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evadingreallife · 4 months ago

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I feel like ive single handedly invented a new type of AITA mental crisis cause i (temporarily living alone and generally trying to mind what i eat bc of kinda-health reasons) just got super angry at my parents cause they just. keep. pushing food on me. And by that i mean for example that tonight they were having pizza and asked me if i wanted to go and take some too and i said no i dont but when we met mom gave me this whole package which i now see its appetizers+a couple of pizza slices, of which i had asked for NONE and they know fully well im trying not to eat fried/super oily foods cause SEVERE ACNE (and other stuff) and also if i have food i like in front of me i am totally unable to not eat it or not finish it. Its in MY DNA. I really cannot. AND I DIDNT WANT IT OR NEED IT. IM NOT STARVING. IM NOT EVEN WITHOUT FOOD HERE. I GOT GROCERIES FOR FUCKS SAKE. I AM JUST ON THE WRONG SIDE OF HEALTHY/OVERWEIGHT AND DAD HAS DIABETES I DO NOT WANT THIS FOR ME. WHY. DO. THEY. KEEP. PUSHING FOOD. ON ME.

Sincerely,

An exhausted daughter

Edit: the first person coming @ me saying "just accept your body something something" will get shot with extreme prejudice. This is so not about that it's not even funny

#ps when i was doing my study semester abroad i hit my lowest adult weight ever (actually just stlightly more than the average for my height)#GEE I WONDER WHY #the only (only) time in my life i was able to fully be in control of what i eat all the time i was finally at a vaguely healthy weight #truly the plottwist of the century #ps yes dad is obese and mom is thin by default cause of gut issues #so thet couldnt care less about minding food intake if its not something that eould be bad for moms intestine #the doctors fucking told dad that he would have ended up with diabetes if he didnt change something and GUESS WHAT #HE FUCKING HAS DIABETES NOW #FOR FUCKING LIFE #AND DOES HE CARE? NO!#and for what *i* want or dont want to eat then??#i literally cannot eat a full plate of pasta and pizza anymore w/o first eating fibers cause then the sugars will hit me without mercy and #leave me so sleepy i literally used to fall asleep after eating lunch and dinner for a year until we went to a dietitian and he told us wha #to do and what to avoid to dont fall so hard and so fast after eating #and HAS HE EVER CARED FOR THAT? I GO DAY AFTER DAY TRYING TO WRESTLE A BIT OF FOOD CONTROL IN THIS HOUSE AND HE BLATANTLT IGNORES EVERYTHIN #AND THEN HE HAS THE GALL TO GET SAD WHEN I SAY NO I DONT WANT THE OVEN BAKED PASTA YOU MADE FOR LUNCH NO NOT EVEN IF YOU MAKE IT LIGHT.#I CAN DECIDE WHAT I EAT FOR ALL MEALS UNTIL IM HERE ALONE ON MY OWN AND BY GOD I WILL #this happened this morning btw #so what for dinner? the pizza drama #i was literally sobbibg while putting the pizza+other stuff in a plate in the freezer earlier cause i dkn #dont have the heart to just throw it away but i cannot have it under my nose all the time #and i cannot just leave it or i will eat it #if i eat it i will have at least three acne breakouts by tmr mornib #its scientific #and also none of that contains a single fiber #goddddddddddd #this all is so silly and pointless why are they like this its not like im gonna starve i do have food i prommy #oh and HAVE I MENTIONED THE DIETITIAN SAID NO TO CHEESE cause idk reasons and dad just has been flat out ignoring that for LITERAL YEARS???#i can get very angry when im frustrated #also i was gonna make dinner but now im not even hungry anymore im just sad

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