face down, exhaling heavily as he sticks his tongue out, sliding you down on it, feeling as it curls within your walls to touch against your most sensitive spot. The both of you moan out, your eyes turning to the mirror of the bathroom as you see yourself—arched against his mouth, hair sprawled over your face as you angle yourself perfectly to grind on his tongue.

You’re becoming hornier by the second, taking your hand from under his that was trapped as you go back to holding his hair. Your giggle is sultry as you move your hips forward, circling them down onto his mouth as you whimper, “Want me to fuck down on your mouth baby? Tell me.”

“Yeah, baby. Need you to drench my fuckin’ mouth,” he groans deeply, shaking his head side to side, spanking you at your words. This is just what he wanted from you. 

He continues to feast on your pussy, his tongue delving deeper inside you, exploring every inch. Your moans echo through the bathroom, spurring him on as he laps at your juices, savoring your unique flavor.

"Fuck,”  he gasps, “You’ taste so. Fuckin’. Good…” he’s thrusting his tongue in and out of you with each word, mimicking the act of penetration. Each stroke sends shockwaves of pleasure through your body, causing your legs to tremble and your grip on his hair to tighten.

"You like that, baby?" he pants, his breath hot against your core, “Like when I tongue-fuck this pretty little pussy?"

Your response is a desperate whine, your hips bucking involuntarily to meet his tongue. Your velvety walls clench around the invader, creaming as he savors your taste. He's relentless, spearing in and out, stretching you open more and more. 

"Take what you need from me, baby. This is your fuckin’ mouth, make it yours.” 

His nose presses into your clit, rubbing it with each powerful thrust of his tongue. He starts moving it in and out slowly, but your hips are grinding chaotically, also savoring your tightness and relishing the feel of your inner muscles clenching around him. His hands are back to gripping your ass firmly, keeping you in position as he eats you out aggressively. 

“Gonna make you cum so hard on my tongue, baby. Milk it for me..."

Your juices coat his chin and neck as he devours you, slurping and sucking greedily. He can't get enough of your taste, your scent even filling his senses. Your hair is flying all over your face and down your back, your head falling back as you’re moaning pathetically, dipping your hips down, almost like you’re dancing atop of him. 

He’s going, “Mhmmm, mhmmm, yeah. Like that. Yes. Moan louder. Shit, baby..." he murmurs against your slick folds, "Love seeing you lose control like this."

He doubles his efforts, tongue flicking rapidly against your sensitive bud before wrapping his lips around it and suckling hard. The vibrations from his moans send shivers down your spine as he works to push you closer to the edge. His strong hands grip your ass even tighter, spreading your cheeks wide to access your dripping entrance better.

You can only see the side of his face from the mirror, your craving for him is beginning to heighten, and now, you’re hungry. You pull yourself back from his mouth, looking at him through the mirror as you sultrily talk, “You want me to cum all in your mouth, baby? Beg.”

He looks up at you with lust-filled eyes, the brightest irises you’d ever seen somehow darkening. 

“P—please, baby,” he begs, his voice low and needy, "I want to taste you when you're flooded. Keep going, give it to me. Fill my mouth with your cum, let me drink you down."

You begin grinding slowly against his tongue, his eyes rolling back as he moans. You tell him with a shake to your head, “You can do better than that, Daddy. C’mon…wanna hear you mean it, ‘toru. Wanna cum all over your face baby,” you whimper, toying with him, “C’mon baby, beg me, please…” you reach down, beginning to rub your clit, “Don’t wanna cum all alone…” 

His eyes snap open, blazing with a hunger so intense it makes your breath hitch. He pulls back slightly, his chest heaving as he gazes up at you with raw desperation.

"F—Fuck, baby, please," he rasps, his voice thick with desire, "Let me make you cum. Let me cover my face in you. I need it, need to feel you coming apart on my tongue, in my mouth. Please, baby, let go for me..."

“So greedy, baby boy…” you nod your head, placing your clit back on his mouth, breathless as you pull his jaw down, “Put your tongue back in me, make me cum so I can sink down on your dick after.”

He lets out a guttural moan against your sensitive flesh, the vibrations sending shivers through you. He plunges his tongue back inside you, fucking you with it as he suckles your clit.

The both of you moan together, back to grinding on his mouth, your whines long and high-pitched as you feel your lower body jolting, orgasm coming in harsh waves as you cum within his mouth. Your moan gasps into a giggle as he spanks you in repetitions, tugging you back down to be on his lap. Some of the water had begun to drain, and you could see the hard strain of his tip, a bright pink, painful between his legs as it dripped pre-cum.

You pull him into a kiss, sloppily running your tongue against his mouth, lips parted wide as you ask between making out with him, “Want me to sink on it, baby?”

He breaks the kiss, panting heavily as he looks up at you with wild, desperate eyes. His voice is hoarse when he speaks, "Yes, fuck yes... put that shit in, it’s so fuckin’ hard for you…”

He places a gentle palm along your swollen belly, to which you pull away and place on the back of your neck as you quietly assure him, “I’m okay.” 

He grunts as he kisses your forehead—he was always concerned. You reach down as you run your hand along his tip, slapping it in between your clit and opening as you stick your tongue out, “Kiss me, baby,” whimpering, begging,  “Gimme’ your mouth.”

He leans in, capturing your lips, returning the nasty kiss you’d given him earlier, dominating your mouth that has your neck fall back a bit. He clutches your neck closer, keeping your lips together as his tip spreads your pussy open, sinking your hips lower, dropping down onto his rigid length. You gasp into the kiss as he fills you completely, stretching you in a delicious pain around his fat girth. 

He breaks the kiss, his chest heaving as he looks down at where you’re joined, watching intently as he gives you a slow thrust upwards as he gasps, "Shit, baby... so tight... fuck."

You wrap your arms around him, hiding your face within his neck as you dig your fingers in his hair, voice tiny, high-pitched as you cry softly against him, pouting into his ear, “Ughn, Satoru….”

He holds you close, one hand cradling the back of your head while the other grips your hip tightly, fingers digging into your soft flesh as he listens to your whimpers. 

“That’s it baby—agh,” he whimpers himself, bouncing you down onto his dick, always close to splitting you in half, “Just relax baby—mmph,” he’s moaning pitifully with you, listening to the sounds of your skin clap together, tears brimming your eyes as you clutch him tighter. Each thrust sends a wave of pleasure through both of you. He groans, low and guttural, as he buries his face in your neck, nipping and sucking at your sensitive skin. "Fuck, baby... you feel so good... so fuckin’ perfect..." he growls, his breath hot against your ear.

He continues to pound into you relentlessly, each thrust driving deeper and harder than the last. Your cries and whimpers fill the air, mingling with his own groans of pleasure. He can feel your walls clenching around him, trying to milk his dick for all it's worth.

"Ah, fuck yeah... that's it, baby," he pants, his hips snapping against yours with increasing urgency, the water from the tub splashing high each time. "Take it all, every inch... hnngh."

As he picks up speed, the sound of skin slapping against skin echoes through the room, punctuated by your moans and his grunts.

"You gonna cum for me, baby?" he rasps, his voice strained with lust. "Gonna make a fuckin’ mess?”

You dig your face farther into his neck, your cheeks warm, tears dripping from your eyes as you groan lowly, “Agh—gh—fuck,” you sniffle, “Deeper, go d—deeper…”

His grip on your hips tightens, fingers sinking into your flesh as he responds to your plea. He takes both palms back to your ass, spreading the skin to open you up more, pulling you up until you’re barely along his tip, dropping you back down, skin burning as it sticks together from the creaming you’re spouting out. It makes you gasp, clawing at him as you place your fingers within your mouth, taking deep breaths to calm yourself. But it also makes you extremely wet.

You bring your face up, placing your hands along his hard stomach as you begin picking up your own hips, slamming them down against him. You see as that makes his head tilt back against the edge, holding you tighter as he helps you fuck him, his moan dragging out, pausing through each drop of your hips. His adam’s apple bobs severely, hair pulled out from his face, dark pink lips bruised as he grits his teeth.

His chest heaves with ragged breaths, muscles flexing beneath your palms as he meets each of your downward thrusts with an upward grind of his hips. The angle changes, allowing him to hit that sweet spot inside you with unerring precision, stretching you wide and sending shockwaves of pleasure coursing through your veins.

"Fuuuck, baby..." he growls, his voice a low, guttural rumble. "Ride me just like that... Take what you need..."

His hands slide down to grasp your thighs, thumbs digging into the sensitive skin as he guides your movements, encouraging you to lose yourself in the rhythm, in the feeling of being so completely filled and owned by him. The water churns around you, a frothy mix of sweat and soap, as you both surrender to the intensity of your passion.

“Gonna cum for me, baby?” You question, your small and cute voice making his tip jump inside of you. You look him directly in his eyes, placing your hands on your breasts as you rub your sensitive nipples, bouncing up and down against him.

“They’re so sensitive…” you whimper, “Wanna touch them? Might make me cum…”

“Let me suck on them, pretty. Know that’ll make you cum.”

He comes forward, but you push him back, wrapping your fingers along his throat, squeezing as you begin swirling your hips on top of him, “I missed when you begged me, where’s my needy boy? I miss him,” you whine, palming your nipples harder, feeling as his abdomen tightens.

He lets out a choked gasp as you tighten your grip on his throat, his eyes rolling back in ecstasy. "Right h—here baby," he rasps, his voice muffled slightly by your fingers. 

"Need you so bad... Want to feel you cum on my dick…” His hips buck up sharply, driving himself deeper inside you as he strains against your hold, desperate for more friction, more pressure. "Don't stop, don't ever stop…” he begs, his body trembling with the force of his impending climax.

“Don’t want me to stop, baby?” You’re lifting your hips slowly, dropping them down harshly, the loud sound echoing in the bathroom, your giggle evil, moaning messily as you feel yourself beginning to cum on his tip.

“N—no, baby—Don't stop—“ his deep voice cracks with desperation as he feels your walls clenching around him. 

“Ooooh, yes, baby,” your own voice is failing the control you want to give, your walls tight as they suck him in deeply. The sensation of your orgasm soaking his dick is too much to bear, and with a grunt, he buries his face between your breasts, his teeth grazing the tender flesh as he surrenders to his own release.

He listens to you first, holding you close as you let out a breath, not expecting it to turn into a sob, squirting heavily, the gush of it all drenched in between his continuous thrusts as you gasp, “I’m cumming, I’m cummingg.“

You can’t help but want to see his vulnerable side one last time as you talk to him, “Cum in me, pretty boy. Cum in me, Daddy. Please.” 

He groans, his hips jerking erratically as he plunges deeper, chasing his climax. Your words, the desperate plea in your voice—it all shatters what little restraint he has left. He softly cries out, slamming into you one final time, his dick pulsing as he warms your insides with his cum.

As the aftershocks subside, he collapses onto you, his weight a comforting press against your skin. His breath hitches as he tries to regain composure, but the tremors running through him betray his vulnerability.

 "Baby..." he whispers, nuzzling into the crook of your neck. "That was... fuck, I needed that."

His fingers trace gentle patterns on your hip, a soothing caress meant to comfort both of you.

You don’t want to ruin the moment, lifting your face up as you give him a soft peck, leaning your head on his neck as you say, “Love you, ‘toru.” 

He holds you close, just enjoying the peaceful moment together. He whispers against the skin of your neck, “I love you too, baby. So much.” 

He doesn’t bother moving, even though the water has started to turn lukewarm. He wants to stay right here with you, holding you close. But eventually, he lifts his head, looking down at you as he asks, “You ready to get out before we prune up?”

Your face is warm again, nodding along his skin as you say, “Gotta pee,” as usual.

The moment the words leave your lips, he can’t help but laugh a little. He gives a chuckle, “Of course you fuckin’  do.”

You slept more often than usual in these last few months, but this had to have been the heaviest you’d slept of all. You were trapped under Satoru’s heavy arm, who snored unfortunately close in your ear. But it was somehow soothing. The love you shared for this man was like no other. 

But when you wake up within the middle of the night, you feel yourself beginning to cramp, and it’s more irritating than anything. You’re too tired to get up and take your medicine, trying to force yourself back into sleep. But the cramps become more intense, and it makes you whimper lightly from the pain, holding your belly with your palm. You decide it was time to get up, lifting Satoru’s arm as you slowly slip out of bed.

“You’ alright, baby?” His deep voice calls, still half asleep.

“Just gonna go pee,” you tell him, pressing your feet into your slippers, ignoring your dog that lightly whines, nudging your body in support as you fully stand.

Even as he was half-asleep, he was still paying attention. When you told him you had to go pee, he grumbled a little, rolling onto his back. He felt cold without you in his arms, and he wanted you back immediately.

You take a deep breath as the cramps run through your entire body, worsening with each step. You frown as you clutch the material of your oversized shirt, just wanting to make it to the bathroom. But as you take another step, you feel a heavy pressure in between your legs, and you look down to see as fluid rushes down your legs, dripping onto the floor. Your heart could’ve stopped. 

You’d been to several classes, read pamphlets, researched—even Google couldn’t stop you from your reaction when you weren’t supposed to panic. 

Your body trembles as you scream, “Gojo!” 

He grunts, “Jesus, baby. I know you’re fond of screaming my name but—“

He turns, seeing the fear within your eyes, looking down to see the fluid sliding down your legs. He thought he was a man that wasn’t afraid of anything, but this was more than what nightmares were made of. 

“Oh shit.”

[starryjake]

mean heeseung thoughts

you’d had an attitude all day. heeseung was used to your typical sassiness, but today was a bit of an extreme.

it wasn’t your time of the month but heeseung assumed it was based on the way you were acting. you were slamming cabinets, giving him short and snappy answers, and all around just radiated a negative energy. thus, he tried to stay away from you for the most of the day.

you weren’t entirely sure why you were acting the way you were either. it was just one of those days where every little thing was setting you off.

you were in your shared bedroom getting ready for bed while heeseung was out in the living room playing video games. at first, you didn’t mind. you needed the alone time.

but then, as you laid in bed and closed your eyes, just wanting to sleep the bad day away, all you could focus on was how loudly heeseung was playing.

he was on call with his friends and was practically screaming. every time something bad happened in his game, he was shouting with no consideration for you trying to sleep. that was it for you. that really pushed you over the edge.

you threw the covers off your body and got out of bed. you stomped over to open the bedroom door, opening it so harshly that it’d hit the other wall loudly.

you made it to the living room and gave heeseung the angriest glare you could muster. he was sitting on the couch with a controller in his hands and his eyes glued to the tv screen.

“i’m trying to sleep!” you yelled, to which he pulled his headphones off and set them on the coffee table. he crossed his arms and let you have your tantrum. “you’re screaming so fucking loud over a stupid game and not even thinking about the fact that i’m trying to sleep in the other room! it’s not a big apartment, heeseung, i can hear fucking everything! could you please just shut up?”

heeseung’s jaw clenched, his eyes suddenly darkening. a tiny part of you quickly regretted lashing out at him, especially as he turned the tv off and stood up, walking over to you.

“let’s go,” he muttered, scarily calm.

he wrapped his hand around your wrist in a tight grip, dragging you back to the bedroom.

“wait—” you started to say, but were cut off by your own squeal as he pushed you down onto the bed.

he slammed the door behind himself and approached you on the bed. your angry demeanor was entirely gone then, now replaced with big eyes that looked up at him with regret and fear for what was to come.

“i’m sor—”

“shut up,” he spat, planting his knees on either side of your thighs so you were trapped underneath him. “you were such a fucking brat all day and i put up with it. i put up with your nasty little attitude but i’m fucking done now. you got it?”

you gulped, nodding rapidly.

“i’m sorry, hee. i was just—”

“shut up,” he repeated, suddenly bringing his hand across your face in a quick slap. you gasped, looking up at him with watery eyes. “listen the first time. now, you’re gonna do what i tell you to do. do you think you can do that for me? or are you too much of a dumb girl?”

you shook your head, bottom lip jutting out slightly.

“i can do it,” you told him weakly.

“good,” he said. “take off your clothes.”

you were quick to oblige, stripping out of your pajama shorts and oversized t-shirt that belonged to him. with dark eyes, he scanned your naked body, resisting the internal urge to touch you, to make you feel good. you didn’t deserve it, not after how bad you were that day.

“now get on your knees.”

you sat up on your knees on the mattress while he pulled his sweatpants down just enough for his erection to spring out, standing tall and hard in front of your face.

you put your hand out with the idea of jerking him off before sucking him, but he was quick to slap your hand away.

“no,” he said. “you’re gonna use your mouth only. now come on and suck it.”

he grabbed the base of his length and guided into your mouth. he didn’t even let you have any control, showing off his power by shoving himself all the way down your throat and pulling it back out, fucking your mouth.

your eyes immediately welled up with tears and you gagged, coughing around his intrusive cock. he stared down at your face, stroking a tear away from your rosy cheek.

“poor girl,” he cooed. “now you wanna be all sweet and obedient after being so bratty all day.”

“‘m sorry,” you slurred around his dick, a string of drool sliding down your chin.

“shhhh,” he scolded. “bratty girls don’t get to talk. just keep sucking.”

you clenched your eyes shut, trying to breathe through your nose as the tip of his cock hit the back of your throat. he was ruthless, fucking your mouth as though he were fucking your pussy.

this went on for a few more minutes before heeseung seemingly got bored. he pulled his cock out, watching you wipe the drool on your lips with the back of your hand.

you laid down on your back, expecting him to slide in and start fucking you the way he normally would, but instead he scoffed and shook his head.

“on your stomach,” he commanded.

he didn’t even bother to fully undress himself, further embarrassing by leaving you the only naked one.

once you were on your stomach, heeseung raised your hips and dipped the tip of his cock past your leaking hole. you gasped at the intrusion, clenching the sheets between your fingers.

“oh fuck,” you cried out.

“shut up,” he scowled. “you wanna tell me to shut up, i’ll say it right back, baby. take a taste of your own medicine.”

you bit your lower lip to keep yourself from making any more sounds as heeseung drilled your insides. he didn’t give you any time to adjust, clearly only concerned with his own pleasure. right now, you were just his toy.

when he was bored of fucking you from behind, he flipped you onto your back, spread your legs as far as they could go, and fucked you even harder.

you were lightheaded from feeling him all the way in your guts, your legs shaking from the overstimulation.

“so bratty and dumb,” he said through sharp breaths. “is this what you wanted? is this why you were so bad today? just needed some cock, didn’t you?”

you nodded, choking on a pathetic sob.

“you can’t go a day without my dick,” heeseung chuckled, leaning down to plant a kiss on the corner of your lips. “well here you go. take what i give you.”

“fuck,” you huffed. “oh my god, hee. i’m gonna cum.”

immediately, heeseung stopped.

your jaw went slack in shock as he pulled out of you. you weren’t sure what was happening, but you watched with wide eyes as he jerked himself off until he was cumming all over your stomach and chest.

he groaned and uttered out a few curse words as his creamy white fluid spilled onto your body.

when he was finished, he let out a sigh and collapsed next to you on the bed.

“sorry, baby,” he said. “bad girls don’t get to cum. better luck next time.”

[headspace-hotel]

any other autistic people have to drop out of college and have stories to share about what they did/how they managed to find a job and a bearable life?

I'm considering it again and there's a good chance I'm actually gonna do it

I'm only a year away from graduation, but...I've been having this deep sense that "this is wrong, I'm on the wrong path" for a while. I've never been able to convince myself that I should stay because it's what I want, only push down the feeling and try to convince myself I have no choice.

Despite many good things that happened, 2024 was almost definitely the worst year of my life (which is saying something, considering how 2021 went for me) just in terms of how much of it I spent utterly miserable.

I'm about to turn 25. I am so sick of being around 19 and 20 year olds, not that there's anything wrong with them, I'm just starting to struggle to connect with people who haven't been around the block a little bit and lived outside of the regimented, narrow constraints of school.

My school situation is difficult to explain but it's unlikely I will ever be given a better chance to graduate without debt. However, my school has proven completely rigid and inflexible in regards to several crucial disability accommodations, and I have fought so incredibly hard to make this situation work for me and it just isn't and every time I think it's finally going to be okay there is some other bullshit that happens and I am tired of running myself ragged fighting to survive in a place I don't want to be.

Not only do I not want to spend another year feeling like my life is a black hole of despair, I don't want to wait any longer to get my driver's license and figure myself out and learn who I am and form meaningful relationships and escape the narrow little crevice my college life is. I am so exhausted all the time when I'm in school that I can't work on myself, and I feel stunted. I feel like a plant in a too-small pot where its roots are all bunched up along the edges.

I was hopeful about getting some kind of career related to studying plants or working with plants or something, but right now my only career goal is for the pain to stop.

Family says they will support me no matter what I do, but seem to lack faith in me to take steps toward independence or something I want to accomplish. My mom just seems to live in fear that I will go back to how I was in the Burnout Year where I just laid in bed for months, as if this is all I'm capable of without the external structure of college. It leaves me doubting myself and whether I've actually grown any.

Family also seems to think that I'm naive to how hard a job would be, to which my honest answer is Jesus if this is the easiest my life is going to be I am just not going to make it. Parents keep saying college is hard, it was hard for me too but I think I just completely fail to communicate how much they don't get it. It's not that my classes are hard, it's not that the work takes effort. If anything it's not enough work, not enough stimulation. It's just...the stressors. The exhaustion of having to go to class every day for hours and participate in group projects and presentations and having to go to different meetings and appointments. Not having any control over anything in my life. Not knowing whether I'll have good food to eat every day, not knowing if the kitchen will be free for me to boil a pot of goddamn noodles, not knowing if my energy budget is free enough that I can hang out with a friend or make a dentist appointment without fucking up and contributing to an ongoing backlog of exhaustion that nothing, nothing, nothing but time ever can fix. The hyper-vigilance I have to maintain to avoid locking myself out of my own room.

I'm just...not 20 anymore. I can hardly stomach Ramen noodles and microwave mac and cheese anymore. I feel gross and nasty when I don't eat green things and fresh things and things with fiber in them. I get too exhausted to stay awake by 12:30 and wake up at 8:30am whether I set my alarm or not. I can't skip meals anymore, I can't just roll out of bed, stuff down a granola bar and function until lunch anymore.

I don't know what's right. I just know that what I'm doing right now is wrong. If I ignore this, I might as well never listen to a "gut feeling" ever again because I've never had one so strong or so persistent.

[wolvietxt]

picking up the pieces

pairing : frank castle x fem!reader warnings : hurt/comfort, crying, reverse comfort (kinda), not proofread, neighbour!frank, established relationship, petnames summary : frank’s self-deprecating comments finally get to you wc : 2.2k a/n : guys i’m #alive and #thriving don’t worry stop asking me if i’ve died thank you though🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️

you weren’t supposed to fall for him.

not when he barely said a word for the first three months you lived next to him. not when you figured out pretty quick that he came home with bruises that didn’t match the kind of work he’d told you he did. not when you’d catch him sitting on the front stoop, covered in sawdust or blood or both, breathing like the air hurt.

but somehow it just… happened.

he came over once because you left a note on his door. hey - package came to mine by mistake. he looked confused when he knocked, like he didn’t think you’d actually write something so simple. you watched him glance at the box, then back at you, and you could tell from the way he cleared his throat that he didn’t know how to say thanks.

after that, he started showing up more.

bringing your mail. checking on the leaky faucet you mentioned offhandedly. standing a little closer each time, like he didn’t want to leave.

then one night, you knocked on his door.

you were crying, and you didn’t say why. just said can i come in? and he nodded, stepping aside without asking anything. he held you all night and didn’t ask a single question. but the next morning, he made coffee and you found out he took his black, no sugar. you told him that was insane and he just said, “you’re insane,” with the ghost of a smile. and from that point on, it was… different.

you kissed him two weeks later. he kissed you like he’d been waiting years.

it’d been eight months since that first night. eight months of quiet dinners, long showers, fingers laced tight under the covers, and frank’s body curled protectively around yours like he’s trying to shield you from the world.

right now, you’re curled up in his lap. it’s raining outside, soft and steady, and frank’s got one hand on your thigh, his thumb dragging slow lines across your skin. the tv’s playing something neither of you are really watching.

he smells like soap. like flannel and heat and something that always makes your stomach flip.

“you know,” you murmur, “you could stand to take a compliment once in a while.”

his thumb stills. “i take ‘em.”

“you deflect them.”

“same thing.”

you glance up at him, turning to rest your cheek against his chest. “i said you were a good man earlier and you said ‘debatable.’ what even is that?”

frank snorts softly. “it’s honesty.”

you make a face, nudge his ribs with your elbow. “you saved that guy last week. the one in the alley? you didn't even know him.”

“guy was gettin’ his ass handed to him by two meth-heads. it ain't that deep.”

you push yourself up a little, looking at him. “yeah, well you didn’t have to get involved. but you always do. because that’s just who you are.”

he looks at you then. just for a beat. his face unreadable.

“…maybe i just like pickin’ fights,” he says finally. there’s a rough edge to his voice, but it’s not angry. more like resigned.

you laugh softly. “okay, tough guy. sure.”

he grunts. “’s the truth.”

you lean in, brushing a kiss to his jaw, then nuzzle into the space under his arm again. “you’re good, frank. whether you believe it or not.”

he mutters, almost to himself, “i’m just a mess, sweetheart. you’re gonna get tired of picking up the pieces.”

you freeze.

it’s not that what he said is cruel. it’s not even new - he’s done this before, poked at himself like he’s just some walking mess. but tonight, it lands different. heavier. sharper.

you don’t answer. just stay still, curled against him, eyes open and fixed on nothing.

frank doesn’t notice at first. his hand moves back to your thigh, slow and steady, but something about your silence must click. eventually, he tilts his head down, squinting at you in the dim light.

“…hey.”

you blink.

“what?” your voice is too soft, too tight.

“you okay?”

“yeah.” you try to smile, to brush it off. but it’s barely there, and your eyes won’t meet his.

frank shifts a little to get a better look at you. the arm around your back pulls you closer, like he’s anchoring you to him. “what’s goin’ on in that head?”

you shake your head. “nothing. just… tired, i guess.”

he studies you for a second, then lifts a hand and brushes your hair gently behind your ear. “you don’t look tired.”

you glance at him for half a second before looking away again. it’s too much. he’s too much.

because he’s here. breathing and warm and solid beside you. and somehow, even after everything, he still doesn’t understand what it means when you look at him and say you’re good.

you press your face into his shoulder like you can hide there.

but the tears are already coming.

you try to turn your face further away, but you’re curled toward him, wrapped up in him - there’s nowhere to go. your hand comes up to your cheek instinctively, wiping the first tear before he can see, but you know he does.

you feel his whole body shift slightly.

“baby,” he says, low. confused.

you shake your head again, voice trembling. “it’s nothing.”

he leans forward just a bit, trying to see your face. “what’s wrong?”

“nothing, i swear - i just…” your throat closes up. you press your lips together and try to breathe through your nose, but it doesn’t work. your shoulders shake. “god, i don’t even know what’s wrong with me.”

his hand cups your jaw suddenly, tilting your face gently toward him.

“hey,” he says again, firmer. “sweetheart. look at me.”

you don’t want to. your eyes are glassy, lashes wet, cheeks red. you feel stupid. overly sensitive. like you’ve just ruined the softest moment with your own mess.

but he’s holding your face like you’re glass. like you’re made of something precious.

you blink up at him and your voice breaks.

“i just - i wish you could see yourself the way i do.”

frank’s lips part slightly. he doesn’t speak. his thumb brushes under your eye, catching the tear that slips down.

you exhale shakily, a little embarrassed now that it’s all out in the open.

“you say stuff like that,” you whisper, “like you’re some kind of monster. like you’re not good. and it just - it kills me. because you’re… you’re everything to me. you know that?”

his brows furrow. he looks like he doesn’t know what to say.

“…i don’t - ”

“i know you’ve been through hell. i know you think all that stuff ruined you. but it didn’t. not to me.” you swallow hard. “you love me like no one ever has. you take care of me. you make me feel safe. like i can breathe.”

your voice cracks again and frank just moves, pulling you into his lap before you can say another word.

he wraps both arms around you and holds you tight against his chest, one hand cradling the back of your head like you might fall apart if he lets go.

“shh, baby,” he murmurs into your hair. “c’mere. i got you.”

you bury your face into his neck and let yourself cry, finally giving in. it’s not loud. just quiet, broken little gasps against his skin as your fingers clutch the back of his shirt.

he doesn’t rush you. doesn’t say anything else for a long time.

just rocks you slightly, thumb tracing slow circles into your spine.

when your breathing finally evens out, he shifts just enough to look down at you. you don’t pull back. you stay pressed to him, arms tight around his waist.

“…you sure you ain’t got me mixed up with somebody else?” he says quietly.

you lift your head, watery eyes searching his face. “frank,” you whine.

he gives a soft sigh, like he already knows what you’re about to say but needed to hear it anyway.

“you’re mine,” you whisper. “you’re so good to me. you don’t have to be perfect, you just have to stay.”

he cups your face again and kisses your forehead. not rushed. not distracting. just gentle, grounding. and then another kiss to your temple. then your cheek. then your mouth - slow and soft and deep.

when he finally pulls back, he’s looking at you like maybe, just maybe, he’s starting to believe it.

“you ain’t goin’ anywhere either,” he says. “you hear me?”

you nod. your hand slides up to rest on the back of his neck. “i’m right here.”

“yeah you are.”

he presses his forehead to yours and closes his eyes.

and for a long time, the only sound in the room is the rain outside and the soft hum of his breath against your skin.

the rain’s stopped by morning. the quiet hum of the house is almost peaceful, except for the soft clink of dishes in the kitchen and the distant chirp of birds outside the window. you’re curled up in the same spot you were last night, still wrapped in the warmth of frank’s body. the bed’s slightly colder now where his body had been, but you feel tethered to him in a way that’s grounding, safe.

he’s already up when you open your eyes, the soft scrape of the kitchen chair against the floor letting you know he's busy. you don’t rush to get up, letting yourself linger in the comfort of the bed, still feeling the traces of his arms around you. the scent of coffee wafts into the room, pulling you from your hazy morning thoughts.

frank appears in the doorway a few moments later, coffee in hand. his hair’s a little tousled, and he’s wearing that worn, grey t-shirt of his you love. the sight of him makes your heart stutter in a way you still haven’t gotten used to. 

he doesn’t say anything at first, just stands there, his gaze soft and steady as it meets yours. there’s a quiet understanding between you, something built from the words left unsaid last night, from the vulnerability you shared. there’s a gentleness to his presence now, like he’s giving you space to breathe without making you feel like you have to speak.

after a moment, he walks over and sets the coffee down on the nightstand, then sits down next to you, the bed creaking under his weight.

you shift slightly, leaning into him, your head resting on his shoulder. it’s a small gesture, but it feels like everything, like the world is aligning in these quiet moments. there’s a peace here, one that’s fragile but steady.

he picks up his mug, taking a slow sip before setting it back down. “ain’t used to somebody cryin’ over me and stickin’ around,” he mutters, voice low. the words aren’t heavy, but they’re raw - like he’s still figuring out what it means for someone to care that much.

you don’t answer right away, just let yourself settle deeper into his side, the warmth of his body grounding you, making everything feel a little less sharp. you close your eyes for a moment, feeling the beat of his heart against your cheek, the weight of his arm around your shoulders.

finally, you speak, your voice soft but steady. “you don’t have to get used to it. i’m not going anywhere.” 

his hand brushes against your hair, gentle and comforting, before he lets it rest on your shoulder, his thumb moving in slow, rhythmic circles. “yeah?” he asks, his voice almost tentative, like he’s still unsure if this is real.

“yeah,” you whisper, barely more than a breath. “i’m here. always.”

for a long moment, neither of you speaks. you don’t need to. the quiet fills the space between you, wrapping around you both like a blanket. it’s comfortable, the kind of silence that doesn’t feel heavy, but full of understanding. full of trust.

you finally pull back just enough to look at him, meeting his gaze. there’s a softness in his eyes now, a flicker of something you haven’t seen before - something like hope, quiet but steady.

he looks at you for a beat, like he’s trying to figure out if he can believe it. then he sighs, almost to himself, and leans down to kiss the top of your head, slow and tender.

the rain’s long gone, and outside, the sky’s starting to clear, the sun creeping in. but in here, in this quiet moment with him, everything feels like it’s finally falling into place.

you feel his breath against your skin as he holds you, his arms strong but careful, like he’s afraid you’ll break if he lets go. but you don’t need to be held that tight, not anymore. you’re grounded now, by him, by this quiet, simple love.

the morning moves slowly, and for the first time in a long while, you let yourself breathe, really breathe, without the weight of everything else hanging over you. with frank, it’s different.

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won’t go home without you | zayne

synopsis : “You and Zayne were never perfect, but you were always right.” content : zayne x reader, established relationship, heartbreak, some fluff, pretty basic stuff, your classic couple quarrel. quote : “It’s not over tonight, just give me one more chance to make it right.” - Maroon 5

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You and Zayne were never perfect, but you were always right.

The fights, the teasing, the way you always found your way back to each other.

It was a rhythm, a dance that only the two of you knew.

Zayne was never good with words, but he loved you in all the quiet ways that mattered.

The way he would pull you close in bed at night even after an argument, whispering an apology as he embraced you.

In the way he would stay awake, just to hear you fall asleep.

The way he would slide over a glass of dessert when he notices you eyeing it for too long, even if it’s his favourite.

The way his hands subtly covers the edge of the table when you bend down to pick up something that fell, knowing how clumsy you were.

The way he would memorise your coffee orders.

You would walk home after work and find your coffee sitting on top of the counter, from your favourite cafe.

“I love you,” you would say as you hugged him.

He would give you a small kiss on your forehead. No words needed, just warmth.

Or, even the way he would leave gifts around the house for you to find. Things that you mentioned casually when you both were driving home.

The way he was always there. No matter how busy he was at the hospital, even when he just finished an 8 hour shift, he was always there.

And you loved him for that.

All the little things were enough for you.

Until they weren’t.

Because throughout your entire 2 year relationship, he never said it.

The three words, ‘I love you,’ had never left his lips.

Not even once.

At first you didn’t complain, even when it bothered you.

Because you understood him, you loved him, and you knew he wasn’t good with words. So you never pushed the matter.

But, slowly, it started gnawing at you.

Like an annoying, nagging fly thats chipping away at your insecurities.

You were always patient with him. That’s why arguments were actually quite rare.

You would wait for him to finish work if you finished early, and he would drive you both home.

You would fill the silence at home with your corny jokes and though he acts frustrated, you could catch the corner of his lips curling ever so slightly.

You never forced him to talk when he’s not ready, you just stay close, letting him know you were there when he was.

On your day offs, you would even cook his favourite meals and leave it on his desk, pretending it was for you just so he would eat without arguing.

His quiet, calm demeanour gave you a sense of stability, he made you feel secure.

That’s what you loved about him.

But sometimes, you just needed to hear him say it. Just once.

Because sometimes love, can’t live on unspoken things.

—•

It was late.

The apartment was quiet, save for the soft hum of the refrigerator and the occasional car passing by outside.

Zayne sat on the couch, his head tilted back, fingers rubbing against his temple.

It had been a long day.

Too many meetings, too little sleep, and a gnawing exhaustion that even your presence couldn’t fix apparently.

You stood by the kitchen, washing the last of the dishes, glancing at him every few moments.

He looked tired, but more than that, he looked distant.

That distance had been growing for weeks now.

You weren’t sure when it started, when the warmth between you had started to cool, when the silence between conversations had started stretching too long.

You tried not to let it bother you.

Tried to tell yourself it was just a phase, just stress, just a bad month.

But the weight of it had been pressing on your chest all night, a silent ache that refused to go away.

You wiped your hands dry on a towel, hesitating for just a moment before speaking.

“Zayne?”

He didn’t look up. “Hmm?”

You chewed on your lip, shifting your weight.

“Do you still want this?”

His fingers stilled against his temple.

He exhaled, slow, before finally looking at you. His eyes were unreadable.

“What do you mean?”

You swallowed hard. “Us. This. Do you still—”

Zayne sighed, “Darling, can we not do this tonight?”

You flinched.

That was the problem, wasn’t it? It was never the right time.

You weren’t picking a fight.

You weren’t trying to be difficult.

You just needed to know.

“I just—” You hesitated, but the words were already pushing their way out.

“You haven’t really been here lately. You don’t talk to me like you used to. And I don’t know, maybe I’m overthinking, maybe I just need you to—”

Zayne let out a frustrated exhale, standing abruptly.

“Maybe you should just stop expecting things from me.”

The words hit like a slap.

The room tilted.

A sharp breath left you as your hands curled into fists at your sides.

He didn’t even realize what he had just done.

Didn’t realize what he had just broken.

You felt something shift inside you, something quiet but irreversible.

Zayne ran a hand through his hair, shaking his head.

“Y/N you know I don’t mea—”

You didn’t wait for him to finish.

You turned, walking to the bedroom.

“Wait, Y/N,” His voice followed you, but you didn’t stop.

You didn’t argue.

You didn’t cry.

You just packed.

—•

The suitcase wasn’t even fully zipped when he appeared in the doorway.

His brows were furrowed, his expression somewhere between frustration and panic.

“Darling, what are you doing?”

You didn’t answer.

His voice hardened.

“Are you really leaving just because of one thing I said?”

Your fingers tightened around the zipper, your chest aching.

“It wasn’t just one thing, Zayne,” you said quietly, without looking at him.

A silence stretched between you.

He was breathing hard, hands at his sides, fists clenched like he wanted to say something, but didn’t know what.

Finally, your eyes met his.

And the worst part?

He didn’t even try to stop you.

Maybe if he had reached for you, maybe if he had just, said something real. Then maybe things would have ended differently.

But all he did was stare at you, his expression unreadable.

And so, you walked past him, suitcase in hand.

Zayne didn’t move.

Didn’t follow.

Didn’t say a word.

The door clicked shut behind you, and that was it.

—•

The silence was the worst part.

At first, Zayne told himself it was just temporary.

That you needed space.

That you’d cool off, come back, and you’d talk.

He had plenty of time, didn’t he?

But then, the days stretched into weeks.

The bed started feeling too big.

The couch felt too empty.

The apartment felt too quiet.

The first time he reached for his phone to text you, he stopped himself.

Not because he didn’t want to.

“What would I say?”

He’d set the phone down and try to distract himself.

He went to work, came home, slept, repeat.

It was fine. He was fine.

Until of course, he wasn’t.

It was a small thing.

He was making coffee one morning when he reached for your mug.

It was muscle memory, because he always made yours first.

But then his hand stilled.

Because your mug wasn’t there.

His felt his stomach drop.

He would open all the cabinets, “Maybe she misplaced it.” Only to find it empty, your mug was no where to be found.

Like you had never been there at all.

That was when he checked the closet.

He rushed into your shared bedroom, swinging then closet door open.

And his chest tightened painfully when he saw that your side was empty.

Your clothes. Your shoes.

The little things you left in random places.

All gone.

That was when he realised that this wasn’t a break.

You weren’t coming back.

At first, he tried to pretend he was fine.

Tried to go out. See his co-workers. Work late.

But nothing felt right.

He would find the coffee too bland, his colleagues too loud, or the conversations just bored the hell out of him.

No matter where he went, he still ended up here.

Alone.

At home, in the dark, staring at the ceiling, feeling like he was suffocating under the weight of everything he didn’t say.

He tried telling himself that maybe it was for the best.

That maybe you were better off without him.

But then he thought about how you looked before you left.

The way your hands had trembled just slightly when you zipped up your suitcase.

The way your voice had cracked, just for a second, when you said it wasn’t just one thing.

The way you had looked at him, like you were waiting.

Like you were hoping, just for a second, that he would stop you.

And he hadn’t.

That was the moment the regret settled in his chest like a knife he couldn’t pull out.

Because you wanted him to fight for you.

And he just stood there, watching you walk away.

—•

Zayne saw you everywhere.

Not you, but the things you would do.

It was in the things you touched, the spaces you once filled, the air that still carried the faintest trace of your perfume.

He saw you in his blankets, snuggled up on the couch reading a book.

He saw you in his clothes, that one oversized sweater you would always steal from his closet.

Saw you in the kitchen where he had moved the snacks to the lower cabinet because he knew you couldn’t reach high.

It was like you had been erased from the apartment but not from his world.

But that wasn’t the worst.

The worst was that, he had let you walk away.

—•

He made it two months before he caved.

It happened on a random afternoon.

He had been walking home, taking the long way just because he didn’t want to go back to the empty apartment, when he passed a small bookstore.

And there, he saw it, sitting in the window.

The book you had been searching for.

The one you had spent weeks trying to find, but every store had been sold out.

His feet moved before his brain caught up.

The next thing he knew, he was inside, buying the book without thinking.

It wasn’t until he stepped outside, book in hand, heart pounding, that reality hit him.

You weren’t here.

He had no one to give it to.

And that’s when it hit him, like a punch to the chest.

He needed to see you.

Needed to tell you everything he didn’t say that night.

Because if he didn’t?

He would regret it for the rest of his life.

He stood there out side the bookstore, the book still in his hands, his fingers gripping the cover like it was the only thing grounding him.

His heart was pounding.

He hadn’t realized how much time had passed, how long he had gone without hearing your voice.

The thought made his throat tighten.

He reached for his phone.

Two months.

That’s how long it had been since he last saw your name on his screen.

Two months of silence he had convinced himself was necessary.

But now, with the weight of everything crashing down on him, he wondered, “Did I wait too long?”

His thumb hovered over your contact.

His chest felt too tight.

But he hit dial.

And then, it rang.

Once.

Twice.

His pulse quickened.

Finally, a click.

A breath caught in his throat.

But it wasn’t your voice.

“The number you are trying to reach is unavailable. Please try again later.”

The line went dead.

Zayne stared at his phone.

His stomach dropped.

He tried again.

Ring. Ring.

Nothing.

He exhaled sharply, his eyes narrowed.

This wasn’t normal.

You always picked up.

Even if you were mad.

Even if you didn’t want to talk.

And if you didn’t, you always called back.

But now?

Nothing.

A pit formed in his chest.

His hands shook slightly as he checked your social media.

No updates.

No posts.

Like you had disappeared.

His mind raced.

Had you blocked him?

Had you moved on?

Had you… left for good?

The thought was suffocating.

His grip tightened on the phone.

He had spent the last two months thinking he had time.

That you would still be there, just… waiting.

But what if you weren’t?

What if this time, you weren’t coming back?

Panic shot through his veins like ice.

And for the first time since you walked away, real fear settled deep into his bones.

He couldn’t lose you.

He wouldn’t.

Not like this.

Not because of his own damn pride.

Zayne stood abruptly, grabbing his car keys.

He didn’t know where you were.

Didn’t know if you even wanted to see him.

But he was going to find you.

Because if there was even the slightest chance that he could fix this then, he wasn’t going to waste another second.

—•

Zayne never drove faster in his life, the rain blurring the road as he gripped the steering wheel, heart pounding.

He had waited too long, let too much time slip through his fingers, convincing himself that you’d still be there, waiting.

But when his calls went unanswered, when the silence stretched too far, fear settled deep in his bones.

He didn’t know what he would say when he saw you, only that he had to.

Because if he didn’t, if he let this be the ending, he would regret it forever.

Standing on your porch, staring at the door he never thought he’d have to knock on, his hands trembled.

But then, you were there, your eyes guarded, arms crossed, exhaustion weighing heavy on your face.

“Zayne,” you whispered, his name feeling like both a wound and a prayer.

His throat tightened.

“I was wrong,” he admitted, voice rough, raw.

“I should have stopped you. I love you. And I won’t go home without you.”

Silence hung between you, thick with the weight of everything left unsaid.

Then, finally, your fingers trembled as they reached for his, and as he exhaled, pressing his forehead against yours, he whispered,

“Don’t go.”

This time, he wouldn’t let you.

—•

You could have told him he was too late.

That love wasn’t enough. That some things, some wounds, don’t just heal because someone finally decides to show up.

But as you stood there, staring at the man who once let you walk away without a fight, you realized something.

You had been waiting for this.

Not for an apology. Not for grand words or promises.

For him.

For the way his voice cracked when he whispered, “I was wrong.”

For the way his fingers twitched at his sides, aching to reach for you but too afraid.

For the way he looked at you like he had finally woken up, like he had finally understood what he had lost.

Your breath felt shallow, chest rising and falling too fast as you stared at him.

Neither of you moved.

And then, he did.

Just the smallest step closer, just enough that you could feel his warmth again, just enough that the cold space between you started to disappear.

His hand hovered near yours, like he was waiting, waiting for permission, waiting for you to let him in.

Your fingers trembled as they reached for his, hesitating, just for a second, just long enough for him to feel the weight of it.

Then, finally, you closed the distance.

Zayne let out a breath, something deep and unsteady, like he had been holding it in for months.

His forehead pressed against yours, his body leaning into you as if he was afraid you’d disappear.

His hands, once hesitant, found their way to your waist, slow and unsure, like he wasn’t sure if he was allowed to hold you anymore.

You let him.

And when his fingers curled into the fabric of your sweater, when his arms pulled you just a little closer, you felt the way he was shaking.

He had always been quiet in his grief.

But now?

Now, you could feel every unspoken word in the way his hands refused to let go.

His breath was warm against your cheek, voice breaking as he whispered.

“I love you.”

Your eyes fluttered shut.

You could have said a million things.

Could have reminded him of all the ways he hurt you, could have made him earn this moment.

Instead, you just sighed, tilting your head until your lips brushed against his.

Soft, hesitant, the kind of kiss that felt like both an ending and a beginning.

Zayne froze, his breath catching, before he kissed you back, slow and aching.

Like he was memorizing the feeling.

Like he didn’t believe this was real.

And when he pulled away, his forehead still resting against yours, his hands still holding you like you were the only thing keeping him upright, you whispered.

“Then don’t go home without me.”

His grip tightened. His breath hitched.

Zayne knew that this wasn’t forgiveness.

But it was a start.

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[cumironi]

they see you in a wedding dress for the first time

the three of you had been together for eight years. from high school sweethearts to adults navigating life side by side, you had seen each other grow, change, struggle, and succeed. six years of living together had only strengthened your bond, turning your home into a place filled with warmth, laughter, and love. and now, after everything—the late-night talks, the quiet moments, the shared dreams—you were finally getting married. in two months, you would officially become theirs, and they would be yours. forever.

planning the wedding had been a joint effort. every decision was made together, from the venue to the flowers to the music that would play as you walked down the aisle. no detail was too small, no moment too insignificant. everything had to be perfect. after all, this wasn’t just a wedding—it was the beginning of something even greater.

and today was another milestone. today, you were trying on your wedding dress for the first time.

you stood on a small, round podium inside a spacious fitting room, the soft lighting casting a gentle glow on your reflection in the full-length mirror. the dress hugged your body perfectly, the delicate fabric cascading down in elegant folds. it had been custom-made just for you, every stitch and detail crafted with care. the intricate embroidery shimmered under the light, subtle yet breathtaking, designed to complement you in every way.

behind you, a thick curtain separated you from the waiting area where your fiancés were sitting. they had been patient—mostly. knowing them, they were probably bouncing their legs in anticipation, barely restraining themselves from barging in to see you. they had been involved in every step of the design process, eager to make sure you had the dress of your dreams. still, they hadn’t seen the final product. this was supposed to be a surprise.

the seamstress, a kind older woman who had been adjusting the fabric, took a step back and smiled at you warmly. “you’re glowing,” she said softly, admiration clear in her voice.

you felt warmth rise in your chest at her words. “thank you,” you murmured, fingers grazing the smooth fabric of your dress.

she gave a knowing smile before asking, “would you like to show them now?”

your heart fluttered. they were waiting for you, just beyond the curtain, eager to see the woman they loved in the dress she would marry them in. you could already imagine their reactions—the stunned silence, the way their eyes would widen, the way they would reach for you like they couldn’t believe you were real.

you nodded. “yeah,” you whispered, barely containing your excitement.

outside the curtain, gojo was a mess of nervous energy. he sat at the edge of his seat, his long leg bouncing restlessly, fingers drumming against his knee. his sunglasses were pushed up into his snowy hair, forgotten in his impatience. every few seconds, he turned his head towards the fitting room as if sheer willpower alone could make you appear faster.

beside him, geto looked more composed—at least on the surface. he leaned back in his chair, one leg crossed over the other, arms resting lazily on the armrest. but his dark eyes were locked on the curtain, unwavering, betraying his calm exterior. every time gojo sighed dramatically or shifted in his seat, geto shot him a glance, but he wasn’t much better. his fingers tapped against the wood of the chair, subtle but insistent, betraying his own impatience.

“she’s taking forever,” gojo muttered under his breath, pushing his hair back.

“it hasn’t even been five minutes,” geto replied, but there was a slight edge to his voice.

gojo groaned, tilting his head back dramatically. “what if she looks so pretty i pass out? i wasn’t prepared for that.”

geto smirked, finally turning his head to glance at him. “that would be embarrassing. i’d have to marry her alone.”

gojo gasped, hand over his heart. “rude. at least let me wake up before the vows.”

before geto could respond, the curtain rustled. their banter stopped instantly. gojo’s leg stilled. geto’s relaxed posture stiffened slightly. both pairs of eyes locked onto the movement, breaths held as anticipation buzzed in the air.

and then—there you were.

standing under the soft boutique lighting, your wedding dress hugging your figure perfectly, you looked ethereal. the delicate fabric cascaded down, pooling elegantly at your feet, and the embroidery shimmered subtly with each shift of movement. but it wasn’t just the dress. it was you. the way you carried yourself, the way your eyes searched for theirs with that teasing glint, the way you smiled—soft, knowing, radiant.

for the first time in his life, gojo was speechless.

his mouth parted slightly, but no words came out. the ever-talkative, ever-loud satoru gojo sat frozen in place, blue eyes blown wide. his hands, which had been resting on his knees, clenched into fists as if grounding himself.

geto, on the other hand, reacted differently. his lips parted, but unlike gojo, he actually managed to speak. just barely.

“...fuck.” his voice came out lower, rougher, like the sight of you had just knocked the air out of his lungs.

your smile widened as you stepped forward, the soft rustling of fabric the only sound in the room for a few seconds. the weight of their gazes was enough to make your skin tingle.

“so?” you teased lightly, tilting your head. “what do you think?”

gojo finally moved. he shot up from his chair so fast it scraped against the floor. his hands ran through his hair before covering his face, like he needed to physically hold himself together.

“you—" he exhaled sharply, voice slightly strained. "you can’t just do that to me.”

geto stood up more gracefully, though his steps were just as urgent as he closed the distance between you. unlike gojo, who still looked like he was trying to process the situation, geto recovered faster. his hand reached for yours, fingers brushing over your knuckles before holding them gently.

“you’re breathtaking.” his voice was steady, but his eyes held something deeper—something almost reverent.

gojo finally lowered his hands, blinking rapidly as if trying to clear his vision. and then, suddenly, he groaned loudly, throwing his head back.

“shit—i’m gonna cry. i don’t cry. i never cry.” he turned to geto, smacking his arm. “why didn’t you prepare me for this?”

geto huffed out a soft chuckle, still looking at you. “like i was any more prepared?”

gojo took a deep breath, stepping closer until he was right in front of you. his hands hovered near your waist, hesitant, as if afraid to wrinkle the fabric. but his eyes were soft, filled with something so raw and unfiltered that it made your heart ache in the best way.

“you’re the most beautiful thing i’ve ever seen,” he murmured.

your chest tightened at his words, at the pure sincerity in his voice. before you could respond, he let out a choked laugh, shaking his head.

“how the hell am i supposed to stand at the altar and not lose my mind when i see you walking toward me?”

geto squeezed your hand. “we’ll just have to suffer through it together.”

you laughed, warmth blooming in your chest. “well,” you teased, voice light, “at least now you have time to prepare.”

gojo huffed, eyes flickering between you and geto before exhaling dramatically. “nope. doesn’t matter. i’ll still lose it.”

his hands finally settled on your waist, his grip firm yet careful. geto, still holding your hand, lifted it to press a slow, lingering kiss to your knuckles.

gojo stared at you for a long time, unmoving, completely lost in the sight of you. his bright blue eyes traced over every little detail—how the dress hugged your body perfectly, how your skin glowed under the soft lighting, how your expression held that teasing warmth he adored. but more than anything, he saw you—the love of his life, the woman he would be marrying in two months.

his mind betrayed him, fast-forwarding to the wedding day. he imagined himself standing at the altar, dressed in a perfectly tailored suit, fidgeting slightly because he had never been this nervous in his entire life. he pictured the moment the doors would open, and there you would be—walking toward him, wearing a delicate veil over your face, the very same wedding dress that was now stealing his breath away.

your makeup, carefully done, enhancing every feature he already loved. your hands, steady but excited, clutching onto the bouquet. your lips, curled into the most beautiful smile, the one meant just for him.

and just thinking about it—just imagining that moment—his chest tightened in a way he couldn’t control.

his vision blurred.

his breath hitched.

before he could even stop himself, a single tear slipped down his cheek. then another. and another.

“oh, shit,” he whispered, quickly wiping at his face with the sleeve of his sweater. but it was useless. the tears kept coming, completely unrestrained.

geto, still holding your hand, turned to look at him and sighed. “you’re crying already?”

“shut up,” gojo choked out, rubbing his eyes aggressively. “this is—this is your fault.” he pointed at you, voice trembling slightly. “you did this to me.”

you laughed softly, reaching out to cup his cheek, brushing away the wetness with your thumb. he leaned into your touch instantly, his long lashes damp with unshed tears, his lips trembling.

“i’m not even at the altar yet,” you teased gently. “you’re gonna be a mess on our wedding day.”

“i know,” he groaned dramatically, sniffling. “i’m doomed. i’m gonna look so ugly in all the pictures.”

geto chuckled, shaking his head. “you’ll survive.”

gojo let out a deep breath, trying to pull himself together, but his hands trembled as they held onto your waist, gripping onto you like he needed to keep himself grounded.

“i just—” he took another shaky breath, looking at you like he was seeing the entire universe in your eyes. “i love you so much. and you’re so—so beautiful. i don’t know how i’m gonna handle seeing you like this on our wedding day and not passing out.”

your heart swelled at his words. “then don’t,” you said softly, pressing a kiss to the corner of his lips. “i’ll be right there to catch you.”

he let out a watery laugh, leaning his forehead against yours. “yeah,” he whispered. “yeah, you always are.”

geto sighed, pretending to be unimpressed, but the way he was rubbing slow circles against your palm gave him away. “if he cries this much now, i might have to carry him through the ceremony.”

“you would, right?” gojo sniffled, blinking up at him. “like, if i actually collapsed, you’d help?”

geto sighed, then leaned down to kiss your temple before glancing at gojo with a smirk. “only after taking a few pictures first.”

you burst into laughter, and even through his sniffles, gojo couldn’t help but laugh too, wrapping his arms around you, holding you like you were the most precious thing in the world.

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Searching for You

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Summary: Reader and Daryl have been together since you were teens, you have crazy news for him but then the world falls apart and your searching for him every second

Pairing: Daryl Dixon x f!reader

Warning: Pregnant

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I finished picking up the surprise cake I had specially ordered for the bakery in town for the news I have for Daryl, we live in cabin on the outskirts of town it’s simple but so cozy plus I’m staying with the man I’ve loved since I was in highschool

I got home setting up the surprise, the cake was a round cake with lilac frosting around the edges, with the words baby on board on the top, it was cheesy but the joy I felt trumped that feeling

Soon I heard the rumble of his motorcycle pulling up the drive way and the engine cutting off, my heart pounding slightly nervous of his reaction, sure we’ve been together for years but I knew of his past and how he feared of becoming like his old man

I push those thoughts aside when I hear the door open and his subtle sigh as he flicked his boots off

“Sunshine?” I walk out of the dining room and meet him at the door

“Hi my love, I have a surprise for you” I smile as I wrap my arms around his shoulders as he pulls me close

“Really, more that this cute lil dress ya got on” he smiles making me blush

“Oh stop come on” I take his hand leading him to the table

He read the cake then back at me then down at my belly

“Really?” I nod my head as I wring my fingers anxiously

“Are you mad” he wrapped his hands around my waist down to my little bump

“Ya know I can never be mad at ya……we’re having a baby” he sighs gently

“I know it’s scary but she’s ours”

“She?” He smiled

“Just a feeling, call it mothers intuition”

•

We went to the doctor the next day and found out I was only a month along, we get home and I slump on the couch exhausted

“What me to run out and get ya something for supper?”

“I’m reeeeeeeally craving Chinese”

“Then that’s what ya get sunshine” he smiles giving me a gentle kiss before he was off

I waited for him, when an hour went by then two I started to get nervous it’s a small town I never took more than 20 minutes, I tried his phone but he never answered

I pull on one of his hoodies and my boots, taking the keys to the truck and leave the house, I drive into town and the streets are empty, confused I keep driving until I get to the Main Street where all I see is carnage, people dead and ripped apart blood everywhere, as others are the ones ripping them apart

“What the hell?” I scream when one slams up against the window, I quickly turn around speeding back to the house where it’s still safe hoping Daryl made his way back, I get there running inside screaming for him, begging to any god that he’s here

I run to every room and all I get is silence, what is happening we were just about to start our family, what do I do?

I remember what Daryl and Merle taught me, drilling all the survival skills into my head over the years, I pack a bag full of clothes, weapons around the house Daryl had, food and a note

“Daryl my love, I don’t know if you’ll see this but I’m scared and I don’t know what’s going on, I packed a bag and took the truck I’ll go to the quarry where we went camping I hope you find me, until then”

I suck in a breath trying to hold the tears at bay as I left the home I loved so much hoping in the truck and taking off

•

I finally get to the quarry, and there’s a few people already there, some setting up tents, one man already there with his RV, pretty smart, I get out of the truck nervous hoping they’ll take me in

“Welcome im Dale we’ve had a few people already making themselves at home, are you bite?”

“No i…..I don’t even know what’s going on, I went out to find my husband and I didn’t know where else to go”

“Oh honey it’ll be okay, just relax for now, I have an extra tent if you like to settle in”

“I’d really appreciate that, thank you”

A week goes by and more people have come everytime I pray it Daryl maybe even Merle

I wake up to the sun shining through my tent, a few voices outside already stirring

“Got some fine ass around here” my heart lept, I knew that graphic voice from anywhere, I unzip the tent like a crazy woman and jump out, seeing Daryl and Merle, my knees buckle and I try to keep myself upright as his eyes lock with mine

I run to him until his big strong arms and holding me tight, see the others gather around

“You found me” I cry as he hides his face in my neck

“I found yer note, I’m sorry I took so long” he set me back down holding my face with his hands gently brushing my tears away

“I don’t care you’re here with us now”

“She’s okay?” I nod as I look over at Merle

“Don’t mess this place up Merle, it’s nice here” he scoffed

“Ya don’t get yer panties in a twist”

The group dispersed and I showed Daryl to my tent

“I was so scared D, and I never got my Chinese” I laugh trying to lighten the mood

“Don’t seem like yer gonna be getting that Chinese anytime soon sunshine”

“Well maybe I can get something else Mr.Dixon”

“Maybe ya can Mrs.Dixon”

•

It’s been a crazy month but the camp was coming together as we were becoming a small community, although Daryl and Merle stayed to themselves keeping that hard demeanor

I was helping clean some clothes with the other girls when we started chatting about our old lives

“I still can’t believe that you, the sweetest thing is with that Dixon” Lori said

“Hey he’s just reserved, trust me he treats me like a princess and I love him more every day”

“Well atleast you got someone to get some” Andrea laughs and my face goes beat red

“What you don’t think we here you darling” Jackie giggles as the other join

“Something funny ladies” Ed groans as he comes up behind us

“Nothing ed just swapping war stories” Andrea states as we all fall silent

“Got something to say?”

“How about you shut your mouths and get back to work”

I gather my clothes putting them in my basket and try to leave I can’t risk this getting out of hand with my baby

“Where do you think you’re going” he states as he grips my arm so tight I let out a whimper

“Let me go Ed” I push at him which only made him angry, he raises his hand and punches me across the face making me fall to the ground

That’s when all hell breaks out, everyone screaming trying to hold him back from me, all I do is scream at the top of my lungs

“DARYL!”

In a split second I see him running down the hills path straight to us with Merle on his tail, Merle can be a hard ass but he cared for the both of us in his own twisted way

“What the hell did ya do ta her” Daryl growls as he takes one look at me on the sand and me hold my face and back to Ed, the anger like fire in his eyes and he made his way over and took one swing and he was out cold on the ground

Merle came down to the ground checking my face, noticing the blood and the purple spreading across the left side of my face, sighing as he helped put the clothes back in the basket

Daryl now infront of me gently brushing my hair back to get a look

“How bad is it D?” I choke out a sob the pain still blooming

“Your eye……it’s blood shot, can you see me”

“It’s fine but it hurts so much”

“Come on sunshine let me get ya cleaned up” Merle took the basket following behind us as Daryl led me back up the hill

Getting to our tent I took the basket from Merle giving thanks as I got back in the tent with Daryl as he pulled out the first aid bag, he disinfected the cut and braided my hair to keep it away from my face

“Thanks for coming down like my Prince Charming”

“Always, how’s the baby?”

“She feels fine, he only got one hit before the others held him back

“I….i miss our home D, I miss you coming home and meeting you at the door, I miss you holding me from behind while I cook and bake, I miss holing up in bed during a thunderstorm while we played music faintly” I sigh laying down with my head on his legs as he ran his hand up and down my back

“I know, when ya told me you were pregnant I started thinking about how we’d make her room together, paint it purple like the cake, me and Merle would make her a crib, and then when I couldn’t find ya I felt like my whole world disappeared”

“Maybe this’ll all blow over and we can go home…….im scared Daryl, what if…what if I get bit what about the baby”

“Hey calm down I ain’t ever gonna let anything happen to ya”

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Part 2