#i was 97lbs and then i got just horrifically sick out of nowhere and im at 87 now. i dropped to 83 for a bit | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

wizardnuke · 11 months ago

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i understand this is like. objectively a wild thing to bitch about when yr average woman wants to lose weight but it is really so fucking bizarre and disheartening to be asked "how are you so skinny how do you do it" by women who are really honestly beautiful and healthy and i am genuinely so jealous of their bodies' ability to maintain some semblance of body fat. i have to say "i wish i weighed more" and they look at me like i'm crazy and then i have to say "every time i manage to gain 5-10lbs i inexplicably get really sick and lose all the weight i gained and it's a vicious cycle of never really feeling healthy" and that's not the answer they want to hear and they still don't understand why i want to gain weight and like. hhhh. makes me sad. i love you you're so pretty and i am chronically ill

#eating disorder tw #just in casies #i was briefly at about 105 at some point in hs when i was really athletic and it was predominately muscle #i'm at around 87 rn? this is not a good thing? do u understand that ur body needs food and fat to survive?#do u know hooow exhausted i am on the daily because my body doesn't have any extra energy to burn #i'm just sick and this is how it presents dude. and ABSOLUTELY not to speak over how horrifically that fat people r treated by doctors but #for three years i told my doc i wasn't able to gain weight and am never hungry and she never stopped thinking im anorexic #took an ER visit a new doctor several more visits to find a med that helps with The Tummyaches and i'm still struggling #i was 97lbs and then i got just horrifically sick out of nowhere and im at 87 now. i dropped to 83 for a bit

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