#i was HIGHLY offended of their use of AI art in their online capacitation course :))))

[kaoarika]

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I have an entire rant/vent post in my head because I REALLY want to vent about how godawful it is attempting to do *something good* for the elections of my country... only to be sabotaged by the same institution that is SUPPOSEDLY autonomous from the government in turn (and it WAS autonomous! for the last 30 FUCKING years smh, but now it is infested with the government's parasites and I have heard AWFUL stories about the whole ongoing thing).

The one from 2018 was somewaht easy-peasy... this is straight HARD MODE (i really don't want to live the sequel of a pretty bad govenrment... but worse, you get me?)

But also, it's much more easier to do think and write it in Spanish... but also, I really don't feel like dropping everything out in the front, as well.

The whole thing is. However.

I feel betrayed. I went through a little more of a month stressed for stuff that I shouldn't have been stressed in the first place. My body is PAYING for it (I got sick on Wednesday and the less about my tmi situation, the better)... and the thing is FINALLY done in less of 24 hours. I really want to step back... but if I don't do this...?

All I know is that this will be the last time I offer my help to do this. Not under the parasites that are on board and making EVERYTHING of it a disaster.

But I'm very afraid. I'm scared. I don't know how I will survive tomorrow. All I want to do tomorrow, after everything is said and done, is get home, maybe read this week's Undelu, maybe watch something to distract me, and then bed. And then start organizing to see if I don't have smth serious, as it has been eating me for a while.