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basalting · 3 months ago

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after jasons death bruce "accidentally" slips harvey a crowbar while hes in arkham and kisses his cheek and says, voice soft and colder than ice, "make him hurt for me honey"

it takes 6 guards to sedate and drag two face off the joker the next time two face sees him and for the rest of their lives as soon as harvey sees the joker he goes after him like a rabid dog.

#harvey voice: you know why im not killing you jokes? cause you can only die once and i want to hurt you so much more than i want to kill you #jason was harveys baby too after all #spent my entire boring work meeting thinking about how robin!jason bruharvey would end in the joker dying no matter what bc of two face #this is all bruciemilfs fault btw. theyve been making me insane about bruharvey #bruce wayne #harvey dent #two face #also bruce doesnt tell harvey to kill or not kill the joker bc he cant request someones death #but he also cant make himself ask for his sons murderer to be spared #i dont think any version of bruce would be comfortable with openly planning someones death let alone actually doing it #but after jasons death he gets so cold and numb to everything that he just turns away from it #he knows hes being too violent.knows hes hurting people too much but the only time hes not remembering how small jasons body was in his arms #is when his blood is roaring in his ears during a fight. maybe if he becomes the worst monster in gothams shadows #no more little boys will go cold and silent. no more fathers will stand in the doorway of rooms that will never be full again

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bunnieswithknives · 3 months ago

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erm can we see more deer dale he's so silly

Deer Dale!!! Now with full antler face like I initially intended but could not figure out how to draw at the time

#you get a healthy mix of silly and horrific body horror with this one #fop #fop nature au #fop a new wish #dale dimmadome #dev dimmadome #fop dale #fop dev #body horror #art #digital art #fanart #wanted to do some mini frames of deer dale sort of like deliriously nuzzling dev #but since hes ya know covered in antlers Dev is just sitting there terrified that if he makes one wrong move hes gonna get skewered or wors #(that wouldnt happen often btw he'd be mostly too scared and erratic for that but i thought it would be a nice one off visual)#its kinda an apt summary of their relationship tho i think #even if hes not malicious. even when hes trying to be as gentle as he knows how hes still hurting dev or almost hurting dev #I think about the ep where Dale mentions his time in the lemon factory implying that hes trauma dumped to dev about it before #like my man. your son is not who you should be loading that information on to. get a therapist.#all this to say that i do think deer dale tries to avoid hurting dev and even tries to be comforted by him but like..#you are like a 400 pound animal blindly stumbling around covered in spikes #you cant tell your own CHILD you dont love them and then expect them to take on the burden of comforting you #again hes not fully there when hes a deer but this is all very metaphorical or whatever

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your-fuccked-up-dad-volume100 · 19 days ago

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Hey (With the intention of being murderously obsessed and possessive of you).🔪

#I’ve been standing in the shadows of my little mouse’s dark room for a while now. I’ve been watching her sleep #watching her breathe. I’ve been debating whether I want to touch her or not. Whether I want to wake her or not. I approach #approach her bed and slowly pull down the comforter covering her perfect body. She’s curled up on her side and wearing only a white silk br #No other man could fucking touch her. Her body #her mind #her soul #her very being were mine and mine alone. She was my little mouse I’d made sure fuciking knew she knew it.#And every fucking one. and make her fucking mine again and again and again #until the only name she knew was mine #Alll I wanna do is stick my cock in that dripping wet pussy and claim it #Manhandled Lifting your arms above your head open them legs. Don’t make me restrain them oh I can assure you you will wanna make that #pussy a personal throne for my face but if you wanna so badly we can always make it happen now lil mouse #this sweet lil pussy deserves to worshiped growls run you know I love chasing you.#Grips yoiur throat squeezing it does it tie you on knowing I hold your life in my hands her pussy gets so fuckinvwet when she’s scared #I kkow you love it the way o make this sweet lil pussy feel showing you knew religions like I’m your god #cnc brat #desperate slvt #cnc daddy #daddy's good girl #bd/sm daddy #edging and denial #edging kink #cnc knife play #brat taming #bratty #bimbo training #bimbo doll #bimboification #needy slvt #slvt training

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martyryo · 7 months ago

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long hair marla long hair marla long hair marla lo

#fight club #fight club 1999 #artists on tumblr #illustration #marla singer #she's my comfort character ok #I'm getting her face features better I feel so good #actually I felt kinda shitty all day #existential dread caught my ass again #me when I sleep only 3 hours #man what the fuck was I thinking back in elementary school when I initiated the blank nights sesh #I want to sleep so badly but my body doesn't want to #I just wanna have silly dreams let me be #anyways #drawing marla calms me down everytime #I love her the courteous love way #martyryo #won't be much active aside from posting art also

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chrliekclly · 11 months ago

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charden is v important to me bcuz they recognize their traumas n each othr...

#charden #chardennis #charlie kelly #dennis reynolds #iasip #always sunny #fanart #mine #my backstory for this is its around uncle jacks bday nd bonnie is once again letting him stay w them to celebrate (:\)#so charlie comes to school lookin rough probs stayd up all night nd huffd glue jst coping nd den Knows tht type of rough #nd kinda wordlessly comforts him in a free moment....#im such a ffag #n e way this is how im imagining them as hs seniors #T kickin in fr charles....im fully nto th tboy (/nb) charlie headcanon by now #im forcing myslf to dra bettr cuz i like charden sooooooo much #nd want to b able to draw em a bit oldr than i draw mac nd charlie...nd my stupid cutesy artsyle isnt good @ that #but now den looks TOO old i feel like lmfgkjhng i struggle #ANYWAYS hi im posting another draft i had 👀#still hoping to color my comic soon. last day of the job today! my body is destroyed from it :')

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bixels · 8 months ago

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So I l’ve been getting into your ko crisis story lately (it all sounds rlly awesome btw) and i was curious - you’ve said in the tags in a previous ask that ash is comphet, so is that gonna play a major role in her character arc/journey in any way?

Yeah, the story basically covers her journey of redefining her identity as a queer Asian-American disabled woman in a sports-entertainment industry, which is a media landscape that specifically targets, exploits, and fetishizes people like her.

#ask me #itsthequeercryptid #i don't have much more to say on this cuz as of right now it's in like. early early development process and i'm not a queer woman so #i don't have much authority to say how i want this part of the story to go. even if it's my story i don't wanna set anything in stone yknow #but like. ashley's arc is realizing that she's been performing to appease people both in and out of her life. as both a daughter and a #pro boxer. and that she shouldn't have to force herself to be someone she's not. which in the story continuously hurts her #she doesn't need to validate her existence and find worthiness as a disabled and queer woman #especially to other people #one story beat i drafted is that ashley nearly gets s/a'd by a potential agent (keep in mind the project's inspired by psychological dramas #thrillers like utena and perfect blue) and it's one of the first big moments that causes her to have a crisis of identity #growing less and less comfortable in her skin - both organic and nonorganic - as she realizes how her body is perceived/ exploited/#/objectified as a vehicle for inflicting and absorbing violence. both physical and sexual. especially by men #and near the end of the story the beat is reflected/flipped when she comes together with noora and it's gentle and intimate #but again this is all very iffy. i'm not sure how appropriate this would be as a male writer.#i'm waiting to work with other writers who are more knowledgable on this before moving forward with anything

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sergle · 1 year ago

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I feel you, its so bad 😭, I had to go on a functioning adult human schedule for school and good god, out the house by 7am... bad bitches are not built for that..

WE REALLY ARE... and man, I can brute force myself into any schedule if there are things that HAVE to be done at certain times (like school, like you said) but it absolutely never feels "right". it feels like waking up at 3am to go to the airport type of shit. and it is truly so annoying... to get hit with the "that's a Normal schedule, you need to Fix your schedule" okay. alright. but let me hit you with this one. is it "normal" or is it just conducive to a 8 - 5. because no matter what my sleep schedule is like, or how locked in I am, I'm more clear headed at night + more productive and energetic. and no matter what, I'm tired during the day, especially the brightest times of day when the sun is allegedly supposed to be signaling my brain to be awake and alert. and it doesn't matter how much sleep I got.

#I can wake up in The Early Morning after going to bed at a reasonable hour the night prior and be exhausted throughout the daytime #and if I make it to the night then I'll suddenly perk back up. if I woke up at 7am that morning (with 8 hours of sleep under my belt)#I can comfortably stay awake until 5 or 6am that very next morning.#I need to Adapt to the daytime schedule- but if I loosen my grip on myself at all I will instantly SNAP back to the nighttime one.#full rubberband moment.#I don't need to transition back into it. my body just wants to click it back in place #I'll go right back into the swing of it as soon as I'm allowed to again #sergle answers #also I don't have trouble sleeping in daylight hours. yeah I have the curtains drawn in my room #but they aren't Blackout curtains. it's dim in there but not Dark. that doesn't impede me at all #it is crazy the way that people are so confident in telling me to my face that I'm on a bad and lazy schedule #bc they are categorizing my wake-up time as 'sleeping in' bc they're measuring it on their standard of when THEY go to bed.#i could go to bed at noon and wake up at 3pm and they'd say that i slept in

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nyatbinary-81 · 9 months ago

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@vulpixisananimal sifstem art jumpscare!! more specifically i got bored and decided to mess around with sif and mal's outfits.

#my art #this is how I think theyd present themselves either in person or in headspace. the slouchers <3 #sifs outfit is simple; the boots i always give them (but with star laces for funsies); loose sweater; simple pants #the pants are Meant to be jeans but isat doesnt Specifically Have Jeans so. theyre just Pants.#the sweater is slightly looser bc sif doesnt seem like a Form Fitting Clothes kinda guy to me but hes Trying to be more open #on particularly good days theyll roll the sleeves up or wear a sleeveless one methinks #even if everyone Knows abt the self-harm scars its hard to Look at them.#i also associate them being more open with them not wearing an eyepatch. esp bc hes the only one of the three to go without it #for mal (or 'ami' as i like to call it) i wanted smth reminiscent of a mourning outfit bc mal du pays means homesickness #and i picked 'ami' as a nickname bc ami means friend :] at least according to my basic translator. i dont speak french <3 #ami's outfit being dark is also reminiscent of the inversion thing its got going on in canon.#ik the veil is starred in the original but i think ami would want the fewest reminders of home. on account of The Issues #(actually if i can come back to sifs laces sif also has issues with reminders of it bc of the memory loss but the shoelaces are His Choice—#—which gives them a form of control over it and they can keep it subtle or undo it if he wants. which makes it easier)#anyway. i put amis hair in an updo and smoothed the hat bc i think ami wants to be Unremarkable. Unknown. so it keeps its silhouette Simple #(it still keeps the pins. theres smth comforting abt them. they shine like stars and theyre not stars and theyre not Home. but theyre You.)#and i kept the long hair i gave loop. dont ask me why its so long when the canon hair is short. maybe their hair kept growing over the loop #OH and i drew ami in a side profile bc Silhouette and also bc i think itd make an effort to keep people away from its blind spot #andddd i think thats about it? plus i actually managed to keep this one within a reasonable timeframe.#if their hair changes lengths/the proportions change between drawings. no they dont 💛 peace and love and body craft #OH AND YOU FINALLY GET TO SEE WHAT I MEAN ABT SIFS BOOTS BC THESE ARE THE BOOTS I GAVE THEM ON MY REGULAR DESIGN ARENT THEY NEAT #i did actually try to give sif a different font but nothing Works for them like the pixel font. i cant explain it.#i think 'ami' would be a nickname that mira gives it. bc. shes Fantasy French. and its a sort of 'youre more than your yearning/loss' thing #me every time i think abt sifstem: yeah they just rotate in my head. nothing major #me every time i talk abt sifstem: oh hey im almost at tag limit again #au Good what can i say

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whack-patty · 4 months ago

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Buster Moon but he got GOT by The Thing

Lol

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pawl3ss · 4 months ago

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Just watched the newest tadc episode

#pawl3ss #shitpost again #tadc #the amazing digital circus #zooble is too relateable #“i dont like those stupid removable pieces” when i tell you i felt that personally #no im not a lego i cant remove my body parts but like... idk how to explain it i dont rlly want it to turn into a vent #maybe next time. ANYWAY #i also love the thing that kinger and pomni had #it honestly hurt me but also felt so... comforting? idk #also i got the soul scared out of me :D i honestly didnt think it would be that scary so i didnt expect that type of creepyness #i feel so bad for kinger rn too :(

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skitskatdacat63 · 11 months ago

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"Death is nothing, but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily."

+ process(tw blood)

Also, look at him, bloody little guy 🥹

This drawing was inspired by several matador pics :D here and here:

^ I don't think I'll ever live up to the second one ah. There's several pics of that specific guy just soaked with blood, and I'm uh a bit obsessed with then ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW OKAY! But I've not drawn blood in a while so it was a bit difficult so I added less than I would want to I guess. Also I'm obsessed with how often they kneel in bullfighting?? Like okay who are you arching your back and spreading your legs for-

#ah not 100% sure abt this one but i think i still like it!!!#i was practicing matador poses during the wknd and im like yeah should prob paint one #and then it felt like all the energy left my body djfkkglg i was like ugh how do i paint again?????#mostly: just really wanted to draw him bloody #i love how every time i draw him in ferrari colors its just the most eye bleeding thing ever #my eyes get too used to it on my ipad's display and im like aw this isnt red enough :(#and then i transfer it to my phone and it feels like the red suddenly is hurting my eyes even worse djfkkglg #im glad the blood turned out well. i honestly think it was probably easier bcs the clothes are red already #but yes yes suffering ferrari nando. hes my comfort character atp 😭😭#perfect catie drawing: depressed ferrari fernando. blood. napoleon quote #anyways yeah lmk! i think it looks okay?? idk i think i just love the first 2 matador drawings i ever did #and its very hard to live up to them. but whatever. we move on #im glad i did a more complicated pose at least ?????#also god i was somewhat annoyed w his face and then i redrew his eye and it was like OH OKAY suddenly good okay #tw blood #<- i would put this drawing under the cut but like. my blog i do what i want and i want to draw blood #i used to draw bloody stuff a lot more but ah idk less opportunities now sjfkkglg so it was kinda nice #catie.art.#f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #matador au

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quietwingsinthesky · 1 month ago

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i have not formalized in my brain if (or how) jack exists in millieverse but if he did millie would teach him to play cards and take jack hunting normal-style with him

#spn oc #i lean ‘immaculate conception’ jack who spawns in because lucifer really *really* wants a kid to prove that he’s better than god. and #because he wants a kid generally. but mostly to one up his dad.#if so i don’t think jack is ever like. millie’s son. i don’t think millie would think of jack like that.#jack is exclusively ‘lucifer’s son’. jack’s relationship to millie is… less structured?#he’s not millie’s son and millie’s not his parent. but millie would take him in and look after him. it’s just. parental would be a strong #word for it. i think millie would call jack his responsibility. not like as if jack’s a burden. affectionately.#i think if it strays familial than millie does not default to thinking of jack as his son. i think he defaults to thinking of jack as his #little brother. which is its own can of worms. but it’s a relationship structure millie is more familiar/comfortable with than parent-child #(millie voice) this is my little brother jack. we aren’t related. this is his dad lucifer who i fuck on occasion. have shared a body with.#got entangled forever with by choice more than circumstance. again i was not involved in giving birth to jack. lucifer did that.

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themoonunderstoodmydadjokes · 4 days ago

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#I’m gonna say a bunch of stuff and y’all can just ignore it #because I know it’s a momentary feeling #and I’m also on my period and pmdd is being a bitch 🥲#but I feel like I need to be so strict with myself in taking care of myself #somewhere between last summer and the end of last year I gained like 25-30 pounds and I don’t love it #I feel constantly uncomfortable in my body and my weight fluxes so much that my clothes don’t always fit like I want them to #I had to change my entire outfit last night because pants that fit a week ago #were now so tight and uncomfortable when zipped up #and it’s not just about how it looks on my body but also I just don’t feel healthy??#idk if that makes sense lol #but I need to be more consistent in working out and not binge eating my feelings all the time 🙃#you can ignore this and I’m not by any means hating on my body #I’m proud of how she’s carried me #but I in turn need to be more kind to her and take care of her #and I also want to feel comfortable in my own skin again #okay done yapping now #mine #text post #tw weight

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possamble · 8 months ago

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Do you have any plan to make some kind of bonus chapter or oneshot about marcille's perspective in little creature? It's not like I'm asking you for it ofc!! it's just that i think it'll be interesting to read, and especially since you had those tags about marcille after her fight/outburst with falin and how you couldn't add it to the fic because the fic is from falin's perspective

Probably not about anything that happens during a little creature, but maybe something before or after? Sometimes I do like to do "the other character thinking back to events while doing stuff in a sequel" oneshot type thing, but we'll see how it shakes out!

#asks #a little creature #i will say #Marcille was firmly in denial and just Not Thinking About Her Feelings #the dinner scene was the first crack in her self delusion but it was still there #then the last chapter was it finally shattering as she saw Falin kissing someone else and experienced Elf Shrimp Emotions #just insane intensity furor and jealousy #she was about to fucking blow up #and then the confrontation happens and shes literally in shambles #cant think everything hurts #just barely scraping enough braincells to thank kiki inbetween enormous hiccups and sobs that shake her entire body #sees laios. slaps him. collapses into his arms sobbing and apologizing again #he cant actually understand what shes saying through the blubbering but hes doing his best to comfort her #to be perfectly honest im not 100% she even has the space to process 'i have feelings for falin' in full clarity #the 'why did seeing her kissing someone else make me feel like i wanted to die or kill someone' doesnt like... click #not until she gets over the mess of 'how could she say that to me didnt i do enough'#'didnt i love her enough does she care so little for me that she cant even bother to think about how i feel'#'does she care so little for me that she doesnt know that i would die for her i HAVE died for her and killed for her'#'how could she not know that she was nothing less than my whole reason for living for so long'#... i guess thats what shes blubbering at laios but it just comes out as like #'howcouldnbwhebwsbebwbendoesbdhemotbbwkowbblblbllvlbl'#snotting into laios's shirt #its ok. she'll be ok. like laios has to carry her back to her room because she latched on and didn't let go until she literally like #cried herself to exhaustion and passed out.#but she'll be okay. after maybe another day of moping she finally has her White Woman Moment of looking at herself in the mirror #and admitting that she's in love with falin and has been for a while

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bodyhorrors · 2 months ago

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thinking abt the mlp infection au again….. (for those of u who don’t know, it was a fad where ppl would draw my little pony ponies as scary monsters haha it was great) and …… now im thinking. What if this oc… had a little brother or sister who was experimented on and stuff…. And the oc busted them out of a lab but !!!! If the experimented on human doesn’t consume human flesh / gets too hungry they turn into a scary monster ????? Idk man

#ooc.#delete.#body horror 🫶‼️#the oc is very jaded and quiet and only loves her sibling…#she prob kills for them too… brings them food #idk #I could revise this and make the sibling a vampire who needs to feed #aaaaaaa #the oc constantly has to watch over their sibling bc #they don’t want them turning into a scary monster and getting captured again #idk I have to work it out #it’s out of my comfort zone fr #but hey #I need to challenge myself #pondering the oc orb

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phagodyke · 4 months ago

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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man #thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking #mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they #dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done #listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life #i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this #once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i #dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this #ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be #i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about #how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being #given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out #entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please #its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have #to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once #and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general #feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this #but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is #i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired #i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if #i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore #i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr #and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning #my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better #it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood #my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it #cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen #.vent #ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.

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