#i want friends but im also ✨anxiety✨

[jamieeeeee33333]

Real

perpetually stuck in the purgatorial 'just mutuals' state, never reaching the heavenly heights of 'best friends' </3

[princessmaeee]

{ All For Us }

The title will maybe change cause at first it was supposed to be a one shot, But it will be a multi part things.

Im really obsess with Thanos ( T.O.P ✨) And I litteraly watched Squid game for him.I necer watched it before. But anyway, back to buisness, I let you a summary of the whole thing it gonna be. Also be award : English is not my first language so im sorry for the mistakes ☠️

Thanos x Pregnant reader, but it’s new.

Y/N accepted to be part of the gamr to get money for her futur family and lat every debts she had since she met Thanos two years ago. He cheated on her and learn just after they broke up that she was pregnant. Meeting him again in the game wasnt part of the plan. Will you be able to stay alone, survive and keep your little secret ? Or will you admit you need Thanos by your side.

Smut will come, but not for this part. I will tell you when ✨

TW: Mention of drug, Violance.

You was Awake by a music who gave you creepy chills. It wasn’t a literal creepy song, more like something you could hear in an attraction park or something, but you it gave you a bad feeling. The light in the room was to bright, it took you time to adapt.

Looking around you, you noticed a lot of bed, many people and all dress the same. They all had numbers on their back or on their chest. 

You take a look at your hoodie to know your own number ; 017.

Staying in your bed you try to remember what happened. A guy gave you a visit card after you played a game with him. But he also gave you money when you won. Lucky for you, you always were good at Djaki, so You won at your first try. 

Slowly your memory came back. You accepted to play games to earn a lot of money after finding out you were pregnant.

Biting your bottom lips, you put your hand on your stomach. It was still small inside you, but you will need money to raise the child, especially after all the debts your ex boyfriend let you. You was a saint in that story. After all,a part of your debts are caused by you addiction to drug and alcool. It all started two years ago when you met him. He changed you, probably for the worst, but you loved him so much. You lost everything cause of him, cause of your addiction. Your parents dont want to ear about you anymore and your friends didn’t want to hang out with you. You lost everything for a stupid dumb and addict wanna be rapper. 

Thinking about all of this brings tears to your eyes, but you quickly whipped it. You refuse to cry again cause of this stupid dude.

The big door opened and guards wearing a pink one piece entered the room, armed with guns. All the attention was on them at the minute they arrived. They explain the situation you was all in. Some of them had questions and it was all legit. No one had their phone on them or any other personal objects. In your case, you didn’t really care. No phone mean no social media, no text from your ex or anyone who could harass you to got their money. Your only concern is when you gonna be home, maybe you will find a dirty appartement cause some of them will have bursted in.

Your eyes got on the Tv when the guard start to show some people here, call their name and say how much in debts they are in. You wasn’t really interested until your ear his name ; Choi Su-Bong. 

Your eyes started to scan the room, looking for him. Anxiety rushed in your veins, heart pudding until you saw him. He was in the crowd with his usual purple hair. 

Your hands started to shake, your breath was quicker, heavier. Normally when you felt that way, you took a pill to calm you down, but you can’t anymore.

Nervously you started to bite your fingernails. You closed your eyes and took a deep breathe, trying to control the anxiety. You silently cursed any gods out here or whatever other dinities to had put your ex in the same game as you. What was the fucking chances ? 

But at the same time, you weren't really surprised. He has double or triple the money you have to repay.

After everyone had a little more trust in the guards, they asked everyone to come to sign a paper about the four rules of the game. Nervously you get in line with the others, far away from Thanos. When it was your turn, you read the rules carefully and sign it.

The next step was the picture before the first game. You placed yourself in front of the camera and gave a small smile when the lady said to smile. It was more an anxious smile than a real one. After the picture you was on your way to follow the other but turn your head when you eared thanos voices. He was with a big group of girl and some guys for a group photo. Of course, even here he was popular. Even here he had to play it cool. If only they all knew who he really was. The only nice thing you could said about him was how easy he can connect with people. Something you would like to have. You never was the shy type or the kind of girl who was afraid to say what’s on her mind, but you’ve been called rude more time than you can remember ; Until Thanos

Two Years ago

You come out of the University after another endless class. You just go your last exam result and it was not what you hopped for. You could already ear your mom yell at you and saying how much you disappoint her, after all the money herself and your dad put in your scholarship, how you should study more. You never really was good at school cause you never liked that. You parents expect you to become a lawyer but you don’t give a shit about that job or the laws. Your passion was somewhere else. You love music, drawing, painting. You are more of an artist person than the big brain kid. If you keep going to school it’s only because you know art doesn't pay enough. 

That Night, one of your friends wanted to go out to celebrate her birthday and you agreed to be there for at least some hours, cause you needed to go back home to study harder before the next exam. It’s in this crowded bar you met Thanos. He was there, on stage, performing, rapping, having the time of his life. You were at the Bar, waiting for your order and the one your friend did when you had eye contact. The lyrics of his song felt like he was talking about you. Your cheeks became hot from embarrassment. When the drinks were ready, you took it and go back at your place, giving a last look to the rapper.

You don’t remember much of that evening. Your friend invited you but she also invited other people you didn’t know and you never was good to interact with strangers, so you stayed quiet most of the time until the barmaid came to your table with a shot and a little note. You looked at her confused.

«-I’m sorry, I didn’t order this, you said. -It’s from Thanos, she reply with a smile before leaving.»

The little group looked at your, surprised.

«-You know Thanos ? -No ! Who’s this guy ? -The hot guy who was on stage most of the night ?! What’s the note about ?»

Your friend took the note, red it and smile at you.

«-Girl, believe me, take that shot and go see him. -What ? Are you insane ?! I’m not taking something a stranger offered me, what if he put drugs in it ? »

You take back the note and read it. It was an invitation to come see him in his V.I.P room. You rolled your eyes, take the shot in your hand before leading your way to this famous Thanos room. You quickly saw him sat at a table with pretty girl and some dude, playing cards. Without any hesitation you put the shot on the table and look at him, not giving a damn shit about all the other around who looked at you.

«-Hear me out Mister infinity stones, that was nice of you for the shot, but i’m not the type of girl you can buy with that. Especially since I don’t know what you could have put in it.»

A smile appear on his lips before he made a move with his hand to invite everyone to leave the table. When you was alone, he got more comfortable in his chair.

«-I just saw a Beautifull flower in the crowd and wanted to know more about you. I didn’t expect you to react like this, but It’s way more entertaining than the usual.-The usual ? You do this often ? Find a cute girl, invite her over with a drink. -Not often and not in this exact way.»

I got up and get closer to me.

«-Now you’re here I can do a proper introduction.

He slowly took my hand and kiss the top of it

«-Hi Seniorita, i’m thanos, nice to meet you.»

Back to the Present

When you arrived outside, or something who looked outside, the doors behind you closed and in the other part of the room, you noticed a weird, giant, doll and two guards. The voice of a lady started to explain the first game you gonna play ; Red light, Green Light. At least, this first game sound easy, making you smile, but it quickly fade away when a guy screams and find his way out of the crowd of player, saying the doll gonna kill us if she cought us moving during the red light moments. Many of them didn’t took him seriously, but even if it’s sounded crazy as fuck, you started to shake. Maybe the fact you didn’t took any sort of drugs since a long moment didn’t help, but it wasn’t just that.

The game started and the man in front of the other gave us direction. You gave a look at thanos who was with a pretty girl. You growl from annoyance. This guy didn’t lose his time. 

One lost but he found ten other ones.

So far the game goes well until the pretty girl close to your ex start to scream and moving. She seemed to want to chase away something. When she stop moving by herself, a fireshot was eard, making me froze for real. Three seconds later a lot of people start running in panic as the guy in front of you screamed to not moving or panic. It was more easy to say than do. You whole body asking you to run away, but at the same time you was to horrified by the corps who felt close to you, it wasn’t possible at all. When everyone who tried to ran away was on the flood, the game continued. You moved and froze at the red light, hiding Yourself behind taller people as suggested. You turned your head to see if thanos was still alive and it was sort of a relief when you noticed he was. You also noticed he pushed people on the ground. This guy was definitely fucked up. 

Luckily, you made your way to the end, safe. You sat on the floor, tired cause of the anxiety this deadly game caused you and that’s at this moment you eared his voice.

«-Y/N ?! Flower is that you ? Are you for real ?! »

Thanos quickly sat in front of you, smiling at you.

«-Get Lost Thanos. -Yeah, i’m happy to see you too, beautiful.»

You didn’t answered. What could you say ? To many things actually, but absolutely nothing at the same time.

«-Oh come One, are you still ignoring me ? -Did you not eared me ? Get.Lost.Motherfucker.»

You was still mad a him and sad and all the hormones was high in your body. The situation didn’t help. You felt you was about tu cry and got up to go somewhere else but Thanos stopped you by gripping gently your wrist.

«-Wait, Y/N. Please, let me explain myself … -I don’t need any explanation. I saw You. You Cheated on me. There’s nothing more to explain.»

You didn’t faced him. If you will, you will cry and you don’t want him to see you like this.

You was saved by the voices of the women who told everyone to return in the main Room. You took back your wrist and quickly follow the others to go back in the room with all the beds. It was definitely too much emotion for this first day and you started to regret your decision.

[master-muffinn]

Netflix Vikings, random relationship

Ragnar, Bjorn, Floki x g/n reader

Hello! There's not enough fanfiction of the Vikings series so i thought of making these! I hope you like them too! ^^

Ragnar

🪓 He is very protective over you and takes your safety very seriously! You’re important to him and he would gladly take an arrow for you! 

🪓 Ragnar is not really the ‘jealous’ type so you can talk and become friends with anyone in Kattegatt. He trusts you, but he is a pretty curious person so he might ask you what you were talking about? He wants to know too! Is it something interesting? :O

🪓 If you are interested and ask him to teach you to defend yourself Ragnar would gladly do it! But of course not without teasing you about it first. Unless you already know how to fight, then you will train with each other to get stronger together.

🪓 His love language would probably be words of affirmation. Ragnar is pretty good with his choice of words and thinking before talking in order to avoid stupid fights. Whenever you do something nice for him, you will know. He’ll tell you how much you mean to him, how glad he is to see you if you two have been a part and how f**king gorgeous you are! 😏

🪓 If you have kids, he will talk about them more than you, praise them more than you and probably love them more than you! 😅 But see it on the bright side! If you're tired he will look after the kids, “No problem love, go and get some rest! I will take care of the kids!”

Bjorn 

🐻 Is a touch starved, cuddle bug and loves any kind of physical affection! Bjorn is a big dude and holding you from behind is one of the things he does the most. Warming you up in the cold weather whenever you two stand around and listen to people talking in the crowds, or when you're home and have no work that needs to be done and you two can just lay around and cuddle. 

🐻 He also loves to lay his head on your lap and have his hair stroked. It always calms him down from a long day of work. Bjorn also got the best and comfiest bearhugs! 

🐻 Bjorn is a worry wart and constantly worries about your safety if you're not together. Sometimes he asks his mother or father (if they are nearby) if you will be alright, just to calm his nerves and mind down when they tell him: “Bjorn they will be fine!”.

🐻 If Bjorn is out in battle he is always thinking about you and that he will survive to see your beautiful face again. If you're in the battlefield with him, holy shit! He knows you're strong of course, but his overthinking ‘what if’ worry will still be there the whole time and he will be keeping an eye on you a little too much, almost putting himself in danger! It wouldn’t surprise me if you saved his ass instead. Probably what many of your fights are going to be about. But he loves you! Can you blame him?  

🐻 Totally would give you his food if you're hungry <3 “No I don't mind, your health is important to me! I will manage, please have some!" 

Floki

🛠️ Will often confuse you because Floki changes his mind easily, he has probably decision anxiety sometimes. He is unpredictable and you will never really know what he is thinking.

🛠️ Gift giving would be Flokis love language. Floki loves to build objects and wood carve details on his hard work afterwards, which will always leave him so proud! So everything he's making for you is made thoughtfully after what he knows that will make you happy and with enough details so that he will catch you staring and touching whatever perfect object ‘he’ made for you! ✨

🛠️ If you are down he will say funny jokes and move around, make weird faces and make himself look silly. If you still aren't laughing then he will tickle you until the room is filled with laughter! “Hihihi Oohoh y/n i sure do love to hear your beautiful voice! Your laughter fills my heart with joy! A song I want to hear for the rest of my life!”

🛠️ Of course if you're very sad Floki will sit down hug you and be sad with you until you're feeling better. Afterward he tells you how important you are to him, if that will make you happy and smile again. Floki isn't a man who will take your love for granted.

🛠️ Floki doesn't understand why you love and want him in the first place, he questions himself quite often, sadly. You have to be stubborn and patient and also tell him how important he is to you as well! But also give him time and space, because that’s what he needs.

Thank you for reading! Reblogs are very appreciated <3 Have a good day/night! :3

Post made by: @master-muffinn

[platonicmoonwater00]

I see these everywhere. and i mean EVERYWHERE. and also i need motivation so lets go ig

10 notes- i'll drink on weekends too(i forget cos on weekends im just at home and not at school lugging around my frank green in my tote bag)

20 notes- i will(try to) pay attention in class

30 notes- i'll watch my whole watch later playlist on yt

50 notes- i'll actually do the techniques im learning in ✨therapy✨ to help with my anxiety and shitty social skills

75 notes- i'll take my iron tablets every day

100 notes- i'll start my assessments when i get them(i have one due tomorrow which i was gonna finish now but i'm doing this apparently)

125 notes- i'll ask my crush to hangout alone during spring holidays

150 notes- i'll try to go for a run or at least a walk every day

500 notes- i'll write another chapter of my fanfiction

1k notes- i will actually make an effort to get clean

2k notes- if i see someone pretty that i want to go out w in public i'll ask for their number cos holy fuck i need to put myself out there. even if we js end up being friends cos holy shit im lonely

3k notes- i will actually finished the dress i started making

4k notes- i will try to get over my crush cos its ✨never gonna happen✨(she so pretty and masc tho its gonna be hard)

5k notes- (this is so far up here cos idk how to do this so im gonnna need a lot of time to figure out how) im gonna try to demolish the rumour that im gay thats going around a bit.**

6k notes- i will finish all my crochet projects and not start any new ones until im done.

**context. i go to an all girls school and theres a lot of people so its not like everyone knows everyone, even in my year(theres approx. 174 in my year alone, and theres 6 year groups at my school cos high school is 7-12 where i live) but some people know me ig cos i know a few girl who are more notable, im in the top class and i recdntly started sitting with a group that the popular girls call furries.

(theyre a pretty big group and popular girls hate them cos one or two of them are trans - ftm, ftnb etc, no mtf cos my lovely/s catholic school wouldnt let trans girls in- several of them are gay, a few of them are emo, most of them are poc's and a few of them dont have english as their first language. overall they are seen as the "weird kids" in my year)

so this rumour apparently is going around that i like a girl in my class(i absolutely do but if you havent noticed my school is hella hoomophobic and i could very well get beat) which js isnt ideal and is gonna lead to a lot of issues, especially if a lot of people start believing it so if you guys have any advice pls lmk. and its not like i can js get a fake bf and show him off cos its a GIRLS SCHOOL. if i reconnect with a friend from primary school tho we could pretend to be dating and like make a post on social media. but then kids at his school would find out and hed either have to tell them its fake(which would eventually find its way back to my school, and when i say eventually i mean immediately) or he couldnt get a girlfriend so that probs wouldnt work.

i know it sounds like im making a mountain out of a molehill but ive got years to go here and i dont want to spend all my high school years getting bullied bc even if i went to a teacher about it or smthing id have to like analyse them first and try to figure out which ones are homophobic or not.

like learning about why "being gay is a sin"(pretend im saying that really mockingly) is literally in our curriculum.

holy shit that was longer than expected.

no pressure tags: @wishiwereheather13 @loserboyfriendrjl @fracturedsunsets @chasingthemoony @stars-and-leather @starsofleo

thats all im doing idk how you guys can stand js copy and pasting moots over and over i cant do this i did the first six that came up and that seems like enough 🤷‍♀️

begun doing

going to do

finished

[rins-batcave]

i saw @starz-rambles do this so im copying lol

would you be proud of me if you were my parent

wins a lot of awards but also kinda failing life

depressed

eating disorder

anxiety, so muhc anxiety

sometimes anger issues

i stay in my room all the time

complainer

transgender

picky eater

swears a lot

online friends

very insecure

plays kids games

barely goes outside

sh sometimes

tired all the time

barely sleeps

does shitty poetry

addicted to writing

advanced yet somehow mediocre in math

pretty ok grades ig but prob want over 95's

muisc

nerd

serious

faggot

addicted to green tea and canva

collector of trinkets

mildly addicted to my phone

chronically online

screen time that scares

reader of many books

bows :3

pretty ok at archery ig

rock climber

probably. should be more active? so like lazy ig

can brush teeth sometimes

need ice water

liked by most teachers

not a trouble maker ig

fashion ✨

[sollucets]

tag game for @khaopybara !! thank you for thinking of me i needed the boost 💜

1. why did you choose your url?

my url is from ‘sol lucet omnibus’, a latin phrase that means the sun shines for everyone. a lot of my urls & usernames and whatnot are sun themed, so this is just another in a long line. for a while it was ‘solclaw’ while i was in a werewolf phase. but i dont plan to change it again

2. any sideblogs? name them and why you have them

ahhh…. the secret come out. i guess? i have two sideblogs. @jinjjayo is my kpop sideblog, which i have not advertised having so far but does exist. i also have @solref, which is just where i collect tutorials & other reference stuff.

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

not consecutively, i took breaks, but my first blog was made in 2011. :0 i’ve had three main blogs over the years.

4. do you have a queue tag?

i do! i don’t use it often but i tag things that are queued with ‘ghost post (queued)’

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

the original one, i made because my cousin recommended it to me. we shall not speak of its url. this current one was made when i started seriously writing again (thank u rasmr <3)

6. why did you choose your icon?

i love ayluna. my babygirls. that’s all there is to it lol. im also quite fond of the lil stars i edited in

7. why did you choose your header?

i did a lot of work to edit the scene’s colors for my lfls episode series, so i wanted to keep that and use it for one more gif haha. also i love them terribly

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

it is currently this set of the 3wbf trio doing their puzzle piece hugs, at just over 1000 notes. 🥺 im happy they deserve it

9. how many mutuals do you have?

73! i know this because (and i am aware this is embarrassing) i keep a notes document of my mutuals with names & tracktags, so i counted manually. that is,,, thats a lot of you. i love you all very much 🥹🥹🥹

10. how many followers do you have?

i have just over 900 followers. ._. wild

11. how many people do you follow?

i follow 155 blogs. i try to keep the number down but there are simply so many beloveds.

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

sure lol. ive done textpost edits, and that disney only friends thing, and etc.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

i check at least once a day. usually more though

14. have you had a fight/argument with another blog?

noooo. i never have. i always just blocked people or we drifted apart. i love to block though

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

i think it’s counterintuitive. people don’t like being ordered around, so a lot of folks will instinctively scroll. then the ones you do get are often because of anxiety, so it feels cruel. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just ask normally / say please reblog this

16. do you like tag games?

why ask this at #16 of a tag game lmao. yes of course. doesnt everyone love to overshare

17. do you like ask games?

yes very much. it always makes it feel more lively. i try to play when i have the time :>

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

ouuhh, mona @thitiponqs probably, hehe. all member of usergif and gay dot tumblr dot com and everything else. everyone should know mona u.u everyone is famous in my heart though.

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

no! >< it isn’t personal. i don’t have crushes very often. certainly you are all very lovely and cool, and i’ve had mutuals follow me who i had to go scream into a pillow about after for sure, but. it is all quite platonic im afraid 2 say. would still be happy to make out though

20. tags?

i will try! i choose u @markpakin & @lamonnaie ✨

[yurki-posts]

Do you have any oc?? :0

(Not talking 'bout ur persona, im asking like-- an oc or sssstory w ocsss?? lmao---) 👉👈💐

YEESSSSSS I DO!!!!! I have many, many ocs buuuut I lost the pictures of most of them and they don't have a real story yet- so imma just share some of them who I have pictures for and also a little of lore! (please god im begging for the guys in the discord server not to find this or im fucking dead)

Ocs under the cut! (It's quite long and messy so be prepared for lore dump in the second half because it's my personal favorite)

First we have my main oc and the first one I created all by myself! (which means without external help like a character maker or dress up game); Vinn!

(credits of the art to my irl bestie I luv ya!!!)

As you can see, they're a colorful ball. His desing is obviously based on Polandball/Countryballs, where the countries are balls with white eyes. Originally they were going to be their own countryball but I decided to use him as a persona for many years until Yurki came in ;)

Don't let their colors and cuteness foul you, they were banished to hell after burning down uncountable villages and forests. He was obsessed with fire in such a sick way, he was often called an arsonist (rightfully so) by the passersby.

Once in Hell, they lost most of their already damaged mind. They set Hell itself on fire and flames, and before he could reach the last corner of it, he was captured and kicked out of hell, and found himself in a new planet ready to be set on fire with their flamethrower, although it would bring many surprises he couldn't have ever imagined.

That's pretty much a summary of their lore. He loves fire (what a surprise!) and they are best friends with the element of fire of that universe. They don't have many abilities that aren't just advantages of being a ball, but he can breathe fire if that's something. Their story actually continues but it's all written in spanish so I doubt it's even worth to link it here lol.

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And now...We have many here that I actually do want to work on but idk how to write lol

They're made in Gacha Life 2 if anyone wonders why they don't look drawn.

So in the pictures we have a couple of them, but I actually don't have names for anyone but the green one because I SUCK AT NAMES.

So... anyways the green one is Stunail. The Moth girl is his cousin who has social anxiety and the Butterfly is his older sister. The two dragons are caretakers of a botanical garden and they're friends with Stunail and his cousin.

In that universe, humans are mixed with bugs and other kind of species. There's no racism, but golly there is a lot of specism (discrimination against other species. Not to be confused with Speciesism. Yes I just made that first word out). There's special hatred towards "dirty" and "useless" species, such as Snails, Flies/Mosquitoes, Cockroaches, Rats, and a few more.

Some of them are banned in public spaces in the most specist regions (which are fortunately very few) and have a hard time getting employed, and if they do get employed they usually get paid less than a "normal" species. Some are seen as dangerous and scary, and others as a waste of air and useless to society.

Ofc it's not super obvious at first sight, but it's the subtle things that makes the specism stand out. Looking weird at them, sitting somewhere else if they sit next to you, put your children to play with a different kid in the playground, ignore if they're talking, avoid them if they're seen.

I'm unsure of what this story would follow, but I think it would be about Stunail proving the world that their and other hated species can be as capable and "normal" as any other species, and that they shouldn't be discriminated for their mere existence, and have the same rights as the rest of the species. Alongside Moth Girl's character development where she manages to, slowly, heal from her trauma and social anxiety.

Ohhh and here are some ✨side charaters✨ I also made

The only one with a name (again😞) is the mermaid, Merman! (although I might change his name because it's a little plain). The sheeps are twin brothers, the squid girl is an important administrator of the Eastern Ocean Empire, and Merman is the Monarch of the sea species in the Western side of this last mentioned Empire.

I plan for all of them to connect in one way or another to Stunail and his friends, but I still need to figure that part out "- -

Damn that was a lot of yapping. Hope whoever read all this liked it ^^ I appretiate any opinions about this last one specifically because it's something I actually wanna end up doing somehow.

(Please suggest names im begging on the floor rn)

[navyonpaws]

▀▄▀▄ ᎪᏴϴႮͲ ᎷᎬ ▄▀▄▀

𝐍𝐚𝐦𝐞: Navy

𝐀𝐠𝐞: 17

𝐁-𝐃𝐚𝐲: 12/04 (12 of april)

𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐬: It/its/that/itself, Him/his/himself, xe/xem, paw/pawself, Void/voidself, pup/pupself

𝐒𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: Omnisexual & Demi-AroAce

𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫: TransMasc and XenoGender (wont say all my xenogenders cause there are a lot)

𝐈𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐲: Otherkin & Fictionkin.

𝐀𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬/𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐬 𝐢 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐮𝐬𝐞: KidCore, Clowncore, psychological horror games (alice madness & fran bow) , NatureCore, Etc...

Hii! A little more about me here: I have anxiety, ADHD, OCD and Schizotypy (⚠️ALL DIAGNOSED BY A PROFESSIONAL⚠️), Im also probably in the autism spectrum (still trying to get a test done, but everyone refuses :'3), I discovered that im an Alterhuman a year and some month ago!. I have a dog and a hamster, im an only child, and im dreaming of getting out of digital design and study animal biology! ✨

Talking about my identities, here my kintypes 🤭. (Im going to call my existing kins "Theriotypes" for less confusion)

TᕼᗴᖇIOTYᑭᗴՏ:

Iberian Wolf, Iberian Ibex, Barn Owl, River otter, Singapura cat, Golden Tiger, Tiger shark, Saluki & Borzoi.

KIᑎTYᑭᗴՏ:

Wyvern, Indoraptor, Hazelmask (Ockin) & Wolbyt (ockin)

ᑫᑌᗴՏTIOᑎIᑎᘜ:

Jhin, Jinx, Naafiri, Canine/Genu- Therian canines/dog, Indominus Rex & another type of dog.

(Also wanted to mention im a 100% psychological Alterhuman! And i have no beliefs on spiritual things, yet respect them and find it interesting to learn)

𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆:

Drawing, horro games, psychology, videogames, analog horros, VHS, nature, swimming, quadrobics, roleplaying, shell collecting, watch videos, hanging out with friends & learning more about my hyperfixations.

𝑫𝒊𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆:

Disgusting people, annoying people, big hypocrites, intrusive thoughts, trauma dumps, excess of color white, to much noise and light, being interrupted, being ignored or not being listened.

ᗯᕼᗩT YOᑌ ᗯIᒪᒪ Տᗴᗴ Iᑎ TᕼIՏ ᗷᒪOᘜ/ᗩᑕᑕOᑌᑎT:

Mainly, me talking about my Alterhuman experience! So expect "cringe" and a lot of weirdness! I will also post sometimes art, since is one of my hobbies and things i enjoy, also expect for me to publish photos & edits! Maybe also some quadrobics videos and masks made by myself! ^^✨

Please enjoy my content, btw, any hate comment will be deleted or blocked! Have a nice day!

⚠️DNI: -14 y.o, Homophobic/Transphobic people, Pro- israel, anti-Therian/Furries, Anti-Neo/Xenopronouns, MAP/Pedo's, Zoo's & people who don't respect boundaries!⚠️

[glngrbred]

Here's a legit hot take I am gay, and trans, And I highly doubt I was "Born this way"

so here's the context I always felt completely separate from the community around me, being school, mainly because i was undiagnosed Autistic (was born like that). Throughout my whole life I was ostracized by my peers, and made to feel different weather teachers or students meant to or not. When I went to middle school, I had already decided in my head that I was attracted to men, Because I found out about porn and was sort of afraid of women's bodies (i'll get to that). At the time, That middle school had developed a problem with children pressuring each other to identify as something, and there was a general fixation on sex (cuz its middle school) So, at the time I identified as Asexual, because my peers accepted that. Also because i didn't know how to feel/how i felt about attraction. On the attraction thing, I started googling stuff about atraction, because I wanted to figure mine out, Im like 90% sure me looking up gay porn and straight porn in my own time shaped my attraction. I disliked straight porn because they were mean to the women in it, and also i didnt understand women's bodies, and I liked gay porn because it seemed like everyone was having fun, also i liked the penises in both. And then i started liking jAking*off. to gay p0rn Part of my discovery of my Identity with being gay was just one day deciding that I would have more fun Identifying as a gay guy than I would a straight guy. And eventually I decided that I would come out the next time my brother was homophobic, to try and get him to stop being so crass. It worked.

On the trans Side of things, I was getting sort of bored of always being called a boy, and I envied the way people respected my trans friend's gender, witch is obviously a trans-coded thought process, and I realized that If someone told me that, I would think they were trans, so I'm trans now., So one day I just decided that having a pussy would be fucking sick, and then i effectively started socially transitioning.

Suddenly, My family Identified with me being Gay, and eventually Nonbinary, and since I use any pronouns they never struggle with my identity, and I'm just in a new box compared to everyone in my family, Hooray! now their perception of me fits my own!

My point is, If i had not been socially ostracized and made to feel different, I would not have Identified with being different. and sure Maybe one day I would've figured out I was queer in some way, If I even cared, Cuz ima be honest, If it wasn't against my identity and awkward in that way I'd be fine *Dating* women. And honestly, My life story In the AU where people were nice to me is significantly nicer and less anxiety inducing, so i wouldn't have felt the need to change my social position in order to fit other people's needs and fulfil my own social needs.

If any of that made you think I'm not really gay or trans, newsflash, I don't give a fuck, cuz i use she/her pronouns and it makes me happy, and I think men are hot, and that makes me happy. I'm happier as the weird social slop I fit myself into, over weird kid everyone bullies, and also people treat me significantly better now that i have an

✨✨Identity✨✨

Wild right? anyways I truly think that part being queer is just a social role/decision, and for me personally, that narrative fits :)

[we-dont-talk-about-potato-nonono]

hi potato!!! omg im not sure if we're mutual yet but i love your art a whole lot!!!!💗💗💗💗 and you're also in brba/bcs fandom too?? that's awesome!!! hiii!! do you perhaps have a brbabcs oc? I'd love to know!

(or, if you dont have, maybe you want to make it..? 👀 abby can them can be friends...)

hey there! yeah im a huge fan of Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul, but not really active in this fandom… i typically just lurk around, reblog and enjoy the silly memes on YouTube. if i feel inspired, i’ll just draw the characters (mostly jimmy & kim cuz im so normal about them ) and then bail. my squishy brain can't stay in one fandom for too long, it's always jumping around to another new interest. im glad you like my art ❤️ you got a beautiful drawings too!

oo your ask inspired me to create an OC for BCS/BRBA! here she is! her name is Joy

she doesn't have much details and backstory yet, but im planning to flesh her out more if im not busy with other things.

with how messed up the brbabcs world can be, figured that putting my OC as a Los Pollos Hermanos employee would fit right in. she’s also Lyle’s close friend! let’s just hope she doesn't face as much tragedy as the other characters lmao

gonna put on read more for the question about being mutuals because this post is already long ⬇️

[shaking and crying rn i hope i don’t upset anyone..]

so.. uhm im very picky about who i actually follow & follow back because i need to limit it for the sake for my dashboard. preferably id have to REALLY like and rather follow blogs that i vibe & familiar with the contents that i want to see than something… i dont really want to look at 🙏 this is just how i curate my experience

in general, i also dont feel comfortable with others dming me personal things and it feels anxiety-inducing. unless it’s a specific topic like art discussion about drawing tips, ocs design, request, art trades, collab and maybe commission

im SO SORRY 🙏 🙏 it’s nothing personal i swear, really! and im letting yall know that i will always recognize and remember all the people who consistently ✨ like and reblog ✨my stuff and you're all honorary mutuals to me even if i don't follow you back and i appreciate you all sm!!! <3 i go bounce bounce seeing everyone being super sweet in my notif

if yall interact often and you’re super nice in the notific you’re already a mutual for me! 🩷 sending me question and art suggestion never bothers me! i love to talk, get to know and interact more with people in this lovely app! :)

thanks for the question!

[peach-thekid]

[fandom literate rp ad] i'm back in my hunger games phase, don't @ me

just when i thought it couldn't get any worse from rewatching the trilogy, i have now fallen back into the pits of panem after watching songbirds and snakes tonight… sorry in advance friends 🤡

heyo! my name is talia! i'm a 24yo female in EST timezone! former theatre kid, wannabe author, just a silly lil guy tbh. i'm looking for, you guessed it, hunger games fandom rp! this is a specific craving and i'll admit fandom rp is not my forte so i may not follow the "norm" oops. i just want to find a collaborative partner who really vibes and can be a friend to build an amazing story with in this universe! 🧡

does that sound like you so far? cool, cool, lets proceed

🏹 rp style and looking for: 🏹

daily/weekly replies, i have a lot of availability as of right now

18+ writers, character ages will have to be discussed due to the fandom canon, but just dont be creepy gdi

third person, past tense

literate to novella replies. i can go anywhere from 2 paragraphs to exceeding nitro count, depending on scene needs and inspo. quality > quantity tho!

romance is a must. m/m and m/f couples are my preference!

OCs only! canon charas can be discussed but not as mains. i also don't double and i don't do canon/oc couples, i'm sorry ya'll i know this is a deal breaker for some

obsessed with faceclaims, pinterest boards, spotify playlists, an organized and fun server, literally give me all the aesthetics and let me fangirl i am in desparate need

no SFW limits, i'm an open book and probably too desensitized

NSFW-wise, i am like 20/80 in terms of smut/plot. i am totally fine fading to black, i am fine to write it as long as it fits and serves a purpose, but i dont do erp and i don't focus on it as a necessity to a story

ghost friendly, if it isnt a vibe it isnt a vibe. if we are an amazing fit then you will be stuck with me forever but i'm just a stranger on the internet as of right now so no hard feelings

not a canon nut, so open to changing or expanding as we want. someone open to not be a stickler for every canon detail would be cool, obvi we will follow it but i'm ok to add or adjust as we decide!

OOC chatter is a requirement, i am someone who wants to be your friend. idk how some of ya'll just be writing and not being annoying OOC i cannot do it

due to preference and previous experience, i am currently only looking for femme/afab writers, i hope you understand :)

🏹 HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUT: 🏹

OCs before katniss era, childhood friends then one moves districts and they get reaped and reconnect

mentor/OC relationship (a younger mentor who won when they were far too young and are now mentoring their best friend from childhood after abandoning them?)

our own spin on canon with OCs implanted into the original trilogy story, like a spinoff of sorts?

capitol x district or peacemaker x district

ensemble casts are ok too im vv open!

tbh i would love to write our own hunger games and include some canon cameos and make our own arena and have a beautifully tragic story and cast, gimme all the darkness and angst and violence and tragedy and moral dilemmas and deep character bonds and impossible happy endings and fights and spectacle just - we can do it, that's all i'm sayin' 👀

i've attached my writing sample below! despite the casual OOC, i promise that if we're a good fit, our stories will be full of nothing but effort and a mild obsession/hyperfixation ✨

contact stuff 📱

if you are srs please reach out over discord. i do not check tumblr enough i'm the worst so i would love to get notifs bahaha my username is: muppetmania

i'm a lil picky (and full of anxiety) so please tell me youre from tumblr, a bit about yourself, your rp style, what interests you about this, and a writing sample ofc, that would be so gucci of you i will give you a big hug 🥰

may the odds be ever in your favor or whateva whistling sounds

[yours-truly-oz]

♡ Intros, Tags, Boundries, DNI ♡

{ Hey . . . Can you hear me ? }

This blog is run by Your Living Doll! {🎀✨🪽}

Hello! My name is Ozzy, but you can also call me Wren, Silly, or Smile

I'm the host of our sys, i am a non-introject, I'm Laurian, Aceflux but primarily grey asexual, And Gender fluid. I sign off with -Oz If there's no sign off it's also me.

Intros/pronouns, tags, boundaries, and DNI are below!

{ Neurodivergencies and others! }

OSDD-1B { no blackouts but no emotional connection to other alters memories }

RSD { Rejection sensitive dysphoria }

ADHD { Combined presentation }

C-PTSD { Childhood PTSD }

ASD { Autism Spectrum disorder }

ARFID { Avoident Restrictive Food Intake Disorder}

GAD { Generalized Anxiety Disorder }

Inara/Octavia is our co-host and peacekeeper, doll is Aroace, Angelenic, Angeldollgender, and Female { 😇 }

Noa/Doe is my (host) personal protector, non-introject/non-human. Berry is agender, Aroace, and Heteroflexible. flower signs off with {🍓}

Quincy/ivy is the little and a split from host. She's Agender, Dollgender, and Snowstarthing along with others. Ice signs off with {🪽}

I use Light/Shine/He/She pronouns but it changes so just use they/them or you can ask.

Inara uses She/Light/Shine/Angel/Doll pronouns and they/them is ok to

Noa uses Berry/Flower/soft/they pronouns. Please dont use he/she for flower

Quincy uses She/It/doll/Ice and her neos change depending on her mood.

{ We're all friends , aren't we ? }

I do:

Random posts

Things i find interesting

Posts answering questions (sys/alter or other)

Alter Faceclaims

I won't do:

Answering questions im not comfortable with

{ I can't exactly greet you with my full hospitality . . . }

My Boundries:

Don't ask for people to front unless I specify its ok

Don't Fake-claim or ask to see "proof" of anything I will just block you

My DNI:

Basic DNI stuff! { Racists, extremists, y'know }

No endos/tulpas/supporters please! I dont need protectors getting into fights with you about wether its valid or not

Anyone who uses ""Sysmed/Traumascum""

Here to just start fights

MAPs/Zoos/Zetas

Terfs/Transmeds

Credit to @lovesick-nagi for the basic layout of this intro (if you don't want me using this or feel uncomfortable i will take this down if you want me to)

[gamerwoo]

Hi!! So I’ve wanted to send an ask for a bit but I get ✨anxious✨ but I’m currently sick and have my period at the same time so I’m just delusionally scrolling through tumblr in pain at 1am and was like “why not??” Lmfao I’m so sorry for rambling 😅

1st: I LOVE Age-Restricted!! (I relate so much to the reader that it’s actually kinda unfortunate lmfao but also like comforting? Lol) I was very mad at Hyunjin which is RUDE (he’s my ult bias lmao) and I hate reading angst so I was STRESSED but it’s worth it lol I was actually telling a friend about it and they were like “Oh you’re mad at Hyunjin?? They must be a good writer!” And I was like UNFORTUNATELY THEY REALLY ARE 😂😂😂 (so anyway, you’re amazing and I can’t wait to read the rest!!!)

I’m super late to the tall discourse but I’m like 5’9/5’10 (idk I haven’t officially measured lol) and I’m fat so like if I have to read another story where I’m smaller than AND have to look up at Changbin, I may cry lmfao

And lastly, your whole tumblr is just so funny. Your posts and reblogs and talks in the tags are just so great and funny! I seriously think you’re super cool!!

Okay I’m so sorry for all of this, I hope you’re having a good night!!! Thank you for being you!! 🖤

im very late to answer this im so sorry

i soooooooo appreciate this ask!!! thank you for reaching out despite your anxiety. reading this made me smile a lot which is why i kept it in here for a bit dskjfhsdf i've been a little drained and liked having the pick me up lmao

i hope you're having a good day/night wherever you are 💛💛💛

[disappointedcreeper]

also leaving this open tagged

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

yeah, maybe a bit strained but good

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

fuck I don't remember TwT

03: Do you regret anything?

yes I regret everything /hj

04: Are you insecure?

yep :/

05: What is your relationship status?

single but like I'm aroace

06: How do you want to die?

Peacefully and painlessly after I accomplish my gials

07: What did you last eat?

i think some banana bread

08: Played any sports?

nah

09: Do you bite your nails?

yes sometimes

10: When was your last physical fight?

probably not since i was a kit

11: Do you like someone?

yes? I like all of my friends

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

dont think so but I have pulled all nighters before

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

several world leaders

14: Do you miss someone?

yeah...

15: Have any pets?

yes and she's such a good girl

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

idk kinda meh

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

ew no (not that people making out is gross, just me doing it would be)

18: Are you scared of spiders?

some yeah (like the venomous ones) mostly their cute though

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

yeah

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

what the fuck is that lemme look it up rq

What the fuck never

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

i mean weekends ove

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

no unless pets count her

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

no

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

Math and science

25: Do you miss anyone from your past

yeah

?26: What are you craving right now?

ice cream

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

probably not

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

yet aagain: ariace

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

✨im aroace✨

30: What’s irritating you right now?

the fucking crumbs in my chair (I will never learn)

31: Does somebody love you?

platonically? yeah. romantically? almost certainly not

32: What is your favourite color?

blue

33: Do you have trust issues?

yeah kinda

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

something about becoming a fox in some way (don't remember much)

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

my dad

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

maybe

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

idk probably forgive

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

hell nah, I'm ✨so burnt out✨

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

never

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

no

51: Favourite food?

cant choose

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

almost certainly not, even if there is some higher being there is definitely some stuff that just happens

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

draw I think

54: Is cheating ever okay?

i ddon't know???? I'm probably the last person to ask for relationship advice

55: Are you mean?

yeah I think so

56: How many people have you fist fought?

0

57: Do you believe in true love?

i mean love ccan only be a lie if you're trying to trick someone into thinking you love something or someone

58: Favourite weather?

probably when it's overcast

59: Do you like the snow?

heck yeah but my human form is not meant for being in it

60: Do you wanna get married?

no. (except maybe for tax benefits)

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

what about nonbianary folks huh? why not just say someone, why are you not inclusive, huh?

anyways no

62: What makes you happy?

a lor

63: Would you change your name?

abso-fucking-lutely but I have no clue what I would change it to

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

seriously what is up with these questions

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

politely decline

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

dont see why sex matters but no I don't have any friends like that (social anxiety makes it like impossible for me to do that in person, hooray)

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

i ddon't know why does it matter??

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

probably my dad

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

idk I have no clue how people feel about each other or how relationships work

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

hell no death is horrifying

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[allpossibilities]

☁- I’m worried you only RP with a certain group of people.

☄ - I’m super anxious about EVERYTHING

I've already sent you stuff, but I'm really anxious. I am worried about to upset you or piss you off. You seem to role play with a niche/certain group of people. I feel like I am intruding on an already established group of writers, including Anu, Sierra, and Bean, etc. I hope we can be friends and role play partners, but I am worried I am overstaying my welcome/butting in where I am not wanted. (Sending on anon, as 1- I'm too much of a coward to come off anon. 🥺 2- You wouldn't want to be honest if I was off anon.)

hi! ✨ as an anxious person myself, i totally get it. but genuinely, writing with me is noooot worth the anxiety, ask anyone. i don't intentionally only write with a certain group of people at all, it's genuinely just a coincidence if it ever comes off like i do. i'm just sporadically active, so when i am online i generally gravitate towards plotted things that i have because i'm most excited to write those things. that doesn't mean i don't want to write the other things, but i'm a mood writer so i try not to force myself to write things that aren't calling to me.

you're also not going to piss me off or upset me in any way if you just send me things, interact, etc. i write jayce for a reason, i'm also an attention whore. i love validation. so that's nothing to worry about.

i write mostly female ocs, so being ignored in the rpc is very familiar to me, so i never want to make anyone feel like they can't approach me or write with me. i'm not in a clique, i just like vibing and writing w/ my friends. and making new friends! most people i write with are new friends. we've just plotted. because i have multiple blogs and i'm usually mobile during the day i'm usually on different blogs on my phone throughout the day so discord is really the best bet of interacting w/ me ooc! and that's always available to mutuals.

long story short, i love writing, i want all the plots all the time. never feel like you can't send memes, or like starter calls, or message about random plot ideas. i love to hear 'em! i just might not be on this blog. or sometimes tumblr eats ims. so it's all over the place. but it's never anything personal!

i will say that i am a little bummed that i come off as someone who would lie. or that i'd just get pissed off at anyone reaching out to me. i do try to prioritize honesty and being open, particularly since i've returned to the rpc. but i guess i have some work to do! i hope this helped alleviate some of your anxiety, anon! 💛

[galacticgrimoireofficial]

Hi hope your having a great a day✨

Sprry to bother you but my question is

Will i ever meet my crush?

Im not a stalker I swear💀 im just too anxious to talk to him😭(mostly cus im struggling with social anxiety 🙃) like what if i mess up😭 ik hell understands cus his like really kind and emotionally mature wich are some of the things I like about him but that doesn't stop me from overthinking

Im asking a really simple question im not asking if he's gone be with me or not cus as much as I like him wich is a lot!! I don't really want to delude myself into like pursuing him(confessing my feelings) mostly bcz I feel like that's gone make him uncomfortable and I really don't want to😭😭 like I feel so bad if I told him I liked him cus hes like soo perfect(hes a libra) and where just soo diferent in general like our styles and personalitys and just everything and I feel like im not cut out for him 😭😭

i just want to be with him platonically even if I like him I just think my feelings for him aren't strong enough like I don't think of him lustfully and I think thats bad cus all the other girls think of the guys they like about that yet i don't so I dont think i really like him even tho i do😭😭 idk maybe its cus im still a teen like this is pure love and admiration based love and so I dont think im fit for him

Also I just want to spend more time with him and be friends cus hes someon I really like and idolize and I hope I'll learn some things from him cus hes such and amazing person

Anyways im soooo sorry for the long rant 😭

I really hope you answer my ask i just really need a little push to push me out of my comfort zone and I hope your going to give me one(PLEASE(j/k)🙇🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️)

Anyways My initial is T and my moon is in Aquarius ♒and my sun in sagittarius ♐

Hope your day/night is going great😘😘

Sending love and positive vibes✨✨💖🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️

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