#i was listening to rich brians new album and it made me feel things LMAO

[propertyofnikkisthighs]

Cigarettes and Regret PT 3 (Nikki Sixx X Reader)

Hey y’all I hope you like this and it’s not a dissappointment compared to my other parts. Anyway I love validation so let me know what you think!

Warnings: Alcohol, drug mention, SMUT

“We got a fucking record deal!” Tommy screamed practically tackling you the moment you had crawled into the apartment window. He was smiling so wide you were afraid his face would split in half and the drummer would be dead from excitement.

“Babe that’s so awesome!” You yelled just as enthusiastic as him. You were incredibly proud, not just of Tommy, but of all the boys.

“I’m gonna get some beers before we rehearse. After the show tomorrow we’re gonna have a huge party, much bigger than our other parties, it’s gonna be so sick. You’ll come right?” Tommy said grabbing some cash off the kitchen counter and heading to the window..

“Of course. I want to celebrate with you guys” You beamed and you meant it. Ecstatic was an understatement. Tommy just gave you the horns and bounded out the window as a response.

You finally looked around the apartment to see Nikki fixing you with an unreadable expression. Oh Lord. You hugged Vince in congratulations and he kissed the side of your head before he went back to figure out how to remove the mannequin’s head from its body. Mick was tuning his guitar and nursing a flask you knew was full of vodka and you lightly placed your hand on his shoulder knowing he wasn’t one for a lot of physical contact. Mick wasn’t a saint and you’d seen him score his fair share of groupies, but he was the most sane of all the boys and secretly your favorite. He smiled small and restained at the contact and continued his tuning. The small touch had said all you needed to say. You finally turned your head to Nikki and motioned to his room hoping he’d get the hint that you wanted to talk to him in there. 

“So do I get a congratulations?” He teased lightly shutting the door behind him and wrapping his arms around your waist.

“I’m so fucking proud of you Nikki” You whispered leaning into his touch and looking up at him. From this position you could see his eyes which he normally kept hidden behind bangs. When did green become your favorite color?

“This is everything I have been working towards.” He looked far away and happy. “It feels like a sick dream ya know? I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop and something to go wrong”

“It’s not gonna go wrong Nikki. You all have worked so hard from the moment you became a band. This is you getting what you deserve” You nuzzled into his neck and placed a soft kiss. You hoped he could sense the sincerity behind your words. From the moment Tommy and you had met Nikki in the diner the night London had fallen they worked their asses off.

“You’re far too good for any of us.” Nikki chuckled, “You’re too kind, too helpful,....too beautiful, and here you are with us degenerates and you never once stopped believing in our dream. Thank you.”

Your heart skipped a beat and you felt your ears become hot. Nikki was never sweet to you like this unless it was after sex. You wanted to say something, anything, to let him know that he did in fact deserve to have someone treat him like this after the life he had lived; however the words wouldn’t form so you just stood on your toes and pressed a soft kiss to his mouth. You should’ve known he wouldn’t be okay with just a soft kiss though. He pressed his lips more urgently to yours and flipped you around pressing you against the door. He licked your bottom lip begging permission and you relented despite the voice in your head saying you needed to end this. His tongue could do unholy things even just while kissing you and you felt yourself growing more needy for his touch. Whimpering when he bit your bottom lip you yanked his hair the way you knew he liked, but you pulled his face from yours.

“We can’t.” You panted with a flush face. “Tommy will be back any minute and you need to rehearse”

“I know how to play the songs I wrote (y/n) I don’t need practice.” He trailed sloppy kisses down your neck “Besides the noises you make are like music to my ears”

“Nikki we can’t right now. You guys just got a deal, that’s gonna be difficult to live up to if you and your drummer have an all out brawl” You tried to be strong even as he nipped at your ear lobe. Asshole.

“Just end things with him” He hummed pressing more kisses from your jaw and down your neck

“Why do you want me to end things with him so badly?” You couldn’t understand why he wanted you and Tommy to break up when you both knew he’d never commit to you.

“So I can stop feeling guilty every time you suck my dick in my dressing room (y/n)” He finally relented and pulled away from you and you hated to admit you were slightly disappointed that he gave up.

“God you’re so romantic.” You rolled your eyes and straightened yourself out so you didn’t look like you were making out against a door.

“You don’t come to me for romance” He shrugged “You come to me to get fucked into next week. Romance is Tommy’s department.”

“Then I should be able to keep both of you.” With that you walked out of the room knowing that line would get under his skin. Judging by the grumbled cuss words coming from his mouth you were right. Good. Asshole.

You tried to help tidy the place up as much as you could while the boys rehearsed as you did during all their rehearsals. You felt it was the least you could do seeing as they never had an issue sharing their drugs and alcohol with you. The boys were now huddled around discussing new songs for their soon to be new album. You loved Too Fast For Love as much as their other fans so being privy to new music coming from them had you giddy. You didn’t understand much about writing songs so you loved to listen in on the boys collaborating on what should go where and what sound they wanted the songs to have. Nikki had a notebook that he constantly scribbled in when inspiration struck so he seemed to already have a multitude of songs possible for this album. You had caught him staring at you while scribbling and tried to take a peek at what his notebook said but he flipped it over and glared at you.

“The notebook and songs are for band members only.” He snapped.

“Oh come on Nikki don’t be so mean she’s just curious, aren’t ya babe?” Tommy laughed pulling you onto his lap.

“She’ll be first to hear all the songs once we finish the album. Before it even hits shelves.” He smiled softly but quickly wiped the smile off his face.

“That’s okay with me.” You smiled directly at Nikki “As your biggest fan I’d rather hear the finished album before anybody else. I don’t need to know the process” If you didn’t know better you’d say Nikki was blushing.

“Nikki you need to get you a girl like (y/n). Someone like her would probably make you less of an asshole.” Tommy never was good at keeping his foot out of his mouth.

“What’s your fucking excuse then?” Nikki stood angrily glaring at Tommy

“What do you mean dude? I’m all love all the time” Tommy didn’t even seem phased that Nikki was pissed. He was still grinning like a dumb excited puppy.

“Exactly. You’re all love with everyone that isn’t (y/n)” You weren’t ready for this. This could not be happening.

“Why don’t you shut your mouth and mind your fucking business.” Tommy hissed as if you weren’t right there and hadn’t already heard what Nikki had to say.

“You know she knows right? She knows you put your dick in anything that fucking walks. She’s not fucking dumb” Nikki was getting louder with each new sentance spilling from his mouth.

“Guys-” Vince started.

“Shut the fuck up Vince.” Mick finally spoke up “Just don’t get involved.”

“Shut the fuck up Sixx!” Tommy shouted standing up essentially pushing you off his lap and onto the floor.

“You can’t be serious” Nikki laughed humorlessly. “Do you think she’s blind?”

“Why are you so concerned about my fucking relationship Sixx?” Tommy challenged and you braced yourself for the worst, for Nikki to expose everything that has happened between you both.

“I’m tired of hearing you drone on about how great (y/n) is while also fucking groupies. Pick one. (Y/N) or the groupies? Chose now.” Nikki was practically shaking with anger.

“(Y/N)” Tommy started but you cut him off.

“Nikki’s right. I know about everything.” You said quietly not able to look either boy in the eye.

“Listen I will change, okay? We’re gonna get married remember?” Tommy genuinely sounded full of panic and you couldn’t help but feel bad for him. This wasn’t how you wanted to end things and Nikki took that from you. Part of you wanted to forgive Tommy just to punish Nikki for making a decision for you and the other half wanted to pull Nikki in his room and reward him for calling Tommy out.

“Oh Tommy we would never work as a married couple.” You said finally looking up at him and caressing his face.

“But….but I love you” He said sadly leaning into your hand with his eyes closed.

“I love you too Tommy and I always will, but this wasn’t working anymore and we both knew that. All bad things must die eventually” You leaned up and kissed his cheek.

“You’re not gonna stop coming around are you?” He whispered.

“You’re still my best friend Tommy. You’re stuck with me until you guys become super famous rockstars and have to live your own lives and even then I’ll still be your biggest fan” You smiled wide at him and he returned his own smile to you.

“You’re coming to the top with us (y/n)” Tommy laughed sitting back down already having forgiven Nikki without it being said and the other boy copied his actions.

“So (y/n) now that you’re single- OW!” Vince was glaring at Mick who had tossed a beer bottle at him.

“Keep it in your fucking pants for 10 minutes god you all need neutered” Mick grumbled.

The next day the show went even better than anyone expected. You still watched from side stage only you watched from the side Nikki played on per his request. When they finished the show Tommy still hugged you and spun you around, but he was quicker to run off with one of the girls pulled back stage than before and that didn’t bother you. Probably because once Tommy had his back turned Nikki had tossed you over his shoulder and brought you to his dressing room. You squealed when he set you on the arm of the couch but he quickly cut you off with his mouth on yours.

“Sorry I broke you and Tommy up” He said between kisses already pulling his stage clothes off.

“Hey it made my job easier” You giggled pulling your shirt over your head and unhooking your bra.

“Can’t say I actually feel bad about it” Nikki pulled your shorts and underwear down in a swift motion “Fuck (y/n) you’re so hot”

You wanted to respond but he turned you into a moaning mess by inserting his middle finger into you. You arched your back and whimpered. You needed more, but he was enjoying teasing you. You tried to rub his dick to get him as needy as you were and instead he took a step back from you smirking his evil little smirk. He added a second finger and worked you more using his thumb to rub your clit. You could almost see stars and you tried to move your hips to match his hand movements to get there faster. He removed his hand quickly and stepped between your legs. 

“There’s no need to be quiet now” He grinned and wrapped your legs around his waist.

“Fuck me like you mean it then.” You smirked at him knowing he could never turn down a challenge like that.

He filled you slowly for once letting you adjust to his length then he pulled out and entered you again this time at a rough pace. He kept that up for a few thrusts before he picked you up and slammed you against the wall. Once he had you against the wall he aggressively snapped his hips to meet yours the angle hitting you right where it needed to and soon you saw stars as your orgasm hit your body in rolling waves. Nikki continued his movements going harder and deeper with every thrust. You were practically screaming his name when he sunk his teeth into your neck and you felt his release coming. Nikki’s thrusts were getting sloppy and he was even whimpering a little bit and oh fuck you could feel a second orgasm coming. You both came at the same time shouting each other’s names and not giving a fuck who may have heard. As you tried to catch your breath Nikki brought you both to the couch and sat you on it trailing kisses all over your face and neck. You decided in that moment that cigarettes and regret had never tasted so sweet.